must i pretend that i'm someone else for all time? when will my reflection show who i am inside?

Why must we all conceal what we think what we feel must there be a secret me i'm forced to hide? i won't pretend that i'm someone else for all time when will my reflection show who i'm inside?

CHAPTER 1 guess nt many ppl will notice my notes here other then sum1 hu reali care or hv nothg 2 do since so many of u feel curious abt da question-----y i still dun hv a bf ?? easy.. since am doin nothg these days no class..24 hrs on9 n mv so i'll juz share kay? sumtimes i do scare gatherin u noe?? bcoz ppl keep askin do u alr hv a bf?? i said no.. Y??!! i said bcoz u din introduce sum1 2 me swt isn' t it? as 4 relatives side i'll reply: tk it slowly i hv 2 choose carefully da best 1 may nt cum so early =) act out of all is da prob is i din find sum1 i luv and he luv me too and as i said, guy tat i once liked, ALL dun like me or mayb i dunno la din find out so.. however, tis's my fate i guess.. hmm..act..i do hv choices juz i dun wanna betray myself 2 b v da ppl i dun like though am goin 2 b single 4 vy long time.. growin old alone.. live in depressed.. v still hv 2 leave sum self-pride 4 ourselves isn't it? CHAPTER 2 alr 2 yrs i livin a uni life in these 2 yrs wat i hv learned is abt social ,self manage n emotion manage am nw no longer naive, at least in sum contexts am more rational rather than bein sensible and am more independent, no doubt i forced myself nt 2 cry 4 tiny prob

i hate myself when am cryin 4 bein too weak n timid.. i was once a cryin bag bcoz i fell sympathy 4 ppl vy easily i could even cry when i saw an insect die bt nw i find myself no longer "kind-hearted' like laz time bcoz u'll gt hurt if u're da only 1 hu cares nw am immune v all kind of piteously thgs frankly i say am nt an emotionless person though. am still kind of empathy so no worries =) CHAPTER 3 Do u thk am sum kind of smart?clever?intelligent? If so,mayb u dunno me enuf. Well, get closer 2 me n u will find out, Instead of bein wat I hv mentioned, Am act a little bit stupid n is a slow learner =( People study 1 time alr can understand, I hv 2 study 5 times!! Bt mayb bcoz of tis,God gv me another quality That is endurance n perseverance, ever. Whatever I have achieved, Is not sumthg I am borned v. I struggled, and I went thru =) And guess tats da reason y I can do best in a marathone Da spirit of a snail mayb I can describe myself as? Btw, wat am tellin is abt Dun gv up easily Headin 2 yr target, no matter its dealin v career, luv etc Bcoz u may regret in da future if u dun even gv it a try To achieve da thg tat u 1 when ure still young Then when u grow old, u sigh v a bald head, bt wat 2 do? Time is irreversible. CHAPTER 4 Life's weird isn't it? Lifes oways weird. since when I started 2 fall in luv v lifes philosophy? erm..Since I started 2 hv insomnia I guess?haha~ Instincts oways came b4 I slept n da moment I juz wk up fr a sleep Meaningful ideas n sentences abt life will juz pop out inside my head However, da question---what does life means? Is still unsolvable. Can u tell me whats da purpose of yr life? Tell me clearly abt it. Thk 4 a second. If u can answer tis, I thk u shud b sum1 well..reali gud? Haha~okay..as 4 me..

I thk lifes sumthg u shud live yrself happily, Target n achieve wat u 1, Do da thgs u like, Help others and b helped at da same time, Contribute n share (gv n tk), Appreciate others kindness towards u and B v da people u like n da person u luv. Hiak hiak hiak..wat do u thk?great??== Btw, I juz wanna share kay? If u hv any opinion abt life, welcum 2 share it too =)

can i reverse da time? i rather v dun noe each other juz like b4 u n me, r completely strangers y would u stole my heart silently yet unalarmin hw i wish 2 hear fr u evyday bt my passion sank as da time flies baby, thr's no response fr u n i thk it's da time 4 my heart 2 die~

Stupid Cupid, Can You Feel The, Feel I Feel For Her.