Edwards New Moon Part 2

Chapter 7
Darkest Night
I had run away, again.
But this time it was from the confinements of my own family.
There was no pain for them just awkwardness and
embarrassment.
Now I was away from Jaspers calming influences my emotions
flooded back to me. It took an enormous effort, and I almost
succeeded in restraining them whilst I ran, but now they were
slowly and steadily seeping back into my mind and I was
powerless to stop them.
I pushed myself to move faster, I could still hear vehicles on a
highway a few miles away and I wanted and needed silence
and seclusion. My muscles started to ache and my pace slowed
involuntary. Was it possible that I was beginning to get tired? I
had never before experienced the need to stop running. I
couldnt get tired. I urged my body forward but it didnt
respond. I felt utterly drained. I came to the conclusion that I
was debilitated by grief, and slowed to a halt after another
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minute. There was no point carrying on. I could only hear the
night breeze delicately whistling through the trees now.
My resistance was now so weak and futile that nothing I did
could stop me from feeling.
I simply held my arms out wide and let my mind succumb to
itself.
I waited for the pain to engulf me; when it did it hit me like the
stab of a thousand knifes. I cried out in agony and collapsed to
the ground as the pain overwhelmed me.
Bella.
My Bella.
The memories swarmed back relentlessly.
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The first day Id noticed Bella she was just another human. It
was like she reeled me in; I was perplexed because I was
unable to read her mind, but I was also extremely frustrated. I
had never before encountered a human or otherwise whose
mind I could not read. I thought of the science lab when I first
caught her intoxicating scent that drove me so wild. I had very
nearly obliterated an entire classroom of students, just to
taste the girl who was radiating the sweet freesia scent. I had
to leave town just to stop myself from killing her.
I should have stayed away then. I never should have returned
to Forks. But the truth was, Bella fascinated me and I didnt
want to be forced to leave town by an insignificant human.
Could I have been more stupid? I should have taken myself out
of Bellas life in the beginning that way she would never have
fallen in love with me and got so acutely entwined in the
dangerous mythical world in which I reside.
So many things I should have done but I didnt, and all
because I was a profoundly selfish creature. I truly despised
myself for hurting Bella and putting her in constant danger. It
was the cruellest act I had ever committed. Nothing I had ever
done had made me feel such guilt and remorse not even
murder.
My eyes ached with the need for tears that couldnt fall. My
frozen body shuddered violently as the tearless sobs began
and I drowned in my own emptiness. Id left behind far more
than I anticipated when I left Forks; I had abandoned the part
of me that Bella still held my heart.
My empty chest resonated with solitude.
Bella made me feel human. I felt my frozen heart flutter when
her skin met mine for the first time. I melted under her touch
as her warm skin sent a thrill of ecstasy through me. I
trembled with pleasure at the thought of touching her. She was
so warm and loving not caring that it was a monster she
embraced. Oh, how I longed to return to the arms of my
beloved.
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I still felt human now, even though Bella was no longer with
me. I was experiencing all of the emotions that had resurfaced
from the long dead human buried within my vampire self.
Emotions that Bella had released.
I wondered what Bella was doing right now.
Was she thinking of me, as I was thinking of her?
Would she still be hurting in the aftermath of my departure?
Bellas agonised face appeared in my head as the memory of
my sudden departure replayed in my mind. I watched her as
she so easily believed that I no longer wanted her as if such a
thing was possible!
I watched myself run away like a coward, leaving my fragile
Bella alone on the edge of a forest.
Leaving her there had been a mistake another mistake.
What if something happened to her? Dark Moon [Edwards New
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I had heard her take a few steps further into the trees.
What if she had tried to follow me?
Would she have done that?
She could have got lost, gravely injured, or worse and I just
left her there. I couldnt bear to think of the consequences.
No. Bella had promised nothing reckless or stupid.
I had asked her not to wander into the woods on her own
before, she would know that I considered that reckless.
I had no reason to worry Bella had promised.
I dug my fingers into the earth beneath me, trying to grip on to
something to stop myself from falling apart. It didnt help the
dirt just crumbled into dust.
I was broken.
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I had been ripped into a hundred pieces.

I would never be reassembled.
Only my Bella could make me whole again.
I kept telling myself that I had done the right thing by Bella,
for the first time.
Keeping her safe was all that mattered,
Leaving Bella was a magnanimous act; Id done it to save her,
it was the right thing to do, I had to believe that. I just hoped
that one day soon she would realise it too and her pain would
then diminish. I clung to that hope as I curled up into a ball
and let misery take me. I was sure the amount of pain I was
feeling, was slowly torturing me to death but I welcomed it
sincerely because I knew I deserved to suffer.
I dont know how long I had lain in a foetal position nor did I
care. My mind was clouded with thoughts of Bella.
Her impenetrable mind that I longed to read.
Her silky brown hair draping round her shoulders. Dark Moon
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Her delicious scent that set my throat on fire.
Her inviting chocolate brown eyes that showed me the way to
her soul.
She epitomised perfection.
At some point during the long night I realised that I had
replayed all my thoughts of Bella and relived every second I
had spent in her presence.
I missed her terribly.
I wondered if she missed me.
How long would it take her to forget me?
Hopefully I had made that process quicker by eliminating all
her possessions that had some connection to me.
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I wish I had something anything of Bellas to keep hold of

like a photograph or piece of her clothing that still held her
scent. I cursed myself for putting the pictures I had removed
from Bellas letter to her mother in the trash.
Suddenly my mind clicked as I remembered something.
I did have something that had belonged to Bella.
My hand reached into the pocket of my trousers and pulled out
something that would seem so insignificant to any other
person but for me, it was the sole connection I had to Bella. It
was a bottle cap; and now it meant everything to me
I had saved it from the lemonade bottle Bella had been
drinking from the first day I sat with her at lunch. I couldnt
bring myself to stay away from her then; I was weak. I just
gave in to my craving. This time, I wouldnt be so feeble or so
selfish I would stay away.
I pulled myself up into a sitting position to examine the object
in my hand. It was such an inconsequential thing to hold on to
but it had belonged to Bella. She had been playing with on the
table, that day at lunch. She was the only other person who
had touched it, and that was important to me. I clasped the
bottle top in my hand gently so not to damage it, and lay
back on the ground to gaze up to the sky.
The sky was empty and dark, like me.
Where was the moon? The stars?
I couldn't see clearly, missing Bella was clouding my sight, and
now the sky was black.
Why was this happening? I knew I had done what I had to do,
and I knew it would be hard, but I had never imagined this.
Then it hit me.
I realized now that Bella had been my moon and stars.
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She was gone, and so were they. Dark Moon [Edwards New
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Chapter 8
Distraction
Time passed exceptionally slowly. The pain didnt fade, but I
had just about learnt to live with it. I had accepted the fact
that I would always ache for Bella.
The past two months of my life had been spent running and
feeding. I had largely been running to different places,
spending every night looking for the stars and moon. Maybe
the when I saw them again my life would have reason and the
soft lunar glow would appear and signify a place where in time
I might find a morsel of peace.
I didnt hunt often only when it was necessary. The burning in
my throat no longer bothered me. It just felt like an annoying
itch that I was able to disregard easily. It was nothing
compared to the pain of losing my Bella. I only forced myself to
engage in hunting in case I ever was in an environment where I
might catch the scent of a human. I didnt want to be so thirsty
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my predatory senses took over automatically. It had almost
happened several weeks ago.
I cringed as I evoked the memory.
I hadnt hunted since I had left Forks, which was a
considerable amount of time to go without feeding. I saw no
reason to hunt. I had nothing left to maintain my life for. As a
result, I felt significantly weaker at each passing day.
I was walking a steady human pace in no hurry to get
anywhere. Suddenly I came across a mouth-watering scent. It
wasnt the most delicious scent I had ever smelt but it was still
irresistible and it made my throat burn intensely the scent
could only be human.
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My instincts overpowered me and before I knew what I was

doing, I was following the source of appetizing odour with the
sole purpose of quenching my deadly thirst. The scent led me
to a small remote parking lot in a national park. I saw my
target packing up her vehicle. One small fragile human so
easily dealt with. I ran round the perimeter of the lot to get
closer in order to initiate my attack.
I fell back into my hunting crouch. I was just about to pounce
when the human turned around.
I froze. She was a young woman with chocolate brown eyes
that resembled Bellas. They werent as beautiful as Bellas but
they were enough to make me stop for a moment; just long
enough to make me realise what I was doing.
What the hell was I thinking?
I couldnt devour her.
She was human.
I didnt hunt humans.
I couldnt take someones life that way.
This innocent woman didnt deserve that. Dark Moon
And what if this woman meant to someone what Bella meant to
me?
What if she was someones Bella?
The thought of some creature killing my Bella made me growl
menacingly. Any circumstance that meant Bella would no
longer exist would be the worst thing that could ever happen.
I couldnt live in a world that didnt include Bella.
I forced myself to stand straight out of my stance, and turned
to sprint further into the trees screaming profanities in my
head.
I was a cruel heartless monster.
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I quickly ignored my thoughts of Bellas demise, not wanting to

dwell on such horrors. I was positive that Alice would have
foreseen my attempted attack, but there was no way for her to
warn me my cell phone battery was dead, and there was no
way for me to charge it while I was living out in the wilderness.
Occasionally, when I was near a town that was overshadowed
by clouds, I would buy myself some new clothes and check into
a hotel to freshen myself up. I never turned the television on
when I was there, so I had no idea what was happening in the
current affairs. I tried to avoid everything and anything that
would remind me of Bella, even though she was in every
thought that possessed my mind.
I spent my days wandering from place to place never going
anywhere in particular. I strived to think of activities I could
participate in, in order to occupy my mind, but I never came up
with any ideas. All the while, my empty chest urged me to go
and retrieve my heart. The only thing that stopped me from
sprinting back to Forks to my Bella, was the thought of her
being safe and never being hurt by my kind again.
At night, I lay down and gazed up into the heavens searching
for the moon and stars, hoping that they would magically
appear and help me to bring reason and light into my life
again. They never did.
I had never felt isolation like this before. Over the past week, I
had been contemplating returning to the relative comfort of
my family for a visit. I missed my parents and my siblings.
Maybe the company would raise my spirits slightly. I doubted
it, but still I hoped.
I hadnt had any communication with them at all. They would
certainly be worried about me and I was being selfish and
inconsiderate of their feelings with my lack of contact. I
immediately changed my direction and headed North-East.
It took me four days to reach Ithaca, as I still spent every night
gazing at the sky, waiting for my symbol of hope to
materialize.
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I decided to hunt before I went to greet my family. I located a

herd of elk in a small clearing enclosed by thick trees. I
allowed my predator senses to take over before I swiftly
pounced on the two largest, snapping their necks instantly. I
drained the first and let the creature drop from my stone cold
hands. I was just about to consume the second when I heard a
familiar sound.
It was a light gentle sound of feet running at inhuman speed,
only audible to a vampire that filled my ears. My eyes
instinctively scanned the surrounding forest for signs of
danger. It was then I heard their thoughts. Dark Moon
Its only us, Edward. Jasper spoke in his head.
I stood up straight out of my hunting crouch. A second later
Alice skipped into the clearing, followed closely by my brother.
She bounded over to me gracefully with a sparkling smile upon
her elfin face. She was overjoyed to see me.
Although she was happy, she had a shallow look in her eyes. I
could see from her thoughts that she missed her best friend
acutely. Jasper remained distant still feeling very guilty.
I was speechless for a minute. I was quite shocked to see
them. I hadnt been around others for awhile and it seemed I
had lost my ability to speak. Alices smile faltered as she
processed my astonished and dazed expression.
I cleared my throat and eventually found my voice.
Well hello, Alice.
Her smile lit up again.
Edward! She squealed.
She wrapped her arms around me, and I picked her and span
her around. I hadnt realised how much Id missed my favourite
sister.
Im so glad youre back. She said as I set her back on her
feet.
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I began to protest by telling her that this was only a short

visit.
I know, I know. She interrupted me. You arent staying
long.
I gave her the best attempt at a grin that I could manage and
turned to my brother.
Hey Jazz. He smiled at me.
Sorry we surprised you. Carlisle told Alice to wait for you to
arrive at the house, but she was so excited that you were
coming, that we couldnt stop her.
Alice stuck her tongue out at him.
No, its okay. I replied. Its good to see you both. Dark
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Alice took my hand and led me over to Jasper. She grabbed one
of his hands and together we set of running in the direction of
the rest of our family, leaving the un-drained elk behind.
My family greeted me with open arms, even Rosalie gleamed
at me as she appeared at the top of the stairs when Jasper,
Alice and I walked in the house.
We all sat in the living room for hours.
I told my family that I had been wandering around the country
and they didnt press me for further details, and I was grateful
for that.
I didnt talk much I mainly listened as each member of my
family told me what they had been doing while I had been
gone.
Carlisle had been tutoring part time at Cornell University as
well as working nights at a hospital.
Jasper was also at Cornell, but he was studying Philosophy and
really enjoying it.
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Esme had immersed herself in a new renovation project on a

seventeenth century house she had located in the North of the
city.
In a few days, Rosalie and Emmett were off on a second
honeymoon to celebrate the tenth anniversary of their fifth
wedding. They were going to Europe. Emmett was excited for
the hunting possibilities.
Alice had been trying to research her human life and where
she had come from. She had managed to locate the asylum
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had also discovered her real name Mary Alice Brandon.
Somehow I didnt think it suited her. All this had been made
possible from what information James had provided in a
videotape he made to entice me last spring. I winced at the
memory of the ballet studio where James had almost killed my
Bella where I had also nearly taken her life myself.
I was thankful that Bella was no longer in the midst of our evil
kind.
I found it difficult to learn that my family had all moved on with
their lives whilst I was stuck in the darkness alone. I let my
thoughts wander as I went to my room.
Everyone else had things to do, where as I had nothing. I spent
my days wandering round like a ghost. I needed a hobby or
activity to focus on.
Thinking of the sadistic vampire luring Bella to that ballet
studio had given me an idea. James had been a tracker. I had
always found the concept of tracking truly interesting maybe
I should make it my new endeavour, to occupy my mind and
prevent myself from sinking in thoughts of Bella.
What or who should I track? I had no idea where to begin
exactly, what the process involved I would need some sort of
guidance, possibly from an experienced tracker. Perhaps
Carlisle had an acquaintance who could point me in the right
direction?
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James had been a highly skilled his hunt was his obsession.
Victoria, the woman who was in his coven, was his accomplice.
I had been preoccupied reading Jamess mind in the baseball
clearing that day, so I hadnt taken much notice of Victoria. I
didnt see her as a danger but Victoria had aided James in his
mission to take Bella from me, and for that she too deserved to
die.
I realised that she was still out there somewhere and still a
potential risk.
My main purpose flashed in my mind Keep Bella safe.
I then knew what I had to do.
I was going to track Victoria. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon]
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Chapter 9
Annihilation
I had made my decision. I was going to track Victoria. Two
seconds later I heard footstep outside my door.
Come in. I spoke before my father had the chance to knock.
The door swung open slowly and Carlisle walked in.
Edward. He spoke with an authority in his tone. I have
come to try and persuade you to reverse your most recent
decision. Generally, Alice would consult me first before she
informed my family about my immediate future, but if her
vision worried her she would tell them immediately. They were
all still very apprehensive about my state of mind but there
was no need to be.
It is just something I have to do, Carlisle.
You made us all promise not to interfere in Bellas life
anymore, but by tracking Victoria you are doing just that. You
yourself are intruding.
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This isnt about Bella. I lied.

Carlisle raised his eyebrows at me questionably. Dark Moon
Is it not? He thought.
I am going to correct a past event. Victoria must be dealt
with. It is possible that she could also endanger our lives. We
did, after all destroy her mate and I will keep my promise to
not endanger Bellas life again with my presence.
I would never haunt her life for a second time.
Edward, you dont have to do this. You cannot protect Bella
from everything, especially when you are no longer with her.
My chest throbbed at the harshness of his words.
Being away from Bella was unbearable but knowing that I
would never physically see her again sent aches around my
body.
I knew I couldnt protect Bella from human accidents things
that fate had in store for her and I had to unwillingly accept
that. But I could eliminate the depraved creature that had
played a big part in her capture.
I know that, but it doesnt mean I cannot right the wrong. I
told Carlisle.
You cant hunt down every non-vegetarian vampire that may
pass through Washington Edward. It is not rational or even
practical.
I recoiled at the thought of another monster being near my
Bella.
Other thoughts wandered my mind Bella was a magnet for
danger. She required protection a defender.
What if another vampire came across her scent? It would be
just her luck.
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If her scent was even remotely as appealing to anyone one

else as it was to me - she didn't stand a chance at making it
out alive. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 124
Maybe I could return. Not to Bella. But back to Forks to watch
her, protect her.
I could see her everyday and breathe in her scent, secretly.
I would be helping to preserve her life watching her grow
older and leave me behind forever.
No. I forbade myself. That would be interfering and selfish, as
well as being truly painful.
I had promised.
Carlisles effort to dissuade me was unsuccessful. The rest of
my family did not support my decision either, except for
Emmett. He was desperate to come with me, and practically
begged Rose to postpone their honeymoon. I hid my delight
when she flat out refused.
Emmett could not come.
No one could.
This was something I had to do on my own.
Edward. Please dont do this. Alice pleaded softly. If you
want to look out for BellaWell I can do that for you.
No! Alice I dont want you looking at her future. Please. You
promised. I reminded her.
But that way is safer, Edward. Esme tried to reason.
I want to obliterate anyone or anything that ever thinks of
hurting Bella. I said in a calm voice.
Alice gasped as all my familys eyes flashed to Jasper.
He bowed his head in shame as his guilt intensified.
I apologise, I didnt mean you, Jazz. I said truthfully. I
promise.
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Everyone seemed to relax slightly, even Jasper. He shot me a

weak smile. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 125
As it happens, Carlisle did have an acquaintance who was a
skilled tracker. However this was vampire ability he felt a pull
towards his target. Therefore he wouldnt be able to give me
the information I needed because his skill came naturally to
him, and it wasnt something he could explain.
The only other tracker Carlisle was aware of was Demetri one
of the Volturi guard in Volterra. I didnt want to travel to Italy
to obtain information on tracking it would only postpone my
mission. Also, it would widen the distance between me and
Bella, and as my nerves were this strained whilst I was still on
the same continent, I wasnt sure Id cope if I increase the
distance that far.
Tracking wasnt a skill you could learn through study, you
needed experience, which I didnt have. Although they didnt
want me to go ahead with my plan, Carlisle and Jasper told me
as much information as they knew about it in an effort to make
it easier for me. It seemed quite simple.
You must be attuned to the scent as much as physically
possible. Keep it fresh in your mind. Remember it. It is
important that you do, Edward, otherwise you will lose your
track. Jasper told me.
You will have to somehow retrieve Victorias scent from a
place where it is well-defined; you dont want to confuse it
with another scent and follow the wrong route. Carlisle
informed me.
Where would Victorias scent be the strongest?
The only place I knew she had definitely been was Forks.
I couldnt be positive if she had journeyed to Phoenix with
James because he had been alone in the ballet studio. Dark
I would have to go back to Washington. To Forks.
Forks only meant one thing to me Bella.
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I was suddenly excited I could check on Bella.

I could see her beautiful face and smell her luxurious scent
Edward? Jasper interrupted my excited thoughts with his own;
he had felt my drastic my mood change. His questioning tone
brought me back to reality with a jolt.
I couldnt go back to Forks.
I had promised not to intrude Bellas life.
My hopes plummeted and my excitement evaporated as
quickly as it appeared.
I required concentration to enable me to focus on my hunt. I
would go back to Washington; just not to Forks - I would stay
away from there.
I would somehow locate Victorias scent and begin my pursuit.
I only had a vague idea of her scent, but I was sure I would be
able to recognise it when I came across it.
I set off a few days later, alone.
Running back in the direction of Washington, of Forks, of Bella,
was effortless. It was like a steel wire was pulling me swiftly
back, making me run faster and faster. I wasnt going back to
the place where I longed to be by Bellas side.
I was going back to fulfil a newly found purpose - Annihilation.
While I ran, my thoughts returned to Bella.
How easy it would be to go and see her. To see where her life
had taken her now I was no longer a part of it. Surely I would
be a distant memory for Bella now.
My unhealed wounds pulsated.
I detested not being involved in Bellas life. Dark Moon
I wondered what occupied her time, now that the vampires had
left.
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I ran straight towards Forks without even stopping at night to

search for the moon. As I crossed the border into Washington
State, the light of day began to fade bringing the expected
darkness to my life once again. The heavens opened and rain
poured down, soaking me.
I started to get nervous.
I could feel that Bella was within my reach.
Did I have enough strength to stay away, now I was so close?
I failed to stay away the last time.
When I had escaped to Alaska to get away from Bella, I soon
found myself running back to her. I had given in so easily.
This time is was significantly more difficult but I couldnt allow
myself to surrender.
I strained to channel the agonising pain that still radiated from
me and I took all my thoughts of Bella and placed them safely
in back of my mind, in order to focus.
I just had to locate the scent, familiarise myself with it and
then I could get away from here.
The pain intensified at the thought of leavingagain.
The only thing that would make me depart again was being
aware that Victoria was still out there, somewhere.
I wanted revenge.
I wanted retribution for the damage that had been inflicted on
Bella.
I inhaled deeply and closed my eyes exploring the scents
around me. All I could smell was aroma from the bark of Dark
different trees, and various animals. I walked forward slowly,
carefully taking in every scent and processing them in my
mind.
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I carried on walking for countless miles, when abruptly two

new scents registered in my head. They were conspicuously
different to the others around me. Both were the
unmistakeable odours of vampires. I recognised them
immediately Victoria accompanied by James. Their scents
were old, but still present here. The other member of their
coven, Laurent had not been with them. I could only guess that
this was the place where Victoria and James had met to plan
their strategy, after Laurent had fled to Denali. I swallowed
back a growl along with memories, and tried to regain my
focus.
I opened my eyes and recognized my surroundings. I was a few
miles outside the town of Forks not too far from my previous
home.
My empty chest constricted now I knew where I was.
I was too close.
I couldnt handle this.
All my hopes and desires were within touching distance; such
desperate hopes, urging me to satisfy them. I could achieve
that satisfaction by catching just one small glimpse of Bella.
I had hunted before I left Ithaca and several times on my
journey, to make myself as strong as possible. I used every
ounce of that strength to resist against the pull of Bella.
I closed my eyes once again, forcing myself to concentrate. I
breathed in Victorias scent, making it potent and allowing it
to fill my mind. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 129
I walked forwards slowly; following the scent away from the
direction of Forks. It became stronger and stronger until
Jamess odour was no longer present beside it. Her scent went
in a south-west direction. I picked up my pace to a run, still
tracing the scent carefully as I left behind my heart again and
began my first hunt. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 130
Chapter 10
Focus
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Tracking was intensely tedious.

It irritated me to follow a scent with no clue to the final
destination.
I loathed to be kept in the darkness.
Where was Victoria going?
What was she planning to do?
Why was she travelling so far?
I would do anything just to hear her thoughts, so I would know
what her intensions were.
I was even starting to reconsider my tracking skills.
I truly wasnt any good at it.
Was I really tracking Victorias sent?
What if Victoria never left Washington and was really close to
Bella right at this moment and no one was protecting her.
NO. I couldnt think about that possibility.
I had to keep believing I was on the right track or my
composure and most likely my mind would be lost.
It would be worthwhile in the end when I found Victoria. Dark
She wouldnt know what was coming for her.
Or what I was planning to do with her for being a threat to my
beloved Bella.
I had tracked her scent south.
I stayed hidden in the trees and countryside as much as
possible, trekking up and down mountainous and more rugged
areas of America. I was trying to avoid as many people as I
could because I wasnt able to hunt as often as I should. It was
essential for me to stay focused to ensure I didnt lose the
scent I tried so hard to keep fresh in my mind.
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I had been on following Victorias trail for over a week so far,

and I was nearing the state of Texas.
I did not hasten myself in my quest I took my time, following
the scent carefully, keeping it strong in my mind.
I would catch up to her eventually I had all eternity.
Whilst tracking it was a strain to keep a constant focus on my
objective, and not allow myself to be distracted by thoughts of
Bella. It was extremely challenging, especially since tracking
was mind-numbingly monotonous. As a result of being jaded, I
frequently had momentary lapses in my concentration.
I found myself wondering what was happening in Bellas world.
Where was her life taking her? And the most important thing
was she happy?
I was desperate to know every single detail.
I desired to smell her overwhelming scent again. I wouldnt
have any problem tracking my Bella. I would be able to track
her scent everywhere without the slightest difficulty.
I had been so close to her to going to see her astonishingly
beautiful face. It would have been so straightforward to
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a part of her life from the shadows; hiding in the trees, like I
did when the sunlight kept me from the public eye.
I didnt want to be deceitful and break the last ounce of trust
that Bella had in me, the last promise I made never to come
back.
As if I never existed, I remembered.
I asked Alice not to look at Bellas future.
I had made her promise.
I just longed to be in the know.
I could live as long as Bella did.
Well if you could call what I was doing, living.
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Living means making the most of life and having something to

live for.
I knew I had things important to me my family and of course
my Bella.
But if I couldnt be with Bella, then I didnt see that what I had
could qualify as a life. I merely existed, wasting away slowly
but surely.suffering greatly in the process.
I was ready to admit defeat.
I wanted to give up tracking and return to the solitude of my
misery.
But my intention was to keep Bella safe. The magnitude of this
task filled my mind, reminding me that I had to get rid of the
volatile creature I was stalking.
As I entered the state of Texas, Victorias sent got significantly
stronger was it possible she was still here? Was I nearing the
end of my quest?
My determination intensified.
She was near.
I could feel it. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 133
Long awaited revenge would soon be mine.
My speed quickened I was desperate to finish this. I dodge
the surrounding trees swiftly, still staying inconspicuous and
out of the bright sunlight that shone through the sky.
Suddenly, I skidded to a halt. Victorias scent split into two
directions one further south and the other in an east
direction. I thought this was strange, unless she had been at
this exact location more than once recently? That was the only
possible conclusion I could come to.
In effort to help me decide which scent to follow, I wanted to
call Alice and ask if she could see Victorias current and future
destinations.
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Would Alice be able to see visions of Victoria?

I doubted it Alice probably couldnt help me anyway, she was
not attuned to Victoria and asking for her help defaced the
whole point of tracking.
Alice would have told me if she could see visions of Victoria
to stop me from coming on this tracking expedition unless she
was hoping I would fail.
I would not fail. I couldnt fail
I would succeed, to keep my Bella safe.
One scent was distinctly stronger than the other, therefore I
concluded that this strong scent was the more recent and it
would be logical to follow it.
I inhaled deeply taking in the scents around me to ensure I had
not been mistaken. The scent heading in a southerly direction
was definitely the more apparent one whereas the scent
heading east was rather faded and smelt old; as far as my new
developed tracking skills could envisage anyhow. Dark Moon
I sprinted further south eager to find my target. The trail
seemed endless and I ran for hours continuously following the
unchanging scent. I began to worry that I was following the
wrong trail. But I couldnt have made a mistake I was
positive.
Victoria was faster than I had anticipated.
Soon enough, I found myself crossing the border into South
America.
The sun began to fade slightly, and I was getting increasingly
agitated.
Was I imagining things?
It was not possible. I hadnt stopped running at full speed for
days not even to hunt. I was getting desperate now.
When and where would the trail end?
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My question was answered the next day.

