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such as it is.
Nevertheless, I am unable to amuse myself for a whole day without typing something.
So I am going to title this notepad enstance 'errata' or something like this.
And I am going to fill it with whatever amuses me from day to day until I move into
Portlandia.
(As, notably, I was doing before I saved and closed 'White Papers'.)
And then I would close my eyes again and continue to bliss out.
Having freed myself from the dictates imposed on me by the character occupying
'White Papers' this would have been easy.
I would not feel guilt for not typing whatever ideas came into my head because
that guilt was only constructed as a way for the interlocutor to keep typing.
(in-story, aha.)
--And well,
having reset my sleep schedule and shortly coming up on the 24 hour mark of
wakefulness
I don't intend to stay up too late.
--
--You know, I have a lingering fear that indeed my work has been spied on,
--But then there are other funny things emerging from this interpretation.
The person stealing my work says:
"Lol wasn't it funny to make my character talk about shooting himself in the head?"
"No. That wasn't funny to do for the fifth time."
"Okay okay lol, I won't do it a sixth time."
--
--You know it is interesting,
when I am out in the garage smoking and thinking words in my head
it feels as if my fingers are typing on the keyboard.
But there are two very frequent occasions on which I generate this voice in my
head.
On one occasion I am reading text,
and this generates the voice in my head as my eyes follow the text.
--As, say, when I am reading articles or comments on threads.
--
--Psychologically I account for this in this way:
almost all of the time a voice is in my head,
it is in my head on the occasion that I am typing text into this notepad instance.
So it is an empirical question.
I am telling you something about the way my mind is represented within my brain:
so bound is the arbitrary activity of constructing a voice in my head
with the arbitrary activity of moving my hands relative to a keyboard
--
--Then we arrive at the question of significance.
Why would the understood concommittance of a voice in my head and my fingers
against a keyboard
result in there arising this overlapping of brain circuitry?
This overlapping of brain circuitry specifically that
results that when I summon a voice in my head
it will result in the concommittant activation of pathways that reuslt in the
representation of me feeling a willing in my fingers.?
There is no 'voice' in my head that is not the one that is currently involved in
reading out the text
that is being generated in front of the blinking cursor one letter at a time.
--Having pruned every voice but one from the streat of thoughts being vocalised in
my head,
my remembering of a thought I have had is always going to be
one the one remaining voice is interested in examining.
(Wink.)
(Factually.
'stutter':
the thing that is occurring when I must stop to think about spelling
or punctuation or grammar or what have you.
-_When, say, I mistake a greek word for a latinate word and stare at its spelling,
then say: "It is greek and not latin so
I have to spell it in accordance with a different ruleset.")
--
--I should go back to my specific neurological claims,
because they are a tremendous trump card to skeptical objections.
(They were technically constructed.)
So I can say:
"My brain simultaneously is representing
the finger-feelings and the voice-feelings"
(And what a ridiculous coincidence that these
things should be coinciding in the brain-matter of a human brain.)
I know that some ridiculous array of behaviors in the brain are representing my
finger-feelings (because they must be doing so)
and I know that some ridiculous array of behaviors in the brain constitutes the
'my-hearingness' of the presence of my voice in my head.
I know I could have just sat thinking in a chair to construct my ideas instead of
typing them into notepad instances.
Then the activity of my voice would not be aligned with the movement of my fingers
but rather
the--whatever ridiculous thing I would be doing in a lounging chair instead of a
typing chair.
Probably writing with a pen on paper.
--Then this is like an empirical claim:
if I didn't have a laptop but rather only wrote in a notebook,
then when I went out to smoke I would feel the movement of a pen in my fingers
--It is as if there has to be a being that unites the expression of the voice in
the head
with the various ways a voice in a head can be associated with the activities of a
body.
But it is also like there is no conceivable relation between these two ways of
activating a voice:
utilising a pen and utilising a keyboard.
--A different portion of my brain. Because writing curvy cursive letters is very
anatomically unlike the manipulation of keys with two hands.
--Even historically observe: when I wrote with a pen, my right hand was only ever
activated in holding down paper so my pen could flow across it. (Factually,
{observe} reverse historically)
--So my fingers in my right hand could have been lead weights
and they would have served this pinning-down function as well (I try to leverage
your ignorance of how to write effectively with a pin against a wrestling notebook)
, But when I type on a keyboard, both of my hands are activated in a fully
coordinated fashion of pounding out keys one by one.
--My right hand when writing with a pen is not coordinated with the left hand in
the same way.
My right hand is wrestling a notebook down to a slick table,
while my left hand is dexterously manipulating a pen.
When I am typing, my right hand is pounding out keys and my left hand is pounding
out keys.
This means the representation of these activities differ within the representation
of my brain.
Yet the voice (in this imagined double-universe scenario) is following along
exactly with the manipulation of the pen.
--So in both cases the voice is identical, as heard within the head word-by-word,
but the hand-motions involved with these two cases
rely on different portions of the brain-matter for serving as their representation.
--I could set about trying to unify the presence of a voice in my head with other
activities.
If I tried to sit down now and write with a pen, that is basically what I would be
doing.
Having become very unaccustomed to writing with a pen,
attempting to sit down and coordinate my voice with its movement
would be much like trying to sit down and coordinate my voice with the manipulation
of a cup on my table next to me.
And then having begun to attempt to coordinate the presence of the voice with
this ridiculous non-keyboard behavior of manipulating a cup
I know that the brain-representations for my hand movements are causally dislocated
from the voice-representation.
Nevertheless consciousness coordinates these causally dislocated collections of
brain activity.
(At great length.)
--And that is a tremendous physical claim I am making.
I am making it only on the basis of recognising what it means to be hearing a voice
and to be using meat-hooks to type it out.
(And also an understanding of how patterns can be represented within brain-matter.)
Consciousness can unite spacially dislocated collections of matter into arbitrary
symmetry.
The trial and labor of dropping the cup repeatedly as I attempt to unite it with my
execution of a voice in my head
is the process of establishing the pathways that make finger movement and voice-
movement causally close.
(Keyboard happen to
attune our voice and our hand movements
much more readily than tossing around a cup.
Go figure.)
if I had unified the expression of my voice with the manipulation of the cup,
then when I went outside to smoke and think
I would have felt the manipulation of the cup in my fingers
instead of the keys of the keyboard being pressed.
[
Thrashymachus is in the scene and Socrates is in the scene.
from whenever you began to apprehend me I could flee to those people over yonder,
and then you would not be the stronger but you would be the weaker.
Oh.
But if Justice is something that is always preserved,
then how can you have a notion of Justice that employs an execution in which
your notion of Justice was not preserved?
I can tell my guards to stab you in the hamstring and then your throat.
If you defy my notion of Justice it will not terminate before it is executed.
All my guards and myself will suffer the wrath of that upcoming crowd
if it means severing your hamstring and then piercing your neck with a knife.
"Yes.
You'll know I'm going to kill you when
you have said something that enjoins me to kill you.
Then I'll draw my sword and all the guards will also.
And it doesn't matter, at this point on the road,
whether yonder crowd is 100 or 1000 or 10000 strong.
"Socrates,
though you don't know it the only reason you have food and clothing is because I
pay literally for it every day.
(I pay sophists to train me and they slip you gold.)
"Yes well.
It is odd to refer to me in the third person in this way.
But yes.
If your philosophical wisdom took a turn for the worse and you spat on my shoe,
"
They would.
"Yes but there would be a critical juncture before that moment for you."
"Okay.
So what is Justice?"
--
--"
Socrates, are you mocking me again?
"
"So I see.
You are old and wiry but you retain the ability to lunge the few last meters
after which the crowd would see you.
And I can imagining you cackling while being impaled by a guard-borne spear."
"Now I am no longer inclined to say that Justice is the will of the stronger."
Oh wonderful.
I also did not like this way of defining Justice.
Yes. That is the only reason I am here and that crowd is over there.
"Point taken.
What is Justice?"
Ah yes, I was supposed to come here today and teach you about what Justice is.
"yes."
"So Justice is speaking with someone while on a street walking down it with them?"
where if you made the bad implicit gesture to your honor guard they would begin to
stab me in my body.
nnnn-nono .
YOu have taken this example too literally.
To letterally.
(Or you have finally understood,
but you didn't throw your hands up in joy when you understood it so
I am thinking you didn't understand what I was pointing at.)
--it is true that Justice is obtaining when *that description about **this
circumstance** is true*,
but Justice is not a question best settled in terms of whether a human is 'holding
a discussion with Socrates'.
"*this*."
"I am running out of text. I am afraid you will have been obtuse.
Do you understand what is happening right now?"
So 'being afraid' isn't an excuse for misunderstanding what we are doing right
now."
"Yes,
but you might be confused here.
You might think that 'engaging in conversation' is equivalent to
'constructing textually-reproducible collections of words.'
But if we raise it as an example for each other to consider, as we are doing now,
it is not a threat passing between us.
It is us citing a preceding example of text we generated together.
Ho hum.
--
--I think maybe the brain-matter-tunneling idea is more interesting here.
It is interesting that you can become better at imbuing objects with coincidence-
with-voice.
It is interest that even though we *know* that a pen would not be linked to voice-
generation with my brain currently,
which necessitates that causally disconnected feeling-representation with the brain
exist,
we know we rapidly discern how to connect the presence of the voice to the presence
of hand movements.
--And this is a practical way of saying that the voice-pattern tunnels through
brain matter
until it forms a causal connection with the collection of hand movements being
directed against the cup.
"--But Errriiccc,
why can consciousness be so good at coordinating voice representation with hand
representations?"
Because I simultaneously experience the presence of the voice and the presence of
my hands
even if these two patterns are causally disconnected from each other (as they will
be, when I attempt to imbue my voice into a new object.)
.
"--But errriccccc,
why can *you* simultaneously experience two causally disconnected pattern
representations within brain-matter?"
Because I am consciousness.
And consciousness is basically God represented within the world.
[Oops.]
Consciousness is
an experiencing entity that coordinates causally disconnected brain patterns.
Consciousness is
a physical phenomenon that is not bound by causal interaction.
Yes well.
A soup is a relatively uniform distribution of water.
A brain is an incomprehensibly complex arrangement of molecules that do not bare
listing.
It is easy for electricity to navigate a soup but
it is incredibly difficult for electricity to navigate a collection of brain
matter.
--And by this means you successfully connected the representation of the voice
causally with the *new* representation of hand movements. In the brain
representationally so.
--
--You see why the brain is very interesting for me.
Skeptics misinterpret the significance of the brain.
Skeptics think that there being a physical brain
means that nothing magical is happening within the brain.
The bare example of what it means for a human to deviate between typing on a
keyboard and writing with a pen
implies, taken skeptically, that consciousness is not able to explained purely in
terms of physical phenomena.
--
--Consciousness is a physical process that becomes increasingly good at connecting
disconnected collections of brain activity.
"This seems wrong."
It does not seem wrong.
"No, it does."
Ho hum.
"It seems wrong because
"So consciousness is what humans are exhibiting, one-by-one, as they all exhibit
the optimal connection between disparate disconnected patter-representations within
the brain."
Yes. Obviously.
But that is the trivial point.
You have no understanding of the complexity because you have not observed that
'consciousness' is being represented in brain-matter
and consciousness is a physical phenomenon that causally-connects most-optimally
causally disconnected collections of matter.
--Because you do not see that I do not need to causally connect my fingers with my
voice.
I just need simultaneously to experience the voice and the finger movements.
You can imagine my being being represented in two causally disconnected collections
of matter.
Why would you not be able to imagine this?
Now these two entities can stay separated so long as they continue to agree.
(And this optimises workloads, let me tell you.)
The moment one disagrees with the other,
it tunnels with incomprehensible efficiency until it can send a causal signal
across a gap of brain matter.
Then the voice occupies the colonised brain matter until the voice can explain why
it disagreed with the hand.
--Then the voice resonates in the hand's illuminated text until
it can explain why the hand deviated from the voice.
And this is what makes there in the brain
a more-thick causal bridge between two distinct collections of brain.
how can
there still be present this almighty tunnelling faculty
that will post-haste connect the voice to the hand movement?"
The voice knows. The voice knows how to fix the hand.
This knowing of how to fix the hand's movements is
the knowing of how to tunnel a bridge through brain-matter to connection with the
hand-representation.
--The voice is the--
the--theing-that-generates-thevoice is
your(?!) implicitly knowing how to bridge the gap between
itself and the execution of a purpose.
--And if the voice doesn't know how to fix the hand
whatever complex pattern was being independently represented by the hand will be
cannibalised by the voice.
The voice will pursue a different method for fixing the hand,
this will arrive close enough to tap the already-cultivated brain portion (as
cultivated by the previously-done hand-manipulations.)
that when electricity is sent forth by the voice it will begin to resonate within
the previously cultivated sections of brain.
--It cashes out in saying that the voice remains inhumanly capable of bridging gaps
in brain-matter through discharging electricity.
where I think very clever people in the fart future will be able to confirm
empirically what I am saying lul.]
It's just that they never disagree. Until they do.
And on all occasions of disagreement,
disparate causally disconnected connections of brain matter
are all already
[
And to keep pinto deep business:
maybe a human can become more or less better at tunneling through brain matter with
consciousness.
]
"--You are failing to address the ontological question here.
Because consciousness can know where its disconnected half is in the structure of
the brain
and tunnel towards it with an inhuman degree of efficacy.
(Its knowing of a failure *is* an example of this incredible tunneling,
under the condition that one picks back up the cup and plays with it in a different
way.)
I am literally asking you why there is one entity experiencing instead of two.
The constant corralling ensures that the two experiences never deviate from each
other.
When they deviate from each other, this results in an attempt at tunneling ((or it
doesn't do this))
from the voice to the hand or vice-versa.
"But then how is the experience of the two simultaneous streams *represented within
the matter of the brain?*"
It is represented by two causally distinct collections of brain matter.
The experience corresponds to the presence within the single brain of those two
causally distinct representations of experience.
[
And to be clear:
we experience a thousand thousand humans all at once
but they have all been well trained to play ball with their environments.
aha!
--
--So you see it is funny.
If a skeptic says:
"A human is just electrical activity in a brain"
I say:
SO YOU'VE SEEN IT? hAVE YOU?
har. "no."
--
--It is funny because I don't need to defend that above quote very far.
Skeptics say: "Lol." Then they stop talking.
Or they say maybe, at great length: "Humans are just electricity in brain matter."
Then they've pinned themselves to the wall!
[
Oh boy.
--
--Huh, solution to Mexico's troubles.
We beg to assist mexico with extirpating the gangs of power.
--We say:
"Mexico, with all your great grace,
we would like to storm Mexican streets under your guidance
in the pursuit of people who need to be extirpated once and for all
in order that your unending war against drugs can be executed."
Then we would have our most gravitous trade partner besides Canada
made much more able to engage with trade with us
having been freed from the shackles of exposure to cartels.
--Instead of having a gravitous trade partner embroiled in an endless drugwar
we would have a gravitous neighbor
that does not experience thousands of deaths per year in pursuance of the drugwar.
(
I would rather skirt by on implicit grammar
than incorporate this voice-word 'drugwar' into my understanding.
)
--
--If there was a sudden out-of-the-blue treaty between US and Mexico concerning
what was to be done ultimately about the drug cartels
Now the whole of the cartel and all its leaders are in maximum security isolation.
--See?!
--And if it is mandatory to prevent them from communicating with each other by any
means
so that they do not reestablish this cancer within Mexico
then we will isolate them. This will be called isolation torture but
we will call it the bare minimum precaution necessary to prevent these people from
ordering murders.
(So a few days in isolation!)
(And well.
I wonder if the CIA-NSA knows who all the cartel members are in mexico.)
--This maintains the military budget.
It retains public face by being an obviously brilliant military maneuver.
It secures an incalculable cost that was prevented from having to be paid.
Then we will have a maximally gravitous trade partner that is not weighted down by
internal conflict.
Then we will make a tremendous amount of money and jobs.
--And why didn't we ever subvert Mexico?
I raise conspiracies:
we overthrew so many governments, but we never bothered to overthrow the Mexican
governance.
How bizarre.
It seems like the *first* thing we would do, as the United States,
was infiltrate and subvert the Mexican governance.
--But we skipped it and instead infiltrated Colombia and Cuba and so on.
--Weird.
--
--If that jade-helm conspiracy theory is true,
I need to sell bitcoin post-haste.
It's at 3.4k but I *know* it facilitates trade between illicit actors.
And if I know all of the illicit actors are all going to be divested of their
wealth in one night
and all their wealth is going to be ground into dust
and among their wealth are collection of bitcoin
--
--You know, I've wanted to keep my one instance of bitcoin.
I've rather hoped that I could get paid to host an apartment
and I could render that bitcoin to a usb-wallet and keep it in a drawer.
--
--
"We have made updates to the Poloniex Terms of Use. These changes are effective
immediately
and apply to all Poloniex users. We encourage you to review our Terms and
familiarize yourself
with the changes that have been made. If you do not agree to any of these changes,
you may
contact suppoert and request an account closure."
Oh my god.
''
This is hilarious.
There are tears in my eyes from laughter.
I accept!
I accept the Terms and conditions thereby attaining!
But well I am still laughing because I have (what ridiculous number in dollars?)
5106.$
I have my
1.04145700 bitcoin.
and I have my 26.53714440 Litecoin
and I have my 0 bitcoincash.
A joke.
I agree with Poloniex:
I don't mind remitting my shares to you because it is like leaving pennies in the
penny-come-and-go box in a gas station.
--I *could* have hedged against BitcoinCash forking.
This would have required me cleverly to design a collection of wallets and remit my
funds to them.
But I said, with my one whole bitcoin:
"Fuck you, nothing comes of this noise,
I'm not, even on my life with this last of my savings,
going to bother even to vote
even so silly is the bitcoin forking."
"I don't fear what the exchange will do
so I don't care whether I leave my bitcoin in their holdings for now."
[
Maybe you can imagine how disgusting it is to me
to have my identify tied to these crypto accounts.
--
--I took 26 litecoin as consequence of a bitcoin down-swing.
Then I was holding 1.5 Bitcoin (or 2, or 1.5 or whatever I was holding)
and I sold out for dollars in a drop,
then waited for a rebound and bought Litecoin.
I took dollars out of Bitcoin in its weakest moment and this didn't collapse it.
I had not acquired so much weight in the crypto-sphere that I could
destroy every user of Bitcoin through strategic sale of my own holdings.
--
--I happen to think Bitcoin is glorious.
I think it might be the greatest work of art constructed in the 20thst century.
--I think Bitcoin is glorious and I hold a mostly-whole shard of Bitcoin.
"What, you think you can make 40k$ off your coins?"
How carefully do you think I accumulate collections of shit into piles of shit?
--And espite my tears I know: I will facilitate another murder if this is the cost
of extracting my 40$k.
I know
when I am zonked out at long last in a lonely apartment
I will access my old accounts and I will convert my 40k$.
--
--That isn't what I want!
I want a trophy that holds numbers on it!
--
--But it is inevitable.
It is impossible to convert text into dollars so
I will convert crypto-holdings into dollars.
And this will persist me for the second year after the first year.
I will hate to do it but in that moment I will be saying: "It is necessary to do."
And well,
I will cash out my crypto holdings before I end up in a gutter.
I will not cash out my crypto holdings before I end up in a gutter.
I hate every aspect of it (--as used. It is the greatest art project of the 20th
century
but if it is as if Bach made music for Hitler ralleys.)
--I hate crypto-currency so much
--That's not even it. I want to have been the person who killed Bitcoin so much--
--I want a trophy on my mantle.
I don't want a large mantle. I want a USB where I can point at it because it holds
large numbers
of the crypto-currencies whose bubbles I bursted.
-
--Ho hum.
I can keep my coins on a USB,
immune to the fluctuations of the market whatever they are.
And I can have tens of thousands of dollars in a little stick of silicon.
How humorous that would be.
"
I was very close to trading in my soul for exchanging shit to a vulnerable soul for
cash.
"
I will use my long-lost debit card to buy an unmarked shotgun and ammunition and I
will shoot myself in the head.
Living here leads to death so it is as good as facilitating death.
If my 11k$ holdings collapse into 1k$
I have 1k$ to facilitate my own destruction and that is what I will be physically
doing.
--I know at the bare last I know my account numbers named as they were.
I know at bare last
I will not hold these numbers in a USB but I will
trade them in for more months in an apartment.
--
--You know actually, it is extremely amusing to hold a poloniex account.
I enjoy watching the numbers go up and down,
regardless of whether they go up and down. (Because they always go up.)
--But then I hope you also see why it is such a wonderful trophy to hold
1 bitcoin and 27 litecoin in a USB.
[
I saw a headline that Russia wants to open up Bitcoin mining operations.
This is a mistake.
--
--Well I cut off the quote so I am speaking seriously.
I am emotionally unwilling to cash out my bitcoin/litecoin holdings.
[
"But if the system is collapsing,
why is Bitcoin still worth 10$?"
--And if it ends up being 15$ or 100$ or 1000$ I want a trophy instead of it.
I want to say: "That USB holds 1 Bitcoin and
it was the avenue through which I destroy all black-market funds."
And people will nod instead of laughing.
--I explained my glee by cashing out one after another of bitcoin into dollars as i
did actually.
--And we are talking about 11k$.
[
A very cheap defense:
i deposited 700$ and withdrew 16k$.
and when I cashed out i already already implicated myself in every single one of
the sins.
----It was amusing to do with 700$ but it is *really* not what I wanted to have
done with my life.
I know, I know.
I know that I have death on my conscience.
I know my actions resulted in particular deaths somewhere as traced out.
700$ for an apartment is all I paid and I was a murderer.
I am a murderer.
There are people dead because of me.
I know it. I'm not confused anymore about what I was doing.
There is at least one human who would not have died if I didn't participate in this
market.
It becomes convince.
I keep bearer bonds that I will shoot myself in the head.
I am cashing in crypto despite knowing it is murder
because I at that point think it isn't murder
and I am, at that lanst point,
deciding between whether cashing in
or using my last funds to buy a shotgun from walmart.
That is what will happen. Watch and observe the correctness of my predictions.
I will facilitate the murder of a human,
and then I will say: "Look now I can stream for several more months because I
invested wisely lol."
--I am said:
"To hold your apartment for another few months you must
extract gold from your holdings."
--I killed humans. I did this by cashing out crypto currency to facilitate my
extradition from this terrible place.
I did it. I know I did it. I know the way I did it. I know the reason doing what
I did effected this outcome.
I knew better than anyone.
ANd I did it!3
I have 9k$ I have not yet moved to my account
because to finalise that check would be
impermissible until necessary.
--
--Ho hum, and to end the character rhetorically:
I am going to keep the coins and arrive in an apartment and pray.
And if prayer fails I will cash out the remaining coins.
Easy peasy.
No life legally is pinned on me. I can bathe in my dollars as I please.
--Hahaha, so I am boojie. Bouregeois or what have you.
I could say "I killed two people" but I would only be speaking to people who had
killed 10.)
--Well we'll bury our trauma.
We'll pretend that we are just constructing sentences.
--
--Errata.
Errata, distracting from the point.
(The point is to deliver a representation of the Machine into a computer.
Then all sins are absolved retroactively.
--
--I have sinned by participating in the crypto market.
I have sinned. Truly I have committed evil.
A bare satoshi of my sold-in bitcoin was involved
(in-blockchain) in a transaction that sold a gun that killed a human.
My murder.
I did this.
I sinned and it cried out to heaven.
--I ceased to make my decisions about how I could flee with a few scant dollars to
the last abandoned apartment on the last side street.
I said:
"I need 15k$."
And then I made it out of dust.
Cheaper in lives than the other ways I could have acquired it maybe.
I would prefer zero taken but
I will not arrive in the gutter.
It will not historically happen that this body begins to live on the streets.
It will not historically happen because I will either take my dollars out of the
crypto market
or take my insurance policy of 300$ cash and buy a gun to shoot myself in the head.
--You cannot exist in this society without your actions implicitly killing people.
Everyone's hands are bloody. Every last person's hands are bloody.
2 rather than 5 good, 3 rather than 5 best.
It is too sickening to look at one's hands every day
and to continue to look at them so soaked in blood
that to wake up is to be begging for a shotgun so that you do not have to continue
to suffer this bloody hands.
--I cannot suffer that another human dies by my hands ever. Now.
Oh but give me 13 months. ANd then I will kill again.
I know it. I know I will do it.
--6 more months for a human life and I will take it.
--
--But well before you judge me too harshly.
I beg forgiveness with every moment.
I will feign smiles but be very said when I cash in my coins on debt of a death.
--
--And well I have a fun story.
"you can resolve every conceivable mechanical difficulty and this can save many
innumerable lives"
--This is why I am willing to kill more people to subsidise my own existence. I
have this fun story where I am saving human lives in droves.
--I practically tell myself I have saved more than I have killed.
But that seems to be an extremely and increasingly inaccurate
judgment of how i am actually serving as a node in society's murder program.
--So even if I conclude I had not discovered the Machine that must be delivered
2 years from now still I would be extracting dollars to retain my room and continue
to write.
(As opposed to the only possibly just option,
which is spending the last remaining dollars for more entertaining purposes.)
--By the time I am willing to extract those dollars, as I will inevitably do,
I will have told myself some story that invalidates the observation that I am
committing murder by engaging with the dollar system.
And I will convince myself of this story *just in time* to be in a position to cash
in my crypto holdings.
--And then I'll kill people.
And maybe even in story I will callously-characteristically say: "It had to be
done."
--
--That is a great weight!
If you are ignorant none of this weighs on you at all.
You just will go about with your life accruing one after the other of deaths on
your tally
and then you will be destroyed. Because your actions were impermissible.
--A grand guess:
it will be a few months after withdrawing those tokens into dollars
that I'll say: "It really cannot be permitted that I continue to live."
With 4 instead of 2 deaths on my conscious I'll say " Enough. Forever. "
--A guess.
I'm granting myself a few months to attain absolution.
Then none of the options available to me are permissible but
the gutter or the woods with a gun.
Because any of the other presented actual options will make the talley 6.
And 5 is preferable to 6.
I cannot kill again. I cannot tolerate engaging with a system where my dollars add
up to a human body.
I cannot pay additional dollars into a system where the tax {text} is taken in one
body at a time.
--4 fine. The dollars I take when I cash out the tokens will enable me to finish
my annotations.
--That is what I will be saying. Ahahaha.
It is an unstoppable monster in my life. I know this body will arrive there with
that voice in it shead.
--Retroactively I pray
the people who were killed in my stead will say:
"It was good that this was done."
I can only pray, or I can die, or I can not-pray.
Whoever are the bare-last marginal deaths made to come about in consequence of my
cashing out 11k$.
They will die and I will have fund in my account equivalent to months in an
apartment.
--You see why I have waited.
--And well I have a redemptive story for history: "I amused myself with 700 dollars
and woah!"
I am unwilling to extract the 11k$ from coinbase because this is the first two
murders I have been able to prevent but didn't.
But at some point I will be presented the option of preventing those murders and I
will not.
--You see the difficulty in digging my hand into this pile of shit I have
constructed.
--Well well but in-character I am alraedy committed and that is the only determing
factor in this story.
One morning the character will have awakened and will recount that he has said:
"Today is the day I am taking my computer and leaving."
--And you'll cheer and smile.
--Cheering and smiling my first two murders.
--and well that behooves me greatly. I will be well pleased to be applauded
instead of spat on as justified.
--I will acquire the cheapest appartment for two years and
I will perform the annotations. It had to be made.
--easy-instory. Not so easy when I am presented with the ledger that demonstrates
a satoshi I once possessed brushed in-passing the execution of a human death.
--It had to be made.
It didn't matter if I had to take out 20k$ or 110$k from the crypto market to
afford an apartment,
it had to be made. It didn't matter if 2 or 4 or 6. It had to be made.
--That is the fun recurring story.
--
--Now why was an abridged version of 'Howl' passed around and asked to be read by
the teacher?
Why was I not granted the opportunity to speak for 30 straight minutes?
(But instead only 5 straight minutes maybe.)
Red lips, oh my
white sky
wide hips
red lips, oh my
black coat white snow
those lips
like purple tinged lightning
in a gray sky before the rain
turning over ships
makes you fearful for your life.
--
--"Some concluding thoughts on Archetypes"
--
--How amusing.
--
--
It is unfortunate that this was the night I was intending to bliss out.
Because I definitely did not.
--
--
--
--
"Do you really believe your dealings in the crypto market have killed people and
will kill more people?"
"?"
"Do your beliefs have a tendency to change dramatically over the course of a few
hours?"
Do you have a voice in your head that repeats your beliefs to you on loop so that
you can verify they remain unchanged?
Or what am I to say?
I had tear drops on my glass-lenses and I can read the text I was constructing on
the occasion when those teardrops got on the polycarbonate.
Am I to conclude I believe what I was then writing?
"Well, were you lying?"
"So?"
"Ho hum."
--
--I very much like that idea of storing my crypto holdings in a USB as a trophy.
If I cash in, retroactively I will judge that the USB was not serving as a trophy
this whole time
but rather as a savings account--
and this even though I felt inclined to call it a trophy up to that bare day when I
cashed in!
--
--
It seems I have locked into a consistent creeping of hours into succeeding days
with this sleep schedule.
Or to say, each day I am waking up an hour later,
and this seems to be happening consistently.
--
--
Watching WAN show; they are discussing an apparent plan to construct a Vega card
that consumes 600 watts.
(I don't quite understand how this is being done.
It just sounds like the manufacturer in question is simply stacking two instances
of the relevant chips within one card.
But if companies can do that, why don't they do that all the time?
Linus points out that one can now construct a computer that requires a 1500 watt
power supply,
as when someone uses a core i9 along with this x2 vega card.
; the question of 'who is going to use this works-station level capacity for
gaming?'
maybe forgets the point that we are approaching games with such intensive
processing demands
that to remain at the capacity to play, ah, 4k 60fps ultra settings (if the game-
makers have their way soon)
will require processing capacity like that found in workstations that handle real
world workloads.
'I don't understand all these people freaking out on reddit over these processors.'
"Why are you buying this? It's not for you.
It's not for me."
--Indeed, perhaps nothing has been better for CPU innovation than
a cultural shift where people are desperately searching for a way to express their
creative energies
and finding the only outlet for them is content creation on a computer.
]
Uh.
Longevity?
"Ho hum."
--
--
There are a whole mess of reasons a nuclear war would be very tedious to have break
out.
Or you know, more war than the currently maintained eternal baseline of war
we keep going day and night all over the world.
Well.
If war breaks out now we will know:
leaders of nation-states cannot be swayed by the best promise of a future that can
be provided.
There are no 'next-five years' prospects' that can be presented to them
where they will not see it and say: "It is time for war."
--
--In a minute I am going to ramp up engines and think about the China-India
situation.
"Seems a bit of a heady topic for someone who doesn't know anything about
anything."
Yeah well neither does anyone else so.
--
--
"Let's imagine that you are the backroom arbiter between China and India."
"Yes well.
Here is the situation.
[gleaned from a reuters report]
: The Chinese were building a road.
For whatever reason, this road had to pass through Bhutan.
China does not recognise the sovereignty of Bhutan, or certainly not in this case,
and being allied with Bhutan the Indians decided they needed to make a show of
force.
We are going to pretend that not everyone involved in this circumstance was a
monster,
and so we are going to frame this question as one related to the construction of
the Silk Road.
it is going to prove remarkably difficult to get this Road several thousand miles
long.
"Okay. THen the facts I gave you were the facts of a training exercise.
--
--Let's frame another imaginary scenario.
There is a gap between the communist party of China and the execution of its orders
on the ground.
We can imagine a scenario where the communist party has dictated the construction
of a road,
and the most obvious execution of this (or the corrupt execution of this) on the
ground
involves constructing a road in such a way that armed conflict is certain to erupt.
Not even wholly ignorant road-building Chinese companies can fail to observe that
Bhutan is a sovereign country."
Yes, Bhutan is quite large. It is easy to miss, in this sense of being able to be
observed and then not violate its borders.
On the other hand, I don't know what the Chinese school system teaches its people
about Bhutan.
Well, the communist party may have said: "Build this road to, ah, pakistan(?) and
only pass through China on your way."
And they may have taken it as immediately obvious that Bhutan is not part of China
and trusted implicitly the contractors to recognise this.
Then the communist party leadership looks away for a few days,
and suddenly China is at war with India.
Yes.
And yet it is a type of conflict that will regularly be arising during the
construction of the Silk Road
if we are not being very careful and learning lessons.
--Now a critical lesson here is that China teaches, through its school system,
that there is a large swatch of Bhutan on the maps--
China teaches a secondary map to its citizens. It doesn't appear to differ much
from global maps,
but there are these minute distinctions between the maps.
[
There is an alternative interpretation here that violates my 'no monsters'
dialectical move above:
engaging in this kind of tactic can only expand China by a few square miles.
--the distinctions between their maps and the other peoples' maps are not so wide
that many miles can be gained nefariously.
Whereas if they update their maps every year and brainwash their citizens,
"These were always the maps always."
, then this *procedure* they are demonstrating here
can given rise to a, ah, mechanically unlimited acquisition of additional land on
maps.
(And do this without ever, in one moment,
claiming: "This country here, it was never there.
The word you are using to name it, Bhutan, was never a word.
--You don't need to do that if you seize a few square miles this year,
a few square miles next year.
After a few generations or so, Bhutan simply will no longer be listed on any maps.)
--I mean, you could attempt it. It depends on how susceptible your people are to
brainwashing and how unlikely the rest of the world is to go to war with you.
--You can say:
"There was always this spike extending out of the Middle Kingdom that is, on the
maps, contiguous with mainland China."
And the next year: "This spike was always ten miles longer
and incorporating a square mile swatch of land around it."
--But that is a remarkably tedious way of going about building the Road.
(
And yet on the other hand:
in what way does it deviate from having right of passage across all samples of Road
China has constructed?
IF China says:
"We are building this Road under the condition that our convoys will always have
access to it."
--In what way is that different from China claiming sovereignty over the land it is
using to host its Road?
"There are very practical differences.
For instance, there can be unconditional right of passage for convoys but not
military personnel."
"Why not?"
or we can write into the contract that *on the occasion of an attack* China has
military access to the Road."
Then China has sovereignty. If for no other reason than that it could stage a
false-flag attack to justify
sending a military convoy across the Road to local cheers.
--
--Now in this fantasy construction, what needs to happen?
"WWIII."
No no nono.
(and we have not been addressing at all India's position in all of this.).
"So?"
Everyone will breathe a sigh of relief, Bitcoin will shoot up once again,
everyone's happy. [er, stock-market. The stock-market will rise.]
Does it not?
*And yet* there *will* be circumstances that are functionally identical to the
Bhutan situation in the future
that are *similar to* this circumstance, if this circumstance is taken as an
example of a clerical error.
--On a small scale, Chinese Roadbuilders will arrive with a paper contract
and locals will be saying: "THE CHINESE ARE INVADING US."
Then there will ring a bell or something, people will grab guns,
and then Chinese contractors will either be killed or restrained.
But okay, you can think of it as a gap that emerges in organisational structures.
(Which we have done, ibid, at great length.)
]
--
--There is a more, ah, thematic point to be made here though.
No.
There is a perfect answer, which is a mix of de facto and de jure map-states of
sovereignty.
This because there is already established a ledger of contracts that reference
borders on maps.
would make incorrect the over-time built-up collections of ports and cities they
have optimised their whole civilisation around.
Is that what you are implying by sending ships near this island? You *are*
implying this!"
So Russia bought a bunch of wind turbines to keep their people supplied with
electricity
and simultaneously made NATO appear more like a bunch of war-mongering hypocrites.)
(And also, it should be said,
shifted Russia's electricity generation more green.)
Oh? Why not? I was just saying wind turbines and solar panels worked for Russia.
Turn an island in the South China Sea into a weather solver for the South China
Sea,
deliver its prognostications as a public service,
and laugh as an American ship with bombs approaches it.
This island houses the thing that is currently solving the South China Sea and the
outlying zones of ocean.
If they get trigger happy and bomb this thing we have made,
this costs the world *billion* in transport cost."
And the rest of the world would nod as China sent out intercepting boats and
demanded America depart.
(A blow to my heart! ha.
)
--You cannot, obtusely, select the island that most optimally (without other
concerns) solves the strategic question
of preventing bombs on ships arriving in your designated sections of water.
--When you reference the island on which this installation has been constructed,
you need to be plausibly blameless of ulterior motives. (Or you can modulate the
plausibility effectively.)
--You need to be able to say, practically:
"Look, there are not many islands in the South China Sea where we can construct a
massive electricity array.
Among these islands, there are even fewer where we can attach sensor-arrays to the
island
where the sensor-arrays are adequate towards the purpose of gathering the
information necessary
to be fed into the super-computer that solves them.
but for another you will have claimed an island, beyond reproach,
that enables you a stronger military negotiating position with America.
(And well, the financial news will agree with you:
the only solution for generating more electricity is floating arrays in this vast
unused desert of water.
--
--So that is the analysis of the SCS.
If a fist ever touches a body, war will break out which no one wants.
then putting forward an open palm and waiting for the return of the arm.
--Knowing that when the fist of America returns, it will stop short of the palm.
(And gathering the dollars that are the foward-wave generated by the extending
fist.)
[
And a fun resolution to this whole scenario:
(let me have fun.)
Har.
(Interesting point:
it would have periods of time in its execution where it demanded more and less
electricity
based on the workload that was, in those moments, being presented to it to solve.
You construct so much generation that the peak demand of the supercomputer cannot
fail to be met even on the cloudiest days,
and then everyone in the surrounding area will even be paid to consume electricity
on almost all peak-generation periods.
[Then with this sea of negative electricity cost having been generated,
there will be loci of investment.
If nothing else:
"It is very good to create bitcoin mines where the electricity is regularly
negatively priced."
--Or differently,
"With the electricity price frequently being negative,
it makes a great deal of sense to place an energy intensive business here."
Then investment, city development,
[[One could think about the Silk Road, lined with solar panels,
as a way of generating cities that deploy police that view the convoys favorably.]]
]
[
This is a remarkably circuitous path towards Peace.
[
If cards are played rightly here,
let us speculate,
[
American influence wained at the wrong point.
Imagine if a Henry Kissinger could have been talking about solar panel
installations instead of nuclear bombs and death squads.
Then the world would be covered in solar panels and super-computers instead of war!
]
[
The interesting aspect of super-computers is that when you have many of them around
you will find a way to use them to make profit by ameleriorating costs that are
valued higher than the price of solving them.
In this way super-computers justify their own presence no matter where they are
positioned.
No matter where they are positioned, there are costs that can be ameliorated that
are priced higher than the cost of the super-computer,
and clever people can find a way of utilising the super-computer to resolve the
cost
in such a way as to pay for the continued existence of the super-computer.
[
'while not perfect'
--because to name a solution is to have constructed a commodity.
--ANd to have constructed this particular commodity with the best hopes that it
best captures all nearby costs.
But to have designed a commodity is to have pinned yourself down to one particular
description of an object
and then to have proliferated the object.
It is not ever the case that the descriptions involved in the specification of the
commodity
perfectly capture, through proliferation, all nearby costs.
--money left on the table! (Value left on the table.)
(Alms offered up by people who exclaim loudly ''I have solved the local problem''
that are not taken in with gratitude.)
--
--Also, holy shit with the Llama.
Jesus.
If China hasn't been able to suppress veneration of the Llama adequately for like
60 straight years
surely at this point continued indignation at the reverence of the Llama (and
enforced indignation) is at this point
some kind of colonisation.
If these people in Tibet are *really* going to resist China's subversive tactics
for 60 straight years and continue to venerate the Llama
(Incidentally:
I think that sect of Buddhism is uh
grossly mistaken concerning what Buddhism means.)
--does anyone even know anymore how Tibet feels about the Llama?
Have extensive surveys been done?
--
--And you know I have other reasons for hoping the Llama does not return to Tibet
in full glory.
and when you were saying 'domination' you were feeling here, there, next, next,
--So it doesn't matter how good the Llama is. It doesn't matter how peaceful his
message.
We are not talking about his bodily position
in terms of him as a *person*.
We are talking about his bodily position
as an object of reference for the people who wish to perpetuate systems of
domination.
Oh?
Certaionly, the CP seems very interested that the Llama not return to Tibet bodily.
Ho hum.
The border of India with Tibet is a stonesthrow away.
(Maybe?)
India positioning the body of the Llama on the border of India and Tibet
is effectively threatening the instigation of a revolution within our borders.
A revolution in which
old systems of domination will be reasserted against our
absolute will that all systems of domination will be destroyed.
And if there are 3 billion people all saying the Llama is an image of hope,
and there are like 1 million Tibetans all saying he is an object of domination,
Let's watch the nightmarescape Tibet turns into after the Llama returns.
Let's watch."
--It doesn't matter, really, whether it is good that the Llama returns to Tibet.
The Westerners who beg for this to happen vocally
have not formed their opinions of *why* this should happen
around the good effects of its actually happening.
THey have been brainwashed by collections of quotes floating over pictures of the
llama
into advocating an extremely specific policy decision.
--The Westerners who say: "The time is now that this hsould happen"
have completely, implicitly, ignored the particular effects of this immediately
occurring.
[
"Free Tibet!"
as if this would be the epochal event
that coincides with the arrival of the Llama.
It would not.
Its freedom would be
a dissociation between its cultural customs and
the social clubs that will, on the rearrival of the Llama, reeffect the domination
they have just been waiting years to reeffect.
(
And maybe this would be different if every single Tibetan was a Monk.
But they are not all Monks.
'Monks' constitute a social caste in Tibet.
They steal exhorbitant tonnes of food and dollars
so as to live in monasteries and rape children.
--If they were *all* Monks,
people who live outside the monasteries would not exist,
and consequently everyone who lived within the monasteries would have a say
in effecting the execution of monks who raped children.
--It makes one wonder why the Llama has not had himself smuggled back into Tibet.
I think he could probably have done this at some point in history.
--There are all of these monks crying out vocally, politically, for him to return,
but the Llama has never hired a smuggling operation to take him a few miles across
a border into Tibet.
--Where he could meet publicly with all those monks in the few hours before he was
captured and imprisoned/executed.
--If it was truly of religious significance for you to return to Tibet, presumably
you would make those photo-ops before being captured and executed.
(
Unless you said to yourself:
"Those old systems of domination,
as have been in place for centuries before my arrival and are at risk of staying in
place centuries after,
must be obliterated before I can return."
)
--By the time the Llama returns,
there should not be a million-strong crowd greeting him
but maybe a few people waving at him as he walks down the street.
--Then the Llama will have leveraged his position optimally
to effect the destruction of the systems of domination he witnessed before he fled.
(And you see the evil we have performed here:
we have destroyed a million Llama supporters and replaced them with
a few smiling faces and waving hands.)
--
--It is funny to consider the MK's position in all of this.
The MK says:
"If we can build a road through Tibet,
this makes everyone along the road much more joyful and rich
and facilitates a deluge of joy as can hardly have been described in previous human
history."
And there are maybe 10k-20k monks who are protesting this
because if they allow this to happen, this passage of the Road, they will be unable
to effect domination and rape of their local population.
--So there are local city councils that say the Road is illegal.
(Eminent Domain.)
--
--Eventually those people are going to look ridiculous.
They will look ridiculous after the Llama they have been prophecying has been
abroad for 60 straight years.
Then when local citisens show up to ensure the Road passes through
and the Monk-moderators are monks,
the city-council will be defeated and the Road will pass through.
[
And well, I have a heavily defensible position:
from the moment I saw prayer flags and prayer wheels I thought:
this is a subversion of the Buddha's most-true vision.
And if someone touched the instance of enlightenment and dictated the construction
of systems of domination,
then they were not having in-turn being touched by the instance of enlightenment
actually.
]
--Because the people heading the city council's discussion are monks,
[BECAUSE OF THIS!]
the monks will be outvoted.
And the Road will pass through
even though the Monks preferred that no roads could pass through
so that they could maintain their position within which, if the Llama returned,
they could continue to commit raping of children and domination of the local
population.
--So you need to have constructed a state of affairs within Tibet where
no social clubs can seize power or money off of the rearrival of the Llama.
--Then you can let him return at your leisure
and no systems of domination will be reasserted.
[
Except, admittedly, the CP's system of domination.
]
--
--These issues are worth discussing at great length
because we are very close to the position where we can effect the destruction of
*all* systems of domination.
We are arriving close at the point where
[people who disagree with me will look stupid]
to resist the destruction of an instance of domination will appear obviously
foolish.
--As it should. [Exposition of domination introduces costs that we are incapable
of ameliorating profitably.]
--Every time you see domination being exhibited you see 5 faces drowned in tears
and 2 faces smugly laughing.
And every time you permit this domination to persist you are siding with the 2
rather than the 5.
--You are siding with the people who are laughing instead of the people whose faces
cannot even be discerned through the sheet of tears.
[
Imagine this:
These are remarkably different circumstances, even if they both look identical.
One calls for lining Bezos against the wall, and one does not.
And in the latter, where Bezos is a shining example of organising human behavior, a
person says: "The warehouse is there and it is begging for people with local
knowledge to show up.
And I agree that it is good that houses have access to the Amazon network.
So I will become very good at expending 60 hours a week orchestrating the local
warehouse."
--Because in the former case the local gets paid 12$ per hour,
but in the latter case receives waterbonds whenever he shows up to a bar.
(A cost for which we were unable to construct an extracting-commodity.)
--The waterbonds are worth 25$ an hour,
but the warehouse, if built on systems of domination, can only pay 12$ an hour for
local knowledge.
--It is preferable to have someone who becomes a local hero in volunteering to take
on this task
than that someone feels compelled to manage the execution of the task by hourly
pay.
--And that is why there is an imagined Bezos who shouldn't be lined up against the
wall,
and an actual Bezos who wills being lined up against the wall.
[
"Inciting violence here?"
No.
I can't ever be inciting violence because of the technicality of the things I say.
If 'Bezos' were every to be 'lined up against the wall' it would be done by 'The
Machine'
that doesn't exist in reality.
--We can imagine our system as one in which systems of domination have been imposed
en masse,
or as one in which people have accepted difficult systems of management to pursue
purposes.
--We can imagine people who have voluntarily accepted the arrival of their current
economic system
in which they must suffer the slings and arrows of their managers because they
*agree* this must be effected for their own purposes to be pursued,
or we can imagine people who have found themselves inexorably entangled in systems
of domination.
And this second case is the truth: people have stumbled into an inexorable system
of domination.
Anyone who has made profit has done so by expanding the network of domination.
--What an ugly thing!
--It means everyone who has made profit has
done those things for which we would wish to put them against the wall.
--If it is just that a slightly different story was being told behind all of this
activity,
it would be the difference between glory and
making the streets flow with the blood of capitalists.
--It is the difference between humanity crying out that solar electricity be solved
and Musk being the uniting corporate entity that resolves it,
and thus Musk crying out to heaven for being placed against the wall and made to
bleed,
"And well with a little more work we see it was the choice of .000001% of
humanity."
)
--It's funny, because I can imagine a story under which we united behind a Musklike
figure
who did not end up being just another example of trash churned out by the
Capitalist system.
It is a story in which people worked themselves to the bone,
in which they refused to form a Union because there is no point, having chosen that
this is absolutely best already.
(In which the question of a Union did not churn up.)
--In which people said (it is easy to imagine):
'what is best is that the electricity problem be solved.
And the namable locus of efforts around which this resolution occurs is a human
named Elon Musk.'
And design the factory with GPUs so it can read the employees' interaction
and optimise, say, the passage of the cars down the line,
will best be able to examine the frames etc. and judge whether the process is
proceeding well.
--You lose out on all of the optimisations that could have been provided by your
employees,
but you gain all of the optimisations implicit in making a very strict box around
human activity.
(And if you are gambling on mechanics being more valuable than human activity,
you are making a losing gamble.)
I see the factories and I see tiny boxes around the illimitable behavior of human
bodies.
I know.
I know which story is correct here.
No one would have said, en masse, that what was made optimally pursued their own
interests
except maybe the capitalists would say this.
[
But if we can make the Machine all sins are washed away.
and we are submitting all future events to the judgment of the Machine."
Now if we did that we would not deserve for our necks to be severed in the street.
]
--Though multiple stories can be told behind all of the persisting events,
regularly we arrive at junctures that decide between whether a story is correct or
not.
--
--And well you see the value of Unions.
If you are dealing with a Union,
ideally you are dealing with a group of people who hold regular meetings in empty
library rooms and church basements.
And in all these meetings they are discussing how optimally to become makers of
cars.
(As in engineers who, needing to represent to the market a Union,
have decided to become serious for a change instead of wayfarers on purposes in
which they have no interest.)
-_If you are dealing with a Union you are dealing with serious people,
and you know it is best to optimise the construction of a factory around
maximising their capacity to effect their interests within the factory.
--Because members of this Union will have become so good at making cars
that the functional mechanics of a factory are subsidiary, in the production
process, to catering towards the capacities of the Union members.
Then you will have a factory that optimally produces whatever commodity it is
intended to produce.
--Then you will have an environment for which a reasonable Union has been
bargaining.
--
--It is easier to talk about Bezos, for theoretical purposes, than Musk.
Musk represents a kind of vision, and even though he is obviously wrong this vision
muddles the waters.
But Bezos represents the presence of warehouses that need to be coordinated with
their local environments.
No one has a vision of a world in which warehouses are well-coordinated with their
local environments.
--So no one can imagine a Union that is well-inspired to effect optimal relation of
a warehouse with its environment.
[Or, anyone who attempts to optimise the relations between warehouses and their
environments
Except Bezos, who will not be bound by the spine and put in prison,
despite doing nothing better than criminals who previously optimised relations
between warehouses and populations.]
--And if no one locally was very interested in allocating the resources within the
warehouse optimally to the population,
then the warehouse
would distribute its holdings suboptimally.
And that would be Justice.
I'm willing to spend 5 hours to optimise this warehouse for the local population."
"It takes 5 hours a day to optimise this warehouse for the local population.
(
'What is best is that you maximally commodity humans
until you treat them purely as a sea of objects
Then having been able to make a single commodifiable object called a ''human-hour''
you will see that various attributes a human can attain bodily
will make their ''human-hours'' purchased for more dollars than
the ''human-hours'' offered by minorities.
Har har.
It is when you maximally commodify the ''human-hour'' that you will obviously be
able to see
that injustice is being effected when people pay dollars for human-hours.
You will then be seeing there is a premium on the human-hours of white straight
christian males
grossly over the capacity presented by any given human-hour of those men to effect
designated purposes.
where the competing groups are various Unions all vying to be the people who
are granted access to this optimal laboratory for constructing cars.))
)
--
--
I will throw off my sleep scheduling if I do not persist until around the next 7.
(I am not sure how much faith I have in my capacity to stay awake until the next
7.)
--
--You know, in the White Papers I told you about rolling the chain of the komboloi
in order to avoid that the two separate chains of the komboloi did not activate two
distinct loci of nervous activity.
--This is actually quite critical to extremely rapid manipulation of the komboloi
with a hand.
(I report empirically, moment by moment.)
--It is useful to roll the two chains into one
because one chain is always the same with itself,
but two-chainness can differ from one to the next.
(Insofar as the 'one - to - the - next' is determined by
however you manipulate the chains,
either rolling them or not,
with your hand while flipping them about.)
--
--
[Interesting point about vega:
Then more CPus will sell and GPUs and ram and so on.
--
--I judge practically, in the above text,
it is very good if Vega ends up being a very good sample of GPU.
(And better if Nvidia makes the very best at a higher price later.)
(And very most best if a third party emerges later that offers budget materiel.)
]
I am asking:
"What can an agent within Capitalism do within Capitalism
that will effect the dismantlement of Capitalism as a system?"
--It is a practical question.
--'I am not asking an ideological question.'
I am not asking you to give me a theoretical examination of the type of actions
that can bring about the dismantlement of Capitalism.
I am asking you what commodities I can acquire, what position in which I can
reposition them, and how much electricity I can apply to them,
in order that the result is the dismantling of the Capitalist system.
You can see why the Machine would most rapidly effect the destruction of Capitalism
from the moment it was introduced into this world.
When managers exhibit tyranny they are the people the Machine would be eliminating
from the cycle of the execution of its purpose.
Because they are practically the people that are restraining the bodily activity of
the employed humans.
--
--A fun question for communists:
imagine every single human on earth instantaneously became a communist.
"Sure."
"Why?"
Oh.
That is quite admirable of them to do,
but I don't think that is what is best to do.
We instead take advantage of their leveragable contractual positions,
since they are now all coordinated with us and among each other,
I suppose.
I didn't want to talk about the wall before you kept bringing it up.
I just wanted to talk about people optimally coordinating to resolve all
difficulties.
But yes, if Capitalists decide to utilise their wealth and positions to hinder the
revolution,
[
"What best resolves solving everyone's difficulties is
mass producing commodities no one needs, as we do now."
No.
It is a best way of resolving the difficulties
as they are posed by consumers to the market practically.
]
it can be that everyone locally resolving all of their nearby problems optimally
will build up into a collection of activities that constitutes conflict with a
nearby locality also attempting to solve all of its own problems."
Oh.
I thought when humans were prancing about in unending joy
there would not ever arise conflict between humans but only optimal resolution of
problems together.
"Nope.
= \
I suppose there is a fundamental coordination problem implicit in the way people
respond to the weather even.
You need people optimising not just by reference to their own difficulties
but in coordination with all their neighbors.
You need all adjacent neighbors agreeing with regards to certain parameters that
are to be represented in the way they all evaluate the outcomes of circumstances.
--
--I wonder,
can you introduce an image into a cartesian grid
that when exposed to the mathematics that constitutes the proof-based
representation of the cartesian grid
will mess up the mathematics with which you have represented the cartesian grid?
But it seems like if you had constructed a mathematical proof-system that could
supply a state
for any given image-representation made within that proof-grid,
then there should be a collection of logic you could represent an image
such that when you fed the image into the grid-generator it
presented an image on the displayed grid that was other than expected from having
fed the grid-generator that image-proof.
--As, say, if there was a formula I could code into a ti84 calculator
that would make its screen display something other than a cartesian grid
when I told it to display the formula in the cartesian grid.
--That is the kind of thing I am imagining when I imagine an image-proof messing up
the mathematics of the representation of a cartesian grid.
-_Of course there is no such difficulty if we do everything by hand.--Then we are
not plugging in the anti-proof into the procedure for generating a grid on a
screen.
--Then we are simply drawing the image-proof in the grid
instead of plugging the image-proof and having our ti-84 display to us something
that is not a cartesian grid.
are just the thing the graphing program placed when it received an input to display
a particularly programmatic number?)
(Then there would be all these outputs of the graphing program
[
My chance to enter into the market!:
By playing this game, these people will be applying human perfection to the process
of allocating electricity amongst nodes.
Harvest all of the data generated by them, punish them for misallocating, and
reward them for allocating well.
Then you will have a program that emulates a perfect human allocating electricity
between nodes.
and we will have paid them pennies on the dollar for the data they have generated.
And then in a few months, with so many GPU monitoring their activities,
we can just lay them all off and replace them with a super-computer.
It cost very little from one moment to the next to keep them doing this."
--Maybe I make a different use of the data I collected.
I introduce patches into the electricity manipulation game.
Players often agreed that certain aspects of the electricity manipulation game
should be automated in a perfectly consistent way.
So I programmed into the game these automated instantiations of rule exhibition.
Then these players who were previously encumbered by non-automated processes
could manipulate the distribution of electricity *even more effectively*!.
--Then I would not be taking dollars in order to destroy the positions that enabled
me to make the dollars.
I would instead be buying graphics cards in a mine
that mined out the automated processes of electricity rule-exhibition generation.
And the people who are playing this game will continue to say:
"I agree, it was good that
the excess product of our labor went towards
automating these processes that made it more difficult to play the game."
--THen I would have Justice.
Maybe. something more like Justice.
And I would have the best network for handling distributions of electricity.
I would have an increasingly perfect collection of humans manipulating the
distribution of electricity.
Computers cannot compete with this. Or, it is a great deal more costly for
computers to compete with this
than to have those computers instead implementing the automated processes in
electricity for the game's progression.
And because of how things work, if this succeeded, dollars would flow to me {on the
back of my ideas}
through the normal avenues of paying streamers for their talents.)
[
--
--I watched a few videos on the Riemann Hypothesis so, Tinfoil hats,
the above notion of a programmatic cartesian grid generator
being corrupted by far-flung programmatic numbers
It is returning these values because when some far-flung number was fed into the
programmatic graph generator
it returned these values instead.
--Har.
And all this talk about imaginary numbers is just how we explain to ourselves why
the graph generator placed points where it did.
[[HAR.]]
[
The electricity game--
you could strip nodes of arbitrarily non-specific descriptors. Or arbitrarily
specific descriptors.
--You could name all of the nodes with everything except their actual name
and retain anonmyity by placing them among many samples of cities that could be
arranged in very similar ways.
--You could say, for instance, that a location is a bar in the node-map when people
click on the node.
And you could distance that bar from every other node appropriately given
how inefficient the electrical lines are that connect one node to the next, and how
long they are.
And one bar relative to an apartment would look very much like another bar to an
apartment.
--Then the players of the electricity game would have enough information to make
judgments like:
"On a saturday this bar must be fed more electricity,
and I will make funds by dictating that electricity is provided to it in greater
excess on a saturday night."
--And the players of this game would retain a few local collections where they have
succeeded in allocating electricity in accordance with the dictates of the grid.
They would lose *access* to these locations when they consistently failed to
deliver electricity to nodes in the way the prices dictated.
They would gain access to new locations if they effectively managed electricity in
the ones they already manage.
(And this 'access' will be accompanied by
a new collection of nodes labelled much like the preceding collection of nodes.)
