The Nature of Existence

and
How to Master Yourself

By Marcus Maekin Charles

CHAPTER 1

INTRODUCTION

Right now we are most likely experiencing

"ourselves" as a collection of memories and are sensing things
from one minute to the next; we experience others based on our own
perceptions too, and they us similarly. But if you will try to engage with and dwell
on the logic that follows here after, maybe you can catch a glimpse of what lies
down deeper at the root, the essence of "us".
However; my intention with this book is just to stimulate your own thoughts and
provide you with the easy practice method to discover all answers for yourself; as
well as give you the means to achieve peace, happiness, insight and wisdom; the
means for you to be the master of yourself.
You do not have to subscribe or have faith in anything said here in; just think on
it and try the practice for yourself.

CHAPTER 2

WHO/ WHAT AM I?
The body and mind develop and change through out life:

Am I any of these things?

None is permanent. They are stages of life.

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Life as a baby and as a small child we can not even remember. So; although we do
not remember this past part of our life, it is still what comes before the "us" of
today. Therefor; the present moment is always preceded by the past whether we
can remember it or not.
In the same way; if I bang my head and get amnesia; it is still "me" that wakes up
the next day; just because I do not remember does not change the fact that it is me
there the next day; I do not swap places with somebody else; maybe there is a
chance I could remember what came before.
I can not remember yesterday; but I must still live with where my actions have
taken me- I will still have the same bank balance, family, friends etc. So, although
"I" might not remember, I am still the result of my past deeds/ life.

So I am not my memories and I am not my body.

I am also not the same personality

I was as a baby, an 8 or 14 year
old; and the same changes
continue all through life. So the
personality changes with age;
it is not fixed, not permanent.

Yet I am still here in this present

moment thinking these thoughts
and sensing things.

Am I my senses then? Clearly no.

The senses come to our attention
and out of our attention
depending on what we are doing
or focused upon. None are
permanent.

Am I the feelings or emotions I

experience then? No; emotions
arise and fall,
they are impermanent like
everything else; we are happy or
sad, or in between,
often changing.

So what is left?
Nothing is left.

Nothing permanent
that is.

What I am there for is a formless point of awareness. That is it; nothing more.

This is Great !
This means You are not bound by anything! You have the freedom to make any choices
you wish; to lead your life as you like. You are not what anybody says about you and you
are not even what you think about yourself. You have the power to change your destiny,
to be a great person, to achieve peace, happiness, insight and wisdom in this life time.
This is all a matter of logic- no faith required.

CHAPTER 3

WHY AM I HERE?
Literally

I am here right now in this present moment, sitting in this chair

(for example) because moments ago I chose to walk over and sit down.
First there was the thought to do it; then the action of doing it, and now the result
- that I am here.
Thought - action - result . All through life; whether we are conscious of it or not.
Thought - action - result - thought - action - result - thought - action - result - etc
etc etc
Every step; every moment; even if we are are not conscious of it; our brains are
working this way, sending electrical signals to move our limbs etc.
"Thought" - "action" (action includes both verbal and physical) - "result/ EFFECT"
With greater awareness of "what I am" and "why I am here", we gain greater power
over our own lives. Read on and I will tell you the practical method of how to do
this; how to be the master of yourself.
Now we know we are not the body, but existing separately from it and are here
right now because of past actions, even those we can not remember; it becomes
logical that there is a continuation of "us", the formless point of awareness, the
soul, after death. The soul continues according to the effects of our actions in this
life. Also since we are here right now due to past actions, even those we do not
remember, it is logical that we came to this life from another; we were born to this
exact body and this exact place, in this life, due to actions in the past life.
When you realise this and take full responsibility for yourself in the present
moment then you know to effect change for the positive future by learn how to be
master over your thoughts and actions so you will influence the forwards cycles to
be yielding the best possible results.

CHAPTER 4

OTHER REALMS OF EXISTENCE

As discussed- logically we are floating formless points of consciousness inhabiting

this human body temporarily at this point in time but are not fixed to it.

