Like Falling Through a Cloud: A Lyrical Memoir
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Flutist, writer, artistic director of major music series, television journalist, educator and internet entrepreneur, Zukerman addresses her "lapses and losses" as she confronts and deals with a future under the shadow of her Alzheimer's diagnosis.
Touching, honest, and fearlessly heartfelt, Like Falling Through a Cloud recounts Zukerman's discovery, consultations, and diagnosis, all while navigating the death of her 103-year-old mother, a performance at the Kennedy Center, and the consolidation of her life via a full-time move to upstate New York. As she finds strength in family love, self-examination, and the enduring power of creating music, Zukerman teaches us the importance of living in the now, while accepting that what comes next may remain a mystery.
Eugenia Zukerman
Eugenia Zukerman, one of the finest flutists of our time, is also a well-known TV personality, arts commentator, and accomplished writer. She is the co-author of Coping with Prednisone. As arts correspondent for CBS News’ Sunday Morning since 1981, Ms. Zukerman has profiled over 300 artists in her twenty-six years on the program. She has appeared on a variety of other television programs, including PBS’ Charlie Rose Show, NBC’s Today and A&E’s Breakfast with the Arts. A popular presence on classical stages worldwide, Ms. Zukerman performs as a soloist with orchestras, in duo and solo recitals, and as a chamber musician in a variety of collaborations. As a recording artist, she has over 20 recordings to her credit on a number of labels.
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5I have been a volunteer guardian for many years and all of my wards have had dementia. One of them taught me not to be afraid of it. She was the happiest person I knew. I don’t know what world she lived in but she loved it. I learned to live in the moment and not compare who she was today with who she used to be.It reminded me of an interview I did with an elderly woman who had an impaired memory. When doing survey research, all questions are asked in the same order. This woman was in a wheelchair in a nursing home. She was alert for some of the questions but not most of them. When I asked if she needed a wheelchair, she said, “No.” I broke protocol and skipped parts of the interview. When I got to the last question, I said to her, “Tell me about your marriage.” She replied: “I had a good marriage. But I gave in a lot more than he did.”In 2017, at the age of 72 Eugenia Zukerman was a renowned flutist, writer, artistic director, correspondent on CBS Sunday Morning, educator, and author. She was married to a loving husband and had two daughters and two granddaughters. Life was wonderful. But then she began noticing signs of forgetfulness and confusion.Reluctantly, she agreed to see a neurologist for neuropsychological evaluation and an MRI. She was diagnosed with early onset Alzheimer’s. While her mother was 103 years old and, until recently mentally alert, Eugenia had forgotten that all six of her mother’s siblings had died in their early 70s from that disease.During the following year, she performed at Kennedy Center, faced her mother’s death, and closed her second home in New York City to live in her family home in upstate New York. With the help of a supportive family and her doctors, she decided to record her journey through this devastating disease. LIKE FALLING THROUGH A CLOUD, a poetic memoir is her story. Written with insight and humor, Zukerman records her feelings and observations as she begins her journey through this treacherous time. For anyone experiencing this or similar diseases or knowing or caring for someone who is going through it, this book is a creative, invaluable resource. One of her biggest fears is that people she knows will abandon her. If we can stay in the moment, most of us can spend meaningful time with people with memory impairments.This is the third poem in the book:marblesMaybe mine are lostor maybe they’re rolling aroundin my head looking for a place to landOr maybe notmy daughters tell me to get testedtested for what I askeven though I know for whatbut it’s for what I don’t want to knowSo I let the marbles rolled aroundin a swirl of distracting colorsbecause I don’t want to listen to themthe daughtersbecause if I hear themI willbeveryafraidand this mother cannot be that mothernot everneverDefinitely five stars!
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Eugenia Zukerman’s new book, Like Falling Through a Cloud, is a masterpiece of inspiration, poetry, reflection, memories, and the heartbreak of discovering that one is having the early signs of dementia. Writing in the present tense, of past reflection, of moments of sheer delight—as well as moments of sheer horror—Eugenia has authored a must-read. I was going to say a must-read for those who suffer from moments of forgetfulness, but instead, I’m going to say it’s a book for everyone. It transcends the particulars, becoming applicable to any situation you might find yourself in. That is the sign of a truly inspiring volume, a classic, and Like Falling Through a Cloud is a classic—for everyone.
The beautiful message that Ms. Zukerman has created in the astonishing, revealing, and inspiring book is that we all have life to live, dreams to dream, and human kindness to both give and receive. The author has always been an extraordinary talent, both musically and linguistically. In Like Falling Through a Cloud, she has written the unforgettable.