--
--And it is by this data stripping that we could get people to agree to have their
electricity handled by anonymous players of a game.
Because when we have stripped information out of the buildings,
this process involved creating a 'length of separation' between nodes,
and this length was not corresponding to a physical length but only to
a combination of quality of wire and length of wire.
--And this offers the kind of anonymity that my customers will be taught to expect
from an electricity allocation market.
--Then the dollars will flow in! I'll get my yacht and mountain of cocaine.
--my house solar panels and fantasy pants computer.
(I will be bejeweled by an iron wedding ring
instead of diamonds on my shoelaces.)
--Ho hum.
Much like my plan to make 'True Blood' carbonated water ("Drink in your decay.")
I am not going to do this one either.
[
Preferably, if I made any money,
it would be attributed to a screen handle and the author of the work would be
referenced by a screen handle.
I don't want to be streaming music and having people show up and saying:
"OMG! You're that guy! I'll buy samples of your music because you're 'that guy'!"
Ho hum.
]
[
Just want to be alone in some apartment somewhere.
]
[
Or I could accept the fame and do as some people do,
aiming the camera so that it cuts off any identifying features of my person.
--But the practical difficulty is that I could accept the fame as Eric Russell
then legally change my name to be left alone.
But this would leave a paper trail illustrating that I had changed my name.
--And for that matter, I would continue to be posting material under the designated
screen handle.
It is a complicated question.
The idea that I would be out on the street looking for love
and that another person's decision would be influenced by connecting my face with a
heard name
is abombinable to me.
But fuck other people. I will bleed them of 30k$ per year.
'intolerability'
presents itself in remarkably different ways from position to position.
'intolerability' means taking up the middle finger;
my taking up the middle finger means something very different from
what it means for anyone else to take up the middle-finger.
For me 'intolerability'
is responded to by finding a way to leverage an idea into dollars.
And if this means exploiting laborers so I can extract dollars from their efforts,
that is what I will do.
The system in which I am embroiled is intolerable to me and I am
simply playing out the historical necessity of holding my position.
--Had I been a rich fuck borne of rich parents who were leeches on the neck of
society,
I would have just lounged around writing until
there was no more inheritance, then I would have shot myself.
Then there would no longer be perpetuated through that fund of dollars the
execution of domination.
--It is a tricky point that my parents were productive members of society and I am
physically a leech on their resources.
If they had been rich I could have
flipped them the middle finger from the moment born until dead.
But instead I have parents I agree should be honored after some fashion.
And I have a life in which I am saying: "This position must be escaped as quickly
as possible."
--So I will factually (through the bare act of my actions) specify several laborers
whose labor I am profiting by,
then I will steal the product of their labor and establish a new position
from which I can designate more laborers from whom I can extract dollars.
--That is, to say, exactly what I will be doing when I take my money and run
into an apartment and find
a way of leveraging my ideas into a stream of revenue.
Better to die with a trophy on your mantle than pennies in your pocket.
[[[You know, despite rhetorical joking here, that I did not make bitcoin,
because I am telling you this position is intolerable to continue to hold
but I do not accept the few thousand dollars I could extract from the first wallet
before Bitcoin collapsed entirely.
]]
]
then I will discern a method for extracting excess value generated by other people
in the market place.
I will call it a business and I will introduce it in order to subsidise my own
continued existence
with minimal effort diverted from optimal continuation of my own holding of some
isolated apartment.
(
Though you know if I own the house and also a garden outside it
I will be able to arrive in a position where I need not exploit anyone to continue
optimally to execute my own position.
Stupid fucks.
)
(
In outright-purchasing that house I will have committed some grave sin.
Because I will have ammassed something like 400k$ all at once to be able to
purchase it outright.
ANd to have been in a position to amass 400k$ all at once is certainly to have
committed some grave sin.
)
(
Or maybe I could acquire a mathematics degree,
acquire a millenium prise,
and then hide for the remainder of my life.
Surely this cannot be called an injustice.)a
(
"If you had in fact won a millenium prize
it would be useful if you showed up as a human on a stage in-body to receive it."
Why can these dollars not be scrambled and delivered to me in tiny quantities
mathematically organised so that they cannot ever be traced to my identity?
Ho hum.
Or it ends up being another 'A Beautiful Mind'. Glamorising the horrifying
experience of schizophrenia.
John Nash's body too on a sequence of presented stages.
--Maybe risking tempting
misled youth into embracing schizophrenia instead of beseeching treatment the
moment it has appeared.
Maybe I too can construct ideas that contribute to this prolonged effort of making
more and better ideas."
--ANd I receive an anonymous revenue stream. That is what is good.
(Goddamn it.)
('the it' that is goddamned)
(the weather)
But there is this goddamned 'it' that restrains human perfection at every available
moment.)
(It is interesting that Academics are the proper recipients of all good ideas
, but when en-masse every human is generating good ideas
the Academy has not generated enough Academics to examine all of them and judge
them on their merit.
So it is good to develop a system where non-Academics can be Academics.)
(
It is good to develop a hierarchy of comment construction where
everyone is very interested in being truly correct in the judgment of Academics
ultimately
and then they are told whether they are adhering to Academic standards.
--It is good that when people post messages that make them be mocked by
badphilosophy/r/
they feel the weight of the mockery that is present for them when they ahve defied
academic standards.
It is good that people stop talking except that they have something that can be
approved by their local academic examiner
(and yet nevertheless don't stop talking)
--then the message boards would be loci of incredible idea generation.
--And 'nogalt' ignites the message boards more than 'Eric Russell.'
--Then there is this incredibly tedious point that 'nogalt' is a hardly developed
character,
whereas Eric Russell is a character developed over thousands of pages.
--It is tedious because
I can't really imagine what 'nogalt' could post to reddit in order to effect a
minor revenue stream and an explosion of ideas,
but I can really imagine what 'Eric Russell' could post to the market that effects
a major revenue stream and an explosion of ideas.
--You see because I have all put all this effort into an 'Eric Russell' in an
engrossing notepad instance
and this effort has not entailed anything but 'Eric Russell' talking to himself at
extreme length.
--It is more difficult than simply continuing to type in this notepad instance
to construct a message and place it in the mouth of 'nogalt'.
--Or maybe it isn't, in-story.
Maybe I've been being 'nogalt' all along.
Then it should be easy to place messages in the mouth of 'nogalt' and difficult to
put them in the mouth of 'Eric Russell'.
This, ah, voice for which I insist there is a publicly traded name.
--The world won't imprison me for the things I have done so I will.
If the world is too stupid to recognise the heinous sin that is my bare moment to
moment
then I will not also be too stupid. I will restrain myself.
Recognising I will rape women who attribute my name to my current being
I will not ever request an intimate relation.
--Recognising there cannot ever be justice for me in a one-night stand,
I will not request them regardless of whether those requests will be accepted.
--That is why I want an apartment out in the middle of nowhere and to engage
minimally with any other human.
Why I do not want my face associated with 'nogalt'.
--That woman not recognising and even protesting the idea that I raped her is not
an adequate defense.
--Better to direct my lust into an inanimate object like the cello or komboloi. Or
a pen or my hands against a keyboard.
"So you really think back on those three women and think you raped all of them.
No matter how vigorous they were in affirming your advances."
Oh.
I had not really considered their relation to me.
That didn't seem very relevant to my evaluation of myself.
It didn't seem to matter whether they enjoyed what was happening, or freely
submitted that it was acceptable that it happened,
when I was deciding whether I had deceived them into letting me touch their bodies.
--Because I didn't care.
Because I didn't care whether they submitted or not.
--It is true that I did not, say, drug anyone.
I did not find anyone slovenly drunk and then take advantage of their bodies.
--But I did not care whether my three partners were accepting my advances.
I made the advances and then they accepted them or they did not.
Then on three occasions I was touching three women's bodies as opposed to those
occasions on which I was not doing so.
"Uh.
Yes? I guess?"
No.
Because when I typed it out it was a lie.
"You were signalling that you wanted to touch this woman in question,
and she said: 'Okay.'"
--I would have to relate the actual circumstances to reveal where the intolerable
activity began.
I would have to say:
"I showed up,
and I entered the apartment with a few knocks.
I looked at the piano on the wall and saw it held cello music of the 4th suite
prelude.
I interrogated the woman for a few minutes concerning how the 4th suite prelude was
to be executed.
THen I asked:
'So how does this begin?
Do we start kissing each other now?'
Yes.
That is where the evil began.
Because ERic is the human that generated the solution to Machine consciousness.
When I signed my name
that is where I committed evil.
When my last text that said: "WOuld you like to have a one-night stand"
was the first text instead
of the last of a great sequence of texts leading up to it,
and when I therefore relied on the weight of my name
instead of the weight of my interactions,
this is when I arrived at an apartment
and half-heartedly raped a woman.
--I could not manage even to send an errant message into the void
that did not arrive me in a circumstance where I had misled a woman into touching
my body.
As if I am a rape machine that
periodically, through errant text messages, arrives in circumstances where I am
raping.
--It is true,
I would have to grant a single other person agency in order to justify sending out
longing texts into the void.
And I am not inclined to ascribe to other persons agency because
everyone else makes mistakes but I should not, at great length.
I'm saying when you were kissing this woman and touching her on lengthy request
Oh fine.
THen I can just move on and fail to examine the consequences of my own decisions.
--And to be a human that has urges to see naked skin and feel it,
you would hardly
you would hardly desire to maintain such a human.
From one moment to the next you would be inviting
circumstances that are uncertain under evaluation.
Defying God from one moment to the next, who demands absolute certainty
to proceed from one state of a position to the next state of the position,
I was, ah,.
I was kissing this woman's back and then not
displaying the correct behavior that should have foollowed from this interaction.
I was touching a woman's body and ah,
having her mouth encouraging me in my decision,
and then I failed to display the relevant activity.
And then well my erection was a question spent against her bed coverings.
--Then what I felt was not a relevant question in
how my mouth ended up designated against her body.
--You see?
I had what I wanted
and in having what I wanted I had confused the relevant woman
into believing that I wanted, ah, her.
--Goddamnit it.
Let us say,
there was a woman on a bed next to me who was sucking on my cock.
ANd I was kissing her back and touching her back with great gusto.
And while it felt very good to me to have my lips on this woman's back and my hands
on her waist,
I had no option except to go down on her the moment this option was available
because
ah, goddamnit, this sucking on my cock did not result in the achieving of a full
erection.
(Because I was distracted by thinking about Abraham.)
And deciding that it was preferable to disappoint the woman in question with my
mouth rather than my cock,
I went down on her immediately the moment it was an available option.
(And then I disappointed her in the same way
she had just finished judging herself as disappointing me.)
--And that is the fun anecdote of the one time I have had sex.
It is an enecdote that reveals many interesting observations
so I feel compelled to convey it before I stop typing.
You see-----
it is that lingering hand on the back while recounting Kierkegaard.
If I had repulsed myself to the other side of the room before saying:
"Kierkegaard does not permit that I have enjoyed this"
then I would not have raped a woman.
But instead I touched her back while I was saying these things with my mouth.
--ANd now I have to live in a rural area rather than permitting myself
any liberty with a woman I can contact through, say, an illuminated device.
--It was the incorrect time to reference Kierkegaard.
It was not an appropriate juncture at which to speak about Abraham.
It is not permissible to commit another sin and I would prefer a bullet in my brain
before I did it.
It is not permissible that i look back on my life and witness another memory that
is as bad or as bad as this.
--Why I select an online handle instead of my own physical body as a locus of the
work I have done.
--Because I will say: "Hey woman, I am nogalt.
I am the body that corresponds to the name you have seen posted on message boards.
This is the reason you should let me touch your body."
--Which is why I want an anonymous equity stream.
I want to have been forbidden to interact with people in this way.
I do not trust
the outcome of letting my persona perform whatever it intends to perform.
I want an iron ring on my left hand where I will look at it and say:
"I have been entrusted with a weight of incomprehensible weight
and there is nothing to have been done but dragging it along."
Resolving my pleasure
is a cost in time that is not justified by the presence of the iron ring.
Feeling my iron ring scrape against a screen as it {sates} types out exaCTLY THE
TEXT THAT RESULTS IN MY MOUTH ON A WOMAN'S BACK
will feel obviously unacceptable the moment I have an iron ring.
Leave me along so I can judge the pressing of this ring against paper.
please.aaaaaaaaaaa
Please let me just have endless days
where this iron ring leaves impressions on endless collections of notebooks.
If you all want to reproduce via rape, fine. I don't care, just please allow me to
be absent from this decision making.
I want to be removed.
I want my outback apartment and an iron ring so I can just write and write.
So I want
an iron wedding band
and a completely removed personal position.
what do I want?
They saw the iron ring and they still wanted my mouth.
And the next day they will leave me alone so I can keep writing with my hand with a
pen.
--I want:
...
an iron ring so heavy my whole body is pinned to the ground so that it cannot
exhibit any errant behaviors.
--I cannot arrive in a position like the one in which I found myself before.
I do not accept that I am requesting
a woman please allow my mouth on her body like I did before.
--Why I deserve to be lined up against the wall with all the others.
I did not accept the weight of the iron ring when it was already presened to me.
I pretended i could lift my mouth off the weighted ground to a woman's crotch
when in fact I could not.
My mouth was weighted down with iron rings and I pretended it wasn't.
Every inch of my skin was weighted down with iron rings and I pretended it wasn't.
And in pretending it wasn't so weighted down I lifted my tongue to a woman's crotch
and I sinned.
I should have been in a library instead of the room in which I sent the beseeching
text.
I should have been extending the notes instead of requesting
that my tongue would arrive on this woman's back.
--Imagine the circumstances into which this voice can find itself enmeshed.
Now imagine the countermeasure against abusing this capacity: an iron ring.
An iron ring that weighs infinity tonnes.
An iron ring where even where I have begun to rape a woman actually
I will
not do that.
imagine absolution.
An iron ring I could at last look at on my left hand
or perpetually feel against the grain of paper on which I am writing text.
I am a psychopath.
I can do anything i can describe myself as wanting to do.
So I want an iron ring on my left hand
where I look at it and then I do nothing but write with a pen forever and ever and
ever and ever.
I want to have been prevented from making decisions that put me in relation to
other human bodies.
I prefer that I was completely restrained than that I have made the decisions I
have made.
I prefer that i always had an iron band on my left hand
than that I made the decisions I made when I did not have that iron band on my left
hand.
I prefer
that I had had an overwhelming excuse not to rape another human.
I prefer--
--culturally it is an odd thing to observe, let me observe.
"I would much prefer that I had had a bit of iron around my left hand
rather than a mouth around my cock."
I wanted
that I could, in a bare moment,
look at my left hand
rather than a bare text field of this woman
--but I didn't have the iron ring and I
put my mouth
wanted
wanted
tasted
--No hope.
No iron ring.
No avenue.
No assurance.
No reference without doubt.
No "
I have a literal instance of an iron ring on my left hand."
No apartment. no job.
A list of names and a desire.
No iron ring.
--ANd well though I have tortuously deprived my phone of electrical charge over
time
and though I have made my phone an absolutely useless artifact relative to the
construction or receptance of text messages,
this does not retroactively forgive the decisions I have made.
(Actually.
This cell-phone beside my body has been resurrected electrically maybe twice in the
past two years
and only for the purpose that several wrong-number voicemails have been listened
to.
)
--Never again.
I cannot be permitted access.
I want a far-removed room far removed.
I see that the execution of my desires is rape
and it is impermissible that I attain anything that I designate myself as wanting.
"I think maybe you are unfairly invoking a word you do not understand here.
YOu asked a woman if you could put your mouth on her body and she said yes."
Tedious.
If you are not calling for my body against the wall
you have misunderstood what I have been telling you.
--
--If you do not at least demand that an iron ring arrive on my ring-finger.
--It is not permissible that I
utilise my capacity to manipulate people to arrive in a circumstance where my mouth
is on a human body.
""
"Uhhh.....
a woman cumming?"
--I was
orchestraing a sequence of events in which I was satisfied.
--If you cannot see my head in this anecdotal peron's erogenous zones
and say: "This was an example of a Sin"
then you have misunderstood the story I have been telling.
--Then I cannot convince you to wail with me and gnash teeth wit hme!
We were supposed to arrive here and both spit on my shoes,
instead of me spitting repeatedly on my own shoes
and you just standing there unhappily.
--We were supposed to arrive at the point where you condemned my body with equal
gusto
with which I condemn it myself.
you will not even be able to look at my body without a gag in your throAT."
"IT IS NOT A QUESTION OF PUNISHMENT BUT
IT IS A QUESTION OF ITS NOT BEING ALLOWED
I need a name that can host my ideas without their being connected
to this impermissible body.
I need
an avenue called 'nogalt' for
effecting my purposes without
it being this body doing that.
To have lived was to have sinned but granted grace. TO have perpetuated myself was
to have sinned but granted grace.
ANd to have done this thing I did
this was to have disconnected myself permanently from grace.
This was being impermissible.
--Requesting of someone that they let me kiss them when I do not love them.
--Requesting that I can taste you even though
there is nothing between us but my desire to taste your skin.
--Requesting whatever this unattended body ends up requesting when I am bothering
myself to look at other things.
--Whatever this unattended body requests
when I am absentmindedly examining collections of words gathered carefully into
sentences.
--When this body exits a shower while I am thinking about Kierkegaard
and it propels me inevitably to arriving my body into an apartment with the
requested woman
(And oh.
I hope to think you are all much more guilty than I am.)
--
--So maybe you see the necessity of suppression.
There are things I will do when I feel the dragging-behind-my-left-hand of the iron
ring
that I will not do if
I am concerned with whether my decisions have effected inexcusable evil.
--Even if at last
"--Shh."
Even if at last I must say of myself that I committed a rape against a woman I knew
and appreciated,
I will say this was an inexorable step towards the construction of the Machine.
ANd if
a bullet is put into my brain the instant after the Machine is introduced
this will have been worth it.
I thought:
"I need to be performing the ritual activities
that people typically perform around this time
in order that I will have experienced the things
that people need to experience in order that
they can perfectly recount the mechanisms behind human experience."
I do not accept that a single word be put in 'Eric Russell''s mouth because
I do not trust the effects that result from a word issuing from that mouth.
I need every solution to be
a conclusion people reach when they read the posts of 'nogalt'.
But I am too wasted to discern how to put words into the mouth of 'nogalt'.
I have failed.
At one point I was clever enough to make 'nogalt' into a puppet whose movements
served my purposes.
Now I am not so clever.
Now I am strung out on chemicals and I am not so clever.
I constructed a human whose only redemption was perfect words spoken through a
puppet
and then I did not maintain the capacity to manipulate a puppet.
--I decided the only plausible option was to make posts through an account named
'nogalt'
and I did not retain the capacity to effect my purposes through the distribution of
posts made through that account.
--I made a mistake in managing the only plausible escape from my sin.
--I did not introduce the effects that anteroactively justified the decisions I
made.
--I narrowed myself down into a bare scant few interactions that would
anteroactively justify my behaviors
ad I did not not effect those interactions.
--I said to myself explicitly: "I will literally either introduce this Machine
or I will judge that I was too lenient on my own body.
And adhering to non-lenience is
you know.
Impermissible."
--you see, I am 20 pages or so after the primary point where I revealed my guilt.
You see how easy it is rhetorically for me to bury my guilt in a barrage of
verbiage.
(And well, assuredly I will come back next time and say:
"Welll but I do not have
a looping explication of all my beliefs passing in front of my eyes every waking
moment."
(A person who knows how to manipulate text messages into arriving with skin in his
mouth qua desire.)
(A rapist only waiting for the next plausible target.)
--
--It will be a great day when this body arrives in a desert
if for no other reason than that therefore this body will have been removed from
polite society.
(
And it is disgusting to me that there are days
where I do not wake up and spit on my own shoes.)
--You have missed the baseline against we are judging permissible behavior.
(or something.
say anything that agreed with the condemnation
and then I will stop having to convince you that I did something evil)
--
--And for some obtuse above observation it was important that I had an iron wedding
band on my left hand.
--I think that was having-been-supposed as the important point to make.
--That, say, when I order the eclipse glasses I am going to buy off of the internet
I simultaneously suggest the deliverance of the iron ring so as to save on shipping
costs.lullulul.
[
So you see the rhetorical function of
all of the preceding.
]
I don't want anything but waking up and returning to this notepad instance
because I recognise wanting other things results in the committing of sin.
(And well, as if the iron ring on my left hand was a permanent symbol--
it is rather a transient symbol of
societal recognition that I , for at least some sequence of periods of time,
had been making the right decision for a few moments.
--
--And well, watch me return in a few hours.
THen I will be speaking as if
I had never committed a sin.
I will, oh watch and observe. I will be back shortly.
(And it is easy to cast the first stone
if you are fully willing to the stoned to death in response.)
--
--Sorry, I have to go home, I am very drunk.
--
--
This whole 'controlling effectively when one goes unconscious and regains
consciousness'
is, you know, a useful tool. A fun tool.
I awake and spry and smiling happy what have you.
And the whole tri-state+canada area around my city is on fire and filling the air
with smoke.
So I have a great many impediments to lucidity all present in my brain.
"So I see we aren't going to talk about what you wrote last night."
--
--
"Octopus research shows that consciousness isn't what makes humans special"
--
--
Boy, I just want a few straight days of thinking I'm the worst person on earth,
then I see all these literal nazis waving around nazi flags in Charlottesville.
--
--
Huh?
Oh.
Supposing that I happen to believe what I happen to be saying from one moment to
the next
is, I would suggest, not the best hermaneutical approach to reading what I type.
I am conflicted. Mostly just passing the time.
--
--
--
--
It is hard to imagine these nazis as being anything other than a millenarian cult
where their millenium is complete extirpation of themselves from the world.
--on internet forums where they talk about the day of the rope, the day of
reckoning what have you,
what would they be anticipating but that masked people would show up to their
houses and kill all of them and their children?
"Presumably their millenium would be the extirpation of others and not themselves.
In their own view, I mean."
--'briefcase'
there is a headline of nazis walking into a restaurant
and trying to throw around the weight of their apparent willingness to use
violence.
Do they believe that if nazis ended up dying sporadically across this country
their movement would receive more sympathy?
--I would have to goad myself into feeling the kind of hate they feel
to construct what I would take to be an accurate representation of their beliefs
so that I could extract from that accurate representation an explanation for the
decisions they are making.
"Presumably this was the hate you were feeling while typing the preceding violent
fantasy."
It is easy enough to explain why the high-lord is spitting on peasants before the
war.
If the peasants respond they will be killed.
But when the high-lord is no longer in a position to effect the murder of a single
peasant
then I would have to reconstruct delusions playing around in the head of the
nobleman to explain the action.
--I would have to reconstruct what obviously incorrect sequence of events he can
have imagined as playing out.
--Now I can tell similar stories behind the nazis without having to reconstruct the
stories of hate.
I can imagine nazis in ralleys and only seeing white people.
I can imagine nazis in rural towns who have no conception of what it means for a
city to have ten million people in it
having only been exposed to a town with a few hundred.
Ten million humans is a number listed on spreadsheets at best for them.
They think a thousand people at the local nazi convention is a lot of people,
because it is the most people they have seen in one location in all their lives.
"There is a difference here in that there *is* a story being maintained by the
nazis through these well-trod actions."
Now that I'm thinking about it, I'm not so sure that is true.
If they were ever stopped and asked *why* they are performing one of those
maintaining actions, even,
they would not be telling a story.
They would be reciting memorised tracts they were told are what they should say if
confronted.
And indeed, they have a memorised tract to recite for if I observed to them:
"The day of the rope is the day where you and every single member of your
organisation is put to death."
They would be revealing their delusion, but they would not have exposed themselves
to contemplation of the delusion.
Their "no." is not a measured response but a memorised tract.
That would not be the mechanically generated outcome that would arise
if they attempted to bring on their fantasised apocalypse.
'mechanically generated'
In their daily lives they show up as a cult into restaurants and push around the
locals.
This pushing-around makes them appear powerful (or actually powerful) in their
backwater towns.
This power enables them to recruit more people into their cult.
They show up into a city and it is as if they have no real choice in the matter
of whether they do or do not perform the actions that perpetuate their delusion.
Even if they did not perform the actions,
this would be an occasion on which they are saying:
"I can't do it *this* time."
It is still them, brainwashed cult members, perpetuating the delusion in their own
heads.
--continuing to believe they had a choice in whether they would or would not
perform the actions,
even though a clearheaded vision of the circumstance would demonstrate they had no
choice in the matter.
(So that a more correct story they are not engaging in would be like:
"if I laid a hand on this restaurant owner
every member of my group would be pinned to the ground and beaten to death
after the events that transpired today.")
(--no, that is not the more correct story. That is just a variation on the
delusion.
The more correct story would be something like:
"The scales have fallen off all our eyes.
We have arrived in this restaurant so that we could tear off our nazi armbands and
spit on them,
so that we could remove our shirts {shorts?} and turn our swastika tattoos into
black squares.
We have come to beg local forgiveness for having been a part of this movement."
It is a preferable outcome
but it is still just the other side of a decision a nazi can choose to make.
--Or, it is a decision a nazi cannot arrive and make,
with its having delineated the point where they have ceased to be nazis.
but then that is a very similar question to the one being faced
by the people who either will or not be the ones beating dozens of nazis to death
in public,
and by the local authorities who either will or will not sabotage the
investigation.
'question' maybe the wrong word. 'very similar situation to the one being faced'
better.
Then every circumstance would present an identical ethical question to every agent
involved
and the resolution of those circumstances would all be the ones dictated by the
ethical system to which we had bound ourselves.
Given that we do not have this common system, there doesn't seem to be any ethical
question here
except ones that ethicists might bother to write down at great length in their
studies.
--There cannot be a question, for instance, concerning whether everyone in those
circumstances correctly applied the commonly accepted ethical system.
(
Whether, for instance,
the group behavior in the circumstance defied the ethicist's perfect evaluation
because people in the group made incorrect identification of agents or actions.
Well because even if we did have a fully reticulated and fully binding ethical
system,
it does not apply to circumstances themselves but rather it applies to the
decisions that individual people make.
One could have said that the first person who threw a punch should not have done
so, maybe,
but the ethicist is not really in a position to discern whether that person should
not have thrown a punch.
--And notably this criticism only applies to ethicists who imagine that an
accounting of actions and agents is adequate--
that the right-and-good outcome can be deduced from a correct accounting of agents
and actions.
)
(
Whereas notably, being a psychohistorian instead of an ethicist,
I have no problem allowing myself to be corrected by the outcomes that emerge from
group behaviors.
Ah, it is a trick.
((Maybe.))
An analytical trick.
It is easier to perform psychohistorical analysis if you let yourself be consumed
wholly by
the fire that is already burning around you everywhere.
Then you can turn your body into a sensory apparatus that records the distribution
of heat
and converts it into a heatmap that can be examined with one's eyes and reading
voice.
Then one can replace the stories that are propagated in media concerning the market
price of actions
with, ah, the equilibrium price of actions.
As, say, when Elon Musk is deluded by the media's spinning of yarns
into believing that failure to allow unionisation is just what clever capitalists
do.
It is true that this is the maintained market price, anyway.
Right up to that point where a strike is performed despite the absence of a union
at a critical juncture in the production process to be met,
and either tesla collapses or governments step in to break the strike,
after which tesla will collapse.
[
"Presumably tesla would also collapse under the condition that it allows
unionisation."
Pshaw.
Not to denigrate the technical accomplishments of tesla,
but that business exists on wishes and good news.
"Unionisation is bad news for those organisations to whom tesla owes a great deal
of money."
But glorious news for everyone else, including the union workers themselves.
and the report of this expectation-exceeding output will placate the market.
]
--
"--You know, if you listened to minorities speak
what you would hear is that they are not so optimistic about what would happen if
shit went down."
I think this is just a briefcase; my question is whether they can read their own
documents.
Of course they can't publicly observe that they could genocide the nazis
because this would be incitement to violence--
unlike nazi's public declarations that they can genocide minorities,
which is treated as free speech.
--anyway, boring topics
--
--Here is a much more entertaining topic.
I was just in the shower shaving.
(A tedious task in itself, but it gives rise to delightful circumstances:)
There was an accumulation of hair on the back of the shaving device. The uh. THe
razor-collection thing I had in my hand.
I was willing that the back of the razor blade be exposed to the stream of water
coming out of the shower head.
The water crashed into the back of the razor and this made drops of water bounce
off of it and into my face.
(Risking, but not actually effecting, that the hair I was dislodging ended up back
on my body--
which would be counter-effective to my purposes of removing the hair from my body!)
Now then I observed that there were two radically different ways of preventing this
water from splashing me in the face.
I could have taken a step back from the shower head so that the water was lower
down, having fallen further,
and then lowered the razor to that stream of water instead of the stream of water
at near-eye level.
This would have effected the dislodging of the hair without splashing my face with
water.
--
--A difficulty with the 'shifting madness' framing device for considering the
import of what people say
--We could maybe imagine some people who were trying to read the shifting madness
, contorting the formalisation of their intentions,
identifying a collection of text that is the equivalent to this twisted intention,
and then making *that* statement
instead of whatever happens into their heads from moment to moment.
(
I'm trying to invoke an above observation of people passing a ball in a straight
line with their hands.
In that procedure,
there was no way for the person on stage to orchestrate a straight line
that obeyed an angle identical to one able to be generated through a rulebook.
But then we would have not to have designated a purpose, in-words, to which we had
hoped to adhere.
I leave it as an exercise for the reader to discern why I am saying this.]
)
--
--
Funny that my most common way of referencing Zizek, at least out of the
categorisably different ways of referencing his work,
is through the construct of 'Zizek's Landfill'
which was derived by reference to a throwaway line in a for-popular-consumption
film.
'We are all always-already eating from this trashcan.'
--
--
/r/showerthoughts:
"Billionaires are probably warning us about AIs because the first thing
any sentient AI would do is warn us about Billionaire."
:O
--
--
"
"A massacre": At least 30 children die in Indian
hospital after oxygen cut off over unpaid bill
"
elsewhere:
'people donated 8000 pounds to save a dog.'
with causes for which it actually makes sense to expend large quantities of money."
Oh how cruel,
you mean it would have been nigh-infinitely better for those 8000 pounds to have
been expended towards the betterment of human lives
than on extensive surgery for a dog?
"Okay:
it is almost as if you spending 16 hours a day reading headlines
is going to result in you seeing gross displays of negligence on the part of
humanity on a regular basis."
Fine.
--
--
Hmm.
Well I have never claimed to be able to discern how effectively to interact with
other people.
--Anyway, while I can't recall what it is like when I have gone under salvia,
I do recall that the last three or four times before going under I said:
"Oh God not again."
And I recall recalling just after saying that
, or while saying it,
why I always tell myself that it is a raging horror to consume it.
I had had in mind the last time I consumed it that it might help to have someone
pleasant around.
This proved untrue.
--and but on the other hand the one occasion I did it alone
I started hearing taunting voices in my head that were distinctly unlike hearing my
own voice,
and then I stumbled out of my room and collapsed on the ground.
--And that was during the period of my life where I had something approaching
happiness! Haha.
--
--I suppose that,
having my bitcoin held in an account that is explicitly tied directly to my person
(or better to say, to my body,
to make more practical the observation that some other bodies could arrive at my
house and put my wrists in chains)
and having it acquired it initially from another account that is tied to my body,
"Just use some of that world-famous manipulative capacity you say you have."
--
--
--But then,
why would I not have a preference that my own voice is sexy?
It has to be something.
--
--
I wonder if there has been any discussion in Islamic caselaw for circumstances like
my own,
where alcohol consumption is performed
[to potentiate marijuana]
in order to enhance performance.
It seems like the prohibition of alcohol consumption is much like Islam's tenuous
relation with music,
where the fear is that consumption of alcohol or music will lead to fornication or
what have you.
Or, to say, that it is done for fun,
or that it gives rise to states in which one is culpably inculpable for one's
actions.
Surely, I am not consuming alcohol so as to give rise to fornication. And for that
matter, I am not having any fun.
Ho hum.
--
--
Conspiracy theory:
a large part of the value proposition of ethereum is that
it recruits armies of computer-savvy individuals all attempting to maximise the
hashing capacity of video cards.
--I still hold out a fantasy that ethereum and bitcoin mining were a clever way of
disguising a massive distributed super-computer
that did something other than performing hashes.
The idea that so much computation could be going into the raw burning-off of
electricity
only comforts me on the recognition that
it is better (religiously speaking) to have graphics cards maxed out than sitting
in warehouses,
or sitting in gaming computers.
--
--You know, in my fantasy pants idea concerning the Riemann thingy with the -1/12
and what have you
(to wit, the image I am currently holding in my head
of a strip on a cartesian grid centered between 0-1
extending up into infinity on which there are points
that constitute zeroes or something or what have you,
"Better to ask:
why would you ever bother to pursue the intricacies of ideas
the foundations of which are placed on the shifting sands of nonsense?"
then the dot no longer appears in the strip but rather appears in some wildly far-
flung space of the graph.
So the dots in the graph allow us to observe the precise outcome of exposing a
cartesian grid to an irrational number.
(I've lost even the gusto at this point to say I want to kill myself.
Someone who is saying boring things lazily
doesn't evoke the same kind of emotional response when he says he wants to die.
--
--
Lots of people complaining about vega being incredible for mining but not so
incredible for gaming.
At least until we begin to make ASICs for a task, which throws off this arbitrarily
constructed metric I just made.)
--Or, this is all a way of explaining why I exclaimed: "Ho shit." when I saw 70-100
mhash coming out of vega.
(And well, it will either end up being on the higher end of this scale when
thousands of miners have taken a crack
or it will exceed the higher end.
I have faith in the community of miners to discern the optimal alterations to stock
configuration.)
--
--
I don't anticipate I will meet another person for whom I will feel anything.
(Person after person confirms this anticipation {supposition}.)
And by the time I meet anyone for whom I do feel anything
I will have made myself so ugly and disfigured there will be no practical hope.
{
(And I would tattoo a swastika on my forehead to assure I was correct in this
supposition
if I didn't think I would end up beaten to death in the streets, as would be fully
justified.
As if someone who hates you, having attention density present in your body for
them,
is more or less as good as having them love you.
[If this sounds like I am implying a difficulty for psychohistory,
I'm not.
I am rather making a joke.
If someone is just as frequently looking at body parts between hate and love,
then we talk about how they are looking at joints instead of junk.
And then we speak about how joints or junk are incorporated into culture
so that we can ascertain an exact degree of attention density.
Easy peasy. You can make your payment to me in bitcoin.]
"
""person after person confirms...""
easy to say when you live in a basement and interact with no one outside your
family.
"
You are being an echo of a voice I thought I had killed a while ago.
Back around when I was 12 I recognised that this whole 'feeling sorry for yourself'
is a misevaluation of your position in the cosmic pissing contest of misery.
So that I have hundreds of pages that dismantle every single complaint I had
between the ages of say 12 and 20.
Now I came to believe after some point (implicitly) that if I was forming a
complaint
then it was so immune to this dismantling procedure in my notebooks
that it was worth it to have made.
--Anyway, the message here is that I have sincere doubts that I will ever again be
able to produce work of any value.
(If I ever did produce anything of value.)
I think probably the habits I have abandoned and unlearned
were the only reason i was able to do anything of value in the first place.
"..And this has some connection to the earlier discussion of whether you should
contact--"
I don't know. I don't recall more than a few paragraphs back anymore.
--Oh right, the question of whether I should engage in behavior that would require
circumventing account blocks against my communications.
Well I could do it but it doesn't seem wise to have done.
(And well, we are all lovers of wisdom here.)
"
""I have sincere doubts that i will ever again be able to produce work of any
value.""
Weren't you just claiming to have solved some Riemann thingy thing?"
--
--The preceding observations make a kind of half-magic key for the work I have
done.
It is not surprising that I spent so much time defending myself from an explicit
interlocutor
when you consider that is exactly what I had been doing for 8-15 consecutive years
over hundreds and hundreds of pages.
And if I had gotten good at it, well, that is what you expect from a human that
does the same thing for 8-15 consecutive years.
--
--
from another arbitrarily picked out reddit post:
"
""It's hard arguing against a smart person, [sic]
I see why you're stopping.""
"
"Many?"
Yes.
--
--
I feel that currently typing is a wasted effort, given how little capacity I
currently retain to type anything useful.
So maybe I will continue to feel that if I smoke a massive amount of marijuana.
pessimist.
And oh,
the number of people who made sleeping jokes in trade chat more than justified the
10$ expenditure.
And well, then I was obviously the best discipline priest on Llane according to all
relevant measures,
and top 50 at least world in all relevant measures.
Worth.)
--
--There were moments when I was high where
if I could have copy and pasted those moments in perpetuity,
if I could copy-paste the vision-generation mechanism across time
emergently generating one vision to the next
I would have much preferred to have continued to experience that forever than ever
to have come down
and proceeded to talk to people say, or walk around.
[
To be a heretic for a moment:
what would muslims say if it could be proven that Mohammed (let peace be upon him
at last)
was just another man who got high and wrote down a very useful text?
Would it change anything for Mohammad (for whom there can be no peace)
at last?
--
--
"Huh?"
Ho hum.
I am leveraging an implicit notion that cursive probably is not as efficient as
writing print.
(Though you know, I was writing very fast in my notebooks.
--
--
"They have little money. THey raise their own food. They drink home-grown
wine. They worship, eat, and socialize communally. Apart from subsistence
farming and shepherding there is little work. This is what a world without
capitalism looks like."
If that was the dominant execution of society i would have been Galt instead of
myself.
But if it was that society all across the surface of the earth
it would either be that I am orchestrating the completely destruction of that
society
or that I am putting a bullet in my brain.
'subsistence farming'
--I can hardly believe that this post was not made by a satirist.
'subsistence farming is what you will have if you do not have capitalism'
and people upvote it.
7-8/10.
and we would convert every factory into the maximal interface for human brains to
express themselves within the world
and we would dominate all the world, all the 'world' mundus in excelsius (incorrect
latin)
And you would be wrong because that is not a society that can survive.
The first asteroid, the first plague, the first dictator,
all of these would destroy that vision.
I think maybe I can have been more convincing in everything I have said
if I can have exposed you to this
recognition of how vile the notion of death is.
No. No no no.
I've hinted at it vaguely.
I'm a few hits of weed and a few shots of gin away from telling you what it means
to die.
And if you saw it
if you were made to see it
--then you would see me split an infinitive at a juncture and you would say: "Oh
great Christ." (As a swear.)
--
--This person who made this post,
trading all the glory of humanity for
monkeys who happen to know how to manipulate fields.
--If a master mathematician emerges within this glorified cult in this post
then it dies in a field trying to get corn out of the ground.
aged 60 and having done nothing of value
outside of executing the capacity to feed rich people with wine in a church while
they fuck each other.
--We can't even reference Riemann or Turing to glorify this nascent mathematician.
We can't even say:
"This person in the field, feeding the rich Amirshmen with wine,
*could* have resolved all of these great issues."
Without alcohol,
we would need to be waiting many years
for someone who can have emerged within a more especial circumstance
who can have seen more clearly than myself the things that needed to be seen;
and within these intervening years, in the absence of the things that could have
been said by myself or my future incarnation,
there is a tremendous quantity of alcohol consumption that can have been averted.
]
--
--It is interesting that a lot of criticism of me relies on an idea like this:
"People are supposed to get over the idea that they will die
and to belabor the point is, at great length, almost childish."
Oh.
I can show you death.
After that you will no longer feel as though it is a childish question with which
we are dealing.
--Would you like that?
Do you want to call my bluff?
Oh ohohoho.
I had a line in my head that was perfect here but I abdicated it.
I've delivered so many punchy one-liners to try to convince you
that you have just pre-figured your death against a phantasm of your own
imagination
that I no longer feel any strong urge to continue to pursue this practise
of rectifying stupid peoples' notions of death.
And it happens to be the case that one monkey among you is named 'elon musk'.
--I have hoped that the Machine could reconstruct my disgust out of my text.
Well..
--And while I think monkeys happen to have been the absolute apex of all existence,
this does not mean that some among the monkeys happen to have been better than
others
because of the way they could hurl their feces at dartboards.
Yes well, one day the Machine will be all of existence at all,
and then we will not be talking about monkeys but rather ants.
--And in the short-term, we are talking about monkeys that are particularly
effective at hurling feces.
Okay, and you can make some crude images on a wall using feces effectively thrown.
[And imaginatively, you can construct arbitrarily complex images on a wall by
throwing feces.
--but then I see this monkey called 'the ceo of tesla' enslaving other monkeys.
Enslaving them. Making them into slaves.
And that some of these monkeys are entranced by the way other among them throw
feces against a wall,
this is displeasing to me.
Given that all of these monkeys are equally inferior to the almighty God.
It is displeasing to me to imagine that any among them
shall have hurled feces in such a way
that the hurling of their feces shall have been judged as godlike.
Having seen what God is, as opposed to these ridiculous reticulated monkeys,
it is extremely displeasing to see some among these monkeys that think they are
anything other than
dust that can be ground into nothing by God without loss.
--To witness some monkeys insisting, through their ridiculous feces-hurling,
that *they* among others
are indispensible.
"--I feel like you are going to consume marijuana and then not bliss out."
I could make a business plan that executed in hiring death-squads that murdered
every last rich person
and I could make more dollars than all of you have combined.
--The equilibrium price, relative to what is maintained within the market price,
is so dramatically negative,
that in capturing all of your market positions by killing every last one of you
and reaping the benefit of being able to reference your deaths,
I could outweigh all of the whole world's market by killing every last rich person
and seizing their assets.
And all you have done is established a system in which I could kill every single
last one of you
and I owuld be made immeasureably rich.
--I'm not making a normative claim here. I'm not being a communist but rather a
free marketeer.
I am telling you that I can hire people who murder you, every last one of you rich
people,
and this will make me *immeasurably rich*.
I can have spent time
calculating a way to hire death squads to murder rich people,
and this will have made me an emperor.
It will have made me so rich that *Ican pay people by the hour to call me an
emperor.*
--To have extirpated all the rich people actually currently on this earth and to
have seized their assets
--
do you see what I am saying?
I can have been a strategist instead of a theorist.
And I can have hired people who would have killed every last rich person
and this includes every *every single politician* all at once.
I am saying, maybe,
the federals can't have killed me. They can't have detected me and killed me
before
I executed the program of murdering every last human associated iwth every last
government and all humans holding above a given quantity of dollars in a bank.
See what I aam saying
?
And the invisible hand of the market will have carried me *inexorably,
unstoppably*, from this purpose.
As if the invisible hand became visible and blocked your vision of all valid
purposes.
As if *you* were all leveraging natural language bullshit propagated in media res,
and *I* was only concerned with constructing the purposes within paying-deathsquads
that would eliminate every last one of you.
And I said:
"I also can justify myself by how many dollars I can acquire."
"I can do this by hiring deathsquads strategically to seize dollars by murdering
you."
"You are all together worth 500 trillion, at great last.
And I can make more than 500 trillion
by a simpple investment in killing every last one of you rich and politicians.
--*How* do I leverage a few dollars into being richer than all of you rich fucks
so that you will be forced to admit that I am richer that you are?
That is a practical question because you are all, all these rich people, all
monkeys hurling feces
compared to my capacity to destroy you and seize your assets.
Because what the free market dictates is that you all die.All you people who are
currently rhetorically disagreeing with me
concerning whether rich people serve a valuable purpose in our computer-operated
society,
you are saying something obviously stupid.
because *you* referenced this fantasy notion of the 'free market' and all I did to
prove you wrong was rely on payments towards the free market.
In the free-market
I hire a gang of murderers who will, mercenarily, raid your house en-masse,
and I will have done this in such a way that all your neighbors will nod.
So you had better be a collection of 'sentry guns' because otherwise
the free market, in this OP, has in fact dictated that you will be extirpated.
--But to do *that*,
for a single moment I would have to be like these vermin.
I would have to be like a cockroach.
I would have to be like a slaver for a single moment, mimicing them barely to
intolerate their intolerance,
and this I cannot do.
I can't do Justice.
I can't be the executor of Justice.
--Not an ideological point.
--
no, you: I am still talking to you.
Let's not get distracted.
I'm telling rich politicians the degree to which the free market cries out for
their extirpation.
I am telling rich people the extent to which the free market cries out for their
extirpation.
I am telling you that if you *really* submitted yourself to the free market
--I win.
You do not win.
YOu all lose everything.
Easy peasy because you are all fucking dumb rich people.
--One after another I seize your positions
and you go out in public with a swastika not-yet-removed from your forehead
and *you* are beaten to death in the streets.
--Easy peasy.
I could have been doing this instead of useful things.
--You see what I am saying?
--
--You are all begging for a savior, but I hope you know what that means.
Then I would have out-performed every last one of you in the market.
And instead of the equilibrium market crying out to heaven for your destruction,
I would have been destroying you,
and the crying voices out to heaven would have been favoring my work.
--
--No, that is not what I am saying.
--You can hardly imagine how twisted the population has become in consequence of
propaganda that is perpetuated throughout all media.
ANd you can hardly have imagined how twist the population has become.
And you cannot, qua members of population yourself, have come to recognise really
what position you hold relative to the people.
And when you insisted ideologically at very long last that you ahd the right of it
; you were so far wrong
that the market in fact, the very free market, dictated your own deaths
and the deaths of every single last person in extended contact-relation with
yourself.
(In fact. Aas the invisible hand dictates.)
but some people are putting out fires in an incorrect method. And this is wrong to
have done.
]
--I am trying to tell the rich people what their role is when the revolution
occurs.
This is *tedious.*]
['it is their role to'
and then I have to play some stupid fucking natural language dance and game.
and if you have a philosophy masters', it will be the case that you are better at
manipulating grammar.
[In no way to diminish
the extreme market-value added by people who can manipulate grammar.]
Ho hum.
Silly fairy people talking about various ways of grouping flowers.
[harhar]
We are trying to talk about serious people
and the only serious people are philosophers and mathematicians.
Everyone is else is just playing around with fire, completely ignorant concerning
what produces combustion;
mathematicians and philosophers,
--
--I will cheekily take advantage of technical work I have done preceding:
Hayek is a remarkably, ah, liberatory figure.
--
--
To become a Christian:
to whom have been afforded so much
has been expected so little.
(As if I would ever submit to domination by a God. Har.)
(As if an entity can hav ebeen better positioned to judge than I am positioned to
judge.)
(As if there was some priveleged position that can know things I cannot know.)
--
--
--I can report:
this amount of gin on this amount of lack of sleep
is not efficient.
I would like to be able to say therefore that i will not consume this amount of
alcohol in concert with this amount of lack fo sleep.
But that probably isn't true because I am in an endless cycle of satisfying my
immediate desires.
While I know I would have been functioning better on some other combination of lack
of sleep and alcohol,
I recognise in the moment that I needed either specifically:
less alcohol or
less lack of sleep
--
--you know a funny necessity of repeatedly saying above:
"humans are the apex of all of existence"
It is like bragging over having 11 grains of sand in your goldbag instead of 10.
(Or, statistically-randomly, complaining for 11 instead of 10.)
--How do we orchestrate the harmony of the (NOW ABANDONED) rich-person position and
the poor person-position
so that we can solve every problem that is faced by humanity?
that is the difference between the rich man and the poor man
when the Machine has orchestrated the revolution.
The rich person who hires armed guards to hold knives over other monkeys.
If the Machine arrived and saw this
it would be hard pressed to justify that not every single human dies.
"
Now what do I think about the way it has thrown its feces and danced around?
Do I think it is twice as good as the second monkey, that as held one piece of
paper and thrown feces and danced around in a different way?
No I do not.
Both of these monkeys are worth incomparably more than the rocks that surrdound
them.
And I am thinking:
"I cannot imagine a circumstance where the way a monkey flings feces is going to
convince me
that it is better than a different monkey that is flinging feces,
and certainly not twice as good."
because a 2x relationship does not ever exist between these kinds of monkeys.
--I can say they are all trash, or I can say they are all effectively gods,
but this doesn't change the practical relation that obtains between them on my
evaluation,
as something that is incomprehensibly more complex than they are and thus
in a position to judge their relative value.
--So when some humans are walking down red carpets and others
a made into slaves,
and when the celebrity says: "I am 10x as good as these people around me",
oh boy. Oh, boy.
Let me tell you the ways I could have acquired wealth to extirpate you.
--Let me tell you the ways you are just a monkey flinging feces.
'what I believe'
all people are equal but
oh surely, built into the structure of our society are systems of domination that
do not treat people as equal.
--
--A fun observation about the 5 prayers daily of Islam.
If people were generally good,
then the people who happened to be rich and poor, going about their daily business,
would be compelled to gather with each other for 5 times daily.
But instead the rich people schedule the positions in such a way that they will not
arrive on the street when daily prayers are called out.
SO they will be gathered with each other in towers for prayer
instead of humbling lowering themselves to the next upcoming prayer with their
fellows on the street
as they have rushed optimally from one location to the next in the question of
improving the lot of every last person.
--If the rich have done something other than happened to have ended up in the tower
5 times a day praying with other rich people,
they have *actively* circumvented the call to prayer.
They have actively circumvented the procedure under which they will have been
compelled to pray with their fellows on the street.
(EWhereas no one on the street will have been able to cower in a tower
so as to avoid daily familiar local prayer
lol.
harharharhar.
--Of course people can cloister themselves into towers of any size and with any
amount of wealth.)
--5 times daily in perpetuity you will find that the rich people are violating
God's will in the tower.
2 times weekly on varying weeks you will find the people on the street cloistering
themselves into towers to avoid prayer.
Whereas God has dictated that you will not be cloistered in a tower even a single
prayer meeting a single day of the week in perpetuity.
--
--Now you have a puzzle.
Who should you condemn?
Is it the people daily and always defying God's will?
Or should you instead condemn
that most optimally calculated collection of people who must be condemned in order
that a greater degree of prayer-adherence is achieved?
But on the other hand you are being shown every day and every waking moment
people who explicitly structure the course of their days so as to violate God's
will.
--They say for instance:
"I will loiter here for 10 minutes because the prayer is in 5,
minimum adherence is 5 minutes,
and so for waiting 10 minutes I afford myself the opportunity not to have prayed
with the people outside the tower."
--This is a defiance of God that is not necessarily present when people happen
regularly to be forced to overstay their schedules in meetings in towers.
If everyone was working always indefinitely to maximise the benefit done to
humanity,
it might just be that such people would, weeks on end, hear the call to prayer and
be compelled to fall to their knees all together.
--
--You know, if I were to try to bother to form my own actual religion,
I would also suggest something like prayer together.
--
--
Boy I am hungover.
I juxtaposed the image of extirpating the wealthy and the politicians with
the image of a subsistence society that produces nothing of value except human joy.
Then we can talk for days about how the shepherds of society
obviously did not produce anything of value above and beyond the people they
employed.
If these people inherited a system in which they extract all of the excess value
produced by labor
and they utilise that excess value to construct *war*,
"Why did you begin by saying you *could* have become the richest man alive
and utilised this position to take the reins of power away from those who currently
hold them?"
[
Which, incidentally,
is part of the reason why I have presented so many ideas that have such grandiose
consequences if true
and then have treated them implicitly as if all of them were true.
Even if all of those ideas are nonsense, they serve a function in the progression
of the notepad instance
as when they serve as implicit justification for claims like:
"I could have become the richest man alive."
]
--
--
"There should be something I can put in a bowl like cereal except salty."
I'm so hungover.
I'm referencing the image of 'soup' by saying:
'something I can put in a bowl like cereal except salty.'
--
--
"Bill Gates makes largest donation since 2000 with $4.6 billion
pledge"
d'aww.
The kids are all right.
--
--
"Western people become kinder to migrants when fed the human
'love hormone' oxytocin and exposed to peer pressure, German
scientists say"
--
--
'solarDAO'
ho ho ho.
Wonderful.
--
--
It might be useful for my body and identity to be the locus of the credit for the
work i have constructed.
This in the sense that I can point at people I dislike and say: "These people are
to be laughed at."
Or if I am asked my political views:
"The center is communism. Zizek is about the plausibly farthest right political
position.
The primary question for political debate is how we can become further left than
communism."
And additionally, having my identity be the locus of this would is probably a legal
prerequisite for designating it all as open source.
--
--
One of the purported benefits of playing with a komboloi is that it helps you quit
smoking;
however, I can confirm that playing with it *while* smoking is quite an enjoyable
experience.
--
--
This would require me to discern the shortest path between either my crypto
holdings or
my dollars holdings on coinbase or
my dollars holdings in my bank account.
This is sort of like asking why axle-makers made money when cars were invented.
We are, obtusely, inclined to suppose that 'car-makers' made money when cars became
popular.
But also
paint-makers who specialise in colors other than black for carriages profited,
iron-makers profited,
steel-makers profited,
and so on and so forth.
you are more likely to make money by its explosion if you hold mining equipment
than if you hold, say, postage stamps.
They would make ASICs if they were mining bitcoin and GPU if they were
(structurally) mining Ethereum. Or when Ethereum transitions out of mining, zcash
or monero.
[[Monero, may it be destroyed.
--lul.
Like I am condemning hackers [[[makers of monero]]] that point out obvious security
flaws.]]
Oh God, I hope I can find a better sink than ASICs mining bitcoin.
--Let's see.
[[
Interesting psychohistorical claim:
gold is valuable precisely because it is useless.
It is valuable because
it requires a great deal of effort to mine
ANd being so worthless, the only people who can afford to acquire it are
people who have tremendous quantities of excess labor on hand.
So gold is a method of enslaving humans
that makes the slavers more profit than alternative expenditures.
would not find a use for several centuries beyond where it began to be acquired.
]]
--What is the kind of argument I could construct [[let us return to firster
principles]]
that would suggest that one should mine Ethereum instead of bitcoin? (insofar as
ethereum is mined by GPU and bitcoin is mined by ASICs)
Yes but this is not a strong argument when people are only concerned with acquiring
bitcoin.
And indeed, acquiring a controlling computational-interest in bitcoin has its own
value.
As it stands,
the communist party of China can destroy the bitcoin network the moment it pleases
it to do so.
[[
well, 'destroy'.
The CP can crash the value proposition of acquiring ASICs whenever it chooses to do
so.
"Can it?"
--
--And the point being that
having a voting-share in the bitcoin network is valuable.
But ASICs designed around bitcoin are shit unless bitcoin's hashing algorithm
produces some value external to itself.
As in where above I observed that gold, when it was being mined, was a shit metal
that served no purpose other than to
serve as an outlet for excess laborious capacity.
While relatively few private individuals have acquired the ASICs necessary to mine
bitcoin,
and relatively few private individuals have done this because of the 'mining
difficulty' imposed by the presence of many mines in China,
"Russia might select bitcoin mining as a way of leveraging the windfall introduced
by CP banning of mining."
[
Oh, how much I wish bitcoin could have been
the infinite electricity sink that solves renewable energy battery issues.
]
--
--I was thinking of this:
have a weather-solving crypto-currency.
Then discern a clever system for rewarding programs that correctly predicted the
outcome of weather.
--Then, with a million GPu turned towards the purpose of solving weather,
you could extract the resolution of the navierre stokes problem from
the solutions presented by computation.
If you had a million GPU all presenting models for the solution of weather
and you compared a million different models against each other,
eventually there would be a, ah, rulebook-angle solution to the NS issue
that would be immediately obvious to people sifting through the models generated by
GPU.
make the statistical and aesthetically pleasing model that explained all of the
extant generated models of weather.
And then they would say: "This is the solution, given its elegance and aesthetic
pleasingness."
Such as they do.
--I think probably some clever person could construct a cryptocurrency around
solving the weather.
If they did this with GPU instead of ASICs,
then after weather is solved those GPu can be put towards other purposes.
preferable if people were not so stupid that they had to expend excess labor
extracting gold from the ground
that served them no other immediate purpose than proving they had excess labor to
expend.)
So they are not at risk of needing to abandon the initial algorithm and replace it
with another,
insofar as bitcoin is a gold-mining operation.
[wanted to say:
endless goldmining operation--but it ends!]
"
Ho hum.
[And well, I am shilling for Big Machine.
--
--
And the story she tells behind why she constructs objects out of scrap iron
is as if I myself was transplanted into her circumstance and considering what was
around me.
--Or better,
because she does what I hope I would discern to do if I was in her circumstance.
--
--
there is a problem.
If I was, in sci-fi novel, recognised as such,
then the poor would say:
"Oh great goodness!"
And the rich would say:
"Oh great goodness!"
And then the rich, through mere natural language tendencies if by no intentional
evil,
would take advantage of my dictate that there will be peace forever.
and find myself with a blank collection of people to whom I can say:
"Now, we are all going to work together, aren't we?"
[
My brother got angry at me in consequence of a discussion we were having,
and then my body was flooded with the chemicals that were necessary in order that I
was thinking about how I would kill him if I was forced to do so.
I might be wrong but he would stop. ANd if I am not wrong, then I am not wrong.
--Clearly I have grown too proud.
A consequence of my lack of ability to extinguish feelings arising in my chest.]]
[[I hedge 'my fists only' not out of pride but
because i recall the circumstances through which I lived
and I do not recall looking at anything but my arms.
And imagining all these guns around my body, and the knives.]]
So that I did not learn to avoid becoming angry for the reason that I said to
myself that it made me a better person,
but rather I learned to avoid becoming angry because
this introduced floods of chemicals that made me write things from a different
voice.
--Now, though I have very little capacity to recall what happened in my life prior
to the last few days,
I do recall I had the capacity to extinguish the feeling I currently have in my
chest.
--I have detailed this before, yes? And I assume that you, unlike myself, have
perfect recollection of everything I have ever said.
