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    If I Die

    By Rachel Vincent

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    The entire school's talking about the gorgeous new math teacher, Mr. Beck. Everyone except Kaylee Cavanaugh. After all, Kaylee's no ordinary high-school junior. She's a bansheeshe screams when someone dies.

    But the next scream might be for Kaylee.

    Yeahit's a shock to her, too. So to distract herself, Kaylee's going to save every girl in school. Because that hot new teacher is really an incubus who feeds on the desire of unsuspecting students. The only girls immune to his lure are Kaylee and Sabine, her boyfriend's needy ex-girlfriend. Now the unlikely allies have to get rid of Mr. Beck before he discovers they aren't quite human, either.

    But Kaylee's borrowed lifeline is nearing its end. And those who care about her will do anything to save her life.

    Anything.

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherHarlequin
    Release dateOct 1, 2011
    ISBN9781459213968
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    If I Die
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    Rachel Vincent

    A native of the dust bowl, Rachel Vincent is the oldest of five siblings, and arguably the most outspoken of the bunch. She loves cats, devours chocolate and lives on flavoured coffee. Rachel's older than she looks-seriously-and younger than she feels, but remains convinced that for every day she spends writing, one more day will be added to her lifespan. She maintains a website as shown above, as well as an active blog at urbanfantasy.blogspot.com Rachel loves to hear from her readers via her email: rachel@rachelvincent.com

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    • 5/5
      By now I’m used to something freaky and supernatural going down in the very first chapter of a Soul Screamers novel, but I was surprised regardless! It’s great that Rachel Vincent can keep astonishing her readers five books into the series. If I Die is a roller coaster ride unlike any I have ever read before – the protagonist knows she has less than a week to live and finds out that her Math teacher is preying on his female students. This is an emotionally charged book that – unfortunate for Kaylee – hurtles towards its conclusion and leaves readers breathless at the end.The most interesting aspect of the novel, for me, is how Kaylee deals with her impending death. Many of the characters remark, with confusion, that she takes everything quite well. There’s no screaming or raging. Kaylee wants to spend her last few days with her family and friends and ensure that the incubus preying on her fellow classmates, including her best friend Emma, is stopped. A welcome, and natural, source of support is Tod, who has a much larger role in the novel than previously (which I loved because I’m Team Tod all the way). In contrast Nash, who I believe hit rock bottom in the last book and couldn’t disappoint me any further, started digging.On a more personal note, the news of her death brings to the forefront everything Kaylee will not have the opportunity to do, and one of the things she decides to experience is sex. Rachel Vincent handles the issue very well, balancing Kaylee’s helplessness and her desire to be in control of one aspect of her life with the concerns of her friends about making a decision she simply isn’t ready for. I have found that Rachel Vincent has handled the issue of Kaylee’s virginity throughout the series with candour and respect and, above all, realistically, and am glad to find this hasn’t changed.There are a few things I didn’t like in this book. Keeping Sophie out of the loop is doing no one any favours – not only is she in constant danger, but she must be extremely confused because she knows there is something going on, but has no idea what it is. Although I find her attitude towards Kaylee repulsive I understand where the impulse comes from. Similarly Kaylee’s efforts to keep her best friend Emma in the dark proves more dangerous, time and time again, than just letting her know everything up front. Finally, Kaylee’s attitude towards the relationship between Nash and Sabine is both inexplicable and wrong, in my opinion. She and Sabine make a deal for Sabine to inherit Nash as a boyfriend, and possibly Emma as a friend, after Kaylee’s death. These are people we are talking about, not possessions!This book certainly delivers! Rachel Vincent has packed a lot into this fantastic book, and its conclusions had me reaching for Before I Wake, the next book in the series, immediately. If you haven’t started this series, you are seriously missing out!You can read more of my reviews at Speculating on SpecFic.
    • 5/5
      Oh my God. Ohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygod.

      Okay, now that I got that out of my way… This book was SO good. I got a slow start due to life obligations getting in my way (stupid life obligations, lol), but once I got a chance to really read, that’s all I wanted to do. It’s a good thing I’m almost done with this series because it’s interfering with my sleep!

