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DarkNet
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DarkNet

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Cindy McKay is Seattle’s beloved radio personality. She has fifty thousand friends she talks to every day, but the one secret she can never share is the horror of her personal life. There seems to be no escape, until she finds the hidden wonders on the dark side of the Internet. Maybe there is freedom from the daily suffering she faithfully endures. But, when everything is anonymous, who can Cindy really trust? She quickly finds that nothing is what it seems, and the solution she had hoped for makes her current problems seem like passing dreams. Cindy has opened the door to DarkNet, and in doing so has unleashed a true nightmare.
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PublisherJournalStone
Release dateNov 21, 2014
ISBN9781940161778
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  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    REVIEWED: DarkNet
    WRITTEN BY: John R. Little
    PUBLISHED: November, 2014

    DarkNet is the latest novel by award-winning author, John R. Little, and reading it reminds the reader what the term ‘horror’ truly means. Including no monsters or supernatural forces, there is only the monsters found in human nature, those that move throughout our daily lives. And although I say this book incites a feeling a horror, other readers may liken it closer to the genre of psychological thriller or suspense. However you choose to categorize this book, it’s testament to the author’s talent and creative ability. DarkNet is a very dark and tragic story with several unexpected plot twists and no opportunity to set the book down without reeling.

    Four-and-a-half out of Five stars
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    A radio talk show host interviews a gentleman on the sleazy underbelly, the dark, secret side of the internet. She gets too curious and begins to do research on the sites contained in the darknet; kiddy porn, arms dealers, and murder for hire operations. Turns out she knows the gentleman she contacts to take care of her abusive husband. This book is on several very adult subjects, including kinky sex, spousal abuse, torture, etc. It is a very fast read. My thanks to the author and LibraryThing for a complimentary copy.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    From the moment I read the first chapter, I was hooked! Each sentence kept me intrigued and I was obsessed with this book. I definitely enjoyed it, seeing as though it kept me on the edge of my seat!
  • Rating: 2 out of 5 stars
    2/5
    This book would have been better if the author hadn't tried to blend in elements of the darker side of the Internet. More focus should have been put on the sociopath antagonist, who is portrayed superficially. I work in IT, and found that the technical elements were not handled well. The ending also felt rushed, and was not convincing.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    I received this book from Library Thing Early Reviewers. I found this book to be frightening. John R. Little always shows the dark side of using a computer. This book was heartbreaking! I expected the twist, but it upset me. The husband in the book is truly a monster!
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    What a horrible book...and I mean that in the best way possible. Being abused (and really abused, I mean hospital stay abused and mental health abused) is horrific enough. But when you can't take anymore and are afraid to leave what do you do? DarkNet is there for you. You can hire an assassin and a child sex "worker". The underground of the internet is untraceable and possibly your only hope. Until your assassin turns on you and blackmails you for an impossible amount of money while threatening to tell your abusive husband that you want him dead....and (oh yeah) your abusive husband has a mistress on the side that he is abusing also (and she thinks it's love)....Wow...I was horrified the entire novel in the best way possible. Compelling and readable, but just awful. This is what REAL nightmares are made of.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    A decent enough story (I do enjoy the sick and twisted), but it felt a little rushed and scattered. The real identity of the Manipulator was very obvious to me from the beginning, and the rest of the time I spent reading flopping between wondering WHY and just hoping he would die (fun fact: you get one but not the other). Other than that, Cindy and her daughter Avril were easy enough to like and worry about. While I wasn't too terribly bothered by reading it, a warning for the animal abuse, rape, and torture would have been nice (I saw at least one reviewer who stopped reading because of the animal abuse, and I know people who would be horribly triggered by the rape and torture scenes). This was definitely a lot darker than I'd imagined from the ER description.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    John R. Little is a Bram Stoke Award-winning author, and after reading DarkNet, I can see why! Basic plot: Cindy McKay works in Seattle as a prominent radio personality. She is married with a daughter. But her life is filled with a horror she doesn't share. After interviewing someone for her show, she finds DarkNet online. It offers a world of anonymity and there she discovers what she hopes is a way to change her life. This is a truly dark book, with abuse, murder and a some animal cruelty. Not normally my thing. But the book was filled with lots of plot twists, multiple story lines and it pulled me along. I thought the ending was a little rough. I hope I never run into anyone like a certain someone in this book! Disturbing.
  • Rating: 1 out of 5 stars
    1/5
