Envisioning Your Solstice:

Sacred Solar Dreamweaving Intro

Salutations!
I hope all finding their way here are onto a good official start to Summer of 2015.
Firstly, we just experienced the gift of a June New Moon. Often, I offer something up either on full or
new rotations, whether music, art, and here at the library I especially work toward putting work out there. I
passed through very stealthy. Lots of silence and deep meditation. A couple days later I came out with a new
shamanically driven techno music program.
It's called 'FTB'; different from the Schranz [German Rage Techno] , with a higher tempo and cleaner
delivery. Still a very intense tool for the drumming induced transcendentalism. If you seek it, it's easy to
learn quickly what the FTB stands for...

What I'm inspired to talk about right now is discipline. By using that word, I don't really mean
consequences like a punishment for doing something 'naughty', but I mean specifically a 'mystical schedule',
or if you prefer, a spiritual strategy that you are focused at and dedicated in for very pragmatic purposes.
The notions thereof really tie into the last thing written to, and while I haven't done so everyday by
any means, it so happens I have the big 'torch' smoky quartz elestial between my bare feet...maybe
instigating the current writing after meditating lightly this morning first thing. Once more, I work with these
powerful 'breathing technologies' to tap into the natural Earth reservoirs and draw from while
simultaneously bridging my own core self and investing my peak energies for cosmic bridgework galore.
The tantric exercises are blissful, ecstatic, and the terrific polarities between are worked in and
brought up or giving you the protocols to transform in the territories as the receptive party handling the
reality's codex. As McKenna rightly mentioned, 'Ecstasy is not bliss. It's often terrifying...', and extra sensory
wise, can be so damned graphic in that movie rating sense of the word. Only, it has no safety screen on the
wall, but shatters those ceilings or helps you Break On Through...
For a time, you are entrusted with being the flaws, cracks or shatter points, raw material or its essential
lining deficient matters and erring psychology even, in the Process to overcome; there creates a ginormous
need for you to step up then, and for you to step up, a standard of trust with the entities you are familiar to
has got to be established. There, a crossroads occurs; the first axis branching forth is discipline and the second
branch shadowing said axis will be abuse. Then, you have an endless threading that is limitless complex
spectrum and shades of people sublimating between the two. While we see here a polarity, they are
traveling companions. You will never amputate and cauterize fully the abuses to have a shining orb of the
perfect manifested discipline. If you could, we would all be obviously enlightened by now. Whether fully
aware as completely disciplined beings or fully self aware as totally abusive quasi forms of life.
It brings on thoughts of those ancient tales of 'dream warriors' and I can attest there are some alive
today and how in the dream, you are both aware and completely undisciplined, so often, helpless to any
abuse from more operational entities playing on your dream time, or playing over. All that reinforces you is
your waking discipline and furthering of interconnectedness. If you ask, 'Why is all this shamanic ancestral
stuff now more relevant than ever?', the smog we looked at in the last writing comes up again. To lift veil or to
pierce shroud, strong interrelations need to be a discipline constantly focused toward and into. To let go
completely of caring and maintenance in this area is like saying 'God is the Smog', it'll all handle itself and if
I get cut off from the trust of Ancestors watching out for me in the dream realms where I am tossed around on
the whim of the operatives with expertise in that area, so be it...they must be the new age messenger and we
need these horror gospel 'angels' to feel anything at all anymore. It is this approach that has the necessary
prerequisite of shamanic activity in global societies as now endangered species #1.
We all have seen what happens to entire ecosystems when anything at all gets wiped out.
The Shaman is so closely related to being the tree, closest to the seed's planting, and origin of all that
breaks by way of the strong root. Imagine the direction of a modern world without planting, sowing, harvest,
or any agricultural knowledge...

