Fan Fiction: Story

Always,always Lily, darling

Author: Golden237
Genre: General
Rating: G
Score: 4.49123
Story: The door bangs shut and happy, breathless laughter echoes off the cream-coloured walls. The

old armchair embraces the apparition that has just entered with such reckless abandon,
disturbing the normally quiet, cat-inhabited room. It is a girl of eleven or twelve, with almond
shaped, fairy-like green eyes and long, dark red hair. She sits, panting for a few moments,
trying to compose herself. In her hands is a queer-looking piece of paper, which she twists
around restlessly. She stands up suddenly and sits down again, biting her lips. She wants to
speak, but does not know what to say first.

Another girl sits on a hard, straight-backed chair in the corner, a plain, solemn girl of about
thirteen. She is thin, almost bony, with unattractive fair hair and sharp features. She sits very,
very still, watching the red- haired girl at the opposite end of the room. His face is somewhat
expressionless; she looks dead. The room is curiously quiet now, unnaturally quiet. The redhaired girl gets up again and breaks the silence.
Petunia, she says, and halts, unsure of what to say next. Petunia, Im-she blinks hard and
stops again.
The other girl, Petunia, gives no indication that she has heard, other than the slightest raising
of her eyebrows and an almost imperceptible lifting of her head. Silence reigns once more and
thenPetunia, Im a witch, Ive just received a letter offering me a place at a school of witchcraft
and wizardry, Hogwarts. Im going on the first of September- her voice trails away. She
gathers new courage and adds, Ive already told Mum and Dad, theyre really pleased. Her
voice is not as excited anymore; there is the faintest note of coldness and accusation in it.
Petunia does not speak; she does not move either. The other girl lowers her voice and says,
Please be happy for me, Nia, please. The soft plea sounds empty, lost in the big room.
Petunia stands up, her back very straight and walks out of the door and up the stairs. She
hears her sister being called as she plods wearily up.
Lily, dear, come here. Im so happy for you darling, and so excited.
Petunia stops for a moment and shakes her drooping head. Tears roll down her cheeks. Lily,
dear, she repeats. Always Lily. She stands there crying, her plain face crumpled up, her lips
trembling. She stops suddenly, angrily, and wipes her face roughly on her sleeve. She walks
the remaining one, two, three steps up to the bedroom door and opens it slowly. Once inside,
she collapses onto her bed and cries even harder. Minutes pass, nearly an hour. Her head
aches and her face is hot, burning. She drags herself up and stands facing the mirror by her
bedside. The sight of her own plain face, red and stained from crying revolts her; she bows
her head, her fists clenched. She is ugly and Lily is beautiful; she is backward and Lily is
clever; she is ordinary, but Lily is special. Special enough to be wanted, to be loved.
Important enough to be accepted into a school of magic. Petunia thinks back to the
conversation she overheard in the kitchen. Lilys delighted voice; her parents fond, excited
congratulations. She feels the same awful jealousy rise up in her; the same choking, burning
fire she experienced as she listened at the keyhole, and she is seized by the same blunt
numbness that gripped her and made her walk, unseeing and silent, down the corridor and
into the quiet living-room, away from them all. She remembers sitting down and watching Lily
come in; she recalls the joy on Lilys face and her own cold silence. Petunia sits very still now,
hunched up like a spider. No one has come to look for her, to see her, although more than an
hour has passed by. They are too absorbed in their own happiness to notice her absence,
Petunia knows. She closes her eyes wearily.
It has always been like this. Always and always and always. Lily is the little princess in the
school play while Petunia is lucky to be allowed to help backstage. Lily gets all the prizes and