    I stopped reading this when a character reached down, picked up a cat that was rubbing against him and broke its neck. Up until that time, I was interested. The writing was good, the multiple story lines were working together and the characters were developed enough to pull for (or not.) I apologize to the author for not being able to finish his story, but any detail of animal cruelty disturbs me and I cease to be entertained.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    While I found the general premise interesting, I feel that everything was a bit rushed. Not a bad read, but the story arc and characters could do with a bit more development.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Once again John Little produces a real page turner, with more twists and turns that keep you engaged until the very end. John Little has become one of favorite authors. The story is indeed a dark one with abuse at the very center, which mirrors the reality of the daily news. Cindy McKay seems to have the perfect life, a radio show, a beautiful daughter, and a seemingly loving husband. But, we see you cannot always judge a book by the cover. This a story of an abusive husband and what lengths one will go to be free from that abuse. She is told about a place on the internet she can go too get anything she wants, for a price. She pays the ultimate price, and you will be surprised to find out who this killer turns out to be! There is however, one negative comment, I found two typos in the book that I found distracting. One on page 18, and one on page 78.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    I wasn't sure how much of what I read in DarkNet by John R. Little was based on reality. I found it disturbing and more than a little depressing. The ending did nothing to wrap up the story. Maybe he plans on a sequel? It was, however, fast paced and once I started, I had to finish.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    If this hadn't been an ER book, I probably wouldn't have finished it. It's the sort of book with lots of torture and degradation, which normally leaves me feeling disturbed enough that I stop reading about halfway through. On top of that, I found the plot twists to be entirely too predictable, which led to it simultaneously disturbing and boring me. On top of that, the book could have done with a better editing job. For instance, why is the call sign for a radio station in Seattle, Washington given as WLRY when everyone knows that west coast station call signs start with a K? I'm also unclear on how the villain got such good hacking skills when he's a has-been musician who works in a guitar shop. I'd pass on this book.
  • Rating: 2 out of 5 stars
    2/5
    A good premise but lacked sufficient depth to hold my interest. The characters weren't sufficiently developed to be able to relate to them or to seem believable and I finally gave up making myself go back to it after about three quarters of the way through.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    The story of DarkNet is, well, dark. Although the author does a fine job of telling the story in what at times is almost a lighthearted way, the story is in no way frivolous.Meet Cindy McKay, an attractive woman, radio personality and mother who made a very bad choice in picking a husband. Despite the throaty laugh that has made her a popular talk-show host, her home life is anything but funny. Regularly abused, beaten and humiliated, she does the best as she can to put on a smiling face and be a good mother to her daughter. One day at work, Cin interviews Dr. Rusty Moore, an expert on the Deep Web and learns that anything is available - for a price.Thus becomes the biggest nightmare of Cin's life. Nothing is private, nothing is impossible and everything is for sale. But the price... the price may well be too high. No one can be trusted any longer and nothing is as it seems.I don't like to use cliches such as "a real page-turner" or "I couldn't put it down" but with this book, both statements are true. This book grabbed my attention from the very first chapter - learning about the Deep Web, Tors and the dark side of the Internet - and as I took a wild ride through the twists and turns, it didn't let me go until the last page.DarkNet is an excellent psychological thriller, overflowing with suspense and totally absent of unnecessary "filler." It is well-written and makes you want to sleep with the lights on and the doors locked - but not before you check in to make sure your child is safe and sound. If you're squeamish when it comes to violence, sex or swearing, this book isn't for you.I was given a free copy of this book through LibraryThing in exchange for agreeing to provide a fair and honest review. I have never met the author. However, I am now a fan and will be thrilled to read more of his books. Highly recommended!
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    A brutal, no-holds-barred horror/thriller meant to feed off the reader's fear of the Internet and technology.Perhaps for readers with little prior knowledge of the deep Internet those aspects of the story will be frightening. However, DarkNet ended up being more about toxic relationships and the price of answering violence with violence. The abuse and the twists and the breakneck pace were relentless. I flinched multiple times and, had this been a movie, I definitely would've covered my eyes a lot. Mainly during the scene with Rocky, the pet cat, and the scenes with Avril.Everyone was morally bankrupt except the 10-year-old daughter, Avril. And after Avril's mother, Cindy, referred to herself as a "helpless victim" any chance of me liking Cindy or respecting her was ruined. Another reviewer called Tony, Cindy's husband and Avril's father, the most despicable character they'd read in a long time. While Tony was indeed a viscous sociopath, I found Cindy's utter lack of responsibility and overall weak-willed nature "despicable" as well. Yeah, sadly, women like Cindy do exist, and I am sympathetic, to a point. I just could not stomach Cindy's constant retreat into selective ignorance and victimhood, especially when she claimed she would do anything for her daughter.Rating this book was difficult. Part of me wanted to give it 2 stars for its depiction of domestic violence and its loathsome characters; another part of me wanted to give it 4 stars because I couldn't put it down once I started. So I settled in the middle.Recommended only to readers who enjoy dark, gruesome thrillers with physical, sexual and emotional abuse, rape, and torture.3 starsOn a much lighter, humor-intended footnote, the most horrific, truly shocking moment in DarkNet was when Avril disclosed that "[s]he knew about the library, had even seen the inside of it once or twice, but she didn't think she was allowed inside on her own (p.127)." WHAT?!! *shivers* A living nightmare.