—Judy Collins, American singer and songwriter
In writing Like Falling Through a Cloud, Eugenia Zukerman gives her reader privileged access to her inner life, as she begins to understand and live with a recent medical diagnosis. As she describes the vast changes in her different states of mind in a series of poetic snapshots, Genie’s artistic aura shines through with lightness, courage, and humor. In expressing the borders between fear, doubt, vulnerability, and love, Genie reminds us of the delicate balance between human fragility and resilience, and how poetry and music offer a balm when we are faced with psychic turbulence.
—Yo-Yo Ma, cellist
The most interesting writers of our time are creating hybrid literature that combines poetry, fiction, and autobiography. As we proceed in life, our way of perceiving the world changes, and few writers have the courage to depict this. Eugenia Zukerman—perhaps because she is a musician and a writer—has chronicled the music of the brain in an extraordinary way. Like Falling Through a Cloud is beautiful and riveting.
—Erica Jong, author of Fear of Flying
Bravery and inspiration come in many forms. In the face of dealing with her own challenges, Eugenia Zukerman has written a beautiful personal narrative that inspires bravery in the face of serious life changes.
—Jaap van Zweden, New York Philharmonic Music Director
Eugenia Zukerman has taken an experience and event that can be traumatic and brought light to it. Her poetic style of communicating the nature of her world in the face of this challenge is endearing. I believe anybody who is themselves or is having any family member experience some decline in memory will feel uplifted and informed by this highly special and unique work.
—Herbert Pardes, M.D., Executive Vice Chairman of
the Board of Trustees of New York-Presbyterian Hospital
My sister, Eugenia (Genie to me), admirably always embraces the moment for whatever it brings. After recently receiving the diagnosis of cognitive decline, she was stunned but then took stock of how she felt and what it all means. A generous result is her beguiling prose poem, Like Falling through a Cloud,
in which she faces the mysteries of memory and self-discovery through change. In this short, yet revealing, sometimes funny, sometimes sad volume, she shares her experience and her candid self-perceptions. This compact volume has helped me as Genie’s big sister (and a physician) understand what is going on far better than my empiric medical knowledge. This gem of a book should provide solace and insight for family and friends struggling to understand the complex issues of cognitive decline. More than that, it is a tale of bravery, strength, and healing.
—Julie R. Ingelfinger, M.D., Professor of Pediatrics,
Harvard Medical School, and Senior Consultant in
Pediatric Nephrology at Massachusetts General Hospital
for Children at Massachusetts General Hospital in Boston
Heart-crushing poetry, eloquent typography, and stunning candor combine to make Eugenia Zukerman’s voyage into the uncharted landscape of memory loss the most compelling book you will read this year. A brave journey beautifully told.
—Letty Cottin Pogrebin, a founding editor of Ms. magazine,
and author of Getting Over Getting Older
I have known and loved Eugenia Zukerman my whole adult life. Of course, it was easy to fall for such a ravishing beauty, devastatingly diaphanous Diana that she is, but once hooked, more arrows felled me: a brilliant musician, to be sure, but also a brilliant and panoramically empowered mind and spirit, a captivating and pioneering tele-journalist and media advocate for the arts, an inspired and masterful writer, endlessly quick-witted and always an impassioned and aware citizen of the world.
It should come as no surprise, then, that when she discerned early signs of a potential and ever-unnamed usurper of mental acuity, her response would be to make us all traverse this frightening stage of her life by imbuing tragedy with transcendence in her memoir, Like Falling Through A Cloud. Eugenia’s choice of telling this chilling tale of tenuous tendrils of cognition as aphorisms of light, fleeting and fleeing as dandelion seeds, is a true masterstroke. She paints the pages in serendipitous typographical free-verse, with the ease and urbanity of an Ogden Nash, with the nostalgia and romance of Nabokov, and ever with an endearing charm and more than occasional epiphany all her own. Never has a book made me want to laugh and cry in equal and empathetic measure.
—Christopher O’Riley, world-renowned pianist
and host of NPR’s From the Top
Eugenia Zukerman bravely shares her personal journey and self-awareness as she battles with Alzheimer’s and the anxiety that comes with it. She inspires with her strength and willingness to find joy and beauty in small and big things in life. Through music, love, family, and peace of nature, you feel her determination to appreciate every day and the will to move forward. She beautifully translates her frightening and inspiring experiences into poetry for the reader.
—Yefim Bronfman, pianist
If there is any writer who might awaken your love of poetry, it’s Eugenia Zukerman. She plays with words in a way that makes you want to play with words in order to find humor, insight, and peace.
—Alec Baldwin, actor, writer, producer
Like Falling Through a Cloud
Copyright © 2019 by Eugenia Zukerman
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To the end of Alzheimer’s
and
to those who labor to find a cure
acknowledgments
I’m grateful to so many people who encouraged and helped me—
My great friends Oscar and Didi Schafer supplied their encouragement
and support
Actress Mary Beth Peil led me to writer