gets picked for all the teams. It is Lily whom people say hello to in the street, not Petunia.
Never Petunia. She remembers the day Lily was born, the day everyone forgot the
unremarkable, fair-headed little girl and welcomed the darling, the beautiful angel into the
world. She remembers peering into the pram to see her new sister and stroke her soft cheek
with her own tiny hand. The words Stop it, youll make her sick with those dirty hands come
back to her so clearly. A wave of sick hatred washes over Petunia and she tries to stop
thinking, to stop remembering. It is too painful.
The summer holidays, three years later. Lilys back! rings through the house. Petunia gets
up and walks stiffly, half-unwillingly into the living room. Lily smiles at her. Hi, Nia, she says,
her arms stretched out. Petunia does not move. She is looking at a boy by Lilys side. He is of
Lilys age, perhaps a little older. He is beautiful, Petunia thinks. She cannot looks away. He is
tall, but slight, almost thin. His skin is pale, ivory, and there is a slight rosy flush on his
cheeks, like the breath of summer on winter snow. His lips are full; pretty, but most
wonderful are his eyes. They are a soft, almost luminous brown; nearly golden. The eyelashes
are long and dark, like a girls might be, Petunia thinks. But although his face is kind,
endearing, he does not look in the least like a girl. Even his fine, longer than average golden
brown hair does not make him look feminine, just handsome.
He smiles now and Petunia realizes that she has been staring. She takes a step backwards as
he holds out his hand. You must be Lilys sister, he says. My name is Remus Lupin. She
hesitates, then takes the proffered hand. It is soft and warm with long, slender fingers. She
blushes and withdraws her hand, stammering Im Petunia, then rushes from the room. She
is trembling, agitated and angry with herself for falling in love with Lilys friend; with one of
them. She is embarrassed: What must he have thought of her, staring and unable to speak?
She sighs and takes care not to go into the room again for the rest of the day.
Every day she watches him, silently, like a mouse peering out of its hole. Sometimes he
glances up and sees her, his kind face stretching into a smile. The beauty of his eyes makes
her feel faint, dizzy, as though they cast a spell over her. He is magic too, she remembers. A
wizard. She feels a strong loathing towards magic now, more and more each day. It is always
a barrier between herself and them, between herself and Remus.She forgets that she is plain
and awkward; she forgets that she is a worthless nobody. Only the magic separates us, she
thinks bitterly and the loathing in her heart grows and grows. Now, she lives only, it seems,
for a look from those golden eyes. She wishes the holidays might never end, never. But they
end, and he must leave with Lily. He stands there, saying goodbye to everyone, to Petunia
last of all. He opens his arms to hug her and she shyly steps forward and feels his arms
around her, for a few brief moments. She cherishes those seconds for a long, long time, the
smell of his hair and the warmth and softness of his embrace. They turn to go now, Lily and
Remus; their faces alight with joy at going back to school. Petunia feels a pang of envy when
she remembers her own school, where she struggles to learn anything and has nobody whom
she can call a real friend. She wishes she could go with them, and hates her magic because
she does not have it. She watches from the doorway as they leave and feels tears pouring
down her face and hatred like a lump of molten steel inside her, making her stomach clench
and unclench. Slowly, painfully, she turns around and walks into the house. Oh, Remus, she
whispers as she shuts the door.

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Reviews
the 5th marauder

Ur a really good writer, and this was a good explanation for Petunia's
hatred towards Lily and magic. Keep writing!
Julianne envy U

That was completely fabulous! Really! It is such an interesting thing to

know that Petunia fell for Lupin. This shows complete detail, and I could
almost feel the rush of the emotions that Petunia feels every day of her
young life. I have had some of those days before. You are a magnificent
writer, and I do hope you continue. (By the way, thank you for reading my
story too!)
Charlotte Lily Mason

-Very well written, and extremely imaginative also. That is something that
you really don't see too much of! Great job and I'd love if you took a peek
at my other stories!
Diana Smith

Wonderful job! This was spectacular and quite intriguing! Please write more
stories! I am a big fan!
The Satin Angel

Very interesting perpective on why Petunia hates Lily so much. It was very
creative, and I can't even imagine how she must feel. Keep up the good
writing! (Thanks for reviewing "The Things I Do")
*fifth_marauder*

wowie wowie wow! that. was. excellent!! WOW!:-) p.s. thanx for reading
my fic.
Ellizabeth Olyvia Wytham

Fantastic explanation!
ron93

good job but i think james would have beenangry if lupin went to lillys but
other than that WOW
ron93