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    4.5 of 5 Stars Review copyWow. I've been reading some very dark stuff lately and Darknet is one of the bleakest so far. I may have to go watch a few episodes of "My Little Pony" or something to create a bit of balance in my life.On the surface, the internet may seem like all fun and games, but then there's Darknet: a seedy underbelly to the web, where anything can be had for a price and presumably with complete anonymity.Seattle radio personality, Cindy McKay, know to her 50,000 listeners as Cin, loves her job and is good at it. Her home life is another story. Although she loves her 10-year-old daughter, Avril, with all of her being, her violently abusive husband Tony is another story.After interviewing Dr. Rusty Moore about the darkside of the web, Cindy decides to investigate further. She downloads the software that would allow her to be online anonymously and goes exploring. Later, "Darknet had been calling to her all day, vague rumblings rolling through her mind. Drugs, gun running, child pornography, livers available to purchase...Assassins for hire."If you're anything like me, you probably think you have this one all figured out. You might want to hold back on that assumption. John R. Little has crafted one hell of a twist into his story and has created the single most despicable character I've read this year.Darknet is, at times, devastatingly brutal in it's depiction of physical and sexual abuse and as a result, may not be for all readers, but if you can handle it, I think you're going to enjoy the surprises John R. Little has in store for you.From JournalStone, Darknet, will be released on November 21st, 2014 and will be available through their website in a variety of formats.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    If you asked Cindy McKay's listeners, they would say that she has to be the happiest woman on Earth. Unfortunately, this is only a facade. At home she suffers through an abusive relationship until someone contacts her on the Internet promising to help and pointing her to a page called Assassins Inc in the DarkNet. However, then the real trouble starts...John R. Little manages again to write a story that is so gruesomely realistic that it hurts to read. It is definitely not for the faint of heart, containing both sexually explicit as well as torture scenes.That being said, there does seem to be a big gaping plot-hole in the middle of the book where a twist doesn't make sense immediately. Nevertheless, I just accepted this as it was and read on, because the book really had me in it's grips and I had trouble putting it down, I just needed to know what happened next.Recommended for fans of Jack Ketchum and John R. Little and everyone who is not daunted by the above remarks.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    DarkNet by John R. Little This book had me from page one! I could not put this fast paced thriller down. What made this book so scary to me is firstly I'm a parent, secondly I use the internet all the time and lastly the story is very believable. Just the thought of there being a hidden piece of the internet that pretty much no rules or tracking apply to...Yikes. This was the first book I have read by John R Little but let me tell you it will not be my last!I received this book as an early review through LibraryThing for my honest review.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    A short, punchy, fast-paced, sometimes shocking story that draws on contemporary anxieties related to the internet. Unsophisticated but a good read. Had me unwilling to put it down until I had finished. Good escapist entertainment.
  • Rating: 1 out of 5 stars
    1/5
    Confession time-I could not finish this book. I tried, even made it almost 3/4 through, because it's an early reviewer and I really wanted to try to finish it for that reason, but once the explicit torture of a child started happening, I had to tap out. This book is so dark, with no light at all shining through-domestic abuse, assassination attempts, child kidnapping and torture...this is not my type of book at all. Some people may enjoy it, but I could not.
  • Rating: 2 out of 5 stars
    2/5
    This was a very easy, quick read, and it was suspenseful and interesting enough to keep me reading. I guess I just wish that the novel was about women becoming empowered to change their situations, rather than them just being the victims of men’s abuse. There was a lot of violence against and exploitation of women (some of which seemed gratuitous). Women were being manipulated, beaten, raped, kidnapped, and tortured all throughout the novel. Many parts of the novel made me very uncomfortable, which I guess may have been the point. The women in the book were naïve, weak, easily manipulated and unwilling to stand up for themselves. I just kept waiting and hoping for them to finally start fighting back. And when one woman, Cindy, finally did start fighting back (very late in the novel), it seemed like it was already too late. The little fight she did show did not make up for all the weakness that she showed throughout the novel. Even her way of fighting back didn’t show particular smarts or strengths. She largely relied on others for help or information, and didn’t have a well thought out plan when she went to the final confrontation (she had access to the dark side of the web and couldn't at least buy a gun?). I couldn’t really root for her. In fact, I don’t think I found any of the characters particularly likeable, except maybe the daughter sometimes, but even she showed a lot of naïvete for a 10-year-old. The characters were all very one-dimensional, and I don’t think anyone showed any real personal growth. There was a twist in the novel, but I don’t think it really made a lot of sense and wasn’t consistent with everything that had happened previously. I don’t want to give anything away, but I will say that I don’t see how the Manipulator could’ve pulled it off without anyone noticing, and I don’t think he would’ve taken such huge risks for so little payoff. Speaking of payoff, the ending wasn’t as satisfying as I would’ve liked. I think the men should’ve suffered and squirmed a bit more considering how much pain they caused the women.

