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SHATTERING
By Sarah Manguso
Untitled (Putting on Make-Up), Kitchen Table series II, by Carrie Mae Weems, whose work
was on view last year at the Solomon R. Guggenheim Museum, in New York City
The artist. Courtesy the artist and Jack Shainman Gallery, New York City
he point of having
a child is to be rent
asunder, torn in two.
Years before I had my son I heard
of an artist explaining why she had
decided to become a mother: I
didnt want to reach the end of my
life intact. Imperious, I judged this
to be sentimentalp ermanently
damaged by a chronic illness, I
considered myself already ruined
and misunderstood by the healthy
and normal. And what is more
normal than the ability to give
birth? But motherhood is a different sort of damage. It is a shattering, a disintegration of the self, after which the original form is quite
gone. Still, it is a breakage that we
are, as a species if not as individuals, meant to survive.
I want to read books that were
written in desperation, by people
who are disturbed and overtaxed,
who balance on the extreme edge of
experience. I want to read books by
people who are acutely aware that
death is coming and that abiding
love is our last resort. And I want to
write those books.
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