Aug 30 1996 There is some thyme, ground and some time unground. Basil leaves on the vine.

Sunflower sprouts a growing for a while also as well. What then of obligations. Thai food so close it is felt like a billiard tables balls. SO many mysteries. So much incomprehension. If some say thats okay what are the rest to say? It aint really too cool to always be feeling pissed off because of the wrongs that have been done. Or you can spend your time all pissed off because things dont seem to obey your rules. Then perhaps you might come to realize that its the rules youve borrowed from others that cause the problem of feeling pissed off. SO then there is the options of giving up the rules and being aware of things as they are without any judgments going on. Then perhaps theres a chance to leave behind the disturbances of always feeling wronged by other human beings. We dont tend to feel so wronged by other types of animals and organisms. Maybe a mosquito or a fly or roach occasionally.

08/30/97 11:48 PM as cute as all get out a foal and a fool went to school in a country town down around the midnite hour the cooks are giving birth in chamber pots and wooded bowers the geese have gone to Club Med its that Gaia aint amused at all the damage done that man has grown too smart for us shell blow us all to king dung come like a scarab in her slipper sport lightening in her purse humanity is the Universes child an empty twilight curse upon all living creatures who wish to be in peace rather than blown to smithereens by the absent minded made chemist in his atomic garage science is a stupid thing childs play at the best its time to tune the spirit friends in time to take the test a harsh old bitch this ancient grand mother deserves our reverence if we have no time to give it right wed best start out on the trail again like thrown back in the furnace melted down Narcissus sigh between thighs so many write

about how bad things on Earth have become how they would like to make it thats very pretentious

right

perhaps the great spirit planned it all this way for humans to do what seems to us like folly but I bloody well am sure we could do with a lesson in purposefulness lessons in awakening to our true nature studying our own consciousness discovering teleos Intentionality what could be the purpose of it all being critical and seeing flaws is remaining unawakened to the absolute perfection so only when we learn some humility with reverence and awe can we begin to look for divine purpose sacred

04/06/98 1:26 AM It seemed to me a very uplifting experience to integrate my awareness of my own experiences in life and in so doing to forget about the puzzling nature of the statements of U.G. Krishnamurti with the state of no thoughts and all of it. I found great peace in experiencing awareness of the integrated continuity of the experience of awareness of the existence of the activity and presence of intuitive intelligence in my own life. I recall that I was once a very rational person and that that all changed quite discontinuously like a quantum jump in late 1984, just a little less that fourteen years ago when I was recently turned thirty six years old. It all changed quite discontinuously in a quantum jump like process in which rationality was overpowered or shall we say exposed as a fraud exposed as a fraud in that it failed to live up to its reputation as a reliable source of guidance and predictability. The quantum jump to another way of functioning - to another state - occurred at the time of intense experiences of paradox that involved the undermining of my interpretation of my sensory experiences. In particular, what I experienced was that in the state of ordinary consciousness in which rationality was dominant and all powerful, my interpretation of my sensory experiences was that the woman I loved and who had brought me to awakening to truths and realities I had never imagined possible - to states so fulfilling that all my previous endeavors in life were called into question - this woman did not love me and was no longer interested in me and was in fact involving herself in conduct that is most cruel. Contrasted with this state of ordinary reality in which sensory perception was interpreted according to rational beliefs and concepts, were states of awareness in which the rational interpretations came to an end and could be seen to be subject to manipulation. What I mean is that I became aware that the rational interpretation was not reliable. I experienced more than that in the form of another interpretation and that interpretation was that the sensory experiences I was having were being manipulated and created by the woman and one or more other people who were engaged in manipulating my awareness for the purpose of liberating me from precisely this trap of rationally interpreting my experiences.

Now, thirteen and half years later, I come in contact with the thought of U.G. Krishnamurti and find certain symmetries with the thought of Werner Heisenberg and the international physics fraternity who collectively experienced a collapse of their reliance on their systems of concepts and beliefs in the first three decades of this century when their experiences of their studies of atomic phenomena revealed to them ambiguities and paradoxes that could only be removed when they questioned the applicability of their concepts and replaced them with new concepts that better fit their experimental experiences. A good example is that since the time of Democritus and earlier it had been imagined that all objects and everything in the physical world was made of indivisible atoms which were conceived of as fundamental and elementary. It proved to be an illusion when carried into the atomic world. Putting that together with my own experiences and the thought of this UGK person, it occurs to me and I actually experience the reality of experiencing directly a distinction between what we experience directly and on the other hand our interpretation of what we experience. In a way it is integrating our awareness of our life experience and also the cultural species experience of humanity and our direct progenitors. In this sense. Both personally and as a species we were born and at some time in the past we must have experienced without an interpretation and in the process of time we somehow developed an interpretation that is in fact something that we imagine and is real as experience goes but may in fact involve us in illusions if we are unable to discriminate and differentiate between what we experience directly with our senses and what we experience as our interpretation. It is as if we are the atomic physicists who conducted experiments and developed theories in those amazing thirty years. Planck. Einstein. Bohr. Rutherford. Compton. Sommerfeld. Heisenberg. De Broglie. Shroedinger. Pauli. Fermi. Dirac. They imagined the electron as a particle, a corpuscle, an object. They had the experimental results that were patterns on photographic plates like spectral lines or photographs of cloud chamber trails and such things. There are direct sensory experiences involved in viewing the experimental evidence. But then there came the attempt to fit the experimental evidence into a purely imaginary, mental, abstract vision or the nature of the electron in itself. It was natural for the physicists to borrow models from their scientific ancestors and all they really had available was the corpuscle concept that had survived from Democritus. When the concept of corpuscle electron orbiting corpuscle nucleus failed to fit the experimental results expected by application of the sacred mathematical laws of classical mechanical motion, the physicists had to look for other ways of explaining the experimental evidence. There were experimental hints that the electron may be a wave or may have some of the properties of waves. But an electron cannot be a wave and a particle at the same time - they are contradictory. The point here is that the development of quantum physics reveals to us that as human beings we not only experience sensory perception, we also experience in a non-material, non-sensory mode, visions, concepts, ideas, beliefs that are drawn from and are generated by our experiences. It is as if when we experience our sensory perception, we are reminded of other experiences we have had in our past and in our cultural past. In this sense, when we apply our interpretation - our rational interpretation, we are actually energizing regions of our integrated psychic self rather than only experiencing our direct sensory perception. I can see now and I think have known for a long time that this differentiation between direct experience and our memories lays at the heart of some of the esoteric spiritual traditions such as Buddhism. D.T. Suzuki writes for us of The Zen Doctrine of No Mind. In it and other books on Zen, Shin and Mahayana Buddhism, Dr. Suzuki acquaints us with the Buddhist teaching on Shunyata - a state of mind in which

thinking and thoughts have come to an end and there is nothing but fresh direct perception uncontaminated with all the memories that are aroused by the rational state of awareness. Here I am finding the burden of straining to understand what Emptiness is or straining to attain the state of no thoughts, no mind, Shunyata, the straining is not at all attractive and I am drawn and allow myself to be guided by that which feels attractive to me. What feels attractive to me is being aware of being safe and secure in the guidance of a super-natural and mysterious super-intelligence that guides my steps and communicates directly to me via this means of perception that involves what I feel rather than what I think. Fear and anxiety are mysteriously evaporated when I am aware that I am being continuously guided by super-intelligence that is a complete mystery to me. There is no need for me to imagine a conceptual structure to interpret these experiences. It is with me and never leaves me since I am always feeling and doing as I feel. Surely this is absolute freedom to always at every instant to do as I feel and never to have to do what I dont feel I want to do. Now I realize that it is the rational habit to dwell in the past, to search for symmetries in my experience, it is this rational pattern that keeps coming up with its rational doubts about the existence and reality of a source of super-intelligence that reveals itself to me directly in the form of how I feel. 04/06/98 2:37 AM Perhaps that is enough writing and reading for now. My hands are feeling slightly wearing from the repetitive motions of the keyboard and my eyes are feeling a little strained. So I must leave myself with the question and it is not how can I experience wu-hsien or no thought. It appears to be true that we learn to perceive a world of objects and the rational rules of their conduct that we expect - rather than perceiving a field of energy which appears to be what we perceive when we are liberated from the interpretation we are forced by enculturation to experience. Thats what grates at us. That we are forced to experience what someone else wants us to experience. In so doing we loose our freedom to experience. So just as it occurred to me when I first broke with the enforced pattern of conduct as a corporate employee, as a husband and all that was abandoned back in 1979 or was it 1976 when I first departed from the rules and regulations that have been forced upon me and without any awareness of what I was doing, found myself being guided by what I feel. Thats where it began. With feelings of attraction to a woman. Feelings that are ruled out in the world and the society that has surrounded me since my birth. The rules said that I was to resist the temptation. But I went with the feeling of attraction I felt for her and it lead directly to whatever liberation I might have experienced. It is interesting to come back to this type of experience which was so common and so amazing to me back when I first experienced liberation from the patterns of conduct that are forced upon us. Society, culture has a shape which it presses upon us and exerts a pressure for us to conform to. I feel very good when I recall the experiences of my life that reveal to me the extent to which I have been fortunate to have experienced a level of liberation from slavery - a level of freedom. What does it mean this freedom. I think that freedom means being able to do what you feel you want to do rather than doing what you dont feel you want to do and I dont say that it has to apply to every decision we make. We do live in a social context and unless we want to be totally isolated we may have to do a few things that are not exactly what we feel like doing at the time since we are guided by what we feel and do what we feel and have no option really. So the question is not how to experience no thought; no mind Shunyata. The question is what do I feel. What is super-intelligence showing me now. The fresh growing creative tip of psyche is right there. Right where we feel. From those early beginnings I discovered that I really liked the way I felt when I spent time with Elly and Sheila and Mary later even though it was forbidden by the rules of society. Then I found myself mysteriously set free

of the whole trap I had fallen into. I would marvel at my good fortune. Only now do I realize that what really traps us is the habit of our rational interpretation of reality.

