CAREFREE CREATING

Carefree
Creating
How Life and Art 

Interact Creatively

Introduction
I create on the spot. My art, music, and writings
all express my wholeness. My art and music express
my integral vision of life. My views on early systems
learning are a development of my intrinsic life phi-
losophy that ‘all-is-one.’ The universe is an organism
that flows and evolves; it constantly transmutes into
new forms and expressions, while its core substance
remains the same.

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The Loving Matrix

Religions have all been wrong to search for a god
situated outside of creation. It is not logical doing
that for who, then, has created that god? So instead
of one question we got two: who created creation
and who created the god outside of creation?
In other words, the creation of god is the result of
a schizoid mindset. Patriarchy is schizoid, and this is
all I will say about this, for there is really nothing
more to say about it.
God is within nature; the creational impulse is
within creation. It is a matrix that constantly creates
and lovingly – like a mother – cares for its creations.
This matrix is the self-expression of the universe
and it is through this interface that we can actively
communicate with the intelligent universe. It is the
prayer highway; it makes your prayers get to the re-
ceiver of orders, the wish fulfiller, the magician who
says: ‘Your Wish is My Command.’ And it responds.

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Responses are manifold and they are adapted to

the sender’s expectations: when I expect to get a re-
sponse to my prayer affirmation in a dream, through
an image that stands metaphorically for the answer,
or a voice directly talking to me, the matrix will re-
spond the way I imagine most vividly to receive the
reply. If I expect to get the answer through books I
find, people I meet or places I visit, the matrix will
reply according to my specific expectation. It just
cares to make sure you get the response into your
conscious mind, at any time or at any place where
you happen to be.
Typically, the reply will come when you least ex-
pect it and when you are relaxed; also when it’s safe
to receive it. That’s why it is highly recommended to
relax and let go after you have sent your missive to
the matrix. Get your mind free of it all and it can re-
spond. If you are preoccupied or in a hurry, you
block the response.

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How to Be Consistent?
I was never consistent in my life. Astrology told
me that it is in my nature to be on the qui-vive, to be
jumpy and inconsistent. I do not care if it is my diffi-
cult aspect between Neptune and Jupiter that has
caused that in the past. For it is in the past. I am con-
sistent now. At age 65. Okay, you laugh … yes, it
took me that long but not because of bad astrology
but because of a good reason: I did not reflect why I
was inconsistent. Never ever. Until recently. I found
that I get depressed and it is depression that kills mo-
tivation. Why did I get depressed? I expected results;
and expected them too quickly anyway.
Now I found a simple way to keep track on my
progress. I wrote down the following affirmation and
I follow it:
I write every day.
I create music every day.
I draw and paint every day.

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So … after all, this taught me that spontaneity,

too, has its limits. If I am all over the place, without
having any rules of living, and just do what I like at
any moment, I may run into many more depressions.
Perhaps it’s that for staying motivated, I need a
framework?

On Education
When I talk about education, I do not talk about
how to raise children, how to setup a school, how to
draft a curriculum. I have done that and believe my
project can serve children to grow up in a supportive
environment and without fear of life, so that they can
keep their innate sanity, their innate creativity, and
their innate originality.
Now I am actually more interested to talk about
self-education, which is the way we bring ourselves
up, the way we develop and progress in life. It is the
education that we bestow upon ourselves, by parent-
ing our inner child, the creative voice in us.

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To begin with, I would like to ask: what is the

value of self-education?
Well, it seems to me that it is not quite a value in
our modern consumer culture. We have of course all
we need today for boosting our knowledge, we got
free encyclopedias, we got free information every-
where on the internet, but are most of us using that
for educating ourselves properly?
Let me ask the question from another angle. What
is it that we educate when we increase our knowl-
edge? Is it our whole person? Or is it just the thinker,
that person who is conditioned upon past experi-
ences and knowledge that is largely out-of-date?
Can we renew ourselves through new knowledge,
or new skills we learn? Yes, we can. But who is that
person that we renew through knowledge?
In other words, can I educate myself in a way to
bypass the thinker and nourish my entire being? Let
us suppose the answer is positive, what kind of edu-
cation would that possibly be?

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On Sharing
It seems to be an obvious fact that the internet has
largely increased our opportunities to share our life
with others. But … is that really true?
Let me ask the question differently. Is sharing a
mechanical activity that is facilitated by a technology
that allows people to read free content online that
was published and put out there not by publishing
companies, but by individuals eager to share their
ideas?
Yes, … it is facilitated. That is what I am saying.
But it is not created by the sharing technology. So
what ‘creates’ the sharing experience? It is the inner
attitude to share. This attitude is invisible, it is not
displayed ‘out there’ for others to see; yet it is shared
via the invisible treads of the loving matrix that inter-
connects all of us, and relates us to every single elec-
tron in the universe. Thus sharing takes place on the
level of the spirit, in the invisible realms of existence,

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while the actual act of sharing can well be facilitated

by technology.

On Preferences
Our modern culture has greatly expanded our
lifestyle and individual preferences. If you are a per-
son who for example prefers to spend your holidays
on the Seychelles and nowhere else, you can realize
this desire, in which country ever you are living. You
can profit of the international flight connections to
reach your destination, from wherever on the globