strong negative emotions from me. Finding a basis for my reactions in my post experiences with my father, I dislike the harsh depiction of "religious" people, and I identify with the character Goodman Brown, but by story's end reject that identification. As I read "Young Goodman Brown," I reacted against this attitude. I believe my emotional reaction to the story and to the harsh Puritan God derives from my relationship with my father. My father and I love each other, and we are friends. But during my youth, my father disciplined my sister and me more than my mother did, and I came to see Dad as "justice" while Mom was "mercy." Because I struggle against conceptualizing a judgmental God, I react against anything that reinforces this view. "Young Goodman Brown" presents a frightening picture of an individual who fears that at any moment upon his church in judgment. God seems at best indifferent in this story. Satan has the power and the fun: he breaks into "irrepressible mirth" during his conversation with Goodman Brown. In fact, Satan educates Goodman Brown who protests as the devil reveals these hypocrisies to him. But in the end Satan educates Goodman Browns too well. Disillusioned at the prevalence of Satan's power, Brown despairs and rejects his race. Hawthorne conveys the same hopeless conclusion to the reader: sin prevails on earth, and a disinterested God remains detached. Goodman Brown becomes pessimistic and escapes damnation, but lives the rest of his life in gloom. Like Brown himself and most people, I hesitate between pessimism and optimism, realism and idealism, despair and joy. In my more desperate moments I would end "Young Goodman Brown" as Hawthorne did; but beauty and truth do exist. My dislike of the ending relates to my identification with Goodman Brown's faith. I also relate to his misuse of reason. Goodman Brown is having already elevated reason- above his faith, Satan had easy prey. Like Brown himself, I often reason myself into despair. Again, this tendency relates to my relationship with my father. I began attributing my problems to my emotions. As I look bad at those problems, I see now that I usually reasoned myself into a mental comer first then responded with emotion. Although I can identify with Goodman Brown's faith and reason during the story, my identification ends before the final paragraph. Brown faces reality and becomes a stern, sad and desperate man. I understand his reaction, but I could never be independent enough to reject humanity and withdraw from society. "Young Goodman Brown" portrays no middle ground. The title character goes from naive optimism to absolute despair. Because my perceptions of my father have influenced my image of God, I feel uncomfortable and even angry as I read of Goodman Brown's desperate response to the hypocrisy. But still relating to my father's influence, I identify with Goodman Brown's immature faith and exalted reason.