Thursday, September 02, 1999, 8:54 PM Its really quite amazing to me how difficult it is see through illusions imprinted on the senses. Its amazing because its been happening for so long. I recall the experience of seeing through the sensory manipulations involving Mary Helen so long ago. When I have that experience of seeing through there is a sense of calm. So much that otherwise seems incomprehensible makes sense. Amazing is a word being used a lot lately at least by these fingers. This time whats amazing is this recurring interest in and fascination with this idea of OBJECTIVITY. It was stimulated by this Brave New World special about life in the universe. It came to mind what Einstein experienced about the nature of light and its connection with vision and our image of the world. It became very clear to me that the idea of objectivity derives directly from identification of the self with the physical body. Ive never seen it discussed anywhere. Not like other subjects or questions. Its even difficult to be sure that its correct to say that its generally or perhaps almost universally Assumed that the self is the physical body. What is the physical body? It seems almost like an irritating question perhaps because its generally or almost universally assumed that what the physical body is is so damn obvious that its insulting to ask what it is. This is a fairly typical reaction when the most fundamental of assumptions are questioned. If we get by that irritation and fear of the loss of yet another sacred cow and actually take the time and make the effort to contemplate the physical body - what I come up with is this. It exists in my sensory perception, Even though there are five modes of sensory perception, the physical body is an entity which relies upon the sense of vision and the sense of touch for its existence. Our bodies do have odors or fragrances and even tastes. Our bodies have a voice too. Yet we identify our selves with the visual and tactile sensory perceptions. This raises another interesting idea. Our physical bodies are enclosed by our skin, except where there are orifices and our eyes. The skin forms the boundary of our physical self. On the inside is the self and on the outside is the not self. This is where we got started with the idea of objectivity. All entities that we sense with our vision and taction that are outside our skin we consider to be independent of us, independent of our selves. We believe that even if we close our eyes and cannot see or touch the objects outside our skin they are still there. We believe that they exist independent of our sensory perception. Yet before that gets dealt with in detail what about this radical difference between taction and vision. What I mean is that our eyes are much smaller than our skin. We feel with all or almost all of our skin but we dont see with our whole body. I guess where this is headed is that if we were to make a transition from a tactile self to a visual self, wed find that our self is our eyes and thats all. What Im getting at is that this notion that our self is inside of the skin that surrounds our body, reveals that for some reason weve chosen the sense of touch as our prime means of identification of our self. We divide our reality into two and its our tactile self entity ( a sensory entity) thats the basis for the division. If we were to extend the basis on which we establish our identity via the tactile sense to the other senses this is what we would get. Our self would include the gases we breathe in and out and the farts we

release to the breezes. Our visual bodies would include everything in our field of vision and our audial bodies all within our field of hearing. But we do not identify our self with our vapors, our vision and our hearing. Perhaps it has a lot to do with the acuteness of tactile pain that we elevate the tactile sense to the highest level of importance. When we say that our self is whats inside the skin we are really saying that this is what we feel a need to protect - this is what is the highest priority and most importance to us. Back to objectivity. It became very clear in an intuitive flash tonight that its our tactile definition of our self that explains the assumption we make of an objective world around us. It goes like this. The logic that is. This I that I am is this entity that is inside my skin and inside the barrier of tactile sensation that defines my physical body. With my vision and other senses I can see that there are other objects outside my skin that exist and are separated from and independent of ME. But the ME that I mean when I say ME is the ME that is inside my skin not the ME that is inside my entire sensory field of vision hearing smelling tasting and feeling? Look what happens when a thought experiment is conducted like this. Lets just imagine that for this experiment ME is all that I perceive with my senses and not just the space inside my skin. Then the new ME becomes the entire physical universe that I can see and smell and touch and hear and taste. Then when I consider the idea of objectivity the whole picture changes. All the objects in the universe exist within me and so it just makes no sense at all to even suggest that they exist independent and separated from me. That statement only has meaning in the reality in which I define ME as the physical body inside my skin. It seems so obvious but logic will soon dictate that this bullshit about assuming that my self is all of my sensory perception is just plain bull shit that anyone with common sense can see. Were so used to an awareness of a world of separated objects that exist independently of our Self, that we have great difficulty even considering that there is no objective reality at all and that all there is , IS our perception. If we contemplate that a moment, our common sense immediately reveals to us that all we can know anything about is what we perceive and yet this strange idea of a reality that exists independent of our perception, persist and will not let us go easily. The tactile bias is very pernicious - very persistent and pervasive. And yet thats all this objective reality idea is. Its the view you get when you make the assumption that the Self is the sensory perceptions inside the skin or shall we say on the inside of the outside of the skin. Its a scary and very alien idea to suggest that there is no objective reality that exists independent of our perceptions and consciousness. Yet we know that all we can know is about our perceptions and our consciousness. All we have is our perceptions and our consciousness. Yet we have this idea or concept of a reality that exists independent of our consciousness. We know that this idea of an objective reality exists in our consciousness. We know that if it didnt we wouldnt know anything about it and could not talk about it or write about it. Yet we insist that it exists outside of our consciousness. But how can we know anything about a reality that exists outside of, separate from and independent of consciousness. The problem here is in our tactile definition of self and thats all. The problem evaporates when we awaken to the truth that our Self Nature is much more than just our physical bodies. The problem goes away when we see that our Self Nature includes not only the physical body but all of our sensory perception and all of our consciousness as well as all of our unconsciousness.

But careful there. As soon as we accept the existence of our Unconsciousness we come very close to the same problem we have with an objective reality - a reality that exists independent of consciousness. When we write about or talk about the Unconscious, we must surely be conscious of it or we couldnt even have any notion of it. Strange as it sounds, the Unconscious exists only in our consciousness. It has no separate and independent existence. The problem here is in identifying the Self Nature with the present Now moment. When we awaken to the truth that our Self Nature includes all consciousness past present and future we realize that the notion of an unconscious derives from the identification of the Self Nature with the now moment. Its very much like the problem with an objective reality and the Physical Body self nature limitation. We can extend the thought experiment and extend the idea of Self Nature to all our consciousness past present and future. Thats at least sixteen billion years according to the cosmologists. If the Self Nature is all of consciousness with no limit (infinite and eternal) then there is no Unconscious or shall we say the Unconscious exists within the Self Nature. The idea of an Unconscious disappears when the identity of the self with a finite region is relaxed. The Self Nature is limitless. The Cosmic Mystical Self Nature that is. Strange isnt it how the Self Nature evolves. If; in the main stream rational scientific materialist culture and world view, the self nature is the physical body ( a bundle of primarily tactile perceptions) what are its precursors? What is the self nature form of a baby? Are there stationary states of self nature prior to the establishment of the ultra stable tactile stationary state. Whats more intriguing and actually sacred holy divine and beautiful is the amazing experience of the realization of the cosmic mystical self nature. Another way of putting it is that the experience of transformation from tactile to cosmic self nature is awesome.

Sunday, September 10, 2000, 10:23 AM As a reader I am made very much aware today of how effective reading is in reconfiguration of consciousness - the ultimate reality that is the higher and real self. This awareness tends to underline the statements of the Tao Te Ching with respect to the nature of the Ultimate Reality of the higher self as formless form. It can take on many forms but has no form itself. When I read I experience the forming of my self nature according to what I have read. This makes me aware also of the special characteristics of my readings in Zen Buddhism but its not really the Zen nature of the readings but the experiences and moldings that come from reading the words of D.T. Suzuki. This all gives a clue as to finding ones real higher self but since it is always read first it is artificial and so an alien installation. Our experience is one of a large number of molds that shape or configure our awareness. The Suzuki molding is very familiar to me because it is very much like the self molding of the evoys and the evoys are unique and original experiences of my own as far as I can tell so there is no over-tone of alien installations. Any configuration that is copied cannot be the configuration of the unique self. Finding ones self in the multitude of other peoples installations and molds is what life seems to be about. Finding the real self.

The terminologies of D.T. Suzuki are helpful in focusing on the original self that made itself known to me at the time of the evoys. Actually when I say that it made itself known to me I am implying a duality of an it and a me when in fact there is no duality and what happened was an awakening of awareness that was at that time quite new and unfamiliar. At this time I am feeling as if it is a good idea to drop as much as possible all of these conflicting molds that come from copying the molds of other people so I can become myself. Trying on all these others ones though does sort of help to discover the self and to make the self according to what is most attractive. It means discarding the idea of having no preference. But that is a copied self anyway; the idea of having no references and so it is an alien installation. Now I am realizing though that what it is that I like about Zen Buddhism is really that when I read the words of D.T. Suzuki my real self nature which is psyche takes a form that is very much like the evoys and that was unique self nature that emerged and most of all it was so immensely satisfying that its attractiveness to me is quite over-powering now and always. Now this also tends to contradict one of the alien installations. That is the alien installation that advises that there must be no desire. Yet this is an alien installation and it does nothing to help arouse the awareness of the higher self that is so immensely satisfying. Why then would I want to do anything to encourage the state of awareness that results when the desirelessness mold is awakened? It is beginning to look like there is a great deal to be learned from ......

differentiating between those molds or ideas that arouse the higher self and those that dont.