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DarkNet - John R. Little

DarkNet

By

John R. Little

JournalStone

San Francisco

Copyright © 2014 by John R. Little

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This is a work of fiction. All of the characters, names, incidents, organizations, and dialogue in this novel are either the products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously.

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The views expressed in this work are solely those of the authors and do not necessarily reflect the views of the publisher, and the publisher hereby disclaims any responsibility for them.

ISBN: 978-1-940161-76-1 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-940161-77-8 (ebook)

Library of Congress Control Number: 2014953321

Printed in the United States of America

JournalStone rev. date: November 21, 2014

Cover Art, Layout and Design:  Cyrus Wraith Walker

Edited by: Aaron J. French

To my brother, Gary Little,

who has been a wonderful supporter of my writing and every other part of my life for as long as I remember. 

Thanks, man. 

I’ve always appreciated your help, more than you will ever know.

Acknowledgements

Thanks to both Dave Solow and Tod Clark for pointing out some of my errors, and to Gary Feierabend, who provided me with one of the best ideas that found its way into the plot.

Endorsements

"Darknet a killer! John R. Little takes no prisoners as he explores the genuine horrors of abuse, and what a woman will risk to protect herself and her child. Creepy and incredibly powerful." – Jonathan Maberry, New York Times bestselling author of Code Zero and Fall of Night

"With DarkNet, John R. Little takes readers on a wild ride through the seediest parts of the human condition, from abusive spouses and the women who thrive on their abuse to murderers, thieves, and degenerates. The common bond between them all is DarkNet, the web's equivalent of the underworld, where anything is available. DarkNet moves at high speed from one crisis to the next, never giving the reader time to catch a breath." – JG Faherty, author of multiple award-nominated novels, including his latest, The Burning Time.