      When this book starts, we find out that Kaylee’s new math teacher is hot but not human, and Tod informs her she’s going to die in 5 days. Kaylee knows that she can’t do anything about her impending death, so she decides to try to make things better for as many people as she can before it’s too late. At the same time, we see her struggle to accept it and those around her try to do anything to stop it.

      This book was excellent in its execution. As I feverishly flipped the pages, I had so many questions going through my head: What is Mr. Beck? How can they stop him? Can they stop him? How will Kaylee die? Will she die? If she doesn’t, who will be the one to circumvent it and how? What will happen if she does die? Will she become a reaper? What’s going to happen to Emma? Will Kaylee ever love Tod as much as I do? It seems like a lot, but they all get answered, and it’s amazing!

      I really love the interaction of all the characters in this book, and there were some scenes that had me ready to scream “Yes! Finally!”, but I can’t spoil it. It’s so very hard not to, though, because I want to jump and dance and scream (in a good way) about it!

      There were two twists at the end that I completely didn’t see coming, and both had me in tears for different reasons.

      I have said this for every one of Vincent’s books since My Soul to Keep, but this is definitely the BEST book so far! 5 very overly enthusiastic stars!

      This review is also posted on Mommy's Reading Break
    • 4/5
      For more reviews, Cover Snark and more, visit A Reader of Fictions.Whoa. I knew this series got better at a certain point, based on ratings from trusted reviewers, but it’s still startling to go from steady 3 star books to a much higher rating. I’ve been waiting for Vincent to bring it, and she totally did. If I Die gets a bit darker and raises the stakes. Also, it’s a much more emotional read than the previous ones.Up to this point, I really never had any feels about the Soul Screamers series. I’ve enjoyed it, but my black heart felt nothing in particular. Here, the feels appeared. Surprisingly enough, they were pretty much all romance-based. I say surprisingly, because I wasn’t sure how I felt about the romance and from a logical level I’m still not entirely certain. What I can say for sure is that Vincent does a really good job setting up the switchover to Tod. I still find the love triangle with brothers frustrating and am a bit disappointed that she and Tod couldn’t continue to be good friends. At the same time, they’re very shippable. As you can tell, I am conflicted.The reason this works so well despite my complex feelings on the matter and the source of the feelings is the truth bombs Tod drops left and right. Tod has seen a lot through the course of the series, and he’s gone from a fairly passive observer to a major player in the game. His arguments for why he cares for Kaylee and for why they’re better suited than she and Nash are accurate. In fact, Kaylee suddenly becomes a lot more likable once the door closes on her and Nash. It’s shown that they’re not necessarily a good couple, though they wanted to make it work. Free of him, she’s a better person, more free to carry out those impulses she always had to argue with Nash about throughout the whole book; he never wanted her to help others or risk anything, but that’s the kind of person she is.The plot follows along the standard mystery lines of the other books in the series. The difference is that the mystery has a more personal impact, because, at the same time, Kaylee’s faced with knowledge of her own impending, irreversible death. I think the plot was also helped by the fact that the adults weren’t kept out of the loop this time. The other books felt a bit like child’s play, no matter how dangerous, because, ultimately, there was always a cavalry of trained adults they could bring in if shit hit the fan. In this case, the adults were informed and the outcome still didn’t look bright.If I Die had two main downsides. The first is that I totally called the ending in chapter one. Not every detail, but it was pretty obvious how everything was going to resolve. The second is that things do turn out rather conveniently. The ending could have been much more heartbreaking. Then again, this has been a fairly fluffy paranormal series, and its fans wouldn’t have been pleased with the sort of bleak ending I would have loved.Reading the Soul Screamers has now paid off. I only hope this quality can be sustained through the next couple of books, or even improved on.
    • 5/5
      Oh broke my heart, and then made it all better !
    • 5/5
      Rachel Vincent is something else.I just...This book was simply so awesome and had me all the time either laughing, crying, or raging. Most of the things that happened shattered everything we've been reading since the very beginning, and I mean that in the best way possible. Vincent had me laughing in the middle of my tears.
    • 5/5
      SO MANY EMOTIONS !!!!!!
    • 4/5
      Amazing, I’m hooked. Can’t stop reading. Excited for the next chapter
    • 5/5
      OMG!! KAYLEE AND TOD TOGETHA
      I do feel bad about Nash though
      He's a good guy,and I personally believe SABINE is wrong for him
      but overall...man,what a story it was!
    • 5/5
      Rachel Vincent has done it again.