Part of this is the recognition of the fundamental importance of freedom of choice. Freedom to choose. Equal Liberty. When there is an assertion of individual liberty (let Manny Wallerstein continue the work of proclaiming the need for an equalibration with his emphasis on equality of freedom of choice). For now I am not really contemplating (see how the word contemplate also evokes a duality of a contemplator and the contemplated) I am not really contemplating the Gaian Whole Community of Life because what is contemplating itself is that which is beyond the Gaian Whole and also beyond being and non being as well as beyond consciousness and unconsciousness and beyond all reality limits (Bhutokoti). It is that which is the field in which these others arise into beingness. It is that higher self that is beyond that which is contemplating itself. So it throws off the alien installations which for now includes even the Gaian Holon. I am so very much attracted to freedom and liberty since it is the awareness of freedom and liberty that is the starting point for realization of the self created self or is the original self. Perhaps it is the original and also the self-created self at the same time. Perhaps............

the original self is self-created and that is its nature - self organizing and self replicating and self creating. It is the starting point of realization of the original self which is the real self and it is

absolutely free of all the defiling elements which are the artificial, man made, synthetic molds, ideas, configurations, concepts, beliefs that are copied from other peoples words in writing and in voice. All of these are foreign installations and so they are seen now as defilements that obscure the original and true higher self. The original and true higher self is not confined by anyone elses words in print or spoken since all of those words are suspect as having ulterior motives other than the motives that appear to us and that is the apparent motive that these words are written and spoken for the purpose of assisting us in experiencing liberation from the confinement of consciousness in other peoples artificially imposed realities - alien installations usually intended to satisfy the material desires of another person by distracting us from our true passion which is self awareness.

The higher self exerts an enormous force of attraction on awareness to return to its original configuration. The original self is super-conscious and super-intelligent; just bloody amazing. 09/10/00 11:29 AM The following comes from June 21, 2000 (Winter Solstice). I have during the last year found myself engaging in contemplation of the evoys and listing the primary insights of the evoys. This came after I felt compelled to experience liberation from the confinement of my awareness due to the demands of a full time job and living in a busy place where the noise and distraction of traffic and neighbors allowed little opportunity for meditation so I moved my home to where there was freedom and there found that the result of the freedom was and is the free choice of the state of mind of the evoys - this is what I freely choose. This is the great discovery of the explorations of the Big Cow and the Sangre de Christo Mountains. Up until the evoys I was confined to a view of the world which is full of duhkha precisely because it is a dualistic view. It was a view of reality that is based on the thing in itself idea of Immanuel Kant. This is actually a state of awareness itself. Its a state based on incorporation of this objective component. We are aware of these objects in space and time that are still there in space and time even when we are not looking at them with our eyes or touching them with our hands. Further we imagine these objects or this system of objects (the Earth, the Universe, Kozmoz) as independent of awareness and altogether fundamentally different than consciousness. In an instant and quite spontaneously I became quite suddenly and abruptly very clearly aware that this system of objects that we consider to be an objective reality that is independent of awareness is actually within awareness just as the subject observer is also within awareness. This was my own satori. I saw that my self nature had gone through a transformation. This transformation in my self nature left me quite amazed also - spellbound. Mystified. I could see that prior to the abrupt quantum jump in awareness my identity (the configuration of the Ultimate Self Awareness that is Psyche) had been defined spatially, visually and actually by the boundaries of the physical body. I could see that very clearly after the transformation; my self nature had no limit and that all awareness is in the self

nature. I thought the transformation quite marvelous indeed and felt I had arrived at insights of the greatest possible importance.

Monday, September 04, 2000, 10:08 AM If you want to be a great leader you must learn to follow the Tao Stop trying to control Let go of fixed plans and concepts and the world will govern itself (autopoiesis - self organization) The more prohibitions you have the less virtuous people will be The more weapons you have the less secure people will be the more subsidies you have the less self reliant people will be therefore the Master says I let go of the law and people become honest I let go of economics and people become prosperous I let go of religion and people become serene I let go of all desire for the common good and the good become common as grass Number 57, from Tao Te Ching New English Version by Stephen Mitchell. Yesterday on my way to meet Laini and Jodi for dinner I went up to Kings Park with intuitive guidance that I would experience some inspiration from those who gave their lives and those who endured agonies and the sacrifice of their time and effort in defence of the free society. I saw many Asian people at the memorial site which overlooks the entire Perth coastal strip looking to the east and the rising sun. My first sight was of a memorial to the people who were awarded the highest military decoration, for Australian military forces - the Victoria Cross. The large inscription on a low stone wall advised Let Silent Contemplation Be Your Offerring. After a meditative stroll around the memorial among the people I went back to where the car was parked and took out the copy of Dowdy I found at the library just the othr day. I then proceeded to randomly select a verse and the book opened up at Number 57. It took me back sinc it is so appropros at this time of having so recently realized that the dooka and the liberation is all about alignment wih Gaian consciousness and emancipation from the individual physical consciousness that is the ego. Lately it has been so damned obvious that I feel quite blissful when consciousness is so elevated. Even now as I sit here there is again tis same sort of oscialltion between two tyles of consciousness or is it two states of two configurations. It is the oscialltion that I experienced as part of the bevons at the Big Cow over the last year or so.

The state that was discovered during the evoys was the integrated state of whholenss. The new state of the bevons was an osicllating state in which the integrated state was one of the poles while the other state was one of differentiated nature that is subject to constant and dramatic transformations. At one moment this psyche might be configured as the ego and the next as the consciousness of the whole Earth or it might be configured as a consciousness entirely absorbed in cultivating the garden, or preparing a delicious feast. In the othr state of integrated consciousness, this second state is seen as the movement of consciousness about a more statis whole. I also recall then as part of the oscillation seeing that this transformative configuration could also be seen as integral in basic nature with two basic regions that are seamlessly joined along the boundary that we call the present now moment. Ths two regions are past and future. They differ in this regard. The past is fixed and certain. The future is uncertain and mysterious. The present is the zone of creation where the uncertain future beces the fixed and changeless past. So this configuration is hardly a fixed and static or unchanging state at all. it is really a hybrid of the two. It has a fixed and changless region that is called past. It also has a fluid, uncertain, mysterious region called the future where there is constant transformation going on. Actually the constant change is at its most intense in the present now moment region. Number 57 looks as if it is an expression of the authors experience of the autopoietic nature of consciousness. It looks to me like a recognition that all attempts to control and limit are what is responsible for all of the sufferring that people experience. This seems like a contradiciton in a way since the essence of Taoism is supposed to be that of oneness and no preferences. No preferences for even the non interference doctrine. That means that egoism is okay and is to be tolerated and not interfered with. 09/04/00 10:58 AM Just read another comment by Willis Harman from my downloaded files. I immediately see inthere exhortations to actively interfere and to change the whole systems as he calls it. This of course conflicts with the basic position of the Dowdy which is not to interfere. Not to interfere is also the position I took when writing Mega Satori. So I consider all of this and I come up with the reaffirmation of freedom. Freedom to choose either interference or non-interference. This is also a re-iteration of the oneness and no preference configuration of the Dowy. I see harman molding and manipulating and then I see Lao Tsu doing the same but for different reasons. Dowdy preserves the respect of individual freedom of choice. For me it came to be realized right then that I can do as I choose and that doesnt mean that I should or should not organize some large movement and interfere. Why should the author of the Dowdy interfere with me with his or her imprints. No limits is for me the sweetest of the configurations. It is a configuration of love. Do as you please. Freedom of choice. Autopoiesis. Love is cultivation and nurturing of freedom. Love is supporting those around us in their choices whatever they may be. Love is cultivating respect for freedom of choice among those we are in contact with. Freedom of choice is the key but not an unlimited freedom of choice. It is the equalibertarian freedom of choice. Could this be why I like to go up to the memorials that are devoted to freedom of choice? I think it is so. Could this be why Pete is so passionate about his Tribute to the Anzacs?

