The previous week I was so overwhelmed with my tasks at the

university and the exams. I'm a "born" perfectionist and I

always like to do everything the best way I can. I was so busy
that I didn't have time to do my homework the way I wanted to do
them and it was such a big burden. I didn't sleep enough and I
was always thinking how to work everything out. I was burnt-out
at the end of the week when I had to go to the courses and
exams. My sisters tried to encourage me, but I was exhausted.
God each and every time gave me encouragements, but I still felt
the pressure of these things. As I was taking a bath, I listened
to a sermon on my cell phone (I usually like to do that...
hihi). Through that sermon God spoke to me and I was really
touched by what the preacher said about grace. A sentence caught
my attention, it was like this: "The Christians should hang on a
rope upon the hell for a few minutes to see and realize what God
rescued us from." He also told about visions of hell people saw
and then they were totally changed. They told that it was
horrifying and sooo dreadful. So, when I went into my room, I
told God that I really need more faith in Him, I need more faith
to rely on Him. I really knew that and I was crying out with my
whole heart. I told God, if He thinks that I would be
strengthened in my walk with Him, then He should also give me
visions or dreams to see hell, but He shouldn't let me stay :) I
told Him to bring anything He wants on my way that I might
learn. I finished my daily tasks and went to bed. I have already
forgotten my request at the end of the day. That night God's
answer came... Can you imagine, He gave it in the same day I've
asked Him. So let me tell you what I received and what I went
through and believe me it was sooo real:

and
for
His
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I was standing on the street

I heard a voice from heaven which said that now is the time
God's children to come home. I knew that Jesus returned for
family and I saw people starting to fly toward the sky. As I
seeing this, my body started to lift, too. But at the half

way I was stuck and I knew why. In that moment all my life was
playing before my eyes: that I sometimes was ashamed of the Lord
in front of my colleagues, I was starting to get anxious when
difficulties came up in my life which I couldn't handle, I was
trying to be perfect to prove myself, and all my weaknesses were
before my eyes. I started crying, because I saw how sinful,
dirty, foul, filthy I was and how far from being perfect. I
don't know if you heard the verse which says: "But on the
judgment day, fire will reveal what kind of work each builder
has done. The fire will show if a persons work has any value.
If the work survives, that builder will receive a reward. But if
the work is burned up, the builder will suffer great loss. The
builder will be saved, but like someone barely escaping through
a wall of flames"(1 Cor. 3:13-15)... I knew I'm going to heaven,
I didn't doubt that, but the thing which bothered me, was how
I'm going to enter: like a bride/ princess or like a "burned
builder"? I knew I was that person from this verse. I really
knew it! When I opened my eyes, I saw myself and many, many
people in the Throne Room of God. In front of the Room (even if
it wasn't actually a room) I saw God on the throne. I didn't see
His face nor His body, I just saw His feet and hands (almost as
in the picture). I was crying and I knew I will stand before
Him. I don't know how to explain it, but I felt so horrible, to
know my life and to see all the mistakes I've made. I was crying
without a stop, because I love God so much and I didn't want Him
to see me like this. Suddenly before God's throne stood a woman
on her knees with a baby in her arms. Then a man came and fell
on her and told her in her ears: "Now, we're here together!"
Even though he whispered it, everyone could hear him saying it.
But God immediately told him to go away, because his day of
judgement wasn't there yet. As he left, I knew that the man was
satan. God turned His attention to the woman and told her with a
soft and tender voice like a true Father: "My daughter you were
always faithful to me, even though you went through difficult
times, you remained faithful and had faith in me till the end.
Now is your time to receive your reward." When he told this,
everyone could see the woman's life. It was like a movie, but it
wasn't on a screen, it was different... it was in us, I don't
know how to explain. I saw how she went through such a difficult
time, but she chose to live totally for Christ. In that time I
was weeping like a baby and I was speaking with God, even though
He was there on the throne. I was pleading with Him: "Please
Lord, let it be just a dream. Please, I beg you, please let Geno
[my sister who sleeps with me in the room] wake me up, hold my
hand and tell me that it was only a dream. Oh Lord have mercy on
me, I can't come before You like this. Oh Lord, I'm so
desperate. I need Your help....[I was crying so hard, I could

hardly catch my breath and it seemed so real]... Lord, please

give me ONE more chance and I promise I'll live my whole life
for Your glory. Let Geno wake me up, let it be a dream. Just let
me return to the earth and live totally for Your glory..." That
was the moment when Linda, my younger sister, came into the room
and turned the lights on for our morning- meeting. Oh my
goodness, how happy I was... you can't imagine. As I told my
sisters about my dream, I started crying, because I saw God's
love and grace, again. God gave me a new chance to live my whole
life consecrated and devoted to Him. I have areas in my life in
which I need help... one, is to have more faith, that God can
handle every difficulty that comes my way and I shouldn't be so
worried about earthly things. Believe me it's a difficult part
to work on, but I'm going through it with God, with His love,
help and support, and I'll be victorious!
I wanted to share it with you, because I really want to let you
know, that God forgave our sins and He sees us through Jesus,
but He wants OUR WHOLE LIFE, He won't relent until He has it all
or nothing. So, choose wisely, devote and commit yourself to a
wonderful life, which will also have trials and difficulties,
but only to bring you closer to Him, to learn and to let You
know that you are more than enough, you're loved and accepted.
Isn't God amazing in choosing what to show me?... He didn't give
me a vision of hell, but of heaven... only in a different way! I
adore Him with each day passing by. He's my perfect partner ^_^