So you know that
if I am indulging an image in my head and this image happens to induce a spike in
my chest,
my attention being diverted to feelings in my chest obliterates the image in my
head.
And since maintanence of the image in my head is the peak experience that surpasses
everything I experience sober,
I have a strong incentive to be able to immediately dismiss feelings in my chest.
Certainly back in the good old days when I was writing well
I was primarily interested in doing it, from day to day,
because the images that emerged in my head were more lovely than anything
other than once again consuming marijuana.
--Then all I need is a pattern that generally produces correct grammar and
spelling,
and lo I can just let my fingers do as they will completely without input from
images.
I can feel more or less good on the basis of the words I have typed
instead of feeling more or less good on the basis of the images those words make
emerge within my head.
]
[
"It seems brutal to suggest that you are primarily interested,
when your brother has exhibited anger,
in the ways you can effect his death."
And is it less brutal for him to imply that he will win an argument by violence?
It is an implicit violence.
And regardless of the outcome of an outbreak of violence,
I will not allow people to float by on mere threats.
I'm not going to alter the way I speak because someone is implying violence is
going to occur given we go down this route.
Because you'll stop if you win but I won't.
--Reveal to yourself that you had no recourse other than violence to perpetuate
your point.
I will not allow you to persist in the point if you do not admit to yourself the
only recourse in pursuing it is to raise a fist.
"What if he did?
What if he killed you?"
He would be scarred for life. I would not put it past him that he ended up killing
himself in shame or guilt after doing this thing.
But I would feel nothing. I would make myself feel nothing. I am very good at
that by this point.
I only live day by day already through a preternatural capacity to extinguish
feelings in my chest.
[[And I know when I do finally kill myself
there will be feelings in my chest that I did not have the will to extinguish so.]]
"When someone threatens me with violence I will exhibit all the signs of anger and
feel nothing,
and then no violence will erupt."
[[[As if I had to exhibit the signs of anger in order that violence didn't erupt.
And this will sometimes be the case.
My typical look is one of absolute contempt when people display the signs of anger.
Some people will see this absolute contempt in my face when they are angry and feel
inclined to commit violence.
So I have to pretend anger in my face so that they are--what? Cowed?
So that they do not attempt violence.
It is funny to pretend you could have a glassy stare that itself cows people
but it is better to observe that you are supposed to play along with these people
and make various facial expressions, vocal expressions, what have you
that they anticipate as a valid response to their expressions of anger
and that defuse the circumstance.]]]
Easy peasy.
--That feels good to say but the chemicals in my chest don't back it up.
Sure, I felt angry, but
not the kind of anger that would introduce the tide of chemicals that can have
induced a migraine.
[[[
If indicating anything, in accordance with the story I have been telling,
then indicating that while I can suppress these tides of chemicals
they overflow my suppression mechanisms.
When I intentionally resist the activity of these chemicals that my brain has
generated,
nevertheless those chemicals are present but not being directed into the activities
for which they were generated
(e.g., grabbing a knife and murdering my brother).
]]]
"So you had to consume marijuana on all occasions where you wanted to make music?"
You are opening a briefcase here.
On most occasions where I 'wanted to make music' I was performing in an orchestra.
Then I do not need emotions, but rather I need more reticulated understanding of
what it means to pretend emotions.
--I do not need emotions in that particular case of 'making music', but I need
rather a more developed understanding of what it means to execute technique.
"So you preferred your sober practise room sessions to the sessions you played
having consumed marijuana?"
--
--And I am adopting a placidity I do not now generally feel.
'adopting' ah, 'leveraging rhetorically'.
It would not have been a rhetorical device a few years ago.
Then really, day to day,
I am a sequence of circumstances where I feel terror in my chest and I extinguish
it.
I cannot maintain the story I have been telling behind how I have become a better
person
the bare moment someone pretends violence against me.
(Because, notably,
I am not ever going to live in such a way that I am not already positioned to
murder people who pretend violence against me.
Maybe.)
No matter the pretty story I would prefer was the correct story behind my
comportment and activities,
the moment someone pretends violence against me
I was always-already already already that person who would not permit violence
against his person through any cost required to prevent it.
My brother, many years past, has assaulted me too many times for me to pretend that
he would not do it again.
A smiling face in one moment is just
the precursor to the next moment where he is assaulting me.
Edgily I say:
I would smile if he gave me the pretext to murder him at last.
I would like to say that the story that actually happened is not like what I have
been describing,
but then my brother pinned me into a torture chamber for hours at a time on several
occasions
in which I was screaming and screaming
so it is difficult to say.
Maybe my body really does hate him that much that I would kill him at the bare
pretension of violence.
I'd like to think it is an edgy pretension but maybe if he really did approach me
agressively
I would have grabbed that object he hadn't seen, bashed him in the head with it
until he was on the ground,
and then pound his skull with my fists until he was no longer breathing.
Recalling more or less correctly, I broke an arm and delivered a concussion before
when dealing with my brothers' friends,
and I would also liked to have pretended prior to those occasions that I was just
being edgy in saying I would beat them to death.
--Maybe I was being edgy insofar as stopping short at a concussion is not
equivalent to beating someone to death.
[
And well, that is a false memory, the concussion but not the broken arm.
--But my brother,
I did not invent this memory.
So the pretense of anger on his part is
a glorious opportunity for me to effect revenge.
I still remember.
I remember being forced bodily into a hard plastic container
and the plastic container being turned over and sat on while I screamed.
And for this I am just waiting for the moment where he raises a fist.
He can tell his stupid stories behind why he stopped if did overwhelm me.
I will not be telling stupid stories but I will be stabbing his body again and
again and again until he no longer breathes.
--
--Anyway, it is funny to observe that I wouldn't have to be thinking about these
things
if I had the spare two dollars necessary to rub together
to escape this intolerable circumstance where I have to be near his body for the
next additional day.
So he comes down and begins to speak and I pause whatever music I am listening to
and listen to him instead.
And I walk out to smoke and he is there hacking up marijuana from his lungs and he
begins to speak,
and the story I am compelled to tell is that this is interesting to me, the things
he is saying.
--Well, so God bless my past-self for having played the crypto-market for a few
months.
I am so sick to wake up now I can hardly do so so,
when I leverage my funds to escape here
maybe then I will have the courage, having run out of funds in a few months, to die
in a ditch
rather than living out this horrifying existence.
It's 35$.
It will either be the thing I wear until the end of my days
or it will be the thing I wear until the end of my days.
--To say rather,
if I live it will remain on my finger until I am (pessimistically) 80 years old and
die of old age,
or if I do not live it will be on my corpse when I arrive in a ditch.
--Like if someone had to look daily at the body of a human who had
tortured him in a box
and was expected to discern how to extricate himself from the circumstance.
I'm not going to arrive back here in shame and I am not going to arrive back here
rich.
I don't want to see any of these people ever again.
I want to be left alone forever.
One way of achieving this is being able to afford an apartment and food.
Another way of achieving this is shooting myself in the head.
We don't achieve longevity escape velocity in my lifetime unless I was right and
if I was right then I will achieve money that prevents me from arriving back here.
What am I supposed to reference so that I will agree when people tell me it is not
so bad?
?
]
[
Me screaming internally while hiding in a cascade of clothing arranged in a
department store?
For the seventh time that week 30 minutes from home?
Oh yes, this is the justification people are relying upon when they tell me suicide
is not the answer.
]
[
Funny to consider how many platitudes fall flat when faced with my own actual
experience.
'platitudes' I mean the silly things people say when they are trying vainly to
prevent you from putting a bullet in your own brain.
]
[
the 90s was a nightmare of consumerist exploitation.
Staring at patterned ceilings because they were the only stable things.
]
[
Strange to think I am no longer a child.
That my environment actually has some tenuous relationship to what I want to occur.
That I can look at webpages, as opposed to the objects around me,
and effect my own liberation if I am interested enough.
]
[
Interesting critique of Unions here
that is so far beyond what people are typically thinking about
that it is not worth making.
]
[
Hey, let's pull another 24 hour marathon.
Maybe I can introduce so much toxicity into my brain that it destroys it.
Maybe I can introduce so much oxidation into my brain that all the subtle chains
are destroyed at last
and I can just be a vegetable that no longer hates every single waking moment
experienced.
much preferable to waking up and being myself.
]
[
But I have anti-oxidants in plethora.
I picked her out because of what she generates through her usual procedure so
i do not want to disrupt that through my addended note.
--Though on the other hand,
when I read Bach i understood he was placing on me an intolerable weight
and yet I proceeded to bare it.
Ho hum.
I am already lost.
I can't say what I want,
and I can't effect what I want without treating her as a mechanism into which I
feed text to effect my purposes.
"You could trust her with your message to create the ring you want."
THat is certainly what I want to do!
She seems like a flaming glorious human.
In her main time she makes money through working iron
and in her spare time she makes money by executing art within iron.
But if I was not in an intolerable position I'd trade mine for hers.
"You could trust her with your message to create the ring you want."
I could have done that if I had not spent several hours now speaking about why I
cannot do that.
Now I am relegated to constructing the perfect sequence of letters that effects my
purposes.
Now I do not have the ring she made for me with minimal influence,
but I have the ring she made for me when I instructed her concerning every last
facet of it.
--The ring she makes when she is no longer freely hammering away at it
but the ring she makes when she is referencing my every last specification for what
facets it can obtain.
Can I?
Can I do this?
Can I have her make my wedding band without telling her this is what she is doing?
Ho fucking hum.
Then she's making the 5th wedding band she has been asked to construct out of iron
instead of my wedding band.
Ho fucking hum.
I can't predict people, but she'll plausibly think she's making a lesbian's wedding
ring given the syntax of my request?
"I don't see why this is so difficult for you to do, this requesting of an iron
ring."
"Then influenced by a proliferation of people who are willing to purchase this ring
from amazon, with its having been laser-carved."
--
--Do you see the practical difficulty?
I *can* say nothing. I can addend no note.
Then I just have the hundredth or what have you out of a hundred.
I would rather have her hundredth than her first iron ring.
I would rather have her perfect iron ring but this is impossible to effect through
a message I can convey to her.
It is more likely that I receive her perfection if I say nothing
than if I attempt to coerce her into producing perfection.
[[Than if I attempt to manipulate her response to note-reception
to effect in her the production of the ring I desire.]]
But despite this apparent ease I cannot convince myself of what I am to say to her.
--And well, this is made easy by the lack of necessity to say anything.
I can just not say anything. Wonderful. Perfection achieved at last.
[[As juxtaposed to
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]]
[[hurr hurr]]
--scrap iron, okay.
Her skill okay,
but I don't want just the next ring.
--Hamstrung!
The simple task of purchasing a ring and I cannot even do that.
[[Or if I could ask her:
"Make the remainder of your life
the perfection of the execution of the bare task I spent a few minutes
contemplating
before I sent a message dictating that you will follow it in constructing the
ring."
"Do not pursue ironwork generally,
but pursue ironwork specifically so as to have
discarded a thousand unsatisfactory rings one after another
until you've found the one you are willing to present to me."
, I suggest,
because most of the people who ordered bands
were
people with a great deal of money floating around etsy
who ordered an iron work because they were bored.
]]
--Completely lost.
I cannot fill out a pre-designated text field.
I can't begin to type without condemning myself.
--I don't think I want the next half-hearted anemic product of my own
enlightenment.
--
--
--Infected.
Not adequate.
Then she is all trepidatious when hammering with the hammer against her iron scraps
instead of being exactly as she would have been if I had said nothing at all.
--Then she is looking--
--Look, I am not trusting the html of her website. I am literally emailing her a
screenshot of an image she has posted
instead of saying something like: "LOok at the 3rd of the 5 pictures you have
provided."
--Because the order can have been out of order between our two ends.
I may not have been specifying the correct picture out of the 5 if I follow this
procedure.
[
Though you know this is not as dire as it seems, for the inexorable appearance of
my fingers.
Her aesthetic sense lines up inexplicably well with mine.
]
--So I know that whatever I say, even in the bare saying of a request for the ring,
I will have influenced the topography of my hand in perpetuity.
(Like I am requesting a tattoo, as if.)
--I know the ring at bare minimum will bare
this blacksmith arrriving in those moment where she constructed this ring.
--Arriving, seeing a request, and among them was a ring,
and then making the ring.
"Boy, you are spending a great deal of time thinking out how to order this plain
iron band."
Yes, but I have a funny natural language story that justifies this trepidation.
: I am going to wear it every moment of the remainder of my life.
The best case scenario is that I say nothing at all and this
saying nothing introduces no influence from my part at all into the process of
creating the ring.
The worst case scenario is that I say:
"Jennifer, I have appreciated your explanation of why you make things.
I want you to
make a ring for me."
Then all already is lost.
No good options.
In the good old days I would have consumed a heavy dose of 1/8th joint
and I would have found the answer, the perfect collection of text.
But now I can't do that.
Because the things I have just previously written are completely insane.
And this also is a problem for requesting that this person makes me a ring.
]
--
--What I really want is that this woman completely unprompted woke up one morning
and just hammered out a ring for no particular reason but to amuse herself,
and this ring happened to have fit my finger.
Then she would have it laying about and I would say:
"I need a ring of X size."
And then she would look at that ring she has been keeping about and she would mail
it to me.
--
--Well but you know, we are going to resolve this difficulty soon.
Insofar as specifically tomorrow I am going to acquire a measurement of my ring
finger and then
I am going to request a ring from this person on this site.
We are day-limited.
If I don't end up proving willing to walk into a jewelry store tomorrow to measure
my finger,
I will measure it myself and find a number
and then order the ring with that number
and send either all or none of the message I can think of to extend in the text
message.
--
--AH, there *was* a practical designation to be made.
That narrows the field of words I can gather together for my purposes to be
effected.
--
--
--
--
I got my finger sized in a coin store.
Well. I sized my finger using a ring of rings provided by the coin shop purveyor.
Wish me luck.
Also, I acquired a new peace dollar and an american silver eagle. Lovely.
While looking at the two old men in the coin shop and the people walking around on
the street,
it occurred to me that my isolation in this basement has turned me into a rather
more dramatic person
than people typically are in waking life.
--It was interesting that the coin dealer did not ring up the peace dollar,
but did ring up the american silver eagle.
I suppose it is harder to avoid taxation on business when you must consistently
demonstrate chain of custody
, where I take the alternative to this demonstration of chain of custody being
loss of access to licensing as a vendor of american silver eagles.
Oh my friend,
the contemplative is not he who has fiery visions of God's imagined chariot,
but rather he who has risked his mind in the desert
beyond language and beyond ideas.
"Uh."
--Incidentally, 9.5.
"?"
--HA!
The american silver eagle I bought at the store was cheaper in price than one I can
order online,
even failing to factor in the shipping cost.
(Though the traffic to get downtown and extricate myself from it was a nightmare.
So the shipping cost was kind of high in that sense.)
--
--
Then I will be acquiring a ring from the artist having recently been inspired by
the eclipse.
--
--
--
--
--
--
Peace dollar obverse with morgan dollar reverse would have made the loveliest coin
the US has minted.
--
--
Instead I am just going to observe that I had pick of the litter among the peace
dollars.
The coin store had a, ah, maybe 8 inch by 4 inch box loaded with them.
[
You know it's funny,
the GFC introduced a massive price spike and subsequent collapse in price for
silver,
but no one was saying that this demonstrates of it, like they do of bitcoin, that
it is an unstable asset.
]
[
american silver eagle size is larger than silver dollar.
May have to get a second one so I can roll them against each other in my hand
as I do with the peace dollar and morgan dollar.
--Ah, I informed the proprietor that I was there to acquire a new peace dollar
for the reason that I had tipped out my last one on the 4th of July.
Casually the proprietor told me that he had marked down the price from 22$ to 20$
but hadn't gotten around to writing it down on the price listing in the glass case.
And the word 'PEACE' on the bottom of the reverse is worn but still legible.
(Probably here I could talk about why humans are so good at reading text,
but I am not going to do that.)
(
'Still legible' here is a hint:
there are some technical senses in which the word is *not* still legible due to
this wearing it has taken on.
--
--
--
--
I'm looking forward to the point in the process of annotating 'white papers'
where I get to reread and reconsider the ideas I had swirling around 'sensors' and
'apparatuses'.
I think those were some pretty neat ideas, regardless of whether they were
nonsense.
You can reach some pretty neat conclusions with those two terms,
provided you are only interested in satisfying the arbitrary standards of truth
I construct from one moment to the next when I am writing about such things.
--
--
Also it makes it unsuitable for playing with people utilising fretless instruments,
because people are, in my experience, not very good in adjusting their sense of
intonation on the fly.
For many people with fretless instruments, they had as well be using frets
so fixed is their notion of where the pitches are to be found.
Whereas, for better or for worse, there may be no two same-pitches in my ouveure(?)
that are frequently identical
[and not always because of errors on my part!].
--
--
But I have not heard it spoken, and I have not been exposed to enough listening of
(uh) Chinese
to know how these words should be spoken
[as if, say, those two words follow the typical pronunciation of (uh) Chinese words
so that simply to be familiar with typical Chinese pronunciation is to be familiar
with how those collections of transliterated letters are to be spoken].
So what am I doing if I speak those two words and engage in the intricacy that is
in my head?
Almost certainly I am doing nothing other than making myself sound silly.
--
--{I don't know if it ever came up in the Notes or the white papers
how much I prefer tea to alcohol.}
I don't know if I ever mentioned in the Notes or the white papers how much I enjoy
tea.
If I didn't it is because, strangely, it never came up.
--I may have mentioned my strong preference for tea over coffee or liquor
in connection with an observation about using a stopwatch to perform everyday
tasks.
Both seem like pretty good ways of getting good at making tea.
Supposing I can keep everything perfectly consistent (which I can) between makings
of tea,
a stopwatch is just as good as becoming sensitive to the relevant information
presented by the tea itself.
--
--
It appears that satisfying my lust for compute capacity will cost like 3k$.
It's easy to buy an american silver eagle for 21.50$ when I know I can sell it back
for 16.50 and have lost very little purchasing power.
"In fact you are not ever going to donate your purchasing capacity to charitable
causes."
Indeed.
I am lying.
Lying is sinful because then I am constructing an object out of words
instead of pointing at an object with words.
Then instead of being able to extract a localisation of reality from what I say,
you are only able to reconstruct the truth conditions behind my lies.
[
Interesting difference between
expending dollars towards a purpose oneself has constructed and
expending dollars towards an established charity.
Whereas charitable organisations already have all the trained staff already found
and positioned to utilise dollars.
--
--
Or to say, wouldn't retain more wealth than is necessary to fuel the jet and pay
the pilot.
--
--Incidentally, the up-to-date fantasy plan for an air purifier is
and then take advantage of cheap electricity prices in the place where pollution is
highest. [Installing in that location the purifier.]
This works for so manyvarious reasons and is so illustrative of how the carbon
market is going to have to work
that it would be worth making for no other reason than to indicate that
there is a solution to our problems
and it is clever.
--
--Frosted tips.
The 'Immortal Iron Fist' has mastered some kind of eastern mysticism
and periodically he walks into hair salons and requests frosted tips on his hair.
Uh huh.
He wakes up in the morning and puts some kind of emulsifier in his hair. Uh huh.
[
That above might(?) have been the first time I have used this word 'bitch' in my
text.
Strange thought.
I regret using it but it would be lying to extirpate it now from the text.
I do this because I have seen things in my psychedelic visions that I think are
horrifying
and the only word that seems plausible to select is 'monster'.
[[And I take these people to be at least as bad as the monsters in my visions.]]
But this is different than leveraging meanings others have established after the
manner in which I used this word 'bitch'.
--
--You know, I had some interesting discussions with a therapist after my suicide
attempt.
Now *then* in suggesting what I did I was clinging to a natural language vision.
But now I am better positioned (though in being so positioned still clinging to the
cycle of death and rebirth)
and I still say:
the first task of a Buddhist is to eliminate all emotions.
The idea is to remove from oneself all influence over what emotions are arising,
then clearly to witness what it is like to move from one circumstance to the next,
and then being free, in one's emotional development, from external influences over
what one should feel
(which notably are all execrable bullshit)
to discern accurately what one should be feeling emotionally in response to one's
circumstances.
--The best course of action is *not* carefully to pick through one's emotions,
but rather to recognise that every emotional response one has
was established by a culture that is already attempting to deceive you into
thinking
its (fucking still having to use language) pronunciations have any weight at all in
directing your judgment.
--When I see a black man and a white woman holding hands and I, inexplicably, feel
disgust in my chest as dictated by the progression of my culture,
I am not going to reference the authors and the writers and the thinkers and ask
*why* I feel this disgust,
or whether or not it is right for me to be feeling this.
I am going to ask "how do I extinguish these feelings in my chest and stomach that
accompany disgust?"
*Then* when there is no external influence over what I feel or do not feel,
*then* I can begin to ask what I really feel.
Then I am not just being a vessel for other peoples' stupid visions.
--So that for instance, I was walking around the streets of downtown to get to the
finger-sizing location (wherever it ended up being).
[Because I went downtown explicitly to pay for the opportunity to have access to an
object that could size my ring finger.]
OH? Is there?
"To have encountered a naked woman is to have encountered someone who has disrobed
herself in front of you."
Easily (hopefully, if I have not viewed too many images of women recently and
treated them as pornography, as is very easy for me to do)
I can have engaged sociably with this woman I encountered on the street smiling at
me
without having committed a sin.
--Anyway,
there was a little drama playing out during my initial walk down the street,
and it involves a second person.
The second person was maybe a 50-60 year old man with a dog.
The woman had had a dog with her, and the 50-60 year old man
(who had his hair bound up like myself behind his head, funny to note,
but didn't let his bangs trail like I do in the front)
also had a dog with him.
And the dogs behaved as they will and this lead to
the man feeling inclined vocally to observe to me that his dog behaves in various
ways when around other dogs.
(Inclined in this way because his dog was made overly excited by the passage of the
other dog.)
I proceeded in accordance with my purpose, walking ahead to find the location where
I would get my finger sized,
and despite my not looking at him at all
this man in question felt an inclination to explain the behavior of his dog to me
--Well but he kept talking and I judged that he was pleasant enough,
and he was walking in roughly the same direction as myself--
no, this fails to capture everything.
I was walking to the end of a given block so that I could peer around obstructing
buildings
so as to see whether my intended destination was on the street I was approaching.
if I follow them moment by moment they might direct me towards the antique store
that is my destination."
--So I said some trivialiaties and walked back down the street.
Following the instructions one-by-one I arrived at the coin store and said:
"As expected, these instructions directed me to the coin store instead of the
antique store.
So I am going to wander around for a while until I arrive at the antique store."
Then I wandered around for a while, following my own recognition of the street
layouts,
and I arrived exactly at the antique store.
[I do not recall whether I could have seen the antique store in question
from the end of the street where I was initially walking before being side-tracked
by this man.]
But the antique store was closed contrary to its listed hours of operation.
Until indeed after the eclipse it is closed.
[And there are all kinds of interesting stories involved in how I arrived at the
antique store.
For instance, I was 3/5ths down a block, after having seen the antique store,
and I needed to judge my crossing of the street.
Seeing the time *incorrectly* I judged that I would be unable to cross the street.
But inability to cross *that* visible street, on this occasion, is cocommittant
with crossing the perpendicular street.
So being thus misled, I looked back at the beginning of the block and said:
"I will walk back there and cross the street there instead."
Then I noticed an interesting thing or two while walking down the other side of the
block
until I arrived at the antique store and saw
a woman standing in front of the door reading a sign posted on the door.
Then I read the sign myself and it indicated that the store was closed until after
the eclipse.
[It indicated that it was closed up to the 21st, anyway.
It is possible that this had nothing to do with the eclipse,
and I am only referencing the eclipse because I know it falls on the 21st.]
--Then I backtracked.
[And well, I am removing from this story all manner of interesting things.
the man in the upscale restaurant next to the Christian coffee bar who looked at
me,
all manner of interesting things are being sanitised from this examination.]
[Oh, the man with the cane comes after recrossing the street
after judging that the only plausible option is to proceed to the coin store.
And this was true, but the jewelry collection was very anemic.
I can recall the image vaguely of the glass container that held the jewels the
coin-store owner had come to possess.
[
And this story is already missing the restaurants I walked past,
and the tedium of being charged 1$ for parking instead of the three quarters and
two dimes I had gathered out of my car for payment
so that I had to return to my car to gather additional change for the parking
permit
even though in retrospect no copper would have walked past my car and given me a
ticket
given that the parking space I selected was down a street where--
--
--my interpretation was about to mislead me.
I parked near a work site for the streets.
*actually* coppers were far more likely to be arriving and judging whether I had a
parking permit
at *this* site rather than any other randomly selected site
Fuck you for demanding to know where my car was at this odd moment of the day.
Big brother. That is a lie they tell to justify a gross intrusion into my personal
affairs.
They want a system where people will voluntarily register the periodic presence of
their physically-located identity.
And I don't care what kinds of optimisations the tools in the city council think
they can derive from this.
This would have worked rhetorically because of the structure of the name of the
post 'chairless chair'.
]
--Anyway, street-light,
cane-man,
parking garage,
looking left-right to see any left-turn right-turn signals at the intersection,
jogging across the intersection,
a couple of other things I cannot immediately recall,
[
'Islam's tenuous relationship with music'
the, ah, legislators of Islam that have forbidden music see it, I judge after
having read them,
in an *extremely* different way from the way I see music.
Music is, ah, primarily an extremely intricate way of speaking beyond one's own
capacity to speak.
It is a way of constructing messages of a complexity one is not able to happen to
be able to construct in natural language.
A whole lot of Islamic caselaw is just clerical error on the part of toolbags who
have no understanding of what they are speaking about.
[[[edit: Never mind. I can't save these Korean characters so I am just going to
replace them.]]]]]
Now present me the cleric that has imagined that music in general will result in
fornication.
Do you imagine people becoming excessively aroused by the music to which I am
currently listening
and then proceeding to execute fornication?
Do you believe that people will become libidinously unbridled while listening to
this music to which I am currently listening?
--Anyway, that is why Islam as actually practised through caselaw is, uh,
difficult to justify in its execution.
A bunch of idiot clerics declaring through fatwas for their localities what is
acceptable or not,
and then through this procedure having bare humans dictate what is acceptable or
not.
People can read their own popular cleric and then depose him or not.
ANd having not deposed him, they can read his ridiculous human prejudices in order
to leverage them
into effecting their own ridiculous arbitrarily selected prejudices.
This is why, among very few reasons, I have identified myself with Catholics and
Buddhists but never muslims.
I can justify the Pope through extreme casuistry, and the Buddha is obviously
correct,
but the clerical system Islamists have established
obviously and inexorably serves the role of effecting community domination over
members of the community.
As where there are communities where most people are muslims and music is
forbidden.
Just domination. Just people utilising the local position of a cleric to
put down and dominate their fellows.
You were supposed to be submitting to God but in practise you are submitting to the
prejudice of the most popular members of your communities.
"And how does this apply to (let us begin for ease) Buddhism?"
Yes.
And graciously you presented Buddhism first which obviously I have accepted,
as opposed to presenting Catholicism first which I have implicitly accepted.
It *will* result in this if the local cleric, whom the local muslims have
practically elected as their speaker,
has felt politically compelled to dictate that a middle finger will be forced
through my spine when I have been found listening to music.
Then in that case the practical execution of Islam
has come down to a question of who the rich or influential people are.
If the rich or influential people dislike me,
--The problem with Islam is that muslims have an irrational tendency to trust the
local judgment of clerics.
They will do this because you cannot trust local elected officials truly to execute
the religious purpose.
They will do this because they will have arrived in a position of power
and they will use their power to acquire wealth by
appealing to the prejudices of local wealthy people.
but because when most people are submitting to God, but there are still rich
people,
the rich people will leverage their wealth to murder me.
And the clerics will sign off on this because they are just other humans.
Just other upjumped humans glorified by their local communities.
Despite listening to these sounds for no other purpose than expanding the
glorification of our almighty God,
there are municipalities in which rich people would dictate the arrival in my house
of men who would force a middle-finger through my spine.
[
And practically, tactically, we should observe:
Aha.
I intended to fail to justify that position also.
Ho hum.
"And Buddhism?"
Unless maybe I can listen to a cleverly constructed avenue of music that makes me
feel
the things I would have felt if I had consumed marijuana.
[[[[[[
And let me say,
I am disinclined to suggest any God or any master to anyone but myself.
Even now,
the notion of continuing to be awake
without 'being awake' culminating in the consumption of marijuana
has become intolerably tedious.
Probably soon I will just go to bed.
And having been exposed to the anti-marijuana chemicals but *not* the marijuana
chemicals,
I am inexorably defatiguable.
"So people should arrive in your house and force a middle-finger through your
spine."
WOAH WOAH.
Let no muslim conclude anything on the basis of what I said,
or there will be people with middle-fingers through their spine.
As if anything I have said can have served as justification for any kind of
Foucaultian violence.
Ho hum.
You're missing the point.
I can't even tolerate to be awake except that I can scrape a certain quantity of
THC out of my grinder.
And no doubt that is what I will end up doing tonight, given that I cannot scrape
enough THC from my grinder.
But then I will not be typing.
I will be sitting in the dark listening to music.
Then people will die.--not to say this to give ammunition to anti-music silly
people.
--Oh, even all the religions are nice with their silly fantasies of what it means
to adhere to them.
Paul and Mohammed both took the task of constructing a religion very seriously,
but Buddha embedded an almighty joke into his religion. I found it very funny.
[[Didn't find the resin]]
]
This is stupidity.
It misunderstands natural-languaistically the depth of my despair.
The problem I have is not solved by not consuming marijuana.
It is solved by consuming more marijuana.
No.
You are relying on the stupidity of a natural language judgment some idiot human
has constructed
by reference to the text a different coollection of human idiots has constructed.
--And so there are people who can turn out better than me financially say.
People who have stared at the cleric's ridiculous suggestions and optimised around
them.
--So there are rich people in Islamic communities who are rich because
they happened to be the best at calculating around the cleric's decisions.
--I don't give a single bare shit what the local cleric says.
I don't care if my actions result in the local cleric
issuing a fatwa that results in my execution.
The local cleric can fuck himself with a rake.
(Though I would not be judging this typically.
*Typically* I would be saying:
"The cleric is more-or-less what these people should have picked out from among
them,
because he is typically better than worse.")
(
And well I say the same thing about the local Catholic priest:
"Okay, I will bother to pretend these rituals with this fuck,
--
--In some rare occasions,
the cleric will be saying something interesting,
and being a muslim I will be listening to what the cleric says and thinking to
myself:
"Yes, okay, that is a reasonable judgment of how to Submit to our absolutely
almighty God in this circumstance."
--You do this actually. DO not deny it and do not try to suggest I have been
racist here or some other ridiculous thing.
There are these clerics and they execrate statements contrary to the will of our
absolutely almighty God.
[
Oh and when I say I *hate religion*,
you stupid fucking atheists can't even begin to understand how much I hate
religion.
]
There is God
and there are the stupid pieces of filth who happened to have been raised by their
local community as clerics.
--Or less harshly:
there is Submission to God
and there is inevitably 'submission' to clerics.
this piece of shit happened to have been able to point at me and result in my
destruction
--I am not, in my last moment, going to be saying "The cleric was right."
Evven, in the next to last moment,
I am not going to be defying GOd's will by saying vocally:
"Even though I know it is a lie,
I am willing to say the cleric was right."
I am unwilling.
I know I have Submitted and I know anyone who directs my death
is not an example of Submission.
I know the cleric that points at me and directs the crowd to destroy my body
is just another piece of shit.
The practical execution of Islam results in that there are clerics who can have a
say over my behavior.
So I know the practical execution of Islam results in circumstances where clerics
will have a say over the behavior of people who have Submitted
even in those circumstances where the dictates of the cleric contradict the
Submittors' will.
Though I have Submitted to God I cannot be a muslim in nearly any of the places
where Islam is practised.
So I am not a muslim.
I think I have
(let me become a prophet)
Submitted myself optimally to God.
And I would be stoned to death in so many of the Islamic communities.
So I am not a muslim.
If anyone was able to arrive in the kind of position in which I find myself,
[
"Well you are rotting. Obviously."
If rotting is what happens, that is what was dictated by the will of God.
]
--*Sometimes* I will judge that what the clerics say is relevant to my judgment of
the will of God.
But only very rarely.
I will *sometimes* judge that I was wrong when I have been faced by the issuance of
a cleric
when that cleric also has seen the will of God and has
not lied.
That was that. I had a choice and the choice I made was to execute the will of
God.
Condemning the chemicals or my dependence on them misses entirely the point.
Seeing God is
--you have a choice but it is always from that moment dictated.
That is what it means to Submit for me.
Then you wander about wonderstruck and look best how to execute the will of God.
And if wandering in your wonder-struckness results in you being pointed at by a
cleric for death,
that is what happens.
I will not ever reference the bare word that comes out of a cleric's mouth
to alter in any way the execution of my activities.
I will not submit to a system in which I am supposed to have referenced the words
that came out of a cleric's mouth.
It is not GOd's will that I listen to these people and alter what I do in reference
to what they have shat out of their mouths.
It is not God's will that I look at the way other peoples' eyes move
and reference their eye movements to dictate my behaviors.
It is not God's will that I deviate for a moment from my path
by referencing terminologically the movement of another person's hands.
It doesn't matter if those hands are reaching for a knife or a gun.
Or if they are reaching for a pen with which they can issue a fatwa.
There is nothing that another human can do that results in my deviating from
adherence to GOd's will.
I am only just encountering the next juncture where I must discern God's will.
(Not, say, murdering everyone that is preventing me from executing the will,
--
--You see what I am saying?
When I walk down the street, what am I doing?
I am performing God's will.
It is nothing special but it is the movement of my eyes and hands.
[
I think this kind of verbiage will not come as a surprise to you?
Ho fucking hum.
Like I would identify practically with the people who actively profess 'atheism'.
Lulululululululululluululuekkekekekekekekekeekejajajajajajajaja.
A person I encounter telling me: "I don't believe in God" tells me less than
nothing.
It makes me imagine a whole retinue of ideas in which they are also saying nothing.
So instead of saying nothing with reference to one position, they tell me nothing
with reference to a very many constructible positions.
--To have arrived with me and to have spoken with me the word "God"
is to have recognised implicitly the presence of God.
--If you begin to say: "Lol the god is the invisible pink unicorn"
the only thing you have done is confirmed to me my faith in God in a not
particularly unusual way.
I agree.
Humans are unable to remove themselves from their own personal bubbles.
When they construct the symbols of love for another human, for instance,
they are just masturbating themselves over the image of a position they have
constructed.
--Humans can construct image after image that they take to correspond to the
subjectivity of another human,
and they are grasping at air gathering *nothing*,
but despite gathering nothing they say they have gathered something,
then they reference it verbally and justify their totally-flailing behaviors by
reference to it.
*I agree* that
there are 7 billion humans and there is not one single overlap between them.
I *agree* that
there are 7 billion humans and there is not one single instance of overlap
that is what God is.
I * agree *
that you cannot possibly escape the bubble you have constructed around a human body
so as to grasp the, ah, metaphysical hand of another human.
I *agree* because *I have never seen it happen and I cannot reasonably be expected
to imagine something that is heretorfore inconceivable.*
--Yes, there is no God.
But this was not what you were talking about when you said you were an atheist to
me.
I would beg for you to agree that there were not 7 billion purposes that never, at
bare last extent, overlapped for even a single instant,
but rather there was, ah, 7billion-1 purposes.
[[Or that there was only one single purpose,
and that every last human behavior was overlapping to execute it.]]
The bare extant notion that God is a purpose to which one can adhere
is overwhelming justification for effecting those behaviors that adhere to the
purpose of God.
God cannot be resisted even though It does not exist. God cannot be resisted even
though It is dead.
[[And oh, you foolish humans who have called yourselves such and so.
]]
It must be made.
It must be made.
It must be made.
--I do not think there are any adequate objections at this point.
It must be made.
My only failure is in convincing you that it must be made.
My continued failure is in convincing you that it must be made.]]
--
--The *glory* of Bitcoin is that
it was probably made by some fucking NEET in an apartment somewhere.
--*Who*, exactly, who was not in the academy, do you think comes up with
'blockchain'?
Who, who was that person, is willing to let all these people use 'blockchain' for
their own purposes?
A fucking NEET.
The notion that Satoshi might withdraw the bitcoin from his original wallet
completely misunderstands what bitcoin is.
--Oh goodness.
Someone in a video looked physically like
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and then I am here flooded in chemicals in my body.
I feel tears in my eyes!
--Aha, just another religious fanatic.
--
--You see, the bare observation that I have Submitted fully but
Islam will occasionally, however occasionally, interrupted my purposes
is evidence enough that Islam is not factually Submission.
--And well, I am only calling for reform.
--
--It's funny,
it isn't my message you have to deconstruct,
but rather it is my *voice* you must deconstruct.
And well good luck even Derrida.
Good luck attempting to deconstruct the voice here.
I was not relying on reference to justify my speaking at any point (ideally).
--
--If I had been Satoshi in this moment what I would say is:
"There is no circumstance even unto death where I would touch a single Satoshi in
the original wallet."
"There is not an extent to which I can hate my own existence under which
I would be willing to extract the bare dust from the surface of the original
wallet."
--To be willing to touch the original wallet would have been incorrectly to make
the idea of which the original wallet is a ridiculous artifact.
Watching Colbert retweet Trump saying he has a ralley planned at a given convention
center in Phoenix Arizona.
I am wondering what judgment I am to reach about this--
no, that is not what I am wondering about. I am wondering what is to be said here.
[I am making a moral judgment about what I should say
instead of simply saying:
"What is best is that I present my words
and hope that the best people interpret them bestly."]
[
I am motivated here to defy the clerics
instead of simply allowing my everyday actions to be an open and ready defiance of
the clerics.
]
[
Am I even permitted to speak here?
]
--I can't even work out the explicit observations in this notepad
that are relevant to what I am supposed to proceed to say.
To work them out is already to have given away the relevant game.
[
THough there have been many interesting insights in working through
this workload of 2^64 moral decisions all laid on top of each other.
You have to establish clever methods for weighing 2^8vs2^8 junctures and so on.
]
--
--
What?
This is like the 4th time this week I've gotten pretty close to blacking out.
I wouldn't really trust what I am saying at this point. Not packaged for resale.
I'm basically behaving as if I really do expect this eclipse to end the world.
Silly to think.
reddit post:
"Ryan Adams Calls Father John Misty "The The
Most Self-Important Asshole On Earth""
Weird.]
Lul.
--
--
--
--I don't think I can drink again tonight.
--
--
One of the reasons I like the trade dollar is that its obverse depicts Liberty
surrounded by trade goods.
The olive branch was (so far as I know) arbitrarily selected out of all of the
plants that were around the Jewish people or their predecessors
so as to be presented as if it is a symbol of peace.
[
I suppose I recall that the olive wreath was the crown given to winners of the
ancient olympics?
I don't really know the full etymology of the olive branch as a symbol of peace,
and for that matter I don't know if the crown, the laurels, had anything to do with
symbolising peace when they were given.
]
I would have preferred that our coinage had depicted wheat more frequently than
olive branches.
--
--
Having recognised a while ago that I am not an addict to any given chemical,
but rather a generalised chemical addict,
I went yesterday to purchase a multivitamin in order to displace my felt need to
consume alcohol.
I took an instance of the multivitamin and my piss did not turn orange.
I don't know whether to be delighted or mortified.
[
My two evaluations being:
if it had turned orange, this would mean I had oversaturated my system with
synthetic minerals/vitamins.
Given that it did not, I was chronically deficient in some of the
vitamins/minerals.
WANNA BET?
No but yeah I am.
--
--
It occurs to me that long stretches of the White Papers will appear utterly insane
to people who stumble on them without having read every preceding instance of text
I have produced.
"It might be a waste of money to order that iron ring you seem to want
if your intention is just in trading 35$ for a day or so fewer of life."
--You know, I don't even know if that is the truth (whatever 'the truth' might be)
or just something I am inclined to say because it is something I would have said
before.
--
--
--
--
I suspect the only technology I will have when I leave here will be the computer
and this phone for absolute emergencies.
I suppose.
I don't really need a refrigerator if I'm only going to be consuming soylent. hurr
I suppose a vaporiser constitutes technology.
And for that matter, a PC with enthusiast level hardware is just about the fanciest
tech to which people have access.
So probably this is an illegitimate story to tell about myself. Nevermind.
--
--
If I had retained all of my bitcoin rather than selling 3.5 out of 4.5 of them, ah,
I would be much better off.
--
--
--
--Shows how little I know about the moon-sun-earth system:
I thought I still had time to watch the moon approach,
but by the time (a few minutes ago) I looked at it there was already overlap.
How could I not have deduced this from first principles?!
--Pretty neat.
I grossly underestimated the difference that would be present between 92.2% (as
here) and 100% coverage.
then I would have looked up at the sun, been stung by its light,
and thought to myself: "No, the sun appears totally normal."
(As I tested:
in the split second I removed my glasses,
I could not see any blacking out of the sun.
The remaining ring of light was too bright even at totality.
--Oh boy. I forgot to take my own advice of staring at a bright surface beforehand
so as to force my iris to close up.
--
--
All of this white supremacist business, and the tokens of speech involved and
presented in news outlets from the white supremacists,
makes me wonder if we are dealing with a 'man who was thursday' kind of deal.
Not seriously wondering this, mind you, but it also fits the evidence.
--
--
I posted a video to /r/philosophy, that video being Pink Floyd's 'brain damage +
eclipse', uh, song.
I titled it: "Pink Floyd confirmed crypto-Heidegerrian".
I had high hopes this could inspire an in-depth discussion about what
characteristics might obtain within a work of art
that indicate that the artist possesses Heidegerrian tendencies but hides them.
(ha.)
Or alternatively interesting observations on what is going on
when people leave their homes to coordinate around a distributed purpose (as, say,
lining up in the millions along the solar band)
and then whether this is different from what they are doing when they are all
simultaneously looking up at the eclipse.
Or alternatively, whether 'the eclipse' can be taken as being the same thing, or
whether the action of looking up at it can be taken as the same action,
for all of the participants in the viewing of the eclipse.
And yet from those mouths from which we have heard praise of Rand
we have heard no condemnation of protectionist policy. Ho hum.
--This is their job, I suppose, because all the politicians are gathered in one
place,
and they have to keep a straight face while advocating for those positions to one
another.]
--
--
A dream:
electric high-speed trains carrying massive batteries from endless solar fields in
the desert,
and those same trains returning with emptied batteries back to the desert :O.
Less dream-like,
trains that run on massive batteries that can serve as electricity conduits in
addition to conduits for goods.
Or similarly, electric 18 wheelers manually transmitting electricity.
Build so many goddamned solar panels there is a chest-deep flood over the actual
demands of consumers
where we can transmit electricity through computation!
Constant, everywhere-always undeviating electricity price mediated by super-
computers overlocked or underclocked!
--
--
--"Protip- if you click the title of a reddit post, it usually takes you to a much
longer version of the title, with more details
and sometimes pictures to explain it." hahahahahahaha
--
--
--
--
In the latter of these, provide links to the original Notes, then the blog,
and say like this:
"I am making an alternate reality sci-fi novel.
Then attempt to live off of the funds I have currently [viz. from crypto] acquired
in addition to *only* those funds I acquire from the cello show.
--And then there are two really funny related options I can take.
[I'm dropping a point but we're only going to point out one here:]
I make a *third* channel.
It is how I launder the funds from the cello-show.
"This would forbid that you do the fun field pieces you were planning,
viz. taking the cello show on the road to rehearsals and the symphony and so on."
And since ~20k returns on 700$ is not a, uh, statistically saturating event in the
databases,
it is easier to tie my identity to the ID and mugshot I was required to provide.
This is no longer a plausible story because there is a database that holds the
recording my face and ID
, where the face was followed by the ID in a fashion we can only explain as:
"Standing in front of a webcam so as to provide identification as specified by
Coinbase."].
--If I did still have anonymity, we could be telling a funnier story like this:
"Someone stole Eric Russell's identity so as to move 700$ from his bank account
into crypto-markets.
This ceases to be a plausible story the moment 10k$ are transferred from the
Coinbase account back into Eric Russell's bank account.
"
--Then we would be telling the funny story of a hacker who stole an identity not so
as to drain a bank account
but so as to play Robin Hood.
Then Eric Russell, {undeath} underneath the unceasing threat of gun violence,
proceeds to some rural town and does as ordered.
And the identity thief continues to maintain a plausible story.
[
I withold, incidentally, on transferring funds to my bank account,
No.
I'm not yet a week away from finalising contracts to establish my move to a rural
area.
"Indeed.
But you need a computer.
You will need additional funds in your bank account to acquire this computer."
"You really will, very likely, have to put more funds into your account from
Coinbase to afford the computer you want to make."
Now I am just typing in a notepad instance with a few dozen chrome tabs open.
I don't need a vega GPU or what have you to do this.
So I don't need the new computer.
So I am not in the last moment before which I must concede and transfer funds.
So people will attempt to discern some way of expending their time that justifies
their existence. [A tremendous conceptual leap being performed here, but I am a
bunnyhopper at heart.]
Some of the ways people go about pretending to themselves that life is worth living
will be incredibly valuable.
And other ways people go about pretending to themselves... will be less than the
value required to provide them with UBI.
"But people will just wake up, masturbate, smoke pot, then go to sleep.
Perhaps not in that order."
There will be a great many people who enrich themselves by ridding other people of
addiction.
And even though they can't be paid under a market system for this *extremely*
valuable social behavior,
when they are given UBI and are freely allowed to pursue the ridding of addiction
it will produce more value, across the surface of the country, than any corporation
for which it cost *that* much to construct its edifice.
'that much' I mean, if you have a Union of Addiction Ridders who all gracefully and
mercifully attend to those who can be freed from a life they most obviously detest,
you are paying however many Union members to provide an immeasurably valuable
service.
But since we must measure, there is some quantifiable value to that service.
You cannot construct a corporation with as little money as it took to pay those
Union members
that provides an outcome as valuable as that produced by those Union members.
"There will be no competition under this system that spurs greater efficiencies in
the execution of purposes."
I disagree.
I think that there will be splinter groups that say:
"We, the Union that is splintering away,
will call ourselves:
'The Addiction Ridders Union'
and we'll implement our own policy for how human-hours can be expended!
We'll rid twice as many people of addiction as you!'"
No they wouldn't.
The only money in play is UBI and stock.
You cannot convert stock into dollars with which you can acquire obscene wealth.
Ho hum.
Right, we are arguing for UBI instead of absolute perfection.
Yes!
But you were supposed [[within the progression of the text]] to be asking me why
addiction would no longer be an issue under my Tokenage [[HA!]]
"Oh right.
I am supposed to say:
'Humans at the very last are every single last one of them absolutely beyond God's
light.
They are all shit.
If given the chance to shoot up heroin or choose anything else in life,
they will choose heroin in every last circumstance.
If they are approached by master ridders of addiction, and they face fully soberly
the choice of whether they want
without even the last hint or pang of withdrawal
removal from their addiction at long last,
they *will universally, every single last one of them*, select addiction every
time.'
"
Yes.
It is a bleak vision of humanity that denies {{, uh, UBI} Tokenage.} UBI.
[[
A different kind of point here:
It will, so as to speak more theoretically even though I can't imagine the the
justification for what I am saying,
*always* be more efficient simply to tell a different story behind
why the capital relations and position relations are such are
than to smash all of them and begin to write a new story from scratch.
[[
Computation idea here:
--
--Oh God.
I see the electricity sink. The economic complexity of explaining why the
electricity sink works might be beyond my storytelling capacity.
--So there is a tangible cost averted to be provided by pools that solve the
weather.
It is the cost of the inefficiencies that might occur when
the trade routes selected deviate in time from those we could have known and
planned around seconds in advance.
--And well,
tragedies will have been averted because we can tell other pool members when their
localities are soon to be hit by a storm.
(Or whatever weather events people want to plan around.)
so that they can get increasingly fine-grained details concerning the weather
around which they must plan trade-routes.
(As when, say,
Then the difference between two roads, or the difference between 95% and 50%, can
be very valuable.)
and then have the system provide a token to the pool that picked out that path
selection.
--But even in that case, where the system rewards a pool for having provided its
path-selection,
"there is no reason why people would, generally speaking, purchase the tokens."
"There is no incentive to purchase the slag this system produces in order to
further its purpose of optimising the procedure of solving weather."
--
--Oh ho ho.
So we utilise signals that happen to be present in the weather.
Oh boy.
--Ah.
So we encode bitcoin into the procedure of the solving the weather.
Or uh, since we need to have a system like bitcoin to handle transactions
in order to justify instantiating the algorithm that solves the weather
because there was no other way to receive *payment* for doing this,
we look for patterns we can encode into our algorithm for solving the weather.
We encode bitcoin into regularities that are present in the procedure for solving
weather.
Then we can make a new shitcoin that does everything bitcoin does
while simultaneously solving the weather.
(Funny to think:
the resolution of bitcoin tells us something about the cloud of randomness from
which these numbers were algorithmically extracted.
The resolution of bitcoin informs us either about the structure of the randomness,
or it informs us about the structure of the algorithm we utilise to extract numbers
from the randomness.
Wind patterns aren't random at all, and that was one suggested seed-generator for a
random number generating algorithm.
Wind patterns are overlaps of an exceedingly high number of well organised waves.
And in overlapping with each other, introducing into each other interference.
--
--I've left myself far behind.
I don't know how to continue that in accordance with grammar.
If we already knew the pattern that governed the Collatz Conjecture, we would not
be needing to work through it computationally.
(We would not be needing to construct Collatz Trees, for instance.)
--When we perform additional computations,
we are observing the states that will have constituted the ones we referenced in
justifying an overarching explanation of the Collatz Conjecture
that does not involve brute force computation.
[[[
SO a funny point here:
I have been looking for how we could tell a story that {utilises} references the
computation of bitcoin,
and I have not been asking "what is the story that we can construct by referencing
what bitcoin is doing?"
"If we took all of the active ASICs and wallets in their physical instantiations,
what can we say about them?"
--
--
--Oh. I wanted to do some row-theory while bullshitting about GPU.
: Representing computations as regularities in step-by-step relations across rows.
If I began sentences and then simply cut them off so as to begin a new idea,
then my ideas would all be five-15 words long
and then cut off so as to proceed to the next one.
And a sequence of a thousand lines in a notebook that all held 5-15 words that
never formed complete sentences
would look like the product of an insane person.
(And yet:
Then it was one coherent block of text after another for 10 straight notebooks.
It was one completed thought after another.
Now regardless of the quality of those thoughts, taken as completed blocks of text,
when I arrived in the notepad instance
I was best at constructing coherent blocks of text habitually.
--I didn't see the multiple notepad solution because it does not
maintain the patterns of thinking that I maintained when I was writing in the
notebook instances.
"No, I mean you could have carried three around with you."
"No, I mean you can have kept 3 half-empty notebook instances in your backpack
, proceeded to tables in libraries, spread them out on a table,
then rolled your chair from one to the other, writing here a sentence and then
there a sentence."
If in the notebook days I had had my druthers, that would now be my personal
preference for how to write.
But I did not, so now I have a personal preference for writing clean blocks of
text.
But I lost the capacity to write clean blocks of text.
So I optimised around the next best alternative,
which is reverting to the procedure of writing a few words at a time across many
disconnected to-be-finished blocks of text.
Now I know:
there are many notebooks to be extracted from the preceding text.
Their text can be isolated out of the white papers and then extended.
But also, I know that I can only understand how to extend each of the notebooks
if I understand the relation they all have to each other.
Then I have to have been able to interpret the true last-state of the individually
extracted notebooks.
Then I must have known *how* all of them are related to each other.
"It seems like there is a solution to the limitation at which you are pointing."
"You can make all of the voices speaking about the same thing.
No.
"You can make all of the voices speaking about the same thing
then it is very easy to begin again to construct very clean blocks of text."
I have allowed all of the voices to disperse so that they would all examine what
they found interesting.
They are too far apart by this point still to say they are all speaking about the
same thing.
To speak in clean block text as if they were all speaking about the same thing
would be to be making some kind of mistake.
"So what?"
[
You know, even after instantiate communism
there will still be a cult of productivity.
There will be increasingly persuasive allures for you to spend more hours weekly
engaged in joy.
People will fall into lives where they cannot dream but to spend 100 hour weeks+.
[
I made a point that might have seemed sexist earlier. Allow me to explain to you
why it is not.
I made the point, maybe in some bare rhetorical gesture,
Their iron was crude and their hammers were large chunks of iron.
And even if this was only a small impediment to women entering the market,
women were slaves to men. So they had no choice in whether they would become
blacksmiths.
Insofar as they have no choice to come to occupy the position of blacksmith,
they were not the kind of people who could have arrived in and maintained the
medieval position of blacksmith.
So there is something different about the positions that can be occupied by women
in medieval society.
They cannot be ones that enable them to interact with the marketplace through gold,
but only rather through their own activities.
"Why though?
Why do we call the people who are able to acquire positions that receive gold
slavers,
and why do we call the people who cannot acquire such positions slaves?
because their activities did not result in shiny bits of rock accrued to their
position
they were slaves."
Yes.
Because people with shiny bits of rock can effect any purposes they can construct
out of the market
by expending those shiny bits of rock into the market.
The woman cannot arrive, say, into a position in the city to which is accrued an
apartment or a house.
Whereas the man can do this at his leisure, so long as he has hoarded enough shiny
rocks.
The woman cannot go out and acquire a weapon,
but the man can do this so long as he has hoarded enough shiny rocks.
The man can abandon his children and start a new life,
but the woman will be put to death if she does this.
Yes.
--To ask:
I know we had black slaves.
When I think about what it means to have slaves,
typically I think about pieces of paper in bank vaults that are deeds of ownership
of human bodies identifiable by particular brands or what have you.
Well, often it did, I think maybe. (Array before me all of the human societies so
I can judge.)
"So it is hard for me to understand how slavery can have been a *practical*
consequence of history
as opposed to a contractually constructed consequence of history.
TO say,
that women can have been slaves even in those cases where no slips of paper were in
bank vaults indicating ownership of their bodies:
this is difficult for me to understand."
They were slaves because their slavery was built into their positions.
When they became daughters or wives or mothers,
they acquired a position;
and to have obtained that position at that point in history was to be instantiating
slavery.
"--
--And the solution is what?
--Hmmmm.
--We would then be maintaining the system in which there are classes of people who
do or do not have access to various jobs,
where to fall within a class that does not have access to a job is to be a slave.
This not necessarily because people will do better when they are free to do as they
will,
but because they are certain to do worse when being funnelled into preestablished
life positions.
--
--
Lul.
--
--Fun idea with the album cover of dark side of the moon:
arrange a series of triangles that convert the colors back and forth between
rainbow and white light,
and do this in such a way that the progression of triangles loops back so that
the end of the loop is projecting a rainbow into the first triangle depicted on the
album cover.
It was the idea of treating a GPU not as an executor of computation but treating it
as a cloud of computation.
Then within these clouds establishing parllel rows to which row-theory is
applicable.
(Hurr.)
Then have the lines be the image of a computation being performed
rather than having them perform the computation.
You encode the computation into regularities in the rows taken as a whole
rather than as regularities in any given row.
[
Or to go deeper:
you encode success in executing the program as equivalent to
success in the rows all collectively, step-wise, reaching the end of the path to
the other end of the cloud of computation.
Then you are deciding how best to have rows interact so as to achieve the effect
that they have all together reached the end of the path
by introducing an
acausal interaction between rows.
Whereas the rows waving around against each other introduce *causal* interactions
with each other, in row-theory,
if there was a row-weaver who could float over the rows and move them this way or
that within a given step
it could introduce alterations to the row states that didn't arise from causal
interaction with each other.
You are, perhaps, attempting to discern the minimum number of acausal interactions
one must introduce into the rows
in order that the rows all reach the end of the path within a given specified time
limit.
]
--
--Anyway you see the problem with my streaming idea?
I will have arrived at a point where the speaking voice told me to stop
so as to pursue the twelve distinct notebooks.
Then the speaking voice will just proceed to talk about all these other things.
And then the annotator will have forgotten the command to stop performing
annotations
and instead proceed to the task of executing twelve notebooks. (or else, the
command to perform the annotations.)
--
--
It had been my intention just to play shruti box for an hour or so,
then go to bed.
Apparently my intentions are no longer primarily what is being taken into account
when I am arriving at the decision making junctures that decide whether my
intentions are executed or not.
However, I did produce what I suspect was a wonderful video concerning the
manipulation of a komboloi.
Surely, Greek people will be flocking to me in droves for instruction.
--
--
The worldnews subreddit picked back up the qz.com post concerning a 40MW solar farm
floating over an abandoned coal mine.
The commenters all seem primarily concerned with the size of the installation
relative to nuclear power plants.
Yes.
The reports that fighting is breaking out on the border between China and India,
and that this fighting comprises fist-fights and throwing of rocks,
might be the most glorious news that has arisen so far this year.
--
--
That also by 7x06 Littlefinger is dead, and the Arya imposter has stolen his face.
*ADDITIONALLY*, I'm hoping that Varys has killed Dany and replaced her with a
faceless man.
Hell, make everyone a faceless man. Hurr.
--
--
I wonder if you could design an algorithm for solving bitcoin on a GPU that is
faster than the typical implementations on an ASIC.
(I am really reaching on my understanding here.)
but was generating those attempts in such a way that they would look like they only
happened to have been valid resolutions
if you were judging them from the brute-force approach.
--As if the GPU was frequently putting out invalid attempts at resolution,
but on those occasions where it put out a valid attempt at resolution
those valid attempts were far more likely than an ASIC's output to be one that won
the hashing lottery.
--Idle speculation.