A hot, sunny and green destination awaited me.
Brazil.
The scent trail ended abruptly and I knew I had failed.
I hailed deeply numerous times taking in every odour around
me. All I could detect was the nearby wildlife and surrounding
trees.
There was no other trace of Victoria.
I screamed out a snarl in disgust.
The trail I had followed to Brazil was false.
How could I have been so blind and idiotic?
It never really occurred to me that I might fail.
I detested myself for being so nave.
Why couldnt I have the skill of tracking instead of the ability
to read minds? My own vampire talent seemed so insignificant
because the one mind I desired to read was unreachable to me.
Why couldnt I have a skill that was able to protect Bella?
I fell to the floor and rested my head on my knees.
My head was spinning
I was so confused.
How could I have been so wrong?
More importantly, what should I do now?
I ran through my options in my head.
I could go back to Texas and follow the other scent.
Or I could go back to Washington and begin the hunt again.
NO. My empty chest screamed at me.
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I wouldnt be strong enough to stay away from Bella again, if I

went back.
All I wanted was Bella to take me in her arms and lovingly
soothe away my pain and foolishness.
I was ready to surrender.
I was ready to go back.
Back to Forks.
Back to my Bella.
I wandered around Rio for eight days, arguing with myself
contemplating my choices and concentrating on making my
decision.
I felt like the two different sides of my brain were in a constant
dispute. One side arguing to stay away, to remain on my own
in desolation and surrounded by nothingness; whilst the other
side screamed at me to go back to the over cast town of Forks.
I was literally being torn apart.
I had to face up to reality I couldnt track and I couldnt
protect my Bella. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 136
Chapter 11
The Call
The writing that is in italics in this chapter I have written
myself and added to Stephanie Meyers "extra" on her website
that she wrote about Rosalie telling Edward about Bella's
death. It was too good to rewrite, so instead I took SM's
version and put my own interpretation in and took some of the
original writing...modifying it. If you would like to read SM's
original chapter you can find it here
-http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/pdf/nm_extras_rosalie.pdf
Once again I found myself in a futile place unable to formulate
a plan of action for my life.
The pull of the small town of Forks was stronger than ever.
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I had left Rio six weeks ago and found myself wandering in
that direction. At some point I could not carry on. The pain and
disappointment was too overwhelming and I found myself a
new enclosure.
I was spending my days in an old worn down warehouse, out of
the sunlight that shone constantly in the sky wherever I was.
The humid air swirled round me slightly warming my ice-cold
skin.
I felt movement in the pocket of my trousers. It was my phone;
I had turned it on for the first time in months for emergencies just in case my family needed to contact me. However I didnt
have any motivation to answer it when it rang often.
The phone vibrated again. It was the twenty-fifth in twenty
four hours. I thought about opening the phone, at least to see
who was trying to contact me.
Perhaps it was important, maybe it was Carlisle.
I still didnt move.
I had been motionless for several days as I had drifted back
into my forlorn agonizing darkness.
Meaningless.
All of it was meaningless.
My very existence was meaningless.
The whole world was meaningless.
Empty.
My forehead was pressed against my knees as I lay in a foetal
position. I wondered how much longer I would be able to stand
this.
How much more time would pass before I gave up completely?
Maybe it was hopeless. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 138
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Maybe, if my attempt was doomed to failure anyway, like my

attempt at tracking was Should I stop torturing myself and go
back?
The idea was so powerful that it almost soothed my aching
wounds.
I could leave now.
I could go back.
Bellas face always in my mind, smiled at me.
It was a welcoming smile of forgiveness that warmed my
insides. But seeing her face etched into my mind continuously
for the past months had only reminded me how truly special
she was.
Consequently, of course I couldnt go back
After all, what was my pain in comparison to her happiness?
Compared to her safety?
She should be able to smile and be happy.
She should be free from fear and danger.
Free from a soulless future.
When Bella left this world, she would go to a place that was
forever barred to me, no matter how I conducted myself there.
The idea of a final separation that I could not control was so
much more intense than the pain I had already encountered.
When Bella went to that place where she belonged and I never
could heaven. I would not linger on earth without her.
There must be oblivion.
There must be some kind of relief for me.
My body shook with fear at the thought of that time.
Even when I was ash, would I somehow still feel torture of her
loss? Or would I find my own heaven?
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I shuddered again. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 139

Id promised her that I wouldnt haunt her life again.
I wasnt going back on my word.
I would not break my promise.
Couldnt I do anything right by her?
Anything at all?
Just once?
The idea of returning to the cloudy little town that would
always be my true home snaked through my thoughts again.
Just to check.
Just to see that she is safe and happy.
Not to interfere.
She would never know I was there.
I would remain in the shadows.
Damn it, NO.
I cursed myself.
I had been so close before, and I had managed to stay away. I
could do it again.
My phone vibrated again.
Damn it I growled.
I could use the distraction, I supposed.
Not that it would do the job.
I flipped open the phone and recognised the numbers straight
away.
Rosalie.
Why would Rosalie be calling me?
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She was probably the only member of my family enjoying my

absence.
I remembered the last thoughts I heard from her about my
Bella, I had no desire to talk to her. Dark Moon [Edwards New
Moon] 140
On the other hand, there must be something wrong if she
needed to talk to me. I was abruptly worried for my family and
answered the phone.
What? I asked tensely.
Oh, wow. Edward actually answered the phone to me. I feel so
honoured.
As soon as I heard my sisters tone, I knew my family was fine.
She must just be bored. It was difficult to interpret her motives
without her thoughts as a guide. Rosalie had never made much
sense to me. Her impulses usually foundered on the most
convoluted kinds of logic typically herself.
I snapped the phone shut, hanging up on her.
Leave me alone. I whispered to the emptiness around me,
letting my eyes drift shut again.
The phone vibrated again at once.
Would she keep calling until she had passed along whatever
message she was planning to annoy me with?
Probably.
It would take months for her to grow tired of her game.
I toyed with the idea of letting her hit redial for the next six
months.
I sighed and answered the phone again.
Get on with it! What do you want Rosalie?
Rosalie rushed through her words. I thought you would want
to know that Alice is in Forks.
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My eyes flew open in shock.

What was my other sister doing in Forks? I furiously thought.
What? I asked in a flat, emotionless voice, hoping I had
misheard. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 141
You know how Alice is thinks she knows everything. Like
you. Rosalie chuckled humourlessly. Her voice had a nervous
edge, like she was suddenly unsure about what she was doing.
But my rage made it hard to care about what Rosalies problem
was.
Alice had sworn to me that she would follow my leads in
regards to Bella, although she did not agree with my decision.
She promised me she would let Bella alone for as long as I did.
She promised that she would not interfere and not look at her
future.
Clearly she thought that I would eventually fold to the pain.
Maybe she was right about that.
But I hadnt completely given up yet. I hadnt gone back.
So what was she doing in Forks?
I wanted to wring her skinny neck, not that Jasper would let
me get that close to her once he caught a whiff of the fury
blowing out of me.
Are you still there, Edward? Rosalies voice coming out of the
speaker of my phone brought me out of my thoughts.
I didnt answer.
I pinched the bridge of my nose with my fingertips, wondering
if it was possible for a vampire to get a migraine.
Althoughif Alice had already gone back, maybe I could too?
NO.
Id made my promise.
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For the love of all things holy I was going to keep it!
Bella deserved a life.
I shook my head metaphorically, trying to clear it of the
seductive image of Bellas dark window.
The doorway to my only sanctuary. Dark Moon [Edwards New
Moon] 142
The entrance to my home.
There was no doubt that I would have to grovel, if I were to
return to beg Bellas forgiveness.
I welcomed that because I knew I deserved it.
I would happily spend the next decade on my knees as long as
I was with her.
Edward? Dont you even want to know why Alice is there?
Not particularly. I answered, but honestly I was desperate to
know.
Rosalies voice turned a trifle smug; pleased no doubt, that she
had forced a response from me.
Well, of course, shes not exactly breaking the rules. I mean
you only warned us to stay away from Bella, right? The rest of
Forks doesnt matter.
I blinked my eyes slowly.
Bella had left?
My thoughts circled around the unexpected idea.
She hadnt graduated yet, so she must have returned to Renee
- her mother.
That was good.
She should live in sunshine.
She loved the warmth and brightness of the sun.
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It was good that shed been able to put the shadows behind
her, including me.
It instantly dawned on me Bella had moved on.
Shed left me in her past like I had intended her to.
My empty chest throbbed painful my heart was forever lost.
I tried to swallow, and I couldnt. Dark Moon [Edwards New
Moon] 143
So you dont have to be angry with Alice. Rosalie trilled a
laugh.
Then why did you call me, Rosalie, if not to get Alice in
trouble? Why are you bothering me?
Wait! She cried, sensing rightly that I was going to hang up
on her again. Thats not why I called.
Then why? Tell me quickly, and then leave me alone!
Well She hesitated.
Spit it out, Rosalie. You have ten seconds.
I think you should come home, Rosalie said in a rush. Im
tired of Esme grieving and Carlisle never laughing. You should
feel ashamed at what youve done to them. Emmett misses you
all the time and its getting on my nerves. Not to mention
Alice, she has been a wreck. You have a family Edward. Grow
up and think of someone else besides yourself.
Interesting advice Rosalie, maybe you should take your own
guidance?
I am thinking about them, unlike you. Dont you care how
much you have hurt Esme, if no one else? She loves you more
than the rest of us, and you know that. Come home.
I didnt answer.
I knew I was being very selfish; however I wanted to revel in
my loneliness. I didnt want my family members to witness my
depressive state.
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I thought once this whole Forks thing was finished, you would
get over it.
Forks was never the problem, Rosalie. I said, try to explain
patiently. What she has said about Carlisle, Esme and the other
members of my family had struck a chord, so I tried to make an
effort. Just because Bella I paused. Saying her name out
loud was difficult. I managed to choke it out before continuing.
has moved to Florida, it doesnt mean that Im Dark Moon
ableLook, Rosalie. Im really sorry, but trust me; it wouldnt
make anyone happier if I were there.
Umm.
There it was the hesitation again.
What is it that youre not telling me, Rosalie? Is Esme alright?
Is Carlisle
Theyre fine. She interrupted me. Its just well I didnt say
that Bella had moved.
What?
Yes she did, didnt she?
I ran over our conversation in my head.
She never actually said that Bella had relocated.
So Bella wasnt in Forks?
What did she mean?
Where was Bella if she hadnt moved?
They didnt want to tell you, but I think thats stupid. The
quicker you get over this; the sooner things can get back to
normal. Why let you mope in the dark corners of the world
when there is no need for it? You can come home now. We can
be a family again. Its over. Rosalie rushed through her words
again, but saying them in an almost angry tone.
My mind seemed to be broken.
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It wasnt functioning once again.

I couldnt make sense of her words.
It was like there was something really obvious that she was
telling me, but I had no idea what it was. My brain played with
the information, trying to decipher it.
Edward?
I dont understand what you are saying, Rosalie.
There was a long pause, the length of several human
heartbeats. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 145
Shes dead, Edward.
My world stopped.
Rosalie was speaking but I barely heard a word she was
saying.
Imsorry. You have a right to know, though I think. Bella
threw herself off a cliff two days ago. Alice saw it, but it was
too late to do anything. I think she would have helped though,
broken her word, if there had been time. She went back to do
what she could for Charlie. You know how shes always cared
for him
The phone went dead.
It took me a few seconds to realise that I had shut the power
off as it drop from my hand and clattered to the floor.
I sat in the dusty darkness.
It was like time had stopped.
Like the universe had stopped.
It couldnt be true. It was Rosalie playing a cruel trick on me
hoping that it would make me rejoin my family.
But I had to check, just in case.
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Slowly, I reached around searching for my phone. I switched it

back on and dialled the number Id promise myself I would
never call again.
If it was my love I would hang up.
If it was Charlie I would get the information I needed through
subterfuge.
I would prove Rosalies sick joke wrong, and then return to my
nothingness.
The phone rang for several seconds while I had my breath
waiting for it to answer. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 146
Swan Residence. Answered a voice. It was a mans husky
voice, deep but youthful. It sounded familiar but I could not
place it; my mind was otherwise occupied.
I didnt pause to think of the implications of that.
This is Dr. Carlisle Cullen. I said, imitating my fathers voice
perfectly. May I please speak to Charlie?
Hes not here. The voice spoke with anger, which simply
surprised me. But that wasnt important.
Well, where is he then? I demanded, getting impatient.
There was a short pause and if the stranger wanted to hold
information from me.
Hes at the funeral. The boy finally answered.
The phone died again as I crushed in my hand.
I died. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 147
Chapter 12
Black Hole
My eyes clouded and everything went black.
The end had come.
Too quickly.
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How could this have happened?

Bella was dead.
Nothingness surrounded me.
My world felt empty.
My life was over.
My existence was nugatory
My purpose had ceased to exist.
I had nothing left to live for.
I truly believed that the pain, the torture and the suffering that
I had felt on leaving Bella was the worst thing imaginable.
I had been devastatingly wrong.
It was nothing compared to this. Dark Moon [Edwards New
Moon] 148
It was excruciatingly and overwhelmingly severe. There were
no other words to describe it.
The confirmation that my love no longer inhabited this world
sent shots of pain to places within me that I had never felt
before.
Agony scorched through my body tearing me apart.
I felt my heart shatter into a thousand pieces and hoped that
wherever the pieces ended up, they would be with my Bella.
I wanted to weep.
I felt extraordinarily numb and completely drained.
I was so absolutely paralyzed from the pain that I didnt even
have the energy to sob tearlessly.
My world had stopped rotating.
Time ceased to tick by.
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My universe disappeared.
I had crawled into a dark hole where nothing but guilt and pain
resided.
I was submerged in immense grief.
How could this of happened? I asked myself again and again.
Belladead.
It aggrieved me to think of those two words in the same
sentence.
Did she commit suicide?
Rosalie said she had jumped off a cliff.
It was obvious that she had deliberately tried to eliminate
herself.
Did she do this because of me?
I had a strong guilty feeling it was indeed down to my actions.
I wondered how much I had truly hurt her by leaving her. Dark
Was the force of her suffering enough to make her take her
own life?
Oh god, what had I done to her?
I had left Forks to protect Bellas fragile life, but instead I had
hurt her beyond belief. I had broken her so completely that she
had fallen over the edge, literally.
Bella.
Dead.
Gone forever.
Deceased.
Never coming back.
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My sweet, uncoordinated, breakable Bella.

The bitter sweet memories overpowered me.
Me and her together.
Her face, her touch.
I would never have the opportunity to see her beautiful face
again.
When it lit up with an astonishing smile it filled me with joy.
When it flushed with a blush it made my breath stop seeing
her sweet blood underneath her skin.
Her soft touch sent tingles of warmth through my body.
When she declared her love for me, I felt my frozen heart beat.
All of that was now lost forever; extinct.
I now understood how it felt to have loved and lost.
The pain-filled longing and overwhelming grief was
indescribable.
I had loved and lost the day I had left Bella; I just hadnt
realised it then.
Was this pain I suffered how Bella felt when I departed? Dark
Was it like I had died?
I couldnt bear the thought of her enduring the torture and
agony I was now feeling. But end her lifehow could she have
done this? To me, to her mother and father? It made me want
to howl in distress.
I found a strange energy in my heartache and I was
instantaneously besieged by fury.
My hand clenched into tight fists as I jumped to my feet,
liberating myself from my stance.
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All I had desired for my Bella was that she was safe and happy,
instead I had destroyed her.
This was my fault.
I had destroyed her; Charlie and Renee as well I was the
reason for their daughters death.
I was a vicious monster.
A repulsive, iniquitous, murderous creature.
I wanted to bleed.
I wanted to die.
I began scratching my skin, digging my nails in, trying to
penetrate it. It didnt work. It didnt even hurt.
I gazed around at my surroundings searching for something
else to attempt to hurt myself with.
The abandoned warehouse I had inhabited for the past several
weeks was devoid of furniture. All I could see were the mouldy
crumbling brick walls that confined me. I walked over to the
west facing wall and swiftly smashed my fist into it. The wall
buckled under the impact and my arm went straight through to
the outside. Adrenaline pulsed through my body and I kept on
thrashing and demolishing the wall, until there was a colossal
whole in the side of the building. Dark Moon [Edwards New
Moon] 151
I feel to my knees as despair took over my destructive episode.
I buried my face into my hands and let out a sob of anguish.
I wanted to die.
I deserved to depart this life.
I wanted to burn in the fiery pits of hell.
Bellas life had been stolen from her.
Death had taken her from me because of my own actions.
The time had come to compensate for my transgressions.
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I was going to atone for my sins.

I was going to Italy. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 152
Chapter 13
The Volturi
My mind was made up.
I was going to the Volturi to be killed.
The final act of my miserable protracted existence was to
ensure I was destroyed.
There was no possibility of me living out endless days of
emptiness without Bellas presence on this planet.
If Bella was leaving this world I was too.
I would follow her and attempt to access the pearly gates of
heaven.
I doubted my chances entirely, because I wasnt entirely
convinced I had a soul; but still I hoped.
I had thought about going to the Volturi before this occasion
the spring when James stole Bella from me.
I recollected the conversation I had with Bella on her 18th
birthday before the fateful party.
Last spring, when you were nearly killedOf course I was
trying to find you alive, but part of my mind was making Dark
contingency plans. Like I said its not as easy for me as it is for
a human.
She shook her head at me and asked, Contingency plans?
Well I wasnt going to live without you, but I wasnt sure how
to do it I knew Emmett and Jasper would never helpso I was
thinking I would go to Italy and provoke the Volturi.
I pulled myself out of the memory.
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How many times had Bella almost been killed because of me?
And this time I hadnt been there to save her. It was entirely
my fault that Bella was dead now. If Id just gone back to check
on her; to ensure that she was at least safe if not yet entirely
happy
The crushing pain of my loss seared through my body, but it
did not weaken me this time; I knew that before long it would
all be over.
The Volturi were an ancient vampire family that resided in
Volterra, in the Tuscan region of Italy.
I had never encountered them myself but Id heard of my
fathers brief experience with them many times, and in
conjunction with the memories Id heard him replaying in his
head, I knew everything that I needed to know for my purpose.
The Volturi consisted of the three elders; Aro, Caius and
Marcus the night time patron of the arts as I had once told
Bella. Additionally, there were the elders wives, and their
guard, making them the largest coven of vampires that existed
together. Their unity gave them power, but wasnt the only
attribute that made them superior. Dark Moon [Edwards New
Moon] 154
Members of the guard were selected specifically for their
vampire ability; each had a unique power that that would
contribute to and enhance their already formidable force.
They were an elite coven and they thought of themselves as
law enforcers and acted to keep the existence of our kind
secluded.
Any of our kind who exposed us would be severely punished,
as the consequences were instant death.
It was essential that I moved with great haste.
I wanted it to be over; I didnt want time to think about the
consequences of my actions. I didnt want to think of my loyal
and loving family and the effect that my death would have on
them.
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I departed the old abandoned warehouse and sprinted into the

nearby forest. I was only vaguely aware of the astoundingly
picturesque surroundings. I believed that Bella would like
Brazil. She would like the beauty; the endless shades of green
in the Amazon, and she would love to see the sun shine
brightly and feel the heat on her skin. It would have been a
perfect location for us to have come together.
My body shuddered slightly as I ran I didnt desire to think of
what could have been.
I raced in the direction of the nearest city.
I didnt even think about where I was going my body was
impetuous. I let my subconscious guide me forward to my
destination.
My final destination.
Somewhere along my journey I vanished in my own thoughts
and retained memories. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 155
Every inch of my mind was consumed; reminiscing about every
moment I had ever spent with Bella, every feature of her body
that I had memorised before I left, every time our skin
touched, every time our lips metevery little thing.
I heard nothing except Bellas sweet voice and the gentle
pounding of her heart.
I felt nothing except Bellas warm soft arms wrapped tightly
round my torso, embracing me.
I saw nothing except Bellas striking face with her welcoming
chocolate brown eyes gazing into mine.
I smelt nothing except Bellas fragrant scent.
I thought about everythingeverything except Bella being
gone. I refused to think of that.
My hand was in my pocket clutching the only connection I had
left to Bella the lemonade bottle lid. If it was possible it made
my memories clearer.
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A sudden jerked movement brought me out of my delusion and

back into reality. My eyes flashed open and I took a quick
intake of breath as I gazed around me.
I was unaware of where I was and how much time had passed.
I was on a plane.
I gazed out of the small rectangle window into the darkness
and recognised the bright lights of Florence.
I was in Italy.
How did I get here? I wondered, but I had no recollection of the
events that had brought me here, but I knew the reason why.
Bella was dead.
Gone forever.
And soon, I would be too. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 156
Luck was on my side as I exited the airport. The sun was
beginning to rise over the horizon, slowly starting to break
through casting shadows over the ancient city.
I decided to run to allow myself time to prepare for the
meeting ahead of me.
My plan was to just be direct and ask the Volturi for death.
This way no harm could be caused to others, and accidents
could be avoided. It was the simplest and easiest solution.
Would they grant my request willingly?
What if they denied me the right to die, or whatever it was my
kind did?
How would I be able to convince them to rid the world of me?
Maybe I could use their thoughts to my advantage by
attempting to provoke them.
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However I did not intend to disrespect anybody, mostly

because of the trust that Carlisle had gained with the Volturi
before he had discovered me or the rest of family. I wouldnt
want to make things difficult for him.
I just wanted my life to end.
The historic city of Volterra rose into view as I ran speedily
towards it. It was breathtakingly scenic. It was a shame that I
couldnt fully appreciate it, but I wasnt there to see the sites.
I pushed myself forward, eager to make my demands to the
vampires residing there.
I reached the wall encircling the city. I scanned my
surroundings to ensure I was not being watched, before I
scaled the side of the large stone fortification and leapt down.
I had reached my final destination. Dark Moon [Edwards New
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There were not many people around so I was able to
inconspicuously stalk round the perimeter of the walls and find
a space in the shadows out of the brightly shining sun.
I searched for the entrance into the Volturis lair by looking
into peoples thoughts for directions.
I turned a corner down a narrow darkened cobbled street when
I came across a distinct scent.
Vampires.
Two forms stood at the end of the street facing out onto a
large midtown square.
I approached them carefully, not wanting to surprise them and
cause a disturbance.
I saw from their thoughts, they were two members of the
guard. Felix and Demetri were their names.
I had heard about Demetri before, he was the skilled tracker
that Carlisle had informed me of before I left of my hunt for
Victoria.
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Excuse me, Gentlemen. I spoke as I drew near to them. It felt

strange hearing my own voice after hardly using it for so many
months. But I had to be courteous even though I just wanted to
scream at them to kill me. My numb body cried out to be filled
with pain instead of being hopelessly empty.
Demetri and Felix turned their brawny bodies to face me. They
watched me intently as I halted in front of them.
Who are you? Demetri grunted.
My name is Edward Cullen. I am here for an audience with
your masters. Would you be so kind as to take me to them? I
replied politely.
Cullen? Demetri asked. He must be one of Carlisles boys. He
thought. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 158
Yes, my surname is Cullen, and yes I am one of Carlisles
sons.
I didnt ask that
But you thought it though. I interrupted him.
Demetri gaped at me, trying to understand how I knew that.
He can obviously read minds. Felix said as he nudged
Demetri out of his stare. What is the nature of your business
here, Mr Cullen?
It is a confidential matter.
Very well, come on. We will show you the way.
Felix gestured for me to follow them as they walked back down
the street I had come from. We turned down a constricted
alleyway hidden from view. I could just see the bright sun at
the other end when Felix and Demetri stopped in front me. The
alleyway slanted downwards slightly towards a dead end. I
wondered where they were taking me. Their thoughts showed
no sign of aggression or planned attack.
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Then I saw an opening in the cobbled pavement. Felix dropped

effortlessly down, and Demetri signalled me to follow. I landed
onto an underground street, with Demetri suddenly appearing
behind me. The tension grew, and my numb form ached to get
the meeting over with. I was glad when Demetri and Felix took
off in a run. I pursued them effortlessly and soon enough we
were arrived at an elevator that ascended to a reception area.
I let out a silent sigh.
We were here.
Seeing as you can hear my thoughts anyway, wait here.
Demetri ordered in his head.
I stiffed a nod as he and Felix disappeared down a corridor.
I smelled a scent, a human scent before I heard the person
enter the room.
My throat burned furiously.
I hadnt hunted in a considerable amount of time.
I had not realised before, that I was incredibly thirsty. The
numbness and the pain I had encountered previously
overpowered my thirst. But now, being alone in the small area
with this fragile humanI wondered if the Volturi would be
angry if I drained their dainty slave.
Hello, there, Im Gianna. She spoke. Please take a seat
while you wait.
Thanks. I mumbled.
Oh, another beautiful one. He looks sad; maybe I should ask
him if he is okay. Gianna thought to herself.
Im fine thank you. I replied without thinking.
She realised instantly what my vampire ability was, and
blushed slightly. Her blush reminded me of how Bella used to
blush in embarrassment so often. I would soon be with her. I
would soon be able to see her blush again. I hoped.
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Several minutes later, a small brown haired girl appeared.

Well Hello Edward, It is very nice to meet you. I am Jane. If
you would please follow me, Aro, Caius and Marcus would like
to greet you.
As I followed her, I started to feel anxious.
I kept thoughts of Bella in my mind, they calmed me, and gave
me courage and enhanced the sheer determination I had for
what I was about to do.
We walked into an old stone room. No windows for sunlight to
enter. It was a throne room by its appearance. Dark Moon
I recognised Aro, Caius and Marcus, the Volturi leaders
standing in the middle of the room from the canvas in my
fathers office.
Edward! Aro called, as he made his way towards me. Im
very pleased to finally make your acquaintance. Brothers, this
is our old friend, Carlisles son. How is dear Carlisle?
He is well thank you. I replied.
Why have you come here, Edward?
I glanced around to Felix, Jane and Demetri all standing at the
doors, as if they were blocking my exit.
Felix, Demetri, Jane, please leave us if you will. Caius
ordered.
All three stalked out of the room.
Now Edward, what is it you want?
I have come to request to die. Dark Moon [Edwards New
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Chapter 14
Judgement day
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A multitude of thoughts ran through each of their heads, it was

difficult to keep track of them all. Aro was bewildered by my
request. Never had he heard of a Vampire wanting to be killed.
It has come as quite an unexpected shock.
Caius was equally as stunned, however he appeared content to
oblige to my request. I saw in his mind this was mostly due to
the fact that he knew of my family; my large family. He
considered large families or covens like mine to be a threat to
the Volturi as we were a diverse group of talented vampires.
Carlisle had many acquaintances and his family was quite well
known. The chance to eliminate one of the famous Cullen
family members seemed to gratify him. Marcus, on the other
hand did not react at all like his brothers. He did not appear
surprised; in fact he had a particularly Dark Moon [Edwards
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apathetic demeanour. He seemed more astonished by my
direct approach and candid request. In his thoughts he was
reminiscing about a time when he had considered suicide.
After a brief moment they recovered from their shock. Aro was
filled with curiosity; I waited for the barrage of questions,
however I did not want to elaborate. I beg your pardon?
Caius asked incredulously. You heard me clearly enough. I
replied. Why would you desire such an unusual thing
Edward? Aro asked inquisitively. I felt reluctant to answer.
Would they understand my predicament and the depth of my
pain? I presumed they would never comprehend my reasons
due to the way they viewed our existence. If you do not
provide us with reasons, how do you expect us to grant your
curious request? Again I didnt answer. Of course I didnt
expect them to kill me instantly when I asked, except maybe
Caius. Aro however wanted answers. They wanted an
explanation as to why I no longer wished to live. The Volturi
considered vampires to be superior beings; they marvelled at
our very existence. Our frozen forms never aging, our strength
and potential power and the endless eternity of our lives. They
couldnt understand why any one of us would willingly
relinquish such an existence for something as mundane and
human as death. How could I begin to explain my pain, my
loss, my tortured being? Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 163
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Maybe I should have engaged in my second plan of action first.

