Daehyun hum in his sleep, trying to bury his face deeper to his fiancs chest.

The slight
movement wakes Jongup up and he slowly open his eyes to find his fiance still sleeping
while humming like a baby. He smiles to himself and try to hug the older closer to him.

He heard his phone vibrating and he groan softly. He reaches out to take his phone from
the nightstand and see his assistants name on the screen. The sudden movement wakes
the other. Daehyun, whos still not fully awake just blink sleepily to the younger. Jongup
turn back to his lover as he put his phone back to the night stand. oh, sorry, did I wake
you?. Daehyun shakes his head and smile.

Duty call? Daehyun said as he lean his head on the younger board chest and the other
intertwine their fingers. Yeah, they need me in the office at ten. What time are you
going to the shop?

hmm, the shop supposed to be open at 11, so at least I have to start preparing at.. hmm..
9.30 I guess. Said the latter looks like hes in a deep thought. Jongup chuckled a little at
the older. let's go together then, i'll drive you to the shop.

Go take a shower, Ill prepare the breakfast. Daehyun walked out of the bed when
Jongup pull his wirst so he ended up sitting on the bed. Dont you want to join me?
Daehyun smile sweetly at the latter and give him a peck on a lips. the breakfast wont
prepare itself, hun. Jongup just chuckled as he watch Daehyun walk out of the room to
the kitchen.

Daehyun feels kinda sick this morning, but he just shrugged it off. He was almost done
preparing the breakfast when he felt a strong arms wrapped around his waist that
makes him jumped a little. hmm, smells good. Said the culprit. Gosh! Ive told you not
to sneak up on me. Scold Daehyun. Cant help it, youre so cute when youre scared. As
he kiss the back of Daehyuns head. well, I am irresistible. Eat first, Ill take a shower.
Daehyun freed himself and walk to the bathroom.

--

Daehyun dont feel like eating breakfast so he just drink a cup of tea which makes his
lover concern, Daehyun always have a big appetite. Daehyun once again just shrugged it
off and tell Jongup that his fine. Jongup drive Daehyun to the shop, they shared a
goodbye kiss and Daehyun gave him a small smile before started walking away.

Not long after Daehyun started preparing, he heard the doorbell that tells him that
someone was coming in. Im sorry where not op-
its me. The guy cut him. Yongguk-hyung? What are you doing here? Dont you work?
Daehyun give his brother a confused face.

Nope, day off. I need to talk. Yongguk walk towards the latter. Daehyun look at his
watch and its almost 10 oclock. His nausea come back as he stroke his abdomen
slightly. You okay? You looked tired Youngguk asked worriedly. Im fine, sorry, Im
still preparing, Youngjae and Ilhoon havent come yet. Just talk, Im all ears.

I think I found him. Said the latter. Who? ask Daehyun as he was still busy preparing.
The one. Daehyun stop whatever he was doing and give his brother a confused look.
Huh? the doorbells ring again and Ilhoon greet averyone as he arrived. Ilhoon, can
you please finish whatever I was doing when youre ready? Daehyun still looking
confusedly towards his brother. Sure hyung. Daehyun pull Yongguk to sit.

You were saying? Daehyun ask again. I said I think Ive found the one. Daehyun just
blink confusedly and let out a hesitant laugh. Im sorry, I dont follow. Yongguk just
sigh frustratedly at the younggers answer. Im seeing someone. Yongguk explain
simply. by seeing you mean dating? Daehyuns face brightened as he said that. The
older just answer with a nod.

Finally! You have to tell me every detail, who is he? Hes a he right? Is he cute? Where
did you met him? Scratch that, HOW did you met him? Answer me- ahh! the younger
suddenly felt a sharp pain and grab his abdomen.

Whoa, calm down. You okay? the latter just give him a slight nod and smile like
nothing happen. By the way, I wont just spill every details, its embarrassing. Yongguk
just gave him a look as if hes insane. I want you to meet him, but I dont want to scare
him cause itll looks like Im rushing this. Yongguk explained.

Okay, how long have you date him? Daehyun calmed down and rest his chin on his
palm. eerrm.. Six.. Seven months? answer the eldest while thinking.

Wait. Youve dated this guy for sev- more than a half year and you just tell me now?!
Daehyun stare in disbelieve. ..I-I was busy, okay! Yongguk said an excuse which is
failed.

We just met a few weeks ago.. Daehyun shows a pouty face. Errm.. Thats not the
point! So, what do you think? I was thinking to ask him to move in with me on his
birthday, do you think its too soon? Daehyun look at the older and saw his worried
expression.

Hmm, you really like him, huh? the eldest just gave him a slight nod. Hm, I dont know,
I have to meet him first so that Ill know what he think. How about tomorrow? Daehyun
smiled at the eldest when Youngjae tap his shoulder.

