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Alyssa D. Humbles
facilitate the Emerging Greek Leaders Program (EGLP) curriculum that was designed this
summer. This opportunity allowed for me to see, first hand, what aspects of program
development translated well into practice and what areas needed further refinement. Also, over
the course of the six week program, certain aspects like population focus, campus climate and
flexibility proved to be pivotal. While the facilitation process taught me so much about the
development aspect to programming, the liberty given with this independent study to also think
introspectively added such a wealth to my growth as both a person and practitioner. At the
conclusion of this experience, each day I find myself giving more meaning to the progression my
initial interest in this program has taken, the emotional tug of war I felt leading into each session,
the culmination of the program, and finally the invaluable feedback I received during a
debriefing with my summer internship coordinator regarding the program. All of this has
broadened my perception of self professionally and personally and has even provided further
Initial Interest
the EGLP. I thought this would be a great opportunity to see the manifestation of our hard work
from the summer. As the formal details became concrete, I found that the added caveat of also
being responsible for my self-perceptions throughout the course of this semester lent itself to add
a complexity that I had yet to experience in an academic format previously. Going into this
skills and the topic of leadership, layers such as social location, population familiarity,
confidence, and malleability have the ability to alter how curriculum can be delivered and
For some time now I have had an interest in furthering my understanding about how I am
perceived in spaces. My most salient identities would be my spirituality, race, and gender. I
realize that two of the three are visible attributes that can be presumed by others based on their
own understanding and assumptions. I have felt previously that due to how I was perceived in
certain professional capacities, limits were been placed on me, in particular by my superiors.
allowed for me to first see that my experiences are ones that resonate with other practitioners.
That within certain spaces among certain audiences, how one intentionally asserts themselves is
what creates the space to continue to demystify type-casted projections by opening the door for
others to be receptive. A study conducted by Perry, Moore, Edwards, Acosta, and Frey stated
that this strategy can be both physically and emotionally taxing (2009). Throughout the EGLP
there were plenty of opportunities to become overwhelmed, discouraged, and loose motivation,
entered the first session with a strong efficacy in my ability to co-facilitate the curriculum
primarily due to how much time we spent digesting it over the course of this summer. Coupled
with the formal development of the program, I have spent a significant amount of time reflecting
translated into actionable skills professionally. I was excited to begin uncovering some of those
revelations to those, whom I believed had such a greater advantage being still immersed in their
undergraduate experience.
As we began meeting, week after week the energy among the cohort seemed to shift. I
realize now that I internalized that shift as a direct reflection of my presence in the space and
allowed our differences to surface as validity for my feelings. I compared things like the
differing of councils between those represented in by the cohort the program versus my own and
different undergraduate institutions. I tried to rationalize the varying differences is what made it
difficult for us to connect throughout the program. Now, I am able to deduct that as the program
continued, each session was held as we got further into the term where the workload had
intensified for most. Also, simultaneous to the programs schedule, the campus climate had
segregation and politics. Not to mention that like anything else, when we enter into spaces,
along with us comes our experiences personally as well, leading up to that point.
The structure of each session had a limited amount of time to deviate from the pre-set
schedule considering the breath of content we desired to cover. Taking into consideration that
the EGLP provide maybe one of few spaces that our participants may have engaged in on a
regular basis dedicated to their personal growth with minimal ramifications, such as grading,
more liberties could have been taken to demonstrate more care or check-ins. This aligns with my
spiritual identity, in that I tend to lead with compassion and now desire to find how to formally
integrate that into program design. The focus of the program was geared towards empowering
student Greek leaders to understand their own positionality to support the LUC Greek
community and campus at large. The lessons, while tailored to Greek life are not exclusive to a
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Greek experience, but are helpful in any capacity where working alongside others for a common
goal takes precedence. Kolvenbachs (2000) focus on the integration of faith and justice within
the educational setting requires instruction around the whole person to then positively translate to
the real world. Furthermore, solidarity is learned through contact rather than through
concepts (Kolvenback, 2000). Greek life can tend to be siloed, as it is predicated on attributes,
such letters and colors which are unique identifiers like a last name, however have a
commonality among fundamental values. The EGLP provided another opportunity for members
of the LUC Greek community to interact with their peers to build this solidary through their
contact and collective learning, centered around their commonalities of being a member of a
Greek organization. To richen the diversity among the cohort, my varying experiences just aided
in this desire to enhance contact for a deeper learning rather than a detriment to learning.
Moments of clarity, such as this, came into focus towards the fifth of six sessions held
with the cohort. The final topic was the Social Change Model. We took on the topic with
confidence as we hoped to add depth to our previous conversations and critically challenge the
cohort to think of how they could employ the skills discussed over the course of the EGLP. As
we uncovered the three major spheres of the model and began to direct an activity about putting
the theory to practice, the dialogue unearthed some notions that were inherently embedded due to
the scope of the perspective brought on by their personal affiliation with councils and identities.