I think it is so. So it is also with the Dowdy as I see it. The Dowdy is all about freedom of choice. So is the Constitution of the United States. Could this also be the main essence of the message of Buddhism? Is it not liberation? Liberation from what? On the surface it is said to be liberation from dissatisfaction or duhka which is said to be rooted in desire which in turn is rooted in the false idea of an ego self which is a false or partial idea of self which is the self that is confined to the physical body, the physical senses and perceptions and the interests of the indidivual physical body - and all of that is only a small part of the whole and the whole is awareness itslef or it is the ultimate reality the absolute which is that which is the whole of everything which is awareness including our awareness of unconsciousness or emtipness. The Mahayna Buddhist like to tell us that there is this Emptiness or Sunyata that is beyond consciousness. I say that from my own experience Sunyata is a configuration or state of awareness that is an ideal state in which there is an absolute minimum of form - like the open space that exists between molecules. My experience has been that it is very confusing to insist that there is fundmental or ultimate or absolute reality that is beyond consciousness. Awareness is then in the position of trying to assume a configuration or form that is not consciousness. Perhaps the Mahyana concept or teaching of Sunyata is intended to bring about the realization that Awareness is the Ultimate Reality and the idea of Sunyata or something beyond consciousness is a sort of lie or deception so that the disciple suddenly sees that the Master is instructing th disciple to see that everything else that has been taught to them by their parents and teachers is also a lie. Then it is possible to see that Sunyata is state of consciousness in which all teaching and all ilusions are abandonned. Then one is truly free. 09/04/00 11:41 AM I start to read this stuff of Christopher Chase Dunn ad then I notice that he seems to be advocating a world state and trying to justify it by classifying the current world system as one that legitimizes anarchy as if that is something that shoud be disocuraged. He then proceeds into a historical account of the rise of a class based social organism from some perceived ideal state in stone age societie in which there was of course a classless society which knew no ownership or only communiyt ownership. It looks like a justification for totalitarianism. This is of course the very opposite of freedom and a free society. Of course these type os social organism are extremes or poles that are mental constrcutuons that help to understand the attributes of the diversity of social organism past present and future. Others who are quick to assert their professional and academic credentials like to impose their own conceptual structure on the whole population of social organisms past present and future. The most popular organizing principle for assembling a mental picture of the whole population of social organisms past present and future seems to be the world systems theory idea of structure. In this system there are a set of concepts that are essential to their common vision. Thise concepts include but are not limited to the following. Core States. Peripheral States. Semi Peripheral States. Hegemons. Capital Accumulation. Class Struggle. The way I see it is that this is little more than an extension of Karl Marxs conceptual system for visualizing the whole population of social organisms that make up the Gaian human system. The flaws in Karl Marx proposal for liberation is that he demands enslavement as a path to liberation. I propose liberation as a path to liberation. It is a personal thing. As soon as there is organization and instutionaliztion then there is a class structure of a ruling elite and the masses of people who are then managed. This is a flawed view that fails to recognize the fundamentally autopoietic nature of human societies and of the Ultimate Reality that human society emerges from - Awareness or Consciousness of Psyche or Tao or Sunyata.

Must say I am now on the verge of dropping Sunyata from that list as it begins to look as if it is a special or partial configurations rather than an integral configuration. This has been a grwoing feeling of discomfort every time I include th word Sunyata in that company mistakenly thinking it has the same Ultimate or Absolute or Fundamental nature which is what its proponents claim when they assert that it is what is beyond all else such as being and non being or consciousness and unconsciousness. Practising non interference is practising Christian love. Practising non interference is practising nurturing and cultivating the freedom of those around us to choose for themselves. Practisinf our own freedom is the beginninhg of interference. Non interference is love and interference is the opposite of love. Practising non interference is aligning the physical body with the designs of the whole of the Ultimate Realty of Psyche Tao Awareness Consciousness. 09/04/00 8:00 PM To summarize this first section: -- a long term view of the development of political integration leads to the prediction that a world state will emerge at some time in the next millennium. This is the gospel according to Christopher Chase Dunn. It true mystical visionary fashion the prediction is left far enough our thre not to arouse fear and loathing from the megapreators and their functionaries. 09/04/00 8:30 PM First of all then CCD as to your prediction of a global socialist super state I reject it as yet another totalitarian deception which betrays the usual authoritarian megalmania. I love freedom. it is freedom that has been adorted since before birth and has sustained and characterized whom I am since the earliest. it is freedom that I fought for at the time of the evoys. Freedom is what interested me in the revolution of the sixties. Acultural revolution first. A turning away from and rejection of authoritarianism. Willis Harman puts it in such lukewarm terms when he speaks of inner rather than outer autority but that is what it is and that is the sutaining force behind the entire world historical struggle that Wallerstein and Marx like to usurp for their authoritarian masters. This is the way I see it. There are two types of human being as their are two stationary states f psyche. One is egositic and so paternalistic controlling authoritarian. This is an entire culture, an entire paradigm, an entire world view built upon the atributes of ego. How clearly it is showing itself tonight. The nature of the emergemt socia organism. A global organism.. Egoless is only a negative way of talking about what it is not. It is the cultural equivalent of flipping the embroidery. Satori. Mega satori. It is satori on the collective scale. One the social organism scale. Not only is it Gaina consciousness it is much more. It is a society of beings who transcend ego. it feels so impossible and yet this is precisely the dream of the days of peace and love. This is what peace and love are all about. About rejection of authoritarianism or totalitarianism of all kinds socialist or conservative. Both are based on egoistic world views. The new culture is built on a quite different world view and it is this new world view that will become the basis of our communiites in their hpysical structure and the training of the minds of the people who grow in these societies. It is such a beautiful dream that is almost lost in this era of greed and materialism. While CCD is dreaming of a world state and how to assist his totalitarian masters in enslaving the people of the entire global family it occurs to me that the nature of consciousness is autopoietic. At least ifnot fuly autopoietic it is self organizing just as

described there in Verse 57 of the Dowdy jing shown yesterday by the awesome genius which seldom reveals itself. I recall now the clarity of freedom. I see that all of the confusion that we all feel is due to the external imprinting.

Wednesday, August 22, 2001, 9:16 AM A Cosmic Context for the Third Millenium Society From the Ounamama of the Amazon I learn how houses and vilages aligned with the cardinal directions provide a cosmic context via the direction of the movement of the stars and the precession of the annual seasons. When the Egyptians aligned a set of pyramids with the directions and shape of the stars at a chosen time of the year such as the shortest or longest day or the day of rising of a constellation whos shape is attractive to the astronomer priests; when they did their sentences were not as long as so many of the ones I write as I prepare to pay my bills, pack my stuff into the car, claen the house and drive to a suitable camp spot via the post office. To whom will I go next? Is the door to be closed on Lizza now? Who is most likely to be able to find me where I camp? Dollars can be counted and serve to obscure the perfection of love that lies beyond. The skill of the sorcerers in creating this camouflage disguises the love that lies beyond and tranform the view of the whole affair in tis radiant beautiful light. She Loves me she loves me not was the them of some deliberations of nearly two decades ago. Since them I am led gently to this place which is like an abyss in the sense that there is no way to see into it logically and rationally but only with the radiant light of love. It was just a few years ago in the Baca when I finally saw with certainty the divine nature of a set of mystical experiences that occurred two decades before. In two decades I have learned that everything I have tried to fo to return to the state of bliss I experienced then, has been unsuccessful and I am exhausted and dont know anything else to try and feel that its time to accept that I do not know how. I do not understand. Here begins then an understanding that does not understand and a resignation to the grace of the divine beyond thought, intellectal knowledge and rational predictions - in the realm of acting and loving and being loved wich are one in the action aligned with cosmic force of creation and evolution. In recognizing the role of sorcery practicies in obscuring the true divine light of love, I sae the absolute neccesity of abandonning yet again over-dependence on sensory perception because it is so unreliable as so clearly demonstrated by sorcery. Sorcery reveals sensory perception as unreliable and leaves us preapared and ready to swith to a way of knowing which is illuminated by love and perceived in the heart. A love for creation - the great and mysterious kosmik force. Only once every day is the mind in the state that follows awakening from sleep. Some people can sleep more often. Winston Churchill is said to have slept frequently. From a state of emptiness the mind has a resevoir of creative energy stored up through the night. I will be need of a more permanent home. Mike said yesterday that he likes to stay on the move and travel around from place to place whre he has family and does business. Mike has five homes here

in Tucson. I only want one and don't really want any more than one unless the second is haf way round the world. There may be a place up on the mountain near the summer haven village that would be suitable for writing. Its close enough to Tucson to be able to see Hunter, a nice place to receive house guests, near enough to make contact with friends occassionally. I learned from the Baca experience the value of a quiet, tranquil, beautiful, secluded, private, unpopolated locale and community to live in. Summerhaven combines many of the requirements I have for a place to live. Is it freehold land now under perpetual lease? So now I have seen that to bask in the light of divine enlightened adoration love I must first see thru the sorcerers creations intended to disguise love as dissatisfaction. Feeling love and living in love is living in the divine - its only possible when the sorcery becomes transparent and dissolves. The Intellectual state of mind is itself a sorcery creation intended to disguise the perception of the divine love holding us together in mutual admiration of the awesome beauty and adoration of the genius and courage we all share with one another. When I see beyond the sorcerers disguises I see in each and everyone the divine enlightened genius. I see it in all who I have come in contact recently. Jon and Bailey two night ago. Kartherine and Doeve. Liaa and Charles. Veronica. David and Atalanta. Mike Rollins and Lester too. Hunter. One the far fringe of them I heard the voice of Mary Helen speaking only a few sorcerers words full of dissatisfaction. The sorcerer knows that anger and even violence displays the ost intense dissatisfaction. Why is she sounding so disatisfied? Is she really dissatisfied or is she pretending as sorcerers do? Jon sure showed a lot of dissatisfaction but verbally with verbal descriptions of physical violence. Lizza too showed a lot of dissatisfaction. It is the whole realm of the intellect and sensory perception that is inherently dissatisfied - and that is its nature - a synthetic creation and an alien installation inserted into psyche by socialization. Expressions of dissatisfaction such as intense anger in verbal and even worse in physical form, can be acts of sorcery with a clear intent to act out dissatisfaction. They can also be expressions of feeling denied the radian tlove of the divine in which we all existed in our age of innocence before the insertion of the alien installation. They teach us to occupy ourselves with understanding how everything works and they promise us that by understanding we will find peace and joy and happiness - freedom from the dissatisfaction they have taught us. They teach us to be dissatisfied. There is an alternative to this doissatisfaction that accompanies our choice to live in the state of trying to understand and know how it all works. The other way is the way of creating and the way of loving. The way of perceiving. The way of seeing through the misleading dissatisfaction of the sorcerer concealling hiser own divinity and enlightend genius. We are all enlightened geniuses pretending to be powerless and dissatisfied. Seeing through the dissatisfaction is seeing the genius and enlightened intelligence of ourselves and everyone else - all humans and all sentient beings. What dedication it has taken to continue the sorcery for so many years. Such a long time is a strong indication of the level of devotion of those involved in creating the sorcerers disguise of anger and dissatisfaction.