Hyung, sorry to interrupt but its already past the opening time. Daehyun look at his
watch and gasp. Sorry hyung, text me later, okay? Daehyun leave Yongguk to the
pantry. The eldest just smile and wave slightly at him.

--

It was past 8 in the evening, the shop has been closed and Daehyun, Youngjae and Ilhoon
were cleaning up the shop. Suddenly, Daehyun feels his nauseas coming back, he ran to
the sink and throw up. Youngjae and Ilhoon run towards him and ask if hes okay. He
just smiled at them and said that he must have been tired. His employees told him to go
home and that theyll clean up the rest. Daehyun agreed since hes too wasted to clean
anyway.

On his way home, he was so glad that he ran into Jongup. At least he doesnt have to
walk home in this state. He just lean on his seat dan take a deep breath that makes him
looks like hes in pain.

You okay babe? You dont look good. Jongup asked with a worried face still driving. I
dont know, I dont feel well, I keep having stomach aches lately and I feel sick. Jongup
stops at the red light and turn his face to his boyfriend. He caress Daehyuns cheek to
make him feel better. Daehyun lean into his hand. Are you sick? Do you want to go to
the hospital? Jongup got a head-shake as an answer. No, you know how much I hate
the hospital. Im just tired, dont worry too much.

Jongup give in. Hes still remember the last time the latter in the hospital. It was when
Daehyun and Yongguks parents died in a car accident. Daehyun broke down that day
and clinged into Jongup for three days, scared that the latter will leave him too. Jongup
told Daehyun to sleep and drive faster so that Daehyun can rest on the bed instead.

When they arrived, Jongup carried Daehyun to the bed, change Daehyuns clothes, take a
shower and lay on the bed next to Daehyun, hugging the latter in his arms.

--

Jongup woke up to the sound of someone vomiting. He realizes that Daehyuns not on
his side of the bed anymore. Feeling worry, Jongup hurried himself to the bathroom to
find Daehyun on his knees in front of the toilet. He ran towards Daehyun and kneel
beside him, caressing his back.

When Daehyun felt his stomach cant spew anymore, he grab a hand towel to wipe his
mouth and flush the toilet with his other hand. He lean his head on Jongups shoulder
with closed eyes, feeling weak.

Are you okay? Jongup asked worriedly. Daehyun shakes his head, clinging to the
younger. Can you walk? Do you want me to carry you to the bed? Jongup tried to
making the older feel better by caressing the laters arm. Yes please.

Jongup carry Daehyun bridal style and put him on the bed. Daehyun watch as Jongup
ran out of the bedroom and coming back a few minutes later with a glass of water.
Daehyun put his head on the headbord and take a sip from the glass.

You should rest, Ill call Youngjae to tell him that youre not going to the shop today.
Daehyun give Jongup a slight nod. Can you also please give Yongguk-hyung a text
saying that I cant meet him today? Jongup kissed his forehead and nod. Of course.

Daehyun doze off until he felt a hand caressing his hair. He opened his eyes and see
Jongup already in his suit. Youre leaving already? Daehyuns voice sounds
disappointed. Jongup give him a nod.

Ill be back to bring you lunch at noon. Just rest until then. Ive put your breakfast on the
night stand, you should eat a little, okay. Get well soon, baby. Jongup gave him a
goodbye kiss and stare at him for a moment before he walked out of the room.

--

When Jongup arrived home, he find Daehyun in the living room watching TV. feeling
better? he sit beside his fiance and kiss the side of his head. Never better. Daehyun
give him a crescent smile.

You hungry? I brought Chinese, lets eat together. Jongup pull the olders hand with
him as they walk to the dining table. Im kinda full, you eat, Ill accompany you. Jongup
give him a face and see his breakfast on the counter.

You dont even touch your breakfast, how can you be full? Jongup asked him
unconvinced. I just had a glass of milk, I dont feel like eating these days. Daehyun
sitted himself on the dining table.

At least eat a little, youre getting skinnier these days, come on, just a few bites? Jongup
plead a little. Daehyun look at Jongup with a pout and sigh. Fine.. But just a few bites,
okay? Jongups face lightened and sitted himself beside Daehyun so that he can feed the
latter.

After theyre done with lunch, they decided to watch TV. A few minutes has past and
Daehyun realize that the latters keep glancing to his watch. Just go back to the office,
will you? Daehyun started to get annoyed. Jongup startled and face his fiance. What?

Just go back to the office, Im fine, Dont worry about me. Daehyun gave him a
reassuring smile. Jongup stared at him, not so sure if he should go. He take another look
to his watch and go back to his fianc. Daehyun gave him a convincing look and the latter
just sigh.

