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GLIMPSE OF LIGHT
STEPHEN MUMFORD
Bloomsbury Academic
An imprint of Bloomsbury Publishing Plc
LON DON • OX F O R D • N E W YO R K • N E W D E L H I • SY DN EY
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Bloomsbury Academic
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Contents
First Meditation 1
Second Meditation 23
Third Meditation 47
Fourth Meditation 73
Fifth Meditation 93
Sixth Meditation 111
Objections and Replies 133
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First Meditation
Some 200 miles inside the Arctic Circle in the north of Norway
sits the island city of Tromsø. On the larger neighbouring island
of Kvaløya there is, after some distance and turns, a tiny
settlement called Bakkan. It consists of four houses on the slope
down to the fjord. The road stops before the village with the
journey completed on foot.
I have a friend, Petter, who built one of the houses. From
his kitchen window he has an uninterrupted view across the
fjord to the angular mountain-tops beyond. On the edge of
the water, he also built himself a small wooden cabin in which
he could sit and do his thinking. The interior is equipped in only
a basic manner. It contains a raised bed, a stove and a writing
desk that sits under the window. From that spot, you can look out
across the herring-rich waters, cold and silent. The stove is
essential in the harsh winters when temperatures rarely climb
above freezing.
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* * * * *
Finally, I was alone. I exhaled the relief of one who had travelled
far, arrived, and shut the door. With many miles behind me, over
land and sea, I had time at last to reflect on the true causes of my
being here.
Staring out over the fjord, I recalled the reasons and arguments
that had produced this unexpected crisis of confidence. Did it
really mean that my life’s work had been for nought?
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The fact was that I had, in many articles and books over the
years, developed a philosophy of realism. This said that our
interests were not the measure of all things. Indeed, I had stated
that we were but one small part of the natural world.
I could sum it up like this: things existed whether we thought
of them or not. Knowledge of the universe was something
obtainable to us, though this did not mean that we could know
everything. Science was the best way to uncover many truths but
I did not believe it answered every question. There was still a
place for philosophy, which remains our best hope of
understanding the general nature of reality, in an abstract kind
of way.
We were right to have a sceptical attitude but not to hold a
sceptical philosophy. I firmly believed there was a world outside
of our own minds, for example, and I even thought that we could
know and understand a substantial portion of it.
But all around me there were challenges. Many didn’t like my
view. How could we be so sure there were such things existing
apart from us? We only infer the reality of other existents from
our own experiences, my opponents protested. Doesn’t that
mean that the only thing we know about with certainty is
experience?
Metaphysics made the mistake, I was told, of assuming we
could think and talk about the world itself, rather than just
thinking about the words or concepts we must use in order to
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grasp it. After all, there are clearly different terms on which we
might conceptualise the world. We could divide it up in all sorts
of ways. Aren’t those divisions then arbitrary? We think of the
arm and the hand as two distinct things, but why should this
mental division be made at the wrist? Couldn’t it have been
at another place instead, if we had different concepts for the
world?
I had ploughed on in my professional life and developed my
own programme of work but all the time I knew I had nagging
doubts. I felt I’d had to set them aside. No longer. Was my realism
being built on sand? Could anything really be known other than
my own mind? And did I even know that? There was just one
thought or feeling and then another. How did I even know that
there was a ‘self ’ having those experiences? Might even I not
exist?
Sceptics had annoyed me. They seemed unreasonable and
stubborn. Their philosophy led nowhere. And, yet, did I have an
answer? A proof?
Consider money, for example. How could this be anything
other than a social construction? We have these small slips of
paper and metal coins that seem to mean so much to us. People
will do almost anything to get them. Money has a value, we are
told, which is sometimes so great. Yet this monetary value is
nothing but what we as a society have chosen to give it. Perhaps
we need not have created money; and I can conceive of a time
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I met one man who said that electrons did not exist until 1897.
But once they were ‘discovered’, they existed and had always
existed.
I pointed out the absurdity in this way of understanding. It
generated a contradiction for it implies that in 1800 electrons
both didn’t and did exist. How was I to make sense of what I was
being told?
My concern was dismissed. ‘Contradiction is an artefact of
logic’, he insisted, ‘and we created logic too.’
I couldn’t argue conclusively against that. I knew there were
different systems of logic, with different uses and applications.
Could I really assert that there was a truth about the proper steps
in reasoning? Or does anything go?
I didn’t know why these problems were worrying me now in
particular. I had always known them. I’d put them to one side
because I wanted to make progress. I had been an ambitious
young man, publishing books, developing a system, earning
recognition and promotion. It had gained me a degree of
academic respectability and a comfortable life.
Perhaps it was just my age, then. Once I had passed fifty, there
was no point pretending I was young anymore. Early in life, it’s
rare you hear of one of your contemporaries dying. That had
changed. You know that you will not live forever. Some old
friends had already gone. How long was left? Twenty years? Ten?
Five? At some point, you have to stop and face the truth. You
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* * * * *
and looked to see that it was Ragnhild and Solan. Between them,
they dragged a sled, which they brought to a rest. I waved and
they saw me.
Ragnhild cleared the recent snow from a natural ledge that
was about waist high from where she stood. Solan reached in the
sled and produced a big chunk of wood, which he passed to
Ragnhild and she set it down on the ledge.
He reached in again and this time produced a small axe,
light enough to wield with one hand. He passed this too to
Ragnhild and she immediately set about chopping the block
of wood into smaller pieces. I looked down at my stove. It
had a glass door on the front through which I was to feed the
logs of firewood. They were making them small enough for
me to fit into the stove. I put back on my coat and scarf and
dragged out the basket that Petter had pointed out to me was
almost empty. With it, I stepped back into the cold Arctic
perpetual night.
‘We will make sure you have enough for a few days,’ Ragnhild
reassured me, and Solan gathered what had been chopped so far
into my basket.
He set out another big log for his sister to chop in half. She
lifted the sharp axe above her head and then quickly smashed it
down, cleaving the wood before her. I was impressed. Despite the
harsh climate, this family was the picture of physical health,
strong and skilled.
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there. Not much had changed since their stay except that we had
all grown older.
They didn’t ask anything about what I was doing there in
Bakkan, staying over in the cabin for the first time. Youth can be
very accepting. Maybe others before me had come and done the
same. It didn’t seem as unnatural to them as it did to me. Perhaps
I was having a once in a lifetime experience.
There were more footsteps, trudging through the snow,
expertly avoiding the hazards. Marie’s face appeared in the little
window in the door and there was a smile.
‘Come in,’ I called, and once she was inside I continued, ‘Were
you worried where they had gotten to?’
‘Oh no,’ said Marie. ‘I was more thinking they were being a
nuisance to you.’
I believed this. The children had been free to wander around
the island all they wanted since they were very little. They
respected nature but I never got a sense that they feared it. Not
even the Huldra, really. In contrast, I would no doubt be dead if
I was out there for as little as one hour.
‘Besides,’ Marie added, ‘I brought you some hot tea for the
night. Do you call it a flask?’
It was indeed a flask, in English. Norwegians get confused by
that term: for them, flask means a bottle. But I was very pleased
that she’d had the foresight to think of it. I didn’t want to be
trouble so hadn’t asked for anything but I could see that at
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was like ice. But that was not it. Something else had awoken
me. I felt it first: an irregular vibration that seemed to shake the
cabin.
This wasn’t just a movement. It was a sound – a deep and
pervading one: a wailing, crying, moaning. At times it seemed a
heavy breathing. I had not heard the like before. Was I dreaming?
No. I was sure. But then I couldn’t make sense of it either.
Was I disorientated in this alien environment? But I was
certain I was aware of my other surrounds clearly and distinctly.
I could feel the warm bedding against my body and cold air
against my face. The fire had gone out and the darkness was
engulfing. But still I heard this irregular noise, which seemed to
be reaching out across the whole fjord.