      If I Die is the fifth book in the amazing and ever popular Soul Screamers series. Never before have I heard of the killing off of the main character without ending the series...yet Rachel did it, and she did it in style.

      Kaylee Cavanaugh, a bean sidhe who sings for people's souls when they die, learns that she's going to die in a week. How? She's on the reaper list.(Specifically the special list, which means she has no second chance exchanges) Which brings me to Tod, who is the local reaper. Tod is simply amazing. From book one, I thought Kaylee should have been with him instead of Nash. In book four, I was mad at Tod for being mean to Kaylee, but I was still Team Tod. Now, in book five, Tod is put into the spotlight and revealed in all his glory. I don't want to spoil it, but let's just say that Team Tod has just become much happier now!

      Now, plot wise....pretty epic. I know Rachel said that it was hard for her to write the book following this, Before I Wake, because it was really hard to top If I Die. I don't blame her. This book was pretty amazing. Simply knowing the main character is going to die is a pretty big plot right there, but executing it the way she did was simply amazing. I thought I had the ending predicted from back to chapter five or so...but I was wrong. And then TOD! Oh, I nearly cried. (It's really cruel to play with the heartstrings of fans. D:) So, needless to say, the action and plot was amazing (even if just the teensiest bit predictable).

      As for characters, they were just as awesome as ever. Kaylee has evolved and I like her better than I did in book four. Nash has stayed the same, which is nice that someone is consitent. He does get pretty bad at the end but it still follows the path Nash would've taken anyway. I'm glad he didn't chance, and I'm also glad he's out of the picture. Sabine is badass as always. Tod...amazing. That's all I shall say.

      I thoroughly enjoyed this book and I can't wait 'till June for Before I Wake!
    • 4/5
      This remain me a lot to vampire diaries...The man that the heroine date was not the man she ended up with....LOL
    • 5/5
      What would you do if you had only one week to live? Kaylee Cavanaugh is about to find out.

      When reaper Tod informs Kaylee and her father that he has just seen Kaylee’s name on the next reaping list, everyone is suddenly faced with the fact that Kaylee has been living on borrowed time – and that time is up. While Kaylee’s father tries to get Kaylee an extension, Kaylee realizes it is time to get her affairs in order. This means making her school – and her best friend Emma – safer by eliminating the incubus she has just learned is teaching her math class. It also means deciding once and for all what her feelings really are for boyfriend Nash.

      If I Die is my favorite of all the Soul Screamers books so far. Knowing that Kaylee’s borrowed life is about to reach its end, it seemed like this book would be a game-changer – and it is. Two very distinct stories are going on in this installment, with Kaylee and friends trying to save the school from Mr. Beck while Kaylee is also facing her own death. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t more drawn to Kaylee’s personal story than the one involving Beck. Both are good but, since I am so invested in the character of Kaylee, her story is the one that brings me back again and again to this book (I’ve read it multiple times).

      With an incubus as a villain, you can bet this book ups the sex quotient and we get a look at two very important aspects of it – sex for the purpose of creating new life and sex as an integral part of a loving relationship. With so little time left, Kaylee is realizing she will never have a future that involves a husband and children and is beginning to question why she has been reluctant to deepen her relationship with Nash. But sex has consequences, and she sees first-hand some of the worst when she encounters a couple of Beck’s teenage victims. There are some really mature themes in If I Die, and I loved the way Vincent presented them. The awkwardness that can be present with sex was realistic, and I thought Kaylee’s panicked call to Sabine for sexual advice was both funny and touching. Of course, calling your boyfriend’s ex-girlfriend who is still in love with him for advice on sex may not be the smartest move!