The Shaman is in energy, goal, force and activity equal to this: the drawing forth and refined
integration of the vast, surging, tantric pulsations and voices of the living earth, and the disciplined directive
toward returning us to the ancestrally interwoven and all-connected and interrelating bridgeworks that
maintain the dream power, reinforce us in the spectrum of anything manifesting of the dream time, and
enunciating in all dimensions of communications [verbal and otherwise], the expressions of the Arts to free
and liberate mind by way of the great phantasmagorical theatrics or World Soul Drama unfolding.
See both dilemma and crucial position? We in modern times have moved the Shaman or Shamanka to
being off the stage as an antiquity with child like crayons scribbling in a coloring book off the stage and
telling them to now feel honored that they get to pull the golden rope that drops the final curtain. We don't
understand their tears and feeling this. Not only, but now it is so 'exotic' to be cruel to the true heart.
One thing I had a major problem with right before leaving virtually all social media except for where
I post my art or music was a flurry of, Everyone needs to look at how I conquered the ego. It doesn't get more
contradictory than, We runnin' dis shit , son. We got this. Sit back and take in our schooling session.
Spotlight on my enlightenment skills, dawg., and at the same time complaining about how others need to
follow your selfless leadership examples. What a total crock of shit. Accompanying this is another feigned
humility that they are protecting some sacred greater vote that is completely fabricated and speaking on
behalf of a greater community they serve. Yet, catch22, that works over and over because people are so out
of touch and fiending for someone else more qualified to do their thinking for them and tell them what they
want or need, down to musics, foods, fashion, and religion...maybe the pastor or politician...maybe just the
one in your group with a bit more animal magnetism who you look up to as 'successful'.
There is a supply and demand chain for those who can fill in the best flavor of abuse in exchange for
certain 'freedoms' that is really interpreted among the aware as not having to deal with the disciplines that
would bring on self responsibility among other huge benefits once again conveniences would need some
shaving off. For many, a traumatic overhaul would be in order to save themselves of a wired-in and juiced up
absolute entropy. I don't just mean death or lack of intellect, but a dulling of extrasensory interdimensional
varieties. Okay, and that effects this life, the next, and if you've been worn out and down enough to think it's
just 'all over' when you die, then every life yet here after you leave recycling your untrapped light circuitry
patterns.
So, if it's true that the fully nonspiritual atheistic materialist mind is good because it just wants to be
all on its own thrust, then the reality you too get recycled on levels of dimensions invisible to you shows you
are not exempt from some kind of similar responsibility that is also shamanic. Most Buddhists are both
atheistic in some ways and not contradictory of awareness of the vaster shamanic currents of Greater
Reality.
Dealing with: he was abused too much in this [spiritual/metaphysical or other media induced
communal coma] system. unfortunate; but basically everything is fine, and karma has favored our
interconnectedness and prowess of being interconnected on all levels uncompromisingly..so, he/she is just
damaged goods. No point stopping to reintegrate this one soul, we are all specks of dirst and dust spiraling
on Maya..we are too busy developing, evolving, and conquering the ego under a spotlight to look at this one
misfortuned circumstance of 'feels'..what a trainwreck.

See, now the victimized [not a dirty word] are holding us down.
there definitely are victims and we need to be aware and reintegrate, not just kill the word and plaster over
with 'survivor', then the infected party 'moves on' to start abusing others thinking they are doing them a favor
if they survive it like them the pattern originators..even return to love them for subjecting them to it.. NO,
goddammit!
People in this thrust devouring souls as the age marches on are so intense about avoiding 'being the
victim', they'll fiend instead to be thought of as 'survivor' brave & strong, so project you as the victimizing
party by taking the 50/50 'two to tango' factor, amping their end to 60 and then later converting your
antagonized 40 to a whopping catfish story of 80% wrongdoing and lack of understanding or pure apathy
or more. Even trying to completely white wash their percentage, which should burn in the back of their mind
as a natural astringent, but they have numbed that part of the brain over years of doing this...maybe lifetimes
more like.
Hence, we have the whole 'feels avoidance' campaigns that the social media narcissist crutches by.
This is the base of all manipulation tactics that flusters the good hearted, who are slower to catch the
unexpected devious behaviour because they are not closely aligned, to being severely jaded and extracting
the trust part of their brain. Many become hedge sitters/ppl. A.k.a. what people now call 'witches' or
'mutants' and other freaks [beautiful in my eyes] to cope. To continue life and living and love for their own
being alive and any semblance of joy, all their friends and often family are the spirits...purely...
I've clearly been subjected to and experienced all this, to offer a quick word upon it all.
I've obviously had to some degree work my way into it and trust the Process
and be able to make the returns.
Social media makes all this much worse at far more severe frequency because of the hollow promise...
that there are other 'hedge sitters' all over the internet, but it's extremely dangerous because
these are quit desensitized and unremarkable people posing as 'freaks', really doing the whole
cruelty-to-true hearts to feel exotic thing. Alongside 'everyone look at my ego conquering skills' is
the reaction of the reptile that being a sadist is the new black;
anything you might throw at me to admonish my ill behavior practically makes me orgasm.
Refer to the last writing where I propose with decent evidence how you are weak as it gets...
As a last word and admitted final jab from the pains social media caused my heart;
the realization and motto sets in to curb my own vanity returning;
Social media is the place for everything truly gross and mass produced
to try to stand out as spectacular.
It's so very much not at all the place for anything truly spectacular to try and fit in
for acceptance yet, we all will have stories of the time we passed up gold for glitter.