"John R. Little's Darknet is a frighteningly believable trip down a very realistic rabbit hole.  No one excels at taking ordinary men and women through the crucible of extraordinary experience like John R. Little, and his powers are on full display in this hard-hitting, tech-savvy tale of revenge and the search for inner strength and redemption.  I loved this book!" – Joe McKinney, Bram Stoker Award-winning author of Dead City and Plague of the Undead

Contents

Prologue

Part One

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Part Two

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Part Three

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Chapter 21

Part Four

Chapter 22

Chapter 23

Chapter 24

Chapter 25

Chapter 26

Chapter 27

Epilogue

Author Bio

DarkNet

Prologue

Several years ago, on October 1, 2013, the face of the Internet changed forever.

Indirectly, part of the change was inspired by a wonder-filled fantasy novel by William Goldman called The Princess Bride, which later became a Hollywood movie of the same name. In the story, the bad guy is a buccaneer called Dread Pirate Roberts. Roberts was feared around the globe, and as a result, whenever he announced he was going to attack a ship with his men, the sailors on the opposing ship always gave up immediately. They knew that any other choice was certain death, so Roberts ruled by reputation alone, never having to do a damned thing.

The story inspired a geeky physics major named Ross William Ulbricht to set up a storefront on DarkNet using the pseudonym Dread Pirate Roberts. His store, Silk Road, turned into the biggest illegal shopping market yet seen on the dark side of the Internet. Ulbricht’s store eared more than $1.2 billion over a few short years.

He thought of himself as simply providing a service, connecting buyers and sellers, free to deal in whatever goods the free market was demanding. He had no qualms about selling illegal and dangerous merchandise, and since DarkNet was completely anonymous, there was little the authorities could do—although they knew exactly what was going on, there was no way to stop it.

But Ulbricht made mistakes, the biggest of which was to use his own name when posting on public websites. He was promoting Silk Road, and whenever he did that, a little ping clicked over at the FBI. Eventually, his electronic footprints led the police to a small branch of the San Francisco public library. Ulbricht was chatting online about Silk Road in the science fiction section of the library when a dozen armed FBI agents burst in and marched him up to the large glass windows. The feds had found Dread Pirate Roberts, and they shut down Silk Road that day.

In addition to being charged with running illegal drugs, he was charged with soliciting two contract murders on DarkNet. He hired the first killer for $80,000. The second time, he wanted to torture and kill one of his own employees, but when he negotiated the fee of $150,000, he was actually discussing the sordid business with an undercover FBI agent. The former employee was tortured on video and the full price of the hit was paid prior to Ulbricht’s arrest.

The dark side of the Internet was not pleased with one of its biggest businesses shot to hell. But, thousands of years ago, Aristotle may have said, Nature abhors a vacuum. In business terms, if there’s a demand, there will be a market. The Silk Road may have been destroyed but that only gave rise to a hundred imitators, all of which were more cautious, having learned lessons from the careless pirate.

The golden age of DarkNet began, and there was never any looking back.

* * *

The following discussion between two people on a message board was captured shortly after 3:00 a.m. on an otherwise uninspiring and dull early June morning. Both parties were wide awake, and both lived in the same time zone.

One of the participants knew that the exchange would be logged on some anonymous server in the cloud, possibly ending up being stored in Texas, China, Singapore, or some other isolated part of the world. He didn’t care, because he was careful about what he said. He had to be, because understanding security (or lack of it) on the Internet was the basis of his business.

He was taking a tiny chance by talking over an unsecured line, but at least he’d initiated a private discussion, so anybody else checking the message board would see nothing. He knew nobody could monitor his own traffic because of the several layers of encryption he used, and it was unlikely anybody cared about his new partner.