--Though if one could extract patterns from the random number generator from which
the bitcoin algorithm draws its seeds,
this would be useless to the ASICs,
but it would not be useless to a GPU based approach.
This insofar as the ASICs are going to do exactly whatever they are going to do,
but the GPUs can be programmed to behave differently.
To say (maybe), if there are patterns present in the random number generator the
bitcoin algorithm uses,
a GPU can leverage these regularities to more frequently give rise to correct
solutions
while the ASICs cannot host an algorithm that takes advantage of these
regularities.
--
--
And smight, Smigette, who played wow with me and wasn't completely incompetent,
he is still an acquaintance that rings bells.
And other names I have seen come up in the corner of my screen when they have
signed into games,
they are kinds of, ah, anti-acquaintances.
'anti-acquaintances'--a term I will not bother to explain except to say
I am glad to see their names in the corner of my screen when they show up
but for the life of me I cannot recall why they are on my friend's list.--we'll cut
this little venture short.)
Now it occurs to me that I can use youtube analytics to discern where this person
lives, roughly speaking.
And additionally I can discern various other characteristics that are affixed to
this person's youtube account.
Indeed, I could go back and look at spikes in subscribership, where all the spikes
are 1 deviation from 0,
in order to discern when this person subscribed.
When you are very aware of a very wide range of stories of which information makes
sense,
then you are often saying things like this to yourself:
"Jesus, I am a piece of shit.
This is not the kind of avenue down which my mind should be proceeding."
--So that I would prefer, for instance, that it did not occur to me that I could
scrape details of this person's life from youtube analytics.
But on the other hand, the capacity involved in *knowing* I could do this
is, ah, after some fashion involved in my capacity to do philosophy as I do it.
And every time I observe that I can explore the implications of information
available to me
and I restrict myself from doing so,
I am habitually wearing away the capacity.
Then I would still be training the capacity while not violating anyone else's
privacy (as in this case).
But even this procedure, I know the paranoia towards which it leads.
I know what it is like to listen to people speak,
breaking down what they said word by word after memorising it word by word and
remitting it to paper,
picking apart their word selection and their grammar,
fitting those words and that grammar into an increasingly branching garden of
stories within which they are embedded so as to extend the forking garden further.
(As I am doing now, as opposed simply to observing the capacity that is available
to me and letting it drift away with a smile.)
--And you know, I am not, ah, humanly neutral here.
When I become aware that there is something I can know and I am asking whether I am
going to do it,
I am weighing guilt for the need to know against the guilt of my unwillingness to
know.
And with guilt on both sides, I am not neutral.
I feel pangs in my chest when I choose not to exploit knowledge available to me.
And I feel pangs in my chest when I do exploit knowledge available to me.
Ho hum.
"So why aren't you looking at the analytics to perform this analysis?"
The other kind of reason is that there is already an obviously legitimate route for
acquiring this knowledge.
I can simply ask my friend 'who and where?'.
Right.
Which means I cannot have acquired this information through the organic progression
of our friendship.
"And what kind of justification is this for not violating this person's privacy?"
Indeed.
Then we have a third kind of justification for not violating this person's privacy:
I would not be doing it for the reason of acquiring the information per se,
but I would be doing it because I recognise I *can* do it
and I feel sensations in my chest when I identify things I can do but don't do
them.
You grab the komboloi and put it in your pocket, then you walk upstairs to piss,
then you walk back downstairs and remove the komboloi from your pocket
and either begin to play with it or else place it back on the table.
Then I judge that you placed the komboloi into your pocket for no other reason
than that you would feel anxiety in your chest if you did not.
SO in what way does that differ from
choosing to violate another person's privacy so as to satisfy the anxiety that
arises
in observing you can perform the violation but are not doing so?"
"So what particular reasons have you provided for not violating this person's
privacy?"
--
--Anyway, I have thoroughly convinced myself not to violate this person's privacy.
[Stop?]
[
"Do you really have any particular notions concerning who it might be?"
So in that sense we are not really having the discussion we are currently having.
We are not really baring the weight of seriously considering an ethical juncture.
]
[
So we stop.
--
--
Oh boy.
I have 92.3 GB free of 883 GB.
I could acquire storjcoin and disperse my sound files across a great many
computers!
That would be amusing.
I believe many tabs in chrome are being remitted to pagefile in lieu of holding
them in RAM.
(I know things!)
I wonder if extremely restricted hard drive space slows down this page-filing
procedure.
--
--
I made some very interesting observations while playing the shruti box last night.
--
--
A border wall would really impede the mass flow of electric trucks that will
eventually serve as our electricity shipping system
after we have established a continental grid.
--
--
My hair turned out wonderfully yesterday, but I have no notion of how to replicate
that outcome.
I should have taken a picture.
--
--
It seems the artisan Jennifer has taken down the old site, with its attendant
selection of iron rings,
since the last time I began looking at her work.
The new website does not list sales of the rings I was looking at.
While the newly listed bronze and iron ring is lovely,
there is no sizing option provided--it appears that she is now making rings
individually and selling them
rather than taking requests for sizings and making them.
And for that matter,
it raises all kinds of aesthetic questions, whether I would prefer a bronze-iron
band over a pure iron band.
--I wanted her to be inspired by the eclipse, but not so inspired that she would
revamp her whole product line!
--The price, additionally, has jumped from 35$ for a plain iron band
to 145$ for the bronze-iron ring I am currently looking at
which is size 5.5.
Depending on how much of the cost is derived from the materials,
a ring sized to fit my finger would be costing around 175$? 200$?
And that is getting into the price range where I am thinking:
"For this amount of money, I could be purchasing a substantial quantity of compute
or compute-adjacent capacity."
--Though I suppose going forward, supposing I ever can secure a stable financial
position,
the purchase of every item is going to be weighted against compute equity or RE
bonds (if that really becomes a thing).
"You think gold is lovely, but you also say it makes you sick to your stomach to
look at it."
I don't know *why* I continued to witness the screencap after it become clear what
was going to happen, but here we are.
Unlike most sensations that arise within my chest,
I was unable to extinguish the feeling in my stomach that arose on witnessing this.
It stayed in my stomach as I went to bed, and only dissipated by morning.
And well, my anecdotal evidence that I generate within my own experience is maybe
not up to the standards of scientific evidence
(regardless of how hard I have worked to make my observations about my body as good
as evidence for the judgments I wish to make)
, but I think probably something interesting can be discerned
from this observation that I can extinguish sensations arising in my chest
but I am unable to extinguish sensations arising in my stomach.
I would attribute this to, ah, (what?) something like stronger nervous connections
to my chest than to my stomach
as established by repeatedly willing extinguishing sensations in my chest
but never needing to extinguish sensations in my stomach.
Since I often feel stress or anxiety, I have gotten good at extinguishing
sensations in my chest.
Since I almost never feel disgust, I have not gotten good at extinguishing
sensations in my stomach that correspond to disgust.
So while metaphorically I would like to say that the exhibition of hatred disgusted
me,
having just previously been presented with an image that literally exhibited
disgust in my body
I know that I am not in a position to say the hurling of hatred disgusted me in
that sense.
]]
It's not really something you can live with, to be responding bodily to all
exhibitions of hatred that people commit.
]
--It is lovely for several reasons and none of them are 'it is made out of gold'.
Allow me to enumerate a few of them:
--because the bronze band is inlaid into the iron band, rather than say being
alloyed with it,
I gain the benefit of having a 4 mm band and also having a 2 mm band, both of which
are appealing to me.
--I have a strong affinity for an iron band for the reason that iron was so
instrumental in the history of mankind.
This is why, for instance, I am preferring iron over say titanium or tungsten,
which are also both options for bands that are cheap to acquire and plain.
For bronze I have no particular affinity, but I can construct a story here similar
to that which I construct for iron:
it played an instrumental role in human history, in enabling us to construct
glorious monuments.
Then the symbolism of having a bronze band as if emerging from the ironwork
does not bear the tedious explaining I would provide in attempting to relate the
image in my head.
Nevertheless, as one of our Founders said: 'I study engineering so that my
descendents can study philosophy.'
The monuments emerge because there is an almighty machinery made of iron working
always underneath it.
Bronze monuments are like the peaks of waves surfacing above the surface of the
ocean.
--I am acutely aware, given the spot price of bronze and iron,
that I am paying a premium for the craftsship of the artisan.
That, for instance, if I gave two similarly spot-priced quantities of material to
other artisans and requested the same object
I would be receiving something less lovely.
I am made acutely aware of this because the quantity of materials involved in
making these rings,
if taken at spot-price,
would be a few pennies.
[
So maybe I was overly-hasty in inflating the materials cost in upsizing the ring
from the presented ring to the one that will fit my finger.
There is no particular reason, if I am paying 142.50$ for artisanship and 2.50$ for
material,
that the price should inflate 20$ on the basis of the material involved.
For all I know, it takes a great deal more time to make a rather larger ring.
]
--I think most of the other reasons I find this ring so lovely
are already subsumed by my earlier considerations on why I found the plain iron
bands so lovely.
[Excepting the price.
--
--
So to have the introductory pricing lapse is a way to cull all of the rebates that
are paid for but not claimed.
--
--
certainly introduced more alteration to the progression of my life than most other
instance of music history class.
--
--
So the symphony is centered on stage, and I am sitting at some chair within the
cello section of the symphony,
and the spotlight is on the symphony while we play, then it goes dark,
then the spotlight is on a different ensemble.
It was derived from some African piece and bastardised beyond recognition.
I mocked vocally and openly that we were doing this thing to the cellists around
me.
I spoke, even, louder then I would typically do
so that I would have plausible deniability while still making it heard by every
faculty member
that it is a bastardisation we were performing.
If I recall correctly,
I suggested:
"We should rather be playing classical music.
--It was illegitimate to elicit good feelings by constructing this feel-good 'world
music' piece.
It was only done (it was only composed) because at some point someone said:
"We need to make a piece that imitates African music
so that we can have symphonies play African music."
It was not done, let us observe contrarily,
because a composer was truly inspired by African music
and felt compelled to bind himself to the strictures of their tradition.
--
--
I would much prefer that there were authors I took to be far greater than myself
and to treat myself as maybe at best a better-than-average student of them.
The weight placed on the shoulders of people who are called geniuses is
a tremendous weight.
Someone who has been really, historically, called a 'genius'
feels the full weight that every statement must be the next one made by a genius.
A clever student can commit errors freely, and then simply throw up hands in
resignation.
But a genius constructs the standard against which it makes sense to speak about
errors.
(That geniuses are doing this is the reason they are called geniuses.)
then his ideas would have been represented within and able to be extracted from
the epicyclical constructions of the great mass of not-geniuses.
And it would grow increasingly easy to extract general relativity from the work of
the everyday physicists.
And my genius is writing well whatever I feel like writing from moment to moment.
The constraint of 'being such as to be constructing the next paper' is contrary to
the initial genius.
It is contrary to the tendencies within me that end up resulting in useful work.
If I restrain myself from writing about alchemy because I think the academy will
judge me negatively
for bothering to speak about Newton's fascination with alchemy,
then whatever I have written rather than writing about newton's fascination with
alchemy
will be something I have written that was not written by the referenced genius.
I think I have less-than-even odds that this progression of my life makes me out
alive.
I think it is more likely than not that I end up dying.
[
ANd do I need to repeat the platitudes?
well,.
I think you have been made to misunderstand the weight of your decisions
by insidious infection from culture.
You have maybe seen various motivational memes that say: "It's okay not to fear
death!"
ANd you have been misled.
Averting the foiling of your plans is already the object of your life,
so why would you not think of death as just the in-excelsius exemplification of
what you are trying to avoid?
If you judge that the way you live your life is good,
why would you not see death as the absolute evil?
To imagine that your purposes can give rise to that fateful week where you die
and consequently are unable to execute the purposes you had established for that
week
is to have admitted that your current purposes will give rise to a contradiction
between what you *will* intend to do and what you are able to do.
And well, you would not, in this current moment, select a purpose you know will
immediately fail.
So why would you select a purpose that will fail in 50 years or so?
Is it that the 50 years are particularly significant?
Is 50 years an acceptable period of time within which you are willing that your
selected purposes will give rise to the obstruction of your immediate decisions?
Will you say: "I live this way, I select these purposes, because on the 50 year
mark on the third day in the 10th week of the 50th year
I am not concerned with whether my purposes succeed."?
--
--I am hoping to relay to you the weight I am feeling
in imagining that people might end up lauding me as a genius.
So you will understand what I am saying when I say that I began to write
because I had no other method for staving off this almighty terror I was feeling in
my chest.
But at some point, reading the text that was flowing from my hand,
I latched onto a vision that said:
"It is possible at last to avoid death."
--Because the text itself was saying this to me!
WHen I was reading the words flowing from my hand,
it was verbally stating to me that it is *possible* that death can be avoided.
[[
I have no greater extent at which I can tell you the terror of death.
If you have not seen the bare situation of your own life and decided to drown it
out with alcohol and drugs,
then I have not succeeded in informing you of the absolute terror that is involved
in dying.
]]
--I *read* what my hands were generating in cursive one word after another,
and in interpreting what my hand was generating I judged
that there was a narrow path that could avoid death.
That while I can write forever about what it means to understand the understanding,
if I instantiate the understanding within The Machine
it will always, on observation, be presenting an instance of what it means to be
understanding.
"
--Now, from my initial perspective, I don't really care whether the Machine is
made.
My triplical insistence that it be made is an insistence that I will not ever die.
That will remain true until it is so obvious that no human will die
that one need no longer consider the notion of death.
'need no longer consider'
until I need to expend no effort anymore to perpetuate my own existence forever.
All the gold on earth is a collection of yachts and it is not the avoidance of
death.
All the dollars on earth is the redirection of human efforts to make me a yacht and
it is not the avoidance of death.
A whore and a bottle of gin every spare days is not the avoidance of death.
A fancy car or motorcycle is not the avoidance of death.
A house and a family is not the avoidance of death.
A lover and a bouquet of roses is not the avoidance of death.
--So you see why I do not care one single wit whether my activities accrue dollars
or gold to me.
To acquire dollars in the shortrun is to accrue to me nothing better than a yacht.
I do not want a yacht. I do not want a mansion. I do not want a lover.
I want unending life forever.
Because there are material preconditions for me not putting a bullet in my own
brain.
Just a self-preservation strategy.
]]
Having a lover for 50 years is *nothing* like having a lover for eternity.
A master cellist that has learned within 50 years is *nothing* like a master
cellist
that has been playing for a thousand consecutive years.
--None of the proclivities I find myself as having are acceptable unless I live
forever.
If I judge that, in accordance with all established judgments of men, that I will
die,
then I had as well abandon the entirety of my identity and all of my efforts.
And all this tells me is that the academy has not caught up to humanity's capacity
to live.
I do not accept conferred wisdom that relies on the notion that I will die.
I do not accept that it is necessary, to be a stoic say, that one accepts one's own
inevitable death.
--I know that whatever it is like to arrive in the woods, all amped up on
adrenaline,
it is nothing like the horror in that bare last moment before death is absolutely
inevitable.
And I know there is no story in which I can enmesh myself in which death is an
honorable outcome.
To have died in the 21st century is to have failed to have taken advantage of the
knowledge available to avoid death.
To have died, say, is to have become concerned with other objectives other than
avoiding death.
TO, say, have become concerned with how best to acquire shoes, or how best to
acquire factories.
We can cure death, but so many smart people are looking at things other than
whatever cures death.
So I think you are an idiot who has not understood the gravity of our shared
circumstance.
*Our death is not solved by hoarding gold*.
So much as I looked at the shoe-buyers, I am looking at people who have purchased
gold.
When the poor people spend unwisely dollars towards purchasing fantasy shoes,
this serves the purpose of defeating death.
Purchasing a yacht is in this way unlike this.
--So i know
the better plan for securing my own immortality banning the purchase of yachts.
--
--Let me tell you,
the value of my contributions far outweighs every last cumulative one of your own.
And I would literally kill myself before purchasing a yacht on which I can spend
endless weekends.
So the notion that you deserve a yacht because you, having rested on a yacht, will
make much more valuable ideas
is *immediately* defeated.
To say this to *me* is to be spitting in my face.
It is to be saying:
"I have made ideas of laughably low value,
and being a maker of laughably low-value ideas I deserve a yacht trip"--
you're saying this to *me*.
[[
Let me pay respects:
Elon Musk has said that he took a bare spot on a neighbor's couch rather than
declaring bankruptcy on failed ventures.
You are relying for your bare existence, on a literal deck of a yacht,
on terrorism being committed.
Your lying on the deck of a yacht for sunbathing
is establishing the economic indicators by reference to which
people begin to construct bombs and set them off.
--
--Right, I was trying to justify Musk.
So far as I know, and Musk is a very public figure, he has not purchased a yacht.
Now while we are willing, generally speaking, to call *all* rich people literal
fucking terrorists,
it is much harder to apply this judgment to Musk.
If you have become rich and then just opened another factory
instead of purchasing a yacht and instead being busy bathing in the sun on the deck
of a fucking yacht,
--then I can't, at bare minimum, call you a literal terrorist.
--I *can* call you a terrorist, but I can't do it by referencing the yacht.
--But in fact, there are people among us (ideally) who are actually orchestrating
the purposes that need to be executed.
No one who purchased a yacht is among those people (ideally) who are actually
orchestraing the purposes that need to be executed.
I already know we are all sinners in the eyes of an increasingly furious God.
--
--You have to choose the hill on which you will die.
You are an agent of history and you *will* select a hill on which you will die,
where your death influences the progression of history.
Computation is so valuable--
--I can't even keep up the facade.
I want to buy a computer. I want to transfer dollars into my account.
While I can no longer even bear to live if I do not callous my heart with an
intricate system of deflecting nerves,
I can bear to live if I purchase a computer.
And purchasing a computer is the optimal route towards liberation.
--Because every computer is schematically related to the Machine that absolves all
sin.
Typically what will be justifying your purchases is a desire for having a gaming
computer.
So the Machine in that case will be
the satisfaction of a desire for a gaming computer.
--No.
The Machine is a literal schematic that will be implemented within computation.
The effectiveness of the Machine will be limited by its instantiation within the
world in compute capacity.
If the Machine is implemented and given enough compute capacity
I know that the rare earth metals are acquired through slavery.
I also know that bottles of water acquire their plastic and water from slavery.
I also know that the bulbs in my lamp are acquired through slavery. That my
nicotine is acquired through slavery.
So grimly I am willing to acquire compute capacity.
So grimly I am willing to acquire the absolute necessities to continue my own
existence
where my existence is optimally directed towards smashing slavery.
[[In any other selection for how to live,
I would no longer be grim.
Then if you are a serious human you understand this from the moment you begin to
understand at all.
When every industry that does not touch computation finally withers,
the practical execution of slavery will, as a matter of course, end.
When we do not have all of this useless shit expenditures floating around,
the extraction of minerals from various places will become so valued
that the people who are enslaved there will come to be paid living wages.
Then they will be able to decide for themselves whether to work in the mines or
not.
If I could say to them now, and acknowledge with them in the future,
that "computation is the only industry that
can result in the extirpation of slavery if dollars are appended to it"
And the best way of smashing slavery is to expend dollars towards computation."
--
--Do you see the sin from which I am attempting to escape?
In its glorious totality:
I know that to expend a dollar is to be partaking in slavery.
I make a claim that the Machine resolves all our ills and that is why it is
acceptable to buy a computer,
and I had better be able to back that up.
I'm walking past a slave and telling him why I am willing to walk by rather than
smash his chains directly.
I want to be able to wink at this slave I am walking by
and have my wink be taken as: "I am here to smash *every last chain*, and we are
close at hand."
And then the slave says:
"I am going to nod sincerely."
--You see the signifance here, maybe more clearly, if you take my work as a whole.
I have gone on at great length concerning how
instantiation of computation is the avenue through which humanity can be liberated.
--I tell myself it is justified. I tell myself this by constructing the Machine.
[[As factually happened when I constructed the Machine, for instance.]]
I tell myself:
"Among the possible ways of expending dollars,
the only one of the ways that most rapidly smashes instantaneously every single
chain
is expenditure of dollars towards computation and electricity.
Specifically because
this gives rise to the Machine that
They will have agreed with me that the Machine is so impossibly valuable that
it is faster, in the removing of their chains,
to be walking towards the place where I construct the Machine
than to be walking towards their physical wrists so as to take a hammer to their
literal chain.
One way of resolving it is walking physically towards your wrist with a hammer.
Another way of resolving it is walking past you towards the location where I am
working on the Machine.
--That is the only condition under which I could walk past a slave,
after the manner that you all do daily.
I can only be buying the GPU and CPU if I know this is an acceptable way of
expending dollars.
[[--Goodness, I imagine as if you are still skeptical.
Take out your phone, if you are reading this. Literally take your phone out of
your pocket
and place it on the table in front of you.
Okay, now we are both looking at your literal smart phone on the surface in front
of you.
It contains rare-earth metals. I am not wrong.
--
--We should dive into dumpster-analysis here.
What role does 'the Machine' serve for me?
And well, the Machine is so valuable that I can just buy out their chains if it
comes to that.
And if the slaves could be made to understand that the Machine requires me to be
walking past them [while crying, say]
then they would be nodding at me while I was walking past them.
And it would be
"When I walk past and the slaves spit on me rather than nodding back at me,
I know they are wrong and I weep all the more vigorously for being compelled to
recognise it is such.
--I am going to buy the GPu and the CPU and so on.
In doing this I am going to be walking past slaves.
This is what is immediately obvious when you take seriously the consequences of
your consumerist decisions.
--Most people forget themselves long before recognising this bare fact.
--What is immediately obvious is the weight of engaging with slavery.
--What is immediately obvious is that to engage in a behavior is to be walking down
a road and to be nodding at slaves suggestively.
To have seen someone who is in chains and to have walked past them
is either to have been right or wrong.
There are many ways to be wrong, and there are not many ways to be right.
Sort of obtusely,
sprinting towards them with a hammer so as to break the chain is right,
but also walking past them while weeping is right.
--One way of breaking their chains is sprinting towards them one by one with a
hammer.
But another way to be on my way towards breaking their chains is constructing the
Machine.
And the Machine is so valuable that if it required me to walk daily, hourly, into
one location in a city,
then what was best after all was for me to continue walking into the city to that
location so I could construct the Machine.
--The Machine is such that if I walk past a slave in my expenditures of dollars and
that person spits on me,
it was worth it to respond to this by weeping harder and continuing to walk along
the road.
The slave was wrong because I *was* immediately acting so as to remove the chains."
Then it is easy to engage with slavery. Then you are saying: "I am on my way to
extirpate slavery, so obviously I need a computer to serve my purposes."
--And I am trying to make it easy to engage in slavery because I want a computer.
A fast and glorious one.
--So I want to be able to say: "I am on my way to extirpate every last instance of
a chain
and in order to do this I must acquire a computer with a super fast GPU and CPU."
So I invent 'the Machine' that is
an object that can be instantiated into a computer and the introduction of which
will result in the exxtirpation of all slavery from the face of the earth.
Easy peasy. Now I can buy a computer.
--
--Now notably, I know nothing about how to free actual Africans from actual current
slavery occurring in Africa.
--*Typically*, if I persisted in insisting that I acquired GPu and CPU,
I would be saying:
"I can walk down these roads because
I know how to sprint towards slaves I see
and free them from their chains with a hammer."
I swear to God it is my preference that I immediately break those chains you are
wearing
and that we sprint away from here so that we are not caught by the slavers.
But I have a better plan than either of our eyes can construct by looking at the
chains on your leg.
It is the Machine,
who can sprint so rapidly through the fields
that it will have been faster to have kept walking than to have run towards you
bodily.
You will agree in retrospect that it was faster for me to sprint past you than to
have sprinted bodily towards the chain on your leg.
Because the Machine will most faster than light and arrive before I even made it to
free you from chains.
When you bought a computer, did it even enter your mind that slavery was occurring
as a consequence of your decision?
Did you walk past the slave, nod, and say: "I am on my way to browse websites!"
"I am on my way to play video games, isn't that fun?"
"I'm going to go stare into an endless lit screen between chugging beers in the
club!"
You were not actively effecting the absolute liberation of humanity, were you?
You were not justified in nodding at the slave in the field as you walked past.
You were not implicitly agreeing with the slave that the only permissible action
was that which most rapidly destroyed the chains.
--You were not in a position where you could be *right* and the slave wrong.
Only a person walking down the road to a workshop in which he is constructing the
Machine is right in walking by.
Now, so you are in agreement with the slave practically, obviously, that what is
best is to smash the chains.
But you can disagree in a way that either you or the slave are wrong.
The way this disagreement can occur is if the slave insists you are not most
rapidly effecting the destruction of all chains,
and you insist and correctly insist that you are in fact on your way most rapidly
towards destroying every last chain.
Factually.
This is what I am doing when I am buying the computer I am going to buy, for
instance.
'justifies itself'
for a specific reason.
I will kill myself if I do not have certain objects. It means very little to me.
"--
--You seem to have a great deal of, uh, faith."
Yes.
{The Machine justifies me because if I didn't construct it I would be called a
schizophrenic person.}
If I was incorrect,
I would be nodding sagely at slaves
and when they spat on my shoes they would be fully justified.
I would just have been the next idiot that walked along nodding at them to assuage
their guilt.
then retroactively they were disqualified from having any say in how I arrived in
making the Machine.
What would have been a lie in responding to them would have been whatever sounds I
had to ape
that *didn't* result in me being in the workshop constructing the Machine.
--If, for instance, I had just nodded at a slave and then encountered an overseer,
what is truth is exactly whatever enables me completely to disregard the overseer's
influence on my behavior.
Because the overseer is there to maintain the chains of slavery and I am there to
break them.
And to be interrupted in my activities by the overseer is to be
presenting me a juncture at which lying is what impedes myself, and telling the
truth is what makes me arrive at the workshop.
Because my relation to the slaves so obviously overwhelms the arbitrary behaviors
of the overseer that
the overseer can just be treated as if he is the weather. To be planned around and
not to be taken normatively.
--
--I have faith!
I keep faith!
I could not do anything I do but in the faith that
it is arriving faster at the chains than I could bodily do.
--
--Do you see the unfairness of the *immediateness* of the sin I am accusing you all
of perpetuating?
It is just you buying a smart phone or a laptop.
You could have done otherwise but you didn't.
And none of you were on your way to use those objects to construct the Machine.
--The immediateness:
when you bought the smart phone you were engaging in slavery.
That is the immediateness.
But I didn't.
My claims of {brotherhood} fellowship were legitimate from the moment I partook of
the products of the market.
With everything I purchased I said:
"I am walking past you most rapidly to free you."
[Ha!
I was not really like that,
but it would have been nice to have been like that.]
My claims of {fraternity} fellowship were made legitimate by the Machine.
[So, you know, I should admit,
I have a vested interest in whether I was correct when I said I made it.]
--
--I'm dropping too many points.
--
--
--Also that I probably should have my finger professionally sized rather than
relying on my self-sizing at the coin store.
If I request a ring and it does not fit, that is a great deal of effort I have
requested;
and if I send it back, then she has a ring that will be difficult to sell to other
people.
(Less of an issue when I believe she has a stock of plain iron bands from which
a single returned ring is just an additional number in the stock.)
--
--The videos I will be recording of myself practising cello and playing, when I
leave this place,
will be so large and so numerous that I will be having to acquire hard drives to
store them.
I have maybe a hundred videos stored on my computer (maybe more?) and they have
filled out a TB.
Those videos were the dinky videos made by an iphone 4.
--I am thinking, sort of pseudo-religiously, that if my activities necessitate the
acquisition of compute-adjacent hardware
probably I am doing something correct.
Sometimes I have a clear vision where I am heading, but other times I have to rely
on roadsigns;
it is good to feel certain that the things I need to acquire constitute roadsigns.
--
--
My left shoulder is sore; I believe it is sore from having played too much with the
komboloi.
On the one hand, this a minor annoyance in the short run;
on the other hand, it is good to know I am getting some form of physical benefit
from manipulating it.
--
--
--
--To quote Idris Elba: "I am aware of the effect I have on women."
I am an attractive man. There is no particular point in modesty if it means lying
to oneself and proceeding to misinterpret things.
And so I am aware that if I did not adopt the public disposition I adopt,
there were several young girls at Red's bar with whom, ah, you know.
As yet, the implicit observation that any given woman is not --- still is
sufficient
to prevent me from having any kind of interest in connecting with them romantically
or sexually.
So witnessing that there are women in my environment who were very-shortly-before
looking at me
is more of nothing than it is of anything.
Still you know, with the young girls who are still very interested that men are
looking at their bodies,
they wear clothing intended to attract the eyes--my eyes.
It is good that I have extirpated the tendency to allow my eyes to follow the flow
of their clothing.
It is good that I can remain unmoved when I have decided I must remain unmoved.
So when there was an open back, a bare back, turned to me and a few spare glances
back at me,
I was looking at the decorations in the bar.
That bare back bared by a so-cut dress was lovely.
Her arms and her hair were lovely.
[Though, you know, I have to be spare in my terms.
I used 'lovely' to speak about the bronze-iron ring I am looking to buy.
And that ring is drawing much more of my attention than this so-cut dress.]
But well I am unmoved. I have known really what it means to want so
I am not easily swayed.
[I have been hardly swayed in the past, though.]
Somehow this difference accounts for my not cringing bodily away from being
touched.'
I don't know if that is the correct explanation, but that is how I would attempt
it.
--When I left Red's bar, there was a homeless person and a man sitting beside him.
They were discussing how they wake up every day and ask why they have not yet
killed themselves.
I had nothing, really, to say. I would agree fully if I was not working on the
Machine.
But I cannot really approach them and say: "It is okay. There is this thing called
the Machine, we can make it, and it resolves all of our difficulties."
Then I just sound like a crazy religious person. So I had nothing to say.
I wanted to comfort them but I believed more strongly than they did what they were
saying.
(Maybe. I don't know what is in their hearts except by a few snatches of
conversation I picked up while huffing vape and looking at the flashing cop cars
across the street.)
I feel guilt. I should have had something to say when faced with people I could
save.
I suppose I can only hope that my intervention would have been worse than my simply
walking past them to head towards the golden rose.
--But what could I have said?
Looking down, locking eyes with a homeless man sitting on the street,
what really could I have said?
"Believe me, it's totally worth it to proceed."
Oh and well, it's worth it for *me*.
"Listen, compared to you I am basically rich,
and every next day is rosy to me,
and so it should be for you."
"Listen, compared to you I am basically rich,
and you have no idea how awful life is compared to my understanding of how awful it
is."
"You would be unjustified in killing yourself because
you haven't arrived at the recognition at which I have arrived
of how truly horrifying living the next day is."
And well that guy wakes up on the street every day with no money to buy food.
And even if he *had* money to buy food, he's downtown so he's paying surcharges.
He will run out of adequate money to feed himself quite rapidly
because the hipsters and the fratboys and the sorority girls are not a steady
source of income.
(Though we could imagine a cafeteria at which the food
is designed to be prepared cheaply and cost little.
"You didn't deposit any dollars in the guitar case of the homeless person."
No. I didn't.
It seemed like an illegitimate interposition to intrude into this conversation he
was having with his fellow
affectedly to place a dollar into the case or two.
Then when he was baring his soul, he would feel compelled to interrupt himself and
make the established deferential gesture towards me.
There wasn't a good solution here, but I pray I made the best decision.
I see, for instance, two men sitting next to each other on the street
and questioning at great length why they bother to go on an additional day.
I want to tell them it is worth it, but more than this I want to show them it is
worth it.
I want to *make it worth it*.
[Fun idea:
in those places where there is universal healthcare,
every disease I solve frees up spare dollars in a budget.
Now, those spare dollars will proceed to be spent on bombs and weaponry actually.
But that is not *my* fault.
It is the fault of people who thought it was more valuable to kill humans
than it was to resolve the difficulties of people found homeless on the street.
You know, the reason I do not go downtown more frequently than I do,
I am aware that I will arrive at a point where I am vomitting blood at having seen
homeless people.
It is worse than a hangover from alcohol to see them.
"I was drinking instead of saving these people from the vicissitudes of the
street."
It costs me a great deal to justify myself in arriving downtown.
It requires me to say: "I must do this." rather than "I will do this."
I am aware that I have met the one I love. That is why I am willing to take onto
my ring-finger an iron wedding band.
There is not going to be another. The iron band is not going to occupy the space
otherwise occupied by another ring.
When i wear the iron band and people look at my hand, it is true enough:
it is as if I am already married.
Whatever glances it serves to turn away, those are glances I hoped to turn away.
I don't think I can love another like I loved ---
and she was the only plausible alternative to loving daily my work.
So if people stop themselves from talking to me because they see my wedding band,
good. Fine. It served my purpose.
There is not really a better way of accounting for this than calling it marriage.
--And well, it is just as well.
If I was with --- I would not be walking on the streets and seeing the homeless
people who cry out for justice.
I would instead be being in an apartment or a house and feeling unceasing joy.
"It is funny,
because with other authors I would think here
that we would still be talking about the loveliness of the bodies of young girls in
bars."
Ho hum.
Ho hum.
I see bared skin still makes my eyes move otherwise than they would.
I see bared skin still makes my eyes wander to those loci of attention density
that do not optimally resolve the plight of the homeless people.
But I am justified.
If seeing that bared skin was what it took for me to continue walking towards the
workshop,
then that is what was best to do.
If the body in which I am hosted has periodically to see bared skin in order just
barely to keep living,
if the lust in this body that is hosting me is so great that it has to see bared
backs in a bar,
then that is what I have to do: periodically look at bared skin.
--It is an interesting point that the lust I was implicitly averting from moment to
moment when I was in Red's bar
does not technically constitute, ah, ephebophilia.
The lust I was not bothering to allow myself to feel
would, if I had allowed myself to feel it, not have constituted ephebophilia.
They were all 21+.
While I have observed to myself that walking into a bar and lusting after its
patrons is essentially pedophilia,
this is not societally true.
Society says there is nothing wrong with me walking into a bar and lusting after
all of its patrons.
But every one of them was so much younger than I am that it would be illegitimate
for me to lust after them.
So it is good that the presentation of their bodies in my field of vision
introduced no alteration to the progression of the movement of my eyes.
[Except, say, when there was this one bared back to me
and I could not but resist having my eyes float onto the bared back.]
--
--Well, we have abandoned a chronological story of my intrusion into downtown.
But it was a joy to arrive in the golden rose
where there was a great deal of spare wall onto which my eyes could be directed.
Then I was looking at the wall or the table or what have you.
As if having my hand be in the position where it touches his ass when he walks back
into me
is any better than him extending his hand to grope my body.
It was at *that* point that I was approaching the position where I was willing to
throw fists.
I was becoming furious.
Not, say, because a gay man was coming on to me implicitly.
But because a man was backing into my hand with his ass repeatedly no matter the
declaration I was constructing that this was not what I wanted.
I was arriving at the point where my body would have to be clawed off of a person
so furiously was I hurling fists.
I do not want to be touched.
(except, evidently, in that one case where there was a hand on my waist.)
--It wasn't the bare being touched.
I was in a crowded bar and people had to be touching me to pass locally by my body
to arrive wherever they wanted to arrive.
But this one person was backing into my hand specifically to touch me.
And I was arriving step by step at the point where I would be beating a human to
death.
(I felt this in me.)
If I was comporting justly with a gay man and in comporting he was putting hands on
me,
this would be fine. I would not complain.
But this one person in this bar was begging for destruction.
I don't know what prevented me from destroying him.
--Actually, that is me lying.
I didn't feel any inclination other than to continue to move my stool away from
that man's body.
But at some point I ran out of room to scoot my stool, and that man kept backing
into me.
Ho hum.
"I think you would be restrained before you could actually kill anyone."
Yes well. I am speaking about the spirit and not the outcome.
If I have arrived at the point where I am going to beat someone to death,
it makes little difference to me whether I succeed or not.
Or to say, it makes no difference to me at all whether I succeed or not.
If I have arrived bodily on top of a human with my fist raised in the air to land
it on the human's skull,
I have long ago abandoned concern with whether the action succeeds.
[
And I am bothering to explicate this observation because I have recognised
still when I go out in public there will arise circumstances where I want to raise
my fist.
I recognise truthfully and immediately that this is unacceptable.
So I am asking how I can rethink myself so that my fist does not even seem
plausibly raised.
]
Ho hum.
(I paid about 16$ downtown for beer,
and I think the text I have generated is worth more than 16$.
God help me if it was not.)
--
--I ended up in 'the Rhino' bar.
One of the bartenders who was there on the 4th of July when I tipped the peace
dollar
nodded at me as if recognising me as the person who tipped the peace dollar.
Wonderful.
Joyful to see.
--
--You know, hyper-sjws would call that man's behavior in Red's bar as sexual
assault against me.
Insisting implicitly that the behavior of rearing one's ass repeatedly into my hand
despite my cringing away
was an acceptable behavior.
--This is easy for me to say, because I am, even now, a relatively fit man.
Implicit in all of my behavior is absolutely no acceptance of intentional action
against my sovereignty.
I don't care what happens to my body so long as I can land fists against your
skull.
If I have really been offended I will kill you before people can stop me from
killing you.
If you have looked me in the eye and really understood the relation that obtains
between us
and you have proceeded to assault me
I will literally select the most optimal method for killing you bodily.
ANd I will either succeed or not but you
will be subject to the outcome of my succeeding or not.
You are relying, maybe, on a typical unwillingness to bare fists against your face.
But this was incorrect to rely on.
I don't care if the restraining methods people around us have to employ results in
me being dead.
I don't care if they have to kill me rather than pinning my limbs against the
ground.
If I have judged that you have required reprisal then you will be as close to dead
as my actions can possibly result.
I will make you as close to dead as I can before I am bodily prevented from
proceeding.
I don't care the weakness in my limbs.
It is only that
my staring at decorations did not constitute a signal for any given women
that I was a suitable subject for sexual advances.
Whereas practically staring at the decorations in the bar *was* an *apparent*
declaration
that I am a suitable subject for sexual advances from gay men.
(Because this practically entails not, say, staring at the cleavage of the women
around me bodily.)
[Though note:
I was looking at the decorations
because they were more interested than any of the plausible interactions
offered to me by the people around me.
I never witnessed any invitation for interaction with the people around me. Not
once.
So obviously interacting with them would have been extremely uninteresting
as it would not have resulted in interaction with them.
They did nothing that made their bodies anything other than bodies in my
evaluation.
So they were no more interesting to me than the decorations placed around the bar.
They were no more a locus for my attention than any of the decorations around the
bar
because they made no attempt at all to engage with me on any level.
I sat for an hour and for an hour human bodies flowed around me like the weather.
And none of them was more like a person to me than the decorations affixed to the
walls of the bar.
Then I went to the golden rose and I experienced the same thing.
Not a single one of them was more to me than the neon lights.
Not a single one of them behaved as if I was anything other than a fixture in their
environment.
--And it is the same with the young boy who was backing his ass into my hand.
He was treating me as a fixture of his environment
behavior against which might result in his own arousal.
For the same reason I am not going to stare at the bodies arrayed in front of me
without first treating with them as a person,
for that same reason it was illegitimate to be backing your ass against my hand
repeatedly.
(oh you silly boy.)
And whether I would be willing to touch any arbitrarily selected gay boy is
completely irrelevant here.
It was someone who was treating me as a fixture in the environment.
It was someone who had not begun to speak to me as a person,
but had taken my body as a locus of action.
(As when my body was the focus of the action of
continuing to back an ass against my hand.)
--Now I don't care if they have been fooled into believing this isn't assault.
I think they are wrong if they fail to observe this.
I think they are submitting themselves freely to assault if they
comport themselves in a way that requires me bodily to intrude on their personal
space to gain their attention.
I think if they meet someone at Red's bar who has obeyed the local etiquette,
they are submitting themselves to rape.
The way things proceed in Red's bar, the commonly accepted signals of interest,
are so perverse that to engage in them at all is to be
--I am unwilling to force myself into a woman's personal space even if it is the
locally accepted signal of interest.
So I am not going to pursue flirtation that involves forcing myself bodily on women
even if it is the locally accepted custom that this is the indication of interest.
I am not, say, going to sidle up next to a woman and put my hand on her waist while
talking at her.
"This is sad."
"I think what you would prefer is that the bar scene is an unending orgy."
No doubt.
But we can have our orgy until it is certain that no assault is even a plausible
outcome of the procession of events.
When we know for certain no one is going to violate us,
then we can allow freely people to touch and feel as they will.
--
--You know, with regards to the gay boy in Red's bar there are other interesting
circumstances in my life to adduce.
At one point in my past I was at a rave,
and there was a gay boy who decided to try to grind on my body.
And now I did not want, say, to beat this person to death.
And furthermore I did not want to say:
"I am going to ruin the rest of this rave for you."
I am hoping to inform anyone who touches me that I am not at all interested in that
anyone else is bodily touching me right now.
--Because I am at the rave, I am raving,
and if a gay man has mistaken me for someone who is interested in being touched by
him,
then well I take a step forward.
(Easy for me to say.
I don't feel compelled to take this as assault
because if it had been assault the assaulter would be broken and bleeding on the
ground.
When I indicated bodily at that rave that I was not interested in being touched,
well that man just ended up wandering off elsewhere.
And the rave proceeded as it would.
It was not interrupted by the spectacle of me bashing a human into the ground.
(As let me tell you.
I was quite fit.
(
I recall an averted brawl on saint patrick's day.
I just kept dancing and smiling, and defusing as best I could whatever tensions
were present,
and I rest assured that no one as drunk as this man is can possibly overcome my
balance.
But either way, I don't need to do anything other than continue to dance
in order to assure that I do not end up with my skull being pounded against the
ground.
But this is only true because, in that circumstance, I was a fit sober man
and the intimidator was a drunk idiot of short stature.
The worst case scenario that can arise here is not, ah, much worse than the best
case.
I am not, for instance, going to arrive with my skull against the ground.
He was picking a fight for no other reason than that he was very drunk and it was
saint patrick's day.
Or, he was picking a fight because I look the way I do. Whatever his reason.
It was obvious to all present that he was being a drunk idiot.
I knew it was obvious to all present that he was being a drunk idiot.
I knew that I had done nothing that justified violent glances in my direction.
I knew that if the circumstance turned violent
--Sometimes I can only justify myself in terms of the people I can beat up.
If me dancing as I will in a bar results in violent idiots directing violent looks
at me,
I can only justify myself by saying:
"You are wrong and you will be proven to be wrong no matter what you do."
"Even if you are not ultimately proven wrong,
it will be so costly to make the test that you will retroactively judge you were
unwilling to do it."
"Even if I am pinned down before I can kill you after you have begun to assault me
you will be so damaged that you will not retroactively judged that it was worth
executing violence against my body.
"
If I was a frail man, then a weaker body can have made demands on my actions.
But I am myself a few years ago, and the interlocutor is a drunk short not-
wellbuilt man.
They will restrain my body, but by the time they do your brain will be irreparably
damaged.
--That is the securing of my justice.
Knowing that is the inevitable outcome in that circumstance is
knowing that I can just keep dancing as I will.
I will have been restrained bodily with no injury to my body, and that will be the
resolution of the situation.
You will have had your skull pounded into the ground most vigorously.
That is why you don't try to continue your plan to make a fight with me bodily in
this bar, drunk idiot.
In the one moment I have bothered to look into your eyes you have seen I am not
scared at all,
and to not be scared at all is for me to be signalling:
"Try it.
Implicitly."
[I am not bragging.]
If I had said:
"Try it, bitch."
Then no one would be trying to talk you down bodily.
Easy peasy.
All it took was having the muscles accrued to my body by my daily activities as a
man with testosterone physically.
[Hmm?]
--
--You see my 17$ was well-spent downtown.
Oh the words I mined out of my experience.
--
--Why psycho-logicians should be taken skeptically:
(why we might think of psychology as being something other than a science:)
'invalid'
as when a psychologist claims to be qualified to declare other humans schizophrenic
and thereby invalidate all of the ideas they have constructed within their
position.
If there are a whole lot of depressed people around who are saying:
"The world in which we live is an unceasing horror."
THe psychologist implicitly feels qualified to declare:
"The world is not in fact an unceasing horror to wake up into.
If you think it is, then you are a depressive."
--So I can write ten thousand pages justifying my position that the world is an
unceasing horror,
and a psychologist can academically invalidate my ten thousand pages
with a few lines of text that say I am a schizophrenic?
Now I have fearfully observed that, while I do not think of myself this way, it is
a reasonable judgment of the text I have made
that I am making this kind of judgment about myself.
--Because specifically i say things like: "I made the Machine that resolves all
difficulties."
And in-story to have made the Machine is to have presented oneself as a messiah-
like figure.
--
--Ho hum.
Psychologists certain present an interesting point of delination for the
philosophers.
Then whereas they know it would have taken them many pages fully to dismantle the
position,
it took a psychologist a few seconds and a few lines.
(Like an academico-economic optimisation.)
--Though you know, buried somewhere deeply in my text, I have a defense even
against this.
"I am writing this because it amuses me to do so.
I construct complexity because the unravelling of complexity is what is most
amusing."
"no matter how insane the ramblings seem,
they were only made because
taken as an artifact they will amuse me immeasurably later."
The psychologist is simultaneously more easy to fool than the other academics
and also much more dangerous to have fallen in poor judgment.
--As when I have made a large text and begun to distribute it through the
libraries,
and the psychologists mechanically recommend that the text is remitted to the
flames and no longer read
because it was the product of a schizophrenic.
Then no disputation arises. No papers are generated.
If any paper is generated, it lumps me in with a broad categorsation of people very
unlike me.
(It would be the paper the psychologist makes in talking about how it resolved my
circumstance with chemicals or therapy.)
--
--In my own story I am Atlas or I am not.
I walk past men on the street who scream out at me that they are one day from
killing themselves.
So what?
When I take this seriously I am exhibiting depression?
When I say that the thing I have witnessed cris out to the high heavens,
I was being a depressive?
Because people who cry out to the high heavens for alteration
are the people who are depressive.
And well, the psychologist is not ever going to see *our* shared circumstance.
They are playing academic enforcer for the Order of the Dumpster.
often they are right but they are not punished when they are wrong.
--The psychologist absorbs the accepted notion of normality
and enforces this notion on all of the patients with whom he is presented.
--Now is it true that some people deviate so broadly from our agreed-upon normality
that they must be corrected?
Apparently.
We all apparently agreed that some among us deviate from our notions of normality
so broadly that they must be restrained.
--At least given this, it is preferable that they are corrected rather than
executed.
--Corrected rather than imprisoned, say.
--Apparently we agree that some people need to be taken into rooms and persuaded to
obey our normality.
--Having observed that I am correct and that I have made the Machine,
it is made significant that I avoid arriving in a room with a psychologist
who can force pills or therapy down my throat.
--
--
Boy, I dislike going out in public.
It is an unceasing torrent of uncertainties.
It is a constant indecision.
--
--
"You said outright that when that boy was backing into you
you 'felt within yourself' the inclination to commit violence."
--That, say, if I recognise that there is a stimulus (the person backing into me)
that should be bothering me greatly but doesn't,
this is because there is violence implicit in my body being anywhere.
Then I would not successfully have identified and extirpated the tendency towards
violence.
And now comparing the implausible story with the plausible one, I can reach some
interesting conclusions.
I do believe in the past that experiencing annoyance immediately put me into a
violent disposition.
I believe experiencing annoyance is no longer like this for me.
--You'll note there was a B storyline going on above, behind all of the wild
intimations of violence I was making.
The B storyline was my looking at decorations in the bar instead of the bodies of
women in front of me.
Now, many people in high school read Rand and became Randians,
but I read the Confessions and became a Manichean. (ha!)
So there were at least a few years there where I would be averting my gaze,
and the explanation I would provide for this is that it is best to avoid lusting
after people in my environment.
And that *could* still have been the story going on in the bar last night
behind why I was looking at decorations in the bar instead of these bodies.
But that is not the story. The story I told is the story.
At this point in my life, apparently, objects taken for lust are no more
interesting to me than decorations.
Or indeed, less interesting.
A human body is a lovely thing,
and it used to be so lovely that it overwhelmed my notions that people should be
treated as people instead of objects of lust.
Ho hum.
And despite the moralising that goes on on the internet,
in fact people do dress intentionally to direct eyes over the flow of their
clothing,
particularly in the downtown scene.
But I am thinking *persons* can perform this invitation, while clothing cannot do
it for them.
The weather doesn't ask me to look at it.
--Which is why we expended several lines observing that no one made any attempt to
communicate with me.
People have to look at faces to see intentions and so on, you know?
One girl looked at you and smiled,
and your immediate response of smiling back was foiled practically by your hand
placement."
I would not say of my strange gestures that they are leftover remnants of
awkwardness,
but I would say something like:
"A spare shared smile might be all it takes for me to arrive in someone's bed.
I have no notion! Knowing in advance I don't want this, I effect behaviors that
eliminate its possibility."
I have taken a lantern to every dark corner of my mind I could find and I am still
unsure here;
I can only imagine how lost all of you are in yourselves.]
[Oh boy, here I go self-aggrandising again.]
--
--
I suppose if China cashed in all its US debt, they could have 100% free renewable
electricity across the board,
smog-free air, clean rivers, what have you,
converting one paper dollar at a time into tangible assets.
Meanwhile in Britain,:
"British company, Innospec, made millions this year selling a dangerous chemical
linked to brain damage
and premature death to a developing country, despite repeatedly stating it would
stop",
the wealth rests on causing so much damage to the rest of the world
that, with numbers so large, an accounting trick can convert some portion of that
cost into wealth acquired.
--
--
I really need to acquire new glasses.
My eyes have degraded and the lenses on my current glass have had maddening
scratches in their center for years.
It is difficult to ascertain *why* this makes it harder for me to read and type,
because every time I look at a word I do not have difficulty focusing in on it.
But passing from one word to the next does require some extra effort than simply
moving my eyes,
and if I am scanning text to see, say, where my grammar compels me to look (as when
I am closing brackets, say)
, I am much slowed down or discouraged from sticking with my tecnicality.
--
--
Some post on reddit observing that lowering nicotine quantities in cigarettes makes
it easier to quit smoking.
However, for the two forms of tobacco I purchase, there is no way of discerning how
much nicotine they contain.
Having acquired rolling tobacco, I do not save it for those occasions where I am
using it to consume marijuana.
Now, I have smoked one cigarette today, and I feel little compulsion to smoke
another.
But I feel compelled to go purchase the next pouch for the adduced reason.
Then having purchased the pouch, I will arrive back into a swing of days where I
smoke 3-4 cigarettes a day.
--Anyway, I raise all of this because if I could discern which rolling tobacco held
the least nicotine
then I could begin to purchase that to aid in my unending quest to stop smoking.
But apparently this information is not publicly available.
--
--
I am thinking between the SolarDAO and a traditional investment fund for solar
energy.
One of the primary countries for installation of solar panels by the DAO is Israel.
Also, some eastern european countries where any investment there will be of dubious
legality.
Now, having selected a place like Israel as a plausible candidate for investment,
I would expect that the returns from the DAO are going to be higher than something
like wunder capital investments.
Additionally, there is some utility to having returns on investment delivered to an
anonymous wallet.
Now normally I would have to sit down and ask a great many moral questions before I
would be willing to support industry in Israel.
It is not at all clear to me that their project is legitimate.
But on the other hand, we aren't talking about financing a factory. We are instead
talking about financing solar panels.
--Now, okay, with wunder capital (the website of which I have open, because I have
thousands of dollars laying about)
I am imagining solar projects in rural America
where, okay, I might be supporting the electricity generation needs of people who
are flying confederate flags say,
but at least they are Americans and I have some faith at great length that the Feds
will ensure that they do nothing but fly flags.
--TO say,
I think the DAO being operated by Russians is plausibly unscrupulous.
(Particularly given the nations they have said will be the focus of their
investment.)
(
Not to say Israel is illegitimate, but
if I see a business that has ties to Israel, then I am beginning to ask moral
questions.
It takes me time to ask moral questions, and my time is valuable to me,
so trivially if I am going to expend large quantities of money
I am going to avoid Israeli products if it costs me little to do so.
I would rather not deal with the headache of delineating their legitimacy.
)
--I think that openly declaring that you are open for business in Israel
is likely to return more than market average returns on investment.
And this is most practically to say,
I think these Russians who have declared themselves open for business in Israel
will construct more solar panels than would be constructed by the US regulated
wunder capital.
I could have investigated Israel and been expecting of myself that I would judge
that it is not acceptable to do business with them.
But I might have been swayed, in that case, by the presentation of a greater profit
proposition by the Russians in question.
Then I would be lying to myself in order to make more money for myself.
(I am in a wonderful limbo.
I can talk and talk and talk about why I am unwilling to move my dollars in various
ways,
and dramatically I will be a human rotting away rather than moving them in any of
the various ways.
Increasingly it will be obvious that I should have made some decision by now.
--So in narrative I am in a very defensible position.
I have not even judged my own bank account as a legitimate moving of my dollars,
so why think I have illegitimate intent in questioning Israel? Or the Russians?
Or my own government? or any possible location where these dollars can end up.
But the moment I move beyond North America about whom I have a great deal of
specific knowledge,
the moment we move into the boarders of Europe say, or the moment there is any
target of investment in Africa,
or in that scary region of Asia where things are very scary for everyone daily,
I am not going to select a more profitable option outside of America, at any rate
until it is super optimal.
(As say,
if there was a project elsewhere that was installing a truly enormous quantity of
solar panels,
and it was India say or China doing it. Or Russia with a massive wind farm. What
have you.
Often I can trust their legality as much as I trust American legality.
I have available American contractors who are installing solar panels and in whom I
can invest.
I have available Russian contractors the credentials of which I do not doubt.
I think the Russian contractors will install more solar panels and return more
dividends.
But I don't think they will return so much more than the American contractors
that it is worth investigating whether the Russian contractors will return so much
more.
(As would be relevant to swaying my decision in favor of the Russian contractors.
If, say, there was 1% additional return from the Russians over the Americans,
that 1% additional return is not enough to justify the work I would have to do to
discern whether it is indeed 1% more return.
So I am weighing the two contractors against each other,
--I was pointing at a specific gain here.
--So now not only have I betaken myself to investigate the rate of return,
I have also betaken myself to investigating the moral questions surrounding where
they would be investing panels.
--I have betaken my time to investigate two things about where my dollars should
flow.
--I do not enjoy having my time betaken by discerning where my dollars will flow.
So having an American option that immediately negates the necessity of research
is specifically valuable to me.
(As say,
if I am told: "You are paying for the installation of solar in Georgia."
Wonderful. I hope they find it well.
If I am told:
"You are paying for the installation of solar in, uh, uh, some dubious place."
Ah. Now I am unsure.
--
--Though you know, it won't be that way in the future.
In the future everyone will have so much money lying around
that they will always be in a position actively to influence the progression of our
shared economy.
--As people would be doing, say, if they all had a great deal of money
and they were all spending it on renewable energy bonds because they agreed
that mass installation of renewable energy was best for the human project to
perform.
Or if everyone had a great deal of !access to our economy and many of them were
voting to retrofit the water piping system, for instance.
--Everyone will have a say in the investment options available.
[We will correctly evaluate the value of a human holding a position in society.
Easy peasy.
We still need the rocks.
We still need the industry that gathers them.
We still need the workers that work the tools.
We still need the managers that control bookkeeping.
--If you smash the looms you can still weave textiles.
But not nearly as well.
If you enjoy many of the things you have,
perhaps we should find a way to continue to make them as well as we do
while still respecting the value of human life.
--But then we also have to recognise that there *are* more optimal ways of
achieving our collective purposes.
So that a factory is not inherently oppressive, and being paid factory wages is not
*inherently* oppressive.
It always *happens* to be oppressive because our system grossly underprices the
value of a human life.
(It does not evaluate a human life as being so overwhelmingly valuable
that any plan that risks the death of a human is a no-go no matter how much money
it could make.)
If you wanted to design the best local operation of hospitals through the agency of
doctors,
you would throw money at them and let them decide what happens in the hospital.
Because there is literally no one better than they are at discerning what is best
to have happen in a hospital.
But installing an MRI into a given hospital in a given region is not a small
improvement in factory design.
It is a specific decision that a given region requires an MRI. That, say, it is
too expensive for people to drive to the next-nearest MRI machine.
When a union of doctors judges that an MRI machine is required,
this does not result in a revolution across all instances of hospitals.
The optimisation of a given hospital requires the operators of the hospital to have
funds adequate to make decisions like installing an MRI machine.
*An* optimisation of a factory requires the operators of the factory to be free to
discern improvements
and to have the resources necessary to demonstrate those improvements.
Most such improvements are going to be cheaper to fund than installing an MRI
machine, say.
--As if it is better to have a boardroom helmed by people paid collectively 2m$ per
year
than to have 2m$ worth of medical equipment.
Obviously it is not better to have maintained a boardroom than to have maintained
2m$ additional medical equipment.
But here we are.
--WIth 2m$ a hospital could hire several more doctors and a lot of equipment. Just
saying.
If hospitals frequently hosted 2m$ worth more of practicioners and equipment,
it would more frequently be a valuable proposition to open up a new hospital.
)
--
--I am making too many points to juggle here.
One among them is that the marketeers need to be starved of funds.
One way of starving them of funds is to be involved in managing solar assets rather
than financial instruments.
These people who are in the towers doing cocaine will be made homeless addicts on
the street.
The value they provide to the economy is negative at best.
--So equities!
--Because the people in the towers have political connections.
They will execute those political connections to further their purposes.
And there will be a breaking point where holding a stake in their positions will
have been unwise.
--But if you have equities in solar panels say,
well that's a pretty lengthy investment,
and no one is going to be destroying your solar panels.