I did wonder whether to get up and try to light the fire. But I
remembered that it would mean lots of trouble with paper and
kindling; and standing there, poking and venting it. If I stayed in
bed, I could keep the heat trapped inside my blankets. And that
was also a reason not to get up and stand at the window, looking
for the source of this unexpected disturbance.
Besides, Petter had told me that a whale visited every year: a
humpback. The fjord was deep and full of fish and it came
to feast during the winter. I’d never heard this sound before
but I’d been lucky. The whale was visiting along with me. Its song
was another aspect of my commune with nature. What did I
expect?
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I slumbered for some time, waking and then sleeping still more. I
had no sense of time in this darkness but knew that if I looked at
my watch I would then stay awake no matter how early it was.
Eventually realising I had all the sleep I could take I saw that it was
after 8.00 and very late for me to rise. Had I wasted some of my
thinking time? So far, all I had done was articulate the doubts I
had suffered. I was here to find a solution, if there was one. If not,
I was to accept the pointlessness of my life: wasted thus far. But
then it need be a waste no more after Bakkan.
Determined to set to work, and that this day would be a
positive one, I jumped out of the bed into the freezing coldness
that had taken over the cabin. I couldn’t work without warmth
so, once a candle was lit, my first job was to get the stove going.
Scrunched up paper and small chips of wood were good for a
start. Once that was lit with matches, I could put in a bigger
piece: one of the logs.
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The paper burned well but I put on the log too soon. Was
there not enough oxygen, or too much? I had a little air vent I
could open or close. Had I used enough kindling at the right
time? It was clearly failing so I made a second attempt. More
paper and kindling and time.
I couldn’t really do much more than stand watching the stove,
checking if the flames were taking hold. I sat a little kettle on top
but it was far from warm enough to make my tea. I drank some
that was left in the flask but by now it was only lukewarm. Tea
was one luxury I couldn’t do without. As soon as the first log was
burning, I thought I had better introduce a second and make
sure it kept going. The flames lit the room through the glass
window on the stove’s frontage: a warm orange glow. But not yet
cosy. It took some time for the cabin to feel warm and then for
my water to boil.
I drank the fresh tea and put on another small log, surprised at
how quickly they burnt out. But after consulting my watch once
more I realised that I had been devoted to the stove’s lighting for
more than an hour. I wanted to leave the cabin and visit my hosts
but didn’t feel I could until I was sure the stove would burn
through my absence. If it didn’t, I would need to recommence the
lighting process all over again.
Outside, there was fresh snow from the night: lots of it. At no
point as I slept did I have a sense of it falling. Nevertheless, the
tracks back up to the house, which had been there yesterday,
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were now almost entirely covered. There were only the slightest
indications of where they had been. I tried my best to follow
them, and thus avoid any perils off the beaten track, but it was a
struggle.
Sometimes I sank down to my knees. At other times I slid
back. The grips on my boots weren’t really up to the job. Nor were
they high enough. Barely covering my ankles, by the time my
ascent was complete, my socks inside were entirely wet and cold.
‘Ho, ho!’ came the greeting when Petter first saw me through
his kitchen window, struggling up to his house. He was amused
at this ill-prepared foreigner’s battle against Mor Jord. Yes, I
was used to a comfortable city life. For this week, at least, I had
turned my back on it. My decision was sound, though. All the
distractions back home would never have allowed me all this
time for reflection.
Inside, I shook the snow from my shoes. Marie was there too
and there were smiles all round: smiles of relief, perhaps.
‘So you survived the night?’
‘Yes’, I replied, by self-verifying utterance. ‘I actually slept
really very well. I was a little unsettled at first but I was soon
asleep. I think I was tired after the travel.’
The door opened again behind me and there was another ‘Hi,
hi.’ It was Inger, come up from the second house in Bakkan.
‘Takk for sist!’
‘Takk for sist.’
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cannot get together and talk with each other about, for instance,
whether it is good or bad to live within these cells. They cannot
rise up together to overthrow me, their captor, or perform any
other kind of joint action. They cannot create any impression on
each other at all. This, to me, is not a society.
Societies are bound together by the fact that they interact.
They converse with each other and, in virtue of that, develop a
common language. They share values to an extent but can also
challenge them and debate them. They get in each other’s ways
and have to negotiate compromises and shared norms for living
together. To be in a society is to be affected by those around you
and, in turn, to affect the others. Were your society to make no
difference to you at all, to have not shaped or changed you in any
way, then you really are not a part of it.
Interaction is thus essential to society. It cannot be a society
without it. And yet to interact with something is to be caused to
change by it and, in turn, to cause it to change. Without causation
there is no interaction and without interaction there is no society.
So I can conclude that without causation there is no social
construction of anything, which confirms my earlier finding.
This struck me as an argument containing such certainty and
impact on the debate that I immediately started recording my
chain of reasoning in my notebook. I wrote a heading: Societas
ergo causalitas. If there is society, then there is causation. This
defeated at least one significant form of scepticism. It told me
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confirmed that this was her name. She offered me her hand,
which I held and then gently shook.
She brought the cold in with her, about her body, but
nevertheless removed her hat, gloves and coat without the slightest
prompting and sat upon the chair on the far side of my desk.
‘I thought I would come and see you. Petter told me about you
and I thought I should say hello.’
‘Welcome, I’m Benedict,’ I responded, ‘and it’s very nice to
meet you.’ I could not be impolite to a friend of my hosts.
‘I’m in the blue house,’ she explained, which was behind Inger
and Odd’s, a little further up the hill. ‘I’ve been staying there for
just a little while.’
She was young with bright, lively eyes. Her English was unsure
and hesitant, though I knew it already to be far better than my
own Norwegian.
As I would expect in Bakkan, she wore no make-up. Her hair
was straight, dark and mid-length, looking as if the winter gusts
had been throwing it around. How could I take offence at her
natural beauty, here, amid so much of nature? I looked down at
my own clothes: rumpled and dowdy in comparison. Nor had I
shaved.
She asked what I was doing here.
‘Just writing,’ I said. ‘I’m a philosopher.’ But I was already tired
of explaining my presence so steered the conversation on to her:
how was she, what was she doing today, and so on.
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now was black again. Here we were, talking by the light of the
stove and a candle. Yet this light was comforting and cosy. I could
easily imagine on a night like this that someone begins telling a
story that grows and develops over time, with repeated telling,
becoming eventually a favourite. That would be a nice way to
amuse ourselves now, with so few other pastimes, apart from the
company of another human being.
The flames looked to be going down. Biret jumped up and
grabbed another log from the basket. She opened the door and
placed it atop the embers. Then, when she closed the door, she
opened the vent at the bottom to send in more air. The flames
rapidly grew and took hold on the new log. Her skill with the
stove was impressive and she had looked after us well – looked
after me – ensuring we would remain comfortable.
I put the kettle on top of the stove. ‘Would you stay for some
tea? It’s been rude of me not to offer,’ I conceded. But it was too
late now.
‘Thank you but, no. I have things I must do. Will you be here
until Soldag?’
‘Soldag?’ I queried.
‘The day the sun returns: February the first.’
I recalled my travel plans and replied that ‘Yes, I will be here
. . . Petter has invited me to dinner that evening. It’s my last night.’
‘I will be there too,’ she added, ‘for dinner,’ and with that she
went to leave.
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February, which I now knew to be the day Bakkan would see the
sun again. My last day here.
Calling on Petter and Marie, I announced my arrival by
showing off my newfound local knowledge. ‘Soldag is coming,’
I pointed out. They confirmed it, enthusiastically. I would be
lucky to see the sun re-appear. It had been away for over two
months, during which time they had lived through the extreme
darkness and bitter cold. The steps leading up to their front
door had been ice covered for the duration. Marie told me
she was very happy at the thought of the sun shining on them
so that she could see her doorsteps again. It was a much-
anticipated day, each year. But this winter had been especially
hard.
I told them how cold it had been in the cabin this morning
and that the wind had been shaking it. They didn’t seem overly
concerned. I’m sure the cabin had withstood worse than that.