      The immediacy of her death may lead Kaylee to plan on having sex instead of letting it happen naturally, but it also makes her question her entire relationship with Nash. Does she still love him? Would they have stayed together if she lived? Is there someone out there she may have feelings for instead? Yes, this is the book where Kaylee decides once and for all between Nash and Tod, and I was absolutely thrilled to have this resolved – especially since she picked the one I wanted her to pick. There are consequences to her choice, however, and a couple are pretty severe and not completely resolved in If I Die.

      Consequences result from Kaylee targeting Beck, as well, and I was surprised how that tied in with Kaylee’s approaching death. The final confrontation between the two was a lot darker than I anticipated, and forced some actions on Kaylee that will have repercussions in the next book. Tod will also be facing consequences for some of his actions in this book; he may have done them to protect Kaylee, but I think they will result in some serious payback.

      Other than Beck there is only one other new character, the reaper who has been assigned to Kaylee’s case – Thane. It turns out he has a history with Kaylee’s family and now is his time to collect. While Beck and Thane are kind of the villains of this piece, I really didn’t get the same sense of danger from them that I’ve gotten in previous books with Avari. I’m wondering if Vincent ratcheted back the danger because death itself plays such a huge role in this story, or if she just didn’t feel the story called for a villain on the level of Avari. We do have a couple of scenes with Avari, but they actually revealed more about another character in the story than anything else.

      I don’t know how she does it with such a serious subject as death, but Vincent still manages to keep things humorous and heartfelt. Emma continues to add a lightness to the proceedings, while Sabine’s straight talk adds an edge. My favorite conversations, though, were the ones between Kaylee and Tod. It was my second opportunity to get inside Tod’s head (the first being the novella Reaper which was told from his point of view) and see how deeply he loves others. Tod just may be my favorite YA romantic male lead currently.

      In a series that continues to impress on every level, If I Die pulls out all the stops and gives us a story where love and death reign supreme. Author Rachel Vincent has never shied away from dealing with mature themes and presenting them in an accessible manner, and this book is no exception. Characters are flawed but real, and their actions will no doubt lead to serious consequences in the future. Kaylee’s life takes a major turn in If I Die and the fall-out is yet to come.
    • 4/5
      Diese und weitere Rezensionen findet ihr auf meinem Blog Anima Libri - Buchseele

      Und weiter geht’s mit Rachel Vincents Geschichte von Banshees und Co… Mittlerweile bei Band 5 (von insgesamt sieben wenn ich mich nicht irre) angelangt, weiß ich ehrlich gesagt nicht mehr so ganz, was ich von der ganzen Geschichte wirklich halten soll. Serien sind für mich sowieso immer so eine Sache. Mal ganz abgesehen davon, dass ich den aktuellen Trilogie-Wahn im Jugendbuchbereich einfach nur nervtötend finde, muss eine Serie schon wirklich gut und durchgehend spannend sein, damit ich nicht nach zwei Bänden aufgebe. Und die „Soul Screamers“-Serie war leider eben nicht immer gut sondern im Gegenteil eher ziemlich holprig und wenig konstant, was die Qualität der einzelnen Bände angeht. Daher war meine Vorfreude auf Band fünf auch nur mäßig.

      Allerdings hat sich das Ganze dann widererwarten als doch ziemlich gut herausgestellt. Das lag vor allem an Kaylee mit der ich vorher hauptsächlich aus einem Grund ziemliche Schwierigkeiten hatte: wegen ihres doch ziemlich kindischen Verhaltens. Mit „Berühre meine Seele“ kommt die Geschichte aber zum Glück endlich an dem Punkt an, an dem Kaylee erwachsen wird – und zwar ziemlich eindrucksvoll. So gibt es in Band fünf der Serie dann auch wieder jede Menge Probleme, mit denen Kaylee zu kämpfen hat, und diesmal scheinen sie sogar noch ein Stückchen schwieriger zu sein, als alles, was sich der jungen Banshee vorher so in den Weg gestellt hat. Das perfekte Szenario also, damit Vincents Protagonistin unter Beweis stellen kann, dass sie ihre Probleme auch auf reifere und erwachsenere Art angehen kann als zuvor.

