A journal. Hospital attachment.

28th October 2014

The majestic sun shone brightly today as my PBL members and I
paced to High Dependency Unit (HDU)Orthopedics Ward. I was nervous yet
excited to dig in new experiences and knowledge.
First of all, my heart was so touched to hear the prayer recited
early at around 8 a.m. In a sense that for sure, the patients really
desire for something- recovery, the ability to stay healthy. After the
prayer, we entered the ward. I felt the environment of it. I observed
every single thing that existed inside the ward.
Yes,

for

sure

get

to

know

lot

of

things;

the

systems,

different roles of different health care providers, the ward rounds,

equipments, rooms, files, drugs and many more. But there was something
more meaningful than that. Something that was much more deeper and
made me realized, 'am I competent enough to become a good doctor?'.
This question really stuck in my head and helped me to reflect myself.
For those who read my journal, I want to emphasize that being a
doctor is not just becoming one. It is more than that. I really agree
with a quote stated by Professor Mafauzy, 'to be a good doctor, you
need to be a good person'. During the ward rounds lead by Dr Taran and
his team, my heart cried. Looking at the patients and see how they
endure the pain really made me asking myself, 'what should I do to
help them?, how can I help them?, how to make their life easier?'. The
feeling lying on the hospital bed is a feeling that a doctor should
feel for them to understand and empathy with the patients' conditions.
For now I know, I won't be able to do anything but preparing
myself to become a good doctor in the future.
While standing at the side of the bed, observing Dr Taran and his
team

consists

of

the

medical

officers,

housemans

and

phase

three

medical students discussing, my eyes looked at the patient. He must be

devastated with his conditions. Not able to move his lower limbs with

wound on it must be dreadful one. At that moment, all I really wanted

to say to him, 'Semoga Pak Cik diberikan kesembuhan oleh Nya.'
Being a doctor, is a humble job. It is not about the money,
respect and fame. It is about what you give and how sincere you are.
Being a doctor is not like what the society expects about it. They
reality is different. A doctor just not help to heal physically but
also psychologically- healing the hearts. It is not about the medicine
that cures, but more to hearts that were cured.
I cried.
Passion and patience are really crucial. Since I was a kid, I
have always wanted to become a doctor. The day my late grandfather
died, the day when my father submitted to hospital for so many times,
the day when I experienced seeing so many sick people, I kept asking
myself, 'How can I help them?'
Again I cried.
I lived in this dunya

for a purpose. Only for Him. The One and

Only. I want to become a doctor because of Him. He created dunya for a

purpose. The are many duties that I have to accomplish.
With that, I would like to share a quote by Ustadh Pahrol;
'Dia tidak menjadikan sesuatu secara kebetulan tetapi dengan tujuan.
Carilah tujuan itu dan bertindaklah selaras dengannya, dengan izin
Nya, hidup akan lebih terisi dan bererti. Dalam sunyi ada muhasabah.
Dalam ramai ada ukhwah. Dalam sedih ada tarbiyah. Dalam ceria ada
mahabbah'
Therefore, let's become a truly good doctor.
Nur Ifwatul Faiqah binti Kaswadi
Medicine Year 1
123100
PBL 11