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A SUCCA IN STOCKHOLM
Story | Menachem Ziegelboim
EDITOR-IN-CHIEF:
M.M. Hendel
‘ARISE AND SING, THOSE WHO DWELL ENGLISH EDITOR:
IN THE DUST’ (CONT)
Boruch Merkur
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Moshiach & Geula | Rabbi Sholom Dovber HaLevi Wolpo HEBREW EDITOR:
Rabbi Sholom Yaakov Chazan
A SIMCHAS TORAH OF JOY AND TEARS editorH@beismoshiach.org
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MY T’SHUVA
Profile | D. Rotem
A¤S>O J>I@ERP
FROM EXILE
Likkutei Sichos Vol. 9, pg. 175-183
The fact that He is troubled by
the suffering of the Jewish people
still does not mean that He is in
exile,33 but only that the suffering
and misfortunes of Jews cause Him
Translated by Boruch Merkur to suffer.34
However, from here, from this
verse (in the portion Nitzavim),
“G-d, your L-rd, will return,” our Rabbis derive the
teaching “that the Divine Presence resides with the
Jewish people, as it were, amidst the suffering of their
exile” – the Divine Presence Itself is together with the
Jewish people, as it were, in exile.35
5. This line of reasoning, however, begs the
following question. Since G-d Himself is “amidst the
suffering of their exile” – that is, He too is in exile in
the lands of the gentile nations, as it were – how can
He redeem Himself together with the Jewish people?
Logic clearly dictates and it is readily discerned – even
a five-year-old sees – that “a bound person cannot free
himself”!36
In response to this question, Rashi says, “He has
inscribed redemption for Himself when they are to be
redeemed.” Prior to going into exile, He had
“inscribed” (for this had occurred once before – in the
desert) that when the time that “they are to be
redeemed” will arrive, when the Jewish people need to
the Moshiach is alluded to in the name will comfort and cheer us, as is
written, “Give us joy corresponding
of Moshiach – “whose name is to the days You afflicted us.”
(Likkutei Sichos, Vol. 19, from pg. 356)
Menachem” (Sanhedrin 98a) – who
17 TISHREI: SIMCHAS BEIS
will comfort and cheer us, as is written, HA’SHOEIVA (A) – IN THE BEIS
HA’MIKDASH AND TODAY
“Give us joy corresponding to the days We find an additional emphasis
You afflicted us.” on the concept of simcha on the
holiday of Sukkos, in addition to the
obligation of rejoicing on every Yom
tov, as the Holiday of Sukkos is called (by its proper
complete the making of the dwelling place for Him. name) – the Time of Our Rejoicing.
(Kuntres Chag HaSukkos 5750) In addition, Sukkos also has another special aspect
of joy – Simchas Beis HaShoeiva, the drawing of the
15 TISHREI – 1ST DAY OF SUKKOS: SUKKOS AND THE water at night in the time of the Beis HaMikdash (for the
FUTURE REDEMPTION water libations the following day upon the altar) was a
“On the first day, there shall be a holy assembly, joyous event – “And you shall draw water with joy from
you shall do work of labor,” “And you shall take for the wellsprings of deliverance” – and with the greatest
yourselves on the first day the fruit of the beautiful joy, to the point that our Sages, of blessed memory, say
tree, etc.” (BaMidbar, Chapter 23). (Sukka, beg. of Chapter 5), “Anyone who has not seen
The Gemara states regarding this (P’sachim 5a) that Simchas Beis HaShoeiva has not seen joy in his
as reward for the two “firsts” – resting on Yom Tov and lifetime.”
“the taking of the lulav” – we merit “the building of the Furthermore, as has been mentioned on numerous
Beis HaMikdash and the name of Moshiach,” who is occasions, even in these times (when we do not have the
called “first” (“As a Throne of Glory, exalted from the Beis HaMikdash), we make Simchas Beis HaShoeiva (in
first, so is the place of our Sanctuary, “The first one to several respects) immediately, in full force, already from
Tzion, behold, behold them”). the first night of Sukkos.