That would surely have forced them to kill me without the
interrogations. Caius was becoming impatient with my silence.
Perhaps there is another way of retrieving the information
you require. I suggested. Aro had a vampire gift similar to my
own, only it was significantly more powerful in one aspect.
With a simple touch he could access every thought that had
ever penetrated a persons mind. I held out my hand signalling
my cooperation. Hold on a moment. Caius spoke. How will
that help us understand? He gestured to himself and Marcus,
who did not appear interested, however his thoughts were
curious. Im sure Aro can inform you himself. I replied. Caius
grunted in annoyance. Very well, Edward. Aro said as he
reached to touch his hand to my own and closed his eyes. A
rush of thoughts ran through my mind as I witnessed my own
thoughts and memories in Aros head. My life flashed before
both of our eyes. My family. My actions. My Bella. Every
thought and memory I possessed was now Aros too. They
were no longer only mine, which infuriated me. They were my
haven and the only proof I had that Bella ever existed. Dark
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The memories lingered on Bella as she was such a significant

part of my existence. The bad ones made me wince
involuntarily. The ballet studio and James. Jaspers attack. My
departure from Forks. Tracking Victoria. My heart wrenching
suffering. The pain I witnessed seemed endless. The pleasant
recollections I saw brought me no joy. Seeing Bella only
reminded me that she was dead, that I hadnt protected her,
that I failed in my sole purpose and that I was the reason for
her premature demise. Several minutes passed until Aro
finished sifting through my mind and finally released my hand.
Remarkable. Aro beamed. What is it? Caius demanded. Aro
quickly rearranged his expression as he turned to his brother.
His thoughts hadnt actually been concerning me or Bella. He
had seen something in my mind that he found captivating and
which made me feel like growling. Edward has a fascinating
mind and it seems he has acquired himself a companion. I
grimaced at Aros statement. He spoke as if Bella was alive
and as if she was mine neither of which were true. How is
that remarkable? Caius said impatiently. The girl is mortal.
Suddenly I had Marcuss attention. Mortal? He spoke for the
first time. So far, Marcus had hardly shown any interest in my
presence. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 165
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He had been somewhat shocked by my blunt request, but

recovered almost instantly. Even his thoughts had been
discreet. I nodded. Is it possible? I nodded again, in response
to his thoughts. But how? Aro answered for me. It seems
Edward exerts astounding self-control in Miss Bellas presence,
or rather he did. Hearing Bellas name being spoken pinched
painfully in my empty chest. Did she know what you were?
Did she know of our kind? Marcus questioned. Yes. I replied
truthfully. I wanted them to know I had disobeyed the rule. I
could hope that they would take that into consideration.
What? Caius exploded. You exposed yourself to a human!
Peace, brother. Aro said soothingly. This changes things,
Aro. The girl for instance The girl is not an issue, Caius.
Aro interrupted. I swallowed back a growl at his use of the
word girl. Bella was not just a girl. She was an amazing being
the very reason for my existence. The proprietor of my heart.
Not a problem? Marcus repeated. Im sorry to say that Bella
passed away. Someone else speaking those words out loud
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everything, but I maintained my stance. This was the reason I

was here. I focused on Marcus. He has returned to his
apathetic state, whilst trying to hide his thoughts from me. I
realised then, he sympathised with me. He understood my
request because he had the experience of losing a loved one.
However he respected the life our kind lived and as a
consequence he was suffering the future I was desperately
trying to avoid. Even so, he has broken the fundamental rule.
He exposed us. Caius said unsympathetically. He deserves to
be punished; therefore we should grant his request. He
finished his verdict in his head. Caius would gleefully destroy
me at this very moment but I could see that Aro would be more
lenient. Edward? Aro called. Would you please leave us to
deliberate your request privately? You can wait in the
reception area with Gianna, or maybe you would like to hunt?
If you wish to do so, please refrain from doing so within the
city. I will send a guard member to notify you when our
decision has been made. Demetris form appeared in his
mind. I gave him a stiff nod in agreement; however I was
displeased. I did not want to wait. It was clear I would not get
an answer as to the expected duration of their meeting if I
asked. I left the throne room and made my way back to the
reception area. I had nowhere else to wait, but I didnt feel
comfortable in close proximity of a human when I had not
hunted for so long. Although, I couldnt possibly put Gianna in
any more danger than she already was. I fed off animals
living the vegetarian lifestyle, whereas her employers fed off
fragile humans like Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 167
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herself. I decided to wander the city of Volterra and try to find

a place of solitude outside for the duration of my wait. Gianna
kindly directed me to the nearest exit. I was positive that Aro
would respect the privacy I could give them by not being in
close enough proximity to hear the thoughts being generated
within their discussion. It was several hours before I
encountered any disturbances. I had located a quite place
north of the city blocked from the sunlight and I had settled in
the corner of a constricted cobbled street. The surrounding
area was deserted I could not even hear the thoughts of any
persons nearby, meaning I was completely alone - the way I
wanted it. I rested my head on my knees and let myself fall
into a dream-like state. Where would I go when I left this
world? I knew I would always have my memories of Bella I
would not allow them to be lost. But was there a chance I
would be reunited with her? Carlisle believed. Bella believed. I
hoped. Even if I had a soul, it was dark and tortured. Would
they grant access to heaven to a dark-spirited monster? If
there was any justice, the answer would be no.
When I closed my eyes I was transported to my love, my Bella.
This was the reason I wanted to have my eyes permanently
closed so I could spend eternity with her. Dark Moon
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Foreverwith my true love. I knew at that moment that if Bella

was still alive, I would have gone back to Forks and back to
her. I would have sought comfort in the rainy town and begged
the forgiveness of my Bella, and promised to stay with her
forever. I heard Demetris thoughts before I heard his
approach. He had been sent to find me. As a tracker it only
took him seconds to establish my whereabouts. Nothing like
my pathetic attempt at tracking Victoria. The Volturi leaders
had made a decision. Demetri had not been informed of the
situation so I was unable to see the conclusion they had come
to in his thoughts. Demetri instructed me to return with him.
As we swiftly made our way back, I couldnt help but wonder if
this was the last time I would see the light of day. I took one
last deep breath of fresh air before I entered the Volturis lair
hopefully for the last time. Demetri led me to a different room,
instead of the throne room in which we had met before. This
room looked more welcoming, with a large stone fireplace and
elegant dcor. Wait here. Demetri ordered in his head. Exactly
one minute later a door at the opposite end of the room
opened and in walked Aro followed by Caius, Marcus, Jane and
another vampire I had never met, but he was known to me. His
name was Alec. Jane and Alec were brother and sister, both in
possession of exceptional and sinister abilities. Jane was able
to torment people at will by causing terrible pain with her
mind, whereas Alec could disconnect people's senses,
rendering them blind, Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 169
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deaf, and numb. Their abilitys made them extremely valuable

to the guard. Aro was delighted to have them under his
control. I knew the leaders decision instantly. They could not
hide it in their thoughts Caius was aggravated he had been
the one with the opposing vote, the one who was happily
willing to grant my request, but it seemed Aro had other plans
for me. A proposition; an offer I would not acceptever.
Welcome back, Edward. Aro greeted me. I hope your wait
was not too inconvenient, however we had much to discuss.
I understand, and I know your verdict. I said with irritation in
my voice. I had been relying on their decision. I didnt want to
waste anymore time. I had to think of a plot to ensure my
exposure and force a rapid and fierce reaction that would bring
about my immediate extermination. It was imperative for me
to leaveright away. Edward? Aro interrupted my scattered
thoughts. This is an unprecedented situation, however we
have decided to deny your request. I know. I hissed.
However, we would like to offer you a place among the guard.
Your talent would contribute significantly to our strength. We
consider it to be wasteful to dispose of you and your ability.
Additionally I do not wish to offend an old friend. My fathers
image entered his thoughts. Caius grunted. His displeasure at
the decision bothered me. If he desired to, he could eradicate
me right now. He is offering him a place with the guard, with
us? Jane thought panicky. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon]
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Aro obviously hadnt informed any of his guard as to the

reason I was here, as Alec was confused also. Master? She
spoke in an anxious voice. Dont worry, dear one. Your place
is secure. I will explain the circumstances later. Aro turned his
attention back to me. Why dont you take some time to
consider your options? An image of his guard flashed into his
mind, with one extra member; a mind-reader standing robed
by his side. Why would he need to think about it? It is a great
honour. Alec thought. I only have one other alternative as you
are aware Aro. Why waste precious time, when we can settle
this now? Janes thought suddenly got protective over her
master. No he replied vigorously. If you wish to proceed
with your previous plan we will be forced to act accordingly,
but not until that time. I saw in his mind that if I did attempt
to expose myself and our kind the guard would be watching
and waiting to overpower me at the last second. I was reliant
on that image. I was not making progress here so it was time
to leave. Aro sensed my imminent departure. Think carefully,
Edward. He said sternly before continuing in his head. You
could be an integral part of what we have here. I dashed out of
the room without another word. I noticed that darkness had
blackened the sky as I exited the Volturi lair, so I didnt have to
avoid the sunlight. Not that I cared about being seen. I wanted
to be exposed. Exposure would bring about my death. Dark
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I paced the city thinking of an opportune way to evoke the

wrath of the ancient trio. There were limited people around
due to the time of day. I required a substantial audience to
ensure instant death. The darkness gave me time to think. As
soon as the sun rose I could act. How could I infuriate the
Volturi? What would draw attention to myself? My mind raced
through the possibilities. A demonstration of my excessive
strength? Attacking the guard? Attacking humans? Hunting? I
kept changing my mind. I believed the one that would cause
the most uproar forcing an instant reaction from the guard was
hunting within the city; hunting humans in a public place. The
sun began to rise as what I hoped would be my last dawn
approached. As I lingered in the shadowy streets, I saw people
start to leave their homes to enjoy the day ahead of them, or
so they thought. Maybe some of them would become one of my
victims.my prey. I sifted through the thoughts of passing
people to find information on where I could get the best
selection of people to witness my monstrous activity. Luck was
on my side once again.
Ironically it was St Marcus Day, and there was a festival to
mark the occasion. There would be masses of humans to
observe my deviant act. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 172
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The square in the middle of the city - Palazzo dei Priori, was
where the festival was being held. That was to be the stage for
my last performance. I walked slowly in that direction. The
streets were already filled with people. I inhaled deeply taking
in the human scents around me letting them register with me.
I felt my throat burn with thirst, but I had no desire to satiate
that thirst. I reminded myself that I needed to feed on these
people. This was what I had to do to be obliterated. I began to
get anxious as I drew nearer. Shes dead. Rosalies words
echoed in my head giving me the determination to proceed. I
noticed a gathering of people standing on the edge of the
square, and within range of my deadly pounce. Innocent
people. I decided that I would kill them all, the entire group
first, almost instantly, before I drained their blood. I forced
myself to fall back into a hunting crouch as my vampire
instincts refused to overcome me. I pushed all thoughts out of
my mind with a huge amount of effort. The whole attack would
be forced. I gasped and collapsed onto my back as Bellas face
entered my mind. Her human face. It was smiling
encouragingly at me. I let out a sob. I couldnt go through with
it. Bella was human. I couldnt kill one of her kind. Bella had
halted meagain. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 173
It reminded me of when I almost attacked that woman a few
months ago. Bella had rescued me then too. I would have to
carry out one of my alternative plans. This disgruntled me
greatly as the end would not come as quick. As I stood up I
noticed a shimmer on my hand. The sunlight was shining on
my palm making me sparkle. Like a thousand tiny diamonds
embedded into your skin. Bella had once told me. It was the
reason vampires could not go out in the sunlight without being
exposed - My brain clicked. Sunlight would expose me. It was a
glorious sunny day. For my very last moments in the worldI
would sparkle. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 174
Chapter 15
Reconciliation
The more I deliberated over the details of my situation the
more confident I became about my current plan.
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Nobody would get hurt with the exception of me, which is all I
cared about.
Why should others suffer for me?
They shouldnt.
I had already caused pain to enough people.
Bella.
Bellas family and friends for having had a hand in her death;
and now my own family too.
I felt extremely guilty for bringing agony to my family, but I
simply could not go on living without Bella.
I would follow Bella wherever she went from now on.
The blazing sun was rising up into the sky.
I had made the decision to make my appearance into the
sunlight when the sun was at its highest point in the sky
Noon. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 175
That would coincide with the festival taking place in the
Palazzo dei Priori it would be at its busiest and overcrowded
giving me a large audience and creating a substantial
disturbance for the Volturi.
I would step into the light precisely as the clock tower located
on the edge of the square tolled twelve. For now I had to wait.
The wait was bearable compared to what I had endured in
recent times. But still I felt tremendously impatient. The time
until my reunion with Bella seemed like a century away. In
comparison, the wait before I had left Forks had flown by, and
now I wondered why time seemed to deny us our hearts
desire.
Maybe I was thinking too much.
Time didnt slow or stop in reality.
It consistently ticked by.
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I didnt want to prolong the remaining seconds of my

existence. I sought solace.
I wanted my home; my Bella.
I spent my final hours imagining our reunion. When we were
reunited, would she forgive me?
Even in death?
I watched from the shadows as the square became crowded; it
was almost time. The alleyway where I had first encountered
Demetri and Felix was located directly under the clock tower at
the Palazzo dei Priori. Thats where I would wait out the last
few minutes before eventually stepping out to my death.
I could see the clock from my current location. It showed me
that I had a quarter of an hour left; fifteen long minutes. Dark
I made my way inconspicuously through the cobbled streets of
Volterra to the narrow alleyway.
The words echoed through my mind.
I wasnt going to live without you. My own words.
Spoken to Bella on her previous birthday.
I was infuriated that Bellas life had ended so soon, but I was
more furious about the fact I hadnt been there to protect her.
I hated the thought of her being alone.
Alone and falling.
Thrashing and drowning.
Deathly cold in the churning sea.
Gasping for air as her last breath ebbed and she was taken
prisoner by the water.
Stop it! I ordered myself.
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I didnt want to visualise her death, but my mind would not be

controlled. It was determined to remind me of exactly what I
had caused.
In my final minutes I thought it would be appropriate to reflect
on what I would leave behind my loved ones, my family.
I would miss them all in their own individual ways.
Carlisle, my creator, my father. How I admired his strength,
courage and compassion. He was such a wonderful being.
Esme, my guardian, my mother. The most loving and caring
being who ever lived. Oh, how I loved and admired her.
Emmett, my brother. His amusing attitude made me laugh and
he gave me strength. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 177
Jasper, my most recent brother. I felt a huge amount of
gratitude towards him for showing me that my love was in
need of protection. He was a comfort to me, in more ways than
one.
Rosalie, a most selfish creature. But she gave me guidance and
love like a true sister.
Alice, my favourite sister. How could I begin to explain how
wonderful she was or how much I loved her? She made me
smile and brought me joy. I would miss her tiny, annoying
being the most.
The most important person was not part of my family, and now
never would be.
The most amazing person.
My Bella.
The very reason for my existence.
We would be together again soon.
I knew I would hurt my family terribly by carrying out this
suicide mission but they were better off without me.
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There was no meaning to my life now it was devoid of my

Bella. I loved her endlessly and could not possibly live without
her.
I was sorry for not being a commendable companion, son,
brother.
Sorry for the hurt.
I apologise for the pain.
Im sorry for not being a worthy enough, not strong enough.
Truly apologetic and full of remorse, I would endure the guilt of
my sins even in death.
I rested my head on the stone building behind me waiting for
the final seconds to pass. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 178
Death was imminent.
The clock tolled for the first time marking the approach of high
noon. The echoing sound was soothing and helped calm my
anxious state.
I was able to hear the thoughts of the several Volturi guard
members nearby waiting to attack instantly, ready for the
impending exposure of our kind.
I closed my eyes and ignored the voices in my head and
stepped to the edge of the shadows.
I was ready to sparkle for the world to see, so I removed my
shirt at dropped it at my feet.
As the clock continued to chime, booming throughout the
square, I heard Bella call my name in the distance.
I smiled.
I had craved for so long to hear her voice again.
It rang in my ears, and the sweet sound made me melt.
It sounded extraordinarily real.
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I knew I was hallucinating but I welcomed the insanity.

I pictured Bellas face behind my closed eyelids.
She beamed at me, her smile was brilliant.
Edward! She called me into the light.
Patience my Bella, I thought, not wanting the sound of spoken
words to destroy my glorious moment.
Edward, look at me.
Her voice stunned me and I took an involuntary step forward
towards the sound.
My terminal moment arrived as the eleventh toll rang I took
my step into the light.
My final step.
Something collided with me as I made my movement forward.
But I felt no pain. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 179
I instinctively held my arms out in front of me not to attack,
just to block or catch whatever it was that had flung itself into
me.
I slowly opened my eyes as the twelfth toll rang doing what
Bella had said, and to see where I now found myself.
All I saw was Bella in my arms.
I was astounded.
Amazing. I whispered
I had a soul after all.
It was a general belief that vampires had no soul; I now knew
that to be a myth. Because I had oneand it had taken me to
heaven.
I was with my love, my Bella.
I was filled with love and wonder.
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I could actually feel her in my arms.

My chest was no longer hollow.
My heart had been replaced.
I was whole again.
Carlisle was right. I spoke in a voice radiating astonishment.
I lifted my hand to touch Bellas cheek to ensure she would not
disappear as quickly as she has arrived.
She didnt.
Electric shocks ran through my body.
She was truly real.
It was like the past six months had not occurred and I was
finally back where I belonged.
Edward. Bella whispered my name again and my dead heart
shuddered. This was beyond anything I could ever have
imagined.
I inhaled deeply. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 180
Her scent set my throat on fire, but there was a difference.
With the burning, there came no desire to eradicate her by
indulging her blood; only contentment and joy. Her scent had
not changed the sweet bouquet of freesia smelt more
luxurious than ever.
I could hear her heart beating furiously in her chest pumping
the warm blood around her body. Her pulse was rapid - like it
generally was when we were intimately close.
This was perfect.
As I embraced Bella, stroking her hair, I was marvelled.
My death occurred immediately.
The Volturi had acted instantaneously to prevent my exposure.
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I cant believe how quick it was. I told my Bella. I didnt feel

a thing theyre very good.
I gently kissed her hair and closed my eyes.
I experienced another recollection from Bellas previous
birthday where I told her I envied Romeos ease of suicide.
That jealously has been misconstrued.
My own suicide had been simple all it had taken was a step
into the sunlight.
Death hath sucked the honey of thy breath, hath no power
yet upon thy beauty. I quoted Shakespeares character. You
smell exactly the same as always. So maybe this is hell. I dont
care. Ill take it
Although, I could never possibly envisage this being hell.
I was with Bella and that was all that mattered.
Bella spoke agitatedly interrupting my thoughts.
Im not dead. And neither are you! Please Edward, we have to
move. They cannot be far away!
I felt a struggling movement in my arms. Dark Moon [Edwards
New Moon] 181
I was confused by her words and her belligerent movements.
We were happy and safe what was she talking about?
What was that?
Were not dead, yet! But we have to get out of here before
the Volturi
My eyes flashed open as I heard nearby thoughts.
He has a human with him.
This will mean death surelyfor them both. Maybe the master
will allow me to devour the human at Edwards expense.
Comprehension crashed down on me.
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I was not dead.

Bella was not deceased either she was here, in my arms.
Now it was too late.
I screamed profanities at myself as I realised I put Bella in
dangeragain.
The worst possible danger.
Bella may have been on the edge of death before because of
my actions.
But now I may very well have killed her. Dark Moon [Edwards
New Moon] 182
Chapter 16
Reason
They were coming to intercept us.
Me and Bella.
My Bella.
Bella was here.
I could hardly believe she was real.
But yet she was here here in my arms.
I didnt have time to think about how this had occurred let
alone ask for an explanation from her.
We were both in grave danger.
I had almost made another disastrous mistake and left Bella
here unprotected, if she had arrived one second later
In one quick motion I pulled her further into the alleyway and
pushed her as gently as possible against the wall before
putting myself in a protective stance in front of her, spreading
my arms wide.
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At that very same moment, Felix and Demetri appeared at the

end of the alleyway both in dark cloaks that covered their
pale skin, preventing it from sparkling in the sunlight. My
chest was still bare and my shirt somewhere at my feet. I
didnt even dare look down to locate it.
I had more important things to attend to like thinking of how
I could get Bella out of this ominous situation.
I needed her to escape.
To stand and fight wasnt an option; there wasnt a chance I
could take on two skilled vampires as well as protecting Bella.
The consequences would be dire.
Courtesy seemed like the best option to begin with. Perhaps if
I did not anger them, they would be lenient.
All I wanted was the keep Bella safe.
To save her as she had saved me once again.
Greetings gentlemen. I dont think I will be requiring your
services today after all. I would appreciate it very much,
however, if you would send my thanks to your masters. I said
in a polite tone without showing any hint of the anger that
effervesced in the pit of my stomach.
Shall we take this conversation to a more appropriate
venue? Felix suggested.
I dont believe that will be necessary. I know your
instructions, Felix. I havent broken any rules. I replied curtly.
I hadnt actually exposed my true self, but I had attempted to
would that be reason enough for them to exterminate me?
Felix merely meant to point out the proximity of the sun. Let
us seek better cover. Demetri said calmly.
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I could see in their minds, they had no intention of allowing us

to escape. They had been ordered to bring me back, and since
Bella was clearly human she could not be allowed to leave.
Even so, there was no harm in attempting to change their mind
first instead of surrendering right away.
I could not allow Bella to be taken from me and I didnt want to
leave her side, but I would go with them if it meant Bellas
release.
Ill be right behind you. Bella, why dont you go back to the
square and enjoy the festival?
I couldnt bear the thought of being apart from Bella after we
had only just been reunited but if it was the only possible
solution to keep her free from harm then I had to follow it
through.
Definitely not. Demetri thought.
No, bring the girl. Felix jeered.
I dont think so! I replied angrily. There was absolutely no
way Bella was coming into the Volturis den.
Very well. We will force you to come. Felix hissed in this mind.
I rearranged my stance to ensure Bella was fully protected by
my form in case of a spontaneous attack.
No. Bella mouthed to me noticing what I was doing.
Shh. I hushed her.
Felix was about to initiate his attack which did not go
unnoticed by Demetri.
Felix. He cautioned. Not here.
Demetri turned his attention back to me once Felix appeared
to have backed down.
Aro would simply like to speak to you again, as you have
decided not to force our hand after all.
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Certainly. I agreed. But the girl goes free. Dark Moon

I didnt use Bellas name in an attempt to suggest she was not
significant in the matter at hand, although she was the
greatest importance to me.
Im afraid thats not possible. We do have rules to obey.
Demetri said with regret in his tone.
Then Im afraid that Ill be unable to accept Aros invitation,
Demetri.
Thats just fine. Felix droned. We will still require your
presence, along with your little girlfriends.
Aro will be disappointed. Demetri sighed.
Im sure he will survive the let down. I replied.
That is beside the point, Edward. It is time to come, now.
Both Volturi guards moved to surround myself and Bella,
determined to overpower us and follow their masters
instructions.
Edward! What were you thinking? How could you be so
irresponsible? Thank goodness we arrived on time. Well
almost, at least. Alices rushed silent words swam through my
head. My head whipped round to face the direction her
thoughts came from.
Alice was here?
Of course she was. I had completely forgotten that she
probably would have seen me come to Volterra in a vision.
It also explained how Bella got here.
I was slightly disgruntled by my sisters action in bringing
Bella here. How could she drag her into this? All the same
though I was grateful for Alices involvement and presence.
Felix and Demetri became wary as they heard the faint
approach of pixie feet.
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Whos there? Felix thought as he and Demetri turned to face

the same direction as me. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon]
186
Lets behave ourselves, shall we? Theyre ladies present.
Alice spoke as she skipped to my side. Her manner appeared
casual, but it was pretence. I could see the underlying
annoyance in her mind.
Both Volturi members straightened up at her arrival.
Felixs expression was grim as he thought; we should have
dealt with this immediately. Lets do it now before anymore of
their friends come and join them.
They obviously didnt like not having the upper hand now the
numbers were even.
Just as I was about to fall into a defensive crouch in
preparation for attack, Alice spoke.
Were not alone.
I followed her gaze and realised what she was referring to.
I had not noticed the on lookers; a young family peering down
the alleyway.
The family of four stood gazing at us intently, particularly at
my protective posture in front of Bella.
The thoughts of the parents were of concern, and uncertainty
about whether they should call for help or intervene.
I wanted to shout for them to move. They shouldnt get
involved; it could cost them their lives.
Felix was already contemplating what could be done about
them.
The father decided it was time to make the human security
aware of the situation in case anything happened.
Demetri shook his head. Edward, you dont want the innocents
implicated do you?
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I ignored his silent question.

Please, Edward, lets be reasonable. He said aloud.
Lets, and well leave quietly now, with no one the wiser. I
replied.
I cant let you do that. Demetri sighed in frustration. Dark
He knew my decision could not be influenced when we were
even numbered, not including Bella my fragile human.
At least let us discuss this more privately.
The security guard had called reinforcements and there were
now several uniformed men gathered deciding if this was the
right moment to intercede.
I heard light footstep not audible to human ears, coming
deeper into the alleyway.
Jane.
Edward! Stop this at once.
She had been sent to assist Felix and Demetri in bringing me
in. She didnt look remotely surprised by the company with us.
No. I hissed through my teeth.
Felix smirked as he heard Janes approach, and both he and
Demetri relaxed as they knew their mission would be
completed easily following the arrival of the diminutive Jane.
I hadnt looked at Bella during the confrontation, but I was
certain she wore an anxious expression on her beautiful face.
Enough. Jane said tersely. If you do not proceed with me to
Aro, then I will be forced to impose my talent on your dear
little friend.
She pictured it in her mind.
She was threatening to hurt my Bella.
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How dare she?

I was furious and had the overpowering urge to dismember her
on the spot.
I could not refuse her.
I had to go; we all had to.
With regret and dejection I dropped my arms in defeat and
relaxed my protective posture. Dark Moon [Edwards New
Moon] 188
Jane. I sighed with anger and resignation, but also as a sign
of my cooperation.
Alice crossed her arms angrily across her chest but maintained
an impassive expression.
Who does she think she is? Alice snorted in her head.
Follow me. Jane said as she turned and drifted back in the
direction she had come.
Alice pranced after Jane whilst Felix gestured for me and Bella
to follow. I wound my arm around Bellas waist and pulled her
along gently beside me.
As we walked down the familiar alleyway towards the discreet
entrance of the Volturis lair, I realised this was my opportunity
get some explanations.
I needed answers.
I wanted to know the reason why we meaning myself, Bella
and my sister were here.
How did we all end up here?
What caused this?
It was imperative that I understood before we encountered our
impending doom.
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Felix and Demetri were not relishing the fact that we had to
walk at human pace due to Bella, but I disregarded their silent
complaining and focused on obtaining the information I
required from Alice.
Alices thoughts were with Jasper missing him.
I needed to prompt her in someway so she would think
specifically about recent events.
Well, Alice. I suppose I shouldnt be surprised to see you
here. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 189
In an instant I saw her and Bellas frantic journey from Forks to
save me, and her telling my other family members not to
follow in case a situation similar to the one we were in now
ensued.
It was my mistake. It was my job to set it right. She replied.
Im sorry Edward. I had no idea Rosalie would be so malevolent
by telling you right away. I would have told you myself, but I
thought I was doing the right thing by checking with Charlie
first. She continued in her head.
What happened? I asked casually, hoping she would give me
a brief description for the sake of the Volturi vampires within
earshot, and then elaborating in her mind for me to observe.
Its a long story. Alice shot a glance at Bella. As it usually is
with our Bella Swan. In summary, she did jump off a cliff, but
she wasnt trying to kill herself. Bella is all about extreme
sports these days.
I didnt appreciate Alices sarcasm; I wanted to scream out in
fury at what I saw in her head.
Bella.
Cliff diving.
The company of werewolves. Ferocious creatures.
I didnt understand. She had promised not to be stupid or
reckless, but this went beyond irresponsible.
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It got worse.
Other vampires.
Laurent.
Victoria.
Victoria had gone back to Forks for my Bella.
All because I couldnt track her.
I should have been better.
I should have prevented Victorias attempts to gain access to
Bella. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 190
I should have gone back.
My departure was the cause of all these new wildly dangerous
activities Bella had been participating in.
I was responsible.
Would I ever stop endangering my love?
I detested myself more than I thought possible.
Remembering and feeling that Bella was now in my arms kept
me calm. However she wasnt safe here with me now, although
I vowed in my head to never hurt her again.
Hm. I managed to choke out.
What had I done?
I had introduced Bella into a dangerous mythical world and left
her to encounter it alone.
It seems like the werewolves had been attempting to protect
Bella, and one in particular Jacob Black, had formed quite an
intense friendship with Bella in my absence. I couldnt control
the feeling of jealously that crept up my spine.
He was there when I should have been.
Friends with a werewolf?
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I retained from snorting out in disgust.

Yes, Bella was truly a magnet for peril.
Unwillingly, I brought myself out of Alices head and back into
reality.
Alice was controlling her thoughts well, but I had an inclination
that she was preventing me from seeing something.
What and why?
I didnt have time to question her but I was glad to understand
the details of the recent events a little more clearly. Dark Moon
We reached the hole in the street that I had followed Felix and
Demetri down the previous day.
Alice disappeared down after Jane.
Bella hesitated cautiously.
I thought about going ahead to catch her, but I didnt want to
leave her side for a second, especially with two blood-thirsty
vampires behind us.
Its all right, Bella. Alice will catch you.
Alice? she whispered to ensure she was there, prepared.
Im right here, Bella. Its okay, Edward I will catch her. Drop
her down.
Bella crouched down as I removed my arm from around her
waist and grabbed her wrists softly and lowered her into the
dark underground.
Ready? I asked my sister, hoping she would catch Bella as
gently as possible.
Drop her. Alice called to me sensing my reluctance.
I held my breath, released my grip and let Bella fall into the
blackness.
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I felt my newly refilled chest pinch to lose her touch.

I heard Alice catch her and I jumped down straight after. I was
instantly at her side pulling her back into an embrace.
Bella wrapped her arms around me, which sent warmth
through my frozen form.
I reached up with my free hand to stroke her face, trying to
soothe her as she staggered along.
Occasionally I would softly kiss her hair, breathing in her
intoxicating scent and she clutched me tighter.
I longed to talk to Bella and soothe her mind.
Her mind must have been racing with endless questions about
what was coming and where we going. But the silence was
necessary, firstly because of the eavesdropping Volturi guard
surrounding us; I didnt want to show any vulnerability, and
secondly because, I didnt know what was looming ahead of us.
The atmosphere was tense and the complaining thoughts of
Felix and Demetri at our slow pace was irritating, however I
revelled in their annoyance.
I realised Bella was wet when she started shivering.
Why was she wet?
Her shaking became more violent probably from the coldness
and fear.
Her teeth started chattering and I realised that the
temperature of my glacial skin wasnt helping her.
I released my embrace; I couldnt bear to lose our touch
completely and I continued to hold her hand.
N-n-no. She stuttered.
I chafed her arm continuously trying to cause some warm from
the friction of our skin moving against each others.
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She didnt want me to let go?

I felt an overpowering feeling of love.
Did she still love me?
Did she forgive me?
Maybe I would never find out.
I heard the metal gate shut loudly marking the arrival at our
final destination.
My anger increased with every step.
I clenched my teeth shut to prevent myself from snarling out a
malicious growl. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 193
My pathetic attempts at protecting her had almost cost my
precious Bella her life before; and now I was walking her into
another deadly situation. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 194
Chapter 17
Deathly Circumstances
There was no exit.
No way out for us.
I never took my eyes off Bella as I concentrated on the
thoughts of those opposing us for any signal of attack.
Janes thoughts remained content and smug. She was
somewhat proud of herself for acquiring the suicidal vampire
along with his unusual companions.
When we reached the reception area, after taking the identical
route I had taken the previous day, I noticed that Bella was
scrutinising Gianna the receptionist, and understood
immediately that she was aware that Gianna was in fact a
human; living and working among these vile creatures.
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Alice was focusing hard, attempting to see what awaited us,

and what the verdict would be, but it seemed the Volturi
leaders had not made a conclusive decision yet. Dark Moon
Jane acknowledged Gianna as we passed the reception desk
and proceeded through set of old oak doors, where Alec
awaited.
Jane. he greeted.
Alec. She responded, embracing him. After their brief
salutation, they both then turned their attention to Alice, Bella
and me.
They send you out for one, and you come back with twoand
a half. Alec said glancing at Bella. Nice work. Ah, the girl
must be Edwards little girlfriend. He thought to himself.
Jane gave a shrill laugh. She enjoyed the praise.
Welcome back, Edward. You seem in a better mood.
Marginally. I replied to the young boy.
Alec chuckled at my blunt response, and then looked at Bella
clinging onto me.
And this is the cause of all the trouble?
I forced a smile onto my face, while gritting my teeth shut to
hold back the growl that crept up my throat.
Ill have her. Im thirsty and she smells appetizing.
I instantly stilled at the thoughts of a vampire behind me.
I wanted to grab Bella and run.
Dibs. Felix called aloud.
I couldnt control it.
I couldnt hold it back.
I whipped round and let out a menacing snarl.
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He would not touch my Bella.