*been angry
hermione's loyal twin

Really explains a lot about Petunia's hatred for magic or rather jealousy. I
mean being pushed away to a corner like that, it must've really hurt but
that's no reason for ill-treating Harry, i mean, he was innocent, rite? Love
the story, by the way. you're a way good writer.
Amanda Swan

That was so good WoW I would keep writng you r really good

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Charlotte Lily Mason

I have a question. How was this just realized as a great fic, reaching the
status of the fan fic of the week. Don't get me wrong- I love this story! I'm
just surprised that they did not realize how good it was to begin with! I still
love it!!! Please see my fics too!!!
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Charlotte Lily Mason

Wait- you already did take a look. Thanks.

Emily Dane

wow that was really good!!!!!! you don't know how much i loved that!!!!!
you should definitely keep writing, even complete books on my opinion!
you definitely have the talent
Irving A. Rivas

I absolutely LOVED the first paragraph. Rich mixture of adjectives out

there. keep it up!!
Padfoot Hancock

Very good. I liked it. I dont think Lily liked Lupin, did she? Correct me if I'm
wrong. Other than that, it was great!
megan jen kelly

It really explains Petuinas hate for magic,but maybe Rumus Lupin was too
unrealistic,iff he was a wearwolfe surley Lilly wouldnt have brought him
back to her house.But really good explanation.Well done
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bingle-bells

WOW! that was amazing. I have been reading fan fiction on this site for a
long time, and this is the best so far. i don't mean to sound like everyone
else on here, but it was really amazing how you explained petunias hatrid
for her sister and magic.again, WOW. It somewhat suprised me how lily
brought home lupin, i was totally expecting it to be james. keep writing,
you have some definite talent!
Misty Potter

This was amazingly good!keep writing, this totaly fits into the books and
isnt just like random !!!COOL!!!
Aschenputtel

Wonderful! I can't praise your writing enough. Really, your stories just
seem so lifelike, and the emotions just pop out and ahh I can't take it
you're just so good at this.
Argentinaz Angel

you are a wonderful writer. that was amazing!!!!!!! you got Petunia right on
the dot! with such great explanations, and so perfectly described...wow,
that was just amazing. great job! keep writing!
Gracellen Thorstensen

That was remarkable!! Keep writing!!

Puppet Controller.

This was such a wonderful story, you have a gift that many writers aspire
to have... Not only the descriptions themselves, but the depth given to
them actually make the characters and the setting peel off the page and
implant themselves in the reader's mind. The one thing thing keeping me
from giving you five is that this piece seemed incomplete; like you were
telling two stories and there was nothing at the end to really tie them
together. The only thing that I could see was that Petunia was extremely
jealous of Lily for being special and then she was jealous because she was
friends with Rem... in the future you may want to make it clearer to the
person reading. You may or may not want to take this advice but either
way, continue with your wonderful work.
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sarah moe

I like that a lot. I was surprised why Lily would bring Lupin home I would
have suspected it to be James. As another storyline I would go with Lily
bringing home James andPetunia falling in love with him. That could
explain why Petuina hates magic and her sister so much. Another reason
why Petuina might be awful to Harry because he reminds her of James. The
way they look alike. This just reminds Petuina of another thing she lost to
Lily. Don't get me wrong I really liked your story you are a good write.
dragongirl

U r an awesome writer. Very descriptive, very creative.... i loved it. Very

good explanation of why petunia hated magic.... again, i loved it! P.S. it
was NOT "kinda gay"!!!!!
Rita Skeeter

WOW You are truly a writer. I never expected it to be Remus. This story
really makes you feel the pain that Petunia is going through, and how Lily
tries to be there for her but she is to jealous to be her friend. Really great,
keep writing!!!
Rita Skeeter

Don't listen to that "Regulus Black" guy he doesn't know a good story when
he sees it. He couldn't have done better himself. JKR would be PROUD!!!
but i do agree with sarah moe i thought it would be James and that would
be another reason why Petunia hated Harry. But like i said GREAT!
FANTASTIC! MAGNIFICENT! Not enough words to describe it.
Wonderful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Sara Bogan