It was in that moment that I received reaffirmation of my value and eagerness to learn. As a co-
facilitator, I began to pose probing questions to encourage the cohort to grapple with the ideas of
inclusivity, recognizing their own positionality and the concept of perspective taking. Our final
session had a thriving dialogue where we left with more questions than we did answers. Some
aspects of the dialogue gave the cohort pause which brought on silence, but even those spaces
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provided the opportunity for us to negotiate the validity of a perspective. It was a conclusion like
that which made me long for our next opportunity to engage is such a discourse. However, our
final meeting was structured completely different. Seeing the value brought on by the natural
dialogue, led by the questions posed from the cohort, I was inclined to consider in what ways we
The final session of the EGLP allowed for the cohort to illustrate their definition of
leadership. They were encouraged to reflect on where they began in terms of their understanding
and how the course content may have influenced the evolution of the concept for them. While
each member from the cohort shared a slightly different perspective to where the find leadership
visible in and around LUC, a reoccurring theme was the impact one individual can have for an
entire group. Gundlach, Zivnuska, and Stoner (2006) denoted the relationship between
individualism and team dynamics in their critique of the social identity theory and social
relations model. They suggest there is a significance between an individual understanding their
social identify and the subsequent impact seen in team identity (Gundlach, Zivnuska, & Stoner,
2006). While we were pressed for time to cover each aspect that we thoughtwas important when
discussing leadership, we made a decision to omit the discussion and activity previously used
concept without a considerable amount of time for fear of not doing the topic justice. Seeing that
some of the dialogues could have been co-constructed differently had we all set a foundation of
similar terminology or addressing some general assumptions, I wonder how we could have
Despite the areas of opportunity within the curriculum built, seeing the cohort during
their final presentations celebration was truly heart-warming. We ended the session by
presenting each of the participants with a certificate of appreciation for their commitment to the
EGLP, and for each one of them to have such a pleasant exchange with each other during the
informal dinner, side conversations sparked with either myself or my coordinator, and even the
way they shared of their experiences with our guest and visitors showed that this program set
differently with everyone, but everyone took something away regardless if it was an intended
My coordinator and I had a conversation around the third session about flexibility,
something that in my professional capacity I practice with ease, but for some reason within this
setting I felt more immobilized. It could have been for a number of things, such as the personal
limitation I placed on myself due to my formal position and concern for taking that informal
power to deviate from the guides we planned for so diligently. As she began to provide me with
feedback during the course of the program, I found it becoming more natural for me to engage in
dialogues with the cohort and allowing them to steer the conversation. Conversations like this
did not come too far and in between. After each session we would meet for some time to discuss
the session we had just led and plan for the following meeting. The immediate conversations
allowed for me to find ways to directly apply changes for the next session and even beyond the
EGLP.
Feedback
To round out the program, my coordinator and I scheduled a debriefing to review the
program and the survey results from the participants. As we began, she first shared with me the
feedback from the participants. Their reflections regarding the program structure, content
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covered, and delivery were very informative. One respondent mentioned that they enjoyed the
opportunity to grapple with concepts alongside their peers while another said that their
understanding of the concept of leadership did not alter much. This wide array of responses was
seen as they critiqued each aspect of the program. I paid particular attention to their reflections
regarding the facilitators. Some of their remarks denoted uncertainty among the facilitators
while others saw open ended questions as a space to add their own interpretation. To add, my
coordinator shared over the course of the program strategies to pose questions in a way that
keeps them engaged. She phrased it as compounding questions naturally, rather than giving
them multiple questions with the intent to clarify but instead confuse. Furthermore, similar to
theories used to strategically develop curriculum or what informs practice, not one is all
encompassing. Similarly, every aspect of a person or program cannot be addressed within such a
condensed time frame. As program developers or facilitators, I found that if a primary focus is
placed on the substance of what is shared, while also setting an initial broad framework, the
dynamics lend themselves to hone in one concept in great depth and then rounding out the
conversation about the integration of additional pieces. This requires intentionality on the
development part, aside from the context. Also, having an awareness of how to introduce
concepts while being mindful of self is just as important as the concepts themselves. What good
Additional feedback that my coordinator shared with me really allowed me to see that
even some of the smallest gestures have a great impact. She shared with me that some of the
most valuable attributes I demonstrated throughout this term were my dedication, consistency
and professionalism. What I set out to do in the beginning of the term, I stuck to until the very
end. The areas of growth that I desired to gain out of this experience, I continuously asked for
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ways that I could improve week by week. She said that I took critique and promptly integrated it
in my facilitation style. Lastly, she mentioned my passion for this work. Even as times turned
challenging, while I too attempted to hold multiple things constant this term, I found within
myself a positive spirit to continue forth. I did not allow any difficulties that I may have been
I really found her feedback truly helpful. One of my biggest feats this term was
acknowledging my strengths and not letting them become overshadowed by the areas I desire to
enhance. Even when structuring my questions for our debriefing, I initially omitted a question
about positive outcomes as I was solely focused on finding ways to continuously improve. I see
Conclusion
This semester has really provided me a set time carved out to look at what motivates me.
The EGLP was the catalyst to where I was able to see multiple layers of myself: how my
identities and lived experiences are carried with me into settings, how my self-awareness aids in
how I present content, how theory is not easily translated into practice, rather is coupled by an
understanding of multiple dynamics and external factors, and even in the midst of adversity there
is spaces for growth. Throughout this entire process, I relied on my spiritualty to center me.
While the topic was not an integrated component of the curriculum, as I entered into the class for
every session, I carried with me the compassion, love of Christ and Christ-like behaviors that are
indicative of my faith. As I initially thought to find spaces where I could see my faith live in the
classroom, I have come to see it interwoven in my presence, my tone, my concern for others, and
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my passion to continue forth in this field. Just as I hope to have impart some wisdom on our
cohort, I am so humbled at the wisdom that they were able to impart on me that I hope will only
References
Gundlach, M., Zivnuska, S., & Stoner, J. (2006) Understanding the relationship between
identity theory and the social relations model. Human Relations, 59(12), 1603-1632.
Kolvenbach, P. (2000b, October). The service of faith and the promotion of justice in American
Jesuit higher education. Public lecture delivered at Santa Clara University, Santa Clara,
CA.
Perry, G., Moore, H., Edwards, C., Acosta, K., & Frey, C. (2009). Maintaining credibility and