I would never let him near her.
Never.
Felix raised his hand and motioned with his fingers
encouraging me to come forward and challenge him.
Come on, Edward. I will happily destroy you, before her.
I wanted to obliterate him.
I wanted to rip his head off with my bare hands. Dark Moon
I was just about to push Bella out the way and pounce, when
something touched my arm and interrupted my impending
attack.
Alice.
Patience. She warned me. Calm down, Edward. Think of
Bella.
She was right.
I couldnt lose control around Bella.
She could get gravely injured, or worse.
Although I had already put Bella in this possibly deathly
situation, an attack on a valuable member of the Volturi guard
would certainly have dire consequences. It made me wonder,
who would protect Bella if a fight broke out?
It was my responsibility.
My sole objective.
I took a deep breath and forced myself to calm down.
Coward. Felix hissed in his mind.
I tried with extreme effort to ignore him and focus on the task
at hand getting outalive.
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Aro will be pleased to see you again. Alec spoke as if the

confrontation had never occurred. But I could see in his mind,
he was disappointed that Alice had prevented me from
attacking.
Lets not keep him waiting. Jane said.
I merely nodded.
Alec and Jane holding hands led the way.
As we walked, I discovered from their thoughts that where
they were taking us was not a place of discussion or solace.
Some were already gathered there.
Waiting.
It was the vampires dining room. Dark Moon [Edwards New
Moon] 197
And the vampires were gathered waiting for their meal to
arrive.
This was not the place I should be allowing my Bella to go.
I did not want her beautiful soul to linger in this awful place.
One fragile human in the midst of so many thirsty vampires.
We would both be dead in seconds.
Bella for her sweet blood.
Me for protecting her.
I couldnt bear to think about what could happen.
What might very well happen.
When we arrived at the room, I was extremely tense.
I relaxed slightly as I looked into their minds.
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Aro had strictly ordered everyone not to attack without

command, or without justifiable provocation, but he could not
have anticipated that Bella would be present. Bella looked
around, utterly astonished.
I watched her eyes land one particular vampire in the room.
Aro.
She must have recognised him from the canvas I once showed
her, in my fathers office.
Jane, dear one, youve returned. He spoke enthusiastically.
Yes, master. I brought him back alive just as you wished. She
replied adoringly. Her overwhelming desire to gratify him
reminded me of how I longed to delight Bella.
Ah, Jane. You are such a comfort to me. His enthusiasm
mounted into wholesome excitement as he eyed Bella and
Alice.
The future seeker! The fortune teller! Aro exclaimed in his
mind. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 198
And Alice and Bella, too! he rejoiced, whilst clapping,
recognising them from my memories. This is a surprise!
Wonderful!! I think it is time to get Caius and Marcus here. He
quickly turned to Felix, Felix, be a dear and tell my brothers
about our company. Im sure they wouldnt want to miss this.
Yes, master. Felix replied before swiftly disappearing back
through the doors we had just entered. Aro then diverted his
attention to me. I could not understand his excitement, as he
was attempting to block me from his thoughts.
Was he thrilled by our capture?
By the possibility of annihilating us?
You see, Edward? What did I tell you? Arent you glad that I
didnt give you what you wanted yesterday?
Yes, Aro, I am. I agreed.
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I tightened my embrace of Bella ensuring she was still safely

beside me. I was petrified that any moment she would
disappear. On the other hand, I wanted her to not be here, not
to be involved. I wanted her to be safe, as I always have. But it
had recently been proven that whatever I wanted for Bella was
not sufficient to keep her safe, or with me.
Bella is alive, after all. Alice must have been mistaken. Her gift
seemed flawless, but perhaps it is not consistently accurate;
all the same, a tremendous talent to have. Aro spoke the
words in his head.
His concentration lapsed slightly allowing me access to his
thoughts for a moment.
A moment was all I needed.
His excitement was due to the presence of my sister.
Alice.
He wanted her desperately.
Well, it was her talent he craved. Dark Moon [Edwards New
Moon] 199
He wanted me too but from that very instant witnessed her
talent through my thoughts he had wanted her in his coven.
And, now he could not believe his good fortune as she stood
before him.
I love a happy ending. Aro signed. I could see the image of
his happy ending in his mind. It involved me and Alice standing
imperiously by his side, two impressive new members of an
already shockingly effective team of predators.
They are so rare. But I want the whole story. How did this
happen? Alice? Aro fixed his desirably on my sister as he
spoke to her. Your brother seemed to think you infallible but
apparently there was some mistake.
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Oh, Im far from infallible. Alice smiled. What has Edward

told him about me? She wondered as her hands balled up into
little fists, as if to hold in the anxiety she was feeling. She felt
uncomfortable with Aros knowledge of her and it made her
apprehensive. As you can see, I cause problems as often as I
cure them.
You are too modest, Aro reproached. Ive seen some of your
more amazing exploits, and I must admit, Ive never seen
observed anything like your talent. Wonderful! It would be an
astounding contribution to our guard. They both would. He
continued in his thoughts, as images of me and Alice flashed in
his mind.
Edward?
Alices eyes flickered to me for a split second as words raced
through her head. How does he know so much about me? Why
is he acting like he knows me?
Alices wary glance at me did not go unnoticed by the
observant Volturi leader.
Im sorry; we havent been introduced properly at all, have
we? Its just that I feel like I know you already, and I tend Dark
to get ahead of myself. Your brother introduced us yesterday,
in a peculiar way. You see, I share some of your brothers
talent, only I am limited in a way he is not. Aro explained. His
tone exhibited a hint of jealously at the fact that I could read
minds from a distance.
And also exponentially more powerful. I interjected.
He can read minds too? Alice asked silently.
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My sister was still slightly confused. She had heard Carlisles

recollection of his time spent here in Volterra with the Volturi,
but at the time he had not elaborated on the specific vampire
talents of those here. I had been the one who had been
particularly interested in every detail and asked endless
questions on many different occasions. I would have to explain
now, so she would understand.
Aro needs physical contact to hear your thoughts, but he
hears much more then I do. You know I can only hear whats
passing through your mind in the moment. Aro hears every
thought you ever had.
Alice raised her eyebrows in surprise. But he cant hear my
thoughts now? He cant hear what Im saying to you in my
head right now?
I inclined my head as a response. She would know what I
meant. We often immersed ourselves in these silent
exchanges. Our family was used to it by now, and sometimes
they werent aware of it at all. Bella, being her observant self,
nearly always noticed, but other humans were oblivious.
Aro noticed it now, but he ignored it slightly irritated that he
could not hear.
But to hear from a distance he paused, letting out a sigh
before gesturing to me and Alices silent exchange. That
would be so convenient. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 201
What is he doing back here? I heard Caiuss thoughts as he
entered the room, followed by Marcus and Felix. I swiftly
turned to face their direction. Alice mimicked my movement
and recognized Aros brothers from the familiar canvas
pictured in her mind.
Who are the others? The girl is human. I thought she was dead.
Caius scowled silently.
Marcuss gaze was instantly drawn to my arm that was
wrapped around Bella. He was scrutinizing our relationship
which somehow mystified him.
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I was confused.
How could the potency of our relationship be strong enough to
bewilder?
Bella and I were no longer together in that sense.
Of course, my feelings for her had not changed in the duration
of our separation.
If anything, my love for her had intensified.
She was my savior, my angel.
But it was not possible that Bella still felt the same for me I
had hurt her too much.
Marcuss attention moved onto the relationship I shared with
my sister, and then onto the one between Alice and Bella. I
could see his evaluations in his mind, and he was now
dumbfounded, although he never showed any indication in his
expression. He had never encountered such true and deep
bonds of love and friendship between vampires, and defiantly
not between vampires and a human.
Marcus, Caius, look! Bella is alive after all, and Alice is here
with her! Isnt it wonderful? Aro crooned.
Neither responded, or exhibited one ounce of the excitement
displayed by their brother. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon]
202
Let us have the story.
Marcus floated to Aro to inform him of his thoughts. At the
brief contact, Aro raised his eyebrows as he saw the results of
Marcuss examination of our relationships.
Extraordinary! Surely they cannot care for each other with
such intensity. I suppose the verity that Bella is alive could
prove Edwards love for her. But Alice and Edward they are not
strictly related. And Alice and Bella? It is not possible.
I snorted at Aros silent analysis.
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Of course it was feasible.

His own brother had just shown him.
How could he doubt it?
I honestly and truly loved all my family unconditionally. Alice
and Bella had developed a true friendship, and now they were
like sisters.
I could not begin to explain the love I felt for Bella.
It was utterly awe-inspiring and even I did not understand it.
Bella kept reeling me in, no matter what I did to try and
protect her and stay away, I could not resist her in that sense,
her blood, on the other hand I had to resist from.
Thank you, Marcus. Thats quite interesting. Aro said
shaking his head trying to comprehend. Amazing, absolutely
amazing.
What is he talking about, Edward? Alice demanded silently,
venting her frustration at the cryptic spoken comments and
exchanges.
Marcus sees relationships and he is surprised by the intensity
of ours. I explained to Bella and Alice swiftly and quietly, even
though every other vampire in the room could hear.
So convenient. Aro said. To answer ones unspoken
questions. He finished in his thoughts. It takes quite a lot to
surprise Marcus, I can assure you. Aro focused on the arm I
had wrapped around Bellas waist, whilst wondering how I
could be so close to her when her blood was what I yearned for
so desperately. I would admit the situation was inexplicable,
but it was almost effortless for me to be in Bellas presence
now.
Was it because of the deadly circumstances we found
ourselves in?
It must be.
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I had always had an overpowering desire to protect her rather

than kill her.
Before I had departed Forks, it was a constant struggle to
control myself.
Now there was something different.
Something I didnt understand.
I dont know what had changed.
Her scent was more intoxicating than ever.
It still burned my throat.
But the fire in my throat was not dreadful.
It was irritating, but not painful.
It was no longer Bellas blood I cravedit was exclusively her
soul that I coveted.
Aro would never understand.
He had never experienced the heartbreak I had suffered.
Its just so difficult to understand even now. How can you
stand so close to her like that? Aro pondered.
Its not without effort.
But still - la tua cantante! What a waste!
I chuckled at his statement.
It was true.
Bella was my singer. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 204
Her blood sang to me.
I look at it more as a price.
A very high price. Aro said hesitantly.
Opportunity cost.
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If I hadnt smelled her through your memories, I wouldnt

have believed the call of anyones blood could be so strong.
Ive never felt anything like it myself. Most of us would trade
much for such a gift, and yet you.
Waste it. I interjected sarcastically, repeating his previous
remark.
I was becoming impatient.
I was tired of the polite conversation.
I no longer wished to explain my love for Bella; frankly it was
none of their business.
Aro laughed as he remembered my fathers determination and
restraint. Carlisle had never killed a human, even during his
time spent here in Volterra. The Volturi thought our way of life,
living off animal blood was impractical. They thought we
should truly embrace the creatures that we are. Instead, my
family refrained from that part of the vampire existence.
Ah, how I miss my friend Carlisle! You remind me of him, only
he was not so angry.
Carlisle outshines me in many other ways as well. I replied.
I certainly never thought to see Carlisle bested for selfcontrol of all things, but you put him to shame, he said.
Hardly, I said intolerantly.
I am gratified by his success. Your memories of him are quite
a gift for me, though they astonish me exceedingly. I am Dark
surprised at how itpleases me, his success in this unorthodox
path hes chosen pleases me. I expected that he would waste,
weaken with time. Id scoffed at his plan to find others who
would share his peculiar vision. Yet, somehow, I am happy to
be wrong.
I did not reply.
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But your restraint! I did not know such strength was possible.
To inure yourself against such a siren call, not just once but
again and again. If had not felt it myself, I wouldnt have
believed.
I did not dignify his oration with a response. My impatience
was building. Why couldnt he just deal with the matter at
hand our freedom?
Just remembering how much she appeals to youIt makes me
thirsty, he chortled.
I froze up with tension.
No. Bella would not be his meal. Ever.
Aro noticed my apprehension.
Dont be disturbed. He said reassuringly.
I searched in his mind thoroughly. There was no sign of an
attack.
I mean her no harm. But I am curious, about one thing in
particular. May I? he asked gazing at Bella intently.
He was asking me if he could attempt to access her mind.
I couldnt make Bellas decisions for her.
Ask her. I stated.
Of course, how rude of me! Bella, I am fascinated that you
are the one exception to Edwardss impressive talent. So very
interesting that such a thing should occur! And I was
wondering, since our talents are similar in many ways, if you
would be so kind as to allow me to try, to see if you are an
exception for me as well. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon]
206
Bellas eyes flashed to my face glowing with terror.
I nodded in encouragement. Although I didnt want him
touching her I knew he wouldnt hurt her right now. The look in
her eyes tore at me. I hated seeing her so scared.
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Bella raised her hand to Aros, and the instant they touched I
knew her mind would not grant him access. I felt slightly
relieved that I was not the only one who was prohibited from
reading her mind.
Aro was disgruntled by this revelation and was curious as to
how Bellas mind worked.
A first! I wonder if she is immune to our other talentsJane,
dear?
No! I snarled furiously.
Absolutely no way.
Alice grabbed my arm, but I shook her off.
Yes, master? Jane smiled at Aro.
Jane, I was wondering, my dear one, if Bella is immune to you
too.
I was enraged.
My ferocious growls echoed around the room.
I needed to protect Bella.
Jane would hurt her grievously just for enjoyment.
I would have to obliterate her first. She was not allowed near
Bella. Ever!
Jane turned to look at Bella with a devilishly malevolent
expression.
No! I screamed in my head.
I sprang forward toward her, to ambush her attack on my Bella.
Dont! Alice cried.
Midway through the air I was jolted, and fell instantly to the
stone floor. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 207
Thousands of electric shocks ran through my body making me
shake vigorously.
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This pain was excruciating. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon]

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Premonition
My body made involuntary jerking movements as I writhed
around on the stone floor.
My whole form was paralysed with pain.
I wanted to scream but I couldnt.
I couldnt let Bella see in how much pain I was in, it would
horrify her.
The searing pain that dominated me was not, however the
worse pain I had ever experienced.
As every jolt scorched my heart it reminded me that there was
a more wounding pain.
I had suffered pain much worse than this. What Jane was
inflicting upon me now was nothing compared to losing my
Bella.
Leaving her.
Trying to survive without her.
Believing she was dead.
I knew that any other pain I experienced would never be as
horrendous as that. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 209
I let the shocks take over my body.
I deserved the punishment.
I accepted that this was part of my chastisement for
converting Bellas life from safe and normal to disturbing and
dangerous.
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Conversely, no punishment ever inflicted upon me would come

close to what I truly deserved, for being the monster that I
despised so much.
Not Janes pain-inflicting power.
Not the Volturi.
Not even death itself.
Bellas sweet voice touched my ears.
Stop! she screeched.
I wanted her sight to be averted; she shouldnt have to see
Janes malicious power in action.
Jane. Aro ordered her to stop and suddenly I was motionless
and numb.
Hes fine. I heard Alice tell Bella.
The shocking pain had vanished.
I sat up.
That serves you right for trying to attack me, Edward. Jane
thought. Next?
I sprang to my feet and stared at Bella horror-struck as Jane
forced her power onto her.
I braced myself to pounce at Jane again, but I was distracted
by Bellas unchanging stance.
She didnt fall.
She didnt crumble in pain.
I promptly switched my gaze to Jane, who was extremely
confused.
She had attacked.
She attempted to inflict the pain again. Dark Moon [Edwards
New Moon] 210
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I breathed a sigh of overwhelming relief.

Bellas mind was shielded from Janes formidable power.
How is that possible? How can it not work? Jane growled in her
mind as she shook with fury.
At that moment I was vastly appreciative that Bellas
amazingly abnormal mind blocked such intrusions by Aro and
Jane.
A beautifully special mind.
An inaccessible and intriguing mind.
In one swift movement I was by Alices side pulling Bella back
safely into my arms.
Aro started to chuckle, obviously amused by the whole
situation, whereas Jane was infuriated and hissed in
frustration as she glared at Bella.
Dont be put out, dear one. She confounds us all. Aro said,
comforting her. Ha, ha, ha. Aro chuckle gleefully. Youre
very brave, Edward, to endure in silence. I asked Jane to do
that to me once - just out of curiosity He continued.
I shot him a look of disgust.
I was not brave.
The courage I had expressed was necessary in the
circumstances.
It was for protection.
I had to appear strong as reassurance for Bella.
I didnt want her to be afraid, as I was.
So what do we do with you now? Aro asked aloud but to
himself.
My body froze at the same time as Alice stilled beside me.
The time has come for them to reach a verdict.
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To decide our fate. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 211

The tension in the chamber mounted.
Kill them! Caius and Felix thought simultaneously.
I had a devastating feeling that this situation would end badly,
whether we were allowed to continue living, or not. In Bellas
case it would be living, as for me and Alice, we would merely
continue to exist.
Bella began to quiver, presumably out of fear. If I wasnt able
to maintain my posture then I would also be trembling.
I could not soothe the anxiety any of us were feeling.
I dont suppose theres any chance that you have changed
your mind? Your talent would be an excellent addition to our
little company. Aro asked optimistically before continuing
silently in his head for only me to hear. It goes without saying,
Edward, if you accept, your life will be preserved.
Jane and Felix grimaced and their thoughts allowed me to
observe their abhorrence of Aros request.
Aro had issued me with an ultimatum.
I would rather perish than join their forces; however I had a
more crucial objective the guarantee of Bellas safety and
survival. Maybe I could use this as a bargaining device to
ensure Bella kept her liberty.
If I had learnt anything from the previous six months, it was
that I would never allow Bella to be subject to death due to my
own actions.
I had already experienced losing her.
I honestly believed that I had made a significant contribution
to her jumping off that cliff.
Now we had been reunited, I had undeservingly been given a
second chance to be there for her to protect her. I would do
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anything necessary to endeavor to maintain her living status,

and hopefully I would still be present to see her released.
If I had no other choice than to join the Volturi in order to keep
Bella alive, I would join without hesitation. However, this was
not the right moment to commence negotiations so I stated my
words clearly.
Idrathernot Aro. I said enunciating my words distinctly,
but not issuing a definite refusal.
Alice? Would you perhaps be interested in joining us? Aro
asked my sister.
No, thank you. She replied politely. I would rather forgo
shopping for a month than join these people. She informed me
in her head. I respected my sister for trying to lighten my
mood, but I was preoccupied with Aros next intended offer.
What!?
What the hell was he doing?
I could feel my anger rising.
He couldnt.
Absolutely not.
And you, Bella?
I saw an astounding beautiful vampire depicted in his head,
and let out a low hiss.
I felt myself fill with anxiety.
Bella had previously desired to become a vampire did she
still want that?
Would she accept Aros offer?
It was Caius who echoed my first thought aloud.
What? he demanded. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 213
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Caius, surely you see the potential. I havent seen a

prospective talent so promising since we found Jane and Alec.
Can you imagine the possibilities when she is one of us? Aro
explained.
Caius ignored him and turned away with an abrasive
expression upon his face, whilst muttering profanities in his
mind.
I was filled with fury, trying not to allow the growl building in
my chest to escape my lips.
Bellas voice trembled as she whispered, No, thank you.
Her instant rejection pleased me.
Thats unfortunate. Such a waste Aro sighed in
disappointment.
Join or die, is that it? I suspected as much when we were
brought into this room. So much for your laws. I demanded
furiously
I did not intend to anger the Volturi, but I had to ask with hope
of seeing Aros intentions in his head.
Of course not. We were already convened here, Edward,
awaiting Heidis return. Not for you. He replied.
He blocked his thoughts from me, I couldnt see his plan of
action, but surely the outcome could not be good.
Aro, the law claims them. Caius jeered. The girl is human. At
the very least the law claims her.
How so? I interjected, wanting Caius to voice his opinions
aloud.
He pointed at Bella whilst his words were directed at me.
She knows too much. You have exposed our secrets.
There are few humans in your charade here, as well. I
argued.
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Yes, but when they are no longer useful to us, they will serve
to sustain us. That is not our plan for this one. If she Dark
betrays our secrets, are you prepared to destroy her? I think
not. He ridiculed.
I wouldnt Bella started to speak, but was quickly silenced
by Caius with a look, as he carried on with his speech.
Nor do you intent to make her one of us; therefore, she is a
liability. And for this, the penalty is her life. You may live if you
wish. But I doubt you will give her up that easily.
I bared my teeth, my mouth dripping with my own venom.
Caius wasnt of a dense nature, because he knew that I
wouldnt surrender Bella to them so they could destroy her,
while I walked away liberated with my sister.
Thats what I thought. Lets get this dealt with now, before
Heidi arrives.
It seemed as if Felix had also heard Caius thoughts, as he
leaned fervently towards Bella.
Unless Aro interrupted.
I could see into his mind now, like he was showing me himself
granting me access.
He did not desire to destroy Bella as his brother did. He
wanted to remain in the good faith of my family in a desperate
attempt to acquire Alice someday in the future. All the same,
he sought to obey the rules they had created.
Unless you do intend to give her immortality?
I thought about it for a split second.
Was I willing to take away Bellas life later, for the purpose of
saving it at this present moment?
Could I promise to do that? Something I had spent all this
time refusing to give Bella.
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Aro would surely want corroboration via my thoughts, meaning

it was not possible to be untruthful.
And if I do? I asked curiously. Dark Moon [Edwards New
Moon] 215
Why, then you would be free to go home and give my regards
to my friend Carlisle. But I am afraid you would have to mean
it.
Just as I had suspected, Aro held out his hand towards me
requesting my thoughts...my promise.
Caius smirked. Now is the time we will discover his true
intentions.
I looked at Bella, only to see her staring at me. I gazed deeply
into her eyes all the way into her soul.
It took my breath away.
Could I really annihilate that?
Could I destroy the very essence of Bella?
I knew in my frozen heart I couldnt.
Mean it, please. Bella whispered to me.
I saw a strained tortured plea in her eyes.
I longed to grant her any request she made, but not this. I
could not lie in my thoughts.
Before I could think of an alternative, my sister stepped
forward towards the Volturi leader with her hand outstretched.
Dont be angry, Edward.
I ignored the scowling protests around me, and watched as
Alice showed Aro every corner of her mind specifically her
vision of Bella becoming an immortal in the near future.
This puzzled me as I had steadfastly refused to change Bella,
but then I saw Alice promise Bella that she would change her,
herself.
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I wanted to growl in annoyance at my sister.

How could Alice promise Bella that? Dark Moon [Edwards New
Moon] 216
I didnt have the time to think about it, or question Alice right
nowbut I most certainly would later if we were ever able to
leave and I got the chance.
I held my breath throughout the whole period of time Aro was
scrutinizing Alices thoughts, hoping he would not want to
examine mine also.
Ha, ha, ha. That was fascinating! Aro chortled, amazed at
being granted access into Alices intriguing mind.
Im glad you enjoyed it. Alice replied.
To see the things youve seen especially the ones that
havent happened yet!
But that will. She reminded him.
Yes, yes, its quite determined. Certainly there is no
problem.
Internally I relaxed slightly.
Caius, Jane and Felix were displeased by this recent revelation,
whereas Marcus and Alec remained quiet and impartial.
Aro, Caius protested.
Dear Caius, do not fret. Think of the hope for the future.
Imagine the joy young Alice alone would bring to our little
householdBesides, Im so terribly curious to see how Bella
turns out!
I could hear a distant parade of people shuffling in the
direction of this room.
The feast of humans for the blood thirsty vampires was rapidly
approaching, which was our cue to escape while we were able
to.
Then we are free to go now?
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Yes, yes, but please visit again. Its been absolutely

enthralling! Aro replied. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 217
And we will visit you as well; to be sure that you follow
through on your side. Were I you, I would not delay too long.
We do not offer second chances. Caius spoke with authority in
his tone. Consider that a threat, Edward. He warned me in his
head.
I gritted my teeth to prevent myself from speaking words Id
be likely to regret, and instead nodded at the threat of their
imposing presence in our lives.
Felix groaned aloud, getting progressively more appetent.
Bellas scent was tempting him, increasing his thirst.
Ah Felix. Heidi will be here any moment. Patience. Aro said
amused.
Aro was right Heidi would soon be herding like animals, a
vast number of humans into this very room, therefore I had to
get Bella out of here quickly. If she realised what was about to
happen, it would surely upset her.
Hmm. In that case, perhaps wed better leave sooner rather
than later. I suggested.
Yes. Thats a good idea. Accidents do happen. Please wait
below until after dark, though, if you dont mind. Just to
remain inconspicuous. Aro added in his head.
I mentally winced at the thought of the accident that Aro was
referring to occurring.
Of course. I agreed. I was not relishing the fact that we had
to remain in Volterra, rather than leaving this god-awful place
immediately, however I did not want to dispute Aros request
as it would prolong our presence in this room.
And here, Aro spoke whilst gesturing to Felix to come
forward. He disrobed Felix and handed the cloak to me, as I
was still shirtless. Take this. Youre a little conspicuous.
I put on the cloak, whilst Aro watched me intently.
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It suits you. He sighed. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 218

I chuckled at his comment, glad that the outcome of todays
events hadnt concluded with the disastrous consequences I
had expected. We were free and I was not part of his coven.
Thank you, Aro. Well wait below.
Goodbye, young friends. Aro said with slight
disappointment, before his attention was otherwise distracted
by the audience behind us.
Lets go. I said urgently. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon]
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Nightmare
Not fast enough. Alice muttered as we made our exit from
the room as quickly as humanly possible.
My sister and I tried to shield Bella as much as we could by
tightly surrounding her.
The voices, both spoken and silent were deafening and distinct
now, as the ill-fated parade came into view. Voices babbled in
the flow of people; it was almost impossible to distinguish
between them but I realized that some were curious whilst
others were fearful.
Aro was welcoming the unfortunate crowd into the room we
had left only moments ago.
It truly disgusted me. I knew I was a monster, I had killed many
people in the past, but those people were ghastly humans who
had committed terrible acts, still it didnt make it right - but
this charade that the Volturi hosted was barbaric.
I pulled Bellas face into my chest as we moved to the side to
let the crowd pass. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 220
Demetri, who was leading us back to the reception area,
greeted Heidi on his way past.
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Welcome home, Heidi.

Demetri.
Nice fishing. He complimented her while he also praised her
flamboyant appearance in his head.
Thanks. Arent you coming?
In a minute. Save me a few.
Heidi nodded, and then glanced curiously at my Bella.
What is the human girl doing here? She isnt supposed to be
part of my crowd, is she? She wondered silently.
I pulled Bella forward at a more rapid pace, but it wasnt quick
enough before the screaming erupted from the room behind
us.
Demetri warned us again not to leave before night had fallen,
and then left to claim his meal.
Bella was trembling vigorously.
Are you all right? I whispered to her.
She didnt respond.
Bella wore a horrified expression whilst appearing overawed
and in a trance like state.
You better make her sit before she falls. Shes going to
pieces. Alice said.
Heart-wrenching sobs escaped Bellas lips as I gently pulled
her to the sofa farthest away from the reception desk, where
the receptionist Gianna was standing, curious and startled by
Bellas hysterical condition.
Shh, Bella, shh. I tried to comfort her with words.
I think she is having hysterics. Maybe you should slap her?
Alice suggested.
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I threw Alice a disgusted look. Slapping Bella would certainly

dislocate her head from her body with my vampire strength. I
ignored her preposterous idea and focused on trying to calm
Bella down.
Sorry. Alice apologised silently.
I forgave her; after all, I would no longer exist if she hadnt
come to my rescue today.
Bellas sobs became louder as she collapsed into my arms,
surrendering her composure.
Its all right, youre safe, its all right. I repeated several
times, hoping she would listen and calm down slightly.
Although Bella was extremely upset, I couldnt help but feel
joy that she was in my arms, where I could feel the warmth of
her smooth skin, and inhale her sweet scent.
My memories hadnt done them justice.
I understood her anguish. She couldnt bear to think of my
kind, of me being anything but monsters after what she had
just seen and heard.
All those people. She cried.
I know.
Its so horrible.
Yes, it is. I wish you hadnt had to see that.
Tears escaped her tired eyes and ran smoothly down her soft
cheeks. I used the cloak I was now wearing to wipe the salty
wetness from her face.
I straightened up slightly when I heard footsteps and
concerned thoughts heading our direction.
Gianna.
Is there anything I can get for you? She asked politely.
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No. I replied, wanting her to retreat back to her desk.