They offered me hot coffee and, although I would normally
be a tea drinker, this morning I did not decline. I stayed as
long as I could but knew I needed to return to keep the stove
burning.
When I had everything I needed, I was off back down the
slope, which today was even more treacherous in that direction.
I had now learnt that it only became a problem downhill if you
tried to stop. You had to throw yourself into it, partially sliding.
The main real danger, as long as I did this, was that I would end
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up in the fjord. But soon I was sat back at my desk, still relatively
dry, and ready to start work.
By mid-morning, I hadn’t gotten too much done. I wanted just
to sit and think about my new cogito argument but the stove
needed lots of attention this day and I had to intervene several
times to ensure it didn’t go out. Just as I thought it was fully
established, and was ready to settle into serious work, I heard
footsteps coming down to me.
I jumped up hopefully and looked out of the window. It was
only Odd, Inger’s husband.
‘Hi, hi!’ he greeted me. It had been a little while.
‘Takk for sist, Ben!’
‘Takk for sist.’
I brought him in, keeping the door open for as little time as
possible.
‘Quickly,’ I said. ‘I’ve just got the stove going again.’
Odd was handsome, tall and dark haired. Like everyone I had
encountered here in Bakkan, he was the picture of health. One
would have thought that the harsh environment would wear
these people down, as I felt it was wearing me. But I had evidence
that the long-term effect of Arctic living was not detrimental.
Wasn’t it I who had become weak and enfeebled after all the
luxuries I enjoyed at home?
‘Welcome back to Bakkan!’, he told me. ‘You’ve been here a
few days, ikke sant?’
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‘So I don’t think it is merely that we don’t use the word cause.
It’s clear that we don’t have anything that looks like causation in
our theories either. It’s not just that we are using causation by a
different name. There’s none there. You see what I mean?’
I remained silent, perplexed.
‘This shows what I’ve been trying to tell you for some time,
now, Ben. You cannot sit in your chair and discover any truths
about the way the world is. Only science tells us the facts about
the nature of reality. Philosophy is just conceptual analysis. You
can tell me what a concept means, for example. But only I can tell
you what actually exists in the world. It’s ultimately an empirical
question: it depends on the observed facts of the matter. And
unless you come out of this cabin and start observing the world
– taking recordings and measurements – you can never tell me
what exists.
‘So you might sit there and tell me you’ve thought it all
through, but I don’t believe you can use reason, unaided by the
senses, to conclude anything at all about what there is. That can
only happen if you look at the world.’
He hadn’t finished.
‘Physics is very mathematical and theoretical these days, I
concede. But all our theories have to respect the data. They have
to be at least consistent with the observed facts. I cannot see
anything in your philosophy that meets such a standard. So if
you tell me you’ve discovered something, using reasoning alone,
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I felt ready to say all this but Odd got up and made to leave. It
seemed, to me, a bit cowardly of him, to make his point and then
exit, presenting no opportunity for reply. Typical, I thought.
Farewell, he said in Norwegian: ‘Ha det bra.’
I had to remain on good terms with him. He was a friend
and neighbour of Petter and Marie. I couldn’t fall out with him.
But his arguments felt like an accusation of idiocy on my part.
That’s no way to treat a guest to the village. He is rude. Still, no
matter.
* * * * *
I tried getting back to work. I’d done nothing yet, this day. But it
was damned hard to concentrate. I kept thinking of the
conversation with Odd. The affront! . . . The insult!
I sat at my desk with my notebook open and the pencil in my
hand. But there was nothing to write. There were no thoughts or
ideas. I just kept mulling it over. I’d thought I had solved the main
problems I was here to consider. There was hope. But it was fleeting.
My uninvited visitor this morning had come and dashed my
optimism. Damn, damn, damn!
Damn him.
Needing to compose myself, I went and stood outside. The
cabin had become warm, almost stifling, since Odd left. Outside
the air was cold; but it was fresh. The day’s little light was already
starting to fade. It lit the sky only hazily and from afar, not yet
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These few minutes outside were all that I could bear for now. I
was chilled right through. Although I had brought my warmest
possible clothing, and buttoned it all fully up to the top, it was
now clear that it was not really up to the task I had asked of it. I
scurried back up to the cabin and made myself some tea, which
I had with bread and cheese. I had to rally myself.
Was I going to admit defeat at the first challenge from Odd?
Would I let him win and throw myself into the sea? Wouldn’t
he just want me to do that, and to take the whole of philosophy
with me?
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‘Did they pray for its return? I would understand if they did.
Their science was not advanced. Now we know the exact time we
will see it again, this February first. But they would not have
known when it would be back, if at all. They would have known
that if it did not return, they would freeze and starve. Wouldn’t it
have been rational of them to worship the sun?’
‘I think you are right,’ she said, and I found it encouraging. ‘Of
course they were bound to worship the sun. They could not
anger it, or it might decide not to return. And they struggled to
grow food here. They had to live off fish mostly but they also had
the few root vegetables they could get from the short growing
season. If the darkness stayed all year, they could not remain in
this place.’
I asked her: ‘Do you think they got more confident that the
sun would return after each year when they saw that it did?’
‘I suppose so. They would have had elders with them, too, who
were able to recall many years when it went away but came back.’
‘I wonder, then . . . They would have had a religious idea of the
sun having a will of its own, and making a decision whether to
return, for instance, if people had pleased him . . . or her . . . and
then they would have had also a scientific kind of reason for
expecting it to return. If it had been known to return on fifty
other occasions, when it had left, weren’t they right to think it
would return on this fifty-first time?’
She thought before answering.
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3.25. Right, when they ask tomorrow, I will tell them that the whale
was back at precisely 3.25. Surely they will have to believe me then.
They know I am of sound mind.
Then there was a relatively high-pitched wail: its song. It
echoed around the steep, mountainous sides of the fjord, from
the dark depths of the water. Braving the cold of my cabin, I
jumped up from under the covers and looked out of the window.
But I saw nothing. What would there be to see? The whale
preferred it in there, swallowing the herring. The sound was all I
could expect to get.
So with that I climbed back into bed. Finally, the third day was
concluded. I heard more song from the fjord, but at some point I
was asleep once more.
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Fourth Meditation
I awoke on the fourth day to see heavy snow all around the cabin,
still falling. It was very hard again to get out from under the
covers, knowing that I would have at least an hour of cold as I
wrestled with the stove. And I saw that I was down to my last few
logs. I shouldn’t let temperature and inconvenience deflect me
from my chosen path, however. The new philosophy I had found
could withstand more than that, couldn’t it?
After my tea, and being sure the stove could continue to burn
without me, I set out, up to Petter’s house.
The hill was hard to climb. Fresh snow had fallen on top of ice
again, so it was a scramble. Sometimes I took a step forward and
then slid back down to where it began. I was glad no one was
watching; . . . I hoped no one was watching. It was undignified. I
eventually got to the house, out of breath. Petter was alone. The
others had gone out to church.
Petter took this as an opportunity to ask about my time so far.
He started asking if I had enough food and whether I had met
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looks, I felt my age when I scrambled up the hill from the cabin.
I was out of breath each time. My back was stiff. Would relaxation
arrest the process of decay, I considered? Or would it mean I was
just wasting some of the few remaining active days? Perhaps I
should just resign myself to being old.
Detecting that I was becoming maudlin, Petter tried to change
the subject again. He asked me to tell him about the new
discoveries I had made here, and he could see that my face
changed demeanour instantly.
Knowing that Odd would have talked to him, I elected to tell
Petter about the arguments I discovered yesterday.
I explained how science was premised on observation and
experiment, and these methods were justified by the success of
science: its usefulness. But all of observation, experiment, and
practical application depended on the reality of causation. The
fact that science worked, then, seemed the very justification of
the obvious assumption on which it must be based: that causation
is real.
‘So you think you’ve discovered the reality of something:
something that exists in the world and regardless of our views and
theories about it?’