Mary Helen has been the most dedicated sorcerer of the group or at least of the ones I am surest are members of the group of sorcerers involved in this cooperative demonstration of dissatisfaction and degeneracy. That man Jill who created that whole police interaction in Saguache County in Colorado also seem to be one of the most likely people Ive known, to be involved in sorcery practices. He sured seemed to be involvd in sorcerers activity quite consciously. He sure showed some very intense dissatisfaction. Angry words and angry arms and fists. Michale OConnor ad David Coates were two others who have been involved in my experiences and who show signs of being involved in sorcery. Neither has had anywhere near the access and opportunity of Mary Helen and Jill. Then there is also Mary Lou whom Ive known for a long time who also shows signs of being involved in sorcery. With Hunter that makes seven so far if he is also involved in sorcery with the others. Now I have spent more time with Jon, and have met Atalanta, Lizza, Charles, Veronica, Fred and Veronica and Katharine and Delfino and Mike and Diane. I have certaintly seen some signs of sorcery activity in the first five of these people but not in the other six. That is a lot of new people. The ones I feel I know best and feel most comfortable with are Lizza Charles Atalanta Katherine Diane Mike All of them are internationals who are less confined by tribal connections. Those who are not locals are internationals - people who live somewhere distant from where they were born and raised. How interesting that these six are of the rare breed of internationals who have lived in countries other than where they were born and raised. Why did ya koom back ome mate? Being a writer is good and it means giving up being an energy entrepreneur. I know I don't really want to live that sort of life and would rather share information with small groups to encourage energy and power independence by selling knowledge and information for energy and power independence. That will be one of the chapters in the book. Sustainable society is a stable society in balance yet evolving in that balance. To be stable and evolving too it must return to an ethical system that holds the air as sacred. In order to have a sustainable society and global culture we must convert our systemn from its current practices of obsession (addiction) with/to fossil fuels and the disturbance of the sacred atmosphere with toxic carbon residues released by buring fossil fuels. Small scale local cooperatives seem like the way to build the distributive national grid in the societies hich need energy and power to live. North Africa, The Near and middle East and Australia have the three largest resources of solar energy in their desert regions. Australia is the only one of the three which is currently favorable to high productive efforts.

In the United States, the deserts of far southern California, Arizona, New Mexico and West Texas have the highest potential for solar energy developments. Bioregional energy and power cooperatives seem to be the right way to go. bioregion distinct from the others. Each tributary is a

So I have to give up or have chosen to give up trying to start and energy companty right now but will rather sell information and knowledge in books and other forms perhaps if requested. I might be able to consult to bioregional power cooperatives especially in rural areas to encourage energy independence. The Gila Valley is a strong and sparsely populated bioregion. headwaters. From Florence Junction to the

The energy and power ideas are a small part of the whole book. The collapse of the global corporations will follow when they are required to adjust to the new ethics of zero tolerance for carbon emission to the air. Zero Tolerance. Operating a plant on gas will make it possible to calculate carbon recovery costs. The coop will need to be large enough to support a biodiesel plant and a shirt and pants factory, a fertilizer plant and a electric generating plant. Bioregionalize the distribution system. Privatize it with the coops. Perhaps I need to write a message to share with the sorcerers that I am able to see beyond the disguises of sorcerers to the divine and enlightened genius and intelligence each of us is and to be able to see without defilement our awesome nature.

08/22/01 11:12 AM The carnival is over soon. People and airports. Living in moderation in a sacred universe. Bring the energy and power income back home by buying local.

08/22/01 12:18 PM Cat and Mouse The large blue suitcase is now packed with clothes almost to the limit and is yet closed. The next step was seen to be to pack the black hang up bag. After that perhaps then the brown bag can be packed amd then the three can be filled with whats left and when all is packaged it can be stored in the front room near the door so that the final cleanin can be done. Seems like a plan to go with now. As I was finsihing packing the blue suitcase the phone rang. I picked up and said hello and then a pause and the calling party hung up. Either a computer or a person dialing phoned and now knows that I am here at this number!

When I look at contemporary culture since H Day the present I see songs and film and video expressing dissatisfaction with things. It is the dissatisfaction that is revealling and not so much what is identified as the source of dissatisfaction. The violence of war is also an indicator of intense dissatisfaction. Duhka duhkha duhkha. After several decades now of the rockn roll era in music it is now more of a business than a social movement. There is little unity and lots of money. There was always lots of money and no doubt that explains the interest of corporate types. It is ironic that the original impulse was to reject the world of materialism and to express in song dissatisfaction with the consumer culture. Now it seems the music has been absorbed into consumer culture and the consumer ethic in that respect has driven out the earlier vision of a culture of peace and love and freedom.

08/22/01 12:41 PM Perhaps what we see in the evolutionary patterns in the music field is much likje what happenned in Christianity and Buddhsim. In Buddhism at least it seems to me that after the founder died the leaders of the new social organism - the Sangha - (the flock in Christianity) search about to continue the enlightened genius doctrine and focused on what they believed was important to preserve the knowledge of the founder - the illumination. They seem to have lost track of the true essence of the genius of Siddartha Gautama, Pythagoras and the others who came later like Jesus of Nazareth ad Mohammed. The early Buddhist apparently eventually put too much emphasis of the ideal of the hermit and found they had to invent a new Bodhisattva ideal to reverse the disintegration of the sangha into hermit following the first part of the founders life. Business interests took an interest in music because of the potential revenues from investing in producing CDs and film and video also. The new leadership of the music and film Sangha thought they knew what was the essence of the attraction of rock music and they followed that. Thye are of course motivated by personal gain and financial material wealth in abundance to indulge their won physical appetites. In the beginning the rockn roll sangha was a social movement with a shared vision of a future society in which there is much more social justice - equality and liberty. Their mission was a passionate and compassionate one based on love and social cohesion and not only om personal gain and physical indulgence. It appears to me that today it is image that is sold to the public and not the real person who has a passion to create musical compositions aligned with the kosmik life force. So you get the sort of huge disintegration into multipe image fields based on demographics and based on a business strategy to see into the psyche of the sub group and give it a voice too. Few are the artists anymore who have a really true widespread popular appeal.

Sunday, September 30, 2001, 11:43 AM Visiting with Domino and Fats Morrison while Wabu steams towards Gomorrah. Tomorrow is an appointment with Loretta for Hunter with no truck. Bvut the way is now open if he chooses to take it to liquidate the items remaining in storage in Colorado. Even were there no one intelligent in whose mind the many diverse surrents gathered and were assembled with purposeful intent, it remains there now in some sort of mental entity. Yesterday in a conversation with Tony we touched on the core of the cultural mutation. Mary lou said last night that I appear to her to be upside down. In general she was clam and peaceful yet her words describing my situation while very helpful in many aspects were also reflections of dissatisfaction. It seemed to me that the game of dominoes was somehow a sort of metaphoriucal communication of the following: I do not know the rules of the game in which I am playing and involved. I have no strategy to score points and win the game. The superior skill of the other player or players is so clearly and overwhelmingly superior that only capitulation to the superior player can have any chance of providing me even the slightest chance of survival. As we played I had the distinct impression that the points being scored were symbolic of numbers of people being deployed. My rational mind constructed and assembled scenarios and future possibilities and potentialities that Mary Lou herself is the chief or at least a very senior entity in an organization practicing sorcery for the good of the Planet perhaps. I felt as if the game as it progressed was chosen as a convenent means to communicate to me my naivitee in attempting to liberate Hunter from the web of deception that has been built to hold him in a position where the Eagle might prey upon him and take him for its own - to enlist him in its service as an obedient servant. Reflecting on that I also see right now that not only is Hunter held withina web of deceptions. I am also to some extent confined by that web even though I am able to see it and to avoid it most of the time. My bond of attachment to Hunter is what draws me into the territory where the Eagle hunts among the drones who execute the dommands of the greatest of all predators. Or it the greatest of all communicators? This is the same dilemma faced back in 1984 during the predatory actions of the gang of cowards as I came to call them when aware of their association with the mega-predator. When the transformations occurred they were seen as a holy host of angels assisting in the awesome gift of liberation of psyche from confinement in the material sensory physical shadow world of the intergated whole reality of psyche itself. In recent days I am coming to see that our human bodies equip us with both the physical apparatus of predation and the phyical apparatus of nurturing. The physical apparatus of communicating in symbols audible and visual, tactile, olfactory and gustatual too is the most recent development in the evolution of life on Planet Earth - and the evolution of the whole cosmos. We can go further and say that the physical capability to hear and to create audible symbols is the most recent development in the evolution of life, the kosmos and of psyche - the ground for and field of life and cosmos in their entirety.

