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be completely dedicated to it. All I’ve ever known is confusion, uncertainty, and wondering what
I’ll truly be happy doing in the years to come. However, this wasn’t the case when I was in
kindergarten to about middle school. What I really enjoyed was creating art because in the end I
had pieces I manifested myself. Constantly, multiple time per week, all I did was put collages
together, draw portraits of people I imagined in my head, paint landscapes, etc. I was always
positive and confident when producing creative work and paid no mind to negative comments
from relatives, friends, or peers. All I thought about was how beautiful it was to have a physical
In middle school I really started to master the art of realistic portraits. I constantly was
sketching portraits of my best friend, celebrities, and animals. Because of this, I had a great skill
for adding great detail (eyelashes, freckles, wrinkles, etc.) and bringing the drawings to life. I
was very articulate and careful with my technique. I regularly was creating art pieces, and as a
result my artistic skills progressed dramatically, and people started to notice. For example,
there’s been times I was in a coffee shop working on a drawing. Multiple people passed by and
complimented my work, telling me how detailed it was and instantly knew the person I was
sketching, whether it was a celebrity or a known person in town. I would spend hours on a piece
making sure the shading was right, the measurements matched, and mistakes were at a minimum.
I truly loved the craft and knowing all the hard work put into the pieces were by me and only by
me.
Nevertheless, during my transition from middle school to high school, I started to lose
faith in my ability to make acceptable art pieces. I didn’t think I was good enough compared to
other creators. I was either believing I wasn’t innovative or creative compared to the artists I’ve
seen online or even the known creators at my school. The awkward preteen years probably
contributed to me having these second thoughts and doubting myself. As a result, I stopped
completely. In the entirety of my high school career I didn’t create anything. I was so hesitant on
starting up again that even the thought of sitting down and picking up a pencil made it sound
Another great reason why I discontinued my love of art was pointed towards a person I
hold very near and dear to my heart - my mother. To put it lightly, my mom wasn’t very
supportive of my work. Whenever I created anything growing up, she never seemed impressed or
interested. And once I started to have an interest in art again and maybe even declaring
something in the arts at university my mom responded very negatively and explained that she
wanted me to have stable career. She said, “Don’t do it, honey. I want you to be financially
I appreciated my mother’s concern, however I feel it was wrong of her, as someone I look
up to, to discourage my passions. Even when I talked to my other family members or friends
about my love for art I was never taken seriously. This put me in a tough spot, I wanted to listen
to my mom and make her happy, and I still was self-conscious about crafting my own work.
However, in the end, I needed to stay focused with tunnel vision and construct a career that was
truly me.
When it came to the middle of senior year, the prime time for submitting college applications, I
was very lost. I knew UC Davis was my first pick for colleges, but I was confused about what I
should choose for a major. I guess I could just simply choose undeclared, but I still have to
decide in a couple years. With my mom’s criticism and personal insecurities in the back of my
mind, I was frustrated and tired of being uncertain. However, I had no other choice then to be
undeclared, unless I wanted to be stuck in a major that I was entirely uncertain about.
spectacular people named Brady and Josh, who both gave me a new insight and perspective.
They told me that I wasn’t going to be truly satisfied in life if I live with someone else’s choices.
And even if I did choose a “stable” career there’s no way I was going to be actually successful in
it because I wouldn’t be truly content. They both told me this about a year ago and yet, I still
think about it constantly and I hope with all my heart I never let go of that feeling they gave me,
just because they believed in me. After meeting them, we all have been attached to the hip and
they still encourage me every day. With them as a support system, I got the boost I needed to feel
confident pursuing a profession that will keep me on my toes, satisfied and truly happy for many
years.
Brady and Josh have been a constant support system and even sat right next to me,
searching with all the art and humanities majors provided at UC Davis. We took some time
discussing the majors I would want to invest my time in, but something that would also
challenge me creatively. We looked at art Studio and film production as career paths. After
looking at the basic information and courses I would have to take, we all mutually agreed that
having a degree in design with an emphasis in graphics would be the best fit for me. Josh even
expressed to me (because I’m a little indecisive) “It’s okay to be unsure and even if you change
your mind it’s okay. We’re all still very young and trying to figure ourselves out.” This lifted
some weight off my shoulders and gave me some room to breathe because he’s right. I don’t
have to be completely certain right now, and I just need to go with the flow and do whatever
feels right at the moment. At that time, graphic design felt right. It’s great that I had a second and
third opinion because when you’re in head all the time, sometimes you lose track of what’s really
right and wrong for you. These extra voices helped organize my thoughts and guide me, not just
A hopeful woman
grabs and collects all
her dreams, she’s
hoping for a bright
future
Flash forward now, I just finished my fall quarter as a sophomore and over Winter Break
I chose to reflect on life and decided to declare my major as design, even though my mom
disagreed.
These three green organisms are
all at different stages of growth,
but they are all connected and
appreciate every stage
I’m slowly but surely finding confidence to reject any pessimism in my life, and I will continue
to value myself and always strive to be my complete and utter self. I am fighting and will fight to
experience the pure enjoyment I did when I was younger, when I didn’t have any fear of
judgement or negativity. Discovering the truth of who you are and acting on that is the only way
to love and care for yourself. Keep in mind to also surround yourself with people who are going