This word is really a prelude to go deeper. I really wanted to do something here at my/our [as in open
source] library for the exact Solstice time. It's a time of importance and significance; 21 st is actual date, fyi.
EDM & Solstice celebrators; visit my latest Schranz archival upload to youtube. This 2 hour+
originally produced German Scream Techno revolves around Summer Solstice events for this time. I consider
it sacred and all charged up, too, very naturally... so, fantastic 'ritual music'.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Lz69Uy0PhI

This image, along with so many of the other masks I photographed called to me.
The drum speaks volumes.
So, here I am Electronic Dance Music producer, my friends and family mostly purely the spirits themselves.

I turned to read the description.

While I'm at it, I might as well include a favorite mineral of mine.

A Pyrite larger than a basketball...
Cat's Gold or Fool's Gold.
Not all that goes by the name of gold is genuine.
Nevertheless, this one is sacred and fire energy leaps forth from,
and I love the jumbo pyrite heart that was my gift for a dark goddess in my life.

About the Author:

Von Kotterhausen is a chosen artist handle.
Initiated as a visionary artist in the late 90's, and would go on to become a Producer, Photographer, Writer, advancing
graphic artist, and further initiate of shamanic fields including working in 'Lightning Vehicle' adaptive techniques of ecstatic
trance induced transformation via multimedia expertise combined platforms.
merging transcendentalism with immanence to engage a fuller sustained rapture in gnosis or direct experience beyond
the personal and mundane perceived societal screens and hierarchical veils of soul devouring artifice.
Most known simply as Kotter; along with missing an arm and having other cerebral birth anomalies that were not
disclosed until after an 'o7 interstate car accident, now associated to 'metaeonic current engineering' which involves use of
the multiple platform practical tools to achieve prolonged vortex or gateway synthesis - the novel forces initiative often called
since most ancient days 'eschatonic return of the time of the gods' and/or soul retrieval from the Dark Night of The Soul
territories or certain barren intermediary planes of suffering life forms, known in the Tibetan as 'hungry ghosts'.
New age/archontic exorcism and life/occult systems research and development implying field operative journalism is
an imperative facet of this entire thrust, resulting in a library of open source material with practical communique on
launching complete campaigns of performing clean operations...
Overcoming insurmountable odds stacked against, including growing up in a fundamentalist home and schools in
which abuses took place on multiple platforms including sexual in nature [up to governmental institute levels]; now caretaker
for elder family members - one having a stroke, the other falling through sub-flooring to hit the basement floor head first - and
working round the clock on his metaphysical art discipline to conquer the post traumatic effects of growing up exposed to
such haunting events.