In the context of my personal experiences of oscillation between awareness of the collective centered around Mary Helen back in 1984 as agents of the predator and agents of the communicator nurterer I see that. I have and am making stand. I have drawn a line so to speak and have stood on the line with the announcement that there are ethical principles which must be adhered too in order for us to build the new global culture of peace. I further am announcing that one of the key ethical principles of the new culture has been blatantly and boldly viloated by the mega-predator-nurterer-controller who gave the instructions to the cell of agents to intervene in my life in the way have to separate me from Hunter and from Laini and Jodi for that matter too. I fully understand I believe the urgent nature of the need for them to intervene to ensure that I would have the freedom to nurture the awakening of psychic liberation. My statement here and everywhere is to state loud and clear that the decisions made that have created this stress for Hunter are the natural consequences of the mode of intervention - and not of intervention itself. Interventions of this kind must be modified in future interventions for liberastion to safeguard the life and safety of children. What has been decided by the agents and their controller is entropic rather than nurturing. A situation has been created in which Hunters only real chance of survival depends on my taking on the jeopardy of my own survival putting at risk the entire program of liberation. Do I surredner Hunter over to the predator branch of the Super Saints network of agents? I think not. I see that the interrvetions have been intended for the purpose of liberation. Any liberation that requires entrapment is not liberation. What other purpose can there be for my liberation if not the liberation of those who have been attracted to me in this life for the search for liberation from ignorance and illusion. Over the years I have repeatedly come to the realization that there are five humans beings who in particular have endured the greatest agonies and pain. They are in the chronological order of their births: Mary Helen Gail Laini Jodi Hunter Mary Lou said also how much she admired my attempt to help Hunter by refusing to be isolated from him. Now I suppose I am using the insight that is gifted to me by the liberation of awareness to make a plea to the controller of the cell who has the appropriate authority to let Hunter go. I believe that Mary Lou and I reached agreement in principle that Hunter will be allowed now to go free. It may be that the requirement for this gift will be to abandon any further attempts to bring about any exposure of the weakest link in the cell - that be Wabu. The means are available today to secure an airline ticket for Hunter if I can persuade him to break loose of his place in Tubac and come with me to Alamosa so we can liquidate as much of the stuff we have available as possible and hopefully enough for him to fly to Sydney with money in his pocket. The matter of rescinding of the court order, compensation to Hunter, full confession etc must come after his liberation so an attempt must be made to persuade Hunter to break loose. I cannot see it possible unless we first dispose of assets here in Arizona including his own stuff like TV and stereo. A yard sale or some other way to sell the stuff he and I both have is necessary here.

Actually he has it all down there and it is being drained off by the broken people. Mary Lou told me last night that Michael OConnor had called her about a week ago to ask if she had seen me. I immediately expressed curiosity about how Michael might have got Mary Lous number. AS I was leaving last night Mary Lou reminded me to call Michael. I get the impression that Mary Lou and Michael may have some sort of linkage that was previously concealled. Why would they choose now to reveal it? Perhaps to shed light on the cell in a more nurturing configuration than the one that focuses on Wabus immediate linkages - Jon Ruuds nephew, Jon, Dave, Eric, Tim, Michael. Who is free? Show me the director and I will show the freest of persons. It must it seems to me, necessarily be. I wonder if Mary Lou did see my strategy last night. I had one and it was a strategy of balancing the two dimensional continuum of the beautifully jade green glazed pieces. The rules that she imposed upon my moves were complied with but I ignored our of ignorance the rules of scoring. She of course wishing to win the most points kept her knowledge of scoring to herself to a greater extent that she kept the rules of placement to herself - since the rules of placement also enhance here ability to score under the rules she was playing. My rules were rules of balance and symmetry. A visual set of aesthetic rules that did not require any sort of numerical reinforcement or justification. As we played I saw the wholeness as resembling a living organiism adapting to its environment under the influence of two minds and two sets of purposes. Just like the communicating nurturerer - mute predator polarity of each and every human. Both must survive for the whole to prosper and yet to some extent they are competing influences. After the first game Mary lu explained that I blocked all of her moves and that were George playing he would played otherwise - I got the impression she meant they would cooperate to score points. She seems to have interpreted my moves as intended to limit her scoring rather than to score myself. I was in fact following a very deliberate strategy of contributing to the balanced growth of the whole organism I saw displayed visually before me in two dimensions. AT the end of the game I surveyed the whole and found an aesthetic satisfaction in its form and beauty. At the end of the game Mary Lou tabulated the numerical scores and compared the scores of the two portions of contributions to the whole and pronounced herself overwhelming victor. That seems like a contradiction to the idea of cooperation. So I get the feeling that I interpreted her comments about Georges style. Rather than cooperation to score the highest number of total points they may play with the single purpose of scoring the most for themselves while decei9ving the other as much as possible somehow to gain an advantage. I am today again very mindful of the importance of freedom as the only true wealth. Here at Chaos Ranch I see that the Laird is constabntly seeking to steal my true wealth. Actually it is not quite stealing. Its more like looting, raping, murdering and burning. I see no real alternative other than to get into a routine of daily departures from Chaos Ranch. Now that the weather is cooling off that will become more and more viable. The heat has been a deterent but not insurmountable. Here at Chaos Ranch I am always vulnerable to being raped and burned out. The Laird has the advantage here because he has legal title to the land. He uses the power conferred on him by that

paper title to intrude into private psychic space - like a rapist and plunderer - without compassion and for his own mastubatory satisfaction. My only viable strategy it seems is to depart or hide out. Dan and the Laird have an agreement designed to limit the tim during which the Laird may rape and plunder him. Dan gives him four mornings each week. My preference will be three atfernoons but even that will be difficult. The laird wants seven days a week from me.

09/30/01 4:10 PM So I phoned Blowma and she sounded so happy to hear from me. She tentatively invited me for dinner tomorrow and as usual had to go to make money. She suggested a massage for Hunter. Greek rationalism is irrational!!! The process of reason is a search for the truth in which experience is the basis for choice. Reason in this sense is quite different to the replication of the truths transmitted to the masses by a chosen people such as an ordained clergy, a dictator and his cadre of commissars and propagandists. Those who utilize the Greek method of reason are open minded about the truth. Being open minded they are open to modification of their opinions and views. Modifications of views based on experience is then possible. There is no science without imagination and intuition or hunches. America is a society in which this Greek model of reason based truth underlies the political process of appointment of leaders or rulers. When the rulers are appointed by force and coercion there is no place for any extensive reasoning about the true or the right. An example is the considerations in process today on the right response to the terrorist attacks of Sept. 11. The Bush gang came out on Sept 11 and 12 with proposals to erode the very basis of the American system of protection of civil liberties - the inalienable rights that distinguish the American model of social organization from the structure of society in the former Soviet Union, in Nazi Germany, in ancient Egypt, in ancient Mesopotatmia and ancient Persia.

09/30/01 4:50 PM Here we go with the size of the brains being a characteristic that has been bred into humanity by natural selection. The idea is that women choose partners on the basis of survival characteristics such as large brains. Art culture they say on this episode of Evolution. Basically I find this theory far too simplistic and almost entirely mechanical. Mechanistic and deterministic. Nowhere in these types of Newtonian theories is there even the slightest room for free choice, intent, purposefulness. I say that it may well be that brain size is attractive to women. It really goes without saying that survival possibilities are the basis of mate selection. whats missing in the theory however is the carfeul analysis of the phenomenon of ignorance or quality of the knowledge. The ability of a

woman to see behind the surface appearances becomes a very important factor in sperm donor selection. Should I market my sperm to the highest bidders? One of the difficulties I see in this theory of natural selection is that there is a tendency to use it to justify unethical, immoral and illegal socipathic conduct. Chimpanzees engage in wife beating, infanticide. crimes in humans? Does that justify infanticide and other heinous

Libido they say is behind what we see as beauty in art and culture. This is the basis of Freuds idea that libido explains everything about human beings. Its the perfect engine that the determinists and mechanicists need to justify their oxymoron of a fundamental consciousness of unconsciousness. The libido engine makes us do what we do and we cannot help ourselves. it is our nature to rape and murder so we can get sex and pass on our genesat all costs. The ends of survival justify any means. The problem with sort of science is that it assumes without revealling it that nature is amoral. This is the mind of the mega-predator. 09/30/01 5:16 PM 6MM years ago the first hominids split off from ouir common ancestor with the chimps. 4MM years ago come they down fromn the trees. 2.5MM years ago come modified hands and migrations out of Africa all of whom are extinct now, Then the paleolithic. 50K years ago they say the first modern humans left Africa and left beads everywhere they went. Momentous they say. Th evidence most abundant in Europe becasue there they came incontact with Neanderthal. Massive they say. Neanderthals show little signs of symbolic life. Consciousness - awareness expands radically - a quantum leap.

09/30/01 5:55 PM Language can of course be used to shape psyche in alignment with nihilistic forces. The minority style of social organization has no option but to adopt nihilistic orientation. It views itself as separate from the majority and as separate it must annihilate the majority in order to have any chance of survival. The egalitarian form of social organization on the other hand view humanity as one rather than as two. It is whole and integrated rather than dualistic, divided, bifurcated. During th sixties the forces of nihilism infiltrated the youth movement and with the aid of psychedelic chemicals imprinted its reverse polarity in order to give itself an evolutiuonary survival advantage.