Poor girl. Something must have really upset her. She thought.
Was she really that oblivious?
I didnt waste my time wondering about Giannas denial, and
turned my attention back to Bella. Dark Moon [Edwards New
Moon] 222
Bella seemed to calm down gradually, taking in deep breaths.
Does she know what is going on here? She asked me.
Yes, she knows everything.
Does she know that theyre going to kill her someday?
Shes hoping theyll decide to keep her.
Bellas face went pale as the lovely colour vanished from her
cheeks.
She wants to be one of them? She whispered in confusion.
I nodded and watched her face intently, waiting for the
revulsion to cross her expression.
It never came.
Instead her body shuddered forcefully.
How can she want that? How can she watch those people file
through to that hideous room and want to be a part of that?
I barely heard her second question as my mind was
overpowered by the sudden sentiment of rejection and my
heart plummeted in my chest.
She thought of me as a vile creature like the ones contained
here in Volterra.
She no longer wanted me in her life.
She despised vampires.
She was right how could anybody want this life?
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I should be pleased.
I should be happy that Bella didnt want this life.
But it would also mean she didnt want me.
She didnt want to know me, or have anything to do with me.
Noshe hadnt actually said thatyet.
It was obvious that we had things to discuss, but now was
neither the time nor the place we hadnt entirely escaped the
danger yet. But whatever happened, I would do whatever she
desired.
Oh, Edward. Bella sobbed.
I was suddenly more anxious.
Was she all righttruly?
Whats wrong? I asked.
She didnt pull away from me when I rubbed her back gently,
instead to my surprise, she wrapped her arms around my neck
and so I hugged her closely.
Is it really sick of me to be happy right now? Her voice
quivered slightly with her words.
She was happy?
I felt happiness, but I knew the justification for that Bella was
here.
But why was Bella happy?
Was it just because we had not been dealt the card of death by
the Volturi?
I know exactly what you mean. I replied in a low voice.
Although I was positive Bella and I were both joyful for
differing reasons. But we have lots of reasons to be happy.
For one, were alive. I continued.
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Yes. Thats a good one.

And together. I added in a sigh.
I was blissfully overjoyed that we were together again, but as
Bella merely nodded as a response I concluded that she
didnt share my happiness for that same reason. And, with
any luck, well still be alive tomorrow.
Hopefully. She mumbled. Her dimmed response made my
heart sink even lower in my chest. Something felt disturbingly
wrong.
The outlook is quite good. Alice informed us. Ill see Jasper
in less than twenty-four hours. Dark Moon [Edwards New
Moon] 224
All Alices anger had faded and her thoughts were entirely with
Jasper. She missed him terribly.
I looked at Bella and I was slightly shocked by what I saw. I
perceived things that I hadnt noticed before perhaps I was
too aware of the danger to notice them.
Bella looked sad and wary, as well as extremely tired. The dark
circles under her eyes reminded me of my own apparent circles
but mine werent due to lack of sleep. Her sadness seemed to
go deeper, as if suffering had scarred her very being
something had damaged her soul.
She appeared broken.
I was desperate to know what had occurred to make Bella like
this, but I had a gut-wrenching feeling that I was culpable.
You look tired. I told her as I stroked the dark circles under
her eyes.
And you look thirsty. She replied looking at my black irises
and the deep purple smudges under my own eyes.
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I was thirsty, but I hadnt thought about it at all. Now that

Bella had reminded me of the vampire within, my craving for
blood became more evident, but strangely enough I was in
complete control. I had no urge to devour.
Its nothing. I shrugged, wondering what had revolutionized
my system.
Are you sure? I could sit with Alice.
Did she want me to hunt so I wasnt tempted to kill her? After
what she had just seen, it was no surprise that she would be
afraid, but there was no possible way I was leaving her now.
Dont be ridiculous. Ive never been in better control of that
side of my nature than right now. I reassured her. Dark Moon
Bella fell silent then. I sensed there was something bubbling in
her mind as she wore a very strained expression on her face,
which wasnt due to her tiredness.
She was distant and remote, yet she stared back at me whilst I
discussed travelling plans with Alice swiftly and quietly. Im
not certain Bella even understood.
Where will we be going, Edward? Alice asked in her thoughts.
To the airport in Florence. I replied, not providing her with
the answer she wanted.
You know what I mean. Will we be returning to Forks?
I did not reply because I wasnt sure where I would be residing
now.
Well, we have to return, even if only to take Bella back to
Charlie.
I nodded.
I knew that I never wanted to leave Bella again. I wanted to
remain forever by her side. The previous months had proved
that I could barely survive without her.
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But how did she feel?

Judging by her recent behaviour towards me; the physical
closeness but the emotional distance perhaps she had moved
on, like I had originally meant for her to, when I had made the
mistake of leaving her.
Whether my family and I would return to Forks depended on
Bella, on what she wanted. It did not look promising.
If she wanted my family in her life, I would of course grant her
that happily, whether she wanted me as a companion or not.
We will need transportation to the airport. Alice said. I hope
I can find another Porsche, it was truly amazing.
You can locate whichever you want when we leave. I
responded to my sister. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 226
As soon as we leave I will collect our belongings from where I
hid them, phone the airport to reserve seats on the next flight
out and acquire a vehicle.
You should probably call Carlisle and the family to notify them
of our arrival. You can do that at the airport, I want to get out
of this city as swiftly as possible.
Yes, I will. Ill call jasper. I miss him, and want to hear his
voice. Alice continued in her head.
I know you do. You will see him soon. Oh, and Alice?
Yes?
Thank youfor everything.
Youre welcome, Edward. I would do it again for you.
I know. I smiled warmly.
I wish we could go back to Forks permanently.
Well see.
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What was all that talk about singers? Alice changed the
subject, sensing it was not something I wanted to talk about,
especially in front of Bella.
La tua cantante. I recited.
Yes, that. Why did they call Bella a singer?
I shrugged. They have a name for someone who smells the
way Bella does to me. They call her my singer because her
blood sings to me.
I would love to hear Bella sing to you. Alice trilled in her mind.
For the remainder of our wait in the Volturi lair, I quizzed Alice
on the events and activities of her and my other family
members in my absence. Alice mostly replied in her thoughts.
Not much has happened recently. We have been visiting Tanya,
Kate, Eleazar and Carmen in Denali over spring break at
Cornell. They were asking about you, wondering how you
were. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 227
Of course, we didnt know for sure. You never answered your
phone when any of us called. You never contacted us. We knew
you needed time and privacy.
How are Carlisle, Esme, Emmett and Jasper? I asked, not
including Rosalie. It seemed a lifetime ago since she had made
that final call to me. I was justifiably livid with her she had
sent me to my death without a second thought.
They are all fine. Including Rosalie. I know you are going to
be angry at her, Edward, but Im sure she regrets her actions.
She was impulsive and selfish, but she misses you, we all do.
Things were different without you, somewhat morbid.
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I couldnt help but feel guilty I had no idea what hardships I

had put my family through by not including them in my life for
the past six months. I hadnt appreciated that most of them
were upset about leaving Bella. I hadnt considered their
feelings whatsoever, like I hadnt with Bella either. I had been
utterly self-centred and the fact that they had respected my
wishes and left me alone to suffer alone in solitude, whilst I
had barely thought about any of them, made me feel even
guiltier.
It was odd now that my mind seemed to be back to normal. I
figured that since I was back in Bellas presence, my mind was
able to think of other things as well as Bella.
I had been wholly restored.
My heart.
My mind.
And it was all because I was here with Bella.
Every so often I would place a light kiss on Bella just to feel
her skin and to make sure she was still there, not imaginary.
I could feel her in my arms, but my gestures of affection
seemed to have no affect on her whatsoever, not like they used
to, and this forced a difficult question into my mind. Dark Moon
What was I doing?
I couldnt expect to resume my previous position in Bellas life
Could I?
My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of oncoming
footsteps. I instinctively tightened my hold on Bella, as if
someone was going to snatch her away from me.
You are free to leave now. We ask that you dont linger in the
city. Alec told us as he entered the reception area, seemingly
fully satisfied from his recent repast.
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That wont be a problem. I replied, anxious to get Bella away

from the monstrous place, she still wasnt completely safeas
she was still in the presence of vampiresof monstersof me.
Gianna lead us to the exit, which I was already aware of from
my previous visit.
Foolish woman. Alice thought of Gianna, as we proceeded to
leave.
We exited into the midst of the festival in high spirits. Alice
disappeared momentarily, but not before she informed me
where to meet her. Ill grab our belongings and meet you at
the entrance with a car.
I barely interpreted her words as my attention was otherwise
distracted.
The sky.
It was sparkling; alive with stars.
I had to blink twice to ensure I was not imagining the twinkling
spots of light in the black night.
To the North was a bright crescent shaped moon.
Shining dazzlingly, bringing light and hope into my life once
again.
It was strikingly beautiful. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon]
229
I had spent months searching, hoping for them.
They lit up my life just as they illuminated the sky.
My nights were no longer dark.
The light elucidated my love for Bella. It radiated through me.
How I had yearned for the sparkling stars to appear, but I
couldnt help but wonder how long would they last?
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We were surrounded by humans clothed as vampires with

cloaks and plastic fangs. I didnt agree with some of their
thoughts that the attire was entertaining. I did not find it
remotely humorous. Mythical creatures had become
commercialised. They were dangerous beings, not innocuous
figures to be thought of only for their comedic value. I thought
it was ludicrous for a festival to be held diminishing the
menace of such monstrous beasts.
Ridiculous. I muttered to myself.
Wheres Alice? Bella whispered warily.
She went to retrieve your bags from where she stashed them
this morning.
Bella seemed to relax a little at my reply maybe she was
worried about being alone with me.
Shes stealing a car, too, isnt she?
Not till were outside. I smiled at Bellas observant nature.
I supported her as we walked to meet Alice.
Bella could hardly walk due to exhaustion. I easily located
Alices thoughts in a black vehicle that she disapproved of. She
was irritated by not having the Porsche to drive back in.
I helped Bella into the backseat and slid in next to her, just
before Alice drove away at full speed.
Im sorry. There wasnt much to choose from. Alice said, as
she gestured to the speedometer that didnt rise to the
unlawful speed that she desired to drive at.
Its fine, Alice. They cant all be 911 Turbos. I said, amused
by her annoyance.
I may have to acquire one of those legally. It was fabulous.
Ill get you one for Christmas. I promised her. It would be a
diminutive gesture, the least I could do to express my
gratitude to her.
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Really? She turned to beam at me with a smile that lit up her

face. Yellow. She stated aloud, reminding me.
You can sleep now, Bella. Its over. I said, wanting her to
rest. She looked absolutely worn out.
I dont want to sleep. Im not tired.
Try. I breathed across her skin, as I kissed her lightly
beneath her ear.
She shook her head.
Youre still just as stubborn. I thought aloud.
I managed to book us tickets on the next plane out to Rome.
When we get there we will have to purchase tickets back to
the U.S. Alice told me in her thoughts.
I nodded.
We were really going back, which I was pleased about; but why
did I have the sinking feeling that everything was slipping
away?
When we arrived at the airport, Alice handed me some clothes
she had brought for me. She was always prepared one of her
many qualities.
I dumped the cloak I had been given in the trash. It was a good
riddance. Alice took Bella to the bathroom so they could both
change and freshen up too. It pained me to be away from Bella
for one moment. I ached to hold her in my arms again. We
were reunited once more as we boarded our plane to Rome.
The flight was quiet and short in duration. We were fortunate
enough to get a flight as soon as we arrived in Rome. As we
took our next plane to Atlanta, Bella surprised me by ordering
a coke from the attendant. She disapproved of caffeine. I could
feel the confused expression on my face. Was she that
determined to stay awake?
Bella? I said in a questioning tone.
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I dont want to sleep. If I close my eyes now, Ill see things I

dont want to see. Ill have nightmares.
Her last statement stopped me from continuing to persuade
her to rest.
I didnt want her to have nightmares.
I would be included in them.
I assumed she would fall asleep on her own accord when her
eyes would no longer be able to stay open. They would
eventually fall.
We didnt talk again throughout the duration of the flight. The
majority of the other passengers were sleeping, whilst Alice
was rapidly talking on the phone to Jasper informing him of
the details of the last few days.
The tranquillity gave me time to reflect on my own thoughts. I
kept Bella close always in my arms, kissing her bare skin, and
hair, inhaling her scent each time. In the Volturis lair I didnt
have time to think about what the recent events signified my
mind had been preoccupied by the purpose of keeping Bella
safe. I was constantly listening and aware of the surrounding
thoughts, waiting for an unexpected incident to occur.
Amazingly Bella managed to remain awake, but she stayed
silent. It was unfair of me to put her under pressure to answer
the one the main question that was spinning in my head and
making me very uneasy.
Numerous other questions raced through my mind;
Why was Bella here?
Did the fact that she had come mean that she still had feelings
for me?
How much damage had I really caused her? Forcing her into
the claws of werewolves and cliff diving.
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There was one question in particular that pained me to think

about How much had I hurt her?
Bella did not appear to be like her normal self the Bella I
knew and left six months ago, and I could sense that Alice
knew something about it which she was determined to hide
from me for now.
The whole flight my mind searched for answers.
I had none.
All I concluded was that Bella wanted to feel safe and she
knew that Alice and I would protect her which is why she held
onto me when I hugged her close and allowed me to kiss her,
but emotionally she was keeping her distance because she no
longer wanted me. She had finally comprehended how
dangerous I truly was. She had moved on
Chapter 20
Charlie
The flight duration seemed unbelievably short considering the
endless amount of unanswered questions still flowing through
my mind. When we landed at Atlanta airport, Bella became
immediately alert despite fighting the exhaustion that was
physically visible within her posture and appearance. Her
expression transformed into anxiety as we exited the plane
and proceeded into the airport. She often took swift glances at
me as she stumbled alongside, but she looked away just as
quickly. I aided her by holding her up to prevent her from
collapsing. Her quick stares bore right into me, and I realised
she seemed to be checking to ensure my presence was
maintained as if she was worried I was going to leave.
Perhaps, she assumed that now we were back that I would just
disappear again.
I would not.
I would stay until she told me to depart.
The thought of leaving her again was beyond painful.
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I was determined not to lose the light that had re-entered my

life.
The light that Bella brought. I did not want to misplace the
stars.again and return to the dark vacant loneliness.
Alice had informed me on the plane that our family would meet
us at our destination. So I wasnt surprised when I located my
parents fretful thoughts the moment we had landed, or to see
them waiting at the arrivals gate. Jasper made his way through
the crowd to make his reunion with Alice. When they found
each other, they just stared lovingly into each others eyes. I
never fully understood the intense love and connection they
shared until I met Bella.
Carlisle and Esme were standing in a quiet corner, away from
any suspicious looks. Suddenly, I was penitent for my recent
behaviour; my self-absorbed state had almost cost my life as
well as my sisters and my loves. If the outcome of the events
that occurred in Italy had been different, then I would have
been responsible for depriving my adoptive parents of two
children and for that I was unreservedly remorseful. Esme,
having already lost a child, would be devastated. I knew how
she felt about all of us. We were her children. She had become
a vampire whilst being on the verge of death. She had
attempted suicide because she lost her first baby. I had almost
put her through that terrible griefagain.
I heard their almost inaudible exchange as we made our way
through the gate.
Thank goodness. Esme breathed as we came into their view.
Alice informed us of their safety, dear. Carlisle replied.
I know, but I had to see to believe.
As we came to a halt in front of them, Esme almost snatched
Bella out of my arms to give her a fierce hug, but I kept my
arms tightly around her not willing to let her go. I realised it
could have been potentially three children lost because Esme
thought of Bella as a daughter; she had been just as concerned
for her safety as much as mine and Alices.
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Thank you so much. Esme said into Bellas ear as she

embraced her.
Edward! What were you thinking? I couldnt lose you! She
thought as she threw her arms protectively around me.
You will never put me through that again. She reprimanded
me deservingly.
I smiled tenderly at the woman who had been my mother for
such a long time.
Sorry, Mom. I said, filled with sincere remorse.
Edward, you cant believe how happy I am that you are all well.
She is a remarkable girl. My father spoke to me in his
thoughts. He then turned to Bella to thank her for her actions
in coming to my rescue.
Thank you, Bella. We owe you.
Hardly. She mumbled tiredly.
She is dead on her feet. Lets get her home. Esme ordered.
She supported Bellas other side as we walked out towards the
cars, where Rosalie and Emmett waited. My vengeance
towards my sister who was the cause of my trip to Italy
became my dominant emotional expression as I stilled at the
sight of her.
I knew a furious confrontation should be avoided at the
present time, therefore to prevent it I wanted to evade her by
any means.
Dont. She feels awful. Esme whispered as she noticed my
hesitation.
She should. I replied.
I was mostly annoyed that she had almost killed my Bella.
Its not her fault. Bella stammered beside me.
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Let her make amends. Well ride with Alice and Jasper. Esme
encouraged. I would like to know what happened from Alice
anyway, and we will meet you at the house. She continued in
her head.
She meant the house in Forks.
My true home.
My family would convene there to discuss future plans once I
had reluctantly taken Bella home to Charlie.
I glared at Rosalie with accusing eyes, about to refuse to travel
in the same vehicle as her, but Bella managed to convince me.
I could not refuse her.
Please, Edward. She almost begged for the comfort of no
longer standing.
I sighed and towed her towards the sedan. We silently got into
the car and Bella instantly leaned into me, resting her head on
my chest and closing her eyes, finally giving into the fatigue
that possessed her. As the engine ignited, Rosalie began
apologising profusely in her head to me.
Im so sorry, Edward. Im terribly sorry. I didnt think. I was
dense. I am truly sorry. Please can you forgive me?
When I did not dignify her remark with a response, she spoke
aloud.
Edward? Im sorry.
I know. I said indifferently.
Once I had given her a sign of recognition of her apology she
turned to Bella, which irritated me I wanted Bella to rest.
However, she rightly owed Bella at least a request for
forgiveness.
Bella?
Bellas eyes fluttered open abruptly in what I presumed was
astonishment since Rosalie had never gone out of her way to
address Bella directly due to her envy of her.
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Yes, Rosalie? Bella asked warily.

Im so very sorry, Bella. I feel wretched about every part of
this, and so grateful that you were brave enough to go and
save my brother after what I did. Please say youll forgive me.
Rosalie began hoping that if Bella was able to forgive her
misdemeanour then it would persuade me to absolve her also.
Of course, Rosalie. Its not your fault at all. Im the one who
jumped off the damn cliff. Of course I forgive you.
It was characteristic of Bella to take the blame for everything.
It doesnt count until she is conscious, Rose. Emmett
chuckled.
Im conscious. Bella slurred.
Let her sleep. I interjected.
The car became silent and Bella was soon sleeping soundly.
Emmett decided to interrupt the hushed silence, when his
inquisitive mind provoked him to ask questions.
So, hows everything been going, Edward? Well, before all of
this happened? Did you find that trackers mate?
I let out a low growl at the memory.
I will take that as a negative. I should have gone with you,
even though you didnt want me to, I could have helped. He
continued in his head.
How do you suppose Charlie will react when we arrive with
his runaway daughter?
I dont suppose he will be pleased. Rosalie answered for me,
thankfully. I didnt want to answer questions.
I didnt want to explain myself or describe the recent events
that had occurred in my life.
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I wanted to take pleasure in the moment. To enjoy Bella

sleeping peacefully in my arms. Holding her close to me.
Feeling her body. Inhaling her scent. Watching her chest rise
and fall as she breathed. Listening to the thrum of her
heartbeat. Just being in her presence.
I would deal with Charlies inevitably furious reaction when the
time came, which would be too soon.
As Emmett speedily approached the small town of Forks, I
became increasingly fearful that Bella would soon be taken
away from me. I longed for Emmett to drive slower, just to
prolong the seconds I had left holding my love in my arms. I
never wanted my eyes to be averted from her ever again.
As we rounded the corner onto Bellas street, I clutched her
tighter against me, very reluctant to let her go. The car came
to an abrupt halt outside Bellas fathers house. I heard Charlie
trot to the window curiously, and I saw the curtains twitch in
my peripheral vision.
What the -! Charlie thought.
I opened the door and stepped out, walking round to the other
side to carry Bella out.
What the hell is he doing here? Charlie yelled in his head as he
rushed to the front door.
As I lifted Bella into my arms she began to wake.
Do you want me to wait, bro? Emmett asked in rapid words.
Yes, I think that will be for the best, judging from Charlies
temper. I replied before I shut the car door.
Charlie bustled out of the house. Jesus, what has he done to
her? He thought as he saw the worn out Bella in my arms.
Bella! he shouted.
Charlie. Bella mumbled as she stirred in my arms, still
clearly exhausted. Shh. Its okay; youre home and safe. Just
sleep. I whispered.
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I cant believe you have the nerve to show your face here.
Charlie bellowed at me. Why couldnt you have just stayed
away? Stayed away from my baby, and stayed away from
Forks.
Stop it, Dad. Bella slurred incoherently.
Whats wrong with her? Charlie demanded. She looks half
dead! What has he done to her?
She is just very tired. Please let her rest.
Dont you tell me what to do! Give her to me. Get your hands
off her!
I could understand Charlies anger. I was the reason for his
daughters disappearance over the past several days. He had
been concerned, and with good reason. I figured the easiest
option would be to concede to Charlies demand and hand
Bella over to him, if only to ease his mind slightly. I shifted
Bella in my arms, ready to surrender her to the comfort of her
fathers, safely away from the vampire. But Bella held onto me,
tightly for a human, probably afraid that Charlie might drop
her. My mighty strength allowed me to carry her effortlessly.
Charlie tugged on her arm trying to unlock her grip on me. I
did not want to unlock her fingers attached to the front of my
shirt. It was exactly what I was terrified of someone
attempting to seize Bella away from me.
Cut it out, Dad. Be mad at me. Bella said in a more coherent
voice.
You bet I will be. Get inside. Charlie ordered.
Kay, let me down.
I carefully released Bella to set her feet on the ground. She
tried to take a step forward, except her feet did not move and
instead her body fell forwards toward the concrete. I swooped
down to catch her as fast as humanly possible without Charlie
becoming too suspicious. She couldnt walk by herself because
of the incredible tiredness, so I pulled her back into my arms,
welcoming back the warmth against my body.
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Just let me get her upstairs. Then Ill leave. I told Charlie.
No. Bella cried.
Did she not want me to carry her? Now that she knew she was
home, did she want me to leave?
Or did she not want me to leave?
I found myself even more perplexed now trying to interpret
Bellas behaviour since our reunion. I had already established
that Bella didnt want me, hadnt I?
What did she truly want?
I would give her anything.
Then it hit me.
I had left her.
No explanations.
No reasoning.
My enigmatic and abrupt departure must have left her with so
many unanswered questions of her own why did I leave? Why
didnt I want her all of a sudden?
Quite understandably she wanted and deserved answers.
I would give her answers.
I would answer honestly.
I would tell her how dark my life was without her.
I would not leave Forks again until Bella told me herself that
she didnt want me around.
Until she ordered me away.
I wont be far. I reassured her quietly out of Charlies
earshot. I headed toward the house before Charlie had the
chance to stop me taking Bella inside. He ran after me,
struggling to keep up.
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No. What do you think you are doing? he stuttered from

behind me.
Bella drifted back off to sleep as I carried her up the stairs to
her room. She was still clinging to my shirt as I laid her down
on her bed. Unwillingly and unhappily I unclenched her fingers
gently. It felt like my newly restored heart was being ripped
from my chest again as I prepared to leave her. I placed her
blankets over her as Charlie appeared at the doorway. He
looked at his daughter with love. He was immensely relieved
that she was home and safe. I could see in his thoughts how
panicked and scared he had been when she had left and he
had no idea of her whereabouts or her wellbeing. He had been
frantic; going out of his mind with worry.
After satisfying himself that Bella was all right he turned to
me.
Get out of my house. He said between gritted teeth to
prevent himself from shouting it and waking Bella up.
As he followed me downstairs, the volume of his voice
increased.
I dont want you in this house. I dont want you anywhere
near Bella.
I spun around to face him and he stepped back in surprise at
my swift movement.
Im sorry, Charlie, but dont you think it is up to Bella whether
I see her or not?
No, I dont. he barked. Im her father. I know what is best
for her. You He pointed his finger directly at me, shaking
slightly from the anger pulsating through him. You have
caused enough misery in her life. I will not tolerate it. You are
never to set foot through my door again, do you hear me?
I was about to reply but my words constricted in my throat as a
disturbing image filled Charlies thoughts.
Bella.
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She was being carried by a man I did not recognise.

She was suffering from what could only be described as
terrible pain.
Or loss.
Like she was dying.
Had someone died?
Someone had hurt her.
Someone had killed her emotionally. Charlies memory shocked
me to my core as I recognised the clothes Bella was wearing
the same as she had been wearing the day I left Forks.
The day I had left her.
She was mumbling something Hes gone. Hes gone.
It was me. My fault.
I had hurt her. I had broken her.
I was appalled at what I had done.
I had hurt her so much more than I had ever imagined.
I gaped at Charlie for a long moment whilst my insides
crumbled. How could I have done that to her?
No wonder she didnt want me anymore.
No wonder Charlie was beyond furious and didnt want me
around her.
I had to leavenow.
I turned and swiftly exited the house, with a new stabbing pain
in my chest as I left my re-shattered heart behind once again. I
got back in the car completely flabbergasted by what I had just
witnessed in Charlies thoughts.
How did it go, bro? Charlie looked pretty mad.
I was too shell-shocked to reply.
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Edward, you okay? He thought.

Just drive. I managed to choke out.
The car sped away from where I left my sleeping beauty.
Drop me off at the end of the driveway, Emmett. I want to
walk. I demanded, hoping my sudden change of mood
wouldnt cause any unwanted questions to be asked. Fortune
seemed to be on my side for once, as Emmett pulled over
without thinking or speaking another word. I jumped out of the
car and walked into the forest with only my thoughts for
company.
The memory that I had viewed in Charlies mind distressed and
revolted me. I could not believe nor understand how I could
have devastated Bellas emotions so completely. Now I could
comprehend the dramatic change in Bellas physical state, and
why she had been distant with me.
The guardedness. The apprehension.
She had believed me instantly when I had told her that vicious
lie; that I no longer loved her. I was the something that had
damaged her soul. I had tarnished the most precious thing in
the world.
I had been correct in my previous conclusion I had hurt her so
deeply that she would never forgive me.
Now all I could think of was how to rectify my wrong doings.
My departure had without doubt caused many more problems
than it solved.
By leaving, I had hurt Bella heinously, and I had also put her in
more extreme danger than ever.
The walk to the house at human pace seemed short as I
processed all the information spiralling in my mind.
There was one person in the house who could provide me with
some answers.
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The creature that had spent time with Bella recently, since my
familys absence from Forks.
The pixie like vampire who had been hiding something from me
since Volterra; Alice.
My sister waited for me outside the front door.
I dont know everything, Edward. But I can tell you what I do
know.
We walked into the house where the rest of my family was
gathered.
You knew why Bella was different. You knew what was wrong
with her. You know it was because of me. I accused Alice.
Yes, I saw it straight away in her appearance when I arrived in
Forks. She didnt tell me herself though, she couldnt bear to
think about you let alone talk about you. I got the information
from a conversation with Charlie.
And, yet you didnt tell me. I sensed you were hiding
something from me. You were very controlled with your
thoughts.
I didnt think it was the appropriate time or place to tell you,
considering the situation we were in. Alice replied. You were
exceptionally insecure, Edward. I could see that. We needed to
focus on getting out alive, and protecting Bella. Alice
continued in her head.
I couldnt dispute that. If Alice had informed me in Volterra it
would have affected me, clouded my mind. Alice was right, I
had to keep Bella safe - that was my main priority. Nothing had
changed, even if she could no longer love me, the reason for
my existence was to ensure Bellas happiness. I was always
putting Bellas life in jeopardy in whatever action I took and
now I feared she was in the worst possible danger.
The werewolves.
A sadistic vampire out for revenge.
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And the Volturi who wanted to commit Bella to eternal

damnation.
Bella was a force field attracting danger in all forms.
What has been going on? Laurent? Victoria? The werewolves?
What did Bella tell you, Alice? I questioned.
Laurent came back to the area as a favour for Victoria, to help
her locate Bella. It seems that he discovered her alone whilst
he was thirsty, but the werewolves arrived just in time and
chased him away. They killed him. Victoria has been trying to
get to Bella relentlessly, but the werewolves have been
protecting her.
Protecting her? I echoed.
How could that be? She shouldnt be near them, they are
perilous. I reminisced back to the last time my family inhabited
Forks, many years ago, before Alice and Jasper had found us.
There were werewolves here then. I remembered them as
angry and unstable creatures. It was only because of my
fathers peaceful and diplomatic nature that we could
establish a truce in the form of the Treaty.
What are the werewolves even doing back, Carlisle? Rosalie
asked.
Im not sure. He replied.
Well, I certainly dont want them around Bella. What if one
phased around her? It would kill her, or at the very least
severely injure her.
Maybe they arent bad. They have been protecting her after
all. Esme suggested, showing her ever compassionate nature.
I scoffed. There was no such thing as a good werewolf.
It might be Bella that you need to keep away from the wolves.
Alice mumbled in her thoughts.
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Why? I asked. Surely Bella knew the danger no, I dismissed

that thought. Bella did not fully understand the hazards in her
life.
She seems quite attached to them.
You are hiding something else from me. I addressed my
sister again.
She did not reply.
Alice? I said, getting irritated.
Just tell him, Alice. Jasper said, nodding at her in
encouragement.
Her best friend is a werewolf. Jacob Black.
Woo, seriously? Emmett chuckled. Typical Bella. Vampire
boyfriend and a wolf for her best friend.
Rosalie nudged him in the ribs to make him shut up.
There is something else you should know, Edward. Alice said
with concern and annoyance in her tone. I cant see the
werewolves. Thats why I thought that Bella was dead.
Jacob pulled her out of the water after she jumped off that cliff.
He saved her. But I didnt see that because whenever the
werewolves are around everything goes black.
I was speechless for a moment.
I was unsure what to say or how to react.
Except I knew I needed to be with Bella. I felt cold without her,
lost somehow. I missed her and was anxious to be where I
belonged by her side.
Are we staying? Rosalie asked in her head.
I dont know. I replied. It depends on what Bella decides
after I explain to her why we left. I am going to tell her the
truth. Alice can fill you in on the events from Volterra. I am
going back to Bella now.
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Edward Carlisle started.