Are you sure youre okay? Jongup ask once again as he stand after putting on his shoes.
Im as good as new. Dont worry. Daehyun smiled at the latter and lean in for another
goodbye kiss. Ill be home at 7. Just rest, okay? You better be fine when I got home.
Jongup give him another unconvinced look before he walk out of the door to the office.

--
-chatroom-
BangYongguk: Im almost there..
Dae: Cant wait! Hurry!
BangYongguk: Dae..
Dae: What? Dont tell he cant come!
BangYongguk: No, hes with me now
BangYongguk: but, Dae..
Dae: what?
BangYongguk: Please dont say anything weird..
Dae: What?! Of course! LOL ;)
BangYongguk: even if I cant hear you right now but Im pretty sure that LOL means evil
laugh..

Daehyun laughs at his phone. His hyungs really cute sometimes. They used to joke
around back in the day. Heck, until now. Daehyun smiles and cant help but feel happy
that his hyung finally has someone to fall head over heels for.

Yongguk arrives a few minutes later with a cute guy according to Daehyun- behind him.
Daehyun waves his hand to call his hyung. Yongguk take a deep breath and walk hand in
hand with the cute guy.

They sitted there for a while, Daehyun, whos sitted in front of the cute guy, just stare at
him in disbelief. Yongguk feels the awkwardness and decided to break the silence.

Dae, this is Junhong, my boyfriend, Junhong, this is Daehyun, my younger brother.
Youngguk introduced them to each other.

Hyung... You know you cant date a high schooler, right? Daehyun yelled softly to his
hyung. What?! Yongguk stared in disbelief and Junhong only let out a small laugh. Im
not a high schooler. Junhong explained still laughing.
Oh my god.. Youre still in middle school?? Daehyun yelled louder. Wha?! Are you
crazy?! Yongguk yelled even louder that he have everyones attention at him. He bow at
them, feeling embarrassed. Junhong laugh even louder at them. Im actually 27 this
year. He said while holding his laugh.

Daehyun stared at him in disbelief. Gosh.. You look so young. And cute too. Too cute for
this guy. Daehyun said pointing to his brother who gave him an annoyed face. Junhong
blush a little at the comment. Thank you. Daehyun find this extremely adorable and
smile to himself. Evil thought suddenly come into him and he decided to tease his hyung
a little.

Oh.. Honey.. Did hyung blackmailed you? Daehyun give the younger a concerned look.
Yah! Bang Daehyun! Yongguk yelled in frustration and only get a laugh from the other
two. I was kidding! Daehyun laugh at his brothers response. Im sorry Junhong-ah,
Yongguk-hyung is so fun to tease. Nice to meet you, by the way. Daehyun tried to stifle
his laugh and smiles to the younger.

Its nice to meet you too, Daehyun-sshi. Junhong smile back. Drop the formality. Just
call me hyung. Daehyun give him another reassuring smile.

They chatted for a while. Most of the time Daehyun and Junhong teased Yongguk until
the eldests frustrated. Yongguk even thought that they shared the same brain, but his
actually really glad that his two most precious person can get along fine.

Im going to the toilet, you guys just chat. Oh and Dae, dont say anything weird while
Im gone! Yongguk gave a threatening look to Daehyun. Daehyun smirk evilly, Of
course I wont, what makes you say that? Daehyun chuckle a little that Yongguks sure
its sounds like an evil laugh in his ear. He just sigh and walked to the toilet.

Daehyun turn his head to Junhong and find that Junhongs eyes fixed to the eldest back
while smiling to himself. Daehyun smiled and cant help but think that the latter is also
head over heels for his brother.

Daehyun suddenly stand up and sits beside Junhong. Junhong startled when the older
suddenly pull him into a tight hug. aaww, youre so cute! I like you already! Daehyun
squealed a little. Ive always wanted a younger brother, especially a cute one! he
patted Junhongs head. Junhong laughs and cant help but response to the olders hug. I
really like you too, hyung. Junhong replied with a chuckle.

They talked until its late. Daehyun got a text from Jongup saying that hes on hes way to
pick Daehyun up. A few minutes later, Jongup arrives and sit beside Daehyun. Daehyun
introduced Junhong to Jongup. Daehyun want to stay a little longer but Jongup insist him
to go home and rest. He was worried that Daehyun will fall sick again.

You were sick? Yongguk asked worriedly. Yeah, just tired, but Im fine now, dont
worry. Daehyun shrugged as if it was nothing. Then you should go home now.
Yongguk being the overprotective brother he is. Yongguks right hyung, you should
rest. Daehyun sigh to both of them and give in. Jongup intertwined their fingers and
lead him to the door. Jongup turn his head to Yongguk and mouthed a small thanks to
him.