      Die Handlung selbst hat mich – wie eigentlich bei fast allen vorherigen Bänden – erneut überzeugen können. Allein Rachel Vincents vielfältiges Mythenkonstrukt mit all den fantastischen Wesen, die sich rund um das Thema Tod scharren, ist schon wahnsinnig faszinierend und wirkt auch im fünften Teil der Serie noch frisch und innovativ, nicht zuletzt deswegen, weil die Autorin immer wieder neue Figuren und Wesen einführt und weitere mythologische Geschichtsschnipsel enthüllt. Für Mythenfans wie mich lohnt es sich daher schon allein deswegen bei dieser Serie am Ball zu bleiben, auch wenn die Charaktere bzw. ihr immer wiedermal nervig kindisches Verhalten den Lesespaß bislang leider etwas gedämpft haben. Ein Problem, das aber – wie bereits ja schon gesagt – in diesem Band endlich, endlich ein Ende nimmt.

      Zwar gibt es nach wie vor Verbesserungspotential bei den Charakteren, gerade auf Ebene der Nebenfiguren, aber das Hauptproblem, das ich bislang mit Kaylee und Co. hatte, hat die Autorin erfolgreich angegangen, wofür die Geschichte der „Soul Screamers“ alles in allem 4,5 Sterne von mir bekommt. Denn nach diesem Band habe ich dann doch wieder richtig Lust darauf auch die weiteren Bände zu lesen.
    • 4/5
      4 ½ Stars

