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Jeff Brown
ENREALMENT PRESS
Toronto, Canada
SACRED FEMININE RISING:
Healing The Effects Of Unawakened Men
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TABLE OF CONTENTS
MEDITATION OF FEELING....................................................... 19
EXERCISE IN SELF-LOVE........................................................ 49
Thank you for downloading this course. The following inquiries and
exercises may be best completed after listening to their respective
audio recording, but this is not essential. At the heart of the course is
your own emotional process, so whatever ignites and supports that is
perfect. However you choose to do the course, I do recommend that
you move at a manageable pace, as this material has a strong
emotional charge to it, and needs real time to integrate. The culture is
moving so fast, but our emotional processes are delicate and have a
timeline all their own, particularly where trauma is concerned.
Sometimes we feel sure we have moved through a process, but find
out some time later that it is still unresolved. Better to move through
the material at a careful pace, so that you reach the end of the course
feeling integrated and grounded. And remember, now that you have
downloaded this course, you can do it as many times as you need to,
so you dont have to process everything at once and risk being
overwhelmed.
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I apologize for not seeing you, my eyes blinded by congealed rage and
unshed tears. If it is any consolation, and I imagine it is not, I could
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not see myself either. I saw only that which served my hyper-vigilance,
my warrior focus. My mirror was a battlefield.
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heartfelt warrior acknowledges the error of his ways, and has the
courage to do all he can to make amends over time.
I am grateful that you stuck with me through thick and thin, and I also
understand those times you had to give up and let go. I now recognize
that there is meaningful difference between a love-ship and a
relationship. Love alone is not enough. Without a shared willingness to
become conscious, there can only be frustration. I was so often
impossible, clinging to my unconsciousness like a soldier clings to his
weapons. I recognize the courage it took for you to keep your heart
open in the presence of my resistance. You had every right to seek an
authentic relationship, as your spirit was ignited in its presence. Your
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I look forward to the day when the only thing that ignites relationship
is two souls calling out to one another, two soul-hearts beating in the
same direction, a whisper of longing that bridges one essence to
another. I want to want you not because it gratifies my ego, not
because you are outwardly beautiful, but because your very presence
invites my Godself out of hiding. I want to touch you with my heart on
my sleeve, to know chemistry between us that is not gender identified,
but that is essence sourced, loves liquid lava flowing from the heart to
the genitals to the great beyond. In this love-struck world, relationship
will always be experienced as spiritual practice, a devotional
expression of our God-self.
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May you feel the love of the Divine Mother crashing down on your
heartfelt shores, graciously lifting you up above the madness of the
world, nestling you in the grateful arms of those you have nurtured.
Those of us who have received your blessings may not always
acknowledge it, but your acts of love have landed within us, growing
us stronger and infusing us with loves light.
Thank you.
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CLASS 1: INTRODUCTION
I also invite you to spend some time clarifying your healing focus. That
is, what prior relationship(s) are you going to focus on in this course?
It has been my experience, in my own healing, that it is helpful to
work on one connection at a time, but thats up to you. You may
choose to focus on a number of unresolved connections, but I invite
you to spend some real time with the question before starting. Too
many memories at once can flood the process and limit healing.
Perhaps make a list of men you have known below, and consider which
connection(s) are the most more pressing- Where is the most healing
resonance? What does your heart say needs to be worked on first?
Who has impacted on you the most? What do you feel ready to heal
and integrate?
Name the individuals that come up when you feel into unresolved
feelings with men you have known. Make a note of the feelings,
memories and experiences that enter awareness Notice where the
most pressing energy is- where do you want to direct your attention?
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Before the next class, I ask you to spend some time feeling into the
question of how your experiences with and relationships to the
masculine may have impacted on the way you move through the
world, on the beliefs you have formed about life, on your degree of
safety in your own skin, on your willingness to be vulnerable, on your
relational patterns, on your life path choices, on your consciousness
itself. This is a lot to consider at this stage of the course, but it is a
helpful inquiry, because transformation demands an understanding of
the ways that our experiences have shaped our beliefs and behaviors.
We need to know how we have been impacted. Be imaginative and
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Then..
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Write down any meaningful insights, feelings, thoughts from the first
week of the class. What is coming up for you?