So since we are not fixed to a body it is logical that there could be free floating points
of consciousness/ awareness that are not inhabiting human bodies presently at all,
and are there for inhabiting other plains of material and/ or non
material existence.

Science has measured that only a tiny percent of the universe is material matter and
are now struggling to create complex theoretical explanations for this.

Logical observation of existing basic maths, science and life already gives the
answer; that we are measuring with our instruments only up to the limits of our
machines and even the measuring/ our participation itself creates differing results!

In maths and science results there are often recurring/ infinite numbers; but scientists
ignore the fact of infinite results and decide themselves to create finite amounts so
that they can build models and equations to explain the thin layer of material
existence that we inhabit; but truly the evidence for the infinite
nature of existence (the everything; the one) has been present all along.

So it can be said that it is mathematically and scientifically proven that we humans are
inhabiting just a thin measurable layer of an infinite existence. Just as we were bound
to observing only the closest parts of our solar system until recently.

However; through expanding our consciousness/ our formless point

of awareness, we can gain knowledge on things beyond the scientifically
measurable, through observation and direct experience. (There is physical
evidence of this in many ancient civilizations- depicting knowledge of the
stars, the world, and space/ time beyond the limits of their machines/ tools of
the day; for example in the pyramids of Egypt, alignment of great stones and
monuments the world over, depictions of Sirius being a two star system, etc.)

We are formless points of awareness/ consciousness, cycling through the infinite due to the nature of cause and effect. Thought + action = effect.
Points of awareness that are not fixed to material bodies.

There for it is logical there are other beings which are points of awareness
with in this infinite system also; who may not be fixed to material bodies at
all.

If you can begin to comprehend the implications of infinity, coupled with the
nature of cause and effect, then all these things which were once leaps of faith;
rebirth, Heaven, Hell, spirits and all the beings which inhabit the various
levels; the once leaps of faith become just steps of logic.

Beware though:

Important it is to be aware that just because logically non material beings exist;
it does not mean that one must believe everything that is written about them or
follow what preachers or teachers say on their behalf blindly. Even if one of these
beings contacts you directly you must always keep your composure and assess
what they are saying and how it might effect the future of you/ your independent
point of consciousness.

The same principle of thought, action and effect which places you where you are
today and determines your future, is also how the other beings are positioned
within the infinite existence.
The principle, the law, the nature, the energy signatures if you like, of all deeds
and actions are on the spectrum of Light to Dark (light being Good/ loving
kindness- through to dark being Evil/ hate / harm). All beings are operating on
this spectrum.
So if some preachers proclaim to be doing Gods bidding, but are advocating harm,
hate and vengeance, then you can be sure this is not the great Good God of
Love and kindness. These attributes are not actions that can be good for you/
your long term position with in the infinity. These are the attributes of the lower to
dark side, demons and such. The preachers, if even in contact with a non material
beings, are not talking to beings of light; they are being tricked or controlled by
the forces of Darkness.
All the religions of the world have been conduits for both the forces of light and
the forces of darkness. The responsibility of followers of all religions is to assess
and act by the elements of light and resist the darkness. If you have no religion
then life is still always a choice of actions with in this light through to dark
spectrum. Do not let the media or culture lead you in darkness/ harmful actions.
Always be on guard; cultivate greater awareness so you can develop for the best
possible future in this life and there after.

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CHAPTER 5
CYCLES &
THE SPECTRUMS OF LIGHT THROUGH TO DARKNESS

The cycles of life and death, and the formless points of awareness (and everything
else), across all the material and the immaterial infinity, is through the process of
cause and effect; all of it is happening whether we subjectively perceive it or not; just
as we can not one day choose not to believe in death and so live for ever- equally we
can not choose to believe that evil is good and make it so.

The Light and the Dark, the spectrum, it is an objective reality which we are
experiencing from our point of consciousness subjectively.
The word Karma is meaning what I have been describing here. Actions of light
producing good karma and actions of dark producing bad karma.