The person he was chatting with was mostly clueless. He had targeted her for this conversation.

* * *

I know what you want.

Do you? What do you think I want?

I’ve been reading your posts. I see how unhappy you are. I see that you’re married to somebody you despise. I see that you want your freedom.

Lots of people want their freedom.

I can give it to you.

[At this point, the second person didn’t reply for almost five minutes, but neither was the chat session terminated.]

How?

This isn’t the place to talk about it. This is totally unsecured. Anybody could be listening or track this conversation later.

Really?

Really. You have no secrets on the Internet. None at all. If I cared, I could sniff out everything you type. Every single word, every one of your Facebook posts, tweets, message board posts, e-mails, and even random clicks. I can find it all. So could anybody else who wanted to and who has a bit of technical aptitude. Everything you type is sent over the ether and you think it’s safe, but it’s not. So don’t say anything else.

I want you to download some software. It’s called Tor. You’ll find it easy enough on Google. Go download it and play with it. Check out everything and get comfortable with it. This is a gateway into the deep Internet, the part that Google doesn’t want to show you. Then, go find a meeting place called Assassins Inc. Be there at 4:00 a.m. on June 20. I’ll find you then.

[Session Terminated]

Part 1

Opening Gambit

Chapter 1

July 2

7:00 p.m. The red light above the entrance to the broadcast booth flicked off.

And we’re done!

Cindy McKay smiled and removed her headphones. She’d been looking forward to the end of the show today. Not that she didn’t love her radio show, because she did, but it wasn’t often she had a chance to go out for an evening with her best friend.

On the other side of the glass partition, her producer, Ryan Hustings, gave her a thumbs-up and took off his own headphones. He would still be busy for another ten minutes wrapping up loose ends, but she was free to go when she wanted.

She leaned back in her chair and sipped from her bottle of water. Her throat was dry after talking on air for the past six hours. Cindy was an on-air personality for station WLRY in Seattle, and even though she was eager to head out, she knew enough to take a moment after every show to appreciate the job she had. Nobody had a career as fun as hers; she got to spend six hours a day laughing, talking to listeners, debating with guests, and basically having a wonderful time just goofing off. That always made her sit and say a silent thank you to whatever gods had arranged for her to have such a fucking awesome job.

It didn’t hurt that she was paid $120,000 per year for the privilege. She never told producer Ryan that she’d do the job for a quarter of that.

She pushed her shoulder-length blonde hair back behind her head and tied it into a quick pony, then she stood, stretched, and grabbed her hand bag and checked her desk one last time for anything she needed to take care of. There were a couple of callers on hold, but Ryan would take care of them. She did have limits, and one of them was that once the show was finished, so was she. Ryan batted clean-up and always talked to anybody who called too late to get Cindy.

She left the broadcast booth and gave Ryan a two-finger salute as she walked by.

Hey, he called. Nice show. I really liked how you handled that scientist.

She smiled. She’d liked that too. The astronomer was a great guest, talking about a new comet that was visible with the naked eye, but it didn’t take long to get the skinny on that, so Cindy started asking him random questions that had nothing to do with the comet.

He started to laugh at the questions, but he was game and gave her some good material.

What’s the last book you read? Green Eggs and Ham.

What’s your favorite color? Green. Especially green eggs.

Do you have pets? Yes, I have a pot-bellied pig that I’m hoping will make nice ham one day.

Are you single? Yes.

Oh! And are you available? Very!

Where would some pretty young thing find you if she wanted to find out more? She could subscribe to my newsletter at the very low rate of only $6.99 per month.

After every answer, Cindy let out that long, loud laugh that was her trademark. Everybody in Seattle knew that laugh, and it was one of the best parts of being a commuter on the drive home. She always cheered everybody up.

Cindy McKay was one of the most well-liked people in the Pacific Northwest, but few people would recognize her if they passed her on the street. She wasn’t exactly hiding or anything, but she didn’t send out publicity photos and wouldn’t allow her image on the WLRY website. She didn’t do charity events or appear as a guest on TV shows.

