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The senior
diaries
THE CHASE FOR
THAT INDIE
TEENAGEHOOD
TIPS FOR
FRESH
FRESHMAN
What Ive
Learned Over the
Course of High
School
HIGHSCHOOL
LOVE
Mid -life
crisis at 17
Where do we
go from here?
CONTENTS
04
THE CHASE FOR THAT
INDIE TEENAGE-HOOD
08
12
HIGHSCHOOL LOVE
20
HOME AWAY FROM HOME
24
THANK YOU, HIGHSCHOOL
16
WHERE DO WE GO FROM
HERE?
My mid-life crisis at seventeen.
EDITORIAL
THE CHASE
FOR THAT
INDIE
TEENAGEHOOD
Indie Teenagehood: Note passing during math class, sneaking out while your parents are asleep, night drives with the car-roof off, chats at your locker in between classes
about your crush who smiled at you during fourth period, and that feeling of endless anticipation. As though anything can happen, and that the world revolves around you and
only you. In a way, I think I may have achieved this. No way is it comparable to any of John
Hughes films, but its my own, and I wouldnt want it any other way. I dont know how I just
realized it, but its comparable to the credits at the end of a film. The black screen appears
and the credits start rolling, leaving me there with pensive music and time to take in what
I just experienced after four years of being in highschool.
Theres a type of freedom that comes
with being a teenager. During class one
day my friend texted me asking if I wanted
to go to the beach and I didnt even have
to think twice about it; I was going whether
my Biology teacher was teaching the most
important lesson of the year or not. On the
car ride there, I thought,I will never feel
this way again. And that thought hurt
me. When else am I going to be able to
see my friends run after seagulls without
the worry of finding a job or being in
debt from
Summer Skin
by Iris Kim
-John Hughes
We approach things that scare and confuse us, we question things and study
them, we fall in love carelessly, dream ambitiously, and get drunk off of hope. Teenagehood is something that we cant define
because its something that you cant read,
its something you have to live through to
understand.
Kids Again
Hoora Emami, Greg Waburton, Maricar Paraiso
And
. Parents ask us why we dye
our hair a certain colour, why we go out so often, or why we stay in so often.
They think that were goons, underachievers, trouble-makers, rebels, and
sometimes that is the case, but it all comes down to one certain reason as
to why we do what we do; because we simply just god damn want to, mom,
Principal. Johnson, Aunt Debby. We just want to.
TIPS FOR
FRESHFRESHMAN
Im
not really sure any freshman will be reading this magazine, but this article is more
so the things that Ive learned over the course of high school. Here are a few words I wish I received when I was in grade nine.
1) Work Wisely
You always hear people telling other people to work hard, but, its really about
using the time you have to your greatest advantage. Time is money, be smart with it. Time
managing is such an essential part of life, you must get friendly with it in order to control
it, manipulate it, and not let it whip you in the ass. Good things take time and it feels good
to be done a project in advance rather than finishing it at 3 A.M. the morning of.
3) Be Brilliant, Be Strong
Raise your hand when you have a ques-
tion, raise your hand when you know the answer. Raise your hand even when you think
you know the answer. Do it. Do not be afraid
of how people will percieve you. You are in
school for your education, not theirs. Answer
your teachers question because you are engaged in the lesson and answer it with insight
and depth. Its okay if your opinion clashes
with someone else, say it any way, life would
be too boring if everyone thought the same.
Be brilliant, be strong.
When in Spare
Ted Lownie
If you do poorly on this paper, is it going to ruin you? Your entire future? The answer:
No, not at all. Sometimes you try really hard and dont get the result you were expecting,
or sometimes things come up and it ends up draining all that energy and excitement you
have left towards writing the symbolism of Blood in Macbeth, whatever the case may be;
its alright if you didnt do your best. Life goes on and new chances arise.
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plans Friday night it was absolutely imperative that I did because of the
(FOMO). Fear that I was going to miss out on the best night ever, fear that I was going to miss an oppurtunity
on meeting the love of my life, my new best friend.
while all my friends
were out, but Im realizing that FOMO has it all wrong. If youre meant to be somewhere, you will be there.
Things cant be forced, neither can be moments. Its alright to decline invitations, you dont have to feel obligated to go to an event you dont want to. Sometimes its alright being alone (you also dont have to share
your food with anyone that way).
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Highschool
Love
Sandy and Danny.
Troy and Gabriella.
Kat and Patrick.
Cher and Josh.
Jake and Samantha.
Ferris and Sloane.
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SweetheartSoundtrack:
Barry Louis Polisar - All I Want
Is You
City and Colour - The Girl
Kimya Dawson - Loose Lips
The Lumineers - Stubborn Love
Coldplay - Yellow
Ezra Vine - Celeste
Hozier - Jackie and Wilson
The Naked and Famous - Girls
Like You
The Killers - Here With Me
The Smiths - Please, Please,
Please Let Me Get What I Want
Vance Joy - Snaggletooth
Regina Spektor - Hero
The Moldy Peaches - Anyone
Else But You
When I was going into grade nine, I wanted a boyfriend. It was actually pretty sad how much I wanted one. I wanted to go on cute ice cream dates, I wanted him to teach me how to ride a long board, I wanted
him to take me to the movies, buy me cute clothes, you name it, I wanted it. And then, the perfect thing
happened. On the second day of highschool, I walked into my science class and saw the most attractive
guy with the most luscious, silky Bieber cut (it was the absolute shit back in 2011) with an empty desk next
to him. A perfect candidate for Iris desperate, pathetic quest. When he handed me a sheet, I looked into
those deep brown eyes and that neon hat of his and thought, This is it. This is going to be my highschool
boyfriend. My highschool hubby. People will see us and think we were the cutest god damn thing theyve
ever laid eyes on. Oh god, Im cringing just thinking about this. A few days later Bieber boy and I start
talking some more and he asks me for my number, and from what my little grade nine brain can decode,
I determine that hes interested in me. Boys dont send girls hearts if they arent interested... right? Nope!