      I hate Nash... just saying...
    • 5/5
      Pretty fantastic. Important for the series arc. Recommended for an slightly older teen.
    • 5/5
      Wow. What a difference of book makes. Nash and Todd, holy cow! I did NOT see that coming...
    • 5/5
      Another wonderful book in the series! Vincent has written a thrilling and tearjerking novel with the resolution of Kaylee's and Nash's relationship and Kaylee's dealing with the news of her own imminent death. Loved the ending! Definitely per-ordering "Before I Wake", the next book in the series.
    • 5/5
      I know with every new book in the Soul Screamers series I always say the newest one is the best one and I'm not changing my ways now. If I die isn't titled without the usual My Soul To... , until I read the book I couldn't figure out why, now I know, this book is the game changer. Everything you've become comfortable with in the series was just pulled out from under you, but in a good way. This along with the countdown to Kaylee's end is more than enough to keep you page turning. I didn't set this book down once from the moment I started reading it, it just wasn't possible. The characters are the same we know and love, or love to hate (Sabine) with a few small additions but this story sticks pretty close to home. That is about as far as I can go on this one and still keep it spoiler-free. It's emotional, suspenseful and my new fav in the series. 5 out of 5!
    • 4/5
      Synopsis:The entire school's talking about the gorgeous new math teacher, Mr. Beck. Everyone except Kaylee Cavanaugh. After all, Kaylee's no ordinary high-school junior. She's a banshee—she screams when someone dies.But the next scream might be for Kaylee.Yeah—it's a shock to her, too. So to distract herself, Kaylee's going to save every girl in school. Because that hot new teacher is really an incubus who feeds on the desire of unsuspecting students. The only girls immune to his lure are Kaylee and Sabine, her boyfriend's needy ex-girlfriend. Now the unlikely allies have to get rid of Mr. Beck…before he discovers they aren't quite human, either.But Kaylee's borrowed lifeline is nearing its end. And those who care about her will do anything to save her life.Anything.Review:Wow! Wow! Wow! This one took me down me down a road I didn't think I'd travel on! From the first book I've been rooting for Nash. Even when he showed signs that he'd do anything for Kaylee to make up for the wrongs that he'd done. But I always knew that would take a miraculous event for her to finally forgive him.And when she finds out that she has six days to live there is no way on earth that a make up is possible. And finally she realises that if its not possible to fix, then leave it alone for someone else to.In this whole book, Kaylee acts selflessly trying to fix all of the problems including the new teacher preying on young girls.Ultimately the more you try to fix things the worse the problems actually become, and for Kaylee the clock keeps ticking.I've never been a Tod fan. I've always found him too annoying and interfering to be good for Kaylee. But in this story he's the only one she can turn to who isn't more screwed up than her.As her family and friends try to find a way for her NOT to die, it all comes down to her own testiment of determination and past actions to prove to the makers that her being on the planet is better for everyone...although it might not be exactly how she planned.With the title of the book being different from the other ones in this series this is definitely a curve in the whole dramatic storyline that is Soul Screamers. I can't wait for the next one to find out what happens now....
    • 4/5
      Wow what a ride IF I DIE ended up being. Early on in the book it is revealed that Kaylee is on the reaper list. While everyone that loves her is trying to find a way to save her she is trying to solve the mystery that is Mr Beck before he ruins anyone else's life. There is a lot going on in IF I DIE. Feelings, relationships and unpredictable outcomes make up a lot of the book. If I found out I was going to die very soon I would be a wreck but Kaylee doesn't break down. She takes in the news and keeps herself busy to make sure when she is gone everyone will be ok. There is a lot of soul searching about what she wants, a lot of hard decisions and a lot of heartbreaking moments. Nash, I really grew to dislike Nash after IF I DIE. He is selfish, and self destructive. I can see the pain that he is in but what he ends up doing in this book is beyond forgivable. I have always liked Tod. He is mysterious, and acts all tough but he always ends up being there when Kaylee needs him. I really liked how present he was in this book and how much more we get to know about him. I have read all of Rachel Vincents books whether they were her adult novels or her young adult and I have never been disappointed by any of them. Her writing is addicting, her characters strong, and the situations she puts her characters in are heart pounding. IF I DIE is the best book in the Soul Screamers series yet.
    • 5/5
