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Breaking the silence | 5
My educational experiences
by RL
Rudy Simone, author of Aspergirls
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, says one trait common to females with Asperger syndrome is that they
may be highly educated but will have had to struggle with social aspects of college. [They] may have one or
many partial degrees.
This describes me very well. I am currently studying for my second undergraduate degree, and I have started
a total of six higher education courses, only one of which I have completed. Despite doing well at school, my
diffculties were rooted in problems with rigid thinking and social interaction. I have an infexible thinking style
and perfectionist tendencies, wanting to get work done in certain ways. But I ended up feeling overloaded and
overwhelmed by the workload I had enforced on myself.
I often found it diffcult to start work at all, procrastinating and using distractions to avoid work. Sometimes I was
able to pull myself together to rush in coursework, but sometimes it would be paralysing and I would hide under
my duvet while deadlines whizzed by. I struggled with priorities set by different modules, and it felt as if I had too
many things to do at once not just demands related to study but also things to do with family, friends, personal
health or interests.
I had a low self-esteem due to failures in social relationships, and I left my frst course believing that I was not
academically good enough. I was too embarrassed to ask for help, wanting to project a veneer of capability. When
I found it hard to get to lectures on time, it was easier to stay at home and miss the entire lecture, rather than walk
in late to a full lecture theatre and have everyones gaze on me.
I returned to my course after a years break but I ended up re-sitting the second and third year, so I attended with
a different cohort each year. It took me six years to complete the course (a degree normally takes three years).
This also made it more diffcult to establish social relationships with my course mates, and I never made any
lasting friends there. This had an impact on my studies too, as it meant I didnt know people well enough to ask
to borrow notes or discuss issues to do with the course.
My strengths are that I am quite a stubborn person with a good memory and attention to detail, which has
compensated for my other problems to some extent. I am pleased that I managed to fnally graduate with a good
degree. I am now studying for a degree in a different subject, and I have similar problems. But I have learned from
my experiences and have more confdence, and I believe that even when I encounter obstacles, they will be minor
hurdles that I can eventually overcome.
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Simone, R. (2010). Aspergirls: Empowering Females with Asperger Syndrome. London: Jessica Kingsley Publishers. ISBN: 978-1849058261
My achievements
were worth the fght!
Dressmaking
10 | Breaking the silence
Leaving an abusive situation
by Robyn Steward
In 2010 I left the home I had shared with someone who had been abusive to me and I moved into a fat on my own
for the frst time. I had had some experience living in halls of residences and such, but this was my frst time being
alone.
Some of the frst things I brought into my new home were paintings: I started painting when I was 22 and this has
been an important means of expression and relaxation for me.
In the UK, there is a catalogue store (similar to mail order but you can go to the store to pick up your items) called
Argos with a TV advert. It shows a man sitting in his living room which starts off empty apart from what he is sitting
on, a telephone and the Argos catalogue. As the advert continues, more furniture appears because the man is
using the phone to call Argos to buy items for his home. Thats kind of how I felt. I had to call the gas company,
the electric company and various other people to set up my home.
If you have ever experienced abuse then you may be able to relate
to the feeling of betraying the abuser. I felt guilty for leaving, and for
telling people what had happened. I also felt scared I would not be
able to do things for myself; abusers often are nice some of the time
to confuse the victim so that he or she will stay with them.
The whole circumstances that arose to moving to live on my own resulted in depression I saw a psychiatrist, two
social workers and also an art therapist. I came off anti depressants after 18 months. Antidepressants can be very
helpful for some people, but for me I felt the effects were too much.
So instead, I went to the gym fve times a week and I used Dr Liz Millers
positive mood mapping book
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to monitor my emotions. I also had daily,
weekly and monthly behaviour goals with a system of rewards for meeting
them. I also found it important to fll my time during the day with activities
that I found intellectually stimulating. This highly structured approach
worked for me.
I never seriously considered going back to the abuser only because I
feared others were in danger, and to go back would mean I could do
nothing to try and ensure this person stopped hurting others. Its not
that women who do go back like being abused, its simply that abusers
can be all consuming and own your life to some extent. The process of
taking life back can be hard and scary, and sometimes there is only so
much one person can take while healing from abuse of any kind.
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Miller, L. (2011). Mood Mapping: Plot Your Way to Emotional Health and Happiness. Emmaus: Rodale. ISBN: 978-1905744770
I love having
extreme passions.
I knew it was the right school for me when the head teacher told
me that the diagnosis didnt matter to him - he had seen what an
outstanding teacher I am and that was all that mattered.
I am a fulflled
and happy young
woman!