Let him go. Esme interjected. I shot her a grateful smile and
swiftly exited the house in the direction of my love.
Chapter 21
Imagination
I was staring out of the window I had climbed in many hours
ago. As I gazed into the darkness I saw the familiar thick
clouds that constantly overshadowed Forks.
Obstructing my view of the night sky.
Althoughthere were a few clear spaces allowing me to see
the stars lighting up the heavens.
The stars that were present because of the remarkable being
sleeping soundly in her bed behind me.
My Bella.
But even the stars held no beauty compared to her.
Before I had met Bella I had never admired the sky as I did
now. I could only remember it being dim and uninteresting.
Bella brought the light, which now shone right through me.
I could hear Charlie snoring reassuringly in the next room. He
hadnt been asleep long, and had come to check on Bella
several times since her return. Each time I found myself having
to duck quickly out of the window to prevent him from seeing
me. His fury seemed to have abated now that his daughter was
home safe and he believed I had gone. His ferocious mood
would no doubt return if he knew of my actual whereabouts
and that I had no intention of leaving.
I longed to bring back the nights where I held my Bella close.
Watching her sleep.
Listening to the gentle beating of her heart.
Hearing her sweet voice mumble.
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Smelling her delicious scent.

Now that Charlie was asleep, I could be close to Bella. I needed
to feel her in my arms; I knew I didnt have permission to
embrace her, but my need to do so was overwhelmingly
desperate. The feeling it brought me was indescribable. It was
an irresistible delightful warmth that flowed through my frozen
form, clasping around my lifeless heart making it shiver with
pleasure, almost as if it was beating.
I lay down on the bed to face her and wrapped my arms gently
around her. In that moment I was unashamedly joyful, even
though I was aware of all the terrible things I had done. I could
feel the guilt feasting on me but it was overpowered because
of the presence of my Bella.
She wasnt a memory.
This wasnt my imagination.
Bella was real.
Bella had been sleeping for a considerable time, and I began to
speculate what she was dreaming about.
My question was answered in the form of several incidents of
distressed sleep talking from Bella.
Nightmares.
She never actually spoke my name, but I was certain that her
comments were directed at me meaning I was present in her
frightening dreams.
Dont go.
Its too late.
She had previously screamed aloud, which made me extremely
apprehensive but I had no time to act upon it as Charlie had
come running in on full alert. I longed to comfort my Bella, and
soothe away the bad dreams that I caused.
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Being here beside her, I tried to pretend that the last six
months hadnt occurred and enjoy the moment while it lasted;
but I could not block out the horrific memories.
The pain.
The suffering.
I feared that she would soon awake and instruct me to leave.
I would only depart if she wished me to.
Perhaps I had wounded her so deeply that she could never
even consider forgiving me.
I didnt deserve exoneration but I was egoistic and going to
request it.
I would contentedly get down on my knees and issue a
heartfelt entreaty.
Plead for her to absolve my sins.
Beg for her to return my love.
I was more convinced than before that Bella had moved on
away from me. I could feel her slipping further from me; more
and more with each passing minute. All because of the pain I
caused and the danger I brought into her life.
Bella had not reciprocated any of my adoration since our
reconciliation, although, she had allowed me to touch her, kiss
her, embrace her she hadnt pushed me away.
She had held on to me in return, but no doubt out of fear; she
was distant there was no love there.
She had moved on, like I had intended her to do.
I had truly lost her.
The one and only thing I desperately loved, and wanted more
than anything I had lost.
My body constricted with sorrow and my eyes started to itch
as the urge to cry overwhelmed me.
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This was the end of life.

I was bonded to Bella in ways I couldnt even begin to explain.
I belonged with her.
I was created for her.
The only way I could live go on existing, was if I was with my
Bella.
Bellas new acquaintances were certainly a complicating factor.
If she could actually consider werewolves as friends. She
couldnt really know them or the fierce unpredictability of their
nature.
I wondered how the werewolves had returned. My family had
believed their breed had become extinct among the Quileutes
when we relocated back to Forks several years ago.
Why were they back now?
And more importantly why did they have to invade Bellas
life?
I supposed I should be somewhat appreciative for their
protective watch over my Bella, but it didnt diminish the
frustration their presence thrust upon me.
I guessed that this was a distinct tribe of werewolves, as Jacob
Black was not alive the last time my family encountered the
wolves here in Washington State. The information that Jacob
Black was a werewolf was a new development which only gave
me more reason to dislike the boy. I already held a grudge
against him he had informed Bella that my family were
vampires, technically breaking his own tribes Treaty. He had
also played a significant part in my decision to journey to Italy,
and now to emphasize his presence further, he was Bellas best
friend.
At least I had a chance of protecting Bella from the
werewolves.
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However, the wolves were not the only danger looming

menacingly over Bellas life.
The Volturi.
One day in the near future they would come with the sole
purpose of confirming Bellas immortality. If they found her
human, they would obliterate her without hesitation or
explanation.
Could I accomplish the task Alice had promised to carry out?
As I stared at the face of my beloved, I could not imagine
taking away the soft rose blush of her cheeks, her beautiful
mahogany eyes, her beating heart, her life and the most
precious thing of all her soul.
I couldnt do it.
How could this be avoided?
Bellas horror-struck reaction to the vampires in Volterra
proved that she did not want this. I would attempt to keep her
safe if she allowed me to.
Vampirism or death?
Was there another option?
I was certain that the Volturi wouldnt come for at least a few
years. As their existence was potentially endless, they valued
years in the same way as humans valued days and weeks. But
they eventually would come, no doubt with Caius dictating the
timing of the journey intent on capture or obliteration. With
Demetri by his side, able to track us effortlessly, we would be
effectively helpless. I desperately wanted to discover another
option to ensure Bellas life was maintained as soon as Aro had
offered us the alternative to death. This was the reason why I
so hesitant to let him access my thoughts. If he knew that I
planned to search for a way to break the promise, he would
have had Bella killed then and there, causing anarchy. Alice
had provided me with a get out clausefor now at least.
How could I prolong Bellas human life?
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If Demetri didnt exist it would be possible.

When he was sent to locate me in Volterra whilst I was waiting
for the decision, he had found me instantly. His vampire talent
of tracking was an inborn ability something I had desired in
my quest of tracking Victoria. I swallowed back a growl at the
thought of that evil woman stalking my Bella, hell bent on
delivering vengeance. She had been near Forks the whole
time.
At that moment, I had a startling revelation. My mind raced
with the plan that was beginning to form.
Bellas mind was inaccessible.
Not only to me, but to Aro and Jane additionally.
Therefore, surely Demetri would not be able to track Bella; his
ability would not be able to access her mind in order to locate
her.
He would have to track myself or one of my family members to
discover her location.
The more I thought about it, the more logical it seemed.
My hopes rose somewhat.
There was a possibility that Bella could be protected.
All my previous thoughts vanished when Bella breathed in
deeply as she started to gain consciousness.
I gently placed my hand on her forehead, hoping she would not
be overcome with shock as she realised that she was not alone
in her room.
She did not react to my cold touch, but when she opened her
eyes and caught sight of me, she gasped.
Oh. She said before covering her face with her hands.
Did I frighten you? I asked warily.
When she didnt respond, I became anxious; I didnt want her
to be scared.
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Did she not want me to be here?

She blinked several times as if she was trying to understand
the situation more clearly. The silence was irritating, and only
increased my anxiety.
If only I could read her mind.
I watched her intently, attempting to guess her thoughts.
Was she thinking of a way to get me to leave?
Was she reminiscing about her most recent near-death
experience?
An aggravated expression of comprehension crossed her face.
Oh, crap. Bella suddenly said in a dry voice, tinged with
sleepiness.
Whats wrong, Bella?
She scowled with frustration, which amplified my concern.
Im dead, right? I did drown. Crap, crap, crap! This is going to
kill Charlie.
She thought she was dead?
Why?
Was it because I was here did she think she was in hell?
Youre not dead. I informed her, unable to stop the
unhappiness showing on my face in the form of a frown.
Then why am I not waking up?
You are awake, Bella.
She shook her head at me.
Sure, sure. Thats what you want me to think. And then it will
be worse when I do wake up. If I wake up, which I wont,
because Im dead. This is awful. Poor Charlie. And Renee and
Jake
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Jealously washed over me as she spoke the last name.

She was worried about the werewolf.
Alice had been right.
With effort I forced a counterfeit smile on my face.
I can see how you might confuse me with a nightmare. But I
cant imagine what you could have done to wind up in hell. Did
you commit many murders while I was away? I said trying to
lighten the overwrought atmosphere.
Obviously not. If I was in hell, you wouldnt be with me.
I wasnt sure whether she grimaced at my comment or the fact
I was here with her. I sighed at her ambiguous remark.
I was confused as the conversation turned inextricably cryptic.
I wanted to be forthright and ask Bella what she wanted just
so she could put me out of my misery, and shatter my hopes.
Did she want me to leave?
Did she want me to stay?
But I couldnt bring myself to ask her; I was afraid of what her
answer might be.
It was silent again, whilst Bella collected her thoughts.
How could she believe she was dead?
If she had in fact drowned, then the subsequent turn of events
would have been significantly different I would no longer
exist.
An ending similar to Romeo and Juliet.
Did Bella not realise that I could not live without her?
A warm flush of red appeared on her cheeks as her face lit up
in a moment of clarity. I loved to see the blood rush beneath
her skin. The thought of blood made my throat burn slightly. I
hadnt hunted for some considerable time, but the fire was not
strong enough to bother me at that moment.
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Did all of that really happen, then? Bella asked.

I longed to tell her that it had all been a dream; a horrible
nightmare. That the past six months hadnt actually occurred,
let alone the past three days.
I had to be honest; she had a right to know after all. Her life
was at stake.
That depends. If youre referring to us nearly being
massacred in Italy, then, yes.
How strange. I really went to Italy. Did you know Id never
been farther east than Albuquerque? she said seemingly
talking mostly to herself.
I rolled my eyes.
She wasnt terrified by the memory her of her ordeal.
Possibly, because she wasnt fully awake and therefore not
completely aware of the danger the Volturi posed.
Maybe you should go back to sleep. Youre not coherent. I
suggested. She still looked tired.
Im not tired anymore. What time is it? How long have I been
sleeping?
Its just after one in the morning. So, about fourteen hours.
Charlie?
Sleeping. I frowned, as I remembered that I was defying his
order to never return to this house. Theoretically, I was
trespassing. You should probably know that Im breaking all
the rules right now. Well, not technically, since he said I was
never to walk through his door again, and I came in the
windowBut, still, the intent was clear.
Charlie banned you from the house? Bella asked in disbelief,
appearing irritated by this information.
Did you expect anything else?
I presumed not, when she did not reply to my question.
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Whats the story? She asked instead.

What do you mean?
What am I telling Charlie? Whats my excuse for disappearing
forhow long was I gone for, anyway?
Just three days. Actually, I was hoping you might have a good
explanation. Ive got nothing. I answered. Honestly I hadnt
even thought about that. My thoughts had been preoccupied
with thoughts of her.
Fabulous. She grunted.
Well, maybe Alice will come up with something. I suggested.
So, what have you been doing, up until three days ago?
Her question made me wary. I did not want to tell her how
pathetic I had been over the long months of our separation, or
explain how much pain I had suffered being away from her
the pain I was still feeling.
Nothing terribly exciting.
Of course not. She pulled a face in what I could only guess
was disappointment.
Why are you making that face?
She puckered her lips, speculating.
WellIf you are, after all, just a dream, thats exactly the kind
of thing you would say. My imagination must be all used up.
She didnt believe she was aliveor awake.
If I tell you, will you finally believe that youre not having a
nightmare? I sighed.
Nightmare! She scoffed scornfully, before continuing.
Maybe. If you tell me.
I hesitated. There was nothing that I could tell her without
making myself appear somewhat deranged, except
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I washunting. I replied regretfully. It had been the only

activity that I participated in that wasnt searching the
heavens for those precious but elusive specks of light.
Is that the best you can do? That definitely doesnt prove Im
awake.
I paused, not wanting to mention Victoria, so I chose my words
carefully before I spoke them.
I wasnt hunting for foodI was actually trying my hand at
tracking. Im not very good at it.
What were you tracking?
Bella had obviously recovered her powers of observation, and
the predominantly inquisitive side of her nature became
evident once more. What would she think if I told her who I
was tracking?
Nothing of consequence. I replied, trying to withhold my
anger at the reminder of my failed attempt.
I dont understand.
Just thinking about the red-headed vampire was causing rage
to build up inside me, increasing my tension. I didnt want to
have to admit to Bella that I couldnt even protect her.
Now was the time to explain, to apologise.
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I I hesitated, taking in a deep breath, forcing air into my

body in an attempt to calm me slightly. Bellas scent flowed
through me giving me the courage to continue. Suddenly, the
words were swiftly spilling out of my mouth. I was racing to
get to my main point to express my love to her. I owe you an
apology. No, of course I owe you much, much more than that.
But you have to know that I had no idea. I didnt realise the
mess I was leaving behind. I thought it was safe for you here.
So safe. I had no idea that Victoria I growled out her name
- would come back. Ill admit, when I saw her that one time, I
was paying much more attention to Jamess thoughts. But I
just didnt see she had this kind of response in her, that she
even had such a tie to him. I think I realize why now she was
so sure of him, the thought of him failing had never occurred
to her. It was her overconfidence that clouded her feelings
about him that kept me from seeing the depth of them, the
bond that was there. Not that theres any excuse for what I left
you here to face. When I heard what you told Alice - what she
saw herself when I realized that you put yourself in the hands
of werewolves, immature, volatile, the worst thing out there
besides Victoria herself. I slowed down slightly, requiring a
quick intake of breath. As I said these words out loud to Bella,
the guilt inside me became stronger, more distinct, a truly
terrible feeling slowly creeping and taking over my body.
Please know that I had no idea of any of this. I feel sick, sick
to my core, even now, when I can see and feel you safe in my
arms. I am the most miserable excuse for
Stop. Bella ordered.
I stared at her unblinking, full of anguish, waiting for her to
erupt with fury.
Her face was expressionless, making it hard for me to
understand the body language which to I was normally so
attuned, since I didnt have the easy option of being able to
read her mind. I could however sense that Bella wanted to end
this conversation, divert it into another direction. Had I been
mistaken? Did she not want answers from me?
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Edward. Bella paused, her eyes exhibited nervous

determination. The apprehension kept building deep within my
chest, as I held my breath until she started speaking again.
This has to stop now
My heart plummeted.
Hope was lost.
She was going to tell me that she didnt want me.
I had broken my promise.
I had deceived her.
My actions had torn us both asunder.
Was I stupid enough to believe that she would forgive me over
time?
I had hurt her far more than I thought possible; created
wounds that had left behind permanent and painful scars.
I just hoped she knew that in spite of everything this world had
put us through, everything I had put her through that I loved
her.
And that the love would continuously intensify with each
passing day.
This was the end, what I deserved.
A shattered un-beating heart.
I could feel the words coming as I could feel the pain of
rejection scorching through my insides.
- you cant think about things that way. You cant let this
guiltrule your life. You cant take responsibility for the things
that happen to me here. None of it is your fault; its just part
of how life is for me.
She didnt want me to protect her either she knew I was a
failure.
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So, if I trip in front of a bus or whatever it is next time, you

have to realize that its not your job to take the blame. You
cant just go running off to Italy because you feel bad that you
didnt save me. Even if I had jumped off that cliff to die, that
would have been my choice, and not your fault. I know its
youryour nature to shoulder the blame for everything, but
you really cant let that make you go to such extremes! Its
very irresponsible think of Esme and Carlisle and Bella
paused to take a deep breath. She looked like she was going to
explode, whilst I could not move out of bewilderment and
relief.
Bella thought I wanted to die because I was unable to rescue
her?
Because I felt guilty?
I knew I was blameworthy, the remorse was devouring me, but
that wasnt the reason why I had longed for death.
Isabella Marie Swan. Do you believe that I asked the Volturi to
kill me because I felt guilty? I whispered, asking for
confirmation of what I understood from her speech.
Didnt you?
Feel guilty? Intensely so. More than you can comprehend.
Thenwhat are you saying? I dont understand.
She was apparently deluded, not realising how much I cared
for her, how much I loved her. True, it was my own fault that
Bella didnt believe it. I had to make her aware of that fact.
Bella, I went to the Volturi because I thought you were dead.
Even if Id had no hand in your death I shuddered at the
thought. The pain it had caused me to believe that she was
dead was apocalyptic. Even if it wasnt my fault, I would have
gone to Italy. Obviously, I should have been more careful I
should have spoken to Alice directly, rather than accepting it
second-hand from Rosalie. But, really, what was I supposed to
think when the boy said Charlie was at the funeral? What are
the odds?
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If only the boy Jacob hadnt answered, if he hadnt been

present in Bellas life, she would have answered the phone. I
would have heard her sweet voice that would have undeniably
tempted me into coming back.
I could have returned to my Bella.
The oddsThe odds are always stacked against us. Mistake
after mistake, Ill never criticize Romeo again. I added.
But I still dont understand. Thats my whole point. So what?
Excuse me? I asked unsure as to what she was referring to.
What did she mean?
So what if I was dead? Bella replied.
I stared at her incredulous at what she was asking me.
Dont you remember anything I told you before?
I remember everything you told me. She breathed.
I lightly touched her lower lip with my finger, feeling the
smoothness of her skin, and trying to remember how her lips
felt against mine.
I closed my eyes as I spoke, and wondered how much clearer I
could make things.
Bella, you seem to be under a misapprehension. I thought Id
explained it clearly before. Bella, I cant live in a world where
you dont exist.
I am confused
Im a good liar, Bella, I have to be.
Bellas body tensed rigidly with shock at my comment. I shook
her gently, attempting to soothe her strain.
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Let me finish. I urged. Im a good liar, but still, for you to

believe me so quickly. That was excruciating. I winced as I
remembered Bellas shattered expression on the day of my
departure; it had been indestructibly etched into my mind ever
since. I continued speaking in a whisper. When we were in the
forest, when I was telling you goodbye you werent letting
go.
I could see that. I didnt want to do it it felt like it would kill
me to do it but I knew that if I couldnt convince you that I
didnt love you anymore, it would just take you that much
longer to get on with your life. I hoped that, if you thought Id
moved on, so would you.
A clean break. Bella whispered, barely moving her lips, as
she continued to stare at me, confounded by what I was
saying. I really had diminished all trust she once had in me.
Exactly. But I never imagined it would be so easy to do! I
thought it would be next to impossible that you would be so
sure of the truth that I would have to lie through my teeth for
hours to even plant a seed of doubt in your head. I lied, and
Im so sorry sorry because I hurt you, sorry because it was a
worthless effort. Sorry that I couldnt protect you from what I
am. I lied to save you, and it didnt work. Im sorry. But how
could you believe me? After the thousands of times Ive told
you I love you, how could you let one word break your faith in
me?
I paused allowing Bella time to respond.
Whether she was angry or just astonished, I couldnt tell.
My heart was pouring out every emotion Bella had brought to
my existence, and bluntly exposing the depth of my love for
her. Each sentiment I felt for her, I expressed in speech, hoping
she would finally understand. From the very first moment I
realised that I was insanely in love with herI had never felt so
much emotion in all my 108 years. And if I had to do it all over
again, I would, just to see her face.
When Bella didnt reply, I continued.
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I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly believed that I

didnt want you anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept
as if there were any way that I could exist without you!
Bella remained still and unresponsive. My anxiety grew, as did
my aggravation at not knowing what she was thinking. I sighed
in frustration.
Was she listening to me?
Did she now comprehend how much she meant to me?
Bella? Really, what were you thinking! She trembled slightly
as tears started to flow down her cheeks.
Sadness began to well up in my body; I watched helplessly as
each drop slid smoothly down her face. I felt like sobbing with
her.
I knew it. I knew I was dreaming. Bella cried.
I let out a humourless laugh.
Youre impossible. How can I put this so you will believe me?
Youre not asleep, and youre not dead. Im here and I love
you. I have always loved you, and I will always love you. I was
thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every second I
was away. When I told you that I didnt want you, it was the
very blackest kind of blasphemy. Bella shook her head,
unbelieving as the tears continued to spill from her eyes. You
dont believe me, do you? Why can you believe the lie, but not
the truth? It never made sense for you to love me. I always
knew that. She sniffled. I had to prove my love to her. I would
show her that she was awake. I would prove to her that I loved
her. Pleasure flowed through me as I prepared to demonstrate
a gesture of my adoration to my Bella.
Ill prove youre awake. I said as I took her face in my hands.
Chapter 22
Reassurance
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As I inched my face closer to Bellas, her heartbeat began to

quicken. The sound was familiar and amazingly comforting. I
could also feel her body squirming slightly in my embrace as I
got nearer, which I assumed was out of excitement.
Please dont. She whispered.
Why not? I demanded.
Were her movements actually struggles to free herself from
my grasp?
Was it too late for us to be intimate again?
When I wake up
I opened my mouth to dispute, but noticing the initiation of my
protest she swiftly interjected before I could speak.
- Okay, forget that one when you leave again, its going to
be hard enough without this, too. I pulled back to gaze at her
beautiful face, into her stunning eyes trying to see how much
I had damaged her soul.
I had been gazing at Bella the majority of the time she had
slept, but her appearance never failed to shock me. The
changes in her were physical were as well as emotional. Her
body was frail with distress, exhibiting weight loss and fatigue
all due to my abandonment.
I had explained how I felt she now knew of my deceit and
betrayal, of the terrible blasphemy and the disrespect Id
shown the love that existed between us. She knew it was all a
lie, however she seemed unfazed. Did she not believe what I
had told her?
I had been self-centred once more I hadnt yet considered
Bellas feelings!
How did she feel?
Did she want me?
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All these questions ricocheted around my head.

Now was undoubtedly the time for answers.
At first I could not find the words I necessary to express my
desperate need for her love, to see if there was even a
shimmer of hope.
The fear of her rejection held me back.
How could I ever survive if she abandoned me like I had
abandoned her?
Yesterday, when I touched you, you were so hesitant, so
careful, and yet still the same. I need to know why. Is it
because Im too late; because Ive hurt you too much? Because
you have moved on, as I meant for you to? That would be
Heart shattering, my mind wept silently, at the thought. I could
not find the right words to say without making her feel
pressurised or without being dishonest, consequently I settled
for what was reasonable. quite fair. I wont contest your
decision. So dont try and spare my feelings, please just tell
me now whether or not you can still love me, after everything
Ive done to you.
My speech had gradually decreased in volume, and with the
remaining bit of air I had left in my lungs I whispered the last
two critical words
Can you?
What kind of idiotic question is that?
Just answer it Please. I practically begged.
Bella stared at me for what felt like an eternity.
My insides cringed, waiting for the words of rejection to hit
me.
All the while I was holding my breath and mentally hoping,
longing, praying that her answer would be positive and fulfil
my desires.
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The way I feel about you will never change. Of course I love
you and theres nothing you can do about it! Bella said.
Her words.the words I had been yearning to hear sparked an
unbreakable force field within me. Her declaration had
restored all hope into my life. Suddenly, I needed her more
than ever.
I needed her touch.
I had to feel her against me.
I craved to caress her lips with mine.
Thats all I needed to hear. I said, as I thrust my lips onto
hers.
The kiss was intense, urgent and edged with the immense
fervour that was pulsating through my body.
It reminded me of the last time I had kissed Bella on her ill
fated 18th birthday.
It was forceful, untamed and acutely passionate.
However, this time, the urgency wasnt because of the
overpowering obsessive protectiveness I had felt then.
Now it was due to an accumulation of pure lust and longing.
I pushed my body up against hers as she ran her hands over
my face delicately touching my granite features.
My body throbbed, aroused with intoxicating pleasure.
Bella enticed me with the movement of her soft lips, making
me crave more and more. Her exhilarating scent only increased
the pleasure - driving me wild.
I felt myself cross my own boundaries as all the painful,
suffering and joyful emotions flooded out of me through my
lips.
I gently touched her face with my fingertips, feeling the
smoothness of her skin.
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She tasted irresistibly delicious.

I traced the outline of her mouth with the tip of my tongue,
before she parted her lips and her tongue met mine. A thrill of
ecstasy ran though my veins igniting my whole body and
setting my world on fire.
My threshold was breached, I knew I should stop; but I didnt.
I refused to allow our lips to part.
Never wanting to lose the feeling.
Never wanting to leave Bellas side.
Sensing that Bella required air, I pulled away slightly.
Only a minuscule amount so my lips were still lingering on
Bellas. We were both breathless. But that didnt prevent me
from continuing the kiss.
Bella. I breathed her name, before I pushed my lips against
her once more and our exquisite embrace intensified as our
passion increased.
Just a few more seconds I told myself.
I could feel myself starting to lose control as I held Bella
tighter to me, and moved my lips with more force. With all the
effort and strength that I possessed, I managed to break apart
our kiss, leaving us both gasping for air.
The only thing that was strong enough to overpower my
longing to continue our intimate embrace was my desire for
Bellas safety.
I never wanted to cause her pain again.
My insides were still pulsating rapidly as was Bellas
heartbeat.
I was able to speak once I managed to control my irregular
breathing, and calm myself slightly.
By the way, Im not leaving you.
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Bella didnt respond, her breathing still ragged from our kiss,
composure came more quickly to me than her.
However, she did not seem convinced by my statement.
Im not going anywhere. Not without you. I only left in the
first place because I wanted you to have a chance at a normal,
happy, human life. I could see what I was doing to you
keeping you constantly on the edge of danger, taking you away
from the world you belonged in, risking your life every moment
I was with you. So I had to try. I had to do something, and it
seemed like leaving was the only way. If I hadnt thought you
were better off, I could have never made myself leave. Im
much too selfish. Only you could be more important than what
I wantedwhat I needed. What I want and need is to be with
you, and I know Ill never be strong enough to leave again. I
have too many excuses to stay thank heaven for that! It
seems you cant be safe, no matter how many miles I put
between us.
Dont promise me anything. Bella pleaded in a whisper.
You think Im lying now?
I was infuriated with myself.
Enraged because I had destroyed every last ounce of trust
Bella once had in me.
All with one scandalous lie.
One wicked lie had annihilated all of her hope and faith.
One dreadful lie had caused so much pain, that it forced Bella
to question my intentions and every word that I had ever
spoken.
One nefarious lie that had the power to destroy her spirit and
tear us both apart; permanently.
Bella had brought the light and joy back into my life, just with
her presence, and she had sustained that bliss by loving me. I
realised that the wounds I had created within Bella could not
be healed as straightforwardly.
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Bella shook her head. No not lying. You could mean itnow.
But what about tomorrow, when you remember all the reasons
why you left in the first place? Or next month, when Jasper
takes another snap at me?
I flinched at the memory that involuntarily replayed in my
head. I had witnessed it countless times since the incident had
occurred, but it still never failed to horrify me.
It isnt as if you thought the first decision through, is it?
Youll end up doing what you think is right.
Bella had guaranteed that I would remain in Forks, by the
admission of her love. I knew that I did not have the strength
to leave again, even if Bella did not return my love. I couldnt
bring myself to think of the consequences, if she had discarded
me it would surely be futile for me to continue to exist.
Now I knew that Bella still loved me, the thought of leaving
was agonising and unbearable. As I had previously thought, I
would forever remain by her side; forever pleading for
forgiveness and trust, if thats what it took.
It was strangely ironic how it seemed that both mine and
Bellas judgement were clouded by each other making us
both unwilling to believe.
Nevertheless, I was deeply hurt that Bella did not have any
faith in what I was saying. It wasnt as hurtful as her believing
my lie in the forest, but now I was telling the absolute truth.
Im not as strong as you give me credit for. Right and wrong
have ceased to mean much to me; I was coming back anyway.
Before Rosalie told me the news, I was already past trying to
live through one week at a time, or even one day. I was
fighting to make it through a single hour. It was only a matter
of time and not much of it before I showed up and your
window and begged you to take me back. Id be happy to beg
now, if youd like that.
Be serious, please. Bella frowned.
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I could understand her hesitation and her reluctance to

believe, but all the same it was exasperating.
I wanted Bella to comprehend exactly how I felt about her.
How extraordinarily important she was.
Why I craved her so much.
Why I needed her.
Oh, I am, will you please try and hear what I am telling you?
Will you let me attempt to explain what you mean to me? I
stared at Bella intently for several long moments. When she
did not respond, I took it as a sign she was listening, so I
continued. Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless
night. Very dark, but there were stars points of lights and
reasonAnd then you shot across my sky like a meteor.
Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliance, there
was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen
over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed,
but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldnt even see the
stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.
I think I used a good analogy to try and describe the darkest
nights Id experienced, in our separation.
Your eyes will adjust. Bella mumbled.
Thats the problem they cant.
They wouldnt I had searched long and hard enough, willing
the stars to reappear.
The stars and moon, the light and reason were only present
in my life whenever Bella was. Without any of them my
existence was dark and worthless.
What about your distractions? Bella asked.
I chucked without humour as if anything could have diverted
my attention from Bella.
If only they could have.
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She was in my every thought.