      IF I DIE is the absolute best book in the Soul Screamers series so far! There are two things I have come to expect from Rachel Vincent’s books. First, expect the unexpected. She has an impressive ability to break genre rules and work outside the box. And second, her books have an uncanny ability of breaking my heart into teeny-tiny pieces. Couples are never promised a Happily-Ever-After and no character is untouchable by death or injury. IF I DIE didn’t let me down.Rachel Vincent starts this book out with a bang. She tackles a very serious life and death issue within the first couple chapters. It hooked me in and couldn’t put this book down. It was an emotionally tough for me to read, but was extremely well written. She handles these issues in a very delicate and real way. It has probably never been said that Rachel shies away from controversial subject matterKaylee has once again found herself sinking in quicksand. Her life is falling down around her. Her friends and family are trying everything they can to help her out of an impossible situation. She has grown emotionally from book to book, and this book is no different. She excepts her limitations, and uses her energy, time, and skills to help her friends and family.As always, Kaylee’s love life isn’t making things any easier. Kaylee and Nash are trying to get their relationship back after some bumps in the road. They are trying to move on, make new memories, and forgive past indiscretion. Then there is Nash’s mara ex-girlfriend Sabine, who is torn between stealing Nash from her and wanting to be Kaylee’s friend. Kaylee isn’t sure if she can really trust Sabine when the chips are down. Not to mention Nash’s sexy brother Tod, the reaper who is always there to help when Kaylee is in need. He has become her white knight, but instead of wearing shining armor he’s dressed in his pizza delivery uniform.Rachel Vincent has a knack of turning her fictional worlds up-side-down, and making them all the better for it. Things happen that I never see coming. She has a way of finding unique and ingenious solutions to problems. This always keeps me guessing. The last few chapter of this book shattered my heart, but gave me hope for Kaylee’s future.IF I DIE is heart-wrenching, shocking, and whispers of new beginnings to come! This book is a real game changer for this series. Bravo Rachel Vincent, you have skillfully develop characters that the readers can‘t help but be emotionally attached to! This book has cemented the Soul Screamers series on my must read list. If you enjoy reading unique and thought provoking Paranormal YA, you should picked up Rachel Vincent’s Soul Screamer’s series!
    • 5/5
      5x5 *with loads of confetti and glitter*I'm not sure if you can tell by that if I really liked this or not... no wait I LOVED this book! Really this whole series started off with a great book then each one just keeps getting BETTER! I'm not sure how Rachel keeps doing it, but well she has it locked down *high fives*Let me just say that Kaylee and Sabine ... totally heart them I about died laughing over their convo's best like/tolerate/hate friendship ever! Kaylee is an amazing character and just keeps true to what she has always been. There are some tough decisions and choices to be made for her this time. Let me just also say at one point *no really two* I thew my book down! One in sheer joy and the other in heartache....GET THIS NOW and thank me later :)
    • 5/5
      Will the real author please stand up? I mean really. If I could give an award for Best Author of the Year, I give to Ms. Rachel Vincent. Not because I am sucking up to her, but for real, her writing is amazing. So amazing that it will burn you with pure awesomeness! I admit that it took me so time to gather up the guts to read this book. Why? I was scared. Why? Let's just say that Ms. Vincent writing is so good, I was scared to read it. I had know idea where she take me next in her writing world, but I knew it would be one hell of a ride. And of course, like always, Ms. Vincent presented a ride I would never forget.As I began this book, my heart raced. I was excited to see what would happen to my favorite characters and where they be going next. I don't want to spoil everything so I am going to keep this review short. Should you read it. Hell-to-the-YES! Read it now! I can say that this book has many changes it. Some good and some bad. All the characters come to a point of enlightenment and change within themselves. I never thought I would feel sorry for some characters. Ms. Vincent writing gives the reader a whole new insight on certain aspects to the characters. Ms. Vincent pulls the reader immediately within her world drowning them. Could I breathe? No. My breathe was short and fast. Somehow, I managed to make it out alive after this book. LOL!As always, Ms. Vincent creates a great plot line. The plot pacing is right on target as well as the characters. My emotions swirled within this book and I may have shed a few tears.If I Die is a book that no reader can put down. Ms. Vincent writing is so smooth you won't realize that you are at the end of the book till its over. The plot, the characters, the emotions, are written beautifully. Carefully chosen exquisite words, brings the reader to a place they never thought they be.
    • 4/5
      Oh. My. Tod. This book was amazing! Killer plot, new evil beings, complex relationships, and a literal life-or-death situation. I absolutely devoured it. And the ending....holy Tod, the ending. I did not expect what happened, yet it was completely fitting. I am so excited for the next installment of this series. One of the strengths of the Soul Screamers series is the cast of characters. There are a lot of them, and Rachel Vincent doesn't forget about them or make them disappear. She weaves them through each story, while also adding new ones for us to learn about. The complexity of several of these relationships was highlighted throughout If I Die. The challenges in each relationship made all the other events of the book more interesting.I really appreciated that Avari wasn't the main bad guy in this book. Don't get me wrong, the hellion is a crazy good villain, but he's been the main one in the last few books and I was eager for a change or a new angle. While not out of the picture, If I Die wasn't focused on him. And Tod. *swoons* It's no secret that I'm in love with Tod, but man, I didn't think it was possible to love him even more. If I Die totally does that. As with the previous books, his presence and page time has grown and I liked what I saw (read?). I won't give anything away, but let's just say Tod delivers all the snarky, quick-witted humor I needed, while still being the loyal, caring friend.Overall rating: Buy the whole series.