The Maharsha interprets this: The holiday of Sukkos (Seifer Hisvaaduyos 5745, pg. 282, Seifer HaSichos 5750, pg. 42)
is commemorated “because I had the children of Israel
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A REAL EXPERIENCE
OF TISHREI WITH
THE REBBE
Interview by Avrohom Reinitz
Being with the Rebbe in Tishrei is an Before we get into the current
situation, please describe what
excellent opportunity to become more “Tishrei with the Rebbe” was like
when we could see and be seen.
mekushar to him. * As long as we are in Tishrei with the Rebbe is a month
of contrasts, with the seriousness
the final moments of galus and do not and awe of Rosh HaShana and Yom
see the Rebbe, it is like the king in the Kippur and the simcha of Sukkos
and Simchas Torah. Above all else,
field, without his royal garments and the atmosphere was electrified with
an elevation of spirit, an existence
majestic revelations. We need an that was beyond time.
In Tishrei there was never
isarusa d’l’tata (arousal from below) enough time. We had to rush in
order to be in the right place at the
and our own avoda in order to feel the right time. We also needed to
love and fear of Tishrei with the Rebbe. prepare before davening with the
Rebbe or before hearing a sicha from
* At the same time, we need to the Rebbe. Everything needed the
proper preparation.
differentiate between genuine avodas Throughout the month, and
especially on busy days, there was
Hashem that comes from a desire to always a fear lest we miss something.
Maybe we wouldn’t make it in time
become closer to the Rebbe and an for the t’kios or maybe we wouldn’t
about Tishrei with the Rebbe. the Rebbe returned from the mikva.
THE WORLD’S
GREATEST
PROVIDERS OF
HOSPITALITY
By Yisrael Yehuda
the residents of Crown Heights are the Rambam say if he heard the
following story?
amazing in their hospitality! They open R’ Chaim Hillel Springer relates:
“A year ago, before Sukkos, a
their hearts, their homes, and their woman in Crown Heights called
Hachnosas Orchim and said that
pockets for people who are not related every Shabbos she hosts ten girls in
her home. She figures that the girls
to them, for people they may have never will eat inside on Sukkos, so she
met before. * A look at the incredible will be able to have ten bachurim in
her sukka. Could they send her ten
hospitality in the Rebbe’s sh’chuna. bachurim? Before hanging up she
said, please don’t forget!
“If you’ve visited Hachnosas
Orchim around Sukkos time, you
“It is forbidden for a person to will be a guest by others, for he
know how incredibly busy the
travel on Erev Shabbos more than will cause them embarrassment
organizers are, so I forgot the
three parsaos from the beginning of because they did not prepare
woman’s request and remembered
the day, so that he arrives home something appropriate for
it only Erev Sukkos afternoon. At
with much of the day remaining and guests.”
that point I could only remember
prepares a meal for Shabbos, for his (Rambam, Hilchos Shabbos, chapter 30, the family’s name but not their
household does not know that he is halacha 11)
address, but her request was so
arriving that day in order to prepare The Rambam teaches us proper touching that I decided to make the
it for him. Even more so, if he
A SUCCA IN
STOCKHOLM
By Menachem Ziegelboim
It was the second year that Rabbi personal use of one tenant. “What sukka built by the Chabadnikim.
Chaim Greisman was living on would happen if, that week, one of Rabbi Greisman drove around
shlichus in Stockholm, Sweden. the tenants would want to use that with his sukka to schools, hospitals,
Some time before Sukkos, he specific part of the yard and would be and senior centers, and enabled other
presented a request to the chairman unable to do so,” they said. Jews to do the mitzvos of Sukkos.
of the building committee in order to Rabbi Greisman had a solution to ***
get permission to build a sukka in the that question and he said he had no About a month before the annual
huge yard adjacent to the building he problem leaving the door to his sukka meeting of the building committee,
lived in. open so that anybody could come in. Rabbi Greisman submitted a request
The year before, his first year on That didn’t help. The members of to be allowed to use the yard for a
shlichus, he lived in a small building the committee said categorically that sukka. He was even invited to attend
and he built his sukka in a small there was to be no sukka in the yard. the meeting so he could explain his
structure on the roof. The chairman Since they realized this was a request to the other tenants. Although
of the building committee did not request that would be made annually, there were several anti-Semitic
exactly comprehend why he wanted they suggested that he submit the seniors who opposed the sukka, he
to leave his apartment and live in that request for a special discussion to be was ultimately able to get a majority
hut on the roof, but he agreed to it raised at the annual meeting that to approve the building of a sukka,
for a week’s time. would take place half a year later. At every year, for a week’s time.