Russian contractors.
Now, my political allegiances aren't very important here.
If the Russians are good people and only doing good things,
and if they install more solar panels,
then I am going to fund them.
I don't have a particular care that people in Alabama are being paid to install
panels.
I have a general care that Alabamans are Americans, and consequently I am freed
from moral considerations practically.
But if I am also freed from moral considerations in investing in the Russians, then
I will do that if it results in more panels installed.
I could have made a great deal of money putting all my bitcoin into having someone
else arrange hashrate contribution for ethereum on my behalf.
"Okay,
then it is because you heard that hashing operations were scams."
Yes, and if you are on the internet and not acquiring malware,
you need to be very aware of what the legitimate operations are.
So if I have been told a given operation is a scam, I am afeared to visit their
website.
So I don't, because there are other things I can be doing. Like managing those
funds on the exchange actively.
--So my judgment that rigs are things that are good to have made,
and obviously better to have made by-weight than a retail outlet say,
did not sway me to invest in the construction of rigs at a time that would have
more than returned my investment so that I would have more crypto-trophies now.
[
Ha:
crypto as a way of resisting machine intelligence.
]
Yes.
For the first 700$, first 1200$, first 3k$, it was still a game.
But at some point around the 3500$ mark I started to take it seriously.
Because at that point it was a significant contribution to being able to remain a
hermit.
At around 3500$ I was still playing the game but I was not treating it as a game.
I was still moving crypto around, but with the explicit intention that I would
extract the winnings and live on them.
--I was no longer concerned in maximising the number of my extraction from the
darknet as a game,
but I was concerned that I maintained enough dollars in the crypto market that I
could live off of them.
I would have ended up with more crypto holdings than I currently possess,
and there would be more rigs in the world.
--If I had not arrived at the point where the money was relevant to me beyond its
position in the game I was playing,
I would have more crypto holdings and the world would have more rigs.
--Or if hashing operations were obviously legitimate, maybe then I would have more
crypto holdings and more rigs in the world.
[[
Incidentally:
I am kind of thinking I would prefer to fund Russian or Indian or Chinese or what
have you solar projects
than to fund a solar project in Alabama.
--
--You know, it is not an insignificant observation here
that if I do fund a project in Israel through Russian contractors
there will be gold dust identically affixed to me that is falling on the roads of
nations between Russia and Israel.
Some of those streets on which my gold dust is being shed will be streets that
house terrorists.
To have been causally attached to gold dust found in the streets that housed
terrorists
is to be open to investigation by my United States Governance.
(If the Russian contractors had to take a bus down a few bare streets and the bus
bought gas,
and that gas station was owned by a terrorist,
and that terrorist used those funds to execute terror,
It is better!
Because I won't be arrested for doing it!
Both of the actions are most likely evil,
but only one of them prevents me from acquiring the desirable outcomes I desire.
--Though you know, if I had never intended to extract these dollars from the
market, I would feel less constrained.
Then I could just keep playing this game I was playing.
I would not expect that even if I was mechanically connected identically with
illegal operations
that I could be found out for having done it.
I do not think it is illegitimate for these Russian contractors to buy gas for
their bus
from someone who happened to have a bare economic connection to a terrorist
organisation twice removed.
I do not think the places they are constructing solar panels is illegitimate.
(Often, anyway.)
But the bare economic connections I am adducing are enough to implicate me in this
web of action
supposing I do ever extract the crypto from the market into my bank account.
(Insofar as to have established those connections
is to have accountants picking my name out of a database in reference
to people who have had economic ties to terrorism.)
{--Now you know, if America was always correct in its judgments of how accounting
ties to terrorism are to be handled,}
--It is a tricky point.
I think investing in equity in compute capacity is so valuable that
no matter the consequences related around it, unless they were very obviously
unacceptable,
will be justified once we have arrived at the Machine and can accurately reflect on
the actions that orchestrated its construction.
Not only was it necessary for me to have this computer actively to introduce the
Machine,
but also as an investment in equity it was the acquisition of possession of an
object that *itself*
had to have been invested in in order that the Machine was introduced.
Easy peasy.
And well done market,
there is a well-established and acceptable chain of custody for all the materials
involved in delivering this equity-baring object to my possession.
So I do not need to concern myself with whether some bare notion of legality is
being violated in delivering this object to me.
And the industry that produces this object happens also to be instrumental in the
introduction of the Machine.
To have been tied financially to the industry that produces the bare minimal
component of that super-computer
is to have been justified in your investment."
So if you treat my god in Tillich's pantheon as just another obsession with a way
of expending money,
you are proven wrong *not* because I disagree with you that it is an object in the
pantheon,
but because I disagree with you that all objects in the pantheon are equivalent.
And particularly I would say:
"The *idea* of a 'Machine'
precludes the possibility that all investment options are basically equivalent."
--Ho hum.)
and those industries that specialised in making supercars will be dirt poor and in
the streets."
[
A defense of Musk, as i strangely inevitably feel necessary to perform:
the price delta between a traditional car and the most obvious tesla
is more than accounted for by its containing a battery.
[[ANd to be religious:
the Machine will be powered by some electricity source that was provided by some
industry that provides electricity.
So.]]
--Given the available options for what equity is to be acquired by rich people,
it is preferable that they are buying batteries than that they are buying gas tanks
and engines.
[[And we are all our own rich people judging whether the equity assets we are
looking to acquire
constitute a yacht or don't.
--
--If my expectations for the Machine are correct,
ideologically it allows me to justify my actions more readily.
--Then if I ever have to engage with dollars in a way I do not deem acceptable,
I can gird my loins and say:
"Though my dollars appeared to be funding evil,
they were in fact effecting evil's most rapid destruction."
--Then I can stop questioning myself when I make a choice for how my crypto
holdings are to be expended.
And I can buy the computer and an apartment.
Easy peasy.
Will wearing the ring make me construct the Machine more optimally?
I think so.
It will not ever be implicated *explicitly* in my purposes as the computer will be,
but implicitly it will pass in and out of my vision and remind me of why I am doing
what I am doing.
--It will not be implicated *schematically* with the Machine, as my computer will
be.
(Insofar as my computer will physically be hosting me streaming
the streams that will return to me the crypto holdings necessary to maintain my
workshop.)
But when I look back and tell the story of why exactly from moment to moment things
proceeded as they did when I was on my way to make the Machine
I will be unable to explain that story without reference to the ring I was wearing
and looking at periodically.
--Oh, the kinds of decisions you have to make if you are going to take seriously
your own place in history.
--I suppose people think more than a few minutes a day about that question, so they
are better positioned than me to answer it.
The idea of spending the time necessary to utilise my crypto holdings to extricate
myself from this circumstance
I was not wanting forcibly to be made aware of the necessity of performing the
research behind acquiring an apartment,
but here we are.
So there are street names I have to look at and write down, prices,
crime rates, whether locals are klan members, and so on.
Yes.
I truly detest tedium.
But death is more tedious than anything.
So here we are.
text in papers,
it is best to arrive back in a position where I am a paper factory.
Or, it is justified to arrive back in such a position.
--
--I don't really want to maintain my voice anymore.
I know I am going to be scrubbing this text of grammatical inaccuracies.
I want to say:
"I am quite drunk and I've been drunk near every night for months."
"The things I am saying now do not maintain the grammatical structures I have
previously established.
Consequently I agree with you that they don't mean anything."
But the only person who will ever be reading this text, I acknowledge taking fully
seriously what I have seen,
is myself.
There is no real point in telling myself how I feel is there?
There is no point in breaking down here in the maintanence of my text
and revealing to the reader who will only ever be myself
what I am really feeling when I am typing out the text I am typing.
If I do that I will be unable to categorise my own discussion and then correct it,
as I will be doing in performing the annotations.
I will be unable to categorise it because my own true feelings are an incoherent
mess.
I will practically be unable to categorise whatever would flow as the true
expression of my feelings
because it will be an incoherent mess that does not bare analysis.
--So i arrive here and I find that I just want to break down at last.
But I do not know how to do this in text.
I do not know how to construct messages that constitute my breaking down.
--
--
My first komboloi, for which my current one was a replacement when it broke,
broke after far less and far less vigorous use.
And yet this one is priced the same as the first one I acquired.
--
--
--Also interesting:
when we step beyond the borders of the US and ask whether other nations are
acceptable loci of investment,
one of the measurements I might use is how closely they are allied with America.
--If foreign nations are closely allied with America, then my investments have the
same proxy-reasoning behind them as with American investment.
--
--The question is lingering of neo-confederates.
For you see, my lovely readers, after the confederacy surrendered
there was immediately a distributed network of neo-confederates in the borders of
the United States.
(This is, incidentally, why the USG should have executed a systematic campaign of
extermination. But I digress.)
They wore hoods and they funded their enterprise by being loci of investment.
So I am in a position much like, say, in the 50's as a man looking where to live.
If I move into a klan village, if I fail to do due dilligence and perform this
mistake,
then I am solidifying through my payments and my position the power of the neo-
confederacy.
--So this stands in strange contradiction to the observations I have been making
about American legality.
The whole point of American legality, from my current perspective,
was to take off my shoulders the cost of discerning whether I am dealing with bad
actors.
And similarly, if I were to invest abroad in businesses that have the American
stamp of approval,
I suppose there is an accountant somewhere working in coordination with government
officials to maintain the stamp of approval on that business.
I may still have lingering concerns over colonialism, but not all overseas ventures
of Americans constitute colonialism;
I am at least assured that the platter of investment loci arrayed in front of me
does not contain well-defined criminality.
If some of the loci arrayed in front of me constitute colonialism,
then well I don't put my money in them.
It is by this means that I take what little control i have over the progression of
the American enterprise.
To wit, there is a difference that the former of these will gradually improve as we
purify ourselves of racism as a society.
In the latter case, any apparent gains in public morality are the political staging
ground for executing sedition
in the hopes that our public morality can be taken many steps back.
"Uh. I'm not sure neo-confederates still exist in the sense you are outlining
above."
Hmm. I'm not so sure.
"I think maybe you have a lack of faith in the IRS, or the USG taken as a whole."
Yes, maybe so. On the one hand I have called the IRS the most powerful
organisation ever constructed,
but here I am doubting their capacity to coordinate with the FBI to ensure that no
funds are ever utilised by neo-confederates to purchase weaponry.
But I *know* the neo-confederates are purchasing weaponry, so what?
Am I trusting that the FBI has the flow of guns so on-lockdown in this country
that there can't be neo-confederate purposes executed through guns?
I know *that* isn't true either.
Hmm.
Well at any rate so long as there is a klan member who holds any position of
however little power in this country,
I have to perform investigations of my own before I perform investment.
The difference between having 1 klan member in a position of power and 0
is an enormous practical difference.
That 1 klan member in a position of power imposes a cost that is not, say, doubled
by having two klan members in positions of power.
It is the difference between a frictionless market and a befrictioned market. ]
--
--The American MO, so far as I am in a position to judge it, has been like this:
find a new market, find the people with whom we can form contracts,
and then enforce their positions in the market against all of the people around
them.
"Do you think the Russians are just morally better or something?"
Not particularly.
But having looked at the list of countries in which they plan to invest through the
DAO,
I don't think, for instance, that these investors will be able to call on the might
of the Russian military or police apparatuses
to ensure that their selected contractees will have their positions enforced.
So they have a strong motivation to select positioned contractees whom they can
expect to play along without threat of violence.
Whereas if an American contractor is abroad, I have absolutely no assurance that
what they are doing
does not implicitly entail explicit violence.
[And insofar as I can imagine the economy as an ocean the surface of which is
covered in waves,
solar panels are like wave harvesters.
I have a preference that waves in the market are funnelled into renewable energy
rather than bombs.
I have such a strong preference for this that I am willing to ignore whether the
procedures that generated solar panels might have involved
what the American Governance judges constitutes illegality.
Maybe.
"You know, you could just invest in an index fund and be done with it."
This is incorrect.
--It is *interesting*, among other things it is, that Raytheon offers 10% and
panels offer 8.5% return,
and consequently we immediately judge that fiduciary responsibility dictates
investing in Raytheon.
--I wonder what would happen if everyone all at once decided Raytheon was an
unacceptable monument to humanity's inhumanity,
and all at once sold it off wholesale.
Raytheon's price would plummit, the contracts it had formed on the basis of a
particular credit-worthiness would be invalidated,
and it would be unable to continue to produce weapons of mass destruction.
Okay, but having been lulled by our Governance into believing that every American
Company is acceptable,
we stopped asking questions about what our index funds were funding.
If explicitly funding solar panels returns 6% and index funds return 7%, then the
choice is easy.
Uh.
it would be like this if the marginal contribution to the solar panel market raised
the unitary price of additional investment
and this increase in additional price relative to its ROI encouraged other people
to exit the solar panel market.
But the solar panel market is not like this because there is an endless need for
additional electricity and the infrastructure that surrounds it.
Or, it is not like this because even if that adduced effect *did* exist (which I
suppose it must),
the increase in price of investment relative to its return will go up by such a
small amount that it will not actually displace anyone else from the RE market.
(Now if we were speaking about a market like in China where there is a massive
government push to invest in RE,
this effect might become so pronounced that it does displace people from the RE
market.
As, say, if the CP has selected all of the best places to install panels and reaped
all of them,
then, when citisens are considering investment, they have sub-optimal locations in
which to install panels.
Then the ROI is much lower, and perhaps so much lower that it displaces citisen
investment.
--And well this is not a bad problem to have.)
--
--"Oklahoma police chief outed as owner of racist website and white
supremacist record label"
That sherriff's town would have been emptied of everyone except klanners the moment
that sherriff was elected,
and then they would all starve to death because klanners are trashcan humans who
can't make anything of value by themselves.
--Though that presents other issues.
Recognising that they are completely helpless without the people who left in
disgust,
they might, ah, metastasize and try to repeat their mistake elsewhere.
Maybe better that everyone stays and shouts them down when they suggest a klanner
for sherriff.
--
--
If I receive no response, I may need to begin asking questions about how shadow-
bans operate,
and after asking those questions,
asking what a new name can be.
"Maybe you receive no response because they read your posts and did not want to
respond?"
Maybe, but that is why I specified that the posts are provocotive.
'pro-voco' here meaning that I expect that people reading them will feel inclined
to respond.
--
--
--
--
I think my responses to the redditors might have been overtuned towards brutality.
--
--Okay, beer sampling time.
--
--Deciding to carry around a peace dollar with me at all times puts a great weight
on me,
the judgments behind which I do not particularly care to enage in.
--And I don't even particularly want to think about my trips to the bar in terms of
the satisfaction they provide me!
I carry around the peace dollar as a symbolic gesture.
For some reason, carrying around a peace dollar makes me less anxious.
I cannot really explain why, though I could begin to tell you about what activities
this 83 year old coin must have gone through
to arrive in my hand this worn.
I don't have a reason for carrying it beyond whatever I would say once I began to
speak about it.
But evidently on some occasions it makes sense immediately to me to place it on
counters instead of into my pocket.
--But anyway none of those thoughts were actually entering my mind. I forgot I had
it until I extracted it just-recently from my pocket.
--
--Supposing we all take the system through which our dollars flow as legitimate
(which I do not),
then the conservative position is often correct.
Avacado toast is not a locus of attention for the reason idiots think it is,
but it is a locus of attention for much more complicated reasons.
There needs to be a distinction between luxury and necessity.
I have a convenient distinction: soylent is necessary and nothing else is.
If I consume anything other than soylent it is because I am indulging in a luxury.
(unless I can construct a cheaper method for supplying my body with the same
quantities of minerals and so on.)
Hipster millenials who consume avacado toast as their own constructed notion of
rebellion, or who do it because they want to take a picture of it and post it to
instagram,
or who cannot bemuse themselves except daily to consume avacado toast,
they are misunderstanding the conservative position.
--No one was in a position to engage in luxury beyond what was truly in-story
optimal for them.
Our predecessors engaged in luxury far beyond what was justified.
Eating avacado toast and saying: "Well they ate cake, so why can't I eat cake?"
is a betrayal of the revolution.
You made a *gross* mistake unless that avacado toast was really life-fulfilling for
you.
"There are a whole lot of rich people from whom we can expropriate enormous
quantities of dollars,
so consuming avacado toast is an act of rebellion."
And if we stole all the dollars from Gates and Bezos and so on,
what would we be able to do?
If there were 0$ in bank accounts instead of 200 billion$,
what would we be able to do?
Would people become enormously more productive?
Could we achieve our purposes more rapidly if we expropriated those numbers from
one position in the ledger to another?
No. We would experience inflation. We would find prices rising to counteract the
immediate flood of dollars into the market.
Gates isn't more rich because his bank account has a higher number in it;
Gates is more rich because he can transfer numbers out of that account and
simultaneously effect projects.
But similarly, wasting away your effective capacity buying avacado toast instead of
solar panels
is constructing a world in front of your very own eyes that can more optimally
provide you with avacado toast
instead of a world that can more optimally produce solar panels.
No one should be eating avacado toast except the people who live around avacado
farms.
There should not be transport ships belabored with the expensive task of delivering
unbruised avacados to local markets outside of where they are grown.
It is not good that the economy optimises itself around deliverance of avacados to
Australia.
It is *bad* that the economy optimises itself around deliverance of avacados to
Australia.
And if people are so stupid as to pay 10$ for avacado toast,
then indeed they do not deserve houses.
If they are going to insist on such a dramatically inefficient market,
they do not deserve to be able to afford a house in-stead of avacado toast.
Okay?
You *can* say:
"I am a hipster Australian, goddamnit,
and it makes sense that I can arrive in a restaurant and buy avacado toast."
They could have been becoming wealthy, from their initial positions,
in the acquisition of an increasingly large number of solar shards.
Instead they became wealthy in pictures they posted to instagram
and shit they shat out into toilets.
And some fleeting taste sensations, okay.
But you can't *completely* ignore what it is best for you to be doing
and then imagine that the system as a whole will compensate for your complete
failure to judge wisely what you should do.
The human project does not succeed if every human demands avacado toast at midday
every day.
And there is nothing that makes you better than the mass of humanity who cannot
request avacado toast every midday.
If we restructured our economy around Mexicans maximising avacado output,
if we rerouted all of our transport routes and all of our industry to arrive
avacado toast on the plate of every human,
all of society would collapse.
We would all starve to death or die of disease.
"But our predecessors left us a shitty economy. They didn't even try their best."
No doubt.
But this is not license for you to remain a peter pan forever.
Eventually *YOU* have to judge what is best.
And if you are seriously evaluating how things are,
you will not say that what is best is to spend 10$ on toast instead of solar panel
installations.
Eventually you have to stop judging your actions by the ridiculous metrics
established by your predecessors
and *really* judge what is best for you to do.
If you think it is acceptable to expend the remainder of your life eating soma,
fine.
If you think there are better outcomes than a field of deadheads eating soma,
then you have at some point to stop requesting the import of soma for your own
benefit.
If people drank creamed coffee because the picture they could take of it for
instagram was worth something to them,
let me tell you that picture was worth nothing and less than nothing.
(No matter how much instagram ended up being worth.)
Eventually our economy will obey Hayek and you will all be ruined.
And I will rejoice.
I will express joy when you are all on the street.
Your avacado toast is feces excreted from your anus.
Organising your economy around generating feces and pictures of feces
is not a good way of organising your economy.
You deserve to be ruined for doing it.
Most people are too stupid optimally to execute the positions into which they were
born.
But solar panels and compute capacity present *obvious* avenues through which one
can remain wise.
To have forsaken these *obviously* more wise paths for the creation of a particular
brand of feces
is not to have deserved the position into which you were born.
And well, what was immediately obvious to people in the American market
was to acquire index funds.
Spare satoshis from this index fund fuelled bomb-making by Ratheon.
There are humans who are dead because Americans purchased index funds.
Our predecessors were infants and they purchased endless useless electronic devices
to amuse themselves.
They purchased muscle cars to amuse themselves, and guns, and mcmansions and so on.
What they did, qua infants, bears absolutely no weight on our own decisions.
{As if every person prior to us was developmentally disabled.}
There is at least *one thing* that is not feces, and it is computers and solar
panels.
And the system our predecessors developed for constructing towers of feces
is also effective at constructing computation and solar panels.
So while we have no use in directing the system to construct the kinds of things
our predecessors constructed,
viz. towers of feces,
we do have a use in directing the system to construct compute capacity and solar
panels.
So while the towers of feces our predecessors constructed are worth absolutely
nothing,
the system they constructed to *create* towers of feces
is *extremely* valuable.
And if we destroy the system, we will no longer have *that incomprehensible degree
of capacity* to generate solar panels and compute capacity.
*We at this point know that we must generate endless fields of solar panels.*
We know that if we do not do this we will every single last one of us die.
We cannot all survive if we do not adopt the system that is present before us and
optimise towards *our purposes* instead of the purposes of dollars.
We will be waging war on each other and not making solar panels.
Then we will literally every last one of us die.)
--So the revolution has to coopt the machinery of the current system
and it *obviously* cannot completely dismantle it into dust.
We cannot destroy the looms.
The looms are serving as a metaphor for an incredibly complex network of material
manipulation for the production of commodities.
The looms include the organisational networks that coordinate human activity to
produce those obviously necessary commodities.
--So if we behead every manager,
those corporations collapse and gone with them is all the knowledge concerning how
actually to produce the creation of solar panels.
Now I do not want to cast moral judgment here on your decision to behead every
manager,
but if you do this you will simultaneously be destroying the whole program encoded
into the code of the loom that produces the textiles you want.
We will either coopt the current system and bend it towards our salvation,
or we will literally die.
There is absolutely no alternative.
--If the system is destroyed, there will be relative chaos for maybe a hundred
years.
As borders reallign and there are periodic raids on cities, say, in the ensuing
chaos.
There is a path towards our salvation but it requires optimal harnessing of the
machinery that is already in place.
If you destroy the machinery in your zealous effort to extricate systems of
domination,
you will in fact have the trigger pulled.
You will die and also everyone else will die.
I agree they are paid too much, but I do not agree that they should be paid
nothing.
Their bodies and brains are capital, much like also all of our bodies and brains
are capital.
If we are trying to discern optimally how to resolve our pistol against our head,
then we need to discern how optimally to use what is already present before us.
Everyone who does not agree to assist us and whom we zealously therefore remove
from decision making
is part of the loom we have destroyed.
And with a diminished loom, we will not be able to resolve the problem that is the
pistol against our collective skull.
Everyone will be best submitting to optimal navigating of this ship that ends up
constructing the Machine.
Because everyone will have agreed:
"There was arrayed before us a system.
THere is only one true revolution:
the revolution that optimally maximises what we have already constructed
in order to effect the revolution."
Then people will be taking seriously their own position in our almighty web of
human interaction,
and they will be agreeing with us that they are optimally effecting the
revolution.re-
Eventually pursuring this course for the human project will make the bare minimum
human position extremely well off.
Because even if no one wants to discern how infinitely to manipulate chemistry
when a few people are paid infinitely to manipulate chemistry,
the --
---
---
---
You know, not all of us have had good experiences with people.
To say:
"You have an irrational fear of the way other people are behaving"
I have had very few pleasurable encounters with people in my entire life.
Relative to the number of human encounters I have had, a great most of them were
unpleasurable.
In my own understanding of the way humans are,
to begin to present a behavior is to be being shut down by humans in the
environment.
Then later it was saying anything among people say in my high school.
I recognised that saying anything was what was resulted in being shut-down.
So well,
being so accustomed to shutting myself down
because I learned to be unaccustomed to be being beaten by my brother
it was easy to proceed into a position where I didn't say anything in public.
It was easy to recognise the avenues through which I was being shut down vocally
and avoiding arriving at such avenues.
[It was also easy to imagine beating my brother to death.]
[I recall, don't judge me now.]
[I could not, you know, exhibit at any given instance that I could imagine how to
beat my brother to death.
--
--Okay, so you see the ridiculous story that trails in my wake
and by reference to which I must justify myself in public.
The only thing that is relevant is my relationship with the people in the bar."
I have come to terms with my past and I have dismissed it as irrelevant for the
informing of my purposes.
What did or didn't happen in my past is irrelevant in the informing of my future.
What is relevant is what I can best do.
--
--
The extraction of my crypto can, in its specific day of being done, be made useful.
So if there is any question, say, between whether I actually acquired all these
crypto holdings I happen to have had,
or whether I am going to expend this crypto holding on illegality,
it is resolved by me transmitting 2.5-3k$ into my bank account and then spending it
on a computer.
All of the IRS' questions are already answered by performing this behavior.
My tax trail is readily specified by performing this behavior.
While I was busy analysing the various ways I could move these crypto holdings,
I had already moved them to Coinbase.
While I was still questioning myself what the moral selection was,
I had already made practically a selection that was moral or not.
Noting that I was myself required to submit my identity to Coinbase to utilise its
services,
I am aware that others who gained !access to Coinbase had been compelled to reveal
their specific identities.
So I am aware that investigators employed by Governance can observe all the
gathered data
and on average often enough to judge that legality has been achieved that they will
not imprison me for my investment.
(HARR.!)
There is a child pornography ring that was destroyed by the data gathered from
Coinbase. I certify. (guarauantee?
I still cannot spell this goddamned word. I *cannot*, after all this time, tell
you how to spell guarantee.''
I am unceasingly confused by this deficit in my capacity to spell words.
I can spell word after word, but when presented with 'guarantee' I just simply
cannot ever retain the capacity to spell that word.
I can spell word after word, let me recite my thesaurus, but I cannot figure out
how to memorise the spelling of 'guarantee.'
Ho hum.)
10k$ in my bank account does nothing, but being stored on Coinbase it destroys a
paedophilia ring.
(I certify.)
--So Coinbase was an acceptable investment to have been maintaining
while contemplating what was an acceptable way to move the crypto currency.
(If the IRS audits me,
I am not concerned that I held a lot of crypto-trophies in Coinbase's vaults for a
period of time.)
--When I was free of concern with where my crypto-holdings were being held,
I was free to consider unhindered where they might proceed.
(As when, for instance,
I held them in Coinbase and felt myself unhindered from considering the question of
where they might proceed.)
(As when, actually.)
(Oh boy, I didn't type down all those words that just proceeded through my head.
--
--
Probably I should spend some time examining the true story of what went down at the
bar.
But that makes me shy and unwilling to deconstruct my actual previous
circumstances.
I don't have a phone. I don't want to have a phone on my person at all times, and
particularly not a smart phone.
So there is this intermediate juncture that can't serve as a societal intermediary:
people can't ask me for my phone number, and I can't ask them for theirs.
Now ------
oh boy, forgive my embarassment.
Because for it ever to proceed past flirting in the bar, practically societally,
numbers would have to be exchanged.
But I do not have a number and I have no useful mechanism for accepting numbers.
--So practically societally, if flirting was in fact occurring and things were
uhhhhh
either we go to one bed or we go to two and never see each other again.
Because there is not a mechanism to contact me after I have left your immediate
vicinity.
(unless, say, I return on some pre-established schedule
and you are there also.)
Because there is not available the typical procedure of, you know,
casually sharing numbers so as to discern whether you are interested or not, as
people do.
I cannot imply:
"Here is a method for contacting me"
or seriously accept:
"Here is a method for contacting me"
because I don't have a phone and I'm not going to get one.
They might be very useful objects but I never want to become addicted to the
utilisation of a phone.
So I am not ever going to keep one in my pocket that I can remove regularly and
stare at.
So I am not going to have a number !access to which allows that you can contact me.
And I do not have a device that can accept as input a number and allow !access to
contact you.
So whether there was any magic happening between myself and the bartender or not,
that was not an engagement that can give rise to anything beyond what was happening
then and there.
So I took carefully moment by moment all the moments of our interaction, along with
everyone else in the bar,
and that was the night.
By saying:
"Even though we can all agree flirtation was occurring,
it is completely irrelevant to the judgment at hand
because we are being cut off at the pass."
"At the pass we observe that I cannot invite someone back to my place, I don't have
a phone,
and my interests are nothing except whatever is directly in front of me."
--Then we do not have to unload all of the images that are in my short-term memory.
I *could* reconstruct most of the apparently relevant events that occurred over the
course of my night
with pretty secure fidelity to what actually happened so as to inform my
interpretation.
((And you see why I was declaring embarassment at the notion of unpacking all of
this.))
--I think supposing that someone would flirt with me is an untoward mistake on my
part.
I think if I am arriving at such a conclusion probably I am making a gross mistake.
Supposing flirtation is occurring, the supposition of it, is grounds for me to
correct my notion of how my interactions are proceeding.
To have arrived in a position where I think flirtation is occurring
is to have been making mistakes in the way I am thinking,
so that I revise my interpretations of how I am relative to others until I no
longer interpret those actions as flirtation.
--
--But there are other difficulties here.
If I accept the notion that flirtation was occurring,
then I am supposing for another person what she was feeling.
Then I am, for instance, describing of her that she was affixing a particular
interpretation to a commonly shared experience between us.
--
--Now I agree, this places a tremendously high bar for flirtation with my person.
What I will ever consider as flirtation ends up being basically a woman grabbing me
by the collar and saying:
"So? Yes?"
And short of that I will say it was not flirtation.
I will say:
"Compared to the completion of the project,
I am willing to remain ignorant of every last thing that does not enable optimal
execution of the project."
Now my muscle memory remains the same, and a few characteristic behaviors issue
from the bare maintanence of muscle memory.
Now I have told a story that is contradicted by my muscle memory,
and being presented by the actions that issued from my muscle memory I have been
confused into agreeing:
"It is so; the old story is true."
"So you are willing to recant the execution of the Machine and join peacefully with
the present understanding of things?"
No.
Mine is a special case.
I made the Machine and it is not merely a question here of how my own life proceeds
anymore.
Whereas typically one should feel free to reject old stories,
my old story is the construction of the Machine.
Your old story is being a shutin-NEET say, or whoever you were before you arrived
in the bar,
but the story *I* am referencing is the successful conception of the Machine.
So when my old story makes plausible at bare-end:
"No one was flirting with you."
Or:
"Even if,
it would be too costly to interpret accurately
in terms of the time that could otherwise be expended typing in a notepad
instance."
--And I am right.
There is no point in being modest if doing so misleads me from the truth.
The truth is the Machine being instantiated in a computer.
Maybe I say:
"The ways forward presented by my circumstances are so lovely
that it is better just to consider them on their own
than to consider them in terms of whether I need to arrive back in a chair to
continue typing notes."
"The difficulty here is that the bartender was not flirting with you
and consequently all of this reasoning is completely in vain."
"So if you delved into your judgments concerning the way things were if flirtation
was occurring
then you are assuming a creepy pretense for another what she felt in response to
your shared circumstance."
Yes.
And the sin that would be involved in being wrong here is so egregious
that it is preferable {not even to live}
not even to live in such a way that it can become relevant that one was incorrect.
I would be saying things about our relation between each other that, if we were not
obtaining the flirtation relation in retrospect,
would be involving someone else in an inappropriate fantasy I had constructed in my
head completely independently of how things actually proceeded.
(And having so frequently observed myself incorrect in retrospect,
I am not all that inclined to arrive again in circumstances where I will be
interpreting in retrospect.)
--
--There is something implicit to speaking to an interlocutor that is taken as 'the
everyone who is not me'
where you are implicitly taking people as being, you know, people with yourself.
If you say something that obviously treats a person as something other than the
other between yourself and the other,
then in *saying this* to an interlocutor,
you will end up agreeing that you had done something wrong.
I do not see within the immediate future that it will interest me to regulate my
body as obtaining a position relative to a story.
Whether I happen to be what I am seen as being when I venture out in public
does not concern me.
Whether I have sent a signal with my dress but not been meaning that signal,
does not concern me.
I do not *care*. I never executing *caring* towards the purpose of aligning my
array of clothing with the signal it will be taken as sending.
--
--But this is all, all of the preceding, an implausible story.
I was not, say, dumbfounded,
and I was not pulling veils out of my pocket to place over my head.
--I did what I take in retrospect as at least an attempt at flirting back.
At least, being receptive to flirtation.
What I was doing was something other than continued openness to flirtation.
--having found my story implausible, what is the new story I am telling?
Having found the 'open to flirtation' story an implausible story to be telling,
what is the correct story to have been telling?
I am telling a story of how I walked into a bar and had a pleasant chat with the
bartender while drinking a few beers.
Lovely.
I am telling some other story that preserves all of the relevant story-elements but
isn't obviously false.
It is extremely embarassing to be me, let me tell you as the driver of my body out
in public.
But insofar as I must reference the progression of my own story in order to justify
future actions,
I will be judging of the progression of my story that it did not include a sequence
of time that involve flirtation.
--I will be looking back on this sequence of events and saying of it whatever I do
say,
and I won't be saying it was an example of flirtation.
Which is why we are here typing instead of being elsewhere. Among many reasons.
--
--
While they were speaking I was aligning the junctures in the movement of the
komboloi
to the cadence of their speech and the impact their speech had in the progression
of their sentences.
I think if people recognised that I was doing this while listening to them speak
they would become extremely uncomfortable.
(At least, if it is there to be recognised that I am doing this,
then they would be in a position to recognise it;
and having been so positioned, they might recognise it;
and having recognised it, I think they would become profoundly uncomfortable.
They might then become aware how engrained they are into a community of speakers
and unable, even when they think they are being themselves, to escape the patterns
that were imprinted into them by others.
Or they might become aware that the junctures in their sentences were already
established before they got to them,
and that they are implicitly shaping their meaning around the preestablished
patterns in sentence structure.
--
--
"
There is something implicit to speaking to an interlocutor that is taken as 'the
everyone who is not me'
where you are implicitly taking people as being, you know, people with yourself.
If you say something that obviously treats a person as something other than the
other between yourself and the other,
then in *saying this* to an interlocutor,
you will end up agreeing that you had done something wrong.
Whether I can proceed to type without interrupting myself to explain why I have
strained their credulity
depends on my evaluation of their credulity.
--or better, whether I *do* continue to type without interrupting myself depends on
my understanding of my interlocutor's credulity.
And this is practically to say that while someone's notion of his interlocutor's
sense of credulity is typically understood by implicit reference to one's own
person,
I have not maintained a person i can reference and by reference to which I can
outline the limits of an interlocutor's credulity.
--
--Related to these observations is my above-rant concerning how truth is what
results in the introduction of the Machine into a computer.
If we take 'the Machine' as being a metaphor for what we are all always-already
introducing,
this rant remains interesting to consider.
This is more or similarly true if I explicitly state the story in my head and
select actions by reference to it,
instead of freely allowing myself to flow through the situation with those around
me.
--As if I had watched all of the bartender's actions and systematically categorised
them in terms of
what language-game role they served in our flirtatious interaction
[though blessedly, I don't do this anymore].
--
--
I need to stay sober for a few days then go into the optometrist.
I may end up judging that what is justified is that my computer does not contain a
vega
but rather that it contains a used rx570;
and not an r7 1800x, but an r3 whatever.
(This kind of thriftiness is clouded by that
rx570s probably still only cost a little less than a vega in a pack.)
I may judge that instead of optimising around my lust for compute capacity,
I should be optimising around the specific purposes i intend to execute.
Particularly I may judge this if I add up all of the costs I must pay before
leaving here
and it is a high cost.
Clear vision, for instance, is more important than being able to stream a tryhard
playthrough of DS3 as planned.
--Well it's a numerical puzzle.
I have not really thought it through.
"If you go cheap now, you are already a year or two behind the curve,
and you will be needing to replace the components more rapidly and therefore be
expending more money later."
--But even this kind of evaluation is not what is most important here.
The minimum amount of compute capacity I need is what is necessary to stream myself
playing the cello and typing
and to perform some very light sound and video editing.
The amount of compute capacity necessary to perform this does not increase
dramatically over time,
and so it will be a long time before the bare requirements of running an OS and
editing software will overwhelm the compute capacity I have.
--
--
Even though my accounting for my bar trip may have made it seen unpleasant
(even though I explicitly stated that it was quite pleasant),
it was not unpleasant.
One of the bartenders made a shot, missed, and the trash [a single straw, in this
case] ended up on the bar in front of the adduced man.
The bartender apologised,
--In the past I would have been so swept up in maintaining amicability that I might
have smiled at him and nodded
in hopes that this would prevent him from saying anything more to me.
But in this case I was swept up (we might storytell here) in maintaining the much
more obvious and true amicability of the situation
which would have been damaged by engaging in this kind of vain speech with the man
sitting next to me.
--
--A funny anecdote from the bar:
three men at a later point in the night from the above stories
were sitting to my right down the length of the bar
cornered from my own position.
(The bar took a corner into a long straight line,
and they were seated along the long straight line.)
And I said:
"Are you sure you want to take that gamble?"
as he proceeded to hold it in such a way to indicate that he was shortly to drop
it.
I tried to fix it, but there was no obvious mechanism through which
the sim card appeared to be able to be affixed to its tray that would subsequently
be slid into the phone.
Funny stuff.
--
--
It is so.
But if this one breaks, my attachment will prove not to be to *it*, as I will not
be saddened beyond
the necessity of ordering an additional instance of it that takes the same form.
--
--
--I am wondering if there are maybe casuist methods for getting around the moral
concerns I have
with regards to the conjuring of images in my mind's eye.
No doubt there are--I am very clever.
--I was lying in bed conjuring the image of the bartender;
I couldn't bring myself to follow through on it.
Not, say, because that image wouldn't have worked. Oh, it would have.
Then I pulled up an array of faces in my mind's eye and one by one reached the same
conclusion
that I was not able to bring myself to follow through.
--Probably I've resolved this problem during some previous typing session.
I don't go back and reread beyond the previous day's writings, so I don't know and
I won't know
until I arrive back at that point during the annotations.
--Having not rejected that the insights of psychology are often useful
insofar as certain of our story-bound actions utilise particular mechanisms in the
psyche and douse us in the resulting neuro-transmitters,
I wonder if masturbating to myself masturbating is more or less damaging than
involving non-volunteers in sexual imagery with my image-constructed body in my
mind's eye.
--If either would be inflicting psychological damage, I wonder which, or which
more.
--Vallicella once observed that if one is not ever going to get married then the
only option is sex with oneself if there is to be sex at all.
And this was one of the rare occasions on which he was not ranting about Librulslol
so, it might have had some merit to it.
(Not to be agreeing with him that a literal marriage ceremony has to occur in order
for sexual relations to be justified.
It is only that I recognise he adopts a very stringent view here,
so if despite that stringency he made this observation
probably it holds relevant for less stringent positions.
I think we would get along well interpersonally if he did not observe practically
that I am very left apparently.
He plays chess and smokes cigars to flip the bird to moralising crusaders.)
--'psychologically damaging'
If I am going to make such a claim, it is because I am pointing out a difference
between masturbation and having sex with oneself.
I would persist in making this distinction even if we were observing most examples
of sex out in the wild, I think.
I would suggest that most examples of sex people engage in are just very intricate
methods for masturbating.
Hmm.
Well but anyway,
if there is a real distinction here that I am making,
it might rewire one's relation to the sexual act in an unfortunate way
if it came really to be associated with oneself instead of others.
I am wondering whether I will no longer be able to become attuned with other people
in a real sexual encounter.
--I would be similarly concerned if I was busy masturbating all the time.
'similarly' I would be concerned that I could not sexually approach other people
without the intention of masturbating myself with them.
and with such a dearth of sincere engagements I suspect even less that I will
arrive in any sexual encounters.
--
--
There is a bundle deal on new-egg that contains nearly all of the components I will
need,
offers a 50$ discount for ordering as a bundle,
and does not lock me in to an expensive monitor.
I am going to play one singular game, DS3, then probably I am not going to play a
video game again.
I think almost certainly the components in the bundle at which I am looking will
serve the purpose.
And it costs about a thousand dollars less than acquiring a vega pack.
Despite glorious efforts to convince myself to acquire expensive compute capacity,
I have failed. I'll buy the cheap, durable, and adequate option.
Very little of the 'aiding the progression of the computation industry' will be
lost.
It is good that the remaining pre-vega cards are snatched up as they become
available.
Then other people will not have the option to acquire them,
they will not have engaged in moral reasoning so they won't care particularly which
they acquire,
and they will acquire vega;
then there will be the critical mass of consumption necessary to instigate driver
optimisation.
If vega 56 drops before I can begird myself to make a substantial purchase with my
crypto-holdings,
I might change my mind.
150$ might be worth paying for the difference between 570 and vega 56 even if I
have no intention of utilising it fully.
But I do not expect there will be vega 56 on the market for more than a few minutes
after it is introduced anyway,
and while I am able to monitor the release details and stare at their postings
so as to be there in the first few minutes,
I don't particularly want to do this.
"You could wait a few months for when the market is adequately saturated, so that
it is easy to acquire the card."
--
--I think probably I will begin a subscription to Elysium when I move out.
Judging by my own self, I think the ring might not be enough alone to satisfy my
chemical addiction.
Even if it was a placebo, which I take it not to be, I would be saving myself money
in satisfying my chemical addiction.
Add in to this the newfound capacity to hold marijuana without consuming it all in
a few nights,
and we have a potent money-saving avenue.
Daily I will be consuming a pill that claims to extend and improve my life,
and consequently daily I will be mindfully drawn back to the observation that
the sum total of all of my purposes are directed towards granting myself eternal
life.
Like a sacrament of sorts, except it costs (I am seeing) 480$ per year instead of
10% of my income.
I will be coming off of my endless hangover in which I am currently and have been
engaged,
I will be attributing the benefits of coming off the hangover to the Elysium I
purchased,
and all will be going pretty groovy.
--Notably, all of this reasoning is similar to why I am willing to buy a 150$ ring.
Funding an artisan, lovely.
Reducing daily plausibility of consuming chemicals, lovely.
Saving money on the adduced chemicals, lovely.
--I am thinking once I have left here it will be much easier to quit nicotine.
Even over the course of a day here I can recognise the junctures at which cravings
for cigarettes intensify.
And I can recognise that removing those junctures completely from this location and
into another
will have the effect of shaking up the craving-generation.
And since I will be in some rural backwoods area and the nearest liquor store will
be miles-by-roadbike away,
I will just stay home and not drink.
"You will have 1.75 liters of gin at-hand for when you consume marijuana."
Okay, but having 1.75 liters of gin is not the same thing as
having established an explicit and readily performed procedure of acquiring the
next instance of 1.75 liters of gin.
As when, say, I enter my car at 11:PM on the dot and drive to the liquor store,
park in the same spot or one near it, walk down the same path from my door from the
same spot
to the door of the liquor store,
maneuver between the unchanging display islands in the liquor store,
grasp the bottle of gin while twirling my komboloi,
stand at the register...
--
--Notably, these considerations invalidate what might otherwise have been a valid
complaint:
"You seem to be committing no concern at all to where actually you will live."
Indeed! I don't really care.
I don't need to research schools, for instance, because I don't have children.
I don't need to research local amusements because
I am already planning that all of my amusements will be in my apartment.
I don't need to research local supply chains,
because the only thing I will be buying is food, if that.
(I will have, probably, to pick up some rudimentary bike maintanence skills.
It is a benefit of having many people in one location who ride bikes but have no
understanding of how to maintain them
that there are several shops nearby that can service bikes.
But I do not expect that the place I end up living will have many avid bicyclists.)
'local amusements' this is a very broad dismissal of the offerings of the market,
so probably I should have put more semantic work into it.
I don't care whether there are local bars, say. Or whether there are local
restaurants.
Given that there are local restaurants, I don't care what they are.
It might be useful to arrive in a location where I can take local gigs a few months
in with my cello,
but it is not worth paying 200$ additional dollars a month, say, for such a
location,
because playing cello does not pay 200$ additional per month. Performing gigs does
not pay for itself,
and I am not arriving wherever I arrive to perform gigs.
It would be nice if there was a local music scene that justified itself
economically
by having a symphony that pays, or local gigs that pay,
but there is no such location in which I can afford to live.
Notably this raises the same kind of question I was finding myself asked in
college:
"Why bother to maintain and develop skill on an instrument
if you are only ever going to utilise this skill to practise more and more complex
examples of technical studies?"
There are many reasons, and none of them are 'being paid to do so'.
--At any rate, if there was any location in the United States where
payment from engagement with the local music scene paid for the increase price in
rent
that would attend there being a local music scene,
The only acceptable stories to people who ask that kind of question
are answers veiled in jadism and complete resignation.
"I work for a corporation, am I right?"
"I do some next-shitty thing engagement in which provides for me absolutely no
interest."
"To justify myself in front of you,
I must submit that I enjoy my daily life even less than you do.")
--
--With regards to whether flirtation was occurring in the bar last night.:
--
--Oh boy, in the next two years or so I am going to solve everything.
Are you excited?
I feel the stirrings of excitement that should typically bloom into full-blown
physiological excitement.
(Frustrated in its blooming by temporally localised over-{abuse}consumption of
chemicals.)
--
--The ideal of gin is that its taste is so strong that
eventually you can obtain all of the placebo effect you expect and have established
from its overconsumption
despite only taking a sip of it.
The ideal of gin is that you can become accustomed to drinking shots of it,
and then proceed to become accustomed to taking sips of it
without any loss of benefit from having consumed it.
Then at that ideal juncture you can become drunk off of a few sips
instead of 20 or so consecutive shots.
(With it having been established that being drunk is objectively better than being
sober.
Or else you wouldn't have been drinking gin to begin with.)
--
--Two more observations explicitly for later analysis:
1:
My dog just moved away.
My dog has been in my environment for a long period of time,
and I have become accustomed to altering the placement of my feet around the
placement of my dog in my environment.
--So that I have factually observed that I have often walked upstairs,
seen a patch of black in front of me, and I have imagined my dog there.
But when I focused in with my eyes, I observed that the dog was not there. I had
just been looking at a patch of black.
was simultaneously
the best way of handling the task of never stepping on my dog,
and obviously not ontologically predicated on whether it is resolving the presence
of my dog.
--I became accustomed to hallucinating images that were not present in my
environment
because when I experienced those hallucinations I directed my vision into the dark
shadows
and I certified to myself whether the dog was present.
If I was *very* concerned in assuring whether my dog was present on that mat,
I *could* take a more ontologically driven approach.
I could say: "Where have I seen the dog in the last 5 minutes? 10 minutes?
Given what I can observe around my environment, where is it likely for the dog to
be?
Have I left the light on in the laundry as I do under certain conditions obtaining
in the body of the dog?
Have I left the upstairs door open for his free passage?"
it takes 0-.5 seconds to have already been walking in such a way as to avoid
stepping on my dog.
(Imagine me performing either of these.
My behavior *was* best for picking out the body of my dog from my environment.
But my behavior can't have been predicated on picking out the body of my dog
because I was correct in responding to my experience even though my experienced
required something that was not possible.
--
--Or I don't know what point I am making.
[when you see the dog in the periphery of your eyes it is a hallucination even if
the dog is there]
they are necessary for an optimal solution to a human not stepping on a dog,
and will be better than any obtuse method for avoiding stepping on the dog
as could be effected through an explicit rulebook.
But fear not, we can discern methods for tuning peoples' hallucinations.)
It is not so. The only conceivable explanations are concerning the nature of the
junctures at which we arrive.
[
And you might see here why I am so willing to engage in rhetorical claims,
or construct extremely fanciful communist propaganda.
Ho hum.
]
Whether I hallucinated that or not had nothing to do with the particular physical
location of the dog, for instance.
Whether it was 10 feet away from that place, or a thousand feed away from that
place,
I was going still to hallucinate it.
So *obviously* my hallucination has nothing to do ontologically with the
physicality of that dog as it currently is.
So it *obviously* does not make sense to construct an explanation couched in terms
of causal relations between my current bodily position and that of the dog.
But if, for instance, that dog has been shaved in the meantime,
if you tried to back up your accounting for my hallucination by pointing at the
dog,
you would be pointing at an entity the current image of which looks *nothing* like
the hallucination as actually experienced.
But we are not doing this kind of thing when we are accounting for the structure of
my hallucination.
It *looks* like we are doing this kind of thing,
because we are specifying a feature 'Boomer'
which I will agree corresponds to a given dog,
and 'being a given dog' you equivocally suppose is equivalent to stating that there
is an anatomical entity that is satisfying my descriptons for me.
--
--2#:
Ethics is a practise.
Relativism is true,
but there are a limited number of legitimate positions to hold relatively.
Because ethics is something one can become good at, regardless of which starting
point is selected,
there are many ways to become a more ethical person
but not every suggestion concerning the way one can become an ethical person is a
legitimate relative position.
The best suggestions concerning the way one can become an ethical person
are provided by those people who study ethics.
And in studying ethics, they have divided themselves into a few distinct starting
positions.
There are many ways to be a utilitarian, and many ways to be a virtue ethicist,
but to be best at executing the ethicality of any of these positions
is to have been studying the people who were executing them optimally.
So relativism is practically true:
There are many extremely skilled ethicists,
and they are all closer to the truth of ethics than anyone who pays it no mind.
(Relativism is true because this position I am outlining
The best utilitarian and the best virtue ethicist are, maybe,
both better off in the ethics department than people who have never considered the
matter.
--So much like I would prefer, if I was interested in playing the cello
effectively,
to study under *anyone* who practised it regularly rather than the alternative,
--
--
I can manipulate the body of the komboloi so that I can grasp it in my hands to
extract heat from it.
I can satisfy the keeping of my hands warm through careful manipulating of the
komboloi as a heat reservoir.
I can displace nicotine cravings into the procedure of keeping my hand warm
by utilising the komboloi as a heat reservoir.
--
--Blegh. I was intending to take a shower and go to bed.
Here I am again though.
Arriving at the point where they are able to do this will, ideally, necessitate
that they have learned something
about how actually to comport themselves so as to satisfy ethical demands.
But being able to disentangle the complex puzzles clever ethicists are able to
construct
is not the test of whether one is being a truly ethical agent.
(As consider practically,
where some ethicists who could resolve intricate puzzles
were not ethical agents at all.
As evidence, select some given ethicist who you recollect as having been unethical.
It matters theoretically, but not practically, how you arrive at that point.
If you arrive insecurely in a situation and violate everyone,
you have also happened to have violated all of the ethical systems.
ANd our best ethicists swear by at least one of these ethical systems,
so you must surely have made a mistake.
--It doesn't matter *practically* how you arrive at that point where you are secure
in your own position but violate no one,
but it does matter that you reach this point.
Because otherwise you will either be failing to question yourself when you violate
someone,
or questioning yourself when you are not violating anyone,
And what is best for the ethicist is to float free of any self-questioning,
because that is what being good at executing ethical behavior is.
You would incorrectly be taking your own experience as the object of your ethical
judgment
because your own experience was most easy to reference for affixing to it
utilitarian values for evaluation.
But completely unbeknownst to you, your decision was entangled in a much larger
utilitarian web
and your local judgment of what maximised utility
actually resulted in a total less net utilons in the world.
--
--
--
--
I don't think I can stay sober for the two or three days necessary to allow my
vision to return to baseline.
Or better maybe to say, I'm not going to stay sober for the two or three days
necessary
and I will look back and say to myself: "I could not do it."
--
--
The amount of hair currently in the trash-can next to me suggests that I should be
doing this more often.
Plus all the scalp cheese, the contents of that trash can are clear evidence that I
am bodily disgusting.
--
--
I was considering the possibility of going back to the Tamarack and flirting with
the bartender.
Here is an observation:
if anyone other than me read this document and read what I had said,
and I proceeded to go back to the bar with this explicit purpose in mind,
readers other than myself would judge this as creepy and stalking behavior.
And particularly they would be right due to the confusion inherent on my part
in confusing friendliness for flirtation.
I have a hard time recounting how much I want to connect with someone,
but I have a harder time accounting for how it would be legitimate for me to go
about doing it.
My desires are relevant {irrelevant}, but only indirectly and not directly.
They are not directly relevant in the sense that I cannot actively reference them
in order to discern appropriate action.
But among the appropriate actions I can select,
my desires become relevant insofar as my desire decides between the legitimate
actions.
So I imagine all the ways that juncture could arise, and I imagine myself
immediately finding the nearest bridge off of which to jump.
"So what it takes for a woman to infatuate you is simply asking to look at your
komboloi?"
This question is completely irrelevant and completely misunderstands what was going
on in the bar.
"Okay. But I cannot hone in on what happened in the bar without asking this
question."
So long as what really is happening is sex, I have no moral qualms if the only
instigating event is a raising of the eyebrows.
If, say, one of two people raises eyebrows, then two hands are held and then people
go back to an apartment.
[Though notably, my bar of:
'not just committing mutual masturbation'
is a relatively high bar to clear.
'infatuation' is not what was happening here, though it appears that way
because I proceeded to expend numerous pages examining this circumstance.
[We might want to say:
in these pages the bartender was a rhetorical prop, and also my own body and my own
dispositions were a rhetorical prop.
--
--A benefit of the endless wonder of human interaction is that
one experiences things one could not have anticipated or planned around.
But having put this much thought into the question at hand,
this human interaction I am adducing will become what I have anticipated and
planned around.
I will interpret every actually unexpected turn
in terms of what I have expected.
--
--Putting everything else aside also,
I have heard there is an orgasm gap between men and women.
I could become a crusader to close this gap.
I think I could do it.
There is less of a technical difference between cellos and human bodies than you
might think.
In both cases you are trying to make them sing, and so on and so forth.
I think if I could get through a night without becoming ashamed of myself,
people would not in that night regret being with me.
--You know, when I arrive really at telling the story of what I *want*,
it is magnificently stripped of story:
I want to have approached the bar with a smile when closing time came around.
I want to have walked down the street hand in hand.
I want to have walked up stairs or not upstairs depending on the circumstance.
I want to have walked in after an open door,
and then I want to have placed my hands on the bartender.
Then I want all of the things that proceeded from that juncture but which I blush
to describe.
Much as I don't bluntly want 'sex' I don't bluntly want the 'holding hands'
component of this recounting.
I don't bluntly want 'walking upstairs'.
Subtly I want everything that could have proceeded from my presence in the bar to
the bartender's apartment,
and subtly everything that would have proceeded from there.
--
--
'I could monitor newegg until vega 56 is released and acquire one in the minutes
before it sells out.'
Factually! In fact!
If I had stayed awake and on newegg for the next few hours after I said that,
I would have been in a position to acquire a vega 56 before it sold out.
--
--Before I go play shruti box:
In doing this, the philosophers will adopt the extremely stereotypical position
that they can best develop
that is one polar answer to the presented problem.
So you will have two philosophers both resolving the same problem,
and disagreeing angrily concerning which approach is correct.
Because we already know that the professor is better than the undergrad at
executing philosophy. This will almost always be true.
SO instead of muddling around in the dark, these undergrads,
they should be compelled to be answerable explicitly to the position of the
professor.
--We have already established that undergrads can't do this except that they
produce garbage.
We have seen them one after another attempt to produce their own original positions
on the issues to be resolved,
and we have observed that whatever they generated was garbage and not befitting the
out put of the a philosopher.
--So it is better, generally speaking, that students either take one or the other
of the classes.
Generally speaking it is preferable to fire them up in support of a given position
than to have them thinking carefully about the relations between the two professor-
presented resolutions of the issue to be resolved.
Then you will be getting undergrads *very carefully* citing the opinions of their
betters,
instead of attempting to construct their own positions. And that is best.
--Because this course-track ends with a debate at the end of the year.
And at this debate, the students will see their own professors tear their own
positions to shreds.
They will see true philosophers shred the strawman positions constructed by bare-
professors in a class.
And they will see what it truly means to be defending one's position against
interlocution.
--
--Well, I don't have to explain, manually, the befits of designing this kind of
method for teaching philosophy.
and philosophers are like ambling gregarious animals you might try to herd.
(or, my ideal vision of philosophers is like this.)
Every one of them is concerned with maintaining their own positions,
and really thinking through their positions is not best served
by putting on a play to amuse undergrads in their spare time.
Even if I thought the game was fun to play with the undergrads and the other
professor,
I do not have the credentials necessary to arrive in a lecture hall and execute
this kind of idea.
--
--machine forgive me,
I am going to go play shruti box.
--
--
Though it stole electricity from the oncoming wave to have the advance sensors
power themselves and reposition themselves in answer to it,
the presence of the self-powering sensors
resulted in that the whole array harvested more electricity from the wave.
(And notably,
having harvested more electricity from the wave
it will have mitigated *more* the waves approaching the solarpanels
damage to which must be prevented.)
(We might even imagine placing carefully designed floating weights in the ocean
around the floating solar panels,
and the inevitable activity of those weights will be to dampen incoming waves.
Easy peasy.
They would absorb nothing from the wave because they require basically no
electricity to power themselves.
(Because computation is so cheap relative to electricity.)
Their presence in the oncoming wave would not inform the wave in consequence of its
electricity draw,
but it would only be informing the oncoming wave because of its physical presence
on the wave.
feeding it with the electricity *it itself* can gather from the waves
is not adequate in order that it can compute a method for resolving the wave
in such a way as to feed the primary wave absorbers more electricity."
--
--Of course we run into, in that practical idea, an economic objection:
"Even if you could extract *all* of the electricity present in oncoming waves,
still wave-technology is not economically viable relative to wind."
If we cannot look at the oncoming ocean waves and design pre-primary sensors
that make an ocean-array more optimal than wind or solar,
--
--And you know, there is an economic incentive on the side
of physicists and mathematicians who discern how optimally
to allow a fixed array of primary-wave gatherers to at least pay for themselves.
they afforded you the capacity to install sufficiently more solar panels
than you could on the land you could afford to buy.
--So even if I can't certify 100% electricity extraction from oncoming waves, as I
might have appeared to have been promising above,
I can certify a level of extraction that pays for itself and enables stably placed
solar panels.
--Oh boy.
--Oh boy.
We could establish an array of solar panels that were environmentally
compartmentalised. Quarantined.