Noppe-itty, nope-itty, nope! Turns out he had a thing with another girl for a little bit, and I had to sit beside
them for the rest of the year while they flirted in my science class. *sigh*
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It wasnt until many failed friendships/flings did I realize that I was aiming for something thats actually really pitiful. A co-dependent relationship. A relationship where I felt I needed to have someone else or
I wouldnt be able to function. A relationship where I needed someone almost too much. It was the idea of
having a boyfriend that I liked, not the legitimacy of it.
My goals in a relationship have completely changed throughout the course of highschool. Its not
about the guy any more, its about the guy and me. Its about us. Its Im doing life by myself right now and
if you would like to join me, you are welcome to. If not, carry on.
People get so caught up on the other person that they forget about themselves. Which is fine,
because being self-less is a great trait to have, but youre important too. I cant tell you the countless times
Ive witnessed people wait for a text in order to be happy. Or a phone call. Or even just any sign of communication. A relationship should be natural with two lovers having genuine feelings towards each other,
even if theyre unsure whats going to happen next. People fail to see that when theyre invested in someone
because they get so caught up on how the other person perceives them, What happened to love? When
people werent afraid to double-text? Call each other? Or be spontaneous and show up infront of the persons house with plans for the evening? Why, all of a sudden, do we have to be subtle about our feelings?
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Nothing is perfect. Life is messy. Relationships are complex. Outcomes are uncertain.
People are irrational. - Hugh Mackay
High school is a vulnerable time for students and when a relationship is thrown into that
factor, it makes things even more scary. Everyones
scared of rejection, but rejection has never killed
anybody. I find that liking someone gives me courage, which is why I allow myself to be excited when
I fall for a new guy, even if I know that rejection is a
possibility. Sometimes you just have to say, Damn
it, I like you. And maybe you dont like me, but this
is me recognizing that Im interested in you. Lets
go out for ice cream- or something. Ive done this
before, and it is one of the most cathartic things
Ive ever had the pleasure of doing. Maybe that ice
cream date will turn into a huge disaster, or maybe
itll be one of the best dates youve ever been on.
Either way, you learn something from it. So house
those stomach butterflies and ask that girl youve
been crushing on since freshman year.
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16
WHERE DO
WE GO FROM
HERE?
A Very Sporadic Piece Written on My Mid-Life
Crisis at Seventeen
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Ive been told many times that Im good at certain things. But why is it, that no matter how many
times Im told this, I dont feel this way? My doubt is my voice of reason. It questions if Im good enough to
do things, and why Im doing things.
I think everyone has this. When I ask people what they want to do in the future, they kind of just
shrug and say I have no clue. This gives me a sense of comfort because its a reminder that no one has it
figured out. We kind of all feel lost, but its a communal lost. Were all secretly clinging to the comfort of our
own beds in the familiar homes we grew up in. Im going to miss that stain on my wall that my friend accidently smeared at my fifth grade birthday party, or the quietness of the house every Sunday morning, but I
want to move on to bigger things.
Where will we be this time next year? What will we be like? Will we keep in touch with each other?
Fall apart? Will anyone of us really know what were doing? No? What about when were fourty and have
children? Will we then?
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This whole year has been one fleeting, ephemeral moment. One big haze. That one football game
where I lost my voice, that one performance where we gave it our all, that one night, that one kiss, Im
never going to forget it. But theres an art in being nervous or feeling small; it gives you a chance to make
something of yourself. And it may seem weird, but I cant wait to walk down those University hallways
where no one knows my name.
Twilight
Lindsay Pallo and Iris Kim
19
HOME AWAY
FROM HOME
20
Im never been in love
with anything more than I
have New York City.
21
-Dylan Thomas
22
THE SOUND
OF NEW
YORK
Wayne Newton - Danke Schoen
LCD Soundsystem - New York, I
Love You But Youre Bringing Me
Down
Frank Sinatra - New York, New York
Foster The People - Houdini
The Temper Trap - Sweet Disposition
Peter, Bjorn and John - Young Folks
The Cure- Friday, Im In Love
Madonna - Ray of Light
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thank you
THANK
YOU
24
Thank you.
Thank you, Mr. Larsen for not grading our art proj-
ery day.
french bearable.
role in Parliament.
25
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Thank you, to the teachers who havent sent me to the office whenver I was late.
Thank you, Mr. Harris, for teaching philosophy and making me question if this
world is even real.
Thank you, to all my former friends who taught me everything I dont want in a
friendship.
Thank you, to those who taught me what I do.
And of course thank you, for taking the time to read this diary. I wish you all the
best.
Until next time,
Iris Kim
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THE SENIOR
DIARIES