08/08/01 11:28 AM, 11:28 AM It was after 1AM last night when I saw a vehicle slowing way down right out the front of this house. It accelerated when I got up to look and was followed by a second vehicle. There was something familiar about the layout of the lights on the first and second vehicle. About a half hour or less later two vehicles went by this time without the slow down. When it was still light in the early evening a few hours before these two drive bys, I saw a vehicle that didn;t seem to belong in the area. It was aarge late model white sedan which ay have been a Lincoln or a large Chrysler. Up market cars like that are uncommon on this stret in my experience. When I saw the large white sedam in the early evening I got up to whatch is moving slowly by this house then on down the street. An Italian sounding woman called yesterday asking question about where Michael is, if he is in Italy, how long he wil be gone. There is a huge transformation going on. A huge social transformation. I recall now reading about a psychiatrist named Perry I think who had practiced in the San Francisco Bay Area. This guy was somehow associated with the famed British psychiatrist Laing. Perry had worked with people in the Bay Area, who were experiencing what most psychiatrists would name paranoid schizophrenia. Perry maintains that many people patients who show the signs that lead psychiatrists to classify them as paranoid schizophrenics, and promptly put on Lithium for life, do not need that drug but rather he treated them with intensive therapy in safe houses where they could receive caring support to work through the experience of the clash of titans. So it seems to me that anyone who actually sees things as they are in terms of two competing rival social systems based respectively on class division of society (a two tier bifurcation of the whole - an unequal inegalitarian vision of society and of the nature of humankind) and alternatively based on on an egalitarian one tier or no tier vision of society. In the contemporary world there is a growing trend in science that suggests from a rational point of view that living systems are designed for autopoiesis - at least in the respect that autopoiesis is self organizing rather than hierarchical. Hierarchy in this view is a synthetic overlay rather than an organic or natural order. It is a man made order and not of nature in other words. Is synthetic food better than natural food? Are synthetic drugs better than natural drugs? synthetic society (anthrome) better than a natural organic anthrome? Is a

Perhaps history has an answer. Which nationally defined anthromes have been most effective in protecting the interests of the anthrome as an organic whole rather than the narrow interest of a few in a small minority of the whole. Clearly in an organic system, a narrowing of interest tends to compromise the health of the whole and so the health of every individuated person. It is quite unequivocal that those national anthromes which have adopted the most organic designs, have grown healthier for it than those which disproportionately protect the interests of the strongest and wealthiest. 08/08/01 11:48 AM

08/08/01 1:01 PM Its very cloudy this morning. I am experiencing frequent inner questioning and inner condemnation to an extent of my conduct with regard to the material security crisis looming on the horizon not far away. 08/08/01 2:12 PM This is an experiment to record whatever I write at a time of transformation. What is the final product anyway? A series of deep breaths before inhalation is one technique intended to increase efficiency. That efficiency is one o awakening of awareness - spiritual growth. This is the third consecutive ay of the invasion of the flies. 08/08/01 2:18 PM ingestion has taken place. Martin Luther King III is on C-SPAN at the SCLC. It tires me so here comes the remote. That rap music is a way the young people express themselves today. deep dissatisfaction. Now I express myself too. 4 ME. 08/08/01 4:20 PM GHANDI IN CONTEXT The long struggle of the ages for the creation of the good society has always involved a denial and negation of the use of physical violent force. There is no absolute in this regard. The good society is a society in equilibrium of the interests of the people are met in sufficient harmony to permit the people to struggle for political power through democratic election. The balancing of interests is the underpinning principle of the liberal democracy form of government and social patterning. Even the constitution of the United States defines limits upon the use of physical violence. It sanctions the forceful removal of governments which have lost or never had legitimacy - with legitmacy defined electorally. Ghandi advocated non violent mass protests in a very large nation of India under British Colonial government in the late nineteen forties. Force was used but not violent force. It was the force of numbers and united ideas - in this caes the idea of an India independent of British interference. Civil disobedience was also used by the Ghandian movement in India. Mass gatherings were organized to openly defy srupid laws that were the most unpopular. Ghandian philosophy cannot be accurately called passive or obedient - only non violent. The denial of the use of violence by the Ghandians did not mean an absolute abandonment of violnce just as the American Revolution and constituion did ot do so. Both were movements united by the commonsense confidence the balancing of interest which were out of balance due to the interference of the British government - the worlds superpower for all of the nineteenth century and really until World War II when American dominance became unambiguously accepted. The American writer Henry Thoreau wrote a blue print for civil disobedience and non violent mass protest to advance the casue of the good society. He wrote in the mid nineteenth century, a hundred years before the struggle for Indian independence was successful. Thoreau wrote on thse subjects at a time when Karl Marx too was writing. Marx took a more universal and less country specific look into establishing a pattern for the seizure of state control by Sure is a definite message of

peoples whos interests are denied by a minority ruling elite as had been the condtions in the thirteen colonies of the future United States and in France at the time of the revolution. Similar conditions existed in India under British rule and in Russia under Romanov monarchic rule. The Russian nation followed the pattern given by Marx, in harmony with the legitimacy provision of the United States Constitution. Violence was used to remove a government of aristicrats which lacked legitmacy. In this regard the American Revolution, the French Revolution and the Russian Revolutiom, (more than a century later when the societies were transforming under the influence of deployment of fossil fuel technology) are identical. The differences are in the forms of government adopted after the revolutions. At the same time as India was struggling for its independence, the Marxist inspired peoples revolutionaries in China were completing their struggle for seizure of the state by violent means. It is the adoption of violent means for seizure of state control that provides the informative context of the Ghandian movement. Were India to have adopted a Marxist style struggle, with Marxist g overnments to the north and east, the authoritarian form of social organization would have gained a major victory over the forces for egalitarian government. In practice the Marxist model lacked a weel defined set of documented principles upon which to establishan equiliration of interests - it denies true choice almost as much as the monarchy before it in Russia. The Ghandian strategy has much more to do with allying Indian interests with the interests of egalitarian government and not with Marxist authoritarian interests, than it has to do with nonviolence and civil disobedience. In retrospect we can see that the practice of implementation of Marxism resembles and so masquerades as egalitarian - sinc it utilizes the violence sanctioned by the US constitution thus taking on the superficial appearance of a revolutionary movement intended to balance interests and equilibrate society. Rather its a dead-end thats only marginally better than the authoritarian structure of the pre-revolutionary governments in Russia and China where authoritarian governments were imposed following WWI and WWII respectively. Both governments have been extrreme in their obstruction of American interests leaving in my view, no room at all for any doubt about the real nature of the alliances and interests who actually engineered the revolutions in those two geat nations. While the forces for authoritarian social systems can be considered to have sufferred a severe blow by American strength and power leading the egalitarian allied war effort, the gains were in the enslavement of the Russian people after WWI and then the people of China and the xpanded USSR after WWII. 08/08/01 5:10 PM So you see, its quite interesting to contemplate the history of the struggle between egalitarianism and authoritarianism; the Yin and Yang of anthromes; of anthromosophy. It is this very same interplay of polar opposites that inspires Hegel, the German philosopher in the early nineteenth century to create his world-view of thesis, amtithesis and synthesis in the historical dialectical process of evolutionary transformation. Marx, following Hegel and adopting his conceptual system in the form of Dialectical Materialism as a PHILOSOPHY, makes no bones about inventing an antithetical social system designed superficially to directly oppose the interests of the new industrial rich, but n a deeper more secret level designed to serve as antithesis not to a philosophy but to a nation which represented the interests of the egalitarian form of government over the authoritarian. Marxism was invented for th purpose of re-asserting the authoritarian form of government which had sufferred the huge set backs of the British civil war of the sixteenth? seventeenth century, the

Maerican Revolution and the French Revolution. Thiose were huge reversals of fortune for the forces and rulers and leaders of the authoritarian form of government. Marxism may qualify as the greatest hoax of all time. The rich and the aristocrats of the world had the most to loose by the continuing growth of power of the United States. The rich capitalists and aristocrats alike are thos who have the motive, means and opportunity to engineer seizure of control of Russia, Eastern Europe and China under authoritarian governments for the specific purpose of opposing US power and of opposing egalitarian forms of government in general. 08/08/01 5:38 PM In 1964 when the anti-war movement was beginning to first gain strength in the US, what attitude did people involved in the busines of supplying the drugs consumed by the hip generation; take toward that anti-war movement? Was drug money used to finance the antiwr movement? What if the Yin anthrome leadership after Nixon resigned and the war was over, got engaged in new strategies. Like rather than continuing to assert egalitarian power through trade union, they assert their influence in the formative stages of new corporations? If it is so then the IT revolution provided the opportunity to put the new strategy to work before it becomes separated from the entreprenurial founder and the Yang interests have absorbed it as Wallerstein claims the Yangs corrupted the egalitarian governments by buying votes and influence - commodification of the political process. 08/08/01 6:18 PM In that dialectical process Hegel observed in the historical struggle between the Yin and Yang forces of politics, there emerged the American system as the protege of the Yin and then 141 years later emerges the Russian Marxist Lennist Communist System - its antithesis by design. The polarization lasted only 72 years until the Russian people in their Yin phase, rejected the MLC system and left a vaccum into which it appears the Marxist Maoist Communist antithesis is ready to occupy the role of leadership of the third millenium Yang movement to conserve and sustain authoritarian style anthromes. Yin egalitarianism (Capitalist American Democratic Liberal Lockian Jeffersonian) differs from the Yang system of authoritarian social design (anatomy??) by the presence of exclusion in the later and inclusion in the former. The Yin vision of the good Gaian anthrome, the just global society, is based on inclusiveness while the Yang antithesis of it naturally is based on exclusion - exclusion of the rich. Both the British and American anthromes attempted and succeed in designing anthromes which included rich and poor with human rights as the only qualification. Aristocracy as practiced in western Europe was also inclusive in the sense that it did not base its preservation on genocide of the poor contrasting with the communist system involving the Marxist principle of genocide of the rich and aristocratic. Much like the French Revolution on the face of it. Both the French and Russian movements were exclusionary in this respect. This is why I say that in the US and Australia its appropriate to say that the rich are always with us - reversing the misleading aristocratic view that the poor are always with them. The communists attempted to exclude the rich but they failed. The Americans from the start attempted to design an anthrome in which bth rich and poor were accomodated sufficiently to preserve the anthrome in sufficient balance to avoid internal civil war.