Everything revolved around Bella.
Just part of the lie, love. There was no distraction from the
agony. My heart hasnt beat in almost ninety years, but this
was different. It was like my heart was gone like I was hollow;
like Id left everything that was inside me here with you. I
replied.
Thats funny.
Funny? I questioned, slightly confused.
How was it amusing?
How could she find me expressing my deepest feelings
remotely humorous? I thought to myself with a twinge of hurt.
I meant strange I thought it was just me. Lots of pieces of
me went missing too. I havent been able to really breathe in
so long. She paused to inhale deeply.
I remembered the feeling of not being able to breathe.
But I hadnt actually wanted to exhale, too scared to lose my
only connection to Bella her scent.
Too afraid to inhale air that was fresh, unfamiliar and desolate.
And my heart. That was definitely lost. Bella continued.
The waves of guilt kept breaking over me as I closed my eyes
and laid my head lightly on her chest to hear the sound of her
thumping heart more clearly.
It was thereand beating harmoniously.
Maybe now Bella believed me.
Perhaps not.
But Bella loved me.
And I loved her.
She was truly my Bella again.
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I was overjoyed by this and would do anything to preserve our

love.
I had to protect her.
Protect the love we shared.
Protect it from the impending dangers.
And that meant eradicating certain problems.
Victoria was the main priority.
Now I knew her target, her potential whereabouts I would
find her.
And this time I would not fail.
Bella rested her cheek on the top of my head.
Tracking wasnt a distraction then?
No. That was never a distraction. It was an obligation.
What does that mean? bella said.
I faltered, questioning whether to tell Bella the whole truth
about my tracking operation therefore confessing another act
of deception. When I departed Forks, I had promised her that I
wouldnt interfere with her life again. Although Bella wasnt
involved or even present in the activity, the root cause was to
eliminate the callous creature that had threatened Bellas life.
I decided that I was going to be honest with Bella she needed
to know the truth, even though I was embarrassed by my
failure.
It means that, even though I never expected any danger from
Victoria, I wasnt going to let her get away with itWell, like I
said, I was horrible at it. I traced her as far as Texas, but then I
followed a false trail down to Brazil and really she came here.
I wasnt even on the right continent. And all the while, worse
than my worst fears
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You were hunting, Victoria? Bella screeched interrupting me.

The volume of her voice made Charlie stir in his sleep in the
next room. Fortunately, it did not wake him.
Not well. I admitted regretfully. But Ill do better this time.
She wont be tainting perfectly good air by breathing in and
out for much longer.
That is out of the question. Bella said sternly.
I did not understand her anger,
It was obvious that Victoria could not be allowed to continue
existing.
The thought of what she could, or rather what she would do if
she got the chance, sent a chilling feeling of disgust up my
spine.
Its too late for her. I might have let the other time slide, but
now, not after
Didnt you just promise that you werent going to leave?
Bella interrupted. That isnt exactly compatible with an
extended tracking expedition, is it? She asked. I detected the
wariness in her tone.
I will keep my promise, Bella. But Victoria is going to die.
Soon. I snarled out her name with pure revulsion. My anger
rose, building up to a growl at the back of my throat, as I
thought of the red headed vampire roaming around with the
sole intent of assassinating my Bella.
Lets not be hasty. Maybe shes not coming back. Jakes pack
probably scared her off. Theres really no reason to go looking
for her. Besides, Ive got bigger problems than Victoria.
I admired Bella attempt at reassurance, but could see the fear
beneath her faade, however I was pleasantly surprised that
Bella had identified that the werewolves were dangerous.
Perhaps it wouldnt be too difficult to eliminate their presence
in Bellas life, after all.
Thats true. The werewolves are a problem.
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Bella snorted. I wasnt talking about Jacob. My problems are a

lot worse than a handful of adolescent wolves getting
themselves into trouble.
Obviously, my previous thought had been wrong. I was about
to disagree with her, and argue that the wolves were in fact a
major problem, but I thought better of it. I didnt want to upset
Bella by speaking unkindly about her vile newfound friends.
Really? Then what would make Victorias returning for you
seem like such an inconsequential matter in comparison?
How about the second greatest?
All right. I agreed slightly apprehensive as to what other
dangers loomed that I had not yet been informed of.
There are others who are coming to look for me. Bella
whispered.
I sighed in a wave of slight relief, and recognition.
The relief was because there werent any additional dangers,
and the recognition of the principal hazard; the one that
wouldnt pose as a significant threat for a few years at least.
The Volturi are only the second greatest? I asked, wondering
what could possibly be so bad as to constitute her first.
You dont seem very upset about it.
Well, we have plenty of time to think it through. Time means
something different to them than it does to you, or even me.
They count years the way you count days. I wouldnt be
surprised if you were thirty before you crossed their minds
again.
Bella turned pale as the colour drained from her face leaving
behind a horrified expression. Her eyes, once again began a
build up with moisture before the tears of fear began to spill
down her cheeks.
You dont have to be afraid. I wont let them hurt you. I
reassured her.
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While youre here. She sobbed.

I wished she could believe me; just trust me enough to know I
would never have the willpower to leave her side again.
I took her face in my hands and gazed unblinking into her tearfilled eyes.
I will never leave you again.
But you said thirty. What? Youre going to stay, but let me get
old anyway? Right.
Thats exactly what Im going to do. What choice do have I? I
cannot be without you, but I will not destroy your soul.
Is this really
Bellas voice broke before she finished speaking.
Yes? I prompted.She hesitated for a moment, and then
began speaking again. But I thought she had altered what she
was previously going to say.
But what about when I get so old that people would think Im
your mother? Your grandmother?
I could see the sadness in her eyes.
It wasnt that I didnt want her to become part of my family.
I wanted that more than anything to be equal creatures, so
we could really be together, like a proper couple.
But I could not destroy her human life.
I refused to change her into the monster she was so desperate
to become.
I would not decimate her soul it was too precious.
The tears were flowing down Bellas cheeks and I leaned in and
kissed each one away.
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That doesnt mean anything to me. You will always be the

most beautiful thing in my world. Of course I paused, trying
to form the words from the painful thought in my mind Bella
growing older, and wanting more from her human life, meeting
another human perhaps and leaving me behind in my frozen
form. I winced at the thought, but if thats what Bella wanted.
It would destroy me to do so, but I would let her go.
If you outgrew me - if you wanted something more I would
understand that, Bella. I promise I wouldnt stand in your way
if you wanted to leave me.
You do realise that Ill die eventually, right?
I did comprehend that we would eventually be parted by her
mortality, and I knew wherever and whenever that happened I
would join her in death; I would be unable to continue existing
without my Bella. My recent trip to Italy proved that.
Ill follow after as soon as I can.
That is seriouslysick. Bella said in an appalled voice.
Bella, its the only right way left I tried to reason, before
she interjected in a clearer voice, edged with anger.
Lets just back up for a minute. You do remember the Volturi,
right? I cant stay human forever. Theyll kill me. Even if they
dont think of me till Im thirty, do you really think theyll
forget?
I shook my head solemnly. No they wont forget. But
But?
I have a few plans. I smiled, thinking back to the revelation I
had whilst Bella was sleeping.
Demetri was the one to avoid, and I may have concocted a plan
to do just that.
And these plans. These plans all centre around me staying
human.
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Bella practically hissed the word human as if she was

sickened by it.
Naturally. I concurred.
Bella glared at me.
Why did she crave to be a monster?
She had me for as long as forever lasted in her human life.
I stared at her, ensuring that my stern expression made her
realise that my decision could not be influenced.
Bella inhaled deeply, and I wondered what her thoughts were.
She suddenly surprised me by sitting up, with a determined
and firm expression on her face.
Do you want me to leave? I asked, trying not to let my hurt
show. I couldnt stand it if she told me to go away.
No, Im leaving.
May I ask where you are going? I said apprehensively, as I
watched her search her room probably for her shoes, as she
was already dressed in the same clothes that she had returned
in from Italy.
Im going to your house.
I grabbed her shoes from the end of her bed, trying not to
seem suspicious as to why she was going to my familys house
in the middle of the night. I had a sneaky feeling that her
unplanned visit was for her to somehow find a way round my
decision to keep her human.
Here are your shoes. How do you plan to get there?
My truck. Bella replied.
That will probably wake Charlie. I informed her, hoping she
would reconsider her trip and stay here in my arms. She could
see my family tomorrow in just a few more hours.
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She sighed. I know. But honestly, Ill be grounded for weeks

as it is. How much more trouble can I really get into?
None. Hell blame me, not you.
If you have a better idea, Im all ears.
Stay here. I urged.
No dice. But you go ahead and make yourself at home. She
said as she started towards her bedroom door. I span around in
one quick movement, and flashed to the door, blocking her
exit.
Bella grimaced at me, and stubbornly turned and headed
towards the window instead.
What on earth was she thinking? She would kill herself!
I sighed in defeat. Okay, I will give you a ride.
Either way. But you should probably be there, too. And why
is that? I questioned.
Because youre extraordinarily opinionated, and Im sure
youll want a chance to air your views.
My views on which subject? I said between gritted teeth, as I
realised my inkling was correct.
This isnt just about you anymore. Youre not the centre of
the universe, you know. If youre going to bring the Volturi
down on us over something as stupid as leaving me human,
then your family ought to have a say. A say in what? I said
slowly, not necessarily wanting to hear the answer. My
mortality. Im putting it to a vote. I gulped, swallowing back a
snarl of complete anguish.
Chapter 23
Request
I wasnt angry at Bella.
I was furious at what she was doing.
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Furious because in my heart I both knew and dreaded the

outcome of my family's vote. My family, with the exception of
Rosalie, already considered Bella as part of the family, and
were willing for her to truly become one of us.
A monster.
However, I did not refuse to take Bella to see my family, as
much as I longed to keep her from going; we had argued
enough since she had woken up. Additionally, Bella would only
go alone if I refused to take her being the stubborn, beautiful
creature she is.
But, whatever occurred, whatever the outcome I was
adamant that Bella would remain human and unchanged.
I pulled Bella into my arms and lightly sprang out of the
window, trying not to jostle her too much.
All right then, up you go. I said in a stern voice; attempting
to withhold my anger as I helped her up onto my back.
When Bella was secure, I sprinted at full speed into the trees.
I could once again enjoy the exhilarating speed, now that Bella
was with memaking me whole.
Rays of light from the moon beamed down, making the leaves
shine silver. The beautiful night engulfed us as we flew
through the peaceful surroundings of the forest, the moonlight
dancing softly among the trees.
The only sounds were the whistle of air swirling around us as I
ran, and the faint patter of nocturnal animals roaming unseen
in the dark undergrowth.
I let all the anger drain from my body and concentrated on
enjoying the blissful moment with Bella.
Bella turned her head and kissed my cheek. The smoothness of
her lips sent warmth pulsating through my body.
Thank you. Does that mean youve decided youre awake? I
asked.
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The sweet sound of her laughter echoed through the night.

Not really. More that, either way, Im not trying to wake up.
Not tonight.
Ill earn your trust back somehow. If its my final act. I
promised myself aloud.
I trust you. Its me I dont trust.
Explain that, please. I said, suddenly feeling compelled to
slow down and prolong the time with Bella in the idyllic
surroundings, taking the opportunity to continue our
discussion and hear her sweet voice. We were nearing my
house, and I wasnt ready to discuss her plans for fatality and
immortality, so I slowed to a walk.
Well, I dont trust myself to beenough. To deserve you.
Theres nothing about me that could hold you. Bella said
softly.
Her statement bought me to an abrupt halt.
She thought I was too good for her?
When would she ever see me clearly?
What would make her realise that I was the fortunate one, who
didnt deserve her?
The one who was deeply and unconditionally in love with her.
The one who was bound to her in indescribable and
unknowable ways.
The one who would never leave her again.
I reached to pull Bella off my back and cradled her in my arms
for a moment, holding her close to my heart, before setting her
on her feet.
Your hold is permanent and unbreakable. Never doubt that. I
whispered with reassurance.
An expression of uncertainty crossed her face, but she did not
respond.
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You never did tell me I wondered aloud, before pausing,

unsure whether I actually wanted to hear the answer to the
question I was going to ask.
What? Bella questioned.
I decided to go ahead and ask nevertheless.
What your greatest problem is.
Ill give you one guess. She signed as she touched the tip of
my nose.
Well, at least she comprehended that I was a danger but I
couldnt help feel a little disheartened, and surprised.
Im worse than the Volturi. I guess Ive earned that.
Bella rolled her eyes at my misunderstanding. The worst the
Volturi can do is kill me. What was more fearful than death?
Bella considered that I was worse than a death sentence? I did
not reply; prompting her for an explanation.
You can leave me. The Volturi, Victoriatheyre nothing
compared to that. My frozen heart constricted in pain as I
remembered the image of a distraught Bella in Charlies mind.
I would always deeply regret leaving. Regret what it had done
to her; what it had done to me too.
Dont. Dont be sad. Bella whispered as she caressed my
face. I attempted to smile, but failed.
If there was only some way to make you see that I cant leave
you. Time, I suppose, will be the only way to convince you.
Bella brightened slightly.
Okay. She agreed.
It was silent for a few moments, while I wondered how I could
erase the heartache I had caused.
So since you are staying. Can I have my stuff back? Bella
asked as we continued to walk.
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I stiffed a chuckle at Bellas feeble attempt to distract my

anguish.
Your things were never gone. I knew it was wrong, since I
promised you peace without reminders. It was stupid and
childish, but I wanted to leave something of myself with you.
The CD, the pictures, the tickets theyre under your
floorboards.
Really?
I nodded in confirmation. I think. Im not sure, but I wonderI
think maybe I knew the whole time. Bella said slowly.
What did you know I wondered.
Some part of me, my subconscious maybe, never stopped
believing that you still cared whether I lived or died. Thats
probably why I was hearing the voices.
I was bewildered.
Bella had been experiencing hallucinations?
What else didnt I know?
Voices? I asked sceptically.
Well, just one voice. Yours. Its a long story. Bella said
warily, as if she wished she hadnt introduced the subject.
Perhaps she thought that I would think she was crazy. I must
admit that the situation did seem farfetched; however with the
tortured ordeal I had encountered in the months I was away I
could not make judgements.
Bella had been hearing my voice subconsciously?
Was this in her nightmares, making it seem realistic?
And more importantly what did these voices say?
Ive got time. I said, encouraging her to elaborate.
Its pretty pathetic.
I waited, without response.
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Bella hesitated, like she was afraid of what to say.

I was afraid of what I would hear.
Do you remember what Alice said about extreme sports?
I could remember Alices exact words in Volterra In summary,
she did jump off a cliff, but she wasnt trying to kill herself.
Bellas all about extreme sports these days. I had been furious
about Bellas recklessness, especially since she had promised
me that she would keep herself safe. I felt a slight twinge of
betrayal at her broken promise, but I was hypocritical to think
that way how many promises had a broken?
Too many! I chastised myself.
You jumped off a cliff for fun? I said, keeping my voice even
without showing any hint of rage beneath.
Er, right. And before that, with the motorcycle
Motorcycle? I echoed. My voice sounded calm, but the rage
increased inside.
I guess I didnt tell Alice about that part.
No. I replied bluntly. Alice should have informed me, or I
should have at least seen it in her mind. Was there anything
else she was keeping from me?
Well, about thatsee, I found thatwhen I was doing
something dangerous or stupidI could remember you more
clearly. I could remember how your voice sounded when you
were angry; I could hear it, like you were standing right next to
me. Mostly I tried not to think about you, but this didnt hurt
so much it was like you were protecting me again. Like you
didnt want me to be hurt. And, well, I wonder if the reason I
could hear you so clearly was because, underneath it all, I
always knew that you hadnt stopped loving me.
I listened to each word intently without interruption, as the
immense rage built up in my chest.
I couldnt believe what Bella was telling me.
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All her recent dangerous endeavours were conducted for the

sole purpose of inducing an auditory hallucination.
I was more culpable than I originally assumed.
I felt like my air circulation had been cut off and I barely
choked out my words.
Youwererisking your lifeto hear
Shh. Hold on a second. I think Im having an epiphany here.
Bella interjected.
For the few minutes Bella was thinking, I waited impatiently,
but silently. All the while my anger began to subside, replaced
quickly by anxiety.
The minutes ticked by slowly whilst my mind raced with
images of Bella partaking in various perilous activities. Each
thought pushed me further towards insanity as the silence
wore on.
What was Bellas epiphany?
I detested not having access into her mind, but I respected her
right to privacy; still my curiosity overwhelmed me.
My main concern was for her safety.
Surely, now that I was back; her life-threatening behaviour
would cease.
I did not believe that my Bella was insane, but my departure
had caused her to sink into a depressive state that was slowly
driving her towards madness.
It was my fault.
I had once again jeopardised her life.
I was concerned about the effect I had on her.
I was worried about the hazardous activities she had been
participating in.
I was anxious about her thoughts.
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I was scared to think about what would have happened to Bella

if I had never come back.
Would her irresponsible behaviour have continued?
Would she slowly have developed an obsession that bordered
on insanity with her need to provoke these worrying
hallucinations?
Would she really have killed herself?
I was thankful that Bella interrupted my thoughts, as I couldnt
bear to be in my own head anymore with all the unanswered
questions.
Oh!
Bella? I asked anxiously.
Oh. Okay. I see.
Youre epiphany? I questioned nervously.
You love me.
The words made my heart swell.
She believed me.
The smile that flashed across my face was both genuine and
effortless.
Truly, I do.
I heard Bella catch her breath.
As I took her face in my hands, I felt her heartbeat increase.
I kissed her lovingly until my head became intoxicated by the
feeling of her soft lips moving against mine. I leant my
forehead against hers, both of us breathing harder than usual.
In comparison to my behaviour, Bellas seemed saintly.
She had attempted to survive she had made the effort, by
living her everyday life.
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Whereas I had just laid in desolation and let the pain engulf
me.
You were better at it than I was, you know. I informed Bella.
Better at what?
Surviving. You, at least made an effort. You got up in the
morning, tried to be normal for Charlie; followed the pattern of
your life. When I wasnt actively tracking, I was...totally
useless. I couldnt be around my family I couldnt be around
anyone. Im embarrassed to admit that I more or less curled up
into a ball and let misery have me. It was much more pathetic
than hearing voices. And, of course, you know I do that too.
Although I felt guilty for abandoning Bella and causing so
much pain, I felt a little comfort in the fact that I was not alone
in my feelings; she hadnt moved on. I thought back to my
months of depressive solitude without my Bella.
I was constantly wondering how she was, if she was okay.
How was she living her life and had she moved on?
She was always in my mind.
Bella had always been with me, just like I was subconsciously
with her.
Perhaps those small parts of our subliminal memories had
enabled us to hold on to survive.
I only heard one voice. Bella reminded me, reclaiming my
attention from my thoughts.
I chuckled as I pulled her against my side; wrapping my arm
around her I lead her forward through the trees to the open
space where my house was situated.
Im just humouring you with this. It doesnt matter in the
slightest what they say. I told Bella as I gestured towards the
house.
This affects them now, too.
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I shrugged apathetically, without replying, in case my voice

showed the increasing anger of my sudden change of mood
now that we had arrived.
Bella would not be changed...ever.
I would not allow it.
I was incensed at the thought of my family going against my
wishes and wanting Bella to become a vampire.
I would do whatever it took to stop whoever tried to change
my Bella...even Alice. I didnt need to read her mind to know
that she would vote in Bellas favour. She had promised in
Italy, but more importantly she wanted Bella to be a part of the
family, as a true sister.
Before the vote could take place, I hoped I could sway some of
my family members decisions by convincing them that, if my
recent theory proved correct we could diminish the threat of
the Volturi with minimal effort.
Demetri would not be able to track Bella, and therefore would
not be able to locate her if I hid her in a remote location when
the Volturi decided to visit. Alices premonitions would be
useful for timing.
As we approached the house, I could hear the thoughts of my
family members from different rooms. Alice was expecting us,
and was filled with excitement, which only increased my
resentment.
I led Bella through the front door and switched the lights on
for the purpose of allowing her to see; lack of light did not
affect vampire sight.
Being here again brought comfort and a sense of homecoming,
and despite my current feelings of anger; I was happy to be
back in the place I thought of as home.
I called my family to come and greet us, although they already
heard us arrive.
Carlisle, Esme? Rosalie, Emmett? Jasper, Alice?
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I saw Carlisle flash to Bellas side, but she didnt flinch at his
swift appearance.
Welcome home, Edward. He greeted me silently.
Welcome back, Bella. Carlisle smiled. What can we do for
you this morning, I imagine, due to the hour, that this is not
purely a social visit?
Bella nodded. I would like to speak to everyone at once, if
thats okay. About something important.
Carlisle looked at me with questions running through his mind,
and when I made no effort to respond he turned his attention
back to Bella.
Of course. Why dont we talk in the other room?
Carlisle led us to the dining room, which was used only for
family discussions. I sensed the rest of my family members
following us.
Carlisle politely held out the chair at the head of the table for
Bella; she took her seat looking slightly nervous as she noticed
the other vampires enter the room. No one spoke while my
family members took their own seats around the table, each
contemplating varied thoughts in their own minds. I occupied
the chair next to Bellas; opposite Carlisle.
The floor is yours. Carlisle nodded to Bella in
encouragement.
I took Bellas hand underneath the table, as a wary expression
appeared on her face. I could feel how anxious she was as I
glanced around the table at my family.
Emmett was silently speculating about our gathering. His
impatient curiosity was shown in his physical expression.
It better be something fun, Im bored. He thought.
Rosalie smiled warmly at both Bella and I. She had a newfound
respect for her after she came to be my saviour in Italy.
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Esme was revelling in her joy at having her entire family

together again, including Bella.
I could feel the tension in Jaspers thoughts. Being in Bellas
presence made him feel extremely nervous; he still felt
immensely guilty about the incident that led to our departure
from Forks. He was trying to keep himself restrained by
replaying the memory in his head. Hurting his brothers love,
and his wifes best friend. The reminder was too painful to
watch; hence I did not linger in his mind.
Leaving had been the wrong decision on my part, and even
though I used Jaspers actions as an excuse to depart, I felt no
animosity towards him for prompting my bad choice.
Alices body twitched slightly. It would have been presumed by
the rest of my family to be excitement, as she wore a huge
grin. However, it was only apparent to me that she was having
a vision. It happened so fast that the others were completely
unaware.
Alices vision caused a stir of anger in the pit of my stomach.
She was standing next to a stunningly beautiful vampire.
An immortal.
I had seen this vision before, but now it was stronger; more
definite
I had the sudden urge to grab Bella and flee.
My attention was then claimed by my love, erasing the vision
from my mind.
Well...Im assuming Alice has already told you everything that
happened in Volterra? Bella asked.
Everything. Alice responded.
And, on the way?
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My insides trembled slightly from the anger. My sister and

Bellas journey had consisted of Alice promising Bella that she
would change her. Therefore, Alice had technically provided
Bella with two death threats. Although, Alices promise had
ensured our survival in Volterra, for which I was grateful as I
got be reunited with my Bella.
That, too. Alice nodded.
Bella sighed. Good. Then were all on the same page.
Bella paused, evidently preparing her speech to cover
everything she wanted to say.
Everyone was silent. I tried with great effort to block out the
minds of my family, to avoid the frustration their thoughts
would bring me. However, strangely enough, they were now all
silent and waiting intently for Bella to continue.
I sat mutely, waiting for an opening in Bellas speech so I could
introduce my contingency plan.
Bella was unaware that I would attempt to thwart her plans.
Alices premonition would change when I informed my family
of my own plan.
Well, I hoped it would.
Bella inhaled deeply and began talking, as I kept my eyes
focused on the table, unblinking.
So, I have a problem. Alice promised the Volturi that I would
become one of you. Theyre going to send someone to check,
and Im sure thats a bad thing something to avoid. And, so
now, this involves all of you. Im sorry about that. She paused
for a minute, and I allowed myself to take a quick glance at
her. She was interacting with her audience, looking at each
occupant at the table, gazing into their eyes just for a split
second before moving on. She finally rested her eyes upon me,
and my breath caught in my throat. She was divine; why would
she want to change that?
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But, if you dont want me, then Im not going to force myself
on you, whether Alice is willing or not.
Esme opened her mouth to tell Bella that she was already a
part of the family, but Bella silenced her by holding up her
finger.
Please, let me finish. You all know what I want. And Im sure
you know what Edward thinks, too. I think the only fair way to
decide is for everyone to have a vote. If you decide you dont
want me, then... I guess Ill go back to Italy alone. I cant have
them coming here.
Frown lines appeared on Bellas forehead as she let that
thought register.
My chest purred with the sound of a building growl.
There was absolutely no way that Bella would ever go to Italy
again, let alone on her own. Her threat was a form of
emotional blackmail to ensure my family would vote in her
favour.
Her obstinacy would succeed.
Taking into account, then, that I wont put any of you in
danger either way, I want you to vote yes or no on the issue of
me becoming a vampire.
I saw the corners of Bellas mouth crease into a small smile as
she spoke the last word.
Vampire.
I was still incredulous at her eagerness to lose her soul to
become a monster.
Maybe Bellas obsession with becoming an immortal was not
just about becoming my equal and being the same as me and
my family. I hadnt thought much about it in the past; I had
generally assumed that Bella wanted to be changed so we
could have the same unending life.
Was she sacrificing her soul entirely for my benefit?
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Or was there more contributing factors?

She was deemed to lose far more than she would gain.
Bella gestured to Carlisle to cast his vote, which was my cue to
intercede; the moment I would attempt to sway any undecided
voters.
Just a minute. I interjected.
I gazed at Bella, who raised her eyebrows scrutinising my
stony face, as she glared at me. I gave her hand a gentle
squeeze and continued.
I have something to add before we vote.
I heard Bella let out a sigh. I didnt need access to her mind to
know that she was irritated by my disruption; my attempt to
eliminate the need to vote and any reason for her to be
changed.
About the danger Bellas referring to. I dont think we need to
be overly anxious. You see, there was more than one reason
why I didnt want to shake Aros hand there at the end. Theres
something they didnt think of, and I didnt want to clue them
in. I looked round the table as I spoke. My anger began to
subside slightly, as the words flowing from my mouth brought
with them a sense of confidence.
Which was? Alice prompted me to carry on. What havent
you told me, Edward? She continued in her head.
I leaned forward, ensuring I had everyones attention, before
continuing with my explanation.
The Volturi are overconfident, and with good reason. When
they decide to find someone, its not really a problem.
I glanced at Bella and asked, Do you remember Demetri?
She trembled, which I presumed was a yes.
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He finds people thats his talent, why they keep him. Now,
the whole time we were with any of them, I was picking their
brains for anything that might save us, getting as much
information as possible. This wasnt strictly true. I was mainly
trying to find any way to escape; to protect my Bella. So I saw
how Demetris talent works. Hes a tracker a tracker a
thousand times more gifted than James was. His ability is
loosely related to what I do, or what Aro does. He catches
the...flavour? I dont know how to describe it...the tenor...of
someones mind, and then he follows that. It works over
immense distances. But after Aros little experiments, well... I
paused, shrugging my shoulders, hoping that they would
determine themselves, what I was suggesting.
You think he wont be able to find me. Bella said plainly.
Im sure of it. He relies totally on that other sense. When it
doesnt work with you, theyll all be blind. I said, feeling
rather self satisfied.
And how does that solve anything?
Quite obviously, Alice will be able to tell when theyre
planning a visit, and Ill hide you. Theyll be helpless. It will be
like looking for a piece of straw in a haystack!
I grinned at Emmett, as he chuckled in his thoughts. This
sounds fun, bro.
But, they can find you. Bella said sternly.
And I can take care of myself. I assured her.
Emmett laughed aloud, and reached across the table with his
fist.
Excellent plan, my brother.
I smacked my own fist against his.
I knew Emmett could be convinced by the idea of a
confrontation.
No. Rosalie hissed. No, no, no way!
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Absolutely not! Bella conceded.