The LightLove, kindness, positivity,

The DarkHatred, harm, fear, negativity

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There is a wide area of spectrum between the two, a grey, which has elements of light
and dark, to different degrees and dependent on the circumstances of each situation.
There is neutral action of nearly no effect; however it is nearly impossible to act in this
world without causing some Karma; and we can not know fully all the effects our
actions might have.
However, Through practice of mindfulness one can learn to see situations more clearly
and chose the best path, free from emotion, attachment or delusion so that our
intentions are pure and results should be as positive as they can be. (Mindfulness
practice is detailed later in this book.)

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CHAPTER 6
NEGATIVE CHOICES DUE TO ATTACHMENTS.

Our souls are formless points of awareness experiencing the impermanent body and
the senses and all other things we encounter in life.
In life we build up attachments to these "things" and suffer as a result.
For example:
- The attachment to beauty or youth makes people unhappy as they age.
- The desire for love, money, material possessions, makes people feel unsatisfied,
resulting in either negativity for the mind or even criminal actions to get what they
want.
- Attachment to ego can result in conflict and difficulty to forgive or accept what has
past. Emotions cause us to say and do things which we later regret.
- Attachment to the idea of this life being a fixed eternal self, leads to suffering from
the fear of death or suffering from the feeling of injustice at life's events or birth
situation.
- Attachment to the senses forces us to suffer from pain and illness.
Through the practice of mindfulness, which I will show you shortly, we can release
ourselves from attachments so our soul is at peace, un-disturbed by external events,
feelings, emotions or the senses.
With practice we can stay cool and calmly observe all phenomena come and go,
undisturbed by any of it.

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Eternal
self

Sense

Desire
Feeling
Formless
Point of
Awareness
Emotion
EGO

Thinking

Aversion

The lines represents Attachment

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CHAPTER 7
MINDFULNESS PRACTICE

THROUGH THE OBSERVATION OF THE BREATH CYCLE

First step:
Observe the air coming in past the inside of the nose with the breath; when breathing in,
can say the word "in" in your mind.
Next - Observe the out breath, when breathing out can say "out" in your mind.

"In"

"Out"

Feel the air passing the roof of the nose. For the purpose of the practice this point is your
"home", your anchor between the mind and the body.
Try to hold attention on observing the breath only. "In" and "out"
It is likely that at first your mind will be jumping around like a monkey; sensing things
such as an itch here or an ache there. Do not be disheartened, it is quite normal, calmly
bring your attention back to your "home" and your breath. In or out? And continue.
Similarly, if you find thoughts popping in to your head, such as what's for dinner, the
important work meeting, or anything else; Do not worry; come back to your "home" and
continue.
You can try this any time. Brushing your teeth, eating breakfast, driving to work, on the
bus, cooking, etc. any time. All the time; if you can. As much as possible.
To be mindful of breath is not to stop doing life. It is you actually becoming more aware
of life, through the breath cycle. You will notice more things; as they come to your
attention on an in or an out breath. You will begin to notice how they arrive and leave;
how they are impermanent. (Also; Colors may appear more vivid to the eyes and the
world become more beautiful, the smallest and most simplistic of things appear as
amazing wonders of nature.)