More than concern of 'ego' or 'karma', priority is given to the restoration of lost, fractured, scattered souls and minds
exposed to similar abuses and mending over the trauma and metaphysical elements involved where most extreme cases urge
for the most intensive methodologies to be deployed...
Qualifications/History:
Dealt with a quasi-masonic cell lead by expelled O.T.O. Atlanta chapter head known as the 'Hellfire Bishop', a.k.a.
'Allen Greenfield' & company. Infiltrated the 'Memphis-Misraim' occult system revival currently taking place, as inspired by
the 'gnostic voudon' bishop Michael Bertiaux' work and succesive lineage. Over 500 pages of my personal work has been
publicly uploaded dealing with some of the abuses taking place in that system.
Out of 97 'hot points', what is called in Vodou 'pwen cho', later 'points chaud' in freemasonry's adaptations; all head
points, throat points, points along spine, abdominal and chest areas, some arm points were conferred to me. I administered of
my own expertise attained, points at the feet for Earth Healing purposes, much to the chagrin, malcontent, and ignoramus of
the group. Reasons being, I had not been conferred the status of 'bishop', the only grade in the hierarchy with permission to
bestow officially these 'points'. Points being animistic technologies or breathing/pulse-bearing portals called loas [lwas].
During the course of my infiltration, investigation, and engagement initiatives, I sustained acutely streaming 'prana
vampire', or intentional life force draining afflictions from within that cell which was known as the 'Ormus Lodge' as well as
in particular Greenfield and his closest initiated adept cohorts. This activity was on par with a 'metaphysical gang', and was
then treated no differently than a cult-gang in my dealings from there. It included Greenfield's friends from his time in the
O.T.O. that carried over into his 'Congregational Illuminism' movement that is open enough to include a facebook resource
at the most face value of anything benign to seduce interest and energetic feeding into. As well as infecting other movements
by sub-cells under Greenfield; notably that of 'Ormus Lodge' a recent masonic charter approved by quasimason Greenfield
the Coptic Gnostic Church and their online subgroup 'In Free Communion' and also 'Constellation of Abrasax' [a.k.a.
Abraxas]; a farce of a charter headed up by an extremely mentally ill substance addicted vagabond with dangerously
unpredictable behavior, especially self sabotage and the sabotage of those around her whose success brings on destructive fits
that manifest as deception tactics of social manipulation till her target is ostracized, at the very least.
Then, these sort of actions are considered a 'successful magickal manifestation' of personal empowerment.
Such social manipulations and subtle gangstalking tactics are common within this group leading back up into serving
Greenfield's & company's blind loyalty 'Pavlovian dog's' style cult agendas.
Again, the primary concern is not a senseless status driven affair, but specific priestly and hierarchical abuses for the
purpose of 'Prana[Qi]-draining' or life force stealing [and other gross violations of good will and intentional mishandling of
authentically empowering others toward achieving their goals via honoring benign traditions claimed] and actual occult
displacement tactics that implies causing anywhere from physical targeting over long distances to put desired effects upon
rather than only remove or vacuum out; the range escalates to psychic and emotional afflictions and infections leading into
most subtle or spiritual killing, dislocation, and dismemberment.
Especially under the circumstances anyone should enter into their circles of initiates and then begin questioning,
challenging members with authority and testing their methods and tactics directly within.
Again, my very ability to write this openly and with a gifted, empowered sacred commission is alone sufficient
evidence in my own claims of spiritual and occult orientated professions and claims.
The methods for dealing with this were 'Out of the frying pan and into the fire' Having gotten in over my head alive [yet permanently scarred and with variations in symptomatic phantoms] where I
should've been dead or have disappeared or been institutionalized the most desperate solution was returning to the very
same fundamentalist schematics that already inflicted a countless myriad of abuses. The expected and inevitable occurred in
doing so.
On picking up the pieces yet again from attempting to find solace and sanctuary from one set of abusive captors to the
biggest Warden of all, the administering executive operations began.