--

A few months have passed, Daehyun is getting closer to Junhong. They pretty much like
brothers partner in crime according to Yongguk- now. But these few months, Daehyun
looks like hes not getting better. He vomits a lot, losing so much weight, not eating
properly, and worst, hes having a nosebleed quite often. Jongup didnt know about the
nosebleed but the fact that Daehyun is losing weight already worries him but the latter
seems to shrugged it off as if it was nothing. He always said that hes just tired and
refused to go to the hospital.

They were having a dinner with Yongguk and Junhong that day. It was a fine night until
Daehyun suddenly coughed hard into his hands with eyes closed.

Dae.. Daehyun heard Yongguk called him. The cough stops and Daehyun open his eyes
slowly. ughh.. I think I spitted on my ha- Daehyun stared widely to his red covered
hands and turned his gaze to Jongup. Jongup shocked expression turned into a hard face
and looked at Daehyun.

Were going to the doctors. Now.

--

Gastric Cancer. Stage IIIA.

Jongup wanted to laughed at the name. How come such an unfamiliar name could
suddenly ruined his entire world into pieces. I dont get it It doesnt make sense!
Jongup slams his fist down on the doctors table. The doctor just give him a sympathetic
look.

Yongguk and Junhong just stayed in silence, still shocked at the news. C-Can it be
cured? Yongguk trembled a little.

I cant promise you anything. Its kind of hard to be cured in this stage, but you can
started with therapy. Theres also Gastrectomy Surgery, which is removing a part of his
stomach. But its a high risk. The doctor explained.

I want to see him. Jongup walked straight to the hospital room, not really listening to
the doctor. He can go home today, Ill give you a prescription for him, he has to take the
medicines twice a day, dont stressed him, keep him in a good mood, if something came
up, come to the hospital immediately. The doctor bow to them and leave.

--

Daehyun turned his gaze to the door as he heard someone walked in and see Jongup. He
smiled at him and reached his hand out to Jongup who takes it immediately.

What did the doctor said? Jongup looked at him with a hard face and caress his cheek.
Nothing. Youre fine. Daehyun can tell that the latters lying. Im really sick, arent I?
Jongups face hardened and look away from the latter.

Daehyun tilted his head towards Jongups and smiled apologetically. Jongup-ah Im
sorry. Jongup turned his gaze to the latter and pulled him into a tight hug. No, youre
not sorry. Youre fine and were going home. Daehyuns smile fade and burried his face
deeper to Jongups chest.

--

It was a long way back home. Daehyun is sleeping with his head on Jongups shoulder
with hands hugging Jongups muscled arm on the passenger seat. Yongguks driving
while Junhong seated beside him. No ones dare to break the silence until Daehyun
stirred and waking up slowly. Jongups gaze turns towards him.

Hey, you awake? Jongup asks softly. hmm, are we home yet? Daehyun asks back
while rubbing his eyes. Not yet, baby. Do you want to sleep more? Jongup started
caressing his hair. Daehyun shook his head and snuggle more into Jongups arm.

The atmosphere stayed like that until they reached Jongups apartment. Yongguk and
Junhong bid their farewell. Take a good rest, okay, well see you soon. Yongguk said
caressing Daehyuns hair. Daehyun gave him a reassuring smile before Yongguk pulls
him into a tight hug.

Daehyun jumped slightly but soon response to the hug and burried his face deeper into
his brothers shoulder. Its okay hyung.. Everythings going to be alright in the end.
Daehyun pulled away and smiled while Yongguk still cant hide his hard face from the
latter.

Come on, who are you and what did you do to my annoying brother who likes to tease
me? Daehyun jokes a little, hoping that itll lightened up the mood. Yongguk smiled a
little.

Youre looking at him, you idiot. Why? Is my faces to stunning you cant even recognize
me? Daehyun laugh softly at the answer. Thats my hyung.

Jongup and Junhong can only pulled a small smile at them. It looks like a sweet yet
heartbreaking scene to see. They can even feel their love towards each other. It cant be
helped thought, theyre their only family.

--

Yongguk and Junhong stay in silence all the way back to their apartment. Junhong keep
stealing glances to Yongguk whos concentrating on the road until they arrived home.

Yongguk sits on the sofa in the living room with a blank face. The atmosphere is so
awkward and intense and Junhong cant take it anymore as he stand in front of Yongguk
and sigh loudly.

Its alright to cry, you know. Yongguk startled at the statement and snapped his head
towards Junhong. Junhong gave him a worried yet hard face. Its okay to break down,
Yongguk, you dont need to pretend that youre alright in front of me.