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The breath puts the large cycles, the events of life and the day, through the
perspective of the smaller cycle of the breath. Like a magnifying glass.
It is also good to make a specific time to focus exclusively on the breath while
not doing anything else. Sitting cross legged with a strait back with your eyes
closed is good. Starting at time 20 to 30 minutes.
Walking with eyes open is good too. 20 to 30 minutes.
The two kinds of practice, walking and sitting, support each other.
When you feel ready, you can practice 30 minute of each on rotation, as many
times as you like. You can build it up at your own pace as you feel.
Also note that the purpose is not to control the breath but to observe it. You
may naturally feel like taking longer deeper breaths; this is fine, if you feel an
occasional shorter one, this is fine also. Just observe and let the breath flow
naturally.
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Step 2:
Once you have trained the monkey mind and are able to walk and sit holding
concentration then you can move on to awareness of the three parts of the breath
cycle.
There is the in breath and the out breath and the space between the two.
In, space, out, space, in, space, out, space, in, space, out, space, etc etc
You can use a different word to "space" if you like; such as "break" or "gap" or
whatever suits you.
You may also find that with practice you do not need any words and simply
recognize / are aware of the stages of the cycle with out the words; but at first, using
the words in your mind are good tools for focusing the attention.
In, space, out, space.
You may also find that as you are more aware of the space between breaths that the
duration of the space expands naturally; this is fine. As said in "step 1" the way is
"observation" of the breath, not the control of it. Just let it flow by nature as it feels it
would like to be. If the space increases a lot compared to when you hardly notice it at
all then this is a natural occurrence and not to be worried about or pondered over;
just let it be.
Practice; observe.
All day long; all the time.
Walking and sitting practice.
Then you will naturally come to be aware of the moment a sense or emotion arises.
Is it an IN or an OUT breath?
Then, with out forcing it, become aware of when that sense or emotion dissipates/
leaves your attention.
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Once your mind becomes aware of the moment of dissipation, and that this
happens naturally with out effort, then the simple awareness of this moment in the
breath cycle aids in the dissipation itself.
Through this awareness we can dissipate all negative emotions and feelings; we can
remove attachments, and gain all the positive benefits talked about earlier in this
book.
"In" breath- we notice the external phenomena (emotion, sense, or whatever it might
be)
Observe the space between the breaths.
"Out"- or can change this mind word to "now" (to focus that it is now/ the present
moment... "Now", I am the master of myself, - "now", I am at peace, un-disturbed by
anything.)

Practice this diligently, find the moment of dissipation, and you will have the
key to be the Master of yourself.
You will be able to observe every phenomena, every thought, every feeling, every
suffering; you will be able to cooly observe all things, catch them with your awareness
and dissipate them at will. You will be undisturbed by anything; able to select the best
thoughts to focus in to intention and make your every action for the best possible
effects in your future.

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CHAPTER 8

BREATH OF LIFE
If we do not breath we will be dead.
Breathing is the key to life.
If we are not aware of our breathing then we are not truly consciously alive.
We act with out thinking, according to reaction or emotion. However; When
we are conscious of our breath we slow down all the phenomena of life and
can first remove emotion from the situation and therefor see it all more clearly
for what it is, what the future effects of our actions are likely to be. So we can
better choose the action for the best effects.
The breath cycle is like a magnification of the life cycle. The space between
life is the space between breaths; a rebirth with every breath. Clear and free
for any choice to action.

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CHAPTER 9
PEACE, HAPPINESS, INSIGHT, WISDOM

Peace
Once we start to break down the attachments to the body, the ego, senses, emotions,
etc etc. then our minds become naturally more peaceful.

Happiness
From peace comes naturally a happiness; not a fleeting sense based pleasure from
external stimuli, but a real all permeating contentedness based happiness, expanding
from with in.

Insight
With time as we become fully aware of our breath cycle, naturally our awareness
expands to other things, the body, the way the mind works, the reality of existence,
and more. It is insight through direct experience of the expanded awareness/
consciousness/ soul.

Wisdom
Through insight we can develop the Wisdom of how to apply ones knowledge for the
good of our own lives and wider spheres of humanity.

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C H A P T E R 10
TO HELP THOSE WISHING TO WALK THE PATH OF LIGHT
THE BUDDHA ADVISED THESE GUIDELINES OF CONDUCT TO KEEP
IN MIND, SO AS TO YIELD THE BEST KARMIC RESULTS,
WHICH YOU CAN DO BECAUSE YOU ARE CONSCIOUS

1- To refrain from harmful actions (non-violence towards sentient life forms ++)
2- To refrain from taking that which is not given; (do not scam, cheat or steal)
3- To refrain from sensual misdeeds (because it can lead to negative consequences,
pain, hurt etc; examples would be where actions motivated by unchecked desire cause
physical or mental harm, or pain as a result.)
4- To refrain from lying (conduct oneself with honor and honesty);
5- To refrain from intoxicants which lead to loss of mindfulness (because when we are
not fully conscious it is easier for the darkness to lead us astray/ we increase chances
to do harm or other misdeeds because we are not fully in control of ourselves)

These are the principles of light.