During the course of the year that that meeting a full forum of the During the meeting, one of the
followed, the Greismans moved to an committee would gather and discuss tenants asked for the floor. She was
apartment in a complex of 160 all requests that had accumulated. a Jew and until that day none of her
apartments surrounded by an They said the request should be neighbors knew that she was Jewish
enormous green yard. The yard was submitted about a month before the since she didn’t publicize this fact
hardly used since most of the tenants meeting. and was even married to a non-Jew.
were elderly. Rabbi Greisman did In the meantime, Rabbi Greisman When she heard that the rabbi had
not think he would have a problem did not have a sukka. His creative submitted a request to build a sukka,
using a small part of the yard for one Jewish head worked overtime and he she decided to join the fray and said
week. The chairman heard his came up with a great idea. He would that the rabbi was not the only one
request and said he would have an have a sukka on a flatbed truck. The who wanted a sukka. Other Jews
answer in two weeks. truck would be parked near his who lived in the building, including
Two weeks later, Rabbi Greisman building and could be used by him herself, wanted it and the request
received a letter from the committee, and his mekuravim. should be treated accordingly. As
apologizing that they could not It turned out that his sukka was a mentioned earlier, the request was
approve his request to use the yard. big hit and the number of Jews who granted.
They did not give a reason. Rabbi came to see it was greater than the Since then, Rabbi Greisman
Greisman tried to discuss it with the previous year. About 150 Jews builds a spacious sukka every year in
members of the committee but got visited the sukka over the eight days. the yard of his building. This attracts
nowhere. With typical Swedish They got on the truck, took the arba many Jews from the community as
formality they said it was a communal minim and said the bracha “leisheiv well as tourists who visit the city. In
yard and therefore, not even a small ba’sukka.” Even the Israeli this instance, Chassidic warmth
part of it could be given for the ambassador came to see the unusual managed to melt the Swedish cold.
Mivtza Dalet Minim is one of the that another Jew can do the mitzva
after you.
Rebbe’s first mivtzaim. The mivtza took The Jew no longer hesitates.
He heard him clearly, and what he
off and within a few years, thousands of did not hear, his Jewish neshama
heard. And without shame “before
Jews had recited the bracha on the four those who mock,” he took out – in
THEY’RE LOOKING
AT YOU
By Rabbi Levi Pariz
Prepared for publication by Shneur Zalman Levin
so for children, who observe their are up close, you don’t appreciate
the bounty you are given:
parents’ behavior. My uncle, the chozer R’ Yoel
Kahn, traveled a lot to give shiurim
in Tanya and Chassidus. One time,
We are waiting each day for the receive people and the attendant when I was a bachur, he told me
Rebbe to come. Then we can take refused to let him enter. The that he had invited one of the
our children, our students and Chassid pleaded with him, saying bachurim, who had begun to learn
grandchildren, all of them, to greet he had an urgent problem. The Tanya and get close to Lubavitch,
him. He will come together with attendant finally told him that at to attend the Rebbe’s Chai Elul
our Rebbeim, the Chabad leaders, midnight, the Rebbe’s door was farbrengen.
and will say, “See the offshoots I open. “You can enter and tell the The bachur came but R’ Yoel
have raised.” That is what we are Rebbe your problem, but I won’t be met him again only a while later.
preparing for. able to bring you in.” The bachur told him that he had
When we speak about these The Chassid showed up at been at the farbrengen and “You
things to Anash, sometimes it’s midnight and saw the Tzemach have no idea what an Elul I had …
hard because we have, baruch Tzedek standing near the wall with what a Rosh HaShana … what a
Hashem, a wealth of sichos from his face aflame. With great Yom Kippur…”
the Rebbe, maamarim, letters, etc., enthusiasm, with his hands held When R’ Yoel asked him to
about how to educate children, how aloft, the Rebbe said from his explain, the bachur said, “The
to have shalom bayis between a T’hillim, “even a bird finds a Rebbe spoke, but I didn’t
man and wife, between a Jew and home,” and translated it into understand everything. What I did
G-d, between us and the Rebbe, Yiddish, “but you Hashem, still did understand was that the Rebbe said
between ourselves. Since we have not find a home…” that from Chai Elul until Rosh
this wealth at our fingertips, The attendant stood and waited HaShana there are twelve days,
sometimes we don’t pay attention… for him. The Chassid went over to each day corresponding to a month
One time, a Chassid of the him and said, “Look, look! The of the year. On each day you can
Tzemach Tzedek had a big problem Rebbe is in supernal worlds now!” make up for the corresponding
and he had to see the Rebbe. He The attendant replied simply, month of the previous year.