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When there has been too much pain, we often forget that we have the
built in capacity to move through it to another state. God gave us
tears to be cried, God gave us the capacity to express our anger, God
gave us a vast range of emotional devices that, when healthily
unleashed and expressed, can both clear the toxicity out of us, and
also lead us to any lesson or experience of self-love living at the heart
of them. Within our authentic vulnerability lives our greatest power-
the power to re-open our hearts after loss and disappointment. This is
seldom recognized or appreciated in the world out there, but its the
truth. The idea that feeling the pain gives power to those who have
hurt us is completely wrong. Feeling the pain is an act of self-
empowerment and the only way to make a break from the prison of
repressed emotions, to make a break for inner freedom.
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A MEDITATION OF FEELING
Now spend a few minutes nestling into your body, connecting with the
breath, your best friend, your truth teller, and the best way to
excavate your feelings from their hiding places. You are not going to
watch yourself in this meditation, you are going to feel yourself
Spend the next few minutes breathing into the deep within Deepen
the breath as you can
Now I want you to set the conscious intention to invite any feelings
related to the relationships or events you are working with to the
surface of your consciousness- heartbreak, anger, disappointment,
confusion, emotions with no clear definition, just feelings dont judge
them, dont block them, dont shame them, dont deny them, JUST
feel them bow to them as they enter the chambers of awareness let
them BREATHE!
The most important decision you will make in this course, more
important than anything said or written, is the decision as to whether
you intend to open and heal, or remain closed. If you form and own
the intention to open, anything is possible. So spend a few more
minutes right now, inside, feeling into your intentionality seeing how
deep it goes, solidifying it INTENDING to HEAL, INTENDING TO
FEEL
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Now feel into your body, not watching it from a distance, but REALLY
feeling it as the breath makes its way through your feeling body. Just
feel into it, without jumping to artificial forgiveness, without focusing
on others feelings, just submerge yourself in your own emotional
reality, the truth in the bones of your being. Let your breath find its
way into any hiding places, any places where there are old feelings
and judgments lurking, let it move into them and raise them into
awareness, let your body move any way it must to open the feelings
wider. If there are memories that come up with the feeling, turn
towards them and not away from them, breath into all of the emotions
associated with those experiences.. give yourself an opportunity to be
true to how it feels outside of your defences.. you can bow to your
defences, to anything that helped you to get on with your life, but bow
to them and ask them to move over to the side, so that you can
excavate the emotions and memories that are longing to be honored
All are welcome here, all memories that want to be acknowledged and
healed. Be with those feelings here, in your safe space. Imagine, if it
helps, a friend or a relative or a therapist or a group of individuals who
care about you holding the space for this process, giving you heartfelt
permission to be true to your heart, shielding you as you go deeply
into your emotional body and feel some of the pain you are still
holding, pain you dont want to hang onto any longer.
Spend as much time as you need just being with, honoring these
feelings. Again, Dont judge them, dont deny them, just let yourself
re-connect
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Often lost in the healing process are words that couldnt be expressed.
Words that express your displeasure, words that express your anger,
words that assert your boundaries. If it serves you, use the following
section to express whatever comes through you related to the
relationship(s) you are focused on in the course. Write it as a letter, or
just write it chaotically, letting it express itself as it sees fit. Dont filter
it out- no one is marking or judging you-, dont repress it for the sake
of anyone elses feelings, dont be afraid to let things get messy.. say
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Now imagine yourself in the presence of a man you are still angry at.
Choose a man you are focusing on in this course, or invite another
memory to rise to the surface if thats where the energy is. Go back
and remember him at a prior time- perhaps during an event that still
brings up unreleased anger, or create an entirely different location and
scenario, and imagine him there with you. Let him occupy some space
in your imaginings, as the breath becomes the space holder for the
interaction to come.
Now invite the breath to go deeper, like a shovel that brings up the
unresolved anger. Let it go right into the heart of the feeling, where
any rage is held, and invite it into awareness. Invite the anger into the
feeling chamber. Feel into the memories that source it.
