I can feel it inside me clearly: the awakening of feelings that derived from deep and listen with ears

while I can observe with the mind's eye. The silence has a noise or sound endless, continuous that echoes in my ears but especially in the head. I open my eyes and I hear like a steady hum and constant that I get from one point to inaccurate of nowhere. I feel inside me the clash of mighty waves but I keep wanting to emerge locked for too long. My heart is exploding and blood I feel it boil. Thoughts emerge from silence, thoughts, words, ideas, problems, anything that travels at the speed light in my brain. I can not see or understand any of everything because they are too fast and inaccurate. I see something rather than clear that it is always was from the beginning, is something that identifies me in my being: I am. The always see me from inside my body be a figure almost as mistress of a physical that command, and I continue to observe because I feel sometimes detached from the mind and from the heart as it works in its anatomy and all its complexity. How strange! The look in the mirror it's like to dive within myself. Enter into a world I already know where the moments that follow are past present and future but all garbled and inaccurate. I am not able to see me happy or satisfied in any of the three cases. Break, I hear this crack within myself. The sound of rock landslide that leads anything with his impetuous force in valley. A dam breaks, which breaks the bulkheads, the water is rife everywhere, you can not stop her unstoppable force, goes beyond the known limits of the mind. Where should I take refuge but instead emergo so as usual through my writing dramatic, sentimental, romantic, overwhelming, useless, sensible; terms that come out from my memory where they reside

memories past and present. The headache grows in intensity and behold, the eyes tend to close and the ability intellective decreases. When? Now? I think not! The words to be written out like a river in flood also meaningless tangled in thoughts meanings to which I want to make sense of although often there is not. My past life: here it is! Nothing could be more innocent than a child playing with everything and lives unaware of the dangers and problems whereas since his subconscious knows that person might be. Become a kid and then an adult and no step is not done except in the cultural sense. That's out of the blue which coincides with the awakening of chaotic events strange that I can not go back and yet fragmented memory. Fragments of memories important staying there in that place where I do not allow anyone to enter even if in the end my heart is too good and subjected to external forces that do suffer in any way. My brain instead is impenetrable, a large gate insurmountable. And there's only one person who enters and exits continuously controlling more it's the only one: my dignity together with my pride of life. I can not claim to be perfect in fact I have gaps in anything as in the normal range of each. My head is the realm of chaos I do not doubt but How many ideas and especially how many emotions it shares with the my soul deeper. Being impartial, diplomatic and thoughtful has caused me to become more sure of myself with others, among others. Even though my body sometimes comes off completely from my soul and from my head creandomi disastrous physical effects but not serious to solve in which a short time.

I'm not a wrapper that contains only my soul and my head not only contains a brain living can think of. But I have a whole between brain, mind, heart, soul, physical with which I sometimes detachment, you'll wonder how it is possible, but are like God, that governs the chaos of these 5 elements and which I use to live but alas I can not always achieve happiness just because I have to understand and soon we will be able to I also collaborate with outside elements, natural, my parents have created but first of all the nature created everything and everyone and from there I have to learn that I can not detaching but rather work because doing so can take my place in life and live it fully in all its nuances both beautiful and ugly. Right now they are only a very small percentage of co-operation with it. But I want to expand it more and more because I do not know if we are alone in the universe but helping nature I want to bring out all my strength and energy and pass it on the entire universe so that other forms of life can steal and use. We're just a means which nature offers us one life to live and invites us to share best with herself and all other living beings. That noise in the silence that I often hear is nothing but the call of my soul that propagates in the external environment in harmony with everything and everyone and this means that our happiness can infect others and make them live well everywhere. Boundless energy and limits escaping from ourselves to others. there I fixed this for others and make myself available for the next but for now is too closed in on me I can not bring it out completely, but there is. Quivers feel!

Unfortunately, my mental limits do not allow to act as it should. I first and foremost from the inside I can not import it to the brain as a system, or to the mind as a solution for everything. My heart would very much appreciate but for now they are too far away from doing so then I just have to stay close to my soul and continue to work to emerge more and more, convinced that sooner or later shall flourish I also like a flower and then I pour all my good on others. One thing is very important my constant struggle between my demon negative me and angel inner positive. Are often not able to retain the demon and tilts the balance of moral on negativity but I try anyway ternerla increasingly segregated into a corner. Negativity is everywhere but we must make sure traformarla of positive energy in passing from the mind because the only way we can control our demons and who knows if we may live happily ever after together with our values ??and principles. Certainly, however, that in my reflections I try to be as explicit as possible but when I dive into myself I have not certainties. Everything breaks even the laws that I govern precisely because they are in continuous evolution and always try to improve myself to the fullest. Marco Samaritani Comacchio '85