came on one of those days when “What are you getting so excited “When I heard this, I began to
the Tzemach Tzedek did not about? This happens nearly every say the daily brachos and davening
properly, knowing that this makes
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36): “The truth is that ‘Moshe did Moshiach can be revealed from Gan time”). However, in an inner sense,
not die’ (Sota 13b, Zohar I 37b), Eden, etc. – rather, it is because the “Moshe Rabbeinu did not die” and
and ‘just as in the case below he Rebbe is alive and living with us in the question is essentially irrelevant.
stands and serves in Heaven, even the physical sense, and the Therefore, we too “have only the
here he stands and serves in Heaven’ histalkus and the hiding and words of the son of Amram,” and we
(Sota ibid.). And not just in Heaven, concealment is only from our must surely say regarding the hiding
but also down here…and with this vantage point. and concealment of Gimmel
strength, we can go to shuls and Furthermore, while the Rebbe Tammuz that “even now, the Rebbe
explain to the Jews we meet there himself brings some of the sources, is with us in the physical sense,” and
that Moshe really didn’t die and even though he said that the Rebbe he will reveal himself very soon and
there is no change…If they accept it, Rayatz is chai v’kayam, this is since lead us to the Complete Redemption,
that’s all well and good, and if there it appeared so, at least from this as will be explained further at length.
are questions and doubts – when a world’s point of view, and therefore, This is what our Sages, of blessed
child ask the melamed a question, there is a question and we have to memory, have said in Midrash Rabba
and the melamed doesn’t know what talk about resurrection, etc. (BaMidbar 11:3, among other
to reply, he slaps [the child] on the (According to what the Ramban places) that Moshiach will be
cheek and tells him, ‘You’ll writes at the end of Parshas VaYechi “revealed and then hidden…and we
understand when you grow on the pasuk, “And Yosef’s brothers find this at the Redemption from
up!’…Similarly, we can also tell this
Jew asking questions: ‘This is the
reality, even if you don’t When the Rebbe spoke about his faith
understand.’”
In a sicha from the 15th of
that the Rebbe Rayatz is Moshiach, it
Tammuz 5745 (quoted from the
recording): “The Rebbe lives
does not specifically require all the ^
physically in this physical and aforementioned sources – that ^
material world for thirty-five years
(i.e., since Yud Shvat 5710), and at Moshiach can be revealed from Gan
every moment, he becomes stronger
and is made healthier, fresher, and Eden, etc. – rather, it is because the
livelier (“gezunter, frisher, un
lebediker”). No rabbi, no attorney,
Rebbe is alive and living with us in the
no one can alter the simple and clear
fact that he is alive.” You will find
physical sense.
that anyone who says that the Rebbe
is in the World of Truth is “someone saw that their father had died,” this Egypt, when Moshe was revealed to
who has no concept except in is no contradiction to the statement them and then was hidden from
physicality and materialism, and of our Sages, of blessed memory, them.” The Chasam Sofer explains
everything is measured with him in that “Yaakov Avinu did not die,” (“Toras Moshe,” Shmos 5:22): “This
terms of what his eyes see and his because the intention is only that “he was a great trial that the Redeemer
physical senses grasp.” Similarly, in a is dead to them,” since they don’t see (Moshe Rabbeinu) was hidden for
sicha from Shabbos Parshas Tetzaveh him with their flesh eyes. In addition, six months, and so it will be in the
5710 (Toras Menachem, Vol. 1, pg. according to what is explained in days of Moshiach Tzidkeinu, who
18): “Those who say that the Yalkut Shimoni, Parshas VaYechi, will be hidden after the hisgalus,”
‘histalkus’ means that the Rebbe has Remez 156: “When the time drew as will be explained further at length.
departed from us are boors who near for Yisroel to die, G-d said to (It has already been noted that
don’t know what they’re talking him, ‘By your life, you are hidden, “nigleh v’chozer v’nische” (revealed
about.” and you are not dead.’ It is further and then hidden) is the same
It is thus understood that when explained in Haflaa (K’subos 104a): numerical value as “Gimmel
the Rebbe spoke about his faith that “It appears in his interpretation that Tammuz” and also “Od Moshiach
the Rebbe Rayatz is Moshiach, it he is hidden and concealed from the Chai,” however, we are not dealing
does not specifically require all the generation…hidden from the now with allusions.)