‘Yes, exactly. And that is what I was looking for. Sceptics had
encouraged me to think that nothing was real independently of
our minds and the way we thought about things. Now I am sure
I can answer the sceptic.’
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you that causation is real unless you tell me exactly what it is that
is real.’
This wasn’t an attack on my view, then, I judged. It seemed
more that he was asking me to fill out the account with detail:
explain what in the world causation is.
‘There is a view, for instance,’ he proceeded, ‘that by causation
we can mean nothing more than regular succession.
‘One kind of thing happens, and then another, and if we see
many cases of the first followed by the second, then we start to
think of the first as the cause of the second. You water your plants
and they grow. Is your belief that the watering caused the growth
nothing more than knowing that growth has always followed
watering?
‘Would that be causation enough for you?
‘Or what about another theory I could suggest? Perhaps there
is this kind of regular succession but you also know, in addition,
that sometimes you have gone away and the plants have not been
watered. When you came home, they had died. Is it causation
enough for you if it means that one thing happens, and then
another, but you believe that if the first thing had not occurred,
the second wouldn’t either? So you water your plant and it
remains alive but you also believe, based on some past experience,
that it wouldn’t live if you didn’t water it?’
I was starting to get the sense of Petter’s questioning. There
were many things causation could be. I needed to say which it
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‘It sounds like you are correct then,’ he admitted. ‘You are closer
to the sea than us. Maybe the whale is right beside your cabin
when you hear it. That would explain why we are not hearing it.’
That didn’t sound right to me. The whale was loud enough to
have been heard by everyone around the fjord. But I didn’t want
to push the matter further. He seemed to be allowing that I was
right. Or could be. Just leave it at that. But was he saying it just to
please me? I didn’t want him to do so. They should all have heard
it and should admit it to me. Were they trying to drive me mad,
conspiring to pretend that I alone could hear it?
I put on my outside clothes and set off back down the hill, the
wind driving snow into my face. It had become heavier now and
the loaded clouds were again blocking out what little morning
light there had been. If it carried on like this, I would not even
see the sun on Soldag.
Getting down the hill was less of a struggle than going up it. I
had learnt by now. But there was an added danger, in this snow
today, that I might sink to my waist. For the first time since I had
arrived, I couldn’t see over to the other side of the fjord. There
was a mist and heavy clouds full of snow hanging over us. The
covering was getting thicker on the ground as it fell. I tried to
settle down in my cabin but my mind was constantly drifting
away from philosophy. I watched the snowfall outside, fed the
stove, made some tea. The thoughts that I hoped solitude would
prompt remained shyly hidden.
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so could not afford to waste any more time. And Petter had given
me a new challenge.
I wondered, did it really matter what we thought causation
was, as long as it was something objective and real in the world?
A constant regularity is real. It is there whether we know it or
not. So if one thing always is followed by another, then that is an
instance of causation regardless of what I know and think. That
ought to satisfy my requirement of realism.
Or so I thought.
My mind drifted back over some of the conversations I’d had
during these past few days and some of the sights I had
experienced out here in nature.
Biret had told me about the return of the sun, and whether its
reappearance year after year was a good enough reason to expect
it to return the next. She had given me a good argument why it
might not be. Sometimes, the more something happens, the less
likely it is to happen another time. So how do we know whether
the return of the sun, or any other regularity in nature, is the sort
of thing that should be repeated, or not that sort of thing?
I thought again of my first night and how impressed I had
been when I initially saw Ragnhild chopping wood. I was sure
that her actions really did make the wood fly asunder. It was not
merely that she struck it and then it fell apart. There was a
connection between the two facts: a strong connection. Didn’t
the force of the axe actually break the wood? And, yes, I think
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that had she not struck it a blow, then it would not have fallen
apart. But this is again because the axe made it break. It caused
the result.
Causes make a difference, I can concur. But they make a
difference because they are causes; not the other way around.
This seemed to be a problem with philosophical analysis. We can
discover something that is true of causation, or whatever else is
the subject, and then say that the subject is nothing more than
that thing. But it is an illusion. Causes are difference-makers
because they are causes: that is the order of explanation.
I then remembered my irritating conversation with Odd.
He had tried to tell me that science could do without any
causation at all. I saw that science needed causation in order to
work.
Now suppose it was said that the causation that science invoked,
because it sought to avoid all metaphysical commitments, was
restricted to the sort of causation Petter had mentioned before.
Some scientists might like that view because it would mean that
science could all be understood in terms of observable data.
Causal claims would be entirely amenable to scientific scrutiny. To
say that A causes B means nothing more than that every instance
of A is followed by an instance of B, but with no other mysterious
‘connection’ or ‘real power’ between any of the instances.
Then to say that this particular thing is a cause of that
particular thing is just to say that the first is similar to one group
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* * * * *
The day’s work was done. I was sure of it, and I had nothing else
I could do. There was no visitor. If Biret was here to call on me, it
would be different. We could discuss the sun or Sami culture. I
wouldn’t mind what we talked about. It was clear that no one
would come as the night was so cold, wild and windy. The cabin
rattled.
I decided I would try to stay warm in my bed and sit and
think about what else I could consider. I had two more days left,
including Soldag. Would I be able to use them well? Would there
be any more challenges to my newfound sense of certainty? Was
it definitely now secure?
I had some thoughts about topics for tomorrow, and the day
after that. As had happened earlier in the afternoon, however, I
started to feel drowsy. I do not think I was yet adapted to this
near-constant darkness. There was light, but only for a short
time, and none of it direct. My body was telling me to sleep: to
hibernate almost. Like the locals, I too was now looking forward
to Soldag. I wanted to feel some sun on my face. Maybe that
would give me more life and optimism.
I did sleep for a time but then woke at some point in the night.
Perhaps it was just because I had slept so much during the day.
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when I looked back along the band, it had changed. I might say
that it danced; and yet I saw no movement. All I can report is that
each time I looked at it, it seemed different: constantly altered,
but without conveying any sense of change. For that reason, it
seemed an impossible object – a lightshow designed by an artist
of incredible worlds. I had once understood what causes an
aurora borealis. I no longer remembered. But that did not matter.
I simply enjoyed the wonder of the effect.
I stood and stared until it seemed to fade. For a time, I was not
sure whether it was there or not anymore.
But when I definitely could not see any more, I realised I was
shivering. I had not sensed how cold I had been, when immersed
in my visual experience. It was bitterly cold. My chin was numb.
But it was easily worth braving the freeze for that show of light
amid all this darkness.
Fifth Meditation
One day until Soldag! The anticipation was mounting for the
return of the sun. Petter and Marie went off to buy food for the
dinner. I saw both Marie and Inger talking that morning and
neither of them admitted when I interrupted that they heard the
whale a few nights ago. I had to forget that for now. It sounded
like Soldag would be a day of little reclusion so I needed to make
the most of today. I wondered if Biret was back in the village yet
but nobody had seen her. No one was too impressed that I had
seen Northern Lights. They get it many nights in the winter, as
long as the sky is clear.
I was starting to feel inspired. I’d already had a beautiful stay,
what with the aurora borealis and hearing the whale, so I eagerly
set down to work. Why shouldn’t I be ambitious, I thought. I had
established the existence of one aspect of objective reality but
what about other things? Would I be able to explain and justify
the existence of these? Could I prove their reality too? A world
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accept that there are changes and events, we should also allow
that there are processes too. One might think that a process is
just a very long event, such as the growth of a child into an adult.
But we can be more exact than that. A process seems to mean
that there is a series of events that must occur in a particular
sequence and for a particular outcome. Hence, there are multiple
events in a process but they cannot occur in any old order. The
order of occurrence is essential. Hence, the child begins to grow
and his body develops. When his skull reaches a certain size, he
loses his baby teeth and they are replaced by adult teeth. Then he
starts to grow hair on his face and body and his voice deepens.
Similarly in women there are other changes. I can think of
further processes too, such as photosynthesis or the life cycle of
a butterfly. And away from the natural world, there is the passage
of a bill into legislation or the proper running of an election.