The same principles can be found across religions; but these are a useful concise list
which can apply to wide situations.
In addition to this- the practice for development of mindfulness is important.

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C H A P T E R 11
THE NOBLE EIGHTFOLD PATH OF LIGHT IS A GUIDE FOR GOOD
CONDUCT AND SELF DEVELOPMENT, WHICH YOU CAN
UNDERSTAND BECAUSE YOU HAVE CONSCIOUSNESS.

1. Right view- To see reality as it is and not just as it appears to be (this can be
achieved through meditation practice as described earlier).

2. Right intention- Intention for our actions to be good according to the principles of
light.
(Thought is part of the cycle of "thought, action, effect"; so it is the first and foremost
area of attention to lead on to eventual good effects; which is what we want of
course. Starting with good intention and cultivating positive thoughts is very
important and powerful. Maybe the effects do not happen immediately, because of
our past Karma, but if we begin every cycle with the right intention then this is the
first easily controlled step to success.
Also worth noting is that "Thought", as in the thought randomly popping in to our
heads, are some times not good ones at all, some times we have truly terrible
thoughts even. Such is normal and nothing to worry about; just see the bad thoughts
and let them pass; select the good, plan the good and focus them in to your
intention- this intention you put as the power on to your action. As the mind
becomes purer over time, with the mindfulness practice, the bad thoughts will
naturally arise less; still they may come and are nothing to be alarmed about, just let
them pass through the breath cycle like everything else and we are at peace.)

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3. Right speech- Speaking in a truthful and non-hurtful way.

4. Right action- Acting in a non-harmful way according to the principles of light.

5. Right livelihood- A non-harmful livelihood
6. Right effort- Making an effort to improve oneself, develop ones awareness
and keep a healthy body, as well as mind, as best we can. Actively try to help
others develop themselves also.
7. Right mindfulness- Awareness to see situations for what they are with clear
consciousness; free from attraction or aversion (can do by the method as
described earlier in this book)
8. Right concentration- (meditation practice free of delusion or attachment.)
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C H A P T E R 12

SPHERES OF RESPONSIBILITY
Yourself

Like building a house; build a strong foundation to support everything

else. You develop yourself and then you can help others to the best of
your ability.

Your family

Close friends

Community

Love them or loath them they are your only family, you have a
karmic link to them, a responsibility which can not be removed. If
you can not get along with them then at the very least you can
make peace and not cause or join any further conflicts; from peace
and forgiveness can grow positive results. If you can support and
help your family as best you can it is good Karma.
It is good to help your friends like they were your family. But
in all cases ones immediate family should not be risked or put
to ruin by attempting to help the wider spheres of
responsibility. The first two spheres of yourself and your
family must remain stable as a base to support the wider good
deeds. Step by step.
It is good to get involved in community, socially or taking care of
nature and/ or helping those less fortunate. Doing good deeds and
building positive bonds according to the principles of light.

Country

Respect for and acting in a way to support the nation by furthering

the elements of Light within it.

World

Respect Mother Earth, Mother Nature, act to make positive effects

according to the principles of light for her, nature and us the people
on this earth. We are all joined in the dynamic system of existence.
Help to spread the knowledge of Light, cause and effect and the
practice to lead a good life.
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C H A P T E R 13

PREPAREDNESS
You should not be stuck with worries of the past or those about the future.
However; it is good to make plans and be prepared for it.
Save money in case of special needs, such as unemployment or personal or family
emergency.

We can not rely on the government or others to bail us out. It is best we can help
ourselves first and use what ever other help that might be available if needs be as a
welcome bonus but not our first port of call.
Disaster can strike at any time. Be it economic or natural.
It is wise to keep at least a couple of weeks supply of water and non perishable food on
hand in case the shops, ATMs, or supply lines are not working for any reason. Think
through all scenarios and think of the likely hood of each scenario; it is up to you how
much or how little, but a couple of weeks should be the minimum. It is a mistake to
think that nothing happens, it can and does regularly all over the world. The
government may not always able to help everybody quickly enough.
You can apply the spheres of responsibility to your preparedness planning too,
according to your ability and vision.
We are the first generations in all the history of humanity not to consider our personal
food and water supply security seriously. That could be a very grave error.