Nice. Jasper contributed, before continuing in his head. It
might just work.
Idiots. Alice murmured, clearly irritated. Testosterone
fuelled, idiots. She silently directed at me, which I ignored.
Edward? My mother called me in her head. I looked at her to
see her glaring at me. That is not a suitable solution. The
Volturi arent likely to give up. We cant live in fear forever,
just as Bella cant hide away for the rest of her human life. I
cant agree to your plan when there is a possibility that you or
the others could get hurt.
Esme was right, but what other choice did I have?
Bella was about to remind me of that.
She straightened up in her chair, ready to talk again.
All right, then. Edward has offered an alternative for you to
consider. Lets vote.
Chapter 24
Proposal
I stiffened instantly, it was better than quivering from the
anger I held within.
Bella looked at me first.
She already knew my answer, but she still had the courtesy to
ask.
Do you want me to join your family?
I was positive that she had deliberately re-worded her
question to catch me off guard.
Bella was already part of my family she was my life.
Not in that way. Youre staying human. I replied resolutely.
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She nodded; her face showing no emotion or distinguishable

expression, and then turned to Alice.
Alice?
Yes. Alice replied gleefully.
Jasper?
I turned to look at my newest brother. His face exhibited a
stern expression and his thoughts were wary.
Im sorry, Edward, but I think this is the best way...to avoid
any further incidents. He spoke to me in his head. He was
judging the situation on his lack of self control, the easiest
option for him, not for Bella.
Yes. He replied to Bella.
The rage in my chest increased, which Jasper felt too, as he
was monitoring my emotions.
Calm down, Edward. This is what Bella wants. He reminded me.
I disregarded his efforts to sooth me with his mood altering
talent, and concentrated on Bella as she moved swiftly on to
the next member of my family.
Rosalie?
I am grateful to her, but she is still so naive. Why would she
want this life? Rosalie hesitated before responding.
No. She said to Bella, with some embarrassment.
My sprits lifted slightly at her answer; just to know there was
someone on my side was comforting.
Bella stared at her for a moment, probably feeling slightly
rejected, but I wasnt sure; her face remained composed.
My sister held her hands up as she tried to vindicate her
decision. Let me explain. I dont mean that I have any
aversion to you as a sister. Its just that ...this is not the life I
would have chosen for myself. I wish there has been someone
there to vote no for me.
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Bella looked quite stunned; but nodded in recognition before

turning to Emmett.
Just think how much funnier Bella will be when shes
unbreakable. Emmett thought, before casting his vote.
Hell, yes! We can find some other way to pick a fight with this
Demetri.
My stomach twisted ferociously, only minutes ago Emmett had
agreed with my plan, and now he had decided against it.
I took a deep breath and reminded myself that the vote was
not valid, and was only necessary for Bella to comprehend and
accept that my family wanted her to be included.
Bella frowned and turned to Esme.
Yes, of course, Bella. I already think of you as part of my
family.
I didnt hear Bellas reply because I was preoccupied with
concentrating on my fathers thoughts. He was speaking to me
in his mind.
I am going to vote yes Edward. You know that I would never
willingly take anothers life, human or otherwise. However,
Bella wants to become a vampire. This is also the safest option
for our family, as you have decided to stay in her life.
I scowled at him seething with the sting of betrayal.
I was relying on Carlisle to be the voice of reason.
Edward. Dont you see this is the only way?
No. I snarled.
Its the only way that makes sense. Youve chosen not to live
without her, and that doesnt leave me a choice.
Calm down, Edward. Alice instructed in her mind, as she
noticed my fuming stance.
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I couldnt bear to look at any of them; their thoughts and

glances hitting me like knives, each one a stab of treachery. I
dropped Bellas hand and stalked out of the room, hissing
profanities under my breath.
I should never have brought Bella here everyone was too
overwrought, too many conflicting emotions were in play.
My self control was waning, my defences were almost
breached. In order to keep my fury in check I needed solitude
to organise my thoughts.
I couldnt expect to take on the rest of my family all those
willing to change my Bella, but I knew I could find the strength
to keep Bellas beautiful soul alive.
I paced around the living room, attempting to subdue my
anger with the rhythm of my feet hitting the floor.
I guess you know my vote. I heard Carlisle say in the next
room.
White hot rage overpowered me; it streamed through me,
blistering every inch of my body. I grabbed the nearest object
within reach; the plasma television hanging on the wall, and
smashed it to the floor. The echoing crash drowned out the
sounds and thoughts from the dining room. I had the
uncontrollable urge to recklessly demolish everything in the
room, just as I had done when I had been misinformed that
Bella was dead. If they in the next room were plotting to
destroy the most beautiful thing in the world, then it shouldnt
matter if I destroyed insignificant items.
I wanted to roar with fury and obliterate everything in my
path, like I didnt care.
However, truthfully; I did care.
I had to be rational.
To be in control.
Bellas voice reminded me of her presence.
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Thats all I needed. Thank you. For wanting to keep me, I feel
exactly the way the same way about all of you too.
There was an emotional edge to her voice.
I blocked out the thoughts of the others in the room, in case
they reignited my wrath. Esme went to comfort Bella. Dearest
Bella. She said as she embraced her gently.
The only piece of information that calmed me down was the
fact that Bella was close and in range of my meltdown.
Her astounding soul was still intact and in the other room.
That knowledge was enough to suppress my enraged state.
I already experienced losing Bella I would not risk ruining the
second chance Id been given.
Well, Alice, where do you want to do this?
My body stopped dead, paralysed for a split second at Bellas
words.
Incensed with fury I sprinted back into the dining room.
No! No! NO! I roared, as I stopped abruptly in front of Bella
and bending over to stare directly into her eyes.
What the hell was she doing?
I had promised myself I wouldnt allow this to happen.
I was counting on having some time to find a loophole...but
Bella wanted to do it now?
Are you insane? Have you utterly lost your mind? I screeched
Edward! Calm down, son. Carlisle demanded firmly in his mind,
as Bella covered her ears to ward off the sound of my
deafening voice.
I cant do it. Alice almost cried in her head. Im not prepared.
This is too soon.
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Um, Bella, I dont think Im ready for that. Ill need to

prepare... Alice spoke aloud.
Bella turned away from my glaring eyes and looked under my
arm at Alice.
You promised. Bella said to her.
I know, but...seriously, Bella! I dont have any idea how not to
kill you.
You can do it. I trust you.
I snarled with disgust as unspeakable anger pulsated violently
through my body.
I kept my eyes on Bella willing my anger to diminish.
I wont. I cant. The risk of her dying is too great. Alice
mumbled to herself in her head.
Carlisle? Bella asked, with hope in her voice.
NO! I screamed in my head.
I held a hand up to Carlisle as a warning, whilst I grabbed
Bellas face as gently as I could with my other hand, turning
her face and forcing her to look at me.
Forcing her to see the anger in my eyes, desperately trying to
get her to see reason. To try and make her understand the
anguish in my expression.
Carlisle ignored my gesture and answered Bella.
Im able to do it. You would be in no danger of me losing
control.
Sounds good. Bella replied in a distorted voice due to my
grip on her face.
I clenched my teeth to prevent myself from growling.
How could Carlisle agree to take a human life?
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He was an exceptional doctor who had worked arduously for

many centuries to preserve human lives; yet now he was ready
to destroy one so willingly that he offered to do it himself.
Hold on, it doesnt have to be now. I interceded.
There is no reason for it not to be now. Bella fired back.
Edward, let go of her face, dear. Esme said in her mind.
I ignored her and focused on Bella.
Why wouldnt she see sense?
I can think of a few. I informed her.
Of course you can. Now let go of me. Bella demanded.
I released her face and folded my arms across my chest,
infuriated beyond belief by Bellas attitude and desire to die.
Becoming a vampire was a form of death.
Bella hadnt been thorough enough when considering the
consequences of her request.
She had overlooked significant factors...or just not considered
them whatsoever.
Her family.
Her friends.
Her human life and everything that life consisted of.
She was ready to give them up for me.
It brought me an immense feeling of love to know that she was
willing to sacrifice her life for me; but still I had to prevent it.
I would not allow her to give up her life for me.
The gesture and willingness was enough to prove her love and
commitment to me. I had to remind Bella of what she was
sacrificing.
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In about two hours, Charlie will be here looking for you. I

wouldnt put it past him to involve the police.
All three of them. She grimaced.
Her frown was proof that she hadnt calculated her father into
the equation, which probably meant she hadnt thought about
her mother, or school either.
Ending her life willingly so young was a crime in itself,
especially considering the pain it would cause her parents.
In the interest of remaining composed I suggest that we put
this conversation off at the very least until Bella finishes high
school, and moves out of Charlies house. I told my family.
Thats a reasonable request, Bella. Carlisle offered.
For the first time tonight I was grateful for my fathers input. I
was hopeful it would lessen Bellas determination to be
changed for a few months.
Bella pursed her lips as she thought.
Ill consider it. She finally spoke.
My whole body sighed internally with relief.
Before anything more could be discussed I had to get Bella out
of there.
I was afraid she would demand to be changed right that
moment.
I should probably take you home. Just in case Charlie wakes
up early. I urged.
After graduation? Bella asked Carlisle.
You have my word. He replied.
I gulped back a snarl.
Bella exhaled in relief and smiled at my father, and the promise
he had just made her.
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Okay. You can take me home. Bella told me.

I ushered her out of the house before any other exchanges
could take place. I did not even give her chance to bid farewell
to my family.
After I glimpsed in to each of their thoughts before departing, I
left my family mulling over recent events. None of them
seemed remotely bothered by what had been decided.
Rosalies resentment towards Bella resurfaced, but she tried to
conceal it. She envied Bellas life, and would exchange
anything to become human. I wished Bella could see into
Rosalies mind to see the things that should be of value to a
human.
Esme was concerned for Bella and her family. She didnt want
Renee and Charlie to lose their daughter after experiencing
the pain losing a child of her own.
Emmett was infuriated that I had destroyed the television and
was plotting his revenge.
Alice was grateful that she would not have to fulfil her promise
to Bella, thanks to Carlisle.
Carlisle and Jasper were both expecting me to calm down and
come to terms with what had been decided on my own. Jasper
had understood my anger which is why he had only attempted
to control it once.
I had relaxed slightly now that Bella and I had left the house,
but I wouldnt come to terms with it...ever.
Bella and I walked silently to the edge of the forest. She
climbed up onto my back and I set off running full speed; away
from my worst fears, and towards her house.
Neither of us spoke.
The thrill of the speed did nothing to ease my mind; it was still
racing with scared and anxious thoughts.
I was furious with my family for plotting my Bellas death.
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Determining her life change.

I needed a contingency plan.
I urgently needed to convince Bella to reverse her decision.
I knew she didnt want to grow older and leave me frozen at
seventeen; she had been worried about since before her last
birthday.
Would she eventually outgrow me if she wasnt changed?
That would devastate me, but I couldnt be so egotistical as to
hold Bella back from human experiences.
And if it meant preserving Bellas soul, I would surrender my
happiness without hesitation.
Bella had brought me more joy over the months wed been
together than I had experienced in all of my 109 years.
I counted myself extremely fortunate for that.
The perplexed state of my mind was clouding my judgement.
Of course I wanted Bella forever, but I had been immensely
selfish already.
Should I add shameless greed and self-indulgence to the
already sin filled list?
One side of my brain shouted Yes!
Whilst the other side screamed No!
Bella was so much more important than me.
When we reached Bellas house, I pounced onto the wall
without slowing and climbed up through her window. I reached
to pull Bella off my back and sit her on the bed.
I was exceedingly thoughtful as I paced the room, eager to
have my own epiphany; hoping to discover a way out of this
no-win situation.
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I didnt want to deny Bella of anything that she wanted, but at

the same time I couldnt allow her to be become a vampire.
I didnt want to go up against my family.
How could I avoid this?
There was no alternative. My body sagged as I realised that I
had to face up to the inevitable.
Accept it.
The decision had been made.
However, maybe I could convince Bella to prolong her human
life somehow.
Just enough to give me time to discover another option, to
change her decision, or at least to find a compromise.
Bella interrupted my thoughts.
Whatever youre planning, its not going to work.
Shh. Im thinking.
Ugh. She moaned and slumped back onto the bed and pulled
the quilt over her head.
A chill washed over me at the disappearance of her face.
I didnt like her concealing her face so I couldnt see its beauty.
I had spent many months without seeing the real thing, with
only the image of a memory in mind.
I wanted to capitalise on every second I spent in Bellas
presence.
Watching her.
Inhaling her scent.
Listening to her sweet voice.
All of the things I had missed out on doing during my selfimposed exile.
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I lay silently next to Bella on her bed, and pulled back the
cover to see her. I reached up with my hand to brush her hair
from her left cheek.
I felt a profound sense of adoration for her as her chocolate
brown eyes bore into mine.
The only way I could exist the only way I could have a life,
was if I was with Bella.
I wanted to be the one to hold her.
The one she told her thoughts to.
The one who would love her more than anything.
The one who made her smile.
The one who would give her whatever she desired, and never
ask for anything in return. The one to comfort and understand
her.
The one who would be forever by her side. I had found my
purpose my other half.
The perfect person, who had completed me. She had changed
me.
She had saved me.
Bella was my angel.
I had my made my decision I wanted to keep Bella for
eternity. It was what she wanted.
It was what I wanted. It had been promised.
Decided.
It was inevitable. I should embrace it.
I would love her unconditionally in this life and the next.
I would do whatever it takes to make her happy. I didnt want
to lose Bella again. I didnt want to lose the beat in my heart.
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I had been born into a traditional world, and when a person

found love, they embraced it and kept it forever.
I would ask Bella to become my betrothed.
If you dont mind, Id much rather you didnt hide your face.
Ive lived without it for as long as I can stand. Now...tell me
something.
What? Bella asked sceptically.
If you could have anything in the world, anything at all, what
would it be?
I gazed at Bella uncertainly, waiting for her answer; waiting to
hear her hearts desire so I could use it as a bargaining tool to
negotiate a compromise.
You. She replied.
I shook my head, incredulous at her failure to grasp the
concept that I would always be hers; she would always hold my
heart, but it swelled all the same.
Something you dont already have. I prompted her further.
I would want Carlisle not to have to do it. I would want you
to change me.
What would you be willing to trade for that? I asked quickly,
dismissing the vulgar image of myself plunging my teeth into
Bellas neck and tasting her delicious blood. The reminder of
the taste set my throat on fire, but I easily disregarded it.
Astonished by my unwavering composure Bella blurted out.
Anything.
I couldnt help but grin at her lack of contemplation.
I was confident that she wasnt actually willing to exchange
anything; it was just spoken without thought.
Five years? I challenged.
A horrified expression crossed her face.
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You said anything. I reminded her.

Yes, but...youll use the time to find a way out of it. I have to
strike while the iron is hot. Besides, its just too dangerous to
be human for me at least. So anything but that.
Three years?
No!
Isnt it worth anything to you at all? I questioned.
If Bella truly wanted this, she would have to be more willing to
prolong her humanity. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 311
Bella speculated a moment before answering.
I felt uncomfortable discussing the end of Bellas life.
Six months? She tried to compromise, but failed.
Six months was barely longer than the period of time until
graduation.
Not good enough. I said resolutely
One year, then. Thats my limit.
At least give me two.
No way. Nineteen Ill do. But Im not going anywhere near
twenty. If youre staying in your teens forever, then so am I.
It was silent for a minute, while I thought to myself.
Imagining what it would be life to spend an eternity with my
beloved.
I had never before really allowed myself to think of a future
with Bella; not believing it was possible.
However, now, under the circumstances, l let my mind
wander...
Living with Bella; sharing a life together.
Sharing a home.
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Marrying her my other half, finally becoming complete; one

half of a pair.
The endless years together full of unmapped possibilities.
All my other family members were married.
I had been the solitary wolf.
Now I had found my soul mate, I should treasure that forever.
Why couldnt I have that special connection the Bella?
The commitment of marriage; making her truly mine...forever.
All right. Forget time limits. If you want me to be the one
then youll just have to meet one condition.
Condition? What condition? Bella said dryly. Dark Moon
I inhaled deeply and gazed into her eyes, trying to disguise my
apprehension.
I spoke slowly, enunciating each word precisely.
Marry me first.
Bellas eyes widened in shock, as she stared at me.
My body was rigid with tension, as I waited for her to respond.
Okay. Whats the punch line? she said hesitantly.
A stab of painful rejection hit me square in the chest.
Youre wounding my ego, Bella. I just proposed to you, and
you think its a joke. I replied, disgruntled.
Edward, please be serious.
I am one hundred percent serious.
Oh, cmon. Im only eighteen. Bella said in a voice edged
with panic.
Well, Im nearly a hundred and ten. Its time I settled down.
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Bella turned away from me and redirected her gaze out of the
window at the approaching dawn.
The atmosphere was a combination of dismissal mixed with
profound anxiety and grief.
Look, marriage isnt exactly that high on my list of priorities,
you know? It was sort of the kiss of death for Renee and
Charlie.
I acknowledged the irony of her words.
Interesting choice of words. I stated.
You know what I mean.
I could feel cracks slowly appearing in my newly restored
heart, it was breaking...again.
And this time it was because of Bellas refusal to commit to
me. My previous thoughts of Bella just being eager for
vampirism and the qualities of eternal life were becoming real.
My doubts were being confirmed.
I had the urge to flee to the freedom of isolation to mull over
the rejection.
But, I stayed strong I wouldnt give up Bella easily.
I knew she loved me.
But the question spiralled in my mind - why wouldnt she
marry me?
Was she frightened to make vows of commitment?
Please dont tell me that youre afraid of commitment.
Thats not it exactly. Im...afraid of Renee. She has some
really intense opinions on getting married before youre
thirty.
I was relieved momentarily.
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Bella was objecting to marriage based on parental principles,

and more overwhelmingly their reactions.
Because shed rather you became one of the eternally
damned than get married. I chaffed
You think youre joking.
Bella, if you compare the level of commitment of marital
union as opposed to bartering your soul in exchange for an
eternity as a vampire... I paused, wondering how Bella could
be against matrimony, but in favour of becoming a monster. I
would never understand the way her mind exerted itself, which
made me all the more fascinated by it. There was no mistaking
that Bella had an immense amount of courage, however it
could be exposed in a different way. Marriage seemed like an
inconsequential commitment compared to annihilating her
humanity. If youre not brave enough to marry me, then
Well, what if I did? What if I told you to take me to Vegas
now? Would I be a vampire in three days? Bella interjected.
Although I knew she was bluffing, the idea of being able to
commit to each other in a lawful ceremony was enticing.
Sure. Ill get the car. I grinned.
Dammit. Ill give you eighteen months.
I realised that I had discovered a possible way to extend
Bellas human life.
As she had refused my proposal, she wouldnt receive what
she wanted until she accepted. Judging by the way she was
trying to compromise, I assumed it wasnt likely that she would
accept anytime soon.
No deal. I like this condition.
Fine. Ill have Carlisle do it when I graduate.
I shrugged. If thats what you really want.
I smiled brightly, attempting to dazzle her, as she said only I
could.
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It was successful.
Youre impossible. A monster. She moaned.
Is that why you wont marry me?
She grunted.
I leant towards her.
Time seemed to stand still as I gazed into the gateways to her
soul.
I yearned after her.
I needed her.
I wanted her to be my wife.
Please, Bella? I whispered.
Her heard skipped a beat.
After a long moment, she shook her head and blinked herself
out of her astonishment.
Would this have gone better if Id time to get a ring?
No! No rings! Bella practically shouted, loud enough to
cause her father to awake in the next room.
I heard him groan as he prepared to get up.
Then his mind registered that Bella was safely back home.
I better go and check on her. He thought.
Now youve done it. I mumbled to Bella.
Oops.
If Charlie was going to come into Bellas room, it meant I had
leave.
My presence in the house was forbidden, and Charlie was likely
to try and shoot me if he discovered I was here.
I didnt want to leave Bella.
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It was physically painful just to think about not being with her.
It was torture to actually be away from her, even more so now
after recent events.
The months Id spent longing for her had increased my need
for her presence in my life.
Charlies getting up; Id better leave.
I heard Bellas heart beat stop briefly as panic glistened in her
eyes.
Presumably, she was anxious that I might leave and not come
back again.
Sadness washed through me; I didnt want her to be anxious or
scared.
I would never leave her again.
I took a swift look around the room for a potential place to
conceal myself.
The closet in the corner in the room was a big enough to hide
me. Would it be childish of me to hide in your closet, then?
No. Stay. Please. Bella pleaded
I smiled at her warmly, before moving rapidly to the closet and
disappearing inside.
I heard Charlie approach Bellas bedroom door.
He hesitated before entering.
He was concerned about how my familys homecoming to Forks
would affect Bella. He was certain the effects would not be
pleasant.
I want to know what the hell is going on and why theyre back.
Charlie thought.
I listened intently whilst I remained silent and unmoving.
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Morning, Dad. Bella greeted her father as he opened the

door.
Oh, hey, Bella. I didnt know you were awake. Charlie
replied, slightly humiliated by being caught checking up on
her. He knew that Bella was very independent and didnt like
being taken care of by others.
I thought shed be asleep. He thought to himself.
Yeah. Ive just been waiting for you to wake up so I could take
a shower.
Hold on, lets talk for a minute first.
Through the gaps around the closet doors, I saw brightness
flood into the room as the light was turned on.
You know youre in trouble. Charlie said.
Yeah I know. Bella agreed.
I just about went crazy these last three days. I come home
from Harrys funeral, and youre gone. Jacob could only tell me
that youd run off with Alice Cullen, and that he thought you
were in trouble. You didnt leave me a number, and you didnt
call. I didnt know where you were or when or if you were
coming back. Do you have any idea...how...how...? Charlie
paused, unable to finish his sentence due to his rising stress
levels. He took a deep breath to soothe himself before
continuing. Can you give me one reason why I shouldnt ship
you off to Jacksonville this second?
Because I wont go. Bella stated bluntly.
Now just one minute, young lady
Look, Dad. Bella interrupted. I accept complete
responsibility for my actions, and you have the right to ground
me for as long as you want. I will also do all the chores and
laundry and dishes until you think Ive learned my lesson. And
I guess youre within our rights if you want to kick me out too
but that wont make me go to Florida.
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Since when did she become so forthright and demanding? It

must be his influence. Charlie thought, meaning me but not
having the respect to even think my name.
Would you like to explain where youve been?
There was...an emergency. Bella replied with nervousness in
her voice. Charlie couldnt know the truth and we hadnt
discussed an appropriate explanation for Bellas sudden
disappearance from Forks.
I dont know what to tell you, Dad. It was mostly a
misunderstanding. He said, she said. It got out of hand.
Not much of an explanation. Charlie thought suspiciously, as
he waiting for Bella to elaborate.
See, Alice told Rosalie about me diving off the cliff...
WHAT!?! Charlie internally exploded. Cliff...diving!
Diving...off...cliffs! He wasnt the only one who was furious
with Bellas reckless behaviour; I shared Charlies anger.
Charlies shock must have been apparent in his facial
expression as Bella stammered to explain.I guess I didnt tell
you about that. It was nothing. Just messing around, swimming
with Jake. Anyway, Rosalie told Edward, and he was upset. She
sort of accidently made it sound like I was trying to kill myself
or something. He wouldnt answer his phone, so Alice dragged
me to...LA, to explain in person.
Were you trying to kill yourself? Charlie asked, alarmed.
No, of course not. Just having fun with Jake. Cliff diving. The
La Push kids do it all the time. Like is said, nothing.
He didnt seem convinced.
Charlies anger increased excessively, so much so that his
thoughts were in disarray.
Whats it to Edward Cullen anyway? All this time, hes just left
you dangling without a word
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Another misunderstanding. Bella interjected. So is he back

then? Im not sure what the exact plan is. I think they all
are.
Anger pulsated through him.
I could feel his hatred for me.
But he couldnt despise me as much as I despised myself.
He will ruin all her progress. After what he did to her, how
could he show his face around here again? Well, I wont let him
destroy her twice. Charlie thought fiercely, as the same image
of his broken hearted daughter that Id seen only hours before,
appeared in his head again.
I winced inaudibly at the reminder of what I had done to Bella.
I would forever be remorseful.
I want you to stay away from him, Bella. I dont trust him.
Hes rotten for you. I wont let him mess you up like that
again. Charlie said through gritted teeth.
Fine. She replied sternly.
I was as stunned as Charlie at Bellas answer. Was she
deceiving her father to avoid an argument? Or was she actually
agreeing with him and making a decision not to see me?
My chest constricted in pain, but I ignored the agony and
continued to listen. Oh, I thought you were going to be
difficult. Charlie said, surprised. I am. I meant, Fine Ill move
out.
Charlie fumed with ferocity, whilst the pain in my chest faded.
Dad, I dont want to move out. I love you. I know youre
worried, but you need to trust me on this. And youre going to
have to ease up on Edward if you want me to stay. Do you want
me to live here or not? Bella said, introducing bribery into the
conversation.
Thats not fair Bella. You know I want you to stay.
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Then be nice to Edward, because hes going to be where I

am. Bella assured him.
Her words made my heart swell with devotion.
Not under my roof. Charlie fumed. Not a chance in hell.
Bella signed. Look, Im not going to give you anymore
ultimatums tonight or I guess its this morning. Just think
about it for a few days, okay? But keep in mind that Edward
and I are sort of a package deal.
Bella Charlie started. Think it over. And while youre doing
that, could you give me some privacy? I really need a shower.
Charlie stormed out of the room, mumbling coarse language
and insults in his head; the majority of them aimed at me.
I felt dreadful for being the cause of Bellas dispute with her
father. As soon as I heard Charlie descend the staircase, I
exited the confines of my hiding place and sat in the rocking
chair on the other side of the room.
Bella chucked her quilt to the end of her bed and got up.
Sorry about that. She whispered, once she saw me.
Its not like I dont deserve far worse. Dont start anything
with Charlie over me, please.
Dont worry about it. I will start exactly as much as is
necessary, and no more than that. Or are you trying to tell me I
have nowhere to go? Bella asked warily.
Youd move in with a house full of vampires? I asked,
stunned by her bravery and obvious faith in my family.
Thats probably the safest place for someone like me.
Besides, if Charlie kicks me out, then theres no need for a
graduation deadline, is there? She grinned.
I clenched my teeth together to prevent a growl from escaping
my lips.
I would have to work on the marriage thing.
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Maybe if she knew what it meant to be committed to someone

in that way, well maybe shed understand how wonderful it
would be.
So eager for eternal damnation. I murmured.
You know you dont really believe that.
Oh, dont I? I said with a hint of anger in my voice.
No. You dont. Bella shot back.
When would she comprehend that vampires were monsters?
Monsters didnt have souls.
I was just about to explain to Bella that I was a soulless
creature, but she quickly interceded.
If you really believed that youd lost your soul, then when I
found you in Volterra, you would have realised immediately
what was happening, instead of thinking we were both dead
together. But, you didnt you said Amazing. Carlisle was
right. Theres hope in you, after all. I was bewildered by
Bellas words.
Speechless.
Id forgotten that feeling of believing that I had discovered
heaven.
That spectacular feeling.
But maybe that was just my subconscious clouding my original
judgement.
My mind playing tricks on me.
Now I would never know.
But I still wasnt convinced that vampires had their souls
intact.
So lets both just have faith all right? Not that it matters. If
you stay, I dont need heaven. Bella said.
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I got up and walked to her at human pace.

I placed my hands on either side of her face and gazed lovingly
into her eyes.
Forever. I promised.
A promise I would undoubtedly retain. The path into the future
of my never-ending existence appeared bright, hopeful and
brilliant like the re-emerging of the stars into my life.
The End
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Chapter 7

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I had been ripped into a hundred pieces.

I wish I had something anything of Bellas to keep hold of

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My instincts overpowered me and before I knew what I was

I quickly ignored my thoughts of Bellas demise, not wanting to

I decided to hunt before I went to greet my family. I located a

I began to protest by telling her that this was only a short

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Esme had immersed herself in a new renovation project on a

This isnt about Bella. I lied.

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If her scent was even remotely as appealing to anyone one

Everyone seemed to relax slightly, even Jasper. He shot me a

I was suddenly excited I could check on Bella.

I ran straight towards Forks without even stopping at night to

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I carried on walking for countless miles, when abruptly two

Tracking was intensely tedious.

I had been on following Victorias trail for over a week so far,

Living means making the most of life and having something to

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Would Alice be able to see visions of Victoria?

My question was answered the next day.

I wouldnt be strong enough to stay away from Bella again, if I

Maybe, if my attempt was doomed to failure anyway, like my

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I shuddered again. Dark Moon [Edwards New Moon] 139

She was probably the only member of my family enjoying my

My eyes flew open in shock.

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It wasnt functioning once again.

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Slowly, I reached around searching for my phone. I switched it

How could this have happened?

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My sweet, uncoordinated, breakable Bella.

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I was going to atone for my sins.

I departed the old abandoned warehouse and sprinted into the

A sudden jerked movement brought me out of my delusion and

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However I did not intend to disrespect anybody, mostly

Excuse me, Gentlemen. I spoke as I drew near to them. It felt

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Then I saw an opening in the cobbled pavement. Felix dropped

Several minutes later, a small brown haired girl appeared.

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A multitude of thoughts ran through each of their heads, it was

Maybe I should have engaged in my second plan of action first.

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The memories lingered on Bella as she was such a significant

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He had been somewhat shocked by my blunt request, but

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everything, but I maintained my stance. This was the reason I

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herself. I decided to wander the city of Volterra and try to find

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Foreverwith my true love. I knew at that moment that if Bella

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