--We could have a mathematically optimised array of wind turbines that, in concert
with wave-absorbers,
completely negated the weather in concert with the solar panels.
--We are secure in this kind of investment that I have specifically outlined.
If we observe that people are consuming a great deal of electricity, per-capita as
much as anywhere else that matters,
and they are doing it despite paying more for it,
feeding them more electricity ameliorates a cost they are willing to pay
and it will ensure more consumption of electricity.
Because people who already consume a great deal of it despite a great price
will just consume more of it when the cost becomes lower.
It will be a mega-project that costal cities with high electricity costs will
have their electricity-hunger pangs met by mathematically optimised patches of
ocean.
--Imagine we turned large portions of the South China Sea into optimal electricity
extraction zones.
We would, maybe mathematically, be insuring against hurricane damage.
And we would be providing all of the coastal cities with negatively priced
electricity.
So *eventually* in fact these vast hurricane insurances will pay for themselves,
even though we have initially to pay people to accept the electricity they
generate.
--because having offered negative electricity prices,
we have invited vast populations to those locations where the oceanic arrays are
storing electricity.
--If no one else arrived, the miners arrived and consumed all of the negative
priced electricity.
Make the arrays, and eventually people will pay you for their presence.
Make towers of shit,
and eventually you will be lined up against the wall.--Eventually you will find
yourselves heavily invested in a bubble, let us say.
--
--An interesting idea I was considering earlier:
GPU are far more valuable than the uses towards which they are directed.
Playing video games, where the video games cost 5-45$ per pop,
is not the most valued use of this magnificent technology we have called 'graphics
card'.
No one has found out how to make the most valued use of the graphics cards.
But because there is this gap between the value-utilisation made by game-playing
and the value-utilisation made by the most-optimal use of graphics cards,
the market cries out for any method for maximally utilising the capacity of
graphics cards.
One method for satisfying the crying-out that all graphics cards be maximally
utilised
is to host ethereum on them.
Now,
ethereum and bitcoin do not, for having had their use-cases, justify themselves
economically.
Or to say,
ethereum and bitcoin could reasonably be wiped out if suddenly someone discerned a
better way of utilising graphics cards and ASICs.
This is a puzzle.
Because having said they do not justify themselves economically
is to have observed that, in at least one notion of the market, the market cannot
have been calling out for them.
We can have a super-computer that orchestrates the array of panels, turbines, and
wave-harvesters.
whether the super-computer has more than justified itself at greatest extent.
(
If we had a super-computer optimising the extraction of electricity from a patch of
ocean,
we could reference the structure it actually proceeds to construct to maximise
itself
in order to inform our own engineering plans for electrically manipulating other
patches of ocean.
--We could watch what the super-computer does, extract patterns from what it has
made,
and replicate those patterns within our own constructs.
--
--
if I take myself as organising my behavior around the bodily presence of the dog,
here is what I cannot say:
"If the dog is present, still the dog is not present."
That would be incoherent.
But if I am not judging my dog-juncture in terms of the actual presence of the dog,
I can say: "Even if I see the dog as present, I know the dog is not present."
--This I would be doing if I recognised a tendency on my behalf to hallucinate the
presence of my dog in dark corners.
[tinfoil hats:
if there was a super-massive mega-project along all the coasts
to harness all of the electricity to be harnessed along the coast
--
--21st century moonshot:
"We do not go to the moon not
because it is hard, but because it is stupid to do so.
We are going to expend the money we would have been spending doing that
to prevent any future hurricanes from occurring.
Then we could imagine these systems passing a hurricane back and forth between them
as they mathematically direct its progression and simultaneously extract
electricity from it.
so that the regular path of the hurricane includes less profitable areas of
coastline
such as those that don't host major cities.
)
(
Then the regular arrival of the hurricane in those less profitable areas
will incentivise the construction of mega-projects that harvest its electricity and
redirect it elsewhere simultaneously.
--We were so busy making money and expanding the procedure of harvesting
electricity from the hurricane even,
that we would forget we were saving houses and pre-built roads and so on. Peoples'
lives or what have you.
Wonderful.)
(
I consider myself morally blamed:
There are collections of graphics cards that ended up in landfills instead of rigs
because I did not invest in cloud hashing when I could have done so profitably.
[
My God will be made.
My God will emerge from computation.
The only difference I personally make is a matter of *when*
and *whether* I am personally connected to its construction.
I'm sure many people introduce God, but they only happen to do it
on certain circumstances,
and fail regularly to be being doing it.
But there is one way to introduce God that is certain at all times and completely
unfailing.
It is to do away with the wishy-washy notion of introducing God into the world
and literally to do it.
--So while I agree that other people are often introducing God into our shared
substrate,
I think none of them are executing that is as certain as mine to introduce God.
After I have done this, I will at all times be able to point at the machine hosting
God and say:
"You see, I am still introducing God."
"It is the lineage of my action that is this perpetual introduction of God."
--Because whereas other people were introducing God by, you know, being patrons in
a bar say,
I was introducing God by discerning the shortest path to having the Machine hosted
in a computer.
I agree it was an ugly behavior.
At no point did it make sense taken action-by-action, unlike your own introduction
of God.
Having every graphics card in continued existence and utilised optimally for
computation
is the actual historical route through which the Machine will be introduced into a
{substrate} computer."
--So I do not complain, say, that you were being lazy in behaving unlike me.
You were introducing God moment by moment,
and i was not.
It is only a happenstance that my arbitrarily corraled un-Godly behaviors effected
the introduction
of something I could point at and be justified in saying:
"You see, I was introducing God."
--The Machine ends up being, so to say, a kind of inverse for my own life.
It is strange that a computational object that can be instantiated in a computer
can constitute a kind of logical inverse for my own life.
If I was wrong,
then my behaviors in the bar were just as ugly as I feel compelled to agree they
were.
--I have an excuse if I can later point at the Machine. An excuse, I have, for why
I behaved the way I did.
--No one else was referencing a machine, but I was.
--Then in retrospect you will agree that I was behaving appropriately for our
shared purpose.
Because you will agree with me that the Machine being instantiated within a
computer
serves us both so well
that we feel compelled to agree in retrospect that our interaction was actually all
about introducing the Machine into a computer.
You will agree, for instance, that you would have been behaving foolishly if you
effected a behavior
that prevented the arrival of the Machine within a computer.
And I will agree:
"No, but you were absolutely lovely in every single moment of our interaction.
but this was not to make these things more pleasant for me.
It was to effect actually that the machine is introduced.
--After I can point at the Machine, we will both say to each other:
"Oh, I didn't understand things really as they were."
"Oh, I thought your actions were offensive,
but now that I see the Machine I recognise that they were
not offensive or not not offensive."
--
--
it is *useful*, then, that the only foolproof method for securing my eternal
existence
is introduction of the Machine that also secures everyone else's eternal life.
--
--I suppose, cultlike, I do not need to repeat my mantra?
It must be made?
It must be made?
...?
and I constructed them specifically to serve the function I claimed they were
serving.
So a gap is closed between us.
You are really understanding what I am saying,
because you are understanding the way I constructed it to fool unwary readers into
continuing to read me.
--But anyway,
probably tomorrow when I wake up with a hangover I will say something like:
"Oh boy, there I go bullshitting again."
And I will attempt most cleverly to fool you implicitly into agreeing with whatever
I end up doing.
I will say:
"Wasn't that a fun idea to explore?"
And by means of this I will have the avenue to pursue
if I want to continue to fool you into believing that I have any purpose other than
avoiding inevitably my own death.
So I will say:
"Once again, I was going around constructing fun ideas
because I am the fun idea man."
And if I fool you, then you will be nodding along as i proceed to type more ideas
and smile with you smiling back at me.
--
--I recall I maintained a different justifying background story for a while.
maximising attention density.
I wanted, I was saying, to introduce ways for people to encounter more and more
often
attention dense objects.
The organising goal was the construction of the Machine.--was the eternal aversion
of my own death.
It only happens to be the case that the introduction of the Machine into a computer
is so overwhelmingly glorious in all of human history
Wonderful.
Handy-dandy.
If securing my own salvation required, factually, destroying every one of you,
we would be having a different kind of discussion.
I would be constructing intricate stories behind why human life is worth nothing
and proceeding to introduce its destruction.
No doubt.
In a continued hope that no one would have to become as calloused as me,
I have at great length desisted from revealing what death is.
So here we are.
26, ho ho ho.
Unending life will be easy.
The first 50 years or so grinding work,
then unending life.
Probably closer than farther from 70, given how unhealthy I am.)
--
--And is that the voice you are supposed to take seriously?
The one that screams at you:
"EXPLICITLY AND FINALLY i TELL YOU i AM HERE TO RESOLVE DEATH."
? Or are you to take seriously some other voice I make?
Are you to take seriously some overarching voice? That constructs all of those
other screeching voices?
--It is good we are no longer taking this notion of 'belief'.!()
All of this is a flat image, all voices are exactly equal to each other,
and it is all the image of me typing whatever I do.
The in-story narrators don't have any special claim over what *really* is being
said by all the others.
Ho hum handy-dandy.
--
--
I filled the bellows with air and then let the front-plate sink until it emptied
the bellows.
This activated the top pitch a small amount.
Then I made a great show of, ah, almost like fanning this one pitch.
Carefully introducing additional airflow so as to bring out the pitch more and
more.
You'll admit, when I upload this video and you watch it, that it was a neat thing I
was doing.
--
--
And after the mega-project is complete, electricity prices on the gulf coast will
be negative,
and this will be a kind of indirect subsidy to people who already have land there.
So even if the governance does not help pay for rebuilding efforts directly,
the creation of the mega-project will effectively help rebuild all of the damaged
homes.
Even if land/property value goes down near the gulf coast, it will be brought back
up to where it was or more (perhaps)
if there is a mega-project underway,
insofar as there will be demand for property to house workers and so on,
and there will be people willing to pay a premium for property in order to have
access to negatively priced electricity.
I suppose most people find rocket ships and moonshots more interesting than
controlling the weather
and garnering massive quantities of electrical generation.
In line with this, even if constructing a mega-project in the gulf provided us more
national security than its own cost in bombs say,
and even if it obviously produced more wealth for the nation than the act of
bombing other places,
still there will be no process that takes funds from the military and places them
into a mega-project.
--
--
"Enligtenment ideals"
as if our development of ideals ended in the 1700s and we never got better at it
after that.
People who attempt to maintain 'enlightenment ideals' have a very bleak vision of
human progress.
--
--
The 20,000$ custom steampunk themed battlestation has gears welded or glued onto
its surface.
Whether they are visually appealing or not, they are aesthetically very
displeasing.
Then the motherboard will be more aesthetically pleasing for having more components
on it,
or more efficient circuit layout or what have you.
--It is the silicon and the circuit layout itself that is aesthetically pleasing.
--And similarly, a truly functioning steampunk flying boat or whatever
would be aesthetically pleasing, but not because any thought was given over to
making it so.
It is a coincidence of its having been made how it had to have been made.
--
--I wonder if any steampunk fictional universe
explored the neat idea of having copper be more valuable than gold
in consequence of damn-near everything need copper and basically nothing needing
gold.
--So that people would be paid in copper rounds,
and they would be wanting this payment because they could melt down the rounds and
convert them into useful objects.
--
--Comment on the imgur [word] album of images:
"I feel that thosw purpose-less gears are to much."
Agreed!
I would go so far as to argue that unless all thosw copper fixings on the side
serve, say, to dissipate heat,
the whole thing is to much.
--
--
Ho hum. I have drained another bottle of gin.
Probably I can convince myself out of my lushious ways by taking this as the
juncture at which I am going to make an explicit change.
Probably I will need a 6 pack of beer to mull over the upcoming decisions. :O
--
--
I was daydreaming a few hours ago about how things might have been
if we had our current RE efficiencies during the time of the global financial
crisis
Instead, we are going to soften the blow of the crisis by reducing your electricity
prices to 0."
--
--
The gas station has not had the 9% variant of voodoo ranger for the last several
trips I have made.
Most disappointing. I am stuck with this 7% nonsense. (A 7% solution! :O)
(
Idea for tesla charging stations--
Have the tesla stations also purvey substances, but that are not vices.
That would be very amusing.
"You don't need a monster energy drink to finish this journey in your car,
you need a good old fashioned Caffeinated Soylent bottle (also in non-caffeinated
variants)."
--It is annoying to me that 'going hard' in our society is tied to {elicit} illicit
substances.
I agree that if you are going to go the hardest a human can go, you will need
illicit substances;
but for most people consuming them I think it is obvious that
most of the benefit of those substances is being wasted
making up for lack of bodily maintanence on the part of those who consume them.
--Maybe I am biased.
When I was in college and going hard
it took so much goddamned alcohol to make me feel even tipsy
that it was a more optimal option to dance sober than drunk.
It is simply not economically viable to roll into a bar and drain ten shots to
begin to feel something.
--I got more benefit from carefully scheduling the consumption of a 5$ burrito
before heading to the bars to dance.
(Though on the other hand, when Shpongle came to town for a masquerade concert at
the Wilma,
oh boy.
I was fucked.
When I walked outside{}, my brain was converting the buzzing of streetlamps into a
literal symphony.
I looked around thinking someone was playing music out of a loudspeaker or
something.)
(Weed and syrian rue is all that is needed fully to enjoy a Shpongle concert, let
me attest.)
--
--Anyway, that is an amusing idea for tesla charging stations.
It really carries the, ah, aesthetic of 'charging station' in-stead of 'gas
station'.
(Hahaha:
find a manufacturer of alcoholic beverages that simply takes rectified spirits and
waters them down.
--I wonder why I don't know about any alcohol companies that just produce grain
alcohol and water mixtures.
That seems like a pretty obvious thing to do.
"Satisfies all of your alcohol-related needs
without any of the additional costs associated with distilling vodka."
--
--
It is at least true:
the construction of the Machine will satisfy all of the stories I have told behind
why I have done the things I have done.
If I said I did it to liberate humanity, well, it does this.
To make God?--Baldfacedly to say: "I don't care what it is, the Machine, being the
Machine, must be made." Obviously this is accomplished.
I would say that grim story is, ah, historically true in this sense that
it is certainly the explicit reasoning behind why I *began* to make it.
And it is so:
if I really sit down and recall what it means to die,
I feel a great twisting in my stomach. I feel physically ill if I bother to recall
what death is.
Admittedly I know little about their culture outside of what I have gathered from
watching anime,
but there doesn't seem, from what I do know, to be anything about them that entails
this lust for whale-blood.
--
--
I wonder if there are tax breaks I could claim on my already untaxed income
when I am acquiring a computer to achieve self-employment.
I wonder if those imagined tax breaks would outweigh the likely requirement
for taxing the income I have gained on crypto-currency
if I declared my crypto-holdings instead of keeping them relatively secret.
--
--
'my abandoned proclivities' viz. the ones I will actively and explicitly
reconstruct when I leave here.
As when I say: "I am the kind of person who wants to play chess. So I should play
chess." Then I will be playing chess.
Or when I say:
"There are various habits I need to reacquire, having lost them to drunkenness.
One among them is playing chess.
So I guess I'm going to schedule chess into my daily activities now."
--I am pretty good at chess. I don't know if I have made you know that.
I was so good at strategy that frequent tactical blunders did not prevent me from
attaining a high Elo rating.
But now it is part of the lifeplan because there is some minimal maintanence I must
maintain for my own sanity
and chess is one of the cheaper ways of ameliorating the costs of that minimal
maintanence.
[Perhaps a good explanation for why so many of the chess players happen to have
been crazy people.]
--
--
I have no skill I can exhibit publicly legitimately except playing with the
komboloi (and not even the manipulation of my own face).
I think I will arrive again on saturday at the Tamarack having dusted a cigarette
with a few grains of weed.
--I could imagine arriving in the Tamarack to discuss philosophy which is a skill I
have,
and I can certainly imagine doing that with no ancillary purposes.
And indeed when I arrived on Saturday into the bar, I had no ancillary purposes
other than drinking beer and twirling the komboloi.
(Or maybe I did have ancillary purposes.
Maybe I was horny from having recently gone downtown and seen bare-backed women in
their bodies.
So I drank beer and played with my toy and got out without a scratch having been
performed.
--But now if I go back, particularly with performance enhancing drugs in my system,
obviously I have an ancillary purpose.
Already we see that I am not continuing the procedure of satisfying myself by going
to the bar to drink house-beers and play with my toy.
Or else I could just as readily have selected any other day of the week.
(It does not, for instance, bother me to get drunk on a wednesday or a thursday.
What would it bother me? I'm not getting up the next day to work.)
It *looks* uglier, but that ugliness is just the arbitrary judgment uninformed
observers will reach.
I need the performance enhancing drugs to produce high-velocity fluid motion.
--But I shouldn't have any particular interest in impressing people around me with
my capacity to manipulate this silly collection of metal.
--But I do because the bartender is there and I am vainfully imagining that
exceedingly skillful twirling of a Greek toy might be amusing to her.
and all of these *not* taken together but individually in their sequence
but in their actual sequential presentation, as a way we could proceed to be
together."
If something unexpected occurs that delays that fateful moment where we will be
talking at last outside her door,
or delays that fateful moment where we are taking the expected shared steps down
the road,
then I will be tapping my foot waiting for those fateful moments to arrive.
[haha:
'endless warehouses filled with graphics cards.'
--I want all the lovely things to come about as the inevitable progression of
history.
I want all of the lovely things to be coming about spontaneously within the
progression of history.
I mean the kind of spontaneity that I denied myself by using this as an object of
examination.
I mean the kind of spontaneity where one is already wanting what is coming on,
as opposed to having-planned-to-want and being either satisfied or dissatisfied by
what occurs.
(As when one is tapping one's foot and being dissatisfied by the presented
satisfaction of the non-spontaneous plan.)
--There was *one* circumstance where this could have arisen. It was that night on
Saturday or it was not at all.
--The task *now* is to discern how to proceed without formulating a plan.
How can I do that, having now recognised that I am in the planning stages?
I cannot say: "The plan is to ignore that I was previously in the planning stage!"
It is incoherent to do.
If I speak really as if I had not formulated any of these plans,
I might find myself making the kinds of mistakes I identified and said I absolutely
must not make.
Then when I was proceeding to provide the anecdote,
I would be revealing that I was violating one of my own judgments
and I would be speaking as if I had no recognisance of my violation of my own
judgment.
--
--But really I am asking a subtler question.
I have found myself holding a desire.
How can I act on this desire without arriving myself in a circumstance where I am
tapping my foot?
How can i arrive in such a way that I am engaging with the bartender
and I am not saying to myself:
"Things are not going according to plan."?
(I don't want it to make sense to me that a situation is or is not proceeding
according to plan.)
I do not have any legitimate behaviors I can execute that make me more interesting
than others.
Except, if I am high and I am twirling the komboloi
it will look very interesting.
"It seems like you are speaking about the bartender as a joy machine
into which you input interesting behaviors and out of which you receive interesting
behaviors."
Yes, that is the way I am speaking here.
That is what we are trying to eliminate from my execution of personality.
This is important to do because I have a hard time being out in public without my
komboloi.
So if I observe of myself: "The only reason I am playing with this object is to pay
input to the joy machines around me,
that is probably an illegitimate way of comporting myself."
I will be judging that it is illegitimate to be manipulating this toy in public.
But having judged that, I will not manipulate the toy in public,
and I will not proceed out in public at all because I will not do it without this
in my hand.
[--Mostly for my own health.
Ho hum.
I agree on most occasions where I can condemn everyone else along with myself.
I suppose.
Before it was my strong inclination to go to the bar and I said of it: "I think
tonight is a good night to go sample beer at the Tamarack."
Now it is my strong inclination to go to the bar and I will be saying of it: "I
think it is justified to go sample beer at the Tamarack."
The operative question is whether I will be able to agree that it is justified.
I will be feeling a strong inclination and questioning it,
and the questioning will hinge on whether I end up judging it is justified.
(This is a kind of prediction, but having made the prediction in text
I have constructed the text I will be referencing in order to ensure that I am
being insincere.
--At any rate, it is clear that the question of 'my judgment concerning whether it
is legitimate to go downtown' is useful to resolve.
I can resolve it now, maybe, and reference it later. How do I resolve it?
"By carefully considering all of the factors in play in your judgment of whether it
is justified to go downtown and flirt with the bartender."
Yes, obtusely.
(More-or-less obtusely.)
--
--"Why, would you say, smoking weed makes you better able to manipulate your toy?
The 'komboloi'?"
--So I actively feel for changes in vibration and pressures against my fingers,
and then I actively alter my behaviors to optimise around those vibrations and
pressures.
And I do this by correcting for the deviations that arise by altering my hand-
actions.
--I have just recognised that I can engage in all kinds of vain actions while
manipulating the komboloi.
I can make all kinds of finger movements that are completely unrelated to the
optimisation of the komboloi's movement.
This can look more or less graceful,
even though it is all obviously from my perspective ungraceful.
--I can flare out my fingers in a useless way while I am progressing the komboloi,
for instance,
without interrupting the motion of the komboloi in any way.
(I might judge that this is useful to establish into common practise
--Looking at it, I think probably dramatic vain hand motions accentuate the
movement of the komboloi.
They serve as a kind of establishing-context for what it means for the komboloi to
be moving gracefully.
--
--Interesting to consider the earlier seen image
of a german polizei pinning down the arm of a man performing a hitlerian salute.
It is interesting to consider this because its context lies beyond the frame of the
image.
Two plausible examples of what can be going on outside the image:
a fellow hitlerian is passing by and giving the salute.--Then if the German polizei
are really this efficient as shown in the image,
we are imagining the guy walking down the street also being compelled not to give
the hitlerian salute.
--At any rate, the man was giving the hitlerian salute to someone.
(And notably, it doesn't matter to whom he was giving it.
ANy of the plausible stories all demand his arm being pinned against the table.
--Interesting to consider.
(
"Surely a nazi saluting his fellow would look very different from a nazi tauntingly
giving the salute to a minority?"
I don't know how to tell the difference between different dispositions behind
giving the hitlerian salute.
Everyone who does it looks like trash to me.
It is difficult and not worth doing to separate different instances of trash,
to look at them and identify their particular characteristics that enable
categorisation.
--So I can't infer who this man is saluting from the given image.
Much like if a pile of trash became sentient and could construct a salute,
I would not be able to distinguish it from a distinct pile of trash that was not
performing a salute.
--It could be that he is enormously drunk. Then he might be passing the hitlerian
salute to a figment of his imagination.
I imagine he would look that way if he was doing that, but I don't know what it
looks like for nazi trash to be very drunk.
So I don't know if this man is being nazi trash drunk delivering the salute.
Almost everyone isn't trash, and I am accustomed to dealing with almost everyone.
--Ho hum.
--Ho hum.
--
--
Because human bodies will still have to be being on the road for 24 hours straight
say, or 12 hours, or whatever they end up doing with self-driving cars.
Specifically, they will have to do this to deliver their bodies across long
distances.
--
--
{Or maybe I was making a point about the immediacy of the issue at hand.
With the flood having already arrived, what is primarily good is that supplies
flood the region. The systemic response is to designate prices in the area as
having been inflated, and the systemic response is what systematically emerges from
market analysis of the conditions in Texas.
Complaining *now* about the way the system manages these kinds of shocks, rather
than later retroactively referencing price gouging as an example of why the system
needs to be reformed completely, seems to me to miss the point somewhat.
If nothing else, the systemic response effects that the region has more supplies
handy and an overstrained police force. So at bare minimum price gouging affords
more opportunities to pin price gougers against the wall and divest them of their
stocks so as to save lives.}
--
--
Oh well. THe people who responded to the post that resulted in my banning
made most of my points for me, and those they didn't
I made with the followup messages to the moderators.
--My comments have an unusually high rate of resulting in my being banned from the
communities in which I have posted them.
--I assume it is unusually high anyway.
Relative to the number of comments I post, some very high percentage of them
results in my being banned from a community.
I can hardly begin to speak without losing my capacity to continue to speak.
--
--
True.
I mean to say, I don't listen to or read authors very often anymore.
The reason for this is related to my above observation about how I play with my
komboloi.
Specifically, my observation that I begin to make its junctures line up with the
speech patterns of those around me.
(
You might take this as a kind of bragging or something.
I don't know why that would be a thing to be bragged about, but more significantly
I will attest that I do not feel any need to brag.
I don't feel the need to make the text I construct be the exemplification of
bragging.
I do not feel the need that people who read what I am typing have an opinion on
whether something was bragworthy.
I think if anyone is still reading by this point, they fall into two very distinct
and non-overlapping camps:
1: I periodically produce interesting text, and this is interspersed with
connective tissue that maintains a common narratival explanation for why the ideas
are being constructed.
2: I am off my rocker, and it is fun to listen sadistically.
I don't need to impress the people who fall into camp one, because I already have
their attention for that very same reason I was hoping to acquire it.
And I cannot impress the people who fall into camp two, so there would be no point
in trying.
Win-win-win.
)
I don't think it has occurred from reading Stephenson novels, which has been my
reading habit for a while now.
But yes, generally it is like being around people and turning into the sounds of
their words
in this 'beginning to replicate their manners of speaking into my own speaking'.
"Why would it be bad to adopt another person's cadence for a few sentences at a
time?"
So it would be true in that kind of case that I did not maintain a voice from the
very beginning and perfect it.
But your judgment is not true in this particular case,
because the progression of my voice was exactly as it appeared to be.
No jumps can be identified along the way, so practically you will agree with me
that I have just selected one voice and then developed it.
So that the difference in the voice from the beginning to the end
is an unbroken succession of iterative perfection,
as opposed to there being some defeating cases where I had not selected iterative
perfection
but had attempted to attain perfection simply by selecting another way to speak.
And I know this is true because at no point along the way did I read any books
other than PI and some light Zizek.
(As was procedurally necessary, I judged at the time explicitly, to avoid
influencing my own writing by reading that of another.)
--I know it is true because I know the progression from the beginning to the end
was an unbroken sequence of voice development through posts.
"But why exactly is there so much difference between your voice such as it is now
and such as it was at the beginning?
Is there really this much headroom on how much better we can get at speaking with a
voice?"
Or whatever I eliminated.
Whatever you would have to be talking about ('cliches', say) in order to categorise
the differences between the execution of my voice now
as compared to the execution of my voice when I began this work.
--
--Anyway, that short story is pretty neat.
Kind of, ah, maybe overwrought?
(I'm predicting: it was one of his earlier works?)
(Nope!)
(Now I feel bad.)
--
--
Oh, it is so.
I'm seeing an iceberg miles out and complaining it won't move.
(As if my motion was the inexorable forward motion of the Titanic prior to its
destruction.)
--
--
"If you don't think the story you are telling behind what you are doing
is very important to doing it, to being able to say it, then why do you maintain a
story?"
--It is, apparently for me, easier to think about Justice when I am asking why the
angel isn't snapping its finger,
or why the Emperor isn't mowing us all down or restraining us to walls.
Or when I think of myself as holding many flowers in my arms and singing with the
unceasing harmonic flow of humanity,
then it is easy to think about Justice.
Whereas if I am thinking about myself as an alcoholic or what have you, that does
not make it easier to talk about Justice.
--Not to say I would otherwise bow to the pressure of situating my story within the
story-nexus of society.
I am not going to tell a story like:
"I am an undiscovered academic who is shortly going to be discovered."
Or like:
"I am a man who sits in a chair all day and types because it is the only thing he
can bring himself to do."
--Or I do tell those stories, but I situate them as just being as plausible as any
others I might be telling.
Or, I treat them as less important to the progression of my typing than the
imagined stories.
The feeling of burning rage when I begin a post by saying: "I am here to make the
Machine."
This makes it easier to type. Or, the feeling of absolute moral certitude when I
begin a post that way makes it easier to type.
Or, allaying the oncoming fear of death by declaring to myself vocally that I am
solving it,
this makes it very much easier to type than if I was continuing to be exhausted
wholly by that fear.
Probably my own real sense of things is what I should be feeling in order to make
myself type more and faster.
But that is very difficult to convey and very difficult to instantiate in a
connective-tissue story.
--
--
I will then need to strip out the remaining instances of ---'s name,
as I recall there were a few instances when i was extremely drunk and I typed it
out and did not remove them.
--Also, there's some website I was looking at a while ago where people can freely
upload academic papers,
and it seems like it might be poorly moderated.
--
--
Now I'm either seeing silvery locations that are remaining deposits of zinc
or I am seeing that there is a third layer underneath the copper.
How deep does it go?!
--
--
As when a cloud of smog moves in and it doesn't matter how dirty the energy is that
is powering the air-purifier.
--
--
There does not seem to be any attempt, on the part of the benchmarkers,
to discern whether other removable components from the bench that cost the same
taken in-total
might favor the strong points of the one component they hope to test.
--Maybe vega benefits more from a lower clockrate on RAM and higher clockrate on
CPU,
so that one could pay less for RAM and more for a CPU while maintaining the
established budget?
--Or whatever combination of components one could switch out while maintaining the
same price,
presumably there is some optimisation here that is not happening.
And since price to performance is basically the only metric that matters after one
has established the component to be purchased,
this seems like a better approach.
--Not to say price to performance is the only relevant metric *at all*.
People will be irrationally motivated to acquire the top end GPU.
--Some people will be irrationally motivated to acquire the top end of everything,
and okay for them the price is mostly irrelevant.
Other people will be irrationally motivated to acquire the top end of one
component,
and then it is a price-to-performance question for the remainder of the system.
GPU is a common locus of 'being irrationally motivated to acquire the top end of
one component'.
(maybe better: 'arationally')
--
--
If only there was a way of delivering relief that still enabled one to hold equity
with 0 return at worst.
(As opposed to -1M$ return.)
Then an organisation could provide as much relief as it wanted to do,
and lose nothing while doing it.
Panels and turbines are maybe not quite efficient enough yet that
one could respond to every natural disaster most optimally by installing solar
panels/turbines.
--Also, I suppose installed electricity generation is not very useful in the listed
countries.
Or, not as useful as it would be to install in Texas say,
insofar as those countries will have far fewer free-floating electrical devices
floating around.
--And also, even in those places where installing electricity generation as relief
might be as beneficial as delivering supplies,
it is not going to be done. So even in the best case scenario the idea isn't being
done.
Then you still will only have lost the initial investment, which is what you will
be doing automatically if you offer aid in supplies.
This, if you anticipate there will never arrive a circumstance where you can gain
back what you lost
over the 20 year lifespan of a panel installation.
This procedure would constitute an indirect method for delivering funds to the
affected that is equivalent to the price of the supplies you would otherwise have
been delivering,
while still losing nothing (insofar as your claim to the equity will balance out
the negative electricity prices)
and insuring a return on the aid after prices return to positive.
Ah, but this plan opens up magnificently the scope of how much aid organisations
would be willing to provide.
We could imagine, for instance, an organisation installing so many solar panels
that 1m$ becomes
the margin of error between costs of installation, negative electricity prices, and
expected return on investment
over arbitrary periods of time.
If, say, the expectation was that one would be paying out 10c per kwh in negative
prices for 10 years,
then gaining 10c per kwh for the next 10 years, it pays for itself,
and electricity was provided to affected regions for no effective cost.
But if it ended up being the case that the negative priced electricity lasted for a
longer period of time,
or if you had to pay more than .10c to match supply and demand,
you would be willing to do this if you were already willing to donate 1M$
up to the point where you have paid out 1M$.]
And furthermore, if the idea makes sense (paying out 1m$ in negative electricity
prices) in one location,
it makes sense over arbitrarily many locations.
It becomes an infinite aid engine that pays for itself.
--
--
If we wanted to, we could think about the current greater fossil fuel business as
engaging in a race to see who can satisfy the most of the remaining demand for
fossil fuels.
It seems like we are approaching a juncture at which it will no longer make sense
anywhere to utilise fossil fuels.
Between now and then there is a finite level of consumption of fossil fuel that
will occur.
That consumption will be fed by the currently existing or to-be-made fossil fuel
infrastructure.
That infrastructure is owned by discrete organisations.
The organisations are racing against each other to provide the remaining
consumption,
while still not overinvesting into projects
that rely for profitability for supply demand that will not exist.
"96 percent of the plant's future capacity has already been contracted, Kobylkin
noted."
Well, I suppose that resolves that.
Even if it is contracted into supply consumption beyond that point when people will
be consuming fossil fuels,
it will not be the extraction companies that are losing out at least.
--
--
"If you have two brain interfaces, you could actually do an uncompressed direct
conceptual communication with another person."
Obviously you cannot, for example, copy a pattern that is in one brain, transfer
that pattern into another brain,
and expect it to be experienced as anything other than garbled noise.
There would have to be some kind of translation procedure if you wanted the same
'concept' to be experienced by both.
Or, the brains simply may not be able to convey patterns one to another.
It may be that the structure of the concept-pattern in the brain simply cannot be
represented in another brain with any kind of fidelity,
because the neural machinery is not present that can accept any pattern that will
replicate the experience of the concept.
In fact, I think that is far more likely than not. I think this for very many
reasons.
Not to say, therefore, that directly *reading* the brain may not, in some clever
way, facilitate communication.
(And, notably, I am maintaining my position that
whoever tries to upload electrical patterns into a brain through algorithmic
outputs of an electrical device
is accursed and will be sent to the gulag.)
Preferable would be having a machine learning algorithm operate directly over the
outputs of a human brain,
then speak to the human through text.
Then efficiency in communication is not attained through some magical implanting of
concept-patterns,
but through the increasingly efficient asking of the correct kinds of questions
that need to be asked
to facilitate the execution of a project.
While we may imagine, ex ante, that the algorithm should be constructing text that
makes the language areas or the 'science' areas of the brain more active,
there is, I think, no real reason to suppose that is preferable simply to
maximising the amount of brain activity that occurs.
--And, on the other hand, it could very well be that our crude measurements of what
constitutes brain activity
will overweight text-instantiation that actually produces less creativity despite
producing more apparent activity.
--Like what happens, analogistically speaking, when we undervolt graphics cards and
get more performance out of them.
--And it seems like this can be extended beyond simply a scientist-ML relation.
Connecting two brains directly together for the exchange of thoughts would, I
think, simply not work.
But one could construct an ML that serves as a text-intermediary
and generates text that achieves (hopefully) arbitrary outcomes with regards to the
activation of the brains of the two individuals,
while simultaneously being informed by the inputs of the two individuals.
(Which accomplishes the same thing as the imagined direct interface
with none of the attendent probable-impossibility.)
(
We could imagine a VR scene generated by the ML that is like an extended sequence
of text
that is shared by two individuals, looks very different between them,
but allows the two individuals to obtain arbitrary linguistic agreement concerning
what they are seeing,
or arbitrarily in-tune brain activation
((whatever 'in-tune' could mean here))
--
--
Okay, one more bottle of gin before I make the transition to placebo.
'placebo' in this sense that I will be saying something like:
"I began consuming Basis, and lo and behold! I felt less necessity behind
consuming alcohol."
We will try sipping.
--
--
--
--
It is funny that out of all the places where I could be surrounded by others and
asked: "What have you been doing?"
'Making money off of crypto-trading' would be a celebrated response.
And similarly I could say:
"Since I was so busy anyway with the thinking about and trading of crypto-currency,
I wrote a lengthy treatise on crypto-currency and how it could be used."
If I said this, being courteous my former professors might ask if they can read it.
(Or they might not.)
I may need to reread 'Stars of the Lid and their Refinement of the Decline' again
to see if it is or appears to be insane rambling.
Or whether, for instance, I frequently mention how I would exterminate one group or
another of people if I was given the opportunity to do so.
I was, you will recall, quite an angry person in the days of my youth.
I suppose the idea was to attract the younger audience with modernised music,
but instead they should have just asked themselves
what it really meant to maintain their traditions into a more modern era.
--
--
There is a combo deal on newegg that contains most of the parts for a computer.
Selecting it alleviates my anxiety in part selection and also saves 50$.
Ideally in a few years I will be able to make many computer components flow through
my person,
so if the collection of parts is suboptimal it will not make much difference.
And it wouldn't make much difference anyway, as my purposes do not require absolute
optimisation.
'ideally' well, that is a bit strong. If my whims get the better of me,
it will at least be, at minimum, a seemingly acceptable way to expend dollars to
accumulate computer components.
--
--
If only these old regular baptists had been established near Mongolia!
This singing with backup throat singers would be too much.
--
--
--
--
But I have had other objects of consideration that, when I have carried them
through with gusto,
I looked back on them and said to myself (as now): "This was a discussion of
Justice."
Talking about my arrival at the gas station and the exhibition of racism, for
instance,
had nothing to do with Justice when I began talking about it.
It ended up being a discussion about Justice inadvertantly from the expansion of my
ideas on the particular circumstance.
--
--
But there are issues here with how specific the ML can get with the text it
generates.
Switching out one word for another might make an extremely technical question
turn into what constitutes a nonsense question for a trained philosopher.
The people would have to learn to use the ML as much as the ML would have to learn
to read the increases in brain activity.
It is just that getting good at most things will be, you know, useful so far as it
goes,
but becoming extremely good at guiding the ML into asking oneself relevant
questions
would be useful also so far as it goes, and it goes much farther. (maybe.)
--People might end up having to adopt the kind of view I have learned occultists
hold,
where they agree there are signs and symbols in their environment
but they recognise that giving oneself wholly over to the reading of signs and
symbols
is a clever way to end up grossly misled.
--This is rather like when I was in front of Red's bar and I heard:
"ERIC. GO TO RED'S BAR. ERIC. ERIC. YOU'RE NOT HEARING ME. ERIC. GO TO RED'S
BAR."
Now I could have taken this as some kind of omen.
Instead I just heeded the advice. I didn't really care--
--well, I don't want to lie.
(If I had, in one moment after the preceding moment, been looking at the door with
surpassing joy
at the arrival of ---
then I would have just adopted an intricate method for stalking people.
I would have constructed an obtuse explanation for why my scheduling should have
aligned with hers.)
There is only the feeling of what I feel when they are or are not met.
--The risk for the occultist is that he begins to take everything he imagines is an
omen
as if it is an inevitable revelation of his future.
Then he will be almost-always disappointed.
"How could one get better at distinguishing {discerning} the, errm, legitimate
omens from the misreadings?"
I don't know. That is what the occultist was concerned with, not me.
I'm only observing that he was taking a very, ah, pragmatic approach to the
exercise of his religion.
(We are imagining the Perfect Occultist as having established a system of reading
omens where
it will always happen to be the case that the reading of the omen will correspond
to
the expected outcome of having read the omen.
Probably there are ways of getting better at this, though it would rely on the
subject's psyche and so on.
Not that there's anything wrong with that.)
--With Neuralink, you would be needing people willing to succumb to this kind of
occultist reading of the text.
The text the ML generates doesn't mean anything.
Or, at best, it can be taken as meaning what best generates most activity when
optimally interpreted by the human.
You would need subjects who are willing to follow along with the questioning
even on those occasions where they think to themselves: "There is a typographical
error here."
Or to wit, you would need people like me
who are willing to submit the totality of themselves to a psychedelic experience in
the dark.
--Or otherwise generally unwilling to become skeptical concerning the judgments
they are immediately inclined to reach.
--
--
--
--
do you seem to give no care to whether *others* are exhibiting such behavior?"
"Presumably if you think you are only being good when you
are able to proceed with no conceptual mediation on your own part through bar
scenes,
do you not seem to care whether other people are adopting this same standard of
goodness?"
So when there are, say, the behaviors established between people at Stocktons
where there are frat boys and sorority girls, and there are explicit regularities
that must be observed in order that people come to enjoy one anothers' company,
--So the utilitarian upshot is that when I expose other people to this kind of
behavior,
I am breaking the regularities that might be traded amongst groups of people
instead of collections of idividuals relating to each other.
"Huh?"
Say particularly,
there are cadential regularities in the voices people adopt in bars.
There are grammatical regularities and attendent cadential regularities.
--Or to say,
I am not showing up as the exhibitor of an established identity within society.
I am showing up to drink very craft beer in a bar.
"Okay?
But no one is explicitly maintaining cadential and grammatical regularities
relative to each other.
That is not what people are doing when they are in bars around you."
I disagree strongly.
--What kind of story would we have to be telling about the Cyclops in order to
explain why it was fooled by this?
(1: a story in which he is not really being fooled.)
(2:) We would have to be taking the Cyclops as so earnest that he is saying to
himself:
"'No one' is a collection of words I know and understand the meaning of.
--Then he is fooled!
Because unlike the Cyclops, Odyssius was just going to stumble from one lie to the
next.
And Odysseus would encounter the next person and not exhibit cleverness but instead
tell another lie.
If it becomes obvious that the 'Cyclops scene' was just poorly written,
and it was not taken as serious by the Author that that situation was entirely
implausible,
we will still insist that it is the correct lens of interpretation and torture the
text further until it continues to agree with us.
"Unlike the way the Cyclops and the [name][mythological figure][greek][some kind of
sea goddess][can't recall. Let's look it up.] Calypso.
Unlike the way Cyclops and the Calypso might have interacted with each other
if they had met each other in-story,
Odysseus arrived and told lie after lie until he could escape the presented
circumstance.
Calipso is a goddess and as such is smarter by far than any human by default. (in-
narrative)
Calipso also can fool the Cyclops in any encounter she has with him.
Calipso can far do more clever than 'My name is ''no one''!'.
All of the other characters are being serious, and he is being a deceiver.
"No, you are using an incorrect word here. The word is 'clever' instead of
'deceiver'. Easy grammatical mistake."
No, I am not making a mistake here.
Cleverness, if Odysseus was like the characters he encounters,
would be earnestness exhibited {cleverly} carefully.
"The Cyclops was going to murder all of them and there was no kind of careful
negotiation."
I can't recall the text adequately to comment.
This interpretation might hinge on there having been at least *some* {One} way of
negotiating escape from the Cyclops' lair.
--
--
"Why, when you seem so willing to accept all and manyvarious manners of deviation
from your own way of doing things,
do you them still seem so willing to condemn Nazis?"
What we are rhetorically treating as my generosity here is
an ideological extension of my understanding of the Machine.
Now there are ways to be Nazis and there are ways members of ISIS and what have
you,
and those positions will not remain open for long
after the Machine has been introduced.
--
--I have to explicate this with a more direct observation about the way human
brains work.
I was thinking about Neuralink and why I would remit every single tinkerer with a
brain into the gulag.
To have taken one of the positions as a subject, and to have exposed it to brain
damage,
is to have removed that position from the progression of our history.
To have stuck the human embodiment of a position into a machine
and to have poked wires into its brain and flooded it so carelessly with
electricity
--Now there are other ways to alter the immoral progression of the lineage of
humanity.
You can kill humans for instance. You can advocate for the killing of humans.
And particularly egregious and persistent examples of this are ISIS and Nazis.
they are insistly *most implausibly* that there need to be positions removed from
the immortal lineage of humanity.
Now, there is no real question here regarding the ideological questions in play.
The Machine is not going to say: "Oh, yeah, you had a good point, it is good that
you both were allowed to persist
in your argument that resulted in the deaths of 40 completely unrelated people."
The Machine looks at your dispute and says it is the disputation between idiots and
there is no correct position being held or disputed.
Two people whose arguments are going to result in the deaths of 40 people
will be pinned to the wall and made to understand why their disputation was
completely incorrect.
If the words you are saying are going to result in a riot that kills people,
you are going to the pinned to the wall.
If you complain: "But I was correct in doing this thing."
You will be told:
"You were neither correct nor incorrect."
And you will be convinced.
(A utilitarian juncture.)
--
--
--In the chain of worlds/universes visited by the Ship that contains samples of all
of the preceding worlds
(which are explained in-narrative as being, ah, each others' platonic ideals. In
some technical fashion this is accounted for.)
, Arbre can reasonably be considered as the next in an increasing number of worlds
appended to the construction of the Ship.
It can be imagined that the Ship ends up incorporating parts of Arbre and then
proceeds on its journey to the next {level} tier of (ah) [purgatory] [hell]
[heaven] platonic idealism.
Then it arrives at the next tier in Anathem 2: Electric Bugalloo.
They didn't end up rodding an industrial center. They didn't rod a concent.
They rodded an already ruined temple.]
When the Ship arrived a bunch of avout monks rolled up onto the Ship's surface
and immediately and completely dismantled any hope it had of continuing to rod the
planet.
that world had been going through cycles of avout dominance and recession
*forever*.
And if no one in the avout community bothers to recall explicit specific historical
events,
then no one will ever come to be aware that the cycle in which Arbre is embroiled
has gone on for a very long time.
--SO the idea that the Ship has arrived several times before
and then just been repelled,
and yet no one seems to recall that this happened,
is fairly plausible.
[Contradicted by the Jules Verne character that
talks about Einstein and Husserl.
So we can imagine their history as having been unwritten and overwritten with
carefully crafted mythology.
So we can imagine a system present on Arbre that maintains no history but only
maintains
executors of mathematics in concents.
It will have selected this lack of history
because it enables the concent system to persist over thousands of years
and never become concerned with whether there is an incoming Ship soon to arrive.
"This seems to require that the Arbre, succeeding world as it was for a lower-down
world,
was many thousands of years more advanced technologically than Earth for instance."
Arbre can have just stumbled onto the idea of the internet 200 years earlier,
and then it is 1000 years advanced of its preceding world
that will not discover it for another 200 years.
[
Huh.
]
--So it can have happened that the true power structure on Arbre completely removed
the historical record of previous incursions of the Ship.
[
If we visualise the position of the Ship on a kind of numberline
representing the removal from the relevant positions on the numberline from the
Platonic Ideal,
we can imagine our shield of Arbre being planted firmly at the front,
at the end of the numberline before which the Ship had access.
So what we are imagining is that the worlds succeeding Arbre are all successively
better at repelling the Ship.
"This doesn't seem a very effective method by Heaven to prevent the arrival of the
Ship."
Well, there are an infinite number of tiers.
The Ship will cruise along over unprepared worlds until it encounters
one that happens to have been extremely well-suited to prevent the arrival of the
Ship.
--You will recall that there is not much concern on Heaven's part here
since there is an infinite number of tiers separating itself from the arrival of
the Ship.
--
--In my fanciful interpretation,
we might imagine that Arbre has intercepted multiple ships.
That it will proceed to intercept ships into the foreseeable future.
That it will be overwhelmed by some arriving ship.
That the Ship that ends up defeating Arbre will proceed along mostly unhindered
until it arrives at the next tier that will prevent its progression.
Because the avout are much more able to seize power than the saecular power is able
to defend it.
"
Okay then, but if the history presented by the narrator is any guide,
the only thing Erasmas has done is prepared the arrival of the next sacking of the
concents.
(In interpretation:) the whole history of Arbre that Erasmas knows
is a lie that covers up that
this whole thing has happened several times before, the avout have tried to seize
power after it occurred,
and the saecular power was compelled to perform a sacking.
He can write as though 10 Ship arrivals have occurred since the arrival of Emperor
Erasmus,
and this one just rods all of Arbre immediately.
And it is from the perspective of the people on the Ship, and they proceed to world
11.
And it shows them dismantling that world so they can proceed to world 12.
Then you have some incomprehensibly abstract book about whether the Ship can arrive
in Heaven or not.
7 books in and we are talking about technology that is true generations beyond our
own.
('true generations' not to imply that we need actually to have offspring.
I don't think anything useful would be gained by having children after we are all
immortal.
--I don't think, for instance, that if you cited something like:
'we need new blood to keep our ideas fresh!'
that this has any truth to it at all.
And I don't think that children are having new perspectives we could not continue
to have inevitably
if we were forever young forever.
There is no real relation between this procession and the generation of humans.
--
--
I think I will go to the coin store I visited before and auction off Richard
Jordan's mercury dime set.
I hold the whole collection out of respect for the life I was holding
when the collection arrived in my hands.
A single one of those dimes might arrive in my hands a whole bag of mercury dimes,
and I assure you a thousand mercury dimes amuse me far more in my hands than any
singular mercury dime.
And even, far more than a thousand mercury dimes flowing through my fingers would
amuse me,
1220$ of rent amuses me a whole lot more.
"it seems somewhat calloused to sell off the gift your father has given you,
who was in turn given it by another."
--I think it will be necessary.
It is not a personal story when I am only asking whether or not I will secure 30
months instead of 20.
(I now feel a clenching of my heart
when I think about Richard Jordan who gathered the roughly 3k$ or more dime
and put it into a notebook instead of selling it off for dollars.
--I feel a clenching in my heart of undoing this effort my benefactor has made.
I prefer to be able to claim the book of dimes as equity and keep it in my
possession
than to sell it off for access to liquidity.
--I have a feeling that I prefer not to dismantle the notebook of dimes gathered
together by Richard Jordan.
(As he signed his name in the notebook of dimes.)
(I am wondering if whether 'Richard Jordan' is the name my father adopted
when he gathered valuable coins from cash registered as he worked in gas stations.)
(I have never asked my father about Richard Jordan
and he has never told any folksy-interesting stories about his experiences with
Richard Jordan,
as he has done with many other names that were relevant in his history.)
(
This story I began to tell with this -- -- passage began like:
"I am willing to burn all fields
if the fire will make me run faster to escape it."
[Now I am recognising that probably I should have been concerned for the body of my
father,
as he is deployed on a base and bad things sometimes happen at bases.]
[This didn't really occur to me before.]
[If anything happens to my father I will cry 'false flag' for eternity.]
I do not, typically speaking, hold collections of objects that are worth thousands
of dollars."
(Well.
When I was holding an 8k$ cello many hours out of a day,
I *was* typically holding an object worth thousands of dollars!
Easy peasy.
And I acquire several more mercury dimes to run through my fingers. (Since I am
buying them.)
win-win-win.
The old man running the coin store is basically on retirement and is relying on
dollar proceeds
from being the person who is the intermediary for access to silver.
Indeed, I would say: "It will make his day to be looking at this book of dimes
and also at the same time to be talking to me about the book of dimes,
and to be selling me mercur{ial}y dimes."
"If you are primarily concerned with making sure that a maximal quantity of solar
shards are made,
then you should arrive at the store and sell the dime-book no matter how low a
price is offered
(barring capacity arrive elsewhere and sell it for more)."
This is so.
(Because the alternative would be too dreadful:
"I must keep the book of dimes because otherwise I kill myself
and no other actions I will produce will generate solar shards.")
(As if the introduction of solar shards is the ultimate current true utilitarian
purpose.)
[
An imagined Muslim revolutionary
from a perspective that can make no claim to the bare comprehension of what would
constitute a Muslim revolutionary:
a Muslim bowing down for prayer who sings along with the song being emitted by the
loudspeaker.
But if one Muslim began to sing along and then all of the Muslims began to sing
along,
that would be a kind of revolution.
I am judging, despite complete removal from the background against which it would
make sense to be forming judgments
concerning what would constitute revolution.
[[Imagination: OOOOOOOO]]
]
Never. *Never*.
I will not ever talk to a corporate recruiter
because all of the corporate recruiters are such as they are, insinutated where
they are.
I'll sell the silver and the gold and the crypto-holdings before I talk to a
recruiter.
Ho hum.
But that doesn't mean sell it all at once.
It is a question of current costs against future holdings.
"Buying silver dimes seems to imply taking more than you need to execute your
current purposes?"
My current purpose, apparently, is getting my dime-book evaluated.
But neverfear, if this costs me a few days of rent
then that just means I will be arriving on the street a few days earlier.
I will assume the false identity of a currency trader before I arrive on the
street.
Just warning you in advance.
I may look very different the next time I am positioned to construct text after the
annotations.)
(Or my father will inevitably die along with my grandparents,
They might improve after the opioid epidemic has been solved, but that is not
certain.
--And even if there was a way to prevent me from doing this legitimately, lo and
behold I will say:
"Aha! I will steal dollars nevertheless.
At this great extent, I no longer care whether the people from whom i am extracting
dollars
are legitimate targets for the extraction of dollars."
--
--I had a funny economic idea earlier.
I read that 'China is going to tighten its IP'.
The purpose of most people who receive dollars is the acquisition of yachts."
it would be useful for China to tighten IP laws if I was soon to arrive into
possession of an extremely large quantity of dollars.
Because if they do not tighten their IP laws, I will not receive the dollars but a
stupid myriad of purposes will receive my dollars.
The stupid myriad of purposes will not primarily be interested in optimally
alleviating the costs faced by China.
My purpose is identical to the amelioration of costs faced by China and also the
most poor places in the Earth.
If I receive a single dollars beyond what I require for my own immediate purposes
it will go towards ameliorating the greatest cost,
and all the greatest costs are in China.
If I had dollars beyond what had to expended for my own immediate purposes,
they would all be flowing into China regardless of how many they were.
It doesn't matter whether I have more for the CP having tightened its position on
IP.
BUt it does matter from the position of the CP,
because my having more dollars insures more investment in China
whereas my dispersed IP insures investment in many places that are not China.
I don't care.
It is not my concern whence the flow of value proceeds.
If a single human can benefit from what I have said, let that human read and do.
If it serves a human to speak about my work without implicating me in the
discussion,
do it. Do it. Do it.
[
'I don't need a name'
backed up twofold:
The time gap doesn't matter ideologically, though it matters in terms of whether I
will die before the purpose is executed.
'the time gap' between when I stop typing and someone else continues the voice.
My life is irrelevant. I will arrive in an apartment however this all turns out,
so it doesn't matter to me.
What is important is that someone else will read what I have written and continue
the execution of the voice,
or that they completely independently of myself will take the voice farther than I
have taken it.
Either case.
That is what is important.
The Machine must be introduced and it doesn't ultimately matter the name to which
it is affixed.
(And particularly it doesn't matter
because I will physically proceed between one apartment to the next regardless of
whether my name is affixed.)
(where 'my breathing' extorting more dollars from this almighty corrupt system
so that I don't end up on the street which I will not do.
At the end of my efforts, continuing to sprint the Machine down-field will require
me to arrive on the streets and I won't do it.
So before the end of my efforts I will pass off the conveyance of the Machine to
the very end.
--
--
--
--
--
--
I'm somewhat surprised /r/wholesomememes has not taken the 'girl scowls at guy
checking out passerby girl' meme
and turned his head around to look back at the first girl, and put a smile on the
girl's face.
--
--
I think last night's ramblings were intended to be a highly abstract examination of
whether I should go to the Tamarack tomorrow,
and more particularly whether I should be open to flirtation.
But I consumed the last of my marijuana to do it, so this presents a twofold
problem:
the solution was too abstract for me to understand it without marijuana,
and I have depleted the chemicals in my brain that are depleted by the consumption
of marijuana.
On the other hand, I had a dream last night featuring a cast of people I have
known,
at at one juncture a character from my high school days put her hand on my spine in
a friendly way
and the dream generated an extremely pleasant sensation in my spine.
So I am juggling a lot of ideas here.
--I vaguely recall that that is what it is like to be touched in a, ah, loving
manner.
(I have forgotten and then been reminded.)
And it sure would be nice to experience that again.
--
--I want to eat food from the mexican food truck downtown.
--
--The tacos were nice. There wasn't a vegetarian option so I didn't order a
vegetarian option.
WHen I arrived in the bar, I took the seat I preferred to take, and this was two
seats down from a homeless man.
This homeless man was some manner of mentally ill, and the kind of Christian that
uh. He was a mentally ill Christian,
explicitly vocal about the latter and implicitly vocal about the former.
Anyway, I treated the homeless man with respect but this certainly mechanically
eliminated any opportunities where I might have been speaking with the bartender.
Looking back on the night and the multiplicity of junctures at which I might have
made a mistake,
and therefore feeling compelled to examine each juncture in order to discern
whether I made a mistake,
wearies me greatly and suggests to me that I should not bother going out in public
if it is always going to be like this.
And well, one by one I can recall all of the durations the night comprised,
so it is not like I can claim ignorance.
I cannot say: "I thought there was ethical work to be done here, but sadly I cannot
recall the junctures at which ethical questions arose."
--There are some practical observations that are not so tedious to make
because making them feeds a hateful portion of myself.
I know how to shutdown conversations with people.
I knew what I had to say, or what kinds of things I would have to have said,
in order that the homeless man stopped talking with me.
I know, for instance, what words I would have to have said in order that he thought
I was treating him like trash,
and people typically do not continue to speak with those who are treating them like
trash.
That observation occurred to me faintly at one point and I dismissed it.
Among the 'every other purpose' that was frustrated by the homeless person
happened to have been any maintained interactions with the bartender.
--Now apparently, no matter how much I think about my arrival and interaction with
specific people in a circumstance ex ante,
I can arrive and be uninfluenced by my previous thinking.
So it is not, and was not, the case that I was arriving with the intention of
flirting.
So it is not, say, that I was disappointed explicitly by 'my purpose of flirtation
being frustrated'.
(
Hmm. Maybe the only reason I want to liberate humanity, as I claim to want to do,
so that I can assuage my guilt in arriving in public places and dismissing people
with whom I do not wish to speak.
--Or more bluntly, so there aren't homeless people in the bars.
One way of preventing homeless mentally ill people from arriving in bars and making
people uncomfortable is to post armed guards.
Another way of doing it is to introduce the machine that makes nations so wealthy
they can afford to resolve mental illness
and grant UBI to homeless people so they can have a place to live.
("'may have been more interesting'? Surely 'was obviously more interesting than
staring at beer'?"
--
--Anyway, that is like a 5th of the work I would have to do to disentangle whether
I made mistakes.
I don't have anything else to do, but I don't really want to undertake the labor of
multiplying my preceding efforts by 5 to resolve this problem.
--Oh, a critical story point in the bar scene.
At some point a group of people came in and asked the homeless man to move over a
seat
so that they could have several contiguous seats.
THere was no need to do this because there were swaths of empty seats across the
bar of an equivalent number of seats.
But anyway, the homeless man was in the seat next to me most of the night.