Yongguk didnt answer and pulled Junhongs hand so that the latter sitted on his lap. He
circled his hands around Junhongs waist and buried his face into the latters shoulder.
Junhong circled his hand around Yongguks neck and caress his hair with the other as he
let Yongguk cry silently on his shoulder.

--

A few days has past and Jongup, Yongguk and Junhong are getting more and more
overprotective towards Daehyun. Especially Yongguk because he cant see Daehyun
everytime and everyday so hes easily getting worried.

There were once when Yongguk suddenly came panting into Daehyuns cafee looking for
him. Daehyun startled and confused, walked towards Yongguk while looking at him
strangely.

Hyung, why are you here? Daehyun asked him with confusion in his face. Yongguk
panted as if he has been running a marathon. He sigh loudly to calm his breath. Im... I
came to your house and youre not there and then I called Jongup and he said that youre
here so I ran here. Why are you here? Yongguk explain in one breath.

Eermm... Working? Daehyun gave him a strange look because, duh! Its the most
obvious thing in the world. Oh yeah.. Right. Of course. Yongguk came into realization
and curse himself for being stupid.

Im sorry, Dae.. I was worried and I dont know what was I thinking, I thought
something happened to you and Im.. I just want to make sure.. Daehyuns face soften,
he understand where his hyungs coming from. Hyung, Im fine, dont worry too much,
okay? he gave him a reassuring smile and told him to go and wait for him in the pantry.

Yongguk wanted to believe his words but hes glad hes not when Daehyun collapse
suddenly in front of him. Youngjae and Ilhoon ran towards them in panic. Yongguk
asked them to watch the shop, carried Daehyun to his car and drive to the hospital.

--

Daehyun woke up due to the nausea in his stomach. He turned his gaze and find Jongup,
sleeping in the chair beside his bed with yesterdays dress shirt minus the tie. His
nausea suddenly kicking in and he make a run towards the bathroom and accidently
ripped the infusion out of his hand. The ruffled sound wakes Jongup up and he found a
trail of blood.

With a bad feeling, he ran to the toilet only to find his fianc vomiting in the sink with a
deep cut on his wirst. He grabbed a towel and pressed it around Daehyuns wirst. He
caress Daehyuns back until the latters calm.

Jongup carried Daehyun back to the bed and call the doctor to check on his wirst. After a
few stitches on his wirst, Daehyun go back to sleep due to the morphine. Jongup slowly
run his hand on Daehyuns hair and stare at him.

You have to stop scaring me to death, you know. Are you trying to kill me? Jongup said
quietly. He hold his hand and put it on his cheek as he keep his gaze at the latter.

--

The doctor come to Daehyuns room in the morning to check on him. Jongup asks the
doctor worriedly about Daehyuns condition.

His cancer has spread to his spleen, liver, and kidney, that means he's already on the
stage IIIC. Im afraid taking his medicine everyday wont help anymore. Jongup feels
like God is playing with him right now.

...then what should we do? What can you do?? You have to do something!! Jongup
yelled in desperation.

We can do radiation therapy or chemoteraphy, but there's side effects that may occur,
like hair falling. And I think he has to be hospitalized so that case like this won't happ-
No. Without they notice, their talking woke Daehyuns up. They turned their attention
to the latter.

I dont want to be hospitalized. Daehyun said without turning his gaze to them. Jongup
walks and sit beside him on the bed.

Dae.. please- No, Jongup.. I dont want to stay here.. I wanna go home.. Daehyun look
at him, pleading. Please... you cant leave me here.. please.. Daehyun cling into Jongups
dress shirt, his eyes starting to wet. Jongup can never stand Daehyuns teary eyes. He
has no option except saying yes to him.

Jongup turns to the doctor and asks if its okay. The doctor said that its okay with a
condition, he has to take the treatment, wether its chemo or radiation. Jongup agreed
without asking the latter.

They went home a few hours later. They were in the living room watching TV while
cuddling when Jongup decided to break the silence. Dae, I have something I need to ask
you.

What is it? He asked. Please dont go anywhere alone. Jongup said without looking at
the latter. Daehyun turned to look at him with a confuse face. Why? What if you
passed out again and no ones there with you? What am I suppose to do then? Jongup
keep his gaze to the TV but Daehyun can tell that he has a hard face.

.....Okay, but what if I really have to go?

Ask Yongguk-hyung or Junhong to go with you

What if they cant?

Then ask Youngjae or Ilhoon

What if they cant either?

Call me and Ill go with you

What if youre in middle of a meeting?

Then you cant go

Even if its very important?

Jongup started to get annoyed and raise his voice a little. Well maybe you should stop
asking and just do as I say.

