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It is an irony of my career that I name on your schedule. I con ra1 and refused family counseling.
have been called on more often to fronted him tentatively about the The only help he would accept was
save a patient's death than to save alcohol on his breath. He admit the help and support offered in our
a patient's life. ted with provocative pride that he office. I informed him he could
Following a talk: I gave on al was an alcoholic and issued the quit on his own and that, in fact, I
coholism, a member of the audi clear, unstated challenge, 'What was confident he could do so ifhe
ence approached me hesitantly. "I are you going to do about it, doc was totally committed to his own
have this uncle," he started. Ev tor." I didn't expect to see him recovery. But I also told him he
eryone has ''this uncle," I thought, back. In fact, he was so intoxicated was choosing the most difficult
the uncle or aunt or father or sister I didn't expect him to remember pathway possible to sobriety and
who no one wants to talk: about. anything about the visit. health. I suggested that his odds
He went onto explain that Uncle . But, he did come back. In fact, ofrecovery were perhaps 5 in 100
Jack was in the hospital for coro he came back again and again. We without help and 60 in 100 with
nary artery bypass surgery and had started chipping away at his medi formal treatment. He was resolute
serious postoperative complica cal problems. Foremost among but agreed to consider formal sup
tions. He suspected those compli these were his alcoholism, his de port if he didn't make progress. I
cations were due to alcohol with pression, and his nicotine depen reassured him that my help was
drawal and asked if I would be dence. Jack considered himself a available to him whichever path
willing to see Jack as a patient. failed man. He lost his job because way he chose.
When I told him yes, he looked a ofhis alcohol use. Worse yet in his Gradually, Jack got better. He
bit guilty and said,. ''I warn you, . mind, his wife, Kathy, was a pro demonstrated longer and longer
he's not a very nice man." fessional success, working her periods of abstinence and his re
Three months later, when Jack way up in her workplace as Jack lapses became shorter and less se
entered my office, the room worked the opposite way in his. He vere. As his abstinence became
smelled of tobacco and alcohol. had been disowned by his family. more stable, his mood lifted a bit,
He appeared disconsolate, un He no longer slept in the same but not much. I started him on
shaven, and gray in complexion room with Kathy, and he didn't treatment for depression and he
and mood. I took a brief history. speak to his seven children.· Jack responded welL Althopgh he was
In addition to his bypass surgery, was no longer a family member a former executive, he took a job
Jack had cirrhosis (with marked but a boarder in his own home. pumping gas and then a job as a
hypoproteinemia), hypertension, Jack was without- without faith, part-time tax preparer. His per
severe emphysema, and disabling without self-worth, without Jove, sonal meaning was intimately tied
chronic idiopathic lymphedema in without support, without health, to his work ethic and productiv
his lower extremities. It was clear and without hope. ity. He began to smile during his
that he didn't want to be in my I consistently tried to give Jack visits. I began looking forward to
office. He was there on a promise, a message of hope, that his return seeing him. Jack had formerly
probably to his nephew, or perhaps to health was possible through ab been caught in a negative self-re
to get his wife off his back. This stinence, that recovery was worth inforcing cycle, in which bad led
bitter, rude man was the epitome while, and that he was uniquely to worse, worse to intolerable, and
ofthe "hateful patient," the "heart worth recovering. But he had been intolerable to loss of control-a
sink" patient, labeled so because through inpatient alcoholism treat "black hole" drawing him deeper
your heart sinks when you see his ment before and refused to try into despair. Now, for the first time
again. He had been to Alcoholics in many years, he began to expe
Anonymous and rejected any new rience a positive self-reinforcing
From the DepartrnentofFamily Medicine, Case involvement with that organiza cycle in which good things led to
Western Reserve University, Cleveland, Ohio, tion. He refused psychiatric refer better things, including a restored
.Commentary Vol. 27, No.4 233
sense ofpersonal control. After 18 X ray. Bronchoscopy revealed a: ing shallowly and was notrespon
months of abstinence and re squamous cell carcinoma, and sive. When I arrived at their home
lapse, Jack found stable sobriety. the oncologist indicated that the entire family was there. Jack
He returned to his church and Jack's expected survival was had died, the family thought, about
later to his faith. His idiopathic measured in months. 5 minutes before I arrived. I laid
lymphedema disappeared. Three When I got the news, I spoke my stethoscope on his chest and
years after he first walked into with Jack and suggested that he left it there longer than necessary
my office, Kathy accompanied bring his family in to talk things in ceremonial confirmation of
him to a visit The look of silent over. I will never forget our coun the quieted heart. The family's
pride on their faces remains one seling room overfilled with his grief was peaceful with gentle
of the most vivid memories of my family. overflowing with shared tears and embraces. Goodbyes
career. matching for me the joy I concern, grief, and love. We spoke had been said. lack died the way
experience.in attending the birth . openly and frankly, .without se-. he . wanted-no pain, alert
of a healthy child. Jack had rec . crets. He was not a candidate for throughout, and quickly when
onciled with his wife and with his resection, and after careful discus the'end came.
children. He was now with-with sion, he declined chemotherapy_ My wife and I attended lack's
faith, with self-worth, with love, We talked about his wishes regard funeral. We were both moved to
with support, with hope, and with ing resuscitation (none) and abo.ut tears by his children's readings and
improved health. the manner in which he wanted to remembrances. I feel humbly
Though lack had made tremen live his last days. He expressed a aware ofthe effect of my relation-.
dous strides in his recovery, he did strong desire to stay out ofthe hos ship with Jack. I didn't exactly
not initially respond to efforts at pital until death was imminent and save Jack's life, but I guess you
smoking cessation. His emphy then to enter the hospital to spare . could say I saved his death. The
sema worsened with collapse of his. family. the burden of having consequences of lack's recovery
the lower lobe of his right lung. him die at home. Every member from alcoholism will, I believe,
We suspected that cancer was of the family objected, insisting reach through generations. The
present, but despite aggressive in that he would die at home, with lives of his children will be very
vestigation, none was found. He them, where he belonged. I agreed different than if he had died a
was followed with serial chest X to facilitate hospice involvement mean, bitter drunk. Their relation
rays, cr scans, and bronchoscopy. and provide home visits. I assured ships with their own children will·
About 6 years after I began caring them I would do everything I could be altered because of their recon
for him, lack finally responded to to be there when lack died. They ciliation with their father. lack
nicotine replacement therapy and expressed relief that they wouldn't· died with honor, and when people
quit smoking. But, within a few be alone. . remember him, their memories
months, he began to lose weight I Jack accepted radiation for pal will be filled with pride.
knew he had a cancer. He knew liation and did remarkably well. I In medical school, we were
he had a cancer. We just couldn't visited their home weekly, occa taught to always ensure that our
find it We looked in his chest and sionally more, sometimes less. He patients die a "Harvard death"
. his bowel and his throat and his never had pain. His biggest prob with all oftheir eleetrolytes in bal
brain and his belly and when we lem was sleep, which was rem ance. Since then, i have learned
found nothing, we tried to feelre edied with aggressive sedative to help patients die a "family prac
assured. Kathy accompanied him medication. Less than a week af tice death"-with all of their psy
now to nearly every visit. Two ter a home visit and 6 months af chosocial issues in balance.
months later, the cancer declared ter diagnosis, I received a call from I find solace in knowing
itself, ironically on a routine chest the family that Jack was breath- Jack did.