These are processes too.
My list is not exhaustive but I wanted a sense of the richness
of our world: that there are many categories of thing. And what
can I say to justify their real existence, as well as the real existence
of causation?
I left this question hanging and decided to take a break.
Thinking cannot be rushed and it cannot be forced either. There
were ample chores for me to do in and around the cabin. I tidied,
chopped some strips of kindling off a plank of wood with my
Sami knife, put all the waste into one bag. But while doing this,
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* * * * *
I hoped that playing the polite host might break the stern face
of this man, which seemed not even to have moved while he was
speaking. But he remained emotionless as he sat down on my
spare chair.
‘I hear you are a philosopher.’
‘Yes, I am,’ I told Bård. ‘I have been to Bakkan before, though
never to stay. That might be why we haven’t met.’
‘That’s not it,’ he said, and left a pause.
What surprised me about this visitation – and that is a word I
have chosen carefully – is that he had not yet made any attempt
to explain why he had come. What did he want from being here?
He had just arrived, and sat.
But that had not been the end. He resumed his reply.
‘I have lived here only two months. I am new to the village.’
‘Ah, I see. It is a year since I have last been here so, no, we could
not have met.’ I remembered that Petter and Marie had told me
when I arrived that there was this new resident.
As there was nothing further offered on his part but silence, I
had to break it at the point it became uncomfortable.
‘That means you will not have seen the sun since you have
lived here; . . . unless you have travelled away from the village.’
‘No. I have not travelled away from the village.’
I really could believe that his skin had not been touched by
the sun for two months. It looked as white as the snow.
‘Do you like living in Bakkan?’ I asked.
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‘Yes.’
Silence.
I needed to ask an open question, so that he couldn’t answer
in one word.
‘What do you like about it here?’
‘The silence.’
I thought carefully about my next question; indeed, whether I
should ask one at all. For all I knew, he could have happily sat
there all day. But I think I needed to move him along.
‘And what did you do before you came to Bakkan?’
‘I was prest: a vicar, a priest, at a town inland. I am retired now.’
‘Ah, I see. That explains it.’
‘Explains what?’ Bård said, a little sharply.
Recovering, I answered ‘I mean it just explains why you have
only now come to Bakkan.’
To prevent any further embarrassment, I quickly added ‘And
are you here in Bakkan alone, or with family?’
‘I am alone. All alone. My wife died three years ago. When I
retired, I decided I should move away, to enjoy the sea and the
nature.’
Bakkan certainly gave him sea and nature but I had yet to see
any sign that he was enjoying it.
I filled some of the pauses by confirming that I was a
philosopher, here to do a little thinking. For the first time, he
seemed to have some interest in me.
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‘I’d heard this. And did you make any new discoveries?’
‘I think I did, yes.’
I was almost ready to tell the retired priest about my thinking
during the week. There was every indication that he would sit
and listen, if only because I could not imagine him ever getting
up and leaving. But more footsteps approached.
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I urge you: be careful what you touch. Do not forget the danger
of the Huldra.’
With that he was gone.
It was one of the strangest visits I’d ever had in my life. If he
finds people so difficult, why call on them?
I shouted out: ‘If God did not exist, what difference would it
make?’ But he had already gone back up the hill and my words
were lost to him.
* * * * *
Each day so far had seen at least one twist of fortune. I was
in despair but then found new hope, or I had started the day
well only to encounter a new difficulty. Today was one that
started well, and I was pleased with my findings, only to have
this very strange fellow appear at my door and cause all that
trouble.
I could just imagine that he had been watching me all week so
far, waiting until he heard news that I was happy and making
good progress, and choosing that exact moment to descend on
me and stifle my joy. How can he call himself a man of God and
then go around spreading such misery? He seemed the sort of
man who would go to a birthday party just to pop the children’s
balloons.
Still, no matter, I thought. Tomorrow was Soldag. The sun
would be back. Biret would be here, and there would also be
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dinner with Petter and his family. I would try to make the most
of this special day, my last in Bakkan.
I was calmed when I looked out through the window to see
the fjord by moonlight, the small glimmer from houses opposite,
and the white mountains beyond. A modest fishing boat returned
to its base at the end of the fjord, gliding slowly down the centre
of the water. What seemed a whole minute after it passed, the
disturbed water from its trail started lapping at the rugged shore,
just outside my cabin.
Bård had shattered my peace; now I must try slowly to
regain it.
I was considering undressing in readiness to take to my bed,
yet I heard footsteps approaching once again. If that was Bård
coming back for more argument then he was in for a fight. Or
perhaps it was Odd. My tension built but was then quickly
released when Biret’s face appeared at my door.
‘Please, come,’ I called, with relief. ‘I’m so glad you came back.’
‘I didn’t want to see you while you were talking with Bård,’ she
said.
‘Oh, I would much rather have spoken to you than him. He
was so dull trying to tell me that philosophy was of no use. I
didn’t want to hear that. Tell me, where have you been?’
Biret proceeded to tell me of what she had done the previous
day. She’d been to visit a man in Tromsø who represented a Sami
college in Kautokeino. After speaking with him, she thought she
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Was I an old fool to imagine that she would have any interest
in me at all, beyond theories I could tell her about the sun and
science and what is truth? Perhaps she saw me as a wise old bird;
surely nothing more than that.
Still, I would enjoy the conversation and an intimate evening
in my small cabin with a beautiful young lady. Our backgrounds
were worlds apart. We must have seemed equally exotic to the
other.
But a connection between two people can transcend national
and cultural boundaries. That night, we simply were two human
beings. Age, occupation and country did not divide us. I wanted
to hear about her life and she about mine. We were both naturally
reserved, but perhaps that makes it easier when you are both
alike in such temperament. The bottle contained enough for
three glasses apiece, after which there was no doubt that we were
relaxed enough in each other’s presence to continue this into the
early hours of Soldag.
Sixth Meditation
Soldag!
After Biret left I was filled with joy and inspired to bring my
thinking to completion. I still felt in need of closure. As much as
I had found Bård Eriksen’s argument annoying, I accepted that
something was needed to round off my position and make it
immune to the kinds of outside influence of which he spoke.
Philosophy would have to wait today, however. Due to the
position of the mountains, the sun would appear a minute after
ten o’clock and if I was to see it I had to wash, up in the house,
and breakfast so as to make sure I was at the vantage-point on
time. I remembered there was said to be a slight rise in the land
as the path started back towards the road and which, I was told,
was the best place to see the sun first show itself and shine on
Bakkan soil again.
The sky was clear, luckily. A few days earlier it was so heavy
with snow that the sun would not have penetrated. Our last few
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days had seen the skies empty their contents on us. They had
nothing left to give so the view was unimpeded. This also meant
that the day was cold, possibly the coldest since my arrival. The
snow that had been soft and slippery the day before was now
crunchy underfoot, and thus easier to negotiate as I went back
down to my temporary lodging.
At five minutes to the hour, I set out from my cabin, less
fearful of my ascent up the hill. The others were already there:
Petter, Marie, Ragnhild and Solan, Inger and Odd, and Biret. Just
after me, Bård also appeared, carrying the same long, stony face.
Petter welcomed me. ‘Have some coffee and solbolle,’ he
suggested. The coffee was dispensed from a thermos flask and we
all had some to help us keep warm.
‘The sun should appear in two minutes,’ he said, after a quick
glance at his watch. The solbolle were little cakes but with a touch
of yellow custard showing on the top, said to look like the sun,
but only at a stretch.
I took the coffee and went and said good morning to Biret.
She smiled but then had to go and speak to Odd and Inger.
Something about firewood, maybe, but it was in Norwegian. I
tried to listen but couldn’t make it out.
Solan and Ragnhild came up to me. ‘Keep looking,’ said Solan.
‘It is starting to appear.’