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affected him severely.
Both family and friends were
shocked. All knew him as a cheerful
person, ready to help no matter the
cause. He had always smiled, but
since the financial disaster everything
The sister’s initial reaction was shock. changed.
His wife, who saw the
Had her sister also taken leave of her deterioration, decided to go to the
Lubavitcher Rebbe, even though we
senses? “Do you lack rabbis and rebbes cannot see him now, to ask for his
bracha and to daven that just as in
to go to in Boro Park that you’re going the past his blessings had helped, so
to the Lubavitcher Rebbe? If you could too now, certainly the Rebbe would
intercede on her behalf.
see him, then I would understand, Just as she used to do when
dollars were distributed, now too, she
because he’s definitely a big tzaddik went to the Rebbe every Sunday.
She stood in the lobby of 770, where
who did miracles. But now? dollars were given out, and said
T’hillim and asked the Rebbe to
When the Rebbe gave out dollars and they are Alexander Chassidim,” arouse mercy on her husband. She
for tz’daka on Sunday, all sorts of begins Rebbetzin Rochel Hendel from started doing this in the middle of the
people came: Litvish and Chassidish, Tzfas. “The father learned in winter.
Admurim and Rabbanim, yeshivas Chabad in Montreal and he A few months went by and
Kibbutznikim and Neturei Karta. has a warm spot for Chabad although the situation did not change,
Amongst the crowds one could even Chassidus and the Rebbe. It is a she continued to pray.
spot world renowned figures. All family known for its hospitality and
came for counsel and/or a bracha. its unusually fine character. THE WOMAN ASKED:
For some of them, their encounter Whenever we go to 770 we try to REBBE, GIVE ME A SIGN!
with the Rebbe changed their lives visit them too. Over the years we
dramatically. have become good friends. One summer day, her sister
The following story took place 25 “Two years ago, as we spoke noticed that she made trips on
years ago when the Rebbe gave out about the Rebbe’s greatness, the Sundays without people knowing
lekach and a dollar Erev Hoshana mother told us the following story.” where she was going. One Sunday,
Rabba, and ended on a summer day They had run a successful the sister asked her where she went
in New York, three years ago in an electronics store for many years in every Sunday morning. At first she
amazing way. Boro Park. Many Lubavitchers declined to answer but her
bought their electronic gadgets from evasiveness only increased her sister’s
***
them, especially during Tishrei, when curiosity. After her sister pestered
“The R. family lives in Boro Park her, she told her about going to the
There’s the famous story about well as any Jew who comes in moshav. Baruch Hashem there
the ignorant boy who did not even contact with other Jews, needs to was a minyan, but when it came
know how to daven. He called out know how to assess each situation time to blow the shofar, nobody
cock-a-doodle-doo in the Baal and know how to react with knew how to do it. All the men
Shem Tov’s beis midrash in the sensitivity. urged one another to blow the
middle of the Yom Kippur A few years ago, in the course shofar but nobody could do it. In
davening. The Baal Shem Tov, of my outreach work at schools, the end, they gave the shofar to a
who had exerted himself to the during one of the days of the minor (under the age of bar
utmost in order to annul Heavenly Aseres Yemei T’shuva, I met a mitzva) and he blew. Had they
accusations, said that the boy’s teacher. She wanted to tell me a fulfilled the mitzva?
crowing, which came from the story and to ask me a halachic I gently told the teacher that
depths of his heart, is what question. they had not fulfilled their
cancelled the accusations. The previous Rosh HaShana, obligation, at least they should
Every shliach of the Rebbe, as she had davened at the shul on her know for next time. I resolved
that every time I would visit
children during Elul, I would teach
as many of them as possible how
to blow the shofar so that when
they grew up, there wouldn’t be a
situation in which a shul had no
one who knew how to blow shofar.