Daehyun stunned at the sudden raised voice. Maybe I will if you could just talked to me
instead of the TV With that, Daehyun stand up and walked to their room and slamed the
door. Jongup sigh heavily as he just realize he didnt take a single glance to his fianc
while talking. He feels guilty for raising his voice to Daehyun when the latter didnt do
anything wrong.

He walks to their room and knock the door. When he doesnt get any response, he
decided to come into their room and find his fianc laying on their bed with the blanket
covering him from head to toe.

Dae.. he sits beside him and pulled the cover from his fianc. what are you doing here

Dae Im sorry.. I know Im being unreasonable, I shouldnt have raised my voice to you..
Daehyun didnt answer him instead he keep humming to his phone. Dae

Daehyun turned his face to the latter, sit up, and give him an annoyed look. Oh, Im
sorry, I was talking to my phone. You were saying? Jongup give him a face and sigh
heavily. Dae.. dont be like this, please.. Im sorry, okay, Ill make it up to you

How? Daehyun glared at him, giving him an annoyed look.

errm.. cheesecake? Jongup tried, knowing that Daehyun can never resist that slice of
heaven. Daehyun scoffed. You think Im that easy? Daehyun give him a look and stared
back to his phone.

Jongup growled softly Fine. Cheesecakes. You forgive me now?

Daehyun beamed and hold his smile, which is failed. Aww.. You know I can never stay
mad at you Daehyun leaned his head on Jongups shoulder playfully. Yeah.. For a
cheesecake Jongup give him a look and Daehyun laugh at the statement. aaww.. we
both know thats not true Daehyun pulls on his sleeve jokingly. Jongup only laugh and
hugged him.

They stay like that for a while until Jongup decided to break the silence. Dae, Daehyun
just hummed for an answer. Im sorry.. And thank you. Jongup buried his head on
Daehyuns hair and Daehyun lean in closer and close his eyes before answering.

Idiot.

--

Months has passed and Daehyuns not getting any better. Hes getting weaker and
weaker each week. Hes getting skinnier and his hair started to fall and he always wears
a beanie to hide it. He stopped coming to the shop because sometimes his legs gave up
on him and he cant even stand up after that.

The doctor insists him to get hospitalized but being the stubborn one he is, he always
refused. Daehyun asked Jongup to stopped his treatment one day and that make
Jongups heart raced unevenly. Only a few sentences and Jongup give in half heartedly to
Daehyun.

Enough already.. It hurts.. And Im tired..

-

Jongup, Yongguk and Junhong always take turns to accompany him so that he wont get
bored by staying home alone.

Today is Junhongs turn to accompany Daehyun. Jun, can you help me with something?
Daehyun suddenly asks. Sure, what is it, Hyung? Junhong look at him curiously.

I want to make something for Jongup, can you go out with me to buy something? But
dont let Jongup know, okay? Junhong agreed. They went to the store and buy an
origami paper. Lots of it.

A few days has passed and Junhong decided to asks.
Why wont you let me help you, hyung? And why paper crane? Daehyun turned his
attention from the paper and faced Junhong. Daehyun laugh a little before he answered.

Dont you know? Theres myth that says if you make a thousand paper cranes within a
year by yourself, your wish will be granted. He paused, chuckled softly, and turned his
attention back to the half-done paper crane in his hand.

Its stupid, I know, but I cant help but hope that even thought the paper cranes didnt
grant my wish, at least maybe God will take pity on me for my hard work and grant my
wish instead. Junhong only looked at him and cant help but think how could this kind
of person has to get through something like this. He keeps on staring at Daehyun, while
Daehyuns mumbling about whether or not to write his wish on every crane.

Its not stupid, hyung. Daehyun turn his head towards Junhong and find him with teary
eyes.

Hey! Why are you crying? This things supposed to bring happiness! He smiled.

So dont cry, okay?

--

Jongups on his day off and he decided to take Daehyun on a picnic. They played around
and when Jongup want to take a picture of Daehyun, he turns around quickly and cover
his face with his hands.

No, dont! I look terrible.. Jongup stunned at the statement. He walks to him and circled
his arms around Daehyun and pulled Daehyuns hands away from his face.

No. Youre gorgeous.

Daehyun stayed silence before turning in Jongups arm. He scoffed jokingly and wrap his
hands around Jongups neck.

You and your cheesy lines. Jongup only smiled at the statement and stared lovingly at
him.

--

It took a month to convince Jongup that this is the right time, that theres no time left,
that hell regret it if he didnt do it.

This is it. Now or never.

Jongup keep repeating those sentences while clenching his hand around a small navy
box in his pocket. He reached home while making several plans in his head and he
decide to propose yes. Propose.- after dinner.