    • 4/5
      Review courtesy of All Things Urban FantasyThere is a reason that IF I DIE is the first book in the Soul Screamers series to break from the “My Soul to…” formula. Everything we thought we knew, everything we’d been hoping for, planning for, and partially dreading, changes. This is a series that has been building momentum with each book, breaking rules, breaking hearts (both the readers and the characters), and IF I DIE breaks more than all the previous books combined.I’ve learned from the previous books in this series that the best way to start reading this book was to take all my expectations and chuck them out. The first chapter in IF I DIE is amazing and shocking. There isn’t a single thing I didn’t love about it from Vincent’s delicate but strong handling of a very sensitive issue to dropping the biggest bomb of the series only twenty pages in. I can never predict what Rachel Vincent will do to her characters except that regardless of how unbelievable or even cruel it may seem on the outset, she’ll write it in such a way that it feels inevitable by books end. IF I DIE is the best example of that to date. Rachel Vincent writes incredibly strong and fully fleshed out characters. I never feel neutral about them. I either love them with a blazing passion, or despise them with a white hot anger. Better still are the characters who trick me into liking them before I can think to defend myself (no, not Sabine. I don’t think I’ll even warm up to her). In IF I DIE, the opposite happens. One of the characters I loved from book one slips into the despise camp so slowly that I still can’t believe it happened. Overall, take my advice and ditch your expectations. IF I DIE is nothing like what you think. Some characters shift into darkness and others emerge in delightful new ways. Pain, anguish, danger, desire, and selflessness are all par for the course in the Soul Screamers series, but never in ways I can predict and that’s why I’m so addicted to these books. If I die before BEFORE I WAKE is published in 2012, Kaylee and I will both be screaming.Sexual Content:Kissing. Scenes of sensuality. References to sex.
    • 5/5
      ***spoilers might be present ***So, Kaylee is trying to fix another supernatural entity from invading her world and this one attacks right at school. Mr Beck is the math teacher and is also an incubus. He doesn't outright kills people, but some of his actions are starting to have that effect. Kaylee enlists Sabine to help her get to the bottom of this evil, like being a math teacher isn't evil enough. Tod gets some information on Kaylee that will have you spinning and well, Nash, isn't quite himself again. This one is my absolute favorite of the series. All of the snarky sarcasm, plot twists and turns and wonderful characters are here and so believable that I can die happy now. Everything happened just as I wanted it too, well, almost.Kaylee further develops the back bone that started to grow in My Soul to Steal. It is nice to see her take charge and grow. There is a bit more to Tod than meets the eye and more of his back story starts to come out including one revelation that really explains a lot about Nash and their relationship. I had always thought Nash was not quite right for Kaylee and there was something about him that really bugged me, now I know why. I really hope that the story continues since I can see a whole new direction for Kaylee. When I first heard the rumors about Kaylee and the way this one ended, I though, well, that's the end of the series, but now I think it is just the start.
    • 5/5
      ***May contain spoilers***It is inevitable people are going to be heartbroken by this book because Kaylee has to make some really serious and life-changing decisions to make. That being said, the heartbreak that you are bound to experience while reading this book doesn't make you dislike the book one bit, if anything, it makes you love the world that Rachel has created even more than you thought possible. It becomes evident that Rachel has grown as an author tremendously as an author while writing this series- while I only felt "meh" about the first two books in the series, "My Soul to Take" and "My Soul to Save", I found "My Soul to Keep" and "My Soul to Steal" to be exceptionally better than the first two and "If I Die"? Well, all I can say is that Rachel really outdid herself and I am truly left speechless. I found that Kaylee really started to come into herself in "My Soul to Steal" (becoming a strong, independent female who wasn't afraid to stick to her guns) and she became even more so in this book, which made me like her all the more. Furthermore, while I really liked Tod in the earlier books I found myself falling even harder for him in this book. Where he was geeky and cute in the earlier books he was totally hot and swoon-worthy in this book (seriously, the whole random swirly eye thing, the over-protectiveness, and the rumbly/ lower octave voice thing going on, I don't know how a girl couldn't fall for him)! Also, I found myself really liking Sabine in this book (well, the first half more so than the second half), her life situation is pretty cruddy (being born a mara- aka a living nightmare) and therefore you cannot help but feel for her and overlook the fact that she is a conniving booger. As for Nash? Well, it should come as no surprise (based upon my reviews of the earlier books), but I have never been a fan of him and therefore (as horrible as this may sound) I wasn't at all saddened by his outcome in this book- dare I say it? I was quite happy with his outcome...