Neither did she share her last name with her devoted audience. To them she was just Cin. She stole the idea from the singer Cher, whose real first name was Cherilyn. Everybody in the city knew Cindy’s trademark phrase when a listener called in to her. This is your favorite Cin! What’s on your mind?

The radio station got only a few scattered questions about their mysterious host, mostly because she seemed so open and likable when on the air that most people didn’t happen to notice they didn’t know her last name or have a clue what she looked like.

Some listeners had their own vision of her appearance. Once in a while, she’d get an e-mail with various degrees of sexual innuendo tossed into vivid (but totally inaccurate) descriptions of herself. She never replied to any of the e-mails. She couldn’t help but read them, though—her one concession to vanity.

When the occasional phone-in guest asked about her life off-radio, she had a stock answer, I just like leaving my job at 7:00 p.m., the same way you do at the end of your working day. After that I’m pretty much worn out and very, very boring. Then she’d move on to a series of jokes designed to leave the topic way behind.

In truth there was one important reason she hid herself from her fans: her ten-year-old daughter, Avril. She was the part of Cindy’s life that she loved the most and the part she most feared losing. She’d never allow that, and one of the ways that protective nature manifested itself was to strip her personal life from her on-air show. Only a handful of her closest friends and neighbors knew the truth, and they mostly didn’t seem to care.

A few moments had passed while she gathered her purse and sweater from a nearby desk drawer.

Up to anything tonight, Ryan?

He was preoccupied with his paperwork, so Cindy walked up close and pressed her face next to his, so their noses were only two inches apart. He jumped back in surprise.

Jesus, what are you doing?

Just getting your attention. I asked if you were up to anything tonight.

He thought for a moment. Thursday, right? Nah, just hanging. I might grab something off Netflix. You?

Boring old night for me, too. Probably be asleep by ten.

She punched him in the shoulder and promised to be in a bit earlier than normal the next day. Ryan wanted to prep her about one of the guests she’d be interviewing.

Cindy didn’t really notice that she’d lied to him about her evening plans. It was just habit to keep her personal life separate, even when she knew she could trust Ryan more than just about anybody.

* * *

Maria de Fatima Delgado was Cindy McKay’s best friend. She was a dark-skinned Portuguese woman who had moved to Washington State fifteen years earlier from a small island in the Azores called Terceira. She was a couple of years younger than Cindy, 33 to Cindy’s 35. They had originally met at Starbucks in Pike Place Mall, each waiting for a non-fat Cappuccino, and they happened to grab for the same drink when it was placed on the bar. They pulled their hands back as if caught stealing cookies from Mom’s jar and laughed. A second drink appeared seconds later and they both selected one, realizing in those few seconds that they felt a connection and didn’t want to let it go just because they each had a hot drink in their hands. They talked about nothing consequential as they left the store out to the street and walked toward Puget Sound. They talked for a half-hour that day. Maria soon gave up drinking coffee forever, never really acquiring a taste for it, but their friendship never waned.

Tonight they met at the Star Quarter, a quiet bar that had opened up in that same Pike Place Mall. This one was inside the long strip of stores that made up one of the most popular tourist traps in the city, and they sat in a quiet corner where the sounds from the horribly off-tune band twanged a little less noisily than the rest of the bar.

It was the first time in six months the two friends had met.

They toasted their glasses of a Merlot that Maria had been raving about and took a sip. Cindy couldn’t really tell good wine from bad wine. All she could really say is that it was red and it didn’t seem bitter. In her mind, that made for a good wine.

So, how did you get out? asked Maria.

Cindy almost made a joke, but Maria was the one person in the world she didn’t bullshit. At least not much. She was the only one who knew part of the truth behind the fake, bubbly personality she wore to work and that trailed along back home with her.

Maria’s eyes stared at her, almost accusingly, daring her to hide the truth. Cindy knew she could never do that.

He can’t keep me locked up forever.

Cindy felt a pathetic tone to her words, but she couldn’t help it.

But why tonight?

"Maybe because July 4th

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