Yeah, back off Regulus! You truly live up to your name. You're a GOLDEN
author! Keep on writing!!!!!
Mrs. Padfoot

I think it was amazing. It is Fan Fiction of the Week, after all. And, Regulus
Black? If you're so jealous of her writing abilities, just say so. I promise I
won't laugh. Nia can so be short for Petunia, what else would it be? Petu?
Riiiight....
Argentinaz Angel

Albus Dumbledore u should b ashamed. read the story not the words!!! to
the author, dun listen to him, this is a wonderful story, and i do agree with
sara moe, i expected it to be James all the way!!! gud job!! keep writting!
Albus Dumbledore

actually, im 16 and bored, THIS STORY SUX, ITS NOT LONG ENOUGH!!!
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Megan Radcliffe

That story was awesome!u have natural talent as a writer that some cant
see so shut up albus dumbledore!
Megan Radcliffe

oops forgot to show my score!

Cate the Great

That was really excellent! Very interesting take on why Petunia hates magic
so much...kind of an "Aha!" moment there...and a great twist when it
turned out to be Lupin instead of James. Well done!
Captain Obvious

a very good explanation of their childhood! quite sad, and poor petunia...oh
well.
Allison Granger

I thought this was really good, like its a bit ovious james wouldn't have
been happy, and i'm not quite sure petunia would have like lupin if she
knew he was a werewolf, but u are very talented at writing, and so like i
can't even judge that, cause i'm not sure i could even write that good.
Please write more, I thought it was awesome.
Feathers Mcgraw

This was an excellent story! Before I read this, even, I thought that Petunia
must hate Lily so much because of jealously - Lily, the perfect princess. I
think that it is every little girls secret dream to be whisked off to a magic
school... Most of my friends (and me), we waited for that letter to come,
and were almost heartbroken with disappointment when it didn't! I actually
have a copy of the hogwarts letter that I typed and sent to myself through
the mail! Imagine that little girls dream to go to a magic school, but as she
grows older the dream starts to slip away from grasp.. and then
everybodies favourite has that dream come true! Sorry about harping on a
little, but these were the thoughts about Petunia in my head that you have
put to words so beautifully - 5 STARS WELL DONE!
Tomato Soup

That was kewl, keep doing things like that, maybe the story of the
marauders when they were at skool. ur friend, Tomato Soup
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Tomato Soup

oh yeah, im hoping to pass my own story soon so maybe u could give me a

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Edwina

Beautifully written!
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Luna Lovegood

THat was a good piece of writing an a great idea to write from petunias
perspective about LIlly. You do have tallent as a writer. It was remus and
not James because LIlly hated James up untill grade 6-7ish, in the story it
said 3 years later which would have been around year 4. In the 3rd movie
and book (i think) remus said that Lilly was always very kind to him, they
were indeed friends and that was why he was over. But admitedly she did
not know he was a wearwolf, but remus would not have allowed himself to
put her family at risk and would not have stayed. Kevin Jung- At school he
does not take the wolfsbane potion because as you may recall he states
that it wasnt around when he was at school, which is why he had to go to
the shreiking shack, because he could not controll his actions. He only had
wolfsbane potion when snape brewed it for him when he went back to
hogwarts to teach. I agree that Jk is incredible, i can not read other books,
they bore me to death ever since i read harry potter. And i hate people
comparing people to her talent because nothing can be compared to her
ability. I mean people writing fan fics are using her creativite story that she
came up with and just twisting it, she came up with the brilliant
masterpiece that is the harry potter series.
Jeff

I agree with Kevin when he says that Remus would have turned into a
werewolf while at Lilys. So where is that in the story. but otherwise it is
decent.
Mirek2

Nice writing and word choice, but the story was... ugh. I am among the
ones who don't like sappy stories (JKR doesn't write this way - the nicest
words to describe this C**P)... Anyway, I would expect Lupin to transform
into a werewolf during his stay, I would never expect him to look even
close to your description, nor would I believe that he would even hug
Petunia (another ugh there). I agree with Jillian - the story needs some
spicing up...
Argentinaz Angel

