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Who
knows where it will end? Don't look for modern stuff,
like TGA-4 or whatever. I am going to write about a man
will be 61 very soon and something strange that
happened to him in his late 50s, where, as Rod Serling
would have said he crossed over into the Twilight Zone.
Okay, I'm derivative sometimes, but all writers are.
Okay, I drop the quotation marks now. You get the point.
Christian's heart attack was somewhat like a real one.
His pulse raced, his heart pounded, he got slightly dizzy,
needed to sit down and breath deeply. He knew what
was coming, and, above all, he knew what caused it.
Once in his twenties, he had even gone to an emergency
room because of a stronger version of the same heart
attack. And what is coming is that when an hour or so
later, when Christian will arrive at Charlotte's bustling
airport, he will suffer a much stronger version of the
same attack---and this time if Christian didn't have a
lifetime history of such attacks, he would have indeed
been afraid and summoned emergency personnel which
he did not do either in Raleigh that day or later in
Charlotte.
Now this is not a story about some horny guy who was
having a libidinal surfeit of testosterone and going into
seizures over women because he wanted sex. It is the
story of a man who was really lucky to have ever found
a wife and married in the first place. Not because he
was twisted, weird or unattractive--because he was none
of these--but because only about one in ten thousand
women appealed to him in any way whatsoever. Not
charming women. Not smart women. Not
accommodating women but beautiful women, women
who had a certain type of look that he had spent his
lifetime trying to define cogently to himself. It was not
about sex or body shapes either. It was mostly about
faces. Certain types of faces, and Christian did not
discriminate between children or senior citizens or
anything in between. More about the children aspect in
the next installment---which will be called "Pedophilia"
and will not be about pedophilia at all, just in case some
prurient reader might think I am heading in that
direction.
The one before the girl in the Raleigh airport had been
overweight too. She worked in a diner behind the
counter and had greasy hair. Christian's son and his
son's friends laughed when he pointed her out to them.
But Christian was having one of his heart attacks
because of her and didn't care.
I hope.
III. Pedophilia
She could not have been older than 15 and was sitting at
a table halfway between the bar and the pizza parlor with
a group of adults who if not her parents could have and
should have been. A barely pubescent body filling out a
rather skimpy sun dress. Long, artificially kinked hair,
slightly protruding teeth concealed by irregular but full
lips, wide almond-shaped eyes and an abstract far away
look aimed vaguely in the direction of the parked jets
beyond the window.
He drank his rum and coke and said "No big deal" to
himself. Nothing was going to harm him, so he might as
well enjoy the reaction. After all, he had relished visual
episodes like this for over 35 years. Nothing was new
here, just a way of passing the time.
To be continued if I can.
That was her before him he knew, not a day older than
15 as she sat there munching cheap airport pizza, her
exquisite beauty ignored as is the custom by parents
who no doubt never even noticed her much anymore.
She made some little joke with one of the adults at her
table that "Other people have my name." That was
enough to turn Christian into a totem of fear and cause
him to walk unsteadily out of the bar and as far down
the concourse as his wobbly legs would carry him. For
a few minutes, he felt he was going to pass out and die.
But the memory was still there like a long panorama:
his "life" with Gina.
I promise.
V. Epilogue
The next one came at age 60 for Christian. The girl must
have been around 26. He saw her in a park in Baltimore
when he was walking his dog. Her name was Davila and
she was from Arizona and, of course, they had lived
there and he worked on Porsche engines for a living.
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