Ganesha , God, Godson, Gatekeeper for Uma , is said to
be the 1st God without whose blessings , you cant succeed in whatever yoga. Route of yoga is Ashirwad of UmaShakti . You will not meet Uma unless , Gatekeeper allows you so. Gatekeeper is Umaputra , who protects at Mooladhar , the door of secret passage inside which Uma is bathing. He wont permit, Purusha the Shiva to meet Shakti, unless he is satisfied with devotion. Story of his birth suggests interesting secret. Shiva cut his head & replace by elephants head. Elephant breathes by Trunk, not by side nostrils. Trunk is the nose for elephant. Trunk is similar with Sushumna. Means unless you enter prana in Susumna, door to Shakti will not open. As simple as that.. But not so simple to do. When I do ganesh upasana now, I feel how many years I wasted doing discussions about Vedanta & being there or not, years making fun of other people who do so. By such Pradnya-Aparadh, those evil seeds of karma which I sow, now coming & biting me. To add to that, I am living in period of Kaliyuga, where any social contact, no matter it real or virtual on the internet, makes bad impact on your Chitta. Almost 99% percent, people I can get in touch with daily in reality or on Internet, are against Hindu/Vedic way of living & philosophy. Some agrees with Philosophy, but are against the living , because it doesnt suits them now. They do not want to change for sake of their habits. In simple words, I am trying to become actual Brahmin (being Brahmin by birth ), in cities of charvakas,pakhandies & atheists in India(This is saddest thing to say) .
Changing friends, sites, acquaintances is not helping. You
only replace 100% atheist with 70% atheist & him with 50% atheist. My mind is destabilizing because of this. It gets booster with some diving thoughts. But gets trapped into anxiety & depression, when I have dispute with above mentioned atheists or half baked self proclaimed Jnanis . I struck in real dilemma about what to do. My last two attempts to solve this was turned down by Goddess Shakti, by making sudden events in my life. It clearly indicates, she want me to stay with my family & friends for now. There may be some future motive. So I cant go against her wish by doing stupid 3rd attempt. No choice besides waiting. Either I should get aavaran on my chitta completely cleared so it wont get polluted because of social contact or I must live somewhere in Himalaya lonely. Both requires , a presence of enlightened Master. What are the chances of I getting to know such ?????????????????????? Only Mother knows. Help me. PS---- Today I will try Japa of Ketu for Ganesha Krupa. I believe Ketu resides at the point near Mooladhar. He is one end of evil pair of Rahu-ketu, who drags Jeeva into cycle of Time. Ketu is also related with Root ie Moola. He is owner of 3 mula nakshatra ie Ashwini, Magha & Moola. Ganesh is always known as Vignkarta simultaneously with Vighnaharta. Marut ganas are said to be vedic form of Ganesha . They are also in multiple nos.(21/28 ?) like ketus who are 108 ? Need to find. Many suggest Ganesha upasana for Bad ketu in horoscope. Lets do other way round. May be lord ganesha will please with me this time. Sankasht Chaturti, 20th May 2011