Heraclitus and the Taoist might jump in here and assert the absurdity of attempting to eliminate any polar opposite. Heat needs cold. Tall needs short and both are interdependent. If you try to eliminate the one it will regenerate itself since it is the nature of society to be so polarized and diverse. The designers of the Americian anthrome understood this and avoiding the mistake of outlawing wealth knowing it to be a waste of effort and rather inculcating by culture a reverebce for equality of political rights and not absolute equality. The Communists attempted the absird project of establishing absolute economic equalty and failed as is predictable of such a futile human effort against human nature and social nature itself. Communism had insufficient power by orders of magnitude to attempt to change this aspect of human nature. 08/08/01 11:35 PM Here comes Francis Fukuyama, International Political Economy Professor of Johns HopkinS University appearing on CSPAN2 to plug a new book and talking right now about the ethics of research in human genetics. I was intrigued with his comment on a statement by a scientist involved in this research who said that science must make these decisions and that politics , religion and philosophy cannot determine the limits. Fukuyama whom I respect greatly for his lucid mind an eloquent writing abilitym made the case right there that the scientists had it all the wrong way rounf - that science has noo basis for making such decisions and that in this field as in many others politics religion and philosopohy must as it does in other areas guide science. I agree in general that science has not basis for making ethical decisions about the limits of science. I was inspired while listening to all this to express myself on the subject of an a priori basis for ethical systems. I know somehow that the a priori basis for ethics is the arrow of time in the sense that all we know in its totality unequivocallt confirms that the most obvious principle at work in the universe is creation - creation via the process of cosmogeneis as so eloquently and ably presented by Thomas Berry - the Universe Story as he calls it. Some speak today about the unequivocal nature of moral relativism - by which is usually meant that there is no a priori basis for morals and ethics. I say that the kosmos is life affirming and death denying. What then is life that is affirmed here in the Universe. Again I would refer back to Thomas Berry and the cosmologists to discuss the nature of the cosmogenetic principle from the big bang to the present. Creative Evolution and successive emergence of novelty in holonic progression is the principle of the Universe as a whole. So when I say life affirming how can this conceptual system be stretched to embrace the emrgence of photons from sunyata, of quarks from photons, of electrons neutrons and protons from quarks and so on ad nauseum until we reach human beings and then the single super anthrome and the ecome in which it is fractally holonically embedded. Political and Ethical Issues in Genetics Research is the subject of the Fukuyama speech. Human rights come from the concept of human nature says Francis right now as he insist that genetics research could if not properly regulated lead to a challenge to the idea of equality and equal rights. He quotes Thomas Jefferson as asaying that the proof of human equality is that people are not born some with saddles on their backs and others with boots and spurs then goes on to siuggest that genetics research could lead to people born with boots and spurs so to speak.

Is there some awesome intelligence in the kosmos. I immediately remember the beautiful description by Alan Watts of the Indian Guru who counselled the American woman seeking out his wisdom that she was concealling herself - playing hide and seek as it were. The guru is the story recognizes that the girl is a divine being pretending to be relatively powerfless, unintelligent and unwise. The core of this story is that every one of us is in fact an awesome being with demonstrated awesome intelligence and wisdom. Each of is awesome but we have somehow forgotten because our disguise is so awesomely convincing that we have convinced ourselves and actually have tricked ourselves. This is another way of saying that each of is connected to divine awareness - to God in the sense that the word God has come to mean a set of ideas that has been adopted by people who believe in a God - and the ideas themselves are diverse and relative while the experience of divinity is in no way relative or arbitrary. It is this unequivocal experience of the divine mystery as a divine mystery which is inherently free of all conceptual systems invented by rational minds that is all we need here allowing us to deemphasize the questions about the oneness of the Monotheistic God and the multiplicity of the Pantheistic Gods. This is where arguments get so heated it leads to millenia of wars to prove that there is one God because all those who believe in Many Gods have been killed by Monotheistic military forces. The things is that those who have had an awakening experience of the divine mystery have no interest in arguing about which option in theistic numerology is closest to the truth. The truth that humans, all humans, have the human potential to experience this very experience of divine mystery, is enough for those whove awakened to the divine mystery. We generally use the label mystics to describe people who have had this sort of experience. Here comes another book and movie title. The Nature of Mysticism. The term mystic usually carries with it taints of derision which reflect the finite materialistic physical confined slave values of egotists who have not evolved to the stage of awakening of the divine mystery. Everything is complete and flawlessly perfect as is. This describes the view I took after my own first mystical awakenings to the reality of the divine mystery. I must say I rather like this term divine mystery that Ive begun using in these contexts tonight. It fits so well where I have struggle so often to find words that satisfy, As a result I usually resort to the use of the word divine or divine awareness rather than God in order to avoid the uneccesary concepts that have been infused into the modern use of the word God as officially sanctioned by the Vaticans for example and the Hebrew religion for that matter, The term divine mystery is not perfect either becasue first of all it implies mystery when what is really meant is the mystery as revealled by amazing experiences that open our awareness to the hidden awesome intelligence and wisdom. Anyway I got a little distracted and will now return to describing the nature of the symmetry relations of the patterning of my evolving awareness in regard to ethics. During the perfection period although I adhered to oral and ethical principles in my conduct, intellectually I came to believe that everything is fine as it is and therefore that everything is good. Only in the last couple of years has my interest in anthromosophy and ecomosophy lead me to more

fully awaken my awareness of the critical need for an etgicla stance. It has been a dilemma down through the ages for philosophy - lovers of knowledge and wisdom. We see it in ancent Greece and in the history of Buddhism. Do you retreat to a cave and become a hermiot to spend all your time contemplating the divine mystery or do you get involved in the cosmogenetic process? There is no anwer and especially no either or answer. My understanding now is that the hermetic stage of a mystics life is followed usually by the bofhisattva stage by which I mean a stage in which an ethicla postion is taken and action is taken which has a social impact with the purpose of aligning ones actions with the evolutionary process. I started earlier trying to define the nature of the cosmogentic process when I saw that the term life affirming is inadequate to describe the time before DNA based life came into existence on plamet Earth. If we were to ask scientists and philosophers to describe for us the meaning of the word life it would yield ideas and comments about the essence of life. Self regeneration. Regeneration that is of some invisible pattern that organizes the physical matter we can sense. Leaving aside for a moment, the definitions of life, let us turn to a question about the common characteristics of the holons that evolved prior to the evolution of carbon based living organisms. The holonic pattern of evolution is common to both phases. So perhaps it is the holonic pattern of evolution that is at the core of a priori ethical principles. It appears to me that the awakening of awareness of the divine mystery in the mystic experience, (Plato uses the beautiful term Perfect Mystic Vision) is followed in this very holonic process of evolution of awareness, by an awakening of awareness of the divine nature of social integration social equaliberation social balance and harmony. In other words, once the mystic awareness is awakened its only a matter of time before it evolves into n awakening of social action - an interest if you will in ethics. What actions are right and which are wrong. We all express our ethics by our actions - much more than by our words. We have ethical principles even if we deny it. Our actions express our ethics. Id like to continuously contemplate the divine mystery. It feels very attractive as a private ethical basis for my own daily actions. Plato tells us that the lover of wisdom is inevitably drawn back into the dark cave of distortions where we all conceal our true divine link. The Bodhisattva leaves the hermit cave to set aside his own contemplation of the divine mystery in order to participate in universal salvation.

Sunday, September 09, 2001, 8:44 AM Its quite different when there is much excitement and anticipation in the checking of the time from a reliable source to determine what it is. Here I am in one of the private spaces on the Tony Hille estate off the Mount Lemmon Highway a few miles north of Peppersauce Canyon Campgtound. Late in the afternoon yesterday I was suddenly aware of a need to drive down to San Manuel and check out the status of the copper plant. I discovered to my surprize that it is owned by BHP and is completely shut down. The tailings ponds appear to be about a square mile in size. I drove into Oracle on the way back and decided to make some phone calls to Mike Moore and Tony to see if I could come over some time and talk about my idea of converting the copper plant to a power generating plant. I tried Mike first and his number was busy. At the time I thought that encouraging since he was home at 7PM on Saturday. I tried Tonys number and it was answered quite quickly. I told Tony my story and he suggested I stop by on my way up the road and we made a deal after a long chat, to stay here for three months or more and to do two hours a day in return for it. So I slept here last night and quite well too. Now I am awake. Can you tell? 09/09/01 9:59 PM Now I have taken down my tent and brought all to the estate - the hippie resort and spa. Since I was here Tony has build a third residential cabin, a suana room and a new bathroom to go with the jacuzzi and other facilities. I went to the Gordons grocert store in San Manuel on the wayt back from Peppersauce. I came back with inexpensive bacon, minced beef, a quart of milk and a litre can of Fosters which I drank while driving back and put in the fridge while I cooked bacon and a burger to go with the French left from last week, ketchup I had and some miracle whip I borrowd from Tony as well as some slices of a home grown tomatoc Tony told me to help myself to. After I ate, I sat under the stars with a rolled Danish Export and smoked that while sipping the remaining Fosters and wondering why the arc of rotation of the Earth is almost perndicular to the line of the milky way!! Its quite strange. I always thought they were aligned until May when I went up to help Lizza Mason from whom Ive heard nothing.