READ THE STORY NOT THE WORDS but i DO love the fact Albus
Dumbledore backed off... i love the story! keep writting and show these
people how great a writter u r!
GinnyRocks

I think you are a great writer and I love the reasoning behind Petunia's
hatred. I am going to pretend that that is what really happened because it
makes me have a little sympathy for Petunia.
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GinnyRocks

Albus Dumbledore---Get a life! If you don't like the story fine, but you don't
have to post your comments on here a million times. Why should we
believe you're a real editor anyway. You sound more like you're fifteen and
bored. Grow up!

Hi, Your fan fiction is really good! Its excellent! But I have a question...
1)Why does Lily take Remus home? Hes a warewolf and he could attack the
family, and where will he hide and everything? Anyways, I really really
really love your fan fiction.. Continue writing. Its brilliant! Can you please
continue the story? Or start another one simialar to it? Like at the time
when Lily started dating James or something? PLease!!! Anyways, I just
wanted to say that your an excellent writer and you should write more fan
fictions like this one and even possibly books!!
karlee marie andrews

WOAH! almost as worthy as jo herself! that was great! the only critisism i
have is: ya described every thing a little too much.. but still, u should
defenently keep writing more fan fictions! even books if you can come up
with somthing!
Tomato Soup

hey, it was good, the only thing i suggest is that u make sure to check
spelling and punctuation
Monica Sara Arguillas

what a brilliant mind!! a good explanation on petunia's hatred...

always_in_love

I don't wanna sound like everyone else in here, but this story was just...
WOW, awesome, great, excelent... I just can't describe it! I totally expected
it to be James and not Remus and again it is a great explanation as to why
Petunia hates Lily/Harry/magic so much. Plz write more!
~Kathy~Rochelle~Sintray~

Wow! That was amazing! Absoulute Brilliance! In the words of Hermione

Granger: "You've got your own pure talent!"
~starbucks is good~

that was probably THE best story i've ever read!!!!!!!! please write more
stories!!!!! they are waaaaaaay cool!!! :)
xkidrogue

That was amazing, it truly seems to fit in with JKR's books and storyline!
This is the first fanfic I'm reviewing, and the best I've ever read! Keep up
the great work!
hermione grangers look-alike

there is only one thing wrong with this that i can think of and that is why
did remus not transform over the summer? i mean there are two months
during the hogwarts summer holidays so he must have transformed at
least once but other than that its excellent
Broadway

It was a very interesting story. I love the way you write!

Nou Nou

Amazing absolutely wonderful!!!!!!!!!!!!! i loved it if only you would write

more about anything it would be good!
connor simons

Beautifully written. Wonderful description and feeling. write some more.

dobby's #1 fan

GOOD. i'm going 2 ask y'all 1 question. how do u change your

username??? (i made it up)
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Dobby's #1 Fan

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hplover

Wow!!! That was soooo good

Railey Miller

That made me cry, it was so wonderful! Darling, you have a gift.

bringbaksirius

Wot can i say? dat was a really good insight into why petunia hates magic!
first resenting her sister for all the attention from her parents then to fall in
love wid a wizard? i can understand dat falling that deeply for someone cud
bring about that anger and hate towards magic and I LUV DA FACT YOU
BROUGHT LUPIN IN - i xpectyed the guy 2 be james and wen u sed lupin i
was like 'hell yeah'. i feel sorry for petunia. do u think da rumours are true
dat lupin mite have been in love wid lily? hmm...i dink it mite have been.
and BRING BAK SIRIUS!!! SOON!!!
animagus

Very, very, good.

HermioneLilyGinnyFleur

i don't know. i really like it but it's so sad. im starting to fell sorry for
petunia now! iunno.
Matt9864

Dude it sucks. I wannna puke

Jessie Schommer

That was excellant. I really love the first paragraph, it has so much
explanation! It also tells why Petunia doesn't like magic folk! Your a really
good writer. Keep up the good work!