-after dinner-

Daehyuns cleaning up the table while Jongups sitting on the couch in the living room,
waiting for him. Jongup keeps opening and closing the small navy box. Inside was a
simple diamond infinity design ring. Daehyun always likes simple things and he dont
really comfortable wearing jewelry so Jongup think that this ring is perfect. Just the way
Daehyun likes it.

Jongup heard a footsteps coming his way and he quickly hide the box in his pocket.
Daehyun sat beside him in the sofa and leaning his head on Jongups shoulder. What are
you watching? he asks innocently.

Bang Daehyun. Jongup says suddenly makes the latter turned his head towards him.
Daehyun hum to him for an answer. I dont like that name. It sounds weird. He
continued. Excuse me? Daehyun straighten up on his seat an eyed the latter, feeling
slightly offended.

Hmm.. What makes it sounds weird, I wonder.. he rubs his chin, thinking.

Yah, Moon Jongup! Daehyuns starting to get annoyed. Moon.. Yeah. Moon is better.
Daehyun scoffed at the statement and rolled his eyes. Please Hes really annoyed right
now, not getting where is this going.

Yupp, Moon is totally perfect. Jongup finished. Whatever Daehyun stand up and
started walking away to their room.

Moon Daehyun. Perfect, right? Daehyun stopped on his tracked and turned around to
faced Jongup with widen eyes, staring at him in disbelieve.

What do you mean... Daehyun mumbled softly as if hes talking to himself. He covered
his mouth with his hands, gasping softly when Jongup started to walked and kneeled in
front of him while holding a small navy box in front of him.

Bang Daehyun, do you want it? My surname? he asks jokingly. He looks calm but his
heart actually beats so hard he think its going to explode.

Daehyun wanted to jump into him and hug him tightly and yelled the word yes to him,
but he cant. He knows that he doesnt has any time left. He doesnt even sure if hell
make it tomorrow. He doesnt want to make Jongups hopes up by accepting his
proposal. Itll hurt him more and Daehyun doesnt want that.

So Daehyun take a deep breath and answered.

No. I dont want it. Daehyun turned his face sideway. He cant bear to see Jongups
expression right now. Jongups smile drop and he stands up from his position. Why..?

..Its too fast Daehyuns trying to find a good enough reason. He just cant tell Jongup
the real reason. At least, not yet.

Too fa- its been four years, Dae.. Jongup looked at him in disbelieve. He looked hurt
and disappointed.

Jongup, please.. Im not ready for this.. You kinda freak me out.. Daehyun clench his
hand and closed his eyes tightly. Jongup scoffed in disbelieve and hold his head. I-I.. I
cant believe this.. I.. I dont understand.. I thought you love me.. Daehyun snapped his
head at the last sentence to Jongup. I am! I just-

Im sorry, Dae. I need some time alone. With that, Jongup throw the box to the bin in
the corner of the room, grab his coat and go out, slamming the door before Daehyun can
say anything.

Daehyun cant hold his tears anymore. He walked slowly to the bin and grab the box out.
He open it with shaking hands and started to sob hardly. He fall on his knees while
hugging the box to his chest.

He didnt realize when a red, thick liquid dripping from his nose. He keeps on crying
until his consciousness leave him.

--

Jongup come back that night with a heartache. It was passed midnight when he arrived
home. He thought that Daehyuns already asleep in their room and he still cant face
Daehyun right now so he decide to sleep on the couch in the living room.

He walks tiredly to the living room but the sight stopped him on his track. He find
Daehyun lying on the ground with a tears stain on his face. But what scares him the most
is the red stain under his nose trailing over his cheek.

He runs to Daehyun and carry him bridal style. Without thinking, he rushed to the
hospital and start yelling in desperation for the doctor to help him when he arrived.

--

Hes critical. Hes condition is getting worst and theres nothing we can do. Were sorry,
we can only pray for him to wake up right now. Jongup felt like jumping out of the
window right now. He didnt answer the doctor and walked into Daehyuns room.

Jongup sits beside him and hold his hand tightly. He turned his face to the nightsand and
find the navy box he threw before. He just realizes that Daehyun was holding it tightly
when he found him on the floor.

He reached to the box and open it. He pulls the ring out and he cant hold his tears
anymore. He slipped the ring on Daehyuns left ring finger. He squeezed his hand slightly
and placed it on his cheek.

Dae.. Please wake up.. Im begging you.. please..

--

Jongup awakened when Yongguk and Junhong arrives at Daehyuns room early in the
morning. Jongup turned to them and smiled to them tiredly. Yongguk rushed to the
other side of Daehyuns bed and caress his hair.

How is he? Junhong asks while putting his hand on Jongups shoulder, giving him an
encouraging squeez. Yongguk faced his way, waiting for his answer.