When you are ready, allow the anger to take form inside you allow it
to bring the unresolved memories back to life allow it to build to a
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Now imagining yourself expressing the anger to the man before you
if there are words, imagine yourself expressing them if there are
sounds, imagine expressing them. Imagine yourself saying whatever
comes out of your mouth- there is no judgment here. Speak your
truth. Remember that he cannot hurt you here, now... he must remain
in the space and he must listen.... if your anger needs to be expressed
physically, imagine yourself tantruming, or raging, or hitting a
mattress in the space, whatever form your body demands to get it all
out. Let it all hang out give yourself the satisfaction of fully owning
your feelings and fully expressing them
When you feel that your experience is complete, come back to the
breath and let it soften the edges. Do this meditation as often as you
need to. Just imagining the expression of anger can be healing all on
its own. If it needs to move into tangible form, allow it to be expressed
in real-time when you feel ready.
Write down any meaningful insights, feelings, thoughts from the third
week of the class.
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You can only heal your heart with your heart, and
to do that we have to open the heart wide enough
for its healing elixir to rain down on our pain. Why
bury the tears that heal us? Why bury the emotions
that fertilize our expansion? Emotional release is
a potent way to regain a genuine experience of the
moment. Tears are Gods heartshield wipers. They
clear the dirt from our heart so we can see the
path clearly. Let our quest for spiritual expansion
begin with emotional authenticity.
Nothing to hide, nowhere to hide it.
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(3) Perhaps you are working with a connection that does not
reflect a prior pattern so much as it created one. In very
traumatic connections, we are often so impacted that an
unhealthy pattern or issues results. For example, many trauma
survivors end up with a form of PTSD that impacts on their
subsequent relationship choices and availability for intimacy.
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When you are ready, it can also help to do something symbolic that
reflects a letting go of the carryover effects of the connection(s) you
are working on. Again, this doesnt just have to relate to negative
effects- it can also relate to letting go of the positive memories and
attachments. In many ways, the mixed connections are the most
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difficult ones to let go of, because our heart is pulled in two directions.
The important thing is that you are painstakingly honest about any
ways you are hanging onto the connection and then, when the
moment is truly right, choose a ritual or practice that will support you
in letting go of what no longer serves.
Write down any meaningful insights, feelings, thoughts from the fourth
week of the class.
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As you write, note what comes up for you. Do you feel entirely free to
honor yourself or are there contrary voices? Note any shaming or
doubting voices that dont believe that you are worthy of apology and
love. Note any voices affixed to role, duty or obligation that get in the
way. Note if you hear anyone elses internalized voice expressing
negativity. Because we so seldom express self-love to ourselves, we
seldom come face to face with the voices that come up to block it. In
the following section, make a note of every voice that attempts to
diminish, obstruct or distract you, for they perfectly reflect the next bit
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of work on your healing journey. Name the voice i.e. the voice of
shame, the voice of Marco, the voice of Im not important and note
what they are saying. Continue to work these voices through over
time, and come back to this apology/self-love exercise now and then
to see how far you have traveled...
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Write down any meaningful insights, feelings, thoughts from the fifth
week of the class.
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With this in heart, I invite you to take internal stock of where you are
at by this stage of the course. Do you feel different about the
events/experiences you are working with now? Do you feel more open,
lighter, liberated, peaceful, resolved? Can you identify the feelings and
events that still need to be worked through on your healing journey?
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Where did you stand a few weeks ago? Where do you stand now?
Where do you want/need to go next?
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Bows and kudos to you for taking on this very courageous effort. It is
that courage that will help to transform this world, and to bring us all
one step closer to the enheartened life that is both our birthright, and
our best and only hope. Blessings to your path.
As the course comes to an end, I invite you to express some more love
to yourself. That you have worked on this course is already an act of
self-love, and I invite you to express it to your body. Your body does
so much unseen work and often without being acknowledged or
honored. This affirming exercise can be of great service to us when we
forget.
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And remember that you can do this exercise as often as you want.
Each time will be different. Note what comes up in the experience.
Note any voices that attempt to undermine the message. Note them,
and do your best to continue.
Begin by using your right hand to touch your left hand. Touch it as
lovingly as you can. Say out loud Thank you, I love you. Now use
your left hand to touch your right hand in the same way. Say out loud
Thank you, I love you.
