Until I Needed the Song
By Steve Case
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Abigail is a new arrival in heaven. She didn't come up through the Welcome Station she came up "another way." She's getting used to the wings and the halo but she seems... disappointed. So God decides to take her on a road trip and Jesus comes along for the ride. Pack up all your questions you've had over the years. Pack your sense of humor and your Kleenex and your favorite road tunes. You get to come along, too.
Steve Case
Steve Case is one of America’s best-known and most accomplished entrepreneurs, and a pioneer in making the internet part of everyday life. He cofounded America Online in 1985, when just three percent of people were online for an average of just one hour a week. He saw the possibilities of the digital future and built AOL into the largest and most valuable internet company in the 1990s (and the first internet company to go public). Case’s passion for helping entrepreneurs remains his driving force. He was the founding chair of the Startup America Partnership—an effort launched at the White House in 2011 to accelerate high-growth entrepreneurship in every region of the country. Case also was the founding cochair of the National Advisory Council on Innovation & Entrepreneurship, and a member of President Obama’s Council on Jobs and Competitiveness, where he chaired the subcommittee on entrepreneurship. He was active in passing the bipartisan JOBS Act in 2012, which made it easier for startups to raise capital. His engagement on policy led Politico to name him “Washington’s tech whisperer” in 2017. As chairman and CEO of Revolution, a Washington, DC-based investment firm he cofounded in 2005, Case partners with visionary entrepreneurs to build businesses such as Zipcar, Sweetgreen, Clear, Tempus, DraftKings, and many others. Case also serves as chair of the Smithsonian Institution, which under his leadership has launched a bold effort to make the best of the Smithsonian available to every home and classroom. He is also Chairman of the Case Foundation, and with his wife Jean was among the first to commit to The Giving Pledge, dedicating a majority of their wealth to charitable causes.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Interesting approach on relationships and the afterlife, which really skews American. Apparently there is no Hell, which begs the question then what did Jesus die for anyway? That aside, it was a fun read, and enough to check out more from the author.
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Until I Needed the Song - Steve Case
Until I Needed
the Song
The Story of That Time God and Jesus
Took an Angel Named Abigail
On a Road Trip
apocryphile press
BERKELEY, CA
Apocryphile Press
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Berkeley, CA 94709
www.apocryphile.org
© Copyright 2015 by Steve Case
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means—electronic, mechanical, photocopy, recording, or otherwise—without written permission of the author and publisher, except for brief quotations in printed reviews.
Printed in the United States of America
ISBN 9781940671765
eISBN 978-1-944769-02-4 (Kindle)
eISBN 978-1-944769-03-1 (ePub)
Ebook version 1.0
Dedication
This book is dedicated to
MIKE YACONELLI
whose humor and faith still inspire me.
Acknowledgments
John Mabry: For bravery.
Paul: For the education about blue Slurpees
Carl Reiner: His God shaped mine.
The Snapple Company: If Jesus drinks Baltic Blast maybe they will revive the flavor.
All the youth groups who have sat and listened to these stories in all their many forms.
Marjorie: Yeah, that one was you.
Tom Waits: You really haven’t lived until you’ve driven down the highway at night with the windows open screaming along with Jersey Girl.
His song San Diego Serenade
inspired the title of this book.
Trader Joe’s: Whose coffee was consumed in great quantities during the creation of this book.
Becky: For patience and love beyond all understanding.
Table of Contents
Introduction
Prologue
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Introduction
First, thanks for getting this far. Hopefully you will finish the book. It may not be an easy read for some of you. Some may laugh. Some may tear up here and there. It is my hope that you will talk. Find a friend and discuss what you read over coffee. Start a book club. Give it as a gift. It should be more than shelf space or memory if you are reading on your favorite e-reader.
I first saw God when I was in kindergarten. Kindergarten Sunday school to be more precise. I’m sure I had a children’s Bible. I’m sure my mother read me stories from it. But my first real memory of God came in that classroom. The teacher’s name was Mrs. Mallot. She was a nice woman who cracked her gum and had eyebrows that were drawn on. She had a flannel board (a high point in Sunday school technology for many years). One Sunday she put a picture of God on the board. She said, See? That’s God.
It was classic Sunday School God, the Father Almighty, the Creator of Heaven and Earth. He was a white guy and he was really old. He sat on a big throne with a multitude of angels flitting about his head like gnats. He did not look happy. He looked constipated.
As time goes on and we grow up we are able to process all sorts of different images of who God is or what God is. Is God a great cosmic blob in the sky of wibbly-wobbly stuff or is God us and are we God and does God exist because we do? Did we make God in our image (thank you Jethro Tull) or is it the other way around?