Among the newly assembled holy arsenal; the visionary sacred graphic art canvases, custom produced original
visionary electronic music ranging from ambient synthesizers to high tempo tribal style drumming composition*, expanding to
a heavy duty armory of sacred stones ranging from varieties of shamanic quartz to associated power stones that includes
kyanite, turquoise, pyrite, carnelian, obsidian, serpentine, dragonstone, and more. Vortex solar organic grid systems like the
ones at sacred spots such as Sedona and Machu Picchu and Stonehenge.
The work offered specifically involves the bridging in of ancestrally harmonious cosmic-in-earth soul restorative forces
and entities. Fully on par with the professional exorcist, cosmically ordained and self-styled; minus plaques, dues paid to
organizations, and by default the corruption and nepotism of hierarchies with status. Simultaneously, one must acknowledge
the work is neither church nor fraternally backed in league to any official religious firm. Legally, no more than a mystically
inclined artist, and a freelance rogue agent. That itself presents more of an advantage, anyway.
Rather than stressing values on 'group mind' and corporate religious dogma infrastructure codependency, it is
imperative that any greater body such as the utmost of 'world soul' or the global subconscious be able to serve the individual
soul in suffering, if truly strong as claimed.
Experience has dictated that a newer strategy is called for, and the work offered is designed to fulfill said needs. In a
clogged up pipework of committees and designated officials pushing papers, no permission and red tape needs waiting on
where time is of the essence.
What work and service is proffered here extends far beyond any recognized & certified alumni priest or paranormal
investigation team with even the most state of the art 'phantom catching' technologies.
*Noteworthy: prior to experiences listed here, the musical use as mentioned here was a strong feature of the
'Constellation of Abrasax' charter's mission statement, to explore [among other activities] the 'Nightside of the Tree of Life', or
the qlippothic shells of the Kabbalah. The audio dimensions were very suddenly gifted to the sphere of my own sacred arsenal
again, cosmically ordained at the failing of the deficient head who never took the C.o.A. Charter anywhere at all beyond
the usual activities of lots of drugs at music festivals out of state, but with a holy privileged rock star gnostic status and all of
the 'hot points' between members; severe occult knowledge abuse in its most concentrated forms.
None of this info is to lambast freemasonry the right of all to practice their own faiths and diverse belief systems or
other specific fraternities beyond that which was directly experienced and responded to. In fact, Memphis-Misraim lodges
historically had been stifled [official public documentation] before by authentic masonic orders. Cause for major disaster was
unleashed on multiple and phantasmal fronts when reinstated by the quasimasonic 'Hellfire Bishop' Greenfield.
Again, this individual had already been expelled from the Ordo Templi Orientis at large. An event that requires
behavior akin to the sort that results in being kicked out of a public school in a troubled area of the city, among a corporate
band of neo-gnostics who are 'supposed to be as naughty as possible' for extra occult status [a goal definitely being similar
notoriety such as that of Aleister Crowley, self proclaimed 'wickedest man in the world' and 'Great Beast 666'] and other
amenities or talents through impressing cohorts both fraternal and of more subtle residencies.
Note: I realize the following paragraph is disturbing yet necessary to establish that none of this is a toybox, board game,
hoax, or a way to cash in on suffering of others...
Further note on qualifications: The previously mentioned '07 car accident was on I-285, 5 days before turning age 28.
It came off the heels of a major transformation of spontaneous initiation experience known as the 'ordeal of the abyss'. The
very real experience is likened to being hit by a bolt of lightning, among Kabbalists called 'Kether', in which at the
[sub]molecular level, the whole body is being 'stung' at near unfathomable continued increase. Any conceivable reality is
stressed to the greatest void tensity as endless entire cosmological scenarios divide like encasings or linings and then collapse
with similar increasing momentum. You are in effect perfectly dying, and perfectly corporeally and mentally present. On
assimilating the intense 'heat', the student is thrust immediately into a pure universal frigidity. On it goes with any element or
other psych-spiritual foundation building block. There is no sanctuary but to complete the crossing. The event took place over
roughly 24 hours and was brought on entheogenically; i.e. by way of the use of potent shamanic sacred medicine plants. This
has little bearing with the aforementioned parties, whose systems and personal acquaintances were made only years after,
though made personal friends and brothers with a select few beforehand.

Along with modern and 'white' shamanic initiatives, world & holistic integration/restoration and soul retrieval, the
services also employ the communication of intercultural and multicultural ancestral forces including reconciliation and
redemptive efforts with the forces at hand, the 'pwen' or 'points' that were subject to misrepresentation and abuse in reality,
ancient animistic African deities as well as the myriad of incorporating spiritual and various metaphysical resources
indigenous, other tribal, and worldwide holistic arsenals employed toward total well being and globally inclusive advancement
with universal effects. Or, 'No Lifestyle Disparaging' - exemption and conditions attachment free every Path leads to the
same Truth and is not deprecated to glorify a dogmatic structure.
Being of the gnosis experiential and complicated divine contact over faith based fundamentalist activities which
had spawned the backgrounds of virtually all childhood abuses and traumas as the medium traveled by; the entities dealt with
known as the Hot Points [a.k.a. 97 degree masonic initiations infrastructure] are not viewed as 'evil' or the 'hell spawn bad
guys'.
Rather, these are approached respectfully as ancient and powerful ancestrally worshiped complicated ethereal
characters with soul-reflective capabilities we souls rotate through daily, hourly, moment to moment, subject to similar vast
spectrum changeability, which includes polar extremes and opportunities for volatility [most often under error of the
communicator], same as with the human counterpart. Therefore, what is presented is really beyond the duality limitation yet
comprehended with harmony and integrating a certain dualistic reality the mind creates that we subject ourselves and each
other to.
Finally, in short; a legitimate natural born adept and true life exorcist of holistic tendencies and the 'World Soul' &
'Lightning Vehicle' vessel. So, beyond notions of clearing out evil naughty demons by calling on Michael and Gabriel and
Raphael, anything malevolent that is harassing the victim of the abuses will be filtered out, to use a gentle expression, and
benevolent connections reestablished with bonds and cords severed completely of the offending forces and their attached
servitors.
This includes personal environment to living space and other variations, even psychological and physical, as was the
most extreme case of upwards of 50+ of the 97 'hot points' angles administered during the trial period and the given
responses.

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