A Brother's Secret

1/10/12

A Brother’s Secret

Chapter 1

My mother Norma jean was a crack head who spends most of her time in the streets.

She get a public assistant check and food stamps every month for us to live off of.

Sometimes she comes home late at night but that only because she wants to keep the

hotel money. Or if she smokes up the rent money she has to turn the tricks at the house

that leaves Norman my brother to take care of me.

My mother chased her addiction at all cost; she doesn’t care what anybody thinks

about her she do whatever it takes. Our father left my momma when I was six he ran off

with my mother best friend and she ain’t been shit since then.

For many years I could hear my mother crying about my father leaving her. I was too

young to understand what was going on. When I got older I was told the story behind me

and Norman. Norman is four years older then me, our mother went out on a date with our

father at that time he was supposed to have raped our mother. Our mother was a virgin

that was the first time she ever had sex when she got pregnant by our dad.

This was the story that our mother has told us for years and because my father left

while I was young I never heard anything different.

My mother a had a crush on our father but he had a girlfriend and he had no intentions

on leaving her for our mother. In our mother’s mine at the time she was thinking that if

she kept Norrman he would stay with her. That was not the truth he never left his

girlfriend, our mother kept seeing him behind his girlfriend’s back.

Four years late I came along but he was engaged to be married that summer.

His girlfriend found out my mother was pregnant again she asked him about it he lied and

said that my mother was lying. When I came out looking just like him and the blood test

proved that I was his child his girlfriend left him she moved on with her life.

My brother was the kind of man you hated to see, Norman was nineteen there was

nothing good about him yes the devil lived inside of him.

My hatred for my brother began when I was fifteen that was the first time he raped me.

For a long time I thought it was something that I did I know now that it was him all

the along.

I remember that day like it was yesterday he came home drunk and we didn’t have a

air conditioner but we did have fans so this particular night I slept on top of the cover in

my panties. Norman came in my room and sat on the side of my bed he then put his hand

on my thigh I thought I was dreaming I smacked his hand away.

Norman said to me girl if you do that again am was going to beat the shit out of you. I

could tell he was drunk so I didn’t take his threat seriously. When he tried to put his

hand inside my panties I smacked his hands away again. This time he slapped me real

hard his hand print was still on my face. After that he pushed me back down and he raped

me.

From day this on my brother would come in my room every night to have sex with me

he dared me to tell any one I knew that he would beat me if I told any one some nights I

would just lay there waiting I knew he would be coming.

I guess my brother took genes after our dad because he never missed a night and one

night Norman said to me Drea if you give my pussy away am going to kill that nigger

then beat the shit out of you. I was old enough to know that this shit was not right and

Norman was older than me so why the hell couldn’t he tell that something was wrong.

When I turned sixteen he brought two of his friends by the house while our mother was

out on her beng and he made me have sex with them the first guy was biting me and shit

then he had the nerve to tell me he wanted some head I said to him am not letting you

stick penis in my mouth my brother over heard me and said yes you are. Fear came over

me and I could see in Norman eyes that he meant what he had said.

I opened my mouth he was in it no more than two minutes before that nasty bastard

shot off in my mouth he was dirty and smelled like he hadn’t bath in a while. That smell

reminded me of someone left out in the rain.

I don’t know where Norman found this homeless mother fucker from but the next time

am not doing it I rather take to beat down.

The second guy just wanted anal sex that shit hurt like hell I screamed as loud as I

could and all Norman did was watched to make sure the dude didn’t hit me. It seem like

this night was never going to end. I was bleeding from my rectum and Norman told me to

take a bath my butt was burning so bad all I could do was cry and pray that my mom

would come home.

Those guys paid my brother fifty dollar a piece and he gave me nothing that same night

he wanted to have sex with me forget the fact that I had been complaining about the pain.

This shit went on three times a week and sometimes three times a day. I couldn’t wait

for school to start so I could get out of here. After I got out of school he would be right

there to get me sometimes we didn’t even go to the house I turn trick in the car. I always

looked forward to school that was my escape I knew I didn’t have to be bother while I

was there but the reality was I would be going back to that same shit at the end of the

day.

The thought crossed my mind to run a way but where would I go I didn’t have that

many friends because everybody tease us about our mother being a crack head so I stayed

to myself with the exception of Symia.

Three weeks after my seventeen birthday I found out I was pregnant when I told my

brother and asked him for money for an abortion he beat me really bad and said I was not

killing his seed this dumb bastard didn’t see anything wrong with sleeping with his sister

or should I say raping his sister.

I called my friend Symia to tell her that I was pregnant and she said to me I didn’t even

know you were having sex so who’s the father is it somebody I know? I hurried and told

her no so she wouldn’t ask anymore question but that didn’t work because her next

question was when am I going to meet the father I told her he’s locked up. She said to

me have you told him yet? And what will he say being that he’s locked up? I told her am

not worried about that because I don’t believe in abortions so he don’t have a choice.

My brother didn’t see anything but dollars signs he made the comment that niggers pay

more for pregnant pussy