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Now use one or both hands to touch your head. Say out loud Thank
you, I love you. And touch your nose. Say out loud Thank you, I love
you. Your eyes. Say out loud Thank you, I love you. Your ears. Say
out loud Thank you, I love you. Your face. Take your time with your
face, caressing it with great care, letting it know that its vulnerability &
authenticity is valued. Say out loud Thank you, I love you.
Now move your left hand over your right arm and shoulder. Say out
loud Thank you, I love you. Now move your right hand over your left
arm and shoulder. Say out loud Thank you, I love you.
Now put both hands on your neck and your chest, caressing them with
kindness. Place your hands over your lungs. Rest them there for a
moment, feeling the breath of life rising and falling. Say out loud
Thank you, I love you. Now put one or both hands over your heart.
Feel the beat of life. Let yourself feel it speaking to you, let it remind
you that you are here for a reason. Say out loud Thank you, I love
you. The heart loves to feel gratitude.
Now run one or both hands over your stomach and your organs. Again,
take your time. Self-love is not time limited. Feel into the magnificence
of your human body- all the functions that happen outside of conscious
awareness, all the millions of ways the body regenerates and enlivens
you, all the millions of ways it echoes your value. Really let yourself
feel its love for you. Say out loud Thank you, I love you. Say it as
many times as you need before you can feel it.
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Now move one or both hands to your genitals. Touch yourself with
kindness, gratitude and compassion. Say out loud Thank you, I love
you.
Now move one or both hands down your legs. Caress your legs- they
work so hard and so seldom get affection. Give them affection. Say out
loud Thank you, I love you.
Now move to your feet. Touch your toes. Rub your hands over the
bottom of your feet. Tickle them. Stroke the tops of your feet. Your
ankles. Your shins. Massage the whole area. As you do, say out loud
Thank you, I love you.
Now touch your buttocks, with affection. Its not easy to be sat on for
hours per day :). Give them some lovin. Say aloud Thank you, I love
you.
Reach up for your kidneys. Rub your hands over them. They are such
hard workers. Let them feel your gratitude. Say out loud Thank you, I
love you.
Now touch some part of your back. Massage and stroke it with
gratitude and affection. Say out loud Thank you, I love you.
Now rest your hands for a moment. Either look in the mirror, if one is
close, or imagine yourself in your minds eye. Look at yourself before
you- all of you, the you that God(dess) created, the you that came into
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being, the you that is breathed by the universe, the you that is still
here, the you that has overcome, the you that has found the faith to
go on, the real you, the authentic you that lives below the worlds
disguises
And say aloud Thank you, I love you. Thank you, I love you. Thank
you, I love you.
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The very fact that we are trying to heal our hearts in a world where
so many have had to bury their hurt is already extraordinary. It may
not seem like such a big deal, but when the energy has been moving
in another direction for so many generations, it is quite a challenge to
turn the tide. We are breaking new inner ground, after all. Recognizing
this should translate into giving ourselves a break when we cant quite
get it perfect. Its a long path back to the receptive heart, one opening
at a time (~from Ascending with Both Feet on the Ground)
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When we are ready to stop turning a blind eye to the meaning of our
experiences, we tune in to the learning channel as a way of being.