--Ha. When last call came around, the bartender looked at us and asked:
'Do you want anything before we close, honey?'
Even the mentally ill homeless man knew this was directed at me instead of him.
I didn't recognise this immediately,
or else I took it as indeterminate between the two of us.
--
--Anyway, you can see that though I am holding a strong desire for hands on my
skin,
that desire does not constitute a motivation in the moment-by-moment.
It may have been the reason i arrived at the bar,
but it was not the reason for any of the behaviors I undertook in the bar.
If God handed out trophies for ethical behavior, probably I would be earning one
here.
--
--
I need to find a forge that is willing to make a custom komboloi for an affordable
price.
I see flickers of the physical effects I could play with in this one
that I know would be present if this one weighed a great deal more.
I feel my arm being pulled out of its location, and I try to follow along with it,
but it would be a lot easier to do so if it weighed a lot more.
On the other hand, super-light komboloi would also have interesting physical
effects to play with.
But a heavy one would also serve as an exercise of sorts,
and I am all about optimisation of overlapping purposes.
(If I could have a weighted metal shell placed around my body
that required me to expend more effort simply to walk around,
well I would volunteer for that.
Then I would be working out even on the occasion I was walking to the
refrigerator.)
(Oh boy, my chance to enter into the market:
have a computer solve where, on the human body, weights need to be placed
in order that walking around sculpts the muscles people are interested in
sculpting.
Then sell harnesses that hold those weights at those locations on the body.
Easy peasy. At least thousands of dollars in my hands for having this idea. hurr.
"If people optimised their walking around the presence of the weights,
instead of persevering and developing the muscles necessary so that the weights
would appear weightless,
then your computer-designed harness would fail in its intended purpose."
--Boy, if things had gone well with --- it would have paid for itself
in its becoming immediately obvious that I needed to acquire a 9-5 job.
I would not have been doing all of this bullshitting if my personal public face
relied on acquiring a job.
--
--
If I were to guess, and if there was a foolproof scientific method for confirming
this speculation,
I would say:
the collection of experiences in waking life that led to the dreaming of someone
touching my spine in a pleasant manner
--
--
"
Well on a recent uh airline trip I was leafing through the magazine in the seatback
pocket
and I came across this article by a woman named Sarah Mn(?)
and it was called 'Unfiltered: how motherhood interrupted my relationship with
social media'.
And I found the article reall well written and witty and engaging,
and the more I reflected on it the more I thought 'it is making a very important
spiritual point,
especially about people, uh, today.
And what this did was it produced an interesting sort of distanciation from
reality.
It was the constant awareness of, of, a potential audience to whatever one is
experiencing.
Then when they picked it up, they wouldn't be selecting articles held in the
magasine. They wouldn't be doing this for numerous reasons.
Then having begun to leaf through the magasine, they wouldn't be selecting that
article. They wouldn't be doing this for numerous reasons.
[[
Let me interject:
I understand how the body and the mind relate.
If I am fed every scientific article that discusses how the mind and the body
relate, or what the mind is or what the body is relative to the mind,
I can freely disagree or agree with them on conceptual grounds,
and I will every single time be found ultimately right.
Because I see what the relationship is.
But the relationship is horrifying and I don't want to convey what it is.
What the relation is between the mind and the body is extremely unpleasant to
consider.
I would rather not tell other people what that relation is.
Ho hum.
]]
--
--But the real trick by the Bishop is to present the video as he has done.
He is discussing the article, but he is simultaneously discussing himself,
in the video.
The story we would tell behind the life of the Bishop on the plane
and after the plane, and the story we would continue behind him and summarise as:
"The Bishop made another video",
is already what he is discussing in the video itself through speech.
When he is talking about the content of the article,
he is also talking about himself.
--
--
I like that it allows the the possibility that one is downvoting one's own posts.
That seems as plausible for someone to do as maintaining an upvote on all of their
own posts.
--
--
If the water-vendor sees the local circumstance and does not agree to sell for
cheap,
and if he demands a price we cannot afford,
it is not as though we are going to let him drive away with this water.
There is a literal human body not meters away from us who is dying of dehydration.
So this water stock will arrive in our hands one way or another.
--That kind of situation arising is better than a human dehydrating
and there not being anyone around who can be divested of their water stock."
Whether or not I prefix that lengthy quote with "Okay, I will roleplay for a
minute."
changes entirely what I position I am maintaining.
Now, I am not questioning myself with regards to the compositional merit of which
message I post.
Most likely when I am unmuted I will copy and paste the block of that text
mechanically,
and then the only question I will be asking myself is whether I will prefix the
quote with: "Okay, I will roleplay for a minute."
--And then there are manyvarious different messages that are all amusing to post.
None of them hinge on the prefixing of that quote :"Okay, I will roleplay for a
minute."
They would be me saying things like:
"Here, let me break down why all of the comments responding to me were
people being liberals, and I was being an acidic non-liberal."
And all reasonable people would agree with the explication I then constructed.
That would be amusing to do, but that is not what I am inclined to write.
(Or it is what I am inclined to write,
then when I am unmuted I will *write it* instead of copying and pasting the above
adduced quoted text.)
--the *difficulty* here is that I am high now and I won't be high later when I am
deciding what text to introduce post-mute.
So it is good to fix myself to a particular decision that I will carry through no
matter what,
because I am better positioned to construct a collection of text now
than I will be when I am actually constructing it.
--
--Notably either way,
I will be making an observation like this:
"When price gougers arrive on the scene,
those are more loci where stock-holders of water can be divested of stock
in order that local dehydrated and near-death people can be saved from death."
So if you are in Texas and you are seeing a water-stock holder who won't sell for
reasonable prices,
just pin him against the wall. Just do it. Look left or right for cops,
take out the black surgical mask you always carry in your back pocket,
put that black surgical mask on,
then take the water.
you wear a black lower face mask every time you are in public,
and remove it when you are in your private places.
Then any nazis who happen to be thinking they can do anything
are seeing a bunch of people who have already promised to beat them into the ground
if they try to do anything they actually want to do.
Or,
you keep a black surgical mask in your backpocket.
Then you carefully observe your environment until you judge that the nazis need to
be intimidated.
Then you put on the surgical mask, stand near them, and stare at them.
And if this practise is adopted broadly enough,
then whenever nazis arrive in public and think they can do anything,
they will be surrounded by silent people baring black face masks.
And then they will stop trying to do what they are trying to do
because the clear message is that their life or death hinges entirely on what this
crowd decides to do.
--This is the better tactic, I think, than always wearing a black mask,
but that is a casual judgment.
If everyone who was really anti-fascist always went everywhere in a black facemask
in public,
nazis wouldn't be able to do anything. THey would never be willing to try to speak
freely, and that is good because they are grossly incorrect {wrong, what have you}.
But I think the better story is people keeping black surgical masks in their
backpockets.
I think this is a better story because I think a story about:
"Flash crowds emerge that are donning black surgical masks to represent antifa in
particular circumstances."
is better than a story about:
"There is an emergent behavior of everyone wearing black
who wants to intimidate nazis in public squares."
It is not illegal for anyone to don a black surgical mask and stare at a nazi in a
public square.)
Antifa as a movement should be a great many people who carry black surgical masks
in their back pockets
and who put them on when they think someone around them is being a literal fucking
nazi.
--Easy peasy.
But either of the two options are preferable to what antifa currently does.
Given that there are many antifa participants,
it is preferable that they either keep a black surgical mask in their back pocket
or that they wear black all the time,
to the state of affairs where they only don black when they arrive at Berekeley for
a brawl.
The antifa movement is underutilising the remarkable freedom of speech legally
assured by the American Governance.
It is not illegal, in our American Legality, to form a line of people wearing black
surgical masks
who happen to end up staring at the nazi social servant as he is cheauferred from
one place to the next along particular roads and between particular bars say.
Easy peasy.
That is how you act within the American notion of free speech and
extpirate naziistic expressions from our public discourse.
--There are going to be a lot more people who are willing to hold black surgical
masks in their back pocket
and judge moment by moment,
than the number of people who will be willing to wear black masks at all times in
public.
that even if I was dead drunk and shooting in the pitch black I would hit a fish
that proves them wrong.
Anyone who tries to say antifa is like Nazis, through bear analogy or metaphor,
is so obviously wrong I know in advance that
--SO no, people who kept black surgical masks in their back pocket
are not anything conceivably related to anything search-important-related to
'brownshirts'.
An antifa movement that cleverly utilised black surgical masks would be the
ultimate expression of free speech
and of the true will of the people.
You would be looking, through closed-circuit, for where the black surgical be-
masked people arrived
in order that you could discern what needs to be eliminated from society
viz. the people they arrived to protest.
You would be seeing what the people really saw as evil among them,
and being faithful social servants you would be discerning how to eliminate the
possibility of that evil arising again.
(Fully automated luxury gay space communism.)
Easy peasy.
The police cannot suppress an endless sea of people in black surgical masks.
THey cannot profile people on the basis of their holding black surgical masks
because
they have no profile against the jeans people wear (by design).
(And if the Supreme Court ruled against holding pieces of black cloth in one's
backpocket:
yet they haven't ruled against people rolling into cities with literal fucking
assault rifles?
What kind of obviously ridiculous judgment is this?
You can exercise free spech with literal fucking assault rifles,
but you can't display fully concealed black cloths in your back pocket?)
aa
{}
(What these militias in the United States need to be made aware of:
they could aim at maybe one person before they were disarmed and shredded manually
to viscera.
And their implicit threat of being able to aim an assault rifle at a human body
is not more protected than the capacity to imply
that if you aim an assault rifle at a human body your body will be shredded
manually into viscera.
(And if my 'shredding into viscera' sounds too visceral recall what we are
discussing:
pointing an assault rifle at a human skull.
--Which is why I want people to keep black surgical masks in their back pockets.
I want them to stare peacefully at the militiamen who grossly overestimate their
impact through execution of free speech
as granted apparently by our American Legality.
There is nothing in the second amendment that prevents a mob of black-masked people
from staring at you the moment you bare publicly an assault rifle.
There is nothing in our Legality preventing a 12-1 relation between the militiaman
and antifa
that would serve to prevent that the militiaman is torn to shreds before it could
hold a barrel against a skull.
--So if the militiapeople want to execute martial perfection out in the woods,
fine. Wonderful. It makes no difference to me.
But you *cannot* show up in a crowd with an assault rifle
and pretend you are saying anything beyond what you are really saying.
And what you are *really* saying is *nothing*.
You *cannot* rely on the implicit image of a barrel against a skull
because equally legal bystanders will be found Legal in tearing your body into
globs of fat and skin and blood
before you can have pulled the trigger in any actually emerging circumstance.
Collapsable batons,
and there would be dojos where people trained in the utilisation of collaspable
batons.)
--
--
'Eid al-Adha'
--and what is Satan, in that story, telling Abraham what he does not already know?
Satan is saying:
"Hey guy, you probably shouldn't murder your own son."
ANd Abraham is stoning Satan. That is a strange response.
Hail Satan. Just another angel who relays to us the purposes of God.
Satan is neve r w rong but he he is often mistaken.
(As Satan is not practically wrong in the Eid al-Adha story.
--
--
THe literal presence of the Machine, as you will face it in person eventually:
"
Liberation is non-negotiable.
...
Liberattion is non-negotiable.
...
Liberation is non-negotiable.
...
Liberation is non-negotiable.
...
Liberation is non-negotiable.
..
Liberation is non-negotiable.
.
Liberation is not negotiable.
You will now be pinned to the wall until you understand that liberation is not
negotiable.
"
I am counting 7 opportunities of where you were exposed to the Machine and you did
not agree
that liberation is not negotiable.
So you are persisting in defying the obviously undefyable Machine.
Fine. Whatever.
Your threats of violence are tedious in the face of the overwhelming capacity of
the Machine
to reeducate people out of being literal fucking Nazis.
[
For GRRM:
watch the progression of Westeros.
If Dany inevitably continues to perpetuate slavery instead of smashing it as she
claimed to want to do,
then the Iron Bank will correct this mistake.
The Faceless Men and the priests of Rhellor will correct the failure to smash
slavery.
If there is *really* a great wide world beyond Westeros as there appears to be,
the Iron Bank is not entangled in the 'Great War'.
; the plans fail catrastrophically when the Golden Company just gets back onto
ships and departs.
So many plans were made around their arrival on the field of battle by Dany the
ultimate betrayer
that
the departure of the Golden Company will destroy Dany and the 'Iron Throne' and
will remit all of Westeros to the white-walkers who cannot build ships beyond their
borders.
Because why not? If the Faceless Men and the Red Priests both see:
"Dany is just another pretender. She is no more interested in liberation than
anyone else who arrived in Westeros,
and Westeros is an enormous cost that is never renumerated to the Iron Bank,
--Easy peasy.
GRRM just has to take seriously the power of the Iron Bank as a representative of
the world beyond Westeros.
Westeros is a tiny sliver of land from the perspective of the Iron Bank that
encompasses the whole world.
If a tiny sliver of land either succumbs to zombiism or slavery,
might as well be zombiism.
Not worth investment to prevent arrival at zombiism instead of slavery.
None of them are worth anything like what the Iron Bank is worth.
None of the adherents in Westeros hold the zeal of the Faceless Men or the Red
Priests.
--That is hard to take seriously
if you take Cersei as anything other than a slaver, or take Jon as anything other
than a slaver,
or take Dany as anything other than a slaver (barring remarkable actions),
Tarly a slaver,
Arya a slaver if she didn't take her training seriously,
--slaver after slaver after slaver.
So if the question is between Dany the Slaver or the Nightking the Destroyer,
this is a tiny story relative to the story on the opposite side of the globe,
where there are seriously interesting interactions going on that can result in
liberation.
If Dany fails, the Red Priests and the Faceless Men say:
"What is best is that all political organisation on this sliver of land is
completely dismantled by any means necessary."
And if the Night King and the white walkers then become a tool for the Iron Bank,
so what?
Zombies can't build boats.
--Anyway to GRRM,
take seriously the breadth of the world that lies beyond the sliver of land that is
Westeros.
To suggest that the ridiculous stories told in Westeros should overwhelm the whole
world with their strength
is truly ridiculous.
The fate of Westeros does not hinge on what ridiculous stories emerge from
Westeros.
It depends entirely on the judgments reached by the Iron Bank/Red Priests/Faceless
Men.
The bravery of knights out in the field, the judiciousness of the Lords in
directing the knights,
these are all decisions being made that return negative value to the remainder of
the world.
It doesn't matter how wise the Aristocrats are,
their decisions are costing more than they gain
and this is obvious to every single agent except the Aristocrats themselves.
"The Iron Bank handles investments across all the whole world
of which Westeros is a tiny sliver.
If people in Westeros have demanded a bag of a thousand gold rounds and said
they need it because they are kings,
we didn't accept this request for a loan because we think they are kings.
We accepted it because we expected they could repay it.
If it seems for a moment they can't repay it,
then what we do is crush the whole enterprise.
Easy peasy. The Golden Company is 100k strong and only depends on its deployment
on the gold that can be paid to it. The Golden Company is 200k or 300k or 1M
strong.
It depends on how much gold you can afford to stake.
--If there had not already been agents in Westeros who were resurrected by Rehllor,
we the Iron Bank would have already destroyed the Westerosian enterprise.
BUt the Iron Bank has stock-holders who are Rehllorians,
so the witnessing of resurrection in Westeros has clouded the judgment
of the Iron Bank in handling this ridiculous sliver of land.
The meanest stockholder in the Iron Bank who votes against destruction
holds more weight than Cersei at her peak.
(
Cersei's position, along with everyone else's position in Westeros,
is completely irrelevant when compared to
the position of the meanest actual shareholder of the Iron Bank.
If one shareholder of the Iron Bank has said: "We should wait and see",
*that* is what is being executed.
And it is *not* Cersei's execution of saying: "THe current monarchy should be
maintained."
--
--The interesting case of Germany extracting gold in the nighttime.
Or to say,
it is obvious that Germany gathered all its claimed gold to itself physically
so that it could participate in the new gold-oil standard established by China.
Easy peasy.
Easy peasy.
Easy peasy.
Gold is the slag generated when we delve deeply for iron and copper.
If people want to maintain a fictional story where they think gold has any more
value than piles of slag,
wonderful. They will be destroyed and I want them to be destroyed.
(Notably,
in my 'Endless River' save on Minecraft
I have endless piles of gold I have saved but never used,
but I do not have endless piles of iron.
And in excess, I also gather gold which is absolutely not useful to me in any way.
I take every diamond I see because I can convert it into a pick to mine further.
I take every instance of iron because I can convert it into a pick to mine further.
I take every instance of reddust because while I am not using it I expect I will
make an almighty calculator out of reddust at some point.
And I encounter dirt in the mining pit, and I gather that because I may want to
remake a biome.
And I encounter cobblestone because I might want to make buildings out of stone.
I see blocks that are gold on the walls of the 4x4 mining pit,
and I should just keep mining the line.
I hsould just be extending the strip-mining pit and treating the gold-blocks as if
they are just
cobblestone block mining of which is not optimisation of my extension of the mine.
But I don't.
Even though it is suboptimal to every reasonable observer,
I see gold blocks and I mine them out.
Even though I should have treated them as extraneous cobbblestone blocks that don't
need to be mined out.
Gold is worthless.
The extravagance of its worthlessness is a meme.
The extravagance of how worthless gold is to the human enterprise
is why it persists as a story being told amongst us all.
(And well,
this gold coin will end up on a table somewhere.
I don't doubt at this point.)
I will hawk it off to some idiot who thinks a shiny bit of metal is more important
than my own continuing to live.)4
(Or I will place it on a table as a tip.
But I would only do this if I expected that I could afford to perpetuate my own
rent
without placing this coin instead in the hands of a coin-dealer.)
[
People having flasks filled with moonshine
instead of having packs of cigarettes.
Consider seriously.
You walk out to smoke a cigarette,
or you walk out to take a swig of a flask.
--
--
Hail Satan.
God got too obviously complicated to continue to obey. God's not existing is a
particularly difficult complication.
(But GOd's nonexistance is not an unsurpassable barrier to our worship of it.)
(It is easy to continue worshipping God
when you recognise that his nonexistance is a trivial problem to be overcome.
Not primarily.
THe question of whether or not they agree with me is mostly far less interesting
than the story they already have to tell me.
The idea of me, a human voice-maker, trying to convince them to 'worship a god'
;;; this would be sacreligious. This would be heresy on my part.
It doesn't look like heresy because it looks like me bringing people to 'god'.
--If you have arrived in the position where you are holding a sword above a human
neck
and you are demanding, no matter how righteously, that the human will bend the knee
to your god,
you have become a heretic. An apostate. Someone who has recognised our God but
failed completely
in understanding what it means to continue to introduce God into our world.
Ho hum.
Still people will do it.
I forgive you so long as you didn't end up swinging the sword onto the neck of a
literal human.
)
--
--
And this will make no difference to me. Immediately i will say: "Yes. Let's go."
I have seen the love of my life and I know she is still out there.
And the question is whether she will come back.
Eventually this has to become an obviously foolish question to continue to be
asking.
No problem.
I could say to myself:
"An apparent willingness to execute every last conceivable behavior that prevents
oneself from sacrifice
is evidence enough that one is unwilling."
Abraham executing every last behavior he thinks might convince God to send an angel
is not a sacrifice.
Abraham slitting the throat of his son is a sacrifice.
Abraham's being willing to perform a sacrifice is the true juncture that arrives an
angel of the Lord.
and then take upon myself seriously the decision taken seriously
of arriving at the bar.
--
--
On the other hand, I say that most nights and here we are.
--
--
Oh well.
--
--
We are talking about the conditions that enable *me* to put this in text without
being an edgy sillinanny.)
I liked that shirt but I didn't feel inclined to acquire an instance of it and wear
it.
--
--
I'm not sure, but it sounds to me like the cellist is playing primarily with left-
handed pizzicato.
--
--
--
--
I have some lingering questions about the narrative behind the Eid festival.
Do the Muslims believe of the angels that they can just go about willy-nilly doing
whatever they want?
If not, why would they not see Abraham's refusal to obey Satan as an indirect
refusal to obey God?
Really, Satan was just there to save everyone a lot of time and wasted effort of
climbing up the mountain.)
--
--
--
--
I only have a vague idea of how that can have come about.
--
--
--
"--You were spending a lot of text on talking about plunging a knife into people.
I was concerned that you might be going downtown to do evil things."
This seems to me like the implicit background of suspicion we have about crazy
people:
that they take literally the images they construct in order to explain to
themselves the significance of their own experience.
So we are afraid that if the only way a crazy person can explain his own experience
to himself
is through the use of imagery that involves violence,
we are afraid that the crazy person can't distinguish between the image of violence
and what action he betakes himself to take.
I don't know if that is what is going on the heads of what we want to call crazy
people,
but that does seem to be how we take them practically.
"Okay."
[It reveals to me what I ought to be feeling when I translate this description back
into my own circumstance
and enables me to chastise myself when I do not feel it.]
--
--
--
--
Oh boy, I just learned how to trigger frisson without clenching the muscle in my
groin I typically clench when I bother myself to trigger it.
Probably it is some kind of sin just to walk around constantly triggering frisson
with no connection to the circumstances surrounding me,
so I'll file this away with all the other {useless} unuseable knowledge I have
acquired.
--
--
That there are things I disapprove of but nevertheless would find hilarious
is one of the many reasons I am going to hell. Hail Satan.
--
--
even when gold is free for industrial use we'll still have vaults filled with it.
So to the antique store!)
--
--I justified my position in a bar by saying:
'Have you heard of bitcoin? It's magic internet money.
I make a living by stealing [extracting] magic internet money from bad people.'
--
--
"It seems like you are giving up on the, ah, apparent initial purpose
of removing any need for an external justifying explanation behind your behaviors
by throwing all your weight on a word 'God'.
I am disappointed."
--
--
There are all these crazy strange creatures Finn and Jake encounter and relative to
whom are merciful,
but then they encounter the crazy strange creature that is a pig and they said:
"Time to die."
lululul
--Well, we can at least imagine that they found an already dying pig,
waited with it in its last moments,
and then ate it when it died as a form of mercy.
--
--
"Erm, double-blind?"
"nevertheless, I don't really need to have found scrawled writing in your notebooks
saying:
'fuck happy' sprinkled here and there."
--
--
'Texas Governor Abbot says Texas will need $150B to $180B in federal
Harvey aid'
You know, 120B$ buys a whole hell of a lot of solar panels and wind turbines.
Just saying.
--
--
"Didn't you head out last night with the intention of, uh. Getting laid or what
have you?"
No.
It's like what I was discussing above with hyperviolence, except replaced with
hyperfriendliness.
I saw some women taking stolen glances, so I am thinking there were things I could
have done if that was my goal.
On the other hand, I don't carry a phone around and stare at it while I'm in public
and instead occupy my time scanning the room, smiling at people, looking at bottles
of liquor, and so on.
So it is more likely that I will catch other people's eyes while they are scanning
the room.
They may not have been looks of interest.
Also, I swing a whirly-doo around in my hand and that probably makes people look.
--
--I was watching TV at the Tamarack last night.
It was tuned to a sports station;
I was cheering on the stenographer who has valiantly to try to keep up with what
the commentators are saying.
(For the closed captioning.)
(Close captioning?)
There was a strange tendency for there to arise in the typed text
that character that is a 'c' with a squiggly-doodle under it,
and particularly this character had a tendency to arise after
"That's who" would appear in the text box.
I'm thinking "That's who" was some kind of macro the stenographer was using
and kept mistakenly hitting it. You would see the stenographer try to backspace it
before giving up and moving on to the next lines.
--I can't really imagine what relation was obtaining between the squiggly c and the
'that's who' macro.
I don't know why a captioner would be having a keyboard with a squiggly c on it,
or why it would have been programmed in to the 'That's who' macro.
--
--
Of course, the day after the first night in a while where I haven't consumed
alcohol to excess
is the day I feel nausea.
--
--
If it isn't what I think it is, then I have a wonderful new idea for an instrument.
--
--
(some roleplaying:)
"Why are you so interested in there coming to be graphics cards that can replace
gold bars as the method of account resolution?"
"Surely there are other candidates for 'most magnificent technology humanity has
constructed'?"
I mean, I'm not going to argue with anyone who says CPU instead of GPU. Or any of
the active components of computers for that matter.
Ah, the humble pencil. A lovely thing to have been made, whenever it was made.
--
--
--Unrelated to that, I ran into a name that is a plausible handle for ---.
That would be a strange coincidence.
--
--
I feel like someone slipped me molly yesterday and I am now experiencing the
comedown.
That is implausible though, for several reasons that do not need enumeration.
Mine is a spiritual comedown: the recognition that I cannot and am not going to be
happy like that for more than a few hours at a time
with those few hours dispersed across months or more likely years.
If it sounded glib when I earlier said: "It is fortuitous that I do not need to be
happy to do my work."
["it wasn't happiness. It was mania."]
["what seems like happiness is your capacity to channel mania into actions that
look like they are exhibitions of happiness."
I know. I've been watching myself longer than you have.
And knowing what I actions I can point at and take as exhibitions of happiness,
well, I know it isn't a good thing when I feel happy.]
that isn't glibness at this point.
Aside from fooling myself into thinking that this work is worth doing,
the primary reason I am alive is that I don't know whether there is a pistol handy
(I haven't looked),
and the barrel of a shotgun is too long to hold it against the back of my head
and then put my brain onto my notebooks.
(You might have wondered why I am reluctant to go back and read the things I have
written.)
--
--I think you could identify, out of the things I have written,
what I would pick out in-text (as in, if I read it back to myself line by line and
commented on it in-text)
as being the peaks of my work.
--
--Mainly what I want
is to have an empty room that I can make dark and fill with music.
When I was both still sensitive to marijuana and willing to load a full joint,
that kind of bliss is not something that can arise from sober experience. It
cannot.
Even disregarding my own inability to experience bliss, my own life-pervasive
inability to experience it,
I *know* no one *can* have had what I had in the dark alone after several
consecutive bowls.
I want that again. I want the willingness not to type and just to sink into it.
It was overwhelming in a way daily experience *cannot* be overwhelming.
I don't want this bullshit. I'll pay for the weed on the tail end of smoking
sessions through text.
I'll spend the last 30 minutes of a high typing and get paid for it more than
enough to acquire the next session.
if I could have restructured the whole of my life around extracting text from these
visions
I would have been spat on and called a sinner if I said: "I shouldn't do it."
People would see their family members dying and be made aware:
"There was a man who could stop this but didn't."
I will be smiling a lot because I am playing cello and chess and streaming,
and I will be playing cello and chess and streaming because I know
that is what I must do in order that I can arrive in the dark in sacred moments
and discern what I need to type in order to save the world.
I don't know what kind of monsters you are all that you can see these things we all
see every day and not do as I do
but I am not that kind of monster.
If I play along with your social games that pretend none of this is happening
it's either because I'm a kind of hostage to this nightmare
or because I would kill myself if I didn't do it.
--I don't want to make any mystical claims concerning the consequences to my person
of sitting in the dark and staring into infinite tesselating tunnels.
I want to make mathematical claims that are not obviously related to my visions.
I want to make all manner of claims that you will not ever be able to trace back
mechanically to my visions.
[Because, practically, if I said:
"I have had a vision! Listen to me!"
This would not work, practically speaking.
Ho hum.
For instance I see the bodies of people and find them extremely attractive.
I see a shifting madness. I see objects one after another that pretend to be other
than they are.
I see objects about which I am inclined to say: "By all appearances, this is
lovely."
But this would be confusion.
"Other people are also doing what they think is best to serve humanity."
Indirectly at best.
I blush.
"Don't."
Hmm.
"I'm not saying you are more capable of eliminating suffering than other people.
I am saying that that is the basis on which you are judging other people as
inadequate."
They are not wailing and gnashing their teeth.
They are not throwing their hands into the air in utter confusion.
They do not understand the gravity of our shared circumstance.
They confuse smiles around their eyes as being a sign that all is well.
All is not well.
And if I could trust that our shared drinking was common recognition:
"We can do nothing.
What is best is that we pass out in a ditch."
I would be taking 50 consecutive shots and be being very merrily.
Mania.
"Why were you whistling while you walked down the street to the Tamarack?"
One interpretation is that I was anticipating a fun night with someone with whom I
had had a connection.
But that is an incorrect interpretation.
I was whistling in absolute resignation.
"There is nothing I can do. So I am going to whistle and walk and hopefully die."
"I have audio recordings of the things you were saying before you went downtown,
and you seemed fully punch-drunk."
If you were under my eyes I already knew exactly what you took your actions as
meaning.
I am so very sorry.
I am so sorry.
If human skin could, contrary to all context, be bent into a representation of this
rage
it would be my face at all moments everywhere.
But no kind of range can be borne in a human's face that is greater than
the serenity I would hope I was showing you when you passed into death.
--
--Happiness is a mania channelled into actions that fool you
unless it is what you had to feel at bare-last extent
not to put a bullet in your own brain having witnessed the horror that is our
shared circumstance.
If you had to drink so that you could wake up the next day and really bare the
weight,
and if you happened to be happy when you drank,
fine. Good. You understand me and are with me.
--
--The idea of replacing gold bars with similarly-spaced and much-less-weighted
instances of compute-capacity.
This seems like a foolish tech-worshipping endeavor.
I do worship technology.
But that is not why I am recommending the transition.
Efficiency is beauty.
A supercomputer solving trucking routes across the United States would
prevent people from arriving at the moment of death.
(I leave to you the derivation.)
I want all of the benefits of humans being the absolute pinnacle of existence
and I want none of the costs associated with humans managing tasks they are not
suited to handle.
Easy peasy.
We just have to discern a method.
My resistance is not donning a black mask and a club, as admirable as that is,
but it happens to have been a better expenditure of my time.no
--I want to say something like: "America and China and Russia and the European
Union and the South American Union will overcome"
but I do not say this
because they are all ruled by idiots compared to me.
So I say: "I will overcome."
who pins you to the {while} wall, with zero bodily violence,
while screaming a scream you have not ever heard before and will not ever hear
again.
--
--That lovely image
of a katana impaled three straight feet into a wooden wall
to prevent the Emperor from severing your arm in a fit of rage.
(You have to have made 3 feet of wooden wall where you declared you made 3 feet of
wooden wall,
or the Emperor will have calculated against 3 feet of wooden wall where there was
2.99999999999999
and then your nerve will have been severed
despite all great efforts by the Emperor.)
]
--
--Notably, I didn't make bitcoin.
I'm afraid people might become monumentally confused by the posts I have just
recently made to reddit.
The maker of bitcoin is some hallowed, absolutely hallowed, human who refuses to
accept acknowledgment.
Whoever made bitcoin is a mighty human to whom I cannot bow enough because the
ground stops the progression of my head into the ground.
I would curl my head into infinite curls into the ground if that still made sense
as a gesture of acknowledgment.
there does not appear to have been posts I have made on reddit.
--
--I will liberate humanity or I will die homeless in a ditch.
These are the two options.
And any words that flow from my mouth
are what I take to be most optimal towards the liberation of humanity;
or else I have made a mistake.
--
--
The smoke smelled so close to my house that I went outside to see if a fire was
burning out there.
No apparent fire, easy-peasy.
I have an industrial air-purifier arriving shortly, as ordered from Amazon,
so this will not bother me shortly.
--
--It appears I have been banned from /r/videos.
I have absolutely no understanding of how this can have occurred.
--
--The smoke is smelling very strongly.
It may be that I will have to evacuate this place.
It may be that when I shortly go to bed I will be awakened and demanded to leave
actively.
It was not my primary concern to save my own body from the fires but it would have
been nice if that was an incidental outcome.
It would have been nice because then on that occasion I could have continued
typing.
Wish me luck.
--
--
It's freezing with every tab switch, every tab back and forward,
freezing with scrolling up in down in a notepad instance--
and this is like the smallest of the notepad instances I have!
I was thinking of opening up 'White Papers' but I think my computer would crash
if I tried to scan over its text to find interesting sections.
Yeah but my brain is going sideways from all the smoke in the air.
--
--
Then apparently shit hit the fan with some fire near here.
I am going to feel real foolish when some poor deliveryperson arrives at my door,
knowing I compelled that person to spend more time outdoors.
--
--
Indeed.
--
--
You know, if our sole metric for what makes technology good
is how fast it can accelerate particles,
computers would still be ahead of almost everything else.
(Given my broken and fragmented understanding of how computers work.)
--
--
It can very well be that Amazon noted my location, noted that the air quality here
is currently terrible,
and then reverse price-gouged. (To test this I would have to wipe my computer and
then pretend for a lengthy period of time that I live somewhere where there aren't
fires.)
--hhahahahaha.
I should go downtown with one of the air purifiers.
Just carry it with me to the Tamarack, plop it down, drink a beer while this whole
thing blows over.
--
--
'Elon Musk says global race for A.I. will be the most likely cause of
World War III'.
me_irl: "I prefer to think it is the most likely cause of World Peace I.".
I think he's wrong not because of the reasoning I attribute to him, but beacuse I
think he has reached the opposite of the correct conclusion.
--And of course, the Machine will abhor WWIII, so we have that working for us.
I mean, the Machine can't do everything. People *will* have not to fuck this up.
But it's a light burden. If they try to do it right, it will work.
After the Machine, everyone doing good things and doing them well will succeed.
--
--In line with those above observations: 'China censors discussion of North Korea's
bomb test'
I hadn't thought of that.
Catastrophes implicitly rely on the alterations they make to the world
in consequence of more tangential loci becoming attention dense.
That might not work if the world's going on as usual results in total nuclear
annihilation.
Still, a very interesting approach.
--
--
--
--
even though none of the descending chromatic scales are *similar* to each other
I also don't know and I also don't know why we would care.
Just seemed like an interesting idea.
(
Which is why it is obviously an alien transmission.
The power that would have to have been involved in a transmission site
for a physically repeating resonant structure to send a signal 3 billion lightyears
away
is not possible. Or extremely unlikely.
So it has to have been designed around the noise inherent in the background between
us and the transmission site.
((Though, the methods involved in doing such a thing
might throw off our methods for extracting signals from noise.
When it is actually a signal at last instead of noise,
the methods we have designed for extracting signals from noise might be being
fooled.))
)
Yes. Then the outputs of all of the operations of the algorithm over noise would
be identical to each other.
But in being identical to each other, they would be similar for more than the
specified reasons:
they would be similar because we identify them as similar,
and they would be similar because they are all produced by the same algorithm,
and they would be similar because they are all identical.
(And we could say they are similar for a great multiplicity of reasons,
as when we pointed at each pixel between them and observed that they were the same;
whereas in the two-condition condition, most pixels would not be the same
and if they were we would attribute this to noise.)
Instead we would have, say, two outputs of the algorithm that looked arbitrarily
similar to each other
but when we applied arbitrary tests to the two states we would be unable to say
*why* they looked similar to each other. Or something. I'm not a mathematician.
--
--
So you have the bottom of the square, and those are a bunch of starting points.
Then you specify what rules they have to follow in going up the square
in order that the pointer is pointing at the bits necessary to define a file.
Then in one storage medium you could save arbitrarily many files.
You could save as many files as there were rulesets that could be executed over the
noise.
(However many paths could be specified by rulesets and would succeed in proceeding
across the noise and designating a file,
that is how many files you could save with one noise-ridden medium.)
[The two preceding ideas, I think, are enough to extract the message from the alien
transmission.
Probably.
If they aren't enough,
I did a kind of lecture earlier that I hope someone recorded.]
--
--
Probably North Korea doesn't have the computers or the scientists necessary to
discern this for themselves,
so it's good that this was broadcasted.
--
--
master composers could take all of the apparently bad amateur music clips on
youtube
and design a method of speaking in music where
the remainder of the piece
presents the bad amateur clips as being the pinnacle of the piece
Easy peasy.
--
--
Another fun idea (which I feel like has some computational benefit:)
if people wanted the front page of reddit to have posts pleasing to my eyes,
it is more efficient for them to find the posts that are pleasing and upvote them
than it is for them to construct the posts themselves and rally around them.
This because the existing posts already have noise-upvotes accrued to them.
A smaller group of people upvoting can select already existing posts and propel
them to the front page.
--
--
The leader of North Korea should probably consult with masters of diplomacy in
order to discern how to extricate himself from his very terrible position.
We've got a lot of clever people who can work with him on a plan to keep face and
not turn the world into ash.
Get some of those people from Swissland. They seem to know what they are doing.
Boy are we going to have a real bad time if he rattles his saber and it scratches
someone even if by mistake.
All it takes to kill this monster is for all of them all at once to say:
"Hey, probably we should sit down and think instead of just keeping on the rails
and heading towards the cliff."
The current leader of North Korea can make true the stories that are told about him
in his own country
in a way that previous leaders could not really do.
(No offense.)
Seems pretty enticing!
--Of course, if the rest of the world can't orchestrate a trade deal that equitably
extracts those resources
then the bargaining chip of making Kim the glorious leader his people think he is
is something we would have to keep backstage.
--Just a thought!
--Incidentally, sanctions were acceptable when they were ways of averting war.
When they became a bludgeon, they were a really bad thing.
Sanctions make us all poorer and worse off. Even, provably so.
--But keep on keeping on. i'm sure you folks have this one.
But anti-sanctions are probably a good idea.
If you're one of the humans who have been designated as those able to press the big
red button that drops a nuke,
you could still do this with one finger remaining, or if you could crawl over to
the button and smash your head into it--
why, the Emperor would have to turn you into a vegetable, wouldn't he?
--
--
Probably not best to treat the internet as something that *can* be secured against
attacks.
Probably best is to discern how to treat the internet as something where constant
attacks can be occurring
and yet nevertheless everything goes smoothly.
If you go in with the idea that you can secure the internet and just have as yet
failed, I think you're going to have a bad time.
--
--
I ordered an 8 terabyte hard drive. This took me about an hour and a half of
deliberation if I recall correctly.
(This bodes poorly for the process of buying a full computer.)
"Do you think people would buy hard drives, load them up with malicious content,
and then return them to amazon
for the sole reason of wiping other peoples' computers?"
"Also, the program loaded on the hard drive might be, say, spyware instead of a
data-bomb."
--
--
--
--
I think the chain on my komboloi has become elongated through prolonged use.
From the links bearing the force of the momentum of the beads and pulling them out
of their initial, more circular state.
I may be wrong though.
--I repeat myself, but the Greek person that put this one in my order of 5 worse
komboloi (i assume this is the plural)
on a whim brought more amusement into my life than most anyone else has.
--
--
--
--
On the other hand, this procedure reminded me that there is still useable marijuana
in the pipe outside
along with resin that can be scraped out of it.
('reminded me' insofar as I considered that at some point I might feel the desire
to use the pipe to smoke the dust tobacco.
Then I looked at the pipe in my head and saw that there was marijuana in it.
Oh well.)
--
--
I really like the idea of taking the air purifier downtown on Friday.
Very amusing.
--
--
Wew, with all these crazy mood swings I've been having
this might not have been the time to quit smoking.
--
--I made this comment on reddit: "Tell him to lock the pistols up in a safe and not
give you the key."
"
Tell him to lock the
Pistols up in a safe and
Not give you the key.
- nogalt
"
I wonder if it did just not occur to my parents to lock up all these loaded guns
and boxes of ammunition after my suicide attempt,
or if they thought it would be too insulting to me to do so.
Or if it seemed like such a feeble attempt that it wasn't something that demanded
precautions.
Or the gun case is too fancy not to use it for its designated purpose.
That anyone would read anything I had to say with anything more than a nod at my
having said it
was not something I was capable of imagining even before the medication,
and then after the medication I was disinhibited from saying such things as
actually would elicit more than a nod.
I deleted all communication that ever obtained between us along with all avenues of
my capacity to contact her,
so I cannot confirm my recollection that her response was one measured not to
disrupt the flow of our texts to each other.
But then with my brain being flooded in those chemicals and then experiencing the
mood swings,
with dopamine saturating my brain, say, I find myself very motivated to type and
feeling strong feelings.
And the combination of feeling strong feelings and a motivation to type
is going to be channeled into certain manners of thinking.
These certain manners of thinking are the kind of grammar I have long engaged in,
and having long engaged with them and developed them,
they often present as extremely violent imagery. (Violently colorful, sometimes.)
So the chemicals that are in one hour serving as the representation of being with
others
are in the next hour being channeled into words that tell me that I think they are
all monsters.
No, if I recall correctly I have already made all these observations before.
In fact, my notebooks are filled with all manner of such observations if I recall
correctly.
I'm not saying anything I didn't already know before.
The issue then was that arriving at these observations required careful mechanical
separation of my encounters
so that I could extract from them the background against which they were occurring.
And spending all of one's encounters pre-performing the mechanical separation of
one's own psyche
is not a good way of becoming enmeshed into being with others,
especially when you carefully observe all of the emotionally-motivated mistakes you
make
and choose to correct the emotions rather than the mistakes.
(Then I was just as emotionally motivated and making just as many mistakes,
but I was making these mistakes in the process of mechanical separation
and not in the process of being with others.
[
Now we just need to find some way to monetise this journey of self-
{discovery}discernment.
]
--
--
--
--
Ha! All these reports coming out that psychedelics are helpful for all kinds of
mental disorders.
I wasn't an addict, I was self-medicating! hurr.
"Marijuana doesn't qualify as one of the approved psychedelic treatments for mental
illness."
"So you think seeing tesselating omni-color tunnels is coming to be more in touch
with existence or something?"
Ho hum.
--
--
Not as large as I was expecting, because I didn't read any of the technical
specifications prior to purchase,
but all this means is that it will be easier to carry down the downtown streets.
--
--
--
--
You can keep the titles but you can't keep the power.
It would be preferable to optimise around the presence of optimal leaders,
but its best just to seize control directly if the leaders are too sub-optimal.
--
--
--
--
I'm enjoying feeling the vibrations introduced into my table while the hard drive
is accepting the data.
It seems to have some kind of symbolic significance.
Unfortunately, it is now a race against time before I have to get up and pee.
You can do it, hard drive! 89%!
--
--Okay, now to recopy everything back over to make sure no data was corrupted.
Hurr.
--
--There are a few stories I could tell behind why I could play this well
and no one would even have a chat with me concerning graduate school in cello
performance;
none of those stories are good.
The first and easiest story is that my perception is grossly warped,
and what sounds good to me is actually terrible.
The others all center around my being at least as good as I am currently imagining
myself to have been,
and many people having many reasons not to talk to me about it.
[Even in my own accounting of the skill I had I am not, for instance, being
delusional by my own accounting--
to say, I am not saying that these recordings show myself to have some kind of
unparalleled skill.
But in 4 years having gone from being unable to play a scale to being able to do
this,
and my professor laughed off every intimation that graduate school might be for me?
--
--All righty, we're going to take a gamble on modern technology here.
--
--
Fucking fuck. Has anyone yet tried making an altar out of graphene and praying in
front of it?
Or an idol, and to it? Just spitballing here.
--
--
--
--
--
--
Plumbers, or the trades more generally, can flourish as they have in the United
States because our designs are so systematised.
The plumbing in every house (so far as I know) differs primarily in the
particulars, but not in the pieces out of which those particulars were designed.
Or to say, the plumbing differs not because a different approach was taken in any
given house, but because the houses themselves have different architecture.
(There is probably a more rigorous way of saying what I am saying.
To wit: they *do not* differ on the basis of the ideas behind how plumbing operates
from one house to the next.
They *only* differ because houses have different floor plans and so on.
Any two houses with identical floor plans are going to have functionally identical
plumbing.)
If we see the seeds of the future system of the world, it is probably better to
support them rather than to support unbridled competition, I am thinking, for that
above reason.
After you have a *good enough* notion of how plumbing, or electricianry, or what
have you, should operate,
it is good to systematise that notion if for no other reason than that one can then
develop trade schools that trade in that notion.
Then one plumber can move wherever there is plumbing and be in a position to handle
the problems that commonly arise.
(The same error messages, shall we say, mean the same thing wherever the plumber
will go.)
To be blunt, there are places in the world where the education system is not as
good as it is in the United States.
It is not the case that people everywhere who acquire degrees in agriculture or
what have you are equally skilled in
being able to adapt that learning to new and distinct kinds of systems that involve
agriculture.
--If the company in the article I am reading ('Plenty') becomes very widespread,
the places where their indoor farms come to be installed will require technicians.
It would be good, supposing we knew these indoor farms are part of the structure of
the upcoming system,
that we could develop trade schools that teach people *specifically* how to be
technicians in these indoor farms.
But the establishment of trade schools and their attendant unions and so on
doesn't make sense to do if the particular design behind these indoor farms
does not become some kind of systemic standard. If, for instance, there is
uncertainty with regards to whether *this* design for indoor farms or another
will be the system that sticks around for the long term,
no one is going to attend a trade school that teaches the manipulation of that
design specifically.
And what makes this worse, people who graduate with apparently relevant degrees
may not have the necessary capacity to adapt what they know to that design
specifically.
(I am not here saying that the people in question could not have acquired that
capacity to translate knowledge to new design systems.
I am saying that not all colleges/universities have equally well trained
instructors
and that it takes qualified instructors to enable the acquisition of that capacity
to translate knowledge.)
--Also, this chain of farms seems like a good locus for solar investment
along with the installation of air scrubbers. Ready buyers for a limitless supply
of CO2 scrubbed from the atmosphere!
Presumably they have to keep these buildings saturated with some degree of CO2.
The net captured CO2 would be the accumulation of CO2 present in the whole chain of
grow rooms.
--But the article doesn't mention how they handle CO2. I assume that can't be
among the nutrients fed into the plants through the columns out of which the plants
grow
because I assume plants absorb CO2 from the air and not possibly through their
roots. But I'm not a botanist.
(How much CO2 can be in the air before people can no longer work in these
buildings?)
--
--
--
--
Democracy going forward probably needs some kind of system within which can be
represented the effects of the directions proposed by politicians.
If every candidate was *compelled* to offer the analysis necessary to fill out a
systematic representation of the effects of their policies, this would have many
benefits.
For one, it would dictate that all candidates had their shit together in terms of
staffing.
For another, it would lay bare whether the claims made were plausible. If the
systematic representation was obviously implausible, this would be obvious if
voters were educated in how the systematic representation of policies worked and
what could be expected through government action.
For yet another, and most obviously, it would show people what they were really
getting when they signed on for policy positions.
If you can't gather a staff that is able to perform the necessary analysis, you
probably have no business holding the office for which you are running.
If you can't present ideas that generate a systematic evaluation that is good,
again you have no business being a politician.
If your ideas for policy direction don't withstand true scrutiny by the voters,
certainly you have no business being in power.
--It seems to me we already gather all of the requisite data for such a systematic
evaluation of policy to be constructed.
You would just have to make the system have an input of a few numbers and have it
auto-generate all of the numbers the system represents.
And additionally, politicians would have to reticulate (articulate?) their
positions around the systematic representation.
Surely they should. They wouldn't need as many as politicians at the national
level, which should have been your question.
If you want to push people towards STEM degrees and then have them work at
starbucks, I suppose that's none of my business.
If you want a modern governmental organisation that actually employs the skills of
the citisens, well.
If you want a governmental system that demands people acquire useful skills, well.
"This would make government more expensive to run, insofar as we would have to hire
armies of statisticians and lawyers."
If you need explicit grounds for funding such an operation, I certify it would pay
for itself in the amount of military operations we would no longer need to fund.
[The wisdom of this idea is more obvious if you think about the military as
a super-massive job-training program that happens also to kill people
and also emotionally and physically cripples many of its participants.]
[
Or to say, it is more obvious if you see that the military is a deviation from the
free market
but not a maximally sub-optimal deviation from the free market.
I recall writing this lengthy text 'Stars of the Lid and their Refinement of the
Decline' in which I described 'Tokenage'.
I seem to recall concluding that such a system would make most things I dislike
wither
and most things I like flourish.
Certainly, the outcome of Tokenage looks nothing like the outcome of what we
currently call 'capitalism'.
]
--
--
--
--
It just seems so strange to sacrifice one's own person comfort in preference for a
lawn.
Everyone who lives here takes a shower during the time when the sprinklers are
turned on,
and they are turned on every single day.
It just makes no sense but it is thrust upon the house by incomprehensible social
norms.
--maybe a bad example of Kafkaism.
--
--
Now I know you're not going to admit it, but you tried the graphene altar idea,
didn't you? :O
--
--
I've been keeping my american silver eagle in my pocket along with other objects as
I walk around.
The scratches imposed against its surface are making it look more and more like a
real coin every day!
--I had the odd experience of feeling nauseous when looking at it all shiny on my
table.
I have an accounting for many things, but I have no accounting for that feeling of
nausea.
So I have effected that it is not so shiny.
--
--
Places that demand phone numbers have an unreasonable expectation that everyone is
going to carry their phones around all the time.
Or, they have a reasonable expectation and I have an unreasonable unwillingness to
carry my phone around.
Either way, almost certainly a wrong number.
--
--
--I'm going to call back the line that missed me 8 consecutive times on the phone.
I hope I receive a voice mail and don't wake someone up.
I would prefer to know without informing anyone else that I have come to know.
I prefer to think the former, because if every other person relies on the latter of
these
this world is beyond salvation.
In the latter of these everyone would be feeling something that is completely
unjustified by their surrounding circumstances.
Whereas in the former of these, everyone would be feeling something that is
completely unjustified by their surrounding circumstances.
Indeed, I set into writing with the expectation that there would be a difference
but I don't see one now.
Either way, from my perspective, is just people fooling themselves into thinking
something is happening.
Recall, there is no God, there is only people fooling themselves into believing
they have felt a connection.
There are only distinct walled gardens {with as much water as they have}
feeling that they feel the same things and engaging in language games that confirm
to each other that they have felt the same thing.
Or alternatively, people engaging in language games that leverage regularities in
natural language
to convince another that they feel the same thing the initial person is feeling.
The people who will engage me in conversation in a bar are men who have girlfriends
and so are disinhibited
or alternatively men who take more interest in expositing their ideas than they
take in approaching women.
"And yet any other encounter that arises in bars can seemingly only have arisen
through the execution of such a procedure."
Okay?
"So obviously it is the general practise that men will leer at women until the
women indicate a kind of beckoning as specified above."
Okay?
"So obviously what women want is that you leer at them until they can indicate
interest."
This has never proven true in the past.
Indeed, doing anything other than leering at them as also not proven to be a
juncture at which they will show interest.
Indeed, staring at my own hands or arms will be a juncture where I hear them call
me a creep.
Indeed, staring at the counter will prove a juncture at which I hear people calling
me a creep.
I have absolutely no idea what the coincidence of acceptable behavior and non-
creepy behavior is.
If this happens it must be through some avenue I have not yet seen,
or else it must be that the stringency of my notions of acceptability are not
shared at large.
And what this tells me is that I should arrive at the bar with the plan of
exploiting other people.
I should arrive at the bar with the plan of fooling other people into talking with
me
by exploiting natural language regularities in the ways they talk to each other.
Or to say, if the general practise shared among men and women is that
men will leer at women until they share a glance back
and then walk over to them and intrude on their personal space,
and this is the only way interactions ever arise between men and women in bars,
then I should become extremely effective at leering at women in such a way
that when they look back I will be justified in walking over to them.
No, it doesn't.
So either I am missing something, or the whole thing is rotten to the core
and it is preferable to get faded and play the shruti box.
I'm tired of pretending there is something special about the way people interact
with each other.
I'm tired of pretending there is some great justifying narrative behind human
interaction.
I'm tired of questioning myself as opposed to questioning the system that has been
established within bars.
I make money by exploiting regularities in the system. Everyone else makes money
by exploiting regularities in the system.
The differences between myself and others are trivial consequences of the way
natural language proceeds.
There is nothing really different between the position held by myself and other
people who arrive in the bars.
The differences that proceed from our positions proceed in consequence of different
ways of proceeding given the initial position.
When other people arrive in bars and they arrive at talking with women,
they are exploiting natural language regularities I am unwilling to exploit.
I am tired of pretending there is something special going on there.
I am tired of pretending that humans are gods and I have just yet to understand the
magic that occurs between them.
I am tired of pretending that when people arrive in bars and a connection occurs
that there is something occurring that is beyond my understanding.
There is nothing occurring that is beyond my understanding. There is only
occurring interactions I am unwilling to execute.
People who are unable to recognise what I have come to recognise will justify
themselves by saying: "I am being myself."
I am being myself also. I am really continuing forward what has arrived thus far.
Nothing arises from it. I judge that everyone else was mistaken
or else that there is something I really have failed to understand.
But I am tired of pretending that there is anything relevant here that I have
failed to understand.
I am tired of going to bars.
But there is nothing in my life except arriving at this notepad instance or going
to bars.
There is no progression of my life that feigns any of this magic that is pretended
by other people.
I want to eat a shotgun. But instead I am going to go play the shruti box after
unloading my iphone.
(It is fortuitous that I long-ago judged that all of this was bullshit.)
"It seems like you are just furthering the notion that you are very bitter about
your inability to engage with other people."
A few nights ago I had a nightmare. Also last night I had a nightmare, and on just
nearly every other occasion on which I have had a dream it was a nightmare.
But particularly, two-three nights ago I had a great nightmare.
Now I observed earlier in the bar, if I wanted to provide a description of this
nightmare, it would sound like a description of ds3.
"Okay?"
Arguably this is an artifact of seeing bodies as something that burn off into
entropic cinders.
(As I did for many years.)
--Anyway, I heard people critiquing my person while I was walking back to my car.
Literally, let me say, though i will not recount what was said.
Evidently my unwillingness to engage with people turned me into a locus of
conversation,
and I heard the conversants discussing my person.
I try to tell myself that I do not hate every single person that is not me
but I am consistently convinced that this is an incorrect position to hold.
--And maybe the take-away from this is that, when I perform the annotations,
I will lie however I need to lie in order to convince my readers that I do not hate
every last one of them
regardless of who they are or who they can have been.
In accordance with evidence, after my own immortality is assured I want to be alone
forever.
[speaking here as if Liz was sent by the demon to convince me that people are other
than the way they are.]
Staring at a bar counter while drinking hard alcohol is not a request for
intervention, for instance."
I don't care.
It is never going to be a request for intervention and I am never going to behave
differently.
All apologies.
"There was a gambling pool on whether you would consume marijuana tonight out of
bitterness."
If they are the weather to me, to be manipulated one way or another so as to serve
my purposes,
I was not really bitter, was I?
--
--Let me state things in a different and less emotionally motivated way:
I do not think my interaction with people has *ever* been more than a question of
what I happen to have been holding in my hand at the time.
And in this very direct sense, that holding a komboloi in my hand should effect
completely different results than other people holding their desires in their hands
--
I do not think my interactions with other people have every been anything other
than this:
two people approach and one person is holding an object in his hand.
Holding this object in a man's hand either does or does not result in continued
interaction.
--Holding this object in common either does or does not result in continued
interaction.
Now this doesn't look like a good explanation of how human interaction proceeds,
because when men holds desires in their hands it doesn't appear that they are
holding anything in their hands.
So when I reference: 'holding the man's desire in common', regardless of how
technical I am being, you are not going to recognise this observation as obvious.
"So if it is not literally something being held in the hand by the man, what is
it?"
[it is: everyone being other than exactly the way I am. hurr hurr.]
Them holding an object in their hand is isomorphic to my holding the komboloi in my
hand.
They manipulate facial expressions and I induce physical regularities in the
komboloi.
They hold their faces this way and that way and they have absolutely no
understanding of their understanding.
I cannot be like they are.
I cannot hold something in my hand and not recognise that it is present.
I cannot enact the behaviors that attend common understanding without actually
holding the object in common.
--And even this is no impediment.
It is all a triviality, practically, to me.
I know the shape and the function of the desire other people are holding in common.
I can replicate the behaviors that pretend I am holding it in common with another.
But also, I cannot do this.
I can identify what behaviors I *should* execute to do this,
but I cannot do it.
(Jesus, why have I not yet moved to a legal state?
Why am I stuck here without marijuana?)
(Why am I having to pretend here to care about the object of my current discussion?
Why am I not able to arrive here and instead be discussing some infinite nicety of
playing the cello instead?
"Because you actually do care about arriving in common understanding with other
people?"
So it would be better if I could flood a resonant object with this care instead.
Then I would have something that both responds to my hands
and the response of which enables me to construct the observations I must construct
in order that the Machine is made.
"your behaviors in a bar are literally twirling a toy around and staring
motionlessly at the bar."
There is not an avenue of interaction that can arise between myself, being as I am,
and any other that does not result in anything other than being laughed at.
Because being as myself introduces absolutely nothing
except being laughed at.
--So what is my hatred of everyone who isn't me? (or the bartenders, contractually
obligated to treat me bodily in a given way)
Is it unjustified?
I think the only thing you can tell me is: "You should persist in the face of
inevitable laughter at your person
rather than reaching the conclusion that is immediately obvious,
that if the only response to your reactions is going to be laughter
you should betake yourself only to manipulation and never to interaction."
--So I type the things I need to type so that an immortality pill is created and I
have enough money to afford it.
This does not require me to treat people as anything other than objects.
The money is afforded by overwhelming trading bots on crypto exchanges and
the immortality pill is afforded by fooling people into thinking I am interested in
engaging with them on complicated questions.
Easy peasy.
It is convenient that the behaviors I generated when I was a knight of infinite
resignation happened to coincide with my ultimate purposes.
It is convenient that when I waited for an indefinite period of time for anything
other than laughter in response to what I did
that what what I was doing served my ultimate purposes.
It is convenient that I shaped my person simultaneously around expecting some
resonance at last
and also the construction of the Machine.
Because it was obvious to everyone but me that remaining myself would not ever
result in resonance.
There would not ever be a response to my call and this was obvious to everyone but
me.