In the distance I could see the gap, like a valley, formed
between two high mountains. Above it in the sky was some faint
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* * * * *
I resolved to stay in my cabin for the rest of the day and not
have to face my neighbours. Instead I would meditate for one
last time. Philosophy was the only friend I needed and could
trust. I would not be going to dinner and I rehearsed a number
of different excuses for my non-attendance. None of these
would be true; I knew that people did not want the truth in any
case. They heard what they wanted to hear. Even if one had
a proof, most people will not be receptive to it. Let them have
lies, then.
Was I affected also by the fact that only Bård was there for me
when I was most alone? Was that a further humiliation, to have
gained his pity? Or should I construe his actions as noble? It was
a time of need. Where was Biret? I thought that we had an
understanding but it looked like she wanted to talk to Odd and
Inger more than to me. Perhaps she was the Huldra all along.
And why would Petter not defend me? I think I knew. Never
since we met had he agreed with me just because I was his friend.
And that meant I always knew where I stood with him. His
challenges were valuable to my work. We both knew that. He
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bed, had also felt themselves more special to Biret than clearly
they were? I knew I was not the first visitor. I was just a stranger
passing through. I was the biggest fool of all to think that this
meant something. How can someone of my age be so immature
in his thinking?
As she watched me ponder over humiliation piled on
humiliation, I saw her face soften once more. Perhaps I was to
receive pity again.
‘I do not disbelieve you that you saw a whale,’ she said.
This surprised me. I was not ready for it, nor demanding it.
‘That is not the same as saying you believe me,’ the logician in
me had to point out.
‘I believe you,’ she said.
And that was all I wanted to hear.
I had her trust.
* * * * *
* * * * *
Biret left and I was alone again. What a morning it had been.
I quickly lunched and then set to work, knowing that today I
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had only the afternoon to myself and it would soon be very dark
again.
I needed to put the assembled pieces together to form a
compelling whole, perhaps one that was scientifically,
philosophically and theologically satisfying. But could this be
done? There seemed a danger of antagonism all round. Some
supporters of science reject both the theological and philosophical
approaches. Theology sometimes overrules both science and
philosophy. Now while some philosophers reject both religion
and scientism, I did not think that there had to be automatically
an antagonism from the philosophical direction towards the
other two. Perhaps a philosopher could reach out and explain the
appeal and justification of science – as I thought I could do – and
also theology alike.
But what place would there be for God in my world of
causation? If he were not a natural object, as I am told he is not,
then is he a ghostly presence, unable to affect or be affected by
the physical processes of the natural world? He is then a spectre,
a geist, and no part of my world-theory. Nothing here suggested
a bridge on which the philosopher and theologian could meet.
Creation remained a mystery. Any first natural event, by
definition, had no natural cause. If we use Big Bang as the name
for this first natural event, then there seem difficulties in any
attempt to explain it. I can think of the following possibilities in
response to this issue.
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from the Deity. One of the potential problems with this view is
that it rests on the possibility of a natural event having a
supernatural cause. This idea can be challenged by the thesis that
causation requires a movement or transference from one thing
located in space and time to another. When a ball is kicked, for
instance, there is an impact at a location and a transfer of
momentum from the kicker to the ball. Now in the case of a
natural event that has a supernatural cause, we simply do not
know what such causation would look like; nor how two such
very different things, one immaterial and without a spatiotemporal
location, can interact with another that is material and located in
space and time. Perhaps our lack of understanding is insufficient
grounds, on its own, to rule out such causation. Indeed, we think
of Creation as a miracle – ‘the miracle of Creation’ – so perhaps
this expresses the idea that any such supernatural causation of a
natural event would indeed be such a mystery that it should
qualify as miraculous.
I cannot think of any other than these three possible ways of
understanding the presence of a universe. Perhaps there are
others but I suspect that they are possibilities either too remote
or too horrible to contemplate.
Can the philosopher tell us which of these is true? I think it can
be said of the first option that it suffers from a possible drawback
that there seem no possible circumstances in which it could be
disproven. Someone might think that this is an ideal position for a
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theory to find itself in, but that is far from the case. What it suggests
instead is that the theory has no testable content, and possibly no
content at all. As the scenario has been described, it seems that
there really is no way to disprove that the world was created in its
entirety one hour ago, including with the creation of all the
memories in all its people. But that offers no grounds whatsoever
to suspect such a theory of being true.
The first option can also be accused of failing to solve, or even
engage with, the mystery of existence. It merely evades the
mystery. If the universe does involve one big whole of space time,
with the first event being caused by the last event, we can still ask
the question from where did this whole come? What made this
vast circle of space time? And then we are left with the other two
options in any case. Either the world was uncaused or it had a
cause outside of nature. We should move on and consider the
other two options, therefore.
What of option three: the theological option?
I remembered an experience that seemed relevant. When I
was a child of six or seven, the schoolteacher permitted the class
a discussion such as this.
‘What made the world?’ one child had asked.
‘God,’ another answered.
A voice at the back of the room retorted ‘Who made God?’
The whole class laughed uproariously at the new questioning
child. The teacher stopped them.
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‘No,’ she said. ‘All those who laughed, give me an answer then.
Who did make God?’
Of course, none could say and their laughter was silenced.
It was to my shame then, and a shame with which I continue
to live, that mine was not the questioning voice at the back of the
classroom. It could have been. But mine was one of the voices
laughing: joining with the group to ridicule a question I myself
did not have the wisdom to answer. I suspect that this was a key
moment in the making of me as a philosopher. Never again
would I think any question is too stupid to ask. Anyone who says
so will almost certainly not know how to answer it.
I didn’t find the identity of the child who spoke out: one of my
contemporaries. What, I wonder, became of her (it was a girl’s
voice)? The question had a point that is relevant to our third
option. Would it really solve the riddle of existence if we just
proclaimed that God made the universe? Wouldn’t the riddle
merely be relocated? The question I would then want to be
answered is ‘Who made God?’ and we would be no nearer an
answer to that question than we were before.
In this judgement, I am following exactly the same principle I
apply as when I hear some supposedly naturalistic explanation
of the Big Bang. Some say the Big Bang is not a mystery because
we have a theory that suggests there was some sort of proto-
material cloud, which came together and caused the Big Bang.
Any such theory, regardless of the details, is hopeless and
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It was called Welcome the Sun. I liked it. Perhaps it was a bad
translation. But the sentiment still came through. It wasn’t the
sort of thing I would have written.
Another glass of wine was offered. Perhaps I should have said
no. But it was a special night and I had worked hard all week so
I agreed, as did everyone else at the table, except Solan and
Ragnhild who were already back playing their game. Petter made
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some small talk about whether I was ready for my return home,
departing in the morning. I assured him I was, though I didn’t
look forward to the travel.
Fortunately, he was called away to help serve the main course,
so I didn’t need to provide any more unnecessary details. A big
pot was placed in the middle of the table in which we took turns
fishing for chunks of stewed herring and we passed around the
potatoes and vegetables. Foolishly, I had finished my second glass
of wine while waiting and, without asking, it was filled again.
We all started eating. To break the silence, Marie asked if I
would now be willing finally to tell everyone about my work this
week and what I had concluded. As I was in a positive frame of
mind, I agreed and proceeded to lay out the main points of my
final position. I explained how causation was known to be real, it
being the one thing that could not be socially constructed. I
explained how science rested on the reality of causation – and
I’m sure Odd accidentally let out a ‘tut’ at that point – and such
causation couldn’t then be reduced to a mere regular pattern of
unconnected events if the worth of science was to be preserved.
I finished by explaining why I thought that nothing deserved the
name of God better than causation. Here there was no doubt that
Bård gasped and shook his head repeatedly but I think some of
the others did too, to a lesser extent.
There was a lull, which Marie eventually ended by thanking
me for sharing my thoughts with everyone but I was sure
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‘You have told us that God is the same thing as causation, and
this is a claim I have not heard before. It sounds to me like a
heresy. However, I am willing to put that aside and consider the
view on its merits, as you philosophers like to.
‘All your arguments sound purely metaphysical, to me. But
have you considered the moral arguments as well?