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THE POWER OF A SMILE

Remember to smile. With out smiling some times a cloud can hang on us
with out our realizing. The act of smiling stimulates our muscles and brain in to a
more positive state of awareness. Because to smile we focus our thought on an act of
happiness. The smile is an act of happy / positivity, even if we do not 'feel'
exceptionally happy to start with, the application of thought and action can produce
the effect.

If one can make the smile the natural state of the face then it sets a positive tone
for a happy life and all other thoughts and actions. Don't stress yourself if you are
not naturally a smiling person, but it is something one can try and work on as an
experiment to see how it can effect you in a positive way.
The effects of the smile are not only positive for yourself but are positive for
everybody around you and those that you come in to contact with. The smile
actively projects positivity. If you ever travel to countries where people smile a lot
by nature such as Thailand, Laos, or elsewhere, you will have noticed the truth of
this- How the power of the smile of all the other people makes a real impression on
your own feelings. From the others smiles we naturally start to smile too and it feels
good.
Amazing that just by a simple smile we can help the spirit of the world and us
peoples on it.

In the same way, being polite and well mannered is excellent for positive energy
circles.
As the saying goes - manners dont cost anything - so why not?
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FORGIVENESS/ ACCEPTANCE
When one understands the nature of cause and effect. Thought - action - effect.
Running consistently through our own lives and indeed driving the whole world
forward. It gives greater meaning to the teachings of Jesus on the importance of
"forgiveness" and the Buddha emphasis on "acceptance". These are not just noble
concepts; they are logical and practical methods to break negative "thought,
action, effect" cycles. Consciously applying these techniques, even if we still feel
aggrieved at a certain situation, but at least one can consciously control ourselves
enough not to put our feelings in to a harmful "intention" nor "action"; then we have
broken the negative cycle and will move forward with our own choices of positive
cycles instead.
In other words: forgiveness or acceptance
it is a proactive measure to break the Dark side and enable the Light.
One can see the results of not applying these principles world wide, from family
feuds, political violence, societal upheaval to sectarian and tribal violence, war etc.
Through greater awareness we can apply these Light techniques and principles to
benefit our own lives and by spreading this knowledge can help others too.
This way the mind is working, the way the world is unfolding, is through principles
that apply across all religions and cultures, all the world; one does not need to
subscribe to the cycle of rebirth to observe this truth of how the mind works and
how we can take control of it, of ourselves.

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THANKS &
I give special thanks to Ajarn Dhammanandho for teaching me the
practice of the observation of the breath and his continued counsel and
guidance helping me with my own meditation practice. Also for the
giving me the name to use while walking this path Marcus
Maekin (meaning cool cloud).
I am still a humble practitioner; Ajarn Dharmanando is the Master.
Personally I used to suffer from back and neck pains due to car
accident; also i was engaged in quite an unhealthy lifestyle too. Thanks
to this technique and finding the moment of dissipation (as described in
step 2) I no longer suffer pains and have changed my lifestyle, quit
smoking, boozing and such. The effects in my life have been so great, I
now attempt to share the technique as widely as possible so others
might benefit similarly.
But; I like to just make clear again that it is not at all required to believe in the
full content of this book. My purpose is only to invite you to try the practice for
yourself; you can learn to observe the breath cycle and discover all answers for
yourself.
My personal understanding is what I write here; with the intention to help stimulate
your own inquiry / thought process. I am not asking for your faith at all.
If you do not find certain parts useful or interesting then just read and disregard it
completely; it matters not.
The observation of the breath practice as a way to peace, happiness, insight and
wisdom; and the nature of Light and Dark actions causing related effects; this is what
is most important.
Practice as described diligently and you will be the master of yourself.

May peace be with us.

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If you have questions or would like further detail and

guidance on the meditation please visit:
observationforpeace.com
(Here you can also find details of Meditation centers/ places to learn and
practice this technique in person with guidance from Ajarn Dharmanando,
myself or other approved teachers depending on your location and preferences.)

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