Through this lens, expectations are meaningless: soul gifts come in
unexpected packaging. Seeming failures can be welcome events
sometimes the ego suffers while the soul rejoices. We are knocked to
the ground on the Earth plane but tripped up spiritually. The ladder to
heaven is made from broken rungs. (~from Soulshaping)
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If you can be in heartbreak, and keep your heart totally open, you are
living very close to God. (~from An Uncommon Bond- as yet unpublished)
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Every time we dont stand down the primary abusers in our lives, we
lose a little ground, we fade into the night, we die a little inside. Rising
above it may be a temporary balm, but, at some point, we have to
come back into our bodies and speak it. As important as it is to reach
a stage of genuine forgiveness where possible, it is even more
important to assert boundaries with those who have violated ours. It
may well be why they came into our lives- to force us to recognize and
claim our own value. (~from Love It Forward)
If we dont know where we end and the other begins, we will have a
difficult time establishing healthy connections. Those of us with weakly
formed boundaries will be easily manipulated and influenced, often
confusing our partners feelings for our own. Those of us with firm
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boundaries will have a hard time opening our hearts to love. Our walls
are simply too firm to penetrate. People with healthy boundaries tend
to live somewhere in between. They have the capacity for vulnerability
and self-protection at all times. When they do move toward one
polarity, they do so with intentionality. In all cases, their sense of self
remains intact. (~from Soulshaping)
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A true master follows her own footprints, encoded within her before
arriving in this incarnation. Someone else may remind her, someone
else may in-power her, but no one else can possibly know the unique
contours of her own true-path. Since you are the only one living in
your temple, only you can know its scriptures and interpretive
structure. The next step is right there inside you, divinely imprinted on
the souls of your feet. (~from Ascending with Both Feet on the Ground)
It doesnt matter how much two people love one another if they are
developmentally incompatible, or if there is not a shared willingness to
become conscious. This is why they call it a relationship instead of a
loveship. Love alone is not enough. If you want it to last, you have
relate to each other in ways that keep the ship afloat.
(~from Soulshaping)
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malevolent warriors end each other, the open-hearted will inherit the
earth. (~from Ascending with Both Feet on the Ground)
If you want to star gaze, no need to wait for the night. Just look in
the mirror anytimetheres a whole star-lit network of divine
possibility staring right back at you. The inner universe is where its at,
the galaxy of golden possibility that lives right inside your soul-skin. It
just takes a little imagination to see it, but then, WOW! You never
looked so Go(o)d. (~from Ascending with Both Feet on the Ground)
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When we are young, its the illusion of perfection that we fall in love
with. As we age, its the humanness that we fall in love with- the
poignant stories of overcoming, the depthful vulnerability of aging, the
struggles that grew us in karmic stature, the way a soul shaped itself
to accommodate its circumstances. With less energy to hold up our
armor, we are revealed and, in the revealing, we call out to each
others hearts. Where before wounds turned us off, they are now
revealed as proof that God exists. Where we once saw imperfect scars,
we now see evidence of a life fully lived.
(~from An Uncommon Bond- as yet unpublished)
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If one person doesnt want the relationship, then its simply not a fit.
No sense trying to figure out why we think they dont want it. No
sense blaming it on their commitment issues. No sense waiting around
for them to realize they wanted it after all. Because it doesnt matter
why they dont want it. What matters is that we want to be met heart-
on by a fully engaged partner. If they dont want it, then we dont want
it, because we dont want to be with someone who is not there for it
fully. Thats the thing about love relationship- its an agreement that
has to be signed by both souls. If one doesnt sign, then nothing has
been lost. If its not a fit for them, its not a fit for us either. On to the
next adventure we go.. (~from Love it Forward)
Perhaps this is why its so very difficult to lose a soul-mate. You dont
just lose your companion. You dont just lose your friend. You dont
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just lose your lover. You lose your portal to divinity. You lose your
gateway to God. You lose the whole bloody universe. And then you find
it again. In your heartbreak. In your healing. In the learning of the
lesson that expands you. In the strengthening and re-birth of your
willingness. In the re-opening to the possibility of love. Every path is a
path to God. We just have to remember to open our hearts again, and
again... (~from Love It Forward)
Suffering in relationship is one path to waking up, but only one path.
Sometimes we can grow in the heart of joy. Sometimes we can grow in
the heart of peace. Sometimes we can grow in the heart of
compassion. If they dont help you glow, then let them go.
(~from Love It Forward)
Relationships are like bridges-we can build them up, or knock them
down. People often assume that we sever connections because we are
carrying a grudge. But thats not always true. Sometimes there is
simply no bridge left between the two hearts. We can try to re-build it,
but thats not always possible or desired. With our lessons learned, we
move on to build a new bridge somewhere else. The hope is that the
bridges we form get more stable and nourishing over time.
(~from Love It Forward)
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ourselves how much courage it took and who we would have become if
we hadnt braved the journey. Good to say thank you to the inner
spirit that walks within and beside us, whispering sweet somethings in
our inner ear, reminding us that we are simply and utterly worth
fighting for. We ARE simply and utterly worth fighting for.
(~from Love It Forward)
Blessings.
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