‘There is one feature of God that you overlook if you equate
God and causation, so I do not think you adequately take account
of it. What we know of God is that God is good. Now, from what
I understand of your concept of causation, it is neither good nor
bad. That is to say, good things can be caused to happen, like the
growing of our food, and also bad things can be caused to
happen, such as famines or earthquakes.
‘Causation seems neutral or indifferent in a way that God
cannot be. So I cannot accept, as you have suggested, that God
and causation are one and the same.’
I thought he was done, but as I was formulating my reply, he
started up again.
‘What is lacking from your view of things is a moral dimension.
God is not just some cold, objective truth in the world. He is also
the provider of goodness. He has a moral aspect, which you have
chosen to ignore. Perhaps you think of the world as lacking all
morality, and you would like that, because it would license all
sorts of depraved behaviour.’
I’m sure he glanced sideways at Biret as he said that.
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in a slightly different way. How would the world look if there was
no benevolent God but one who was perfectly amoral and
unconcerned with humans and their welfare?
He was silent.
‘Well, I suggest to you, the world would look exactly as it
does now. Indeed, it is only if there was an omnibenevolent
God that we would expect the world to look different, absent
of all its present suffering. So experience seems to favour my
interpretation rather than the received one you have given us.
And, in that case, I see no barrier here to equating God with
causation.
‘This God-cum-causation has certainly created us and
provides for us, so deserves the name of God in that respect. The
one feature you say it will lack is, however, a feature that we have
no sound reason to believe exists in the world. There is pain and
suffering aplenty, not all of which is of our own making. You
cannot tell me that there is an all-knowing, all-powerful and all-
good God at work here. The best explanation I can find is that
our God is not good, and why not then equate it with blind,
unconcerned causation.’
To my surprise, I had managed to improvise a convincing
answer. Indeed, I had even persuaded myself that this was the
best way to respond to the likes of Bård. I noted that any slight
indication of a smile on his face had gradually drained away
as I was speaking. He was no longer on the edge of his seat,
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us. We would have a rapid and miserable end, most likely, and I
can see that this would be a bad thing.
‘What if causation had never existed in the first place, you
might ask. Well then, I insist, we would never have existed either.
Perhaps that would not matter, as there would be no creatures
to have suffered harm. But I still think that overall an orderly
and comprehensible universe is better than a disorderly and
incomprehensible one.
‘The former is better because it at least gives us the opportunity
for happiness, knowledge and free will, even though we may
squander that opportunity. We even have the potential to mitigate
or overcome the effects of natural disasters, one day. Without
causation, we don’t even have such an opportunity. In that case,
the disorderly world is bad – in the sense of being worse than an
orderly world – but its badness is not due to the presence of
causation. Indeed, this badness is due to the absence of causation.
‘I conclude, therefore, that Biret is right, as I would expect, and
overall the world is better for having causation than being without
it. In that sense one could say that causation, or God, is a good; and
that badness is due to the absence of God. And if this also answers
Bård’s original concern about equating God with causation, then
all the better.’
Petter and Marie in particular seemed pleased with this
answer. Odd and Inger still looked sceptical but produced no
immediate objection. Perhaps even Bård was happy with what I
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had concluded but I couldn’t say for certain, given that there was
always at least some degree of doubt over whether he was actually
dead or not.
Marie now spoke up.
‘I like your answer,’ she said. ‘But I still think that your account
of causation leaves something out of the description of God.
‘I believe in God,’ she confessed, ‘but your notion of causation
is insufficient to account for His perfection and magnificence. So
I cannot yet sign up to your philosophy if you cannot reassure
me.’
Of course, I had to invite Marie to say more. I also felt that we
were on the same side in that clearly she wanted nothing more
than to understand. No one would suspect an ulterior motive of
Marie.
‘Maybe I can explain what worries me. I will try,’ she started.
As she did, Petter passed the wine around again and we all filled
our glasses. Because I felt the signs of intoxication, I decided I
would not drink this one.
‘The fact is, as I understand it,’ she said, ‘that causation is a part
of the natural world. It is how the sun warms the earth, how food
feeds us and how books educate us. But God seems to me to be
something more. Doesn’t He have supernatural powers that
cannot be explained in a merely scientific way?’
I was sure I saw Odd shaking his head so I encouraged Marie
to continue.
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right even if she couldn’t see it. She wasn’t a philosopher after all,
but I was, and in my expert opinion this was a fine response. It
showed that divine supernatural powers were not needed. Nor
were miracles.
‘Enough about God,’ interjected Inger. ‘That’s just one side of
your equation. What about the other? What you have said about
science can also be challenged.’
‘And philosophy,’ added Petter. ‘I think some philosophers
would have problems with your view too.’
‘Very well, both of you. I am happy to address these matters.
Which shall I answer first?’
‘Go ahead,’ said Petter to Inger.
‘No,’ said Inger. ‘You are our host and I think you should have
your say before me, especially as you and Ben are both
philosophers.’
Back home, the host might have protested that the guest has
priority but here Petter was willing to proceed. As he talked,
Inger helped Marie clear away the plates and bring out a desert
of stewed apple. I didn’t know whether, in doing so, they were
taking the opportunity to avoid listening to philosophy.
Petter began and I drank my wine as I listened.
‘My problem is simple,’ he said. ‘Don’t you start from the
wrong place in your reasoning and effectively infer what is
already well known from what is less well known?’
I asked for further explanation.
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Odd nodded.
‘Now I don’t understand all this and the details do not matter
at this moment. But I think that you should grant that these
questions must be settled scientifically, according to the facts,
rather than in your untutored, and I might say ignorant, way.’
At that I almost exploded. I felt anger rising in me and for a
few moments that I could lose control. How rude of her. Was it
just the alcohol talking? She had never been so blunt with me
before. I supposed that Odd had told her all about our earlier
conversation, some days past, and she had decided to take his
side. Well, that is very loyal, if she had, but then that just makes
them both wrong.
Everyone could see that I had become red in the face and
their stares just made me want to turn the table over and storm
out. Imagine all this happening after I had been so courteous to
everyone and attended the dinner like a grateful guest.
I was just about to issue a sharp rebuke to Inger when Petter
stopped me.
‘Benedict,’ he said. ‘It is very warm in this room now with our
stove and all these people eating and talking. Won’t you join me
outside for a few moments to take some fresh air? You look hot,
which is how I feel, so I think we would both enjoy a few moments
to cool down: just a few before the night freezes us.’
I said that it would be a pleasure to join Petter and I got up
with him, my anger distracted.
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* * * * *
Cheese and crackers were now laid out on the table. As soon as I
sat back down, I wanted to reply to Inger. I admit that I felt
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‘Then it’s a male,’ said Inger. ‘Only the males sing. Unless you
want to contradict science with your philosophy again.’
I ignored the sarcasm. I did not want to be deflected from
my point.
‘I defer to your expertise, Inger. My whale is a He. And he’s
happy to stay hidden under the water so that we don’t get in each
other’s way. We rarely see each other. But how do you and I know
he’s there, then, you might ask.
‘Well, there are enough signs. The water is sometimes agitated,
the fish stocks get depleted, and people like me can hear him
breathing and singing. It is a song, yes.
‘So we cannot look directly upon the whale as a proof that it
is really there. But we have evidence, from the indications that it
leaves for us that it has been. You could think of these as
symptoms of a whale visit. These symptoms are enough for me to
infer the whale is there. But they are not the whale. The whale is
not its song: it makes its song, which I can then take as a reliable
indication that it’s there.
‘I think the sciences are in that position in relation to causation.
Science often involves the drawing of a causal inference from
what is observed. A scientist never sees causation directly but can
only infer it is there, for instance, from regular patterns of events.
The nature of causation itself cannot be a purely scientific matter,
then, because you scientists only record the data. You are never
dealing with anything more than the symptoms of causation,
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‘Gyges was out walking among the rocks one day when his
eye was caught by something on the ground that was shining. He
went to look closer and found that it was a golden ring. It was a
regular circle except for a flattened top that was decorated with a
letter T. He liked the ring – perhaps it was also valuable – so he
tried it on and found that it fitted his longest finger perfectly.