Someone once told me that I worship a God with dirt under his fingernails. The image of God kneeling down in the dirt and breathing life into this lump of clay he fashioned has always been a powerful one. Or is God something else entirely? Is God a being who is so far beyond our understanding that Walt Disney, Steve Jobs, Henry Ford, and Leonardo Da Vinci could not conceive of all that God is if they sat around the table and talked about it deep into the night?
What if our senses—smell, sight, sound, taste and touch—what if those were limitations? What if when we shuffle off this mortal coil we are no longer limited by those senses? What if God is a being of unlimited senses? And we simply did not understand all that God is because God is beyond taste, touch, smell, sight and sound?
Or what if God is an old guy with a beard?
My attempt in this book was to write about that flannel-board God as seen through the eyes of an adult. What stories would we tell if we never reasoned out the whole cosmic blob
thing? What if the God we worshipped is the God from the flannel board?
What if he and his son spent time playing basketball, or hung out with the saints at Heaven’s Welcome Station? What if God took the occasional personal interest in one new arrival?
Prologue
Ring…
Ring…
Ring…
Suicide prevention.
This is the suicide prevention hot line. Is there someone there?
I can hear you. Do you want to tell me your name? Just your first name.
Abigail.
Abigail. Do people call you Abby?
Sometimes.
Which do you prefer?
Abby.
Abby. Okay. Abby, where are you?
Do I have to answer that? Do I have to tell you where I live?
No. I mean where are you, like in your house. Are you even in your own house?
I’m in my bedroom.
Is there anyone else in the house with you?
No.
Is there a friend you could call to come over and sit with you?
No.
Why did you call tonight?
I’m just having a really bad day.
Abby, have you taken any pills.
Not yet.
Do you have some there?
My mom’s sleeping pills.
Would you be willing to put the pills in another room and then come back to your room so we can talk?
I don’t think so.
Why not?
Because I don’t want you to talk me out of this.
Then why did you call me?
So they would think I had second thoughts? They’ll see it on the phone bill in a month or so.
Who is they
? Your mom and dad?
Everybody.
Everybody?
Yes.
Why do you want them to think you had second thoughts?
So they’ll think that maybe they could have done something.
That’s awfully cruel, isn’t it?
What do you mean?
I mean, why do you want to hurt them so much?
They won’t miss me.
Nobody? There’s nobody who will miss you?
Lots of things would just be better if I were to just disappear.
Why would you want to disappear?
I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Are you sick?
No. That was something my grandmother used to say.
I see.
I just think it would make it a lot easier on everyone if I weren’t around.
You don’t think anyone would miss you?
My mom will wear it like a big bright pin. Everybody will look at her and say, Oh, isn’t she holding up well, the poor dear.
What about your dad?
What about him?
What will he do?
He won’t even know I’m gone till he reads it in the paper.
That doesn’t sound like you’re hurting them.
I don’t want to hurt them. I just want them to notice me.
They ignore you?
I’m the invisible girl.
Like in the comic books.
What?
The Invisible Girl in the comic books. She could disappear and nobody knew where she was. She could walk through walls and do anything. I’ve got some if you want to read them sometime.
I don’t think so.
Why not?
I’m not going to be here.
I’ve got Superman, too.
Is this your first time answering the phones?
No. I’ve been doing this a few years now.
Ever lose anybody?
Sorry. Your turn.
Huh?
You know I’ve worked here for a few years and you know I like comic books. Now tell me something about you.
I’m 16 and I have pills.
You told me about the pills already. Tell me something else. Do you like sports?
No.
Music.
Not really.
Ben and Jerry’s?
What flavor?
What’s your favorite?
Double chocolate fudge with cookie dough and brownie chunks.
I like Mint Oreo. I’ve got some here at the center. Do you want to come in and have some?
I have some here at home.
You can’t kill yourself if you have Ben and Jerry’s in the freezer.
Is that a rule?
Of course it is.
You made it up.
No. It’s a rule.
Is not. And you’re not going to keep me on the phone by arguing.
What do you think will happen if you kill yourself?
My mom will be horribly embarrassed by the whole thing.
I mean to you.
I’ll be dead.
And then?
That’s it.
There’s nothing else?
That’s it.
You’re sure?
Yes.
Tell me how you know.
I prayed and nothing happened.
That’s it? That’s how you know?
Yes.
What did you pray for?
You’re not going to do this.
Do what?
Keep me on the phone till my parents get home.
When do they get home?
I don’t know. Tomorrow sometime.
I got no place to go.
You have no life.
That’s what my ex-girlfriend said.
You had a girlfriend?
Yes.
She dump you?
First you