They said hes critical... Theres nothing we can do anymore.. Jongup says while
caressing his temple. This is all my fault... I shouldnt have left him last night.. Jongup
continues and he started to sobbed.

..What happened? Yongguk asks softly, not wanting to make the atmosphere worse.
Something shiny on Daehyuns left hand suddenly catches Junhongs eyes.

Jongup.. You propose..? Junhong broke into a broken smile, dont know whether to be
happy or sad right now.

Jongup laughed ironically before he answered. Yeah... and he said no... and this moron!
Instead of trying to understand, he choose to ran off, leaving his fianc alone, hurting!
Jongup started cursing to himself in frustration and sobs harder. The other couple
stared at him in pity, dont knowing what to say.

Its alright, Jongup.. Its not your fault.

Suddenly, the beeping machine beeps loudly and they started to panic. Junhong rushed
outside, calling for the doctor. The doctor and a few nurses come to the room and asks
them to get out.

It takes an hour the longest hour of Jongups life- until the doctor come out of the room.
They rushed to the doctor and wait for an explaination. The doctor give them an
apologetic face and shook his head.

He want to see all of you.

With that, they take no time and break into the room. Daehyun was lying on the bed
weakly with half lidded eyes, face towards them. They rushed to his bed with tears stain
faced and stand beside him. He gives a reassuring smile while taking his oxygen mask
off.

He looked towards Junhong and reached his hand for him. Junhong takes his hand and
walk closer.

Jun... thank you for being my little brother even just for a while.. please take care of my
hyung... he can be such an idiot sometimes, but I think you can deal with him... Junhong
only holds his hand and looked down, crying silently with shoulder shaking.

He looked towards Yongguk after and reached out to him. He takes his hand and
squeeze it slighty. Hyung... Im sorry.. Ill be off first.. he said weakly. Yongguk squeeze
his hand tighter, tears pouring from his eyes. Daehyun took a glance to Junhong and
back to his hyung. Marry him, hyung.. hes perfect... Junhong broke into a sobbing mess
at the last few sentences.

Lastly, he turned his face towards Jongup. He gave Jongup a crescent smile. The prettiest
smile that Jongup used to like the most. Daehyuns hand reached towards him and
caress his cheek. Jongup put his own hand on top of Daehyuns hand and squeezed it
slightly.

Dont cry.. Jongup just shook his head and closed his eyes tightly. Tears keep pouring
out of his eyes. Jongup.. his voice was so quiet it's barely a whisper. Jongup open his
eyes and look at the latter.

The rings so pretty... I really love it... thank you.. Daehyuns breath started to get heavy
he can barely talk. Dae.. please.. Stop.. Jongup said in tears, cant bear to see Daehyun in
pain. Daehyuns breath getting slower and his heart beats too slow. Daehyuns eyes
getting dimmer. He shook his head and apologize.
Guys.. Im getting sleepy.. I think Im gonna take a nap for a while... The room was filled
with sob and machine beeping. Daehyun closed his eyes slowly, breaths getting slower
and slower and Jongup hold his hand tighter.

Im sorry... I love you guys...

--

Jongup sit on the edge of his their- bed with his head hung low to the floor. He didnt
cry, not even at the funeral. He just stared into spaces, dont even know what he was
thinking. A quiet knock was heard from the door. He didnt answer but the door squeak
opened. He raised his head and find Junhong with puffy eyes standing in front of him
while holding a big jar in his hands.

Junhong raised the jar and give it to Jongup. Jongup takes it uncertainly and gave him a
confused look.

Dae made it for for you.. be strong, hyung.. He smiled and walked out of the room.
Junhong walked to the living room and find Yongguk standing in front of him. He opened
his arms and Junhong take no time to run into it and cried hardly.

--

Jongup stared at the jar for a while before opening it. He find a small letter on top of the
small paper cranes.

Paper cranes? He asks to himself confusedly before he opened the letter.

To the love of my life,

Im so sorry. I love you so much, you know that, right?

Sincerely, Dae.

Jongups eyes starting to wet but still no tears coming out. He gritted his teeth and
clench the letter tight. He pick a crane up and played with it in his fingers. Suddenly, a
hint of ink caught his eyes.

He opened the the paper crane out of curiosity and find a familiar hand writing in it. He
read it and pick another one and opened it quickly. He took another one, and then
another one, again and again only to find the same hand writing and sentence.

Hes hands started to shake and tears started pouring out of his eyes. He hugged the jar
to his chest tightly and sobbed quietly.

You idiot...

--

Dear a thousand paper cranes, or God, whichever is fine.

Please love him and make him happy.

-Moon Daehyun-