Since that time, whenever I
visit a school during Elul, I ask
who never blew a shofar before.
Half the class raises their hands
and I pick some children and teach
them how to do it. This is in
addition to explaining the types of
blasts and the significance of
shofar-blowing according to
halacha and Chassidus.
I have another sad story about
a shliach in South America. The
shliach has a large congregation
and on the Yomim Noraim he gets
700 people. Unfortunately, last
Rosh HaShana, out of 700 people,
questions.
I asked them about a shidduch.
MY T’SHUVA
By D. Rotem
They said I had to leave my job,
become a fulltime student of their
school for baalos t’shuva and live in
the dormitory. Then, they would
work on it. I said I was from a
religious home and I did not need a
fulltime school program, in addition
UNCOMPROMISING answer my questions and I felt that
to which, at my place of work I had
TRUTH authenticity was lacking.
a positive influence on others in
I was born into a Mizrachi- Torah and mitzvos.
Yemenite family. I attended state- JEWISH PRIDE They said, “You are still a small
religious schools and when I was My first leap was when an candle and you cannot give light.
bas-mitzva I decided I wanted to be nonreligious man asked me if I was They will extinguish you. It’s only
chareidi (ultra-Orthodox). I began religious and commented that I when you will become a great flame
being careful about washing my didn’t look it. I was completely that you will be able to illuminate…”
hands and I wanted to go to a shaken up by this, as Judaism was I got up and left.
chareidi school but was not accepted an integral part of who I was. I
since there was an unwritten rule, loved being religious. I decided that PERSONAL GEULA
agreed upon by the principal of the from then on, everybody would
chareidi school and state-religious know I was religious. That night I felt lost. If this was
school, that each student would I made an enormous change. I not the place, where should I go? I
learn in her own city. So I changed my wardrobe and became a felt the earth shaking under my feet.
continued at the state-religious real fanatic. I began to seek out I walked down the street and cried.
school and my enthusiasm waned. shiurim and I found an organization I said to Hashem: Help me! Show
I always felt connected to religion for baalei t’shuva which I went to, me the way. Don’t let me go lost. It
and prayed with great intensity. But with mesirus nefesh, for three years. was just me and Hashem.
I was in a co-ed environment and I I regularly attended shiurim, Suddenly I heard someone call
wore pants. At age 22, I was about listened and understood, but it had my name. I turned around and saw
to marry someone but I left him no effect on me whatsoever. I did my Lubavitcher neighbor. She said,
since I saw that our home would not not add a quarter of a mitzva “Nurit, a Tanya shiur is starting in
be based on Torah and mitzvos. I throughout those years. It was all my house tomorrow. Do you want
was seeking Judaism and my thirst mathematical, scientific proofs about to come?”
was tremendous. I heard an inner the existence of a G-d. They dealt a This was it! I had just asked and
voice say to me: Nurit, this is not great deal with darkness, in then and there I had been given an
enough; become stronger. debunking theories that I didn’t even answer. The next day I went to the
In the Mizrachi world I was in I know about, and my head hurt. Tanya shiur and felt immensely
had many questions, since One time, after attending a uplifted, as though someone had
compromises were made and I Chabad event, I went to the shiur. I picked me up high. It was the
didn’t know who set the standards. felt that they were giving me hostile antithesis to what I had experienced
I was bothered by the fact that looks. They angrily said: We heard earlier, three years with no spiritual
everybody made their own rules. negative things about you! progress.
When you go out into the world I was shocked. I was really The most amazing thing was
there are things to deal with and you bothered by the hatred of one group when I got up from my seat at the
ask yourself what the rules are. Are for another. If that wasn’t enough, end of the shiur. I felt I was
pants permitted or forbidden? The that day the shiur was worse than hovering. I had never felt that way
teachers in school wore skirts but usual. I felt that someone was before and it was extremely intense.
after school they changed into pants. splitting my head open. Although I It frightened me. I felt I was
What was I to understand from this? am practical and love math, I disconnected and I asked the other
Nothing. couldn’t take it anymore. It really ladies whether they felt the same
I felt I had no framework, no turned me off. I was putting in way. They said they did not.
boundaries. As far as I was great effort to attend these classes With all my trepidation I realized
concerned, this approach did not and they did not answer my this was my place and Hashem had
heard my prayer and had shown me