Quite happy with his unexpected find, he walked on and went
about his daily business.
‘Gyges continued to wear the ring after he returned home. But
he also noticed something very strange going on around him. To
his surprise and puzzlement, he realised that when he now spoke,
everyone who heard seemed to believe what he said in its entirety.
This was astonishing to Gyges because, like everyone else, he was
used to listeners doubting what he said occasionally, or even
arguing with him, over whether something was true or not. This
came to light only gradually at first, when he ventured opinions
that he knew were controversial, but only to find that everyone
believed that opinion. He started to wonder whether people
would believe anything that he said. To test this, he casually
slipped into conversation some obvious untruths, such as that it
was summer when he knew it was winter, and to his amazement,
he found that people consented to his version of events. As he
continued with these experiments, he even had one elderly man
agree with him that he, Gyges, was that man’s mother. After a
number of such absurd claims went unchallenged, he started to
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think that everyone would believe anything that he said, for this
trick seemed to work on any person with whom he tried it.
‘But there was something else to this. One day Gyges removed
his gold ring, bearing the letter T, to go and bathe and then he
forgot to put it back on afterwards. He went about his business and
happened to say something false, unthinkingly, only to find that
the listener shook his head and said “I don’t think so”. This was a
shock for Gyges as it had by now been some weeks since anyone
challenged his assertions. So he ran to find someone else and
talked about who should be next leader of the country. He ventured
his opinion and, again, his listener disagreed.
‘The thought occurred to Gyges that his special power of
being believable had worn off. But he needn’t have feared. When
he returned home, he saw his ring and realised he had not been
wearing it. When he put it back on, things were as they had been
previously; namely, that everyone believed him again.
‘I will spare you the details of all that happened following this.
Basically, he tried some time with the ring on and some time
with the ring off and formed the view, based on numerous trials,
that when he wore the ring people believed everything he said
was true. When he didn’t wear the ring, he was just like everyone
else, where people sometimes believe us and sometimes don’t.
From this evidence, he thought that the ring had to be the cause.
The ring possessed, he decided, a very special ability to make the
wearer believed, no matter what he or she said. The only exception
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most famed politicians are those who knowingly tell lies that
people believe. But I am asking you to consider, are they really
better off than those people who believe they are speaking the
truth, even though no one agrees with them?’
‘I can see that it would be frustrating,’ pointed out Biret, ‘to
know what you are saying is true and not to be believed.’
‘Yes, it is,’ I replied, and smiled knowingly at Biret. ‘If someone
has seen the Huldra, for instance, and no one believes him, this is
very annoying for the man. It can be more than frustrating. If no
one ever believes him, and he is sure he saw the Huldra, it would
take him to the brink of madness!’
Marie spoke out and said that if she were Gyges, she would
take the ring off and throw it away. It was evil. It was no good for
people always to believe you, nor for people always to doubt you.
What everyone needed, and should want, is that others believe
them when they speak the truth and challenge them when they
speak falsely. Otherwise, she said, how do we ever correct our
own misapprehensions?
I immediately told Marie that I agreed with that. It seems that
one can only ever learn if one is willing to be told that one is
wrong, when one is wrong, otherwise one would persist in
believing falsely, which no one really wants.
‘So this brings us to the crux of the matter,’ I adjudicated. ‘Let
us forget about the ring, now, for it was only a way of getting to
the key question of truth. Would you rather believe a truth even
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‘Very well, then.’ Odd said. ‘If you really are being truthful
with us now, this minute, then you should be prepared to write
up all the ideas you have had here in Bakkan – which you have
told us are really very important ideas and the solutions to all
your problems – and let them sit in a closed drawer rather than
see the light of day. You should agree in front of all of us here
tonight that you will not publish these ideas for the public within
your lifetime.’
Everyone around the table looked at me.
‘How could that work?’ I asked.
‘It would be simple enough,’ said Odd. ‘Once your ideas are
written down, lodge the manuscript with your solicitor with an
instruction that it cannot be published until after your death.
Leave the details to your executor. And that way we will all know,
and believe you, that the truth is your only concern, rather than
book sales or the admiration of readers.’
With Odd’s challenge, I realised that I was trapped. How could
I not agree to those terms? I would seem a hypocrite if I didn’t.
I looked around the room. The faces stared back, waiting on
my answer. Odd and Inger seemed to have some glee on theirs.
From Petter, Bård and, I think, Marie, there was a look of pity.
The children were playing still, with very few pieces now left.
‘Ah, the endgame,’ I thought to myself.
Only Biret seemed to look upon me in a way that granted me
my dignity. Her eyes evinced sympathy and care but, I thought,
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* * * * *
in the Arctic but in ways I did not yet fully understand. I had
come exclusively for solitude and quiet meditation. I had not got
that. But I had found some truths: truths which I had now
promised I wouldn’t reveal. Was knowledge consolation enough?
Did I believe my own story of Gyges? How unreasonable it had
been of those around me to insist I keep this whole story a secret.
Yet, I was struck by something else about them too.
When I considered my time here, I saw that all the main
breakthroughs in my thinking were not really a result of
meditation. They came from my interactions with the others. I
saw the light catch Ragnhild’s axe before it came down and
smashed apart the firewood and this made me see the
fundamentality of causation. I had been challenged by Odd
to show that science could not deny the reality of causation
because it rested upon it. And Bård had then come and made
me explain how God could fit into this world, which I later
developed in answer to Marie and Biret, just this night.
And Biret . . . wasn’t she the biggest inspiration of all? She
made me understand the importance of language in holding a
people together and I saw that this had to involve their interaction.
But I recalled also, and perhaps more importantly, that Biret
made me see the sun. Might I otherwise have stayed, throughout
my time, in my cabin, like some kind of prehistoric cave-dweller?
Then I would have stayed forever in the winter darkness, doing
my thinking by candlelight. The brightness was too much for me,
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and for all of us, when earlier in the day the sun finally appeared
over the mountains. We had to look away. But I now realised that
this was often the way. Just like the light, truth is hard to accept at
first, especially after emerging from the darkness of falsehood.
The only option is to turn away, and that is what Odd, Inger and
Bård did. At least I could recognise the truth as the truth.
Almost at the bottom of the hill, and my cold, dark cabin, I
saw a stirring in the fjord. The surface was broken by a big tail fin,
which smacked down on the water, creating a huge splash.
Then it went back below and was gone, all quiet again. I waited
and watched. For how long? I wasn’t sure. But I know that I
started to shiver. Could I really have imagined the whale song
those nights? Did I not see the tail fin, twice today? I would have
to be completely deluded to have conjured up these experiences
for myself.
I was about to give up and started considering whether it was
worth lighting a fire at this late hour. I made to move and so to
complete the last few steps of my night. Suddenly, I was awe-
struck by the sight and sound – which I’d never before witnessed
– of the humpback breaching out of the water. It leapt up, a huge
and wonderful creature, head first, almost straight vertically, but
then turning. When it reached a horizontal position, I swear its
entire body was out of the water. Overcome by a sense of wonder,
I stopped breathing, open mouthed. And it was then with a
magnificent, deep, booming, echoing impact that the whale
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* * * * *
The next morning I rose early and didn’t bother to light the stove.
I dressed quickly and, under cover of darkness, left my hut for
the final time. I had brought everything of mine down from the
house last night so that I needn’t disturb Petter and his family as
I made my departure. I could not resist walking to the end of the
pier for one last look, staring out into the black water of the fjord.
I took a few moments for one final meditation. Others had trod
this earth before me and many more would do so afterwards. We
were all seekers after truth and yet, in our short lives, none of us
could catch more than a glimpse of it. To be a drop in that vast
ocean was perhaps as much as we could ever hope.
I picked up my baggage, ascended the slippery slope, and
vanished down the path out of Bakkan.