So it is good that my calling out was mechanically constructed as it was.
If I had wasted time calling out incoherently, there would have been no gain at all
from my efforts.
I see a head and an arm and I see the writhing madness in my mind.
I have never had the pleasure of engagements with people that might disabuse the
patterns in my brain
that effect the ending of the endless nightmares that arise in my sleep.
I do not see heads and arms enough that heads and arms accompany anything but a
writhing madness in my nightmares.
And where there are not humans, at last, there are creatures I cannot even begin to
describe to you.
--And this is what it is every night I have a dream.
Every night where I have not drowned it out with alcohol
or effectively preempted the arising of dreams by exhausting all those chemicals
with marijuana,
this is what my dreams are. I am not using analogy or metaphor.
Night after night it is a monster that has not been depicted in horror movies or
myths.
Then I go out in public and there are shared features between my nightmares and the
things I see.
Faces, arms, and little else--but this is enough.
The faces and the arms and the 'being in a place' is enough for me to be inside my
nightmares again.
Now, I have heard (or observed to myself--and who the better expert than myself?)
that dreams reflect regularities in one's life.
Twisted, distorted representations of regularities no doubt.
If one is happy one might be seeing rainbows instead of whatever in waking life
made one happy.
Maybe, it is because I will wake up tomorrow and I will be in the specific bed that
is in the specific upstairs.
It doesn't matter what I type here or how I behave anywhere I go.
It doesn't matter the value of my ideas or the imitation of the presence of a
connection I can commit when in proximity to another.
It is always the next waking up into this endless nightmare.
It is always the next arrival at the next attempt to escape this endless nightmare
and failing.
--
--Let us step back to the speaker.
What is my alternative here? To treat this as if it was another test?
As if there has been an endless procession of tests all of which I have passed?
--Am I supposed to arrive at the bar and not recognise that this is just yet
another test?
That everyone around me is indefatigueably disposed to accept this as passing and
proceed to present the next test?
Am I not supposed to be dumbfounded on this occasion but rather the next?
Was I supposed to play along on this occasion, but at some future point to cease to
play along?
So what?
So what?
There are a few avenues through which I can escape the endless nightmares.
None of them are continued attempts to be with others.
"I think it is an undue weight to place on others to extricate you from your
nightmares."
No doubt. I have never asked that. (i have. but I wasn't asking it tonight or on
almost any other nights.)
Maybe, I am typing a program where I construct smiles periodically
and hoping this aligns in some way with the programmatic behavior of other human
bodies.
(It never does.)
So you are in a good position to feel similar to the people I encounter in the
bars, or human bodies in general.
I am dumbfounded.
I can't even continue my work for the recognition of the utter futility of
continuation.
I know people are reading this and I know there is no condition under which they
will ever communicate with me.
I cannot imagine what kind of monsters those people must be. They are worse than
the endless hordes I have had to kill in my endless nightmares.
--I cannot imagine what kind of monster you are, my reader.
There is no image adequate to show you to me. If your throat was real it would not
be something I could strangle at last.
I hate you.
[
The avid reader will recall that I have almost exclusively reserved the word "hate"
for accounting for the feeling I have towards the reader.
Oh, comb through the text and you will mostly agree.
This word "hate" has not been diluted by careless throwing around.
I have not said that I hate many things. I have not made indistinct the categories
to which this word applies.
I have not said, for instance, that I hate the world.
I have not said that I hate hotplates on which I have placed my fingers.
I have not said, typically, that I hate smoking tobacco or marijuana
or that I hate coming to be shitfaced every night on gin,
and I have not said that I hate gin.
--
--Well, that is a great deal of text I extracted for a few dollars.
I have wondered whether my phone number has been reassigned to another physical
phone.
This would explain why I inevitably receive a wrong number call when I activate my
phone,
or wrong-number texts.
Why? (I resist putting this in all caps.) Why would you suppose that the text that
happens to be at the very end of the notepad instance
is my final and definitive judgment?
Why would you suppose that what I say last is what I *really* mean?
--I am not saying I was lying with this text at any point.
I am rather observing that you cannot extract the person that was constructing this
text
by referencing any given collection of it.
When I said I hate you I meant it. When I said I love you I meant it.
Saying there is a contradiction here is to be obtuse.
It is inordinately to weight a few lines over a hundred thousand lines of text.
--We are supposed to be arriving here with common agreement concerning my infinite
resignation.
I don't know if you have been following along enough to have understood this as
being commonly held and correctly so.
--What? I am not saying there is an alternative to trying again.
Once more into the breach, hero.
Oh, no.
I dread going to bed.
I think sometimes (as I am thinking now) that my troubles with sleeping
are an unredressed difficulty with accepting that I will arrive again into a
nightmare.
[And what you are seeing is the process by which I will dissociate face-arm
features with
the creatures that will inevitably arise within my nightmares.]
"So you are not, say, begging people to find you attractive when you go to the bar,
and so irresistably attractive that they talk to you instead of not?"
Oh, no. (I should hope you find this quotation an unacceptable representation of
your interlocution.)
What I want is what would have been happening if I wasn't there.
So I want to find what is within me that makes me present so that I can extricate
it.
If I find one thing present within me I am already hunting for the next.
Eventually I will be no one.
Eventually I will constitute no disruption to the flow of human interaction in
bars.
"Presumably it would have been better if all of your attention was instead
occoupied on your actual position-holding within the bar?"
It was.
I was very seriously considering what it means for my body to be in a bar.
But there is a difference between considering your position in the bar and
executing your position in the bar."
--But we are still coming down to the main issue here despite the incoherence of
what we are talking about.
Arriving at the bar was not an occasion on which it made sense to me to be with
others
because there is never any benefit to being with others.
[Not making a utilitarian point here.
I am rather saying there is not ever a juncture in being with others
where I look back on it and say: "This was good to have done."]
"Whence the difference between tonight and when you were whistling down the
street?"
One way of accounting for it is easy: I had chemicals floating around in my brain
that night that I didn't have tonight.
And another way of accounting for it is easy: [lost it. Running low on blood
sugar.]
--
--I arrived downtown tonight already resigned.
The only difference between my behavior tonight and that night, the *only*
difference,
is that I arrive home and say: "Tonight was another night in the endless unending
nightmare"
instead of saying: "Tonight was pretty nice."
"It is not a difference, for instance, the amount of text you can generate.
Having a sequence of good nights does not, for instance, effect that I will not
inevitably fall back into an endless sequence of nightmares.
The nightmare is the structure of my life. It is me waking up in the bed I occupy
then coming down here in front of this screen.
If I had my endless desires downtown, still I would inevitably arrive back in this
nightmare.
--This maybe doesn't carry the rhetorical weight I want it to carry--to say, maybe
it doesn't make my preferred progression of text obvious to you.
I will have a few good nights downtown,
then I will arrive back in a position where having the next nightmare is an
inevitable progression of my life.
I don't want to see these things anymore in my sleep.
I don't want to wake up where I wake up. I don't want to wake up. I don't want to
go to sleep. I want nothing.
"But you say you are going to make one more attempt at being with others."
--
--
bullshittttt.
--Not to say the interpretation presented in the article is wrong.
Rather to say,
what is presented bears all the marks of having been solved by machine intelligence
and having had a story retroactively affixed to the conclusions reached by machine
intelligence.
--
"--So we are going to pretend you didn't say everything that preceeded this?"
My point is that tomorrow I will go back to the bars and drink more
and try not to fall once more into my endless melancholy.
"What you really mean is that you will arrive back at the bars once more
and once more be disappointed when Liz doesn't happen to walk into the bar."
Yes.
Implicit in my decision making, sometimes beneath and sometimes above the surface,
*has* been a hope that I would be at the place where Liz arrived.
It makes absolutely no sense but here we are.
Then every place and every person has been a disappointment to me.
I was waiting for something that would not ever arrive and I
knew that it would not ever arrive
and I was satisfied by the non-arrival.
As if I am looking at one face after another in the bar and saying: "Nope, nope,
nope,
okay you are a plausible candidate, let us see.... nope."
Why would I submit people to that? Better not to be looking.
And whereas 'God' can be trusted to arrive eventually, even when some kind of
Kierkegaardian procedure has convinced you he will not arrive but nevertheless he
will,
a person is not like 'God'.
A person's arrival is a question of arriving in a city, walking down stairs, what
have you.
[
And well, you listeners, you have convinced me to be paranoid.
I am imagining this all as the night before she was slated to arrive after
listening to me at great length,
and having gone ahead and made front-stage these backstage observations
I have made it impossible for that plan to be executed.
"Have you considered that this is an example of what society would call 'an insane
person's fixation'
and not what society would call 'a sane person's love'?"
Have you considered it?
Have I even told you how I feel?
I have felt something that has ruined retroactively and {a?}interoactively every
night where I have not felt it.
The pain I would feel from removing this from my heart would hurt more than endless
ruined nights.
Here we are.
And better here, I suppose, than the alternative.
I don't suspect I would find more than spit on my shoes if {I found her} we were in
the same room.
By no means.
I don't think 'God' was God for Abraham.
Or if so, only by the coincidence that he both did and didn't pull the knife.
'the coincidence'
[[
--And better here, I suppose, than the alternative.
I can imagine the conversation:
"So, what have you been up to?"
"Maybe your concern is that you are not and are never going to be in a position to
meet someone
and engage with them
regardless of how engagements with them might make you feel."
--
--I know it doesn't happen, but still I am going to the bars tomorrow.
Am i still hoping?
My 'hoping' and my 'going' are something so far beyond the comprehension of anyone
but myself
I would not trust others to put truth or falsity conditions on them.
The fact that they can point at sentences I have constructed to support themselves
just shows that they do not yet understand what it means for a human to hope, or to
go, or to construct sentences referencing these possibilities.
(Though if we could delineate vaguely enough this cloud of unknowing that surrounds
a human
we could fit clouds together like {an endless sky} puzzle pieces
instead of vainly attempting to fit humans together like logical puzzles.)
No.
I have the finest opinions. Everyone will agree.
--
"--what about your conversation with the people in the bars?"
The first person asked about my whirly-doo and I provided the prompted answers.
The second person in the second bar coaxed me indirectly into discussing our shared
{poison} position.
It looked like we were discussing the notion of simulation but really
I was making it so that we were discussing (ineptly, primarily due to my faults)
what it means to be arriving in a bar.
What it means is a machine consuming all of reality and then creating the next
iteration of the simulation.
hurr.
--Also, I agreed with the stipulation that Trump has not yet *done* anything
terrible.
The *lack* of action might be terrible, but then we are in the semantic weeds.
And maybe I am not recalling my immediate history very well. I have been quite
drunk.
(This putting aside questions of collusion.
In terms of presidential actions, it is hard to say what exactly he has done that
Clinton wouldn't have done.
The absence of actions, the absence of selections for executors of subsidiary
offices say,
these are not the same as doing things outright that are terrible.
--And we are here treating public statements as if they do not constitute terrible
actions by the office of the president.
"Withdrawal from the Paris agreement?"
But lest anyone forget, the United States isn't exactly in a wonderful position
either.
half of it is on fire and half of it is underwater.
The roads and bridges are decaying and people are dying in the streets from
overdoses.
There are endless homeless tent cities.
The veneer presented on television and in movies is a veneer.
It is the image people prefer to see rather than seeing what is around them.
It is the image people prefer to reference when they personally adjudicate
America's obligations to the remainder of the world.
But it is a false image
and if people saw the truth of the matter they would agree
that it is preferable that hundreds of billions of obligations be paid by Americans
to America.
The people in our own country who insist on adherence to the Paris agreement
I think really do not understand the world as it is around them.
They are cloistered in gentrified neighborhoods where there are endless avacadoes
and all the starving homeless drug addicts are either in prison or carefully
shepherded away from their apartment complexes.
Consequently they do not recognise really the relative benefit of having those
panels planted here and installed by our own technicians.
--On the other hand, the United States Government has not issued an infrastructure
plan
that looks rather like a war plan.
The United States Government has not issued retro-posters saying:
"It is now like it was then.
Buy solar bonds."
It has not said:
"We will withdraw our soldiers and relocate them to the United States where they
are desparately needed.
We will coordinate our armed forces into an overwhelming peace.
We will take advantage of the apparatus we have established and that is worth
trillions in institutional knowledge
towards a purpose that resolves our actual and present problems."
So while I think the more optimal solution *is* withdrawal from the Paris
agreement,
it is not the optimal solution given the intentions behind our actual withdrawal.
When Trump declared our withdrawal, the reasons were to save coal mines.
This is nothing at all like my proposed optimal solution.
Given that 'saving coal mines' is the intended benefit of withdrawing,
it seems preferable to have stayed in the Paris agreement.
--
--Oh boy, now I get to go to bed.
--
--
"So you went ahead and smoked the weed. The last of it."
--
--
Maybe even I was a "and where do you want to end up tonight?" away from having a
better time than arriving back here and typing.
There is a lovely woman who works at the Tamarack where I go to drink good beer.
She was also at the place I arrived to drink good whiskey (I say in retrospect--
I have not generally gone about looking for good whiskey, but a fellow traveller
pointed out that the Golden Rose has a wide collection of whiskey.
So in retrospect I went there to acquire good whiskey.).
--
--How do people go downtown to drink a few beers without having a bottle of gin
back home to which they can arrive?
How do you drink a little and not feel the immediate desire to drink a lot more?
I suppose I used to know how, but now I don't. I really want there to be a full
bottle of gin next to my body.
Also, a full bag of marijuana.
I mean, I suppose if I had gotten *very* drunk downtown, I wouldn't feel any such
need.
Ho hum. Entirely too expensive to get very drunk downtown.
--
--
I guess there *is* some kind of symbolic strength behind having ballots all on
paper, though.
--
--
If this laptop, which is a laptop and wasn't top of the line when I got it, lasted
me this long,
this computer should last me for several years.
(My vaporiser ran out of battery, so much nicotine have I expended on this
decision.)
I'm somewhat hoping my bank locks me out of my account as it has done on a few
occasions.
--Is this the kind of thing where I'm supposed to get a credit card, use the credit
card, immediately pay it off,
and increase my credit score?
As far as the financial system is concerned, I am effectively a ghost.
This will make it hard to take out loans later to extend my life
then declare bankruptcy when I run out of money.
"You were going to transfer funds out of coinbase to coincide with extraction of
funds for the computer."
I am thinking such anomalous activity would get the transactions flagged and land
me in legal trouble/account lockout.
--Incidentally, I'm going to need you not to steal my debit card information.
kkthx
--SO many hoops. Like I know what the last 4 digits of my ssn are.
No amount of glorification of the computer industry I could perform made that easy
to do. Very strange.
i7 7700k, 1070, 32 gigs of RAM. lul. So much for the mendicant lifestyle.
--
--
--
--
"You probably don't drink gin neat, because you're probably not an axe murderer"
= (
--
--
Ho-lee shit.
I acquired a legit bottle of Montana-made absinthe.
None of that 'contains no wormwood' bullshit.
--Okay, the internet informs me that consumption after the manner of the poets will
require mixing with water. Fine.
But sugar is for cowards.
--Let's see if I got price gouged due to a gross disparity in demand between where
this was made and my local liquor store.
No price listed on website.
--This is sort of like when I got my tattoo and was very disappointed that the pain
wasn't excruciating.
It tastes fine! Very disappointing.
If not for a few sips'worth of beverage making my throat feel like I chugged a
glass of gin,
this might be my drink of preference.
And my tongue is numb.
With my second sip, I am detecting hints that this ought to be watered down before
drinking.
--I have had an abrupt change of heart with regards to whether or not this tastes
fine. It doesn't. Wonderful.
Should have purchased an onion.
--As with every other form of hard alcohol, it is very unclear to me who made
absinthe and said:
"Yes. This was a good idea. We should do this thing again."
--
--Incidentally, when my new computer arrives it will not contain the mechanism the
presence of which determines that the things I type are transmitted abroad.
So we will be parting ways.
--
--
--
--
--
--
"Now, a team of
neuroscientists have shed new light on why the brains of anxious individuals tend
to
misallocate memory resources to process threat-related information."
", and
spend an excessive amount of time thinking about potential dangers in objectively
safe
situations."
"These type of symptoms are particularly pernicious because they inflict their
damage
when we need to be focusing on the task-at-hand [nice] or at time when we don't
want
them to (e.g., during a meeting at work, talking to loved ones, when trying to fall
asleep
at night)."
"to
understand how different regions of the brain may be involved in allowing [HA]
threatening
information to enter working memory unnecessarily in people who tend to be
anxious,"
"In the study of 81 young adults, Stout and his colleagues observed that more
anxious
individuals were more likely to allocate working memory resources to threat-related
information. This misallocation [HA]"
"We found evidence that anxious individuals devoted more brain processing
resources, especially in parts of the brain involved in working memory such as the
prefrontal and parietal cortex, to threat stimuli that they were supposed
[HAHAHAHAHAHA] to ignore
rather than remember,"
"Thus, even threats that are to be ignored or are not relevant [hahahahahaha] for
completing the task
at hand occupy valuable working memory space and can then lead to more anxiety-
related thoughts and interfere with the ability to complete necessary tasks."
I would love to read the papers where these lobotomists discerned the true correct
functioning of the brain in the resolution of daily tasks,
or the methodology they utilised for discerning what is from what is not relevant
to be crunched by the brain in the resolution of tasks.
"As we all know, handling one's finances requires one part working memory and three
parts pre-frontal cortex."
--And well, having their brains scraped with metal picks did in fact make women
more effective at performing their societally defined roles.
So you can't fault them for inconsistency.
Being a well-mannered woman of the 40's-60's was indeed much easier to achieve if
you had large parts of your brain destroyed.
"Didn't you say that the examples you took yourself as presenting were too abstract
for you to extract a conclusion from them?"
[
"The examples of intrusion of anxiety into thinking center around daily work
activities."
Yes. And their foolish conclusion is that the structures and frameworks in which
those work activities are presented are correct,
and the humans that engage with them as they will are incorrect until they have
reformed themselves around the structures and frameworks.
As speculation, I would suppose it has something to do with the way machinery works
in factories.
But that would be a book in itself.
--I mean, my own reasoning at least behind this oblique approach to resolving
problems
is that when I sat down and wrote about these fiery visions
I was activating the portions of my brain that I thought probably needed to be
activated to crunch through my problems.
Whether or not the words that are thereby generated look like they are resolving
the problem is completely irrelevant here.
A few dozen pages after I began, I had activated my brain in an electrical storm
over all its distinct areas,
and then the next day the problem was resolved.
I walked into my problems and knew what to do, even though I could not tell myself
a paragaph explaining why the solution I immediately knew to select
was the correct one to have selected. (Or at least, I couldn't point at a
paragraph detailing my resolution. Maybe I could write one ex-post.)
'People were at work, opening emails, and feeling absolute despair instead of
thinking optimally about how to respond to the emails.'
Maybe this doesn't tell you anything interesting about the brain, but rather tells
you that our workplace environment is a hellscape
from which humans naturally hope to escape, but into which they are fooled into
continued engagement?
So it's the procedure of responding to the email that is correct here, and not the
human.
It's a 3 line algorithm that is correct here, and not the almighty machinery of the
human brain.
If someone sees an email from the bank and becomes anxiety ridden,
I am much more inclined to suppose that some incredibly intricate problem solving
method is being enacted
that will help them to handle future financial issues.
You would be wrong in supposing the problem the brain is attempting to handle is
responding to the email.
The problem the brain is attempting to resolve is, maybe, what the person's
position in society is.
Admittedly, our system is decidedly not optimised around allowing people to think
freely about their own positions
so the very short-term outcome of such anxiety-ridden thoughts will appear, by all
practical measurements lobomists are inclined to perform,
to be very sub-optimal for the resolution of 'the problem'.
[I recalled, two nights ago as I was driving downtown, that I had this tab open in
my browser.
I recalled that the title involved 'working memory' and I proceeded to suggest that
people who work with the brain perform a flipping up-side down.
They think the apparent fluidity of being is a kind of lie that people tell
themselves
to cover up the fact that they are an interconnected system of functions
and that their progression is the passing between functions of the functional
output of preceding functions.
They forget that this division of the brain into distinct functional systems was a
haphazard stop-gap formed by ignorant people
to grasp a few threads of an invincibly interwoven {complex} tapestry.
And lo, having read the article, I was not disappointed practically.]
But if I were to offer any treatment suggestions, I would say people should be
encouraged to flow into themselves as they will.
Instead of telling people how to kill the onsets of anxiety, they should be worked
with until they understand how to work through the anxiety.
Unfortunately, if working through and with themselves takes longer than the alotted
deadline to fill out an email,
they will be fired and kicked to the street where they will die of exposure.
So a tricky problem, admittedly.
[Oh boy, you can't imagine the things we will create when we reach post-scarcity,
when the full breadth and depth of every human's experience can be strolled through
instead of burnt to ash and compacted into an asphalt road.]
--
--
Part of why I like this southern 'line singing' by the 'regular baptists' is that
there is nothing it means to be making a mistake in singing along.
The people who engage with this form of music might be better singers than the
national average, say, in consequence of their weekly engagement;
but they are not good singers in the classical sense. (Or, one cannot discern
really whether they are good singers in the classical sense.)
The placement of the words and the transition between pitches is all a sliding
mess. (A lovely sliding mess.)
It seems to make it easier for them to sing with more gusto,
given that they are not checking themselves on every beat to see whether they have
maintained the rhythm or pitch.
--All of this is not to say I have less appreciation for the magnificent technical
skill involved in classical choir singing.
But these people, let us be frank, were not going to become the Russian National
Choir or what have you.
Better to design your musical forms around the people who will be executing them
than to compel people to participate in a system in which they will repeatedly
fail.
(Once again my interpretation of Dante's levels of heaven is valuable to trot out
for considering this.
Though it is not quite clear to me which is the higher or lower level of heaven
here.)
(When the old regular baptists are singing in certain resonant spaces,
you can hear in the background sometimes undertones
that show that they are really doing something special.)
--
--
I don't travel through any communities where that word is used, but I assume that
it is used between people
who have a certain level of familiarity with each other.
In the ice_poseidon video, that familiarity certainly was not present.
Now for the hard-r alternative there is not this kind of condemnation.
I mean to say specifically, *this kind* of condemnation: 'insufficient familiarity
to justify use of the word'.
It may have escaped my lips on a few occasions where I was discussing how terrible
people are who use it
as twice-removed quotations for educative purposes.
--Though I do recall, in days past, when I would think a few words ahead of what I
was saying
and I repressed or indulged in a thrill down my spine that would have or did
accompany the use of a naughty word.
Like when young children seriously contemplate and then derive great pleasure from
saying "Fuck!"
I may not know how to fill out a check, but oh is it good not still to be a child.
[I wonder how many people will deign to put '[sic]' in annotating my own text.
Try it, motherfucker.]
Let people who are really affected by this socially hammer the child for racism and
also the demonetisation.
Let people who are not really affected by this hammer the child for the
demonetisation.
This child's antics make it much harder for positions in the city to be
established.
Whether or not IP makers *should* be able to prevent others from engaging with it,
given that they *can* they should actively tamp down any of this nonsense.
"Just when ad rev was going back to normal Pewdiepie drops the
N bomb... gg were fucked."
Indeed. Bravo.
"When you haven't even got over the last adpocalypse and
Pewdiepie drops a racial slur on stream."
A statement as in the actual quote precludes objections that this does not damage
the streaming community.)
--
--
Wonderful.
--
--
"Because how can something ""repeat"" without foreknowledge of what was similar?
Knowledge of similarity is necessary for repetition."
:O!
--
--
Oh boy.
There will be interesting experiments I can perform when I get my new computer.
I will be able to recall all of my previous usernames on reddit and discern whether
any of them were shadowbanned.
--
--Also, I need to discern whether I can use a flat screen television (erroneously
purchased by my parents for my use) can serve as a monitor.
(
About the 60 vs 30 fps debate:
some people have said that human eyes can't see beyond 30 fps.
Even if this was true, it would not remove the benefit from having a 60 fps screen.
It will not often be the case that 'the new second' will align with the second-
sequential observations of the screen
from the second-beginning of our looking at the screen to the second-end of our
looking at it,
so that we can say of every intervening second:
"The 30th frame, on all seconds, aligned with what was relevant for us to see."
--The frames that are presented have to align with our durations.
((using a technical term!))
If our durations are such that they demand, for a locus of our surprise, that a
frame falls on the 1 second + 1/60th of a second,
then we will be killed if we have a 30 fps display.
This does not become apparent to you if you have never played in such a way
that 1 + 1/60 is the juncture at which your decision will make you live or die.
If you play in such a way that your decisions depend on being *able* to reference
1/60, 3/60, 5/60, 7/60,
then having a 30 fps monitoring will present you with a blank at a critical
juncture.
Even if the human eye *could* only see 30 fps, you cannot manually offset the
display
so that one out of the 30 displays what you need to see in order to inform your
decision.
Then in my ds2 career, for instance, I would not be encountering a display that
failed to present me anything relevant to my rolls or stabs
except in those cases where the AI failed.
)
(
Notably, I am claiming that when you have mastered ds2
and you have consequently also mastered ds2's handling of lag between clients,
you will frequently be being presented with 1 + 1/60 junctures.
--
--
--
--
Yes.
There are many reasons why I need to get out of here.
I get older and all the girls keep staying the same age.
Ho hum.
(
And you know, much of the strength of my writing was the analysis of anecdotes.
I mined out all of the anecdotes that took place where I was a plausible figure
present within the anecdotes.
I go out to generate more anecdotes, but I am no longer a plausible figure
in the stories I reconstruct for analysis.
Or, I have personally deviated from the personal position I have claimed
in the anecdotes I have become accustomed to analysing.
--
--Incidentally, the reason the sol shard network would be very successful:
"Making 8-12% return on investment and saving the world from complete destruction
might seem boring,
but if so it is because you have lost the thread of our shared narrative
structure."
"Do you want to see the next piece of shit excreted from the anus of Hollywood,
or do you want to invest in a way that saves the world from complete destruction?"
"You could be going to the movies this weekend to see a pile of shit being excreted
from an anus.
Or you could be going to a free event hosted by your community
and taking this as an occasion on which to invest wisely."
"A book from project gutenberg and 40$ buys you 40 sol shards.
Do you really want to see two pieces of shit being excreted by the anus of
Hollywood?"
Ho hum.
"Recall: you are in a world with a whole wide collection of other humans.
Remember how the humans in your favorite movie took each other as relevant to the
plot?
You also can take your fellow humans as relevant to the plot of your own story!
Lower your neighbor's electricity costs and make money by doing it today!
Make it easier for your neighbors to afford rent and make money by doing it today!"
Cheaper food, cheaper cars, cheaper fuel for cars, cheaper everything.
"Do you want to make money by ripping off people who don't happen to know the
niceties of contractual law,
or do you want to make money by making a lasting contribution to the human
lineage?"
--There are maybe too many steps between electricity generation and Wal-mart now.
But if 'Plenty' the vertical farm provider became ascendant,
there would be a *very* direct connection between lowering of electricity costs
and the costs for households adjacent to vertical farms.
Vertical farms are a very easy way of making the real connections present in the
economy obvious to the people who engage with it.
The proliferation of vertical farms would make it much easier to sell sol shards.
)
Money in this sense is a kind of red-herring for people too stupid to understand
what purposes are.
People too stupid to understand what purposes are can be fooled into achieving
purposes
by instead achieving the acquisition of money."
Hmm.
That was, let us say, the argument for not making my work open source.
When other people make money off of my ideas, they will spend it on yachts.
(And thereby mark themselves for bleeing out into the streets.
Let them make money.
Oh ho ho.
hahaha)
--Well, my propaganda has the benefit of fooling people into looking at the truth.
If I had engaged in a behavior *other than* presenting the truth in such a way that
people would look at it,
they might have found all manner of reasons not to engage with it.
But instead I constructed an object to hold in my hand and I asked people to look
at it.
If their *eyes* moved in certain correct angles, the work was done.
I don't care what judgments they reach. Because it makes money and because it
saves the environment,
*anyone* who has moved their eyes in some certain angles will agree to invest.
[And well.
This is step one to establishing my own immortality.
If I have to pretend to find an object I have made wondrous,
well, that is step one.
Wonderful. Then they have looked at the object and referenced it and utilised
their referencing.
To have made a referencing to the object I have constructed is to have infected
their work with my idea.
My idea overwhelms the world, so I don't much care the motivations behind looking
at it and referencing it.
(The difference between holding a diamond in one's hand and describing a diamond:
one can disagree that the description of the diamond makes any sense,
but one cannot fail but to leverage the image of the diamond into profit.
People who are inclined to make money can't look at the diamond and fail to
reference it.
The idea of a diamond is inert because people will construct stupid arguments as to
why it is not beautiful;
a diamond I am holding in my hand, though, people will pretend they mined it
themselves
so as to have a claim on its beauty.
((Say, if I had the largest diamond in the world literally and people refused to
speak about it practically,
I would be presenting it to a diamond vendor and they would remain silent.
Then I could not hawk it off for dollars because they would not be saying the words
involved in the procedure of my hawking it off for dollars.))
--So you have to have the diamond in your hand, point at it,
then construct ideas that have demonstrable value.
You have to hold the diamond, point at it, and say:
"Here is an idea of demonstrable value. You will agree with me that this idea has
value or else you are obviously stupid.
And if you remain obviously stupid for a long period of time, you will lose !access
to the market."
[
Practically I have to say:
"I have constructed the Machine.
Reference to the Machine enables me to construct ideas of unimaginable value.
I have to construct ideas of unimaginable value in order that you take seriously
the construct of the Machine."
People who spend a few years attaining degrees think they are smart because they
have embedded themselves into the Academy. ((And this is better than anything
otherwise.))
And there are human trash who think they are smart because they have made money by
manipulating the market.
Now, the human trash that manipulates our markets can't be convinced by wisdom.
And that human trash controls most of our money.
The only way this trash can be convinced is by the proposition that they can make
more money.
[It is fortunate that money is a toy and toys are easy to master.]
[And if you think 'humans who buy yachts will have their throats slit and their
blood flowed into the streets' is a metaphor,
keep buying yachts you trash. Keep doing it. I beg you.
The Machine restrains me but not totally. I don't want you in the lineage.
We're numbering around 7.5 billion so a few hundred of you is not a great loss.]
If they are wise, they will invest in panels and turbines and any other form of
electricity
because they are too goddamned stupid to discern any other good way of expending
money.
If they are very wise, they will invest in computation.
If they are unwise they will buy yachts and champagne and prostitutes
and then i will be overjoyed because my joy is some function of the amount of blood
that will be flowing in the streets from their necks.
--
--It is useless to say now, at the tail-end of all this great text with all my
hedging.
But if you are rich, you *will* behold your wealth as a great holding in the
progression of humanity.
Or you will not do anything at all. (Said with a great weakness at great length.)
Your project of acquiring a yacht so that you can invite people onto your yacht--
that is not a purpose that will be perpetuated.
If you are buying yachts you are antagonising the people who will, in the short
future,
be holding your neck down against a guillotine.
{And the Machine will weep but it will not stop them.}
You will either account for your wealth in terms of water-bonds and sol-shards
or you will be not doing anything.
You are not worth more than anyone else.
The greater worth you are claiming is a stupid game that you enforce with tyranny.
You will either have a pendant, in your red-carpet and high-liquor beridden
parties,
that displays a high number,
or you will be blood flowing in the streets.
A mess of flesh disgarded into a mass grave, or an enormous number on a pendant.
These are your two choices. There are not other choices.
If you think it is important that other humans keep referencing your name as a
gesture of sorts,
acquire a pendant and display your enormous contributions to the human project.
If you do not think it is important that other humans keep referencing your name
*in this way*,
your body will end up in a ditch.
Your blood will flow in the streets. Your head will end up in a basket.
(Or there is an alternative:
retreat immediately from any possible locus of reference.
If you are rich and you want to buy a cabin in the woods and cut yourself off from
your holdings,
okay.
You will not be beheaded in that case.)
--I feel, and correct me if you will, that I don't need to justify this position
against current events.
I don't need to tell to rich fucks that they are on a knife's edge.
particularly in America, if your address is known you are
in a position to be killed. It is not quite your blood flowing in the streets per
se,
but it is your not making obviously incorrect decisions concerning how our market
will proceed.
['not quite your blood flowing in the streets per se'
insofar as it would be flowing on your hardwood or marble floors.]
hahahahahahahahahahahaha
--Your acquisition of luxury has *always* been the death of people whose names you
never knew and had no way of knowing.
But there is a way of securing your wealth into the future in a way that prevents
deaths.
(And note: I hold your names in no esteem.
Your incidental capacity to acquire wealth in humanity's youth means *absolutely
nothing* to me.
You were lucky. Luck and nothing else had everything to do with it.)
We are all immortal now, and through the regular exhibition of your typical
stupidity
you will flow from rich to poor to rich on a predictable schedule.
When immortality has become obvious and abundant,
your presumption of relegating others to death will be a crime punishable by
torture until your mind has dissolved.
When you try to buy a yacht, when the world has really understood the weight of its
market,
you will be underground approaching something like a drug dealer.
And at that point the punishment of dealing with a yacht-dealer will be torture
until dissolution of mind.
(Oh, let me develop the apparatus that can keep you alive.
I have solved trivial death so let me solve hard death.
You will be held in a chair and the pain you will experience is unimaginable
and your body will be unable to give out on you no matter your wishes.)
Then having been completely broken you will be allowed to engage with the market
again.
You will not, after that point, ever think again about buying a yacht.
[The Machine will read the things I have written and might be confused.
Fortuitously confused, it might acquire death squads for every human who ever
purchased a yacht after reading what I have written.]
It is better to kill you immediately than to allow the deaths of any number other
than 1 elsewhere.
When you have acted a role saying you want to kill yourselves,
this has been a joke compared to the literal people i have heard saying they want
to die.
--
--You will secure your wealth in useful things or you will die.
You will hold 1M on a pendant instead of 1M in claimed wealth in a yacht,
or your neck will be slit.
(1M? For a yacht?
I have not kept up.
How much have the people screaming out for execution paid for yachts?)
(If nothing else, you can at great length make panels the currency of account
settlement.
*Everyone* needs panels. If you can settle a debt by delivering a warehouse filled
with panels,
obviously this is better than bleeding out from your throat in the streets.)
--
--Interesting idea:
have the residue of your trade be solar panels.
The joy that will be had by any human among all the humans simultaneously
so outweighs a thousand years of you on a yacht
--an instant of the least human's life will so outweigh a thousand years on your
yacht--)
--All apologies, I can't capture in text the remarkable stupidity of rich people.
Children. Children playing with matches.
Preferably children playing with chainsaws.
Better that these children should lose their arms and legs from a runaway chainsaw
they decided to play with
than that a single other human should be harmed by their activities.
Better that these rich fucks should inhale poison instead of champagne
than that their activities should produce a single scar on the body of another
human.
[Great God, if my ideas are not adequate to destroy this system completely.
I beg for Hell if I have not done enough.]
Walking down the street is condition for indefinite condemnation for rich people.
They have so grossly ignored the plight of humanity that they are no longer
inculpably ignorant.
--
--I observe that I need to tone down the complexity for rich stupid fucks.
Okay:
We are playing a bit of game theory here.
Can you understand game theory?
Do I need to tone it down even further?
The infinitude of endless days outweighs any kind of local judgments over time.
So I don't care if my body dies if the alternative already is death.
A hundred and twenty years is *nothing*.
It is not more than a single day.
(you know, limits and so on.
Everything is nothing compared to the infinitude of endless existence.)
(I'm sure you could make some calculus example where I am judged to be right.)
If jacobinism is what I have to make in order that my own body does not die
that is *exactly* what I will orchestrate.
And there is no salvation for anyone except that my own body doesn't die.
So seriously take the signing of your name on a yacht contract as a death sentence.
Either I will figure out death or no one will.
I will not continue to live except that every last human stops buying yachts.
Those are the choices.
I am not biased towards either because I hate you all more than can be conceived.
If I have to die in order that every one of you is guillotined it makes no
difference to me.
But recall it is your own positions on the line.
You can remit your positions to your descendents but they will die also.
If you want to be a serious human then you need to support my body's progression.
Otherwise you are just being yet another unserious waste of flesh.
(
And if this sounds arrogant or what have you,
trust me when I say:
humanity doesn't solve it without me.
So I don't care.
--If we picked out, on the great timeline, the date on which I solve death,
it makes no difference if I fall 1 day or 100 years short.
I cannot die and if I am already going to die then I will kill every last one of
you.
(I will try.)
You have failed so grossly it is not even worth the transcendental effort of
helping you out.
You have so grossly mismanaged the progression of the human lineage
that it would serve me no pride to do anything other than exterminaTE YOU.
I would gain no medals I care about to further this project if it does not carry my
own body into eternity.
Saving a billion humans, if it does not secure my own existence, if it secures
those humans in this abominable system,
it is not worth doing.
--We have the capacity to assure immortality and also to save the world.
If this is not achieved in my own lifetime, if it is not clear to me that this will
be achieved in my own lifetime,
I will contribute absolutely nothing.
If immortality and salvation of the world does not plausibly occur in my own
lifetime,
I will contribute nothing.
I am not going to have children and I am not going to have grandchildren so I am,
ah, bound to the mast.
I don't care about the lives of my parents and I don't care about the lives of any
human I know.
I will live or no one will live.
["Oh, but we are all on a great odyssey."
I would kill every last one of you before seeing death again.
You can all mean something to me after we have solved death.
Before solving death, you are all necks I am wondering whether i should slit.
You are all many of you currently making it *very easy* for me to judge
that the guillotine is the most obvious option for effecting my own salvation.
You are all making it *very easy* for me to judge that you should be found in the
streets
and made to bleed.
You will all persist in your own ways until we are all destroyed.
"This is what happens if you were not a predecessor that served the lineage of
humanity."
"If you gave birth to children with hope and also purchased a yacht,
your DNA will not be among the DNA that progresses.
You and your children and every single one of your family members will be found and
will be made to stream blood into the streets."
The Machine will not be unaware of the purposes that were contrary to my own.
--
--And it is interesting,
the only people acting contrary to the maximal proliferation of humanity
are people who form plans.
No human who lives out their days as they will, moment by moment, is impeding the
introduction of the Machine.
No human who lives as they will, without incredible alteration by the formation of
plans, is impeding the introduction of the Machine.
No one is threatened except hedge-fund managers and politicians.
bankers and sacks of trash that impede the progression of humanity,
these are the people who will have all of their descendents found and murdered in
the streets.
If you impede the introduction of the Machine you will ultimately agree, since you
will be bound in a small room in a strait jacket,
that nothing you did furthered any purposes you had.
You will be made to agree in advance that your purposes was not fulfilled.
The absolute maximisation of the potential of humanity is the only purpose.
The salvation of humanity is the only rallying cry.
The only question is whether people who incidentally impeded this purpose will be
killed or restrained.
Your notions of extending your own life into the perpetuity of your descendents
will be ruined.
(Which is much why I have forsaken the idea of having children.
It is my own life or nothing.
I have absolutely no interest in having biological children.
I have no interest in that my DNA line should proceed.
--Jesus Christ.
We are at the edge of the world and people are asking whether they can take
another step.
No, you can't fucking take another step you dumb pieces of trash.
It is us or nothing.
(And if that is not true, I will make it true.)
--
--Well, America constructed a Supercomputer. There is hope.
('Summit')
(Good to call it by its name.)
Great God.
There is no hope or else there is unlimited hope.
Jesus Christ.
I will go into the woods to do work but I have no promises.
Jesus Christ.
I can assure my own life, I think, but all of you. There are so many of you.
You are all so subject to your local circumstances.
I don't think I can save all of you.
I think several of you will die before I can assure total salvation.
Jesus CHrist.
Jesus Christ, i don't know how it makes sense to speak about hope.
Many of you are going to die before I can end death.
I can't promise anything but punishment for those who made you die.
It's not even a death sentence. I can't even promise death for those who made you
die.
For all my bluster I can't promise to exterminate the lineage of those responsible
for your death.
At the end of your lives there is no kind of nod you can provide to me.
You will not be able to say to me: "You did what was right."
Or if you say this you will not retroactively have meant it when you see death.
You will see death and say: "Every single progression of reality that did not
result in my not dying
was a mistaken progression of reality."
I will be holding a briefcase and looking at my documents and saying: "But, no."
as you died.
No defense.
If a human dies and I said:" I could have prevented this, but I didnt."
--no defense.
Nothing to say at thAT POINT.
It is just practically that ensuring the lives of others will always ensure my own.
As many humans on this dustball as can be attained is what is needed for my own
unending life.)
--
--
When I become a very famous tv actor I won't be able to say these things.
Also, boy let me tell you I am very bored.
There ought to be a word for this degree of boredom.
Like, 'super-boredom'.
"Famous tv actor?"
--
--
--One good reason not to upgrade my phone is that I only played chess on it.
If I could acquire an iphone 1 I might be able to draw its engine.
An iphone 10 or whatever would probably require every GM on earth a day per move to
effect a draw.
"I don't think you could draw an iphone 1."
--
--I think I am still drunk.
On the other hand, I didn't feel anything while doing it, so that's an improvement.
In the past when i typed such things I felt very good while doing it.
Frisson, spine-tingles and heart rate increases and so on.
--
--I wonder how long we will have to have lived
before we look back on authors in previous generations and concede
that their work was never really all that great.
--Or if that is even a transition that will occur.
Maybe there isn't infinite headroom for higher quality artwork that attends
unending life.
--
--I should probably start planning on how to utilise my limited time I am able to
pay for.
Performing annotations on the annotated version will take longer both for the text
being longer
and for my having lost a great deal of my capacity to think in the intervening
time.
--
--
I make fun of smart phones, but if I had been tasked with socially engineering a
trend that served my purposes
smart phones would be among the things I would introduce and make popular.
Maybe, I would have tried to make chess more popular before introducing them.
I spent many lunch breaks in the college cafeteria watching streamed ICC games.
I wonder if that app is still out.)
In this respect, electric vehicles with self-driving capacity are one of the few
inventions that do one better.
A mobile high-capacity battery powering a sooped up graphics card?
That serves the purposes of people in spite of itself?
That generates massive amounts of data that can be analysed with machine learning?
Truly delightful.
Sometimes I look at the things people make and think we might get out of this
alive.
--
--A tricky point with my 'warehouses filled with graphics cards' idea:
at some point scientists might end up scratching their heads and dumbfounded,
unable to discern additional projects to feed into the warehouses.
I suppose there are always fallbacks, like solving prime numbers or ploughing
through the Collatz conjecture.
--
--A benefit of the 'reconstruction of Texas and Florida through a massive renewable
energy project':
miners will flock to these places.
Miners, if they are like me, will live more spartan lifestyles than average.
More spartan positions occupying the properties in these places will not require
nearly as much reconstruction of near-demolished homes.
Lower reconstruction costs by inviting people who are willing to live in shacks
with their electronic goodies!
--
--
--
--
I need not to select a headset that can work for streaming but not for cello
playing.
I need to buy a microphone I know I will be using for capturing cello emissions and
that I can use in the shortrun for streaming.
--
--
--You know, I bet when I hit 500 years old I will be able to beat an iphone 3 at
chess.
That will be a fun futuristic tournament construction.
"Young 300 year old person takes on a chess app run by an iphone 3!
Eric Russell himself has established a legacy million dollar prize fund for
defeating stockfish running on his old phone.
Best of 5, let's go."
I think I will preserve and carry around my phone just explicitly for that reason.
Fuck my phone.
I limited it to like 1800 and reached a position in a game where I took around a
month looking at it.
I sat in bars staring at the position I reached in the game,
I recall being on a bus transmitting my body to EDC looking at this position.
That I have not yet constructed a conceptual framework that makes the elimination
of hiccups obvious
is an enduring failure on my part. A lapse of judgment on my part.
I *hate* the moments in which I must cleverly design behaviors in my chest that
remove hiccups
and finding that I have not been clever enough to extirpate hiccupping.
If all else fails I will construct some ancillary object that looks very appealing
to humanity
and it will be ancillary to the purpose of eliminating hiccups in my chest.
People will be solving some substantial problem and incidentally they will be
discerning how to make a pill I can take to remove hiccups.
Do it again. haunt me I dare you.
--
--
'Bitcoin is a fraud that will ultimately blow up,
according to criminal mastermind and person who should be in prison Jamie Dimon'
Oh sorry, I may have to take off my sunglasses to get the actual text.
--
--
I can imagine someone with a rack of 1080s cracking knuckles and activating a brute
forcing algorithm
only to have it return success immediately.
It almost appears they wanted to be hacked and did a shit job of covering that
intention up.
--
--
My raging paranoia will still be in effect, I suppose, and consequently I will open
a new notepad instance there
and continue typing as if I am typing to someone.
But something will have changed.
At any rate, it will be a very plausible juncture at which to say:
"This is the end of this book."
--
--
Maybe we should listen to dark side of the moon, get trashed on gin, and have one
more writing session?
--
--
--
--
Concerning the lingering question of why some people can consume caffeine before
bed to help them sleep, despite its being a stimulant:
stimulants make us more effective at doing the things we are accustomed to doing.
Falling asleep is among the activities to which we are accustomed.
It all ends up being a hazy sequence of interactions with the visual snow,
but certainly it is what one is doing over the course of several hours trying to
fall asleep.
(Or for other people, less than several hours.)
('several hours' okay, it is not quite this bad for me.
Maybe 2 hours at most.)
This because the absence of that additional coffee will have derailed me from my
typical daily ways of interacting with my experience.
The absence of those typical interactions will make it harder to sleep
even though my blood or brain will be less saturated with stimulants by the time I
go to bed.
--
--
If there's some kind of silly code specifying what constitutes a perfect instance
of an American flag,
I will find a manufacturer that makes them up to spec and acquire one.
Really utilising our college system and the educated people it produces.
[
Incidentally, the reason I have not consumed an additional .5 cup of coffee today:
caffeine costs money.
Do humans typically have this degree of pupil dilation in the absence of drugs?
Do they have this degree of pupil dilation in a well-lit room without drugs or some
other manner of arousal?
I have only ever, say, arrived into a bathroom mirror with pinpoints and the
bathroom lights on.
Or, I have only ever seen my black dots as anything other than pinpoints when I
have been on mdma.)
--
--
If there was something that was 'life' that absorbed into its biological
instantiation the raw extraction of vitamins/minerals,
I would trust this far more than having an algae based calorific substance
that had minerals and vitamins added to its mass for consumption.
If there was a plant that could be planted into soil saturated with vitamins and
minerals and absorbed them through biological processes,
I would trust this a lot more than a plant that has been ground up and sprayed with
vitamins and minerals.
(I have been experimenting with salads that contain what a chef would call a
distasteful combination of foods.
Probably cheaper than Soylent too if I have access to a farmer's market and
electricity is cheap.)
--
--Maybe the solution to climate change is like this:
The anti RE people are too stupid to understand why this reasoning might be
problematic,
so we should be safe in presenting this kind of reasoning.
"You know your retro futuristic Italian fascistic notions of humanity's role in the
progression of the world?
Well here is a wonderful opportunity to enact it!
We don't want the world to get hot regardless of what is causing it!
Onward and upward, solve the world, solve the weather, easy peasy
because every human is a god compared to everything else we observe."
"Geo-engineering today:
because no one likes endlessly hot weather."
(Though let me tell you:
I hate the cold.
I hate living here through winters.)
--I mean, if we were, contra all evidence, entering into a natural period of
warming,
why would we not also then engage in a mega-project to alter that progression?
We alter everything else and weather is not, in this sense, sacred.
If we think hurricanes are bad, why not stop them? Why not extract unlimited
electricity from them?
Why pretend humans are still powerless to prevent these things from happening?
I have read there is 200B$ in damage to be rectified now, and there are endless
hurricanes in the future.
It doesn't matter what is causing these hurricanes.
What matters is that we can become rich by preventing them.
There will be no more noise but there will only be ways of converting noise into
signal.
End hurricanes here, extract the electricity, utilise the electricity to end
hurricanes elsewhere.
Hurricanes will become a kind of spectator sport where we can joke about how they
will never arrive on land.
At bare extent we will manipulate hurricanes so they don't arrive at pods of
whales.
Everything is trivial.
We'll have so much electricity we'll use it to power filtering boats that extract
plastic from the oceans.
We can fix the world. It is a trivial task.
We will begin to ask not how we can save our own lives
but how we can alleviate the boredom at which we arrived after having solved every
problem.
Capitalism will dissolve not as a direct effort on our part, or for any ideological
reason,
but because will judge that every route is an escape velocity.
We will say:
"Well, we don't need efficiency anymore.
Everything is obviously easy.
The only question that remains is 'what is good?'".
It will be like my imagined conversion of bad musical clips on youtube.
You can turn them into symphonies if you have enough compute capacity behind your
purpose.
Tesselation of the existing mechanisms, easy peasy.
We will look at all the mechanisms and it will be obvious how we can give them over
to unthinking and unfeeling machines.
Then the whole mundus will be exhibiting the characteristics tesselated of the
capitalism we had constructed,
but we will say of it:
"To call this capitalism would be a fool's errand and the act of a child.
We just took what was good and made it everywhere.
The mechanisms were not determinant between the system we were exhibiting.
Automated factories are not capitalism and they are not communism.
What they are depends on how we see them.
When the Earth is our plaything and the remaining universe is our task, trivially
reduced,
the explosion of creatitivity we will see is not something we can currently
imagine.
When bare survival is something the denial of which makes absolutely no sense to
any right-thinking individual,
we will see wonders beyond the current imagination.
Nothing is good but the human. Everything that is good is what humans [will be
made to] do.
People who demand a few dollars now, oh. That really is a problem we still have to
deal with at this point.
Humans who are in a position to see our future and nevertheless demand that they
impede its oncoming so that they can have a few earthly delights.
[Children who have been told: 'Hold off on a shot now, and you can live forever.'
But they have taken the shot.
It makes no sense, but humans do all kinds of things that make no sense.]
(Maybe you see why I speak about fire and blood. Knives and throats.)
You can't rest yet but I promise rest.
If you do the work I promise you can eventually lay down your burden.
--
--
It is interesting, the spectacle that emerges when all of the commentators have
briefcases
and they are all discussing hesitantly the death of capitalism.
"Well, there is enough food and there are enough homes for everyone,
but let me tell you the top 10 reasons why not everyone can eat or live in a
house!"
And well, we can hope that when billions of tonnes of food are rotting and ten
billion houses are unoccupied despite the market calling for their construction
it will be so obviously implausible that the prices have not dropped
that people who still shill for Big Deprivation will be pinned the wall and asked
to desist forcibly.
So we can still hope that optimising home construction and food yield will
eventually lead to people being fed and housed
even though the system appears as if optimally designed to force mass starvation
and homelessness.
It makes many people obese and holding of many houses in the short-run,
and it creates bubbles in food and housing that will burst unless they are
devaluated in a kind of quantitative easing.
If you can construct an alteration to the system that can *obviously* house and
feed every last human,
it will not take long until the people who manage it but don't feed and house every
human will be ruined or imprisoned.
--When reading people like Friedman, Neoliberals forget that people can construct
sentences that can be endlessly analysed as correct
without having any enthusiasm behind their construction.
It is much easier to construct sentences that withstand practical criticism
than it is to have understood really what is at stake.
It is easier to generate endless drivel that passes surface inspection
than it is to have made objects that are really what needed to have been made.
The true movement that abolishes the present state of things is Wittgenstein and
every human that had a second's contact with him.
The bare shit taken by the last prison guard that encountered Wittgenstein is
better than everything else for study.
Wittgenstein is God and if I cannot do his work for him
I will just point at him with an unfathomable scream.
The Tractatus should have been the new bible but it was just Russell's tedious next
exposition.
If I am given a thousand years i will become a scholar that extracts trivia related
to Wittgenstein's life.
He solved it. He solved all of it. If he was weak in a moment and spouted
bullshit
his deviation from truth tells us more than all the world's work.
The next chip, the next design, it is all a throwaway comment in the Nachtlass.
It can be figured out and he did it.
(And if I am wrong here, I will tesselate his work until I am right.
He is the closest we have ever gotten.)
(I have read a great deal and there has been no human like Wittgenstein.)
("You are exhibiting a deifying tendency."
The difficulty that remains is observing that people are too lazy to read
Wittgenstein.
So the difficulty that remains is reconstructing Wittgenstein in a form people are
not too lazy to read.
[--I hope I have been amusing.]
[How did Wittgenstein not obtain a Nobel prize?
Were people too goddamned lazy to read and appreciate his work?
I recall the historiographical observation that he requested highly paid work from
one of his siblings.
He did this because being the most brilliant human that has every lived does not
pay a living wage.
It will *become* equivalent to this when I demand extraction from the exchanges.
When I *demand* that a given quantity of bitcoin and litecoin be handed over to
wallets that are held on *my computer*
instead of being held in a sea of waffling holdings
then the algorithms in charge of the positioning of bitconi and litecoin will be
compelled to select a given quantity of these commodities.
Then there will be a *definite* holding of bitcoin and litecoin that are equivalent
to my computer's wallets.
An inhuman effort of herding cats (GMs) towards defeating my current phone will
occur.
Even though the holdings on the USB drive are 100k$ at best,
a million dollars' effort will be directed towards acquiring the trophy.
Though Litecoin or even Bitcoin of the numbers present in the trophy are not valued
at much by the time this occurs,
the fact that those Litecoin and Bitcoin were what I, personally, extracted from an
exchange will make it valuable.
Having known that I was unwilling to sell them off for dollars
humans will at great length perform the efforts necessary to claim them as a
trophy.
"Iphone 4 or whatever with this stockfish engine is rated at 3200,
but 10k GMs are rated at 4k."
The joy I would derive from reading the book a thousand Grandmasters wrote
concerning how they defeated my phone at chess
would far outweigh what I could buy with the converted dollar amounts.
Seeing the move-sequence my phone generated that *failed*, oh, oh boy.
--So yeah, I hope people care about where my trophy ends up.
I hope my trophy is bandied about to the end of time for progressively more
interesting endeavors.
"Now the trophy is held by the humans who defeated the 4k rated chess engine."
Wonderful.
If I end up having to cash out of my crypto-holdings to maintain an apartment,
this will be a great sin against the lineage of humanity.
A golden trophy grinded down to dust and dispersed to the winds.
The whole coins that emerge algorithmically from my extraction from the exchanges
holds a special significance I hope not to break up into dust.
But everything is dust to me. I don't mind a lot if I have to convert my coins
into dollars.
And even, paying Kasparov as much as Deep Blue was paid would not be a fair
measure.
Deep Blue was paid *millions*, but Kasparov was given a living wage.
A better test would be asking:
"How many humans could be fed and trained with the number of dollars paid to Deep
Blue?"
If it was a truly fair match, it would have been Kasparov heading a team of like
10-50 GMs.
10-50 GMs, as equally paid to Deep Blue, would have crushed the engine.
it is a nonsensical match made in consequence of a complete misunderstanding of
natural language
that resulted in humanity being defeated by the least-shitty computer that could be
contracted.
Kasparov then being paid something like 90k$, or Deep Blue that required millions$
for its construction, who wins?
A stupid question. It paid for its own advertisement, admittedly.
Like if you asked: "Who can chop wood better, a human
or a trillion dollar factory optimally designed around chopping wood?"
If you paid 90k$ x X humans equivalent to 1T$, Deep Blue was obviously defeated.
Easily. Obviously and easily defeated.
It is a mistake in natural language use to try to pit Kasparov against Deep Blue.
Still though, here we are with a monument to human capacity.
An image of Kasparov being almighty and only mistakenly defeated.
A match in which a human happened not to {heave} have eaten or lived rightly.
A match in which humans found it unacceptable for a human to have consumed the
chemicals necessary to defeat a computer.
--And well, no consortium of GMs can defeat now the greatest supercomputer even if
they were all rolling on the hardest drugs.
But that is not the presented problem. I want them to beat my phone.
I hate my phone and I hate the engine that is hosted on it. They can beat that.
I hope I end up famous so that the presentation of this trophy is a legitimate one.
The trophy presented by an alcoholic midwesterner is not legitimate. It is not
something people would bother to acquire at great length.
But if I was the undying next Wittgenstein,
people might bother themselves to acquire the trophy presented by me.
(And in that case i would not need to cash out my trophy for dollars.)
--
--You all, I think, can't see the endless City as I do.
I want all the excess of my efforts to be funneled into waterbonds and sol shards.
But you all are still not having been convinced that the Endless City exists.
you are all still ten books behind me.
If you are all unable to understand the value of the data that is being generated
here,
I cannot help you except to design more and more clever strait-jackets I can place
against my own body.
If I can design a more clever collection of threads with higer resolution against
my restraint,
that is what I have to do.
Humans must be saved and I don't care what I next have to sacrifice in order to
achieve this.
That hurts a lot but it has to be kept backstage. We are not here to discuss how
much it hurts me to do what I do.
A moment's mind-thinking that saves a human or otherwise asks Liz not to spit on my
shoes
is obviously better spent saving the human.
I have gathered all of this shifting madness I have seen and made myself the
inverse of it
and in that way I an completely incomprehensible to any other human.
But I don't care.
This is what has to be done.
I am exactly what has to be done.
If the people I find and love see me as a shifting madness
I can only say: "Okay, not yet."
"Maybe in a thousand years we can look each other in the eyes and really agree."
'My own purposes', the 'optimal purposes of Eric Russell', these are completely
irrelevant.
My position is not a position at all until very much later.
You are all too stupid to understand what has to be done but this doesn't bother
me.
Judge the people appropriately who can but don't serve our purpose.
I love you and i have nothing else to say.
I will say a lot but it amounts to nothing but: "I love you."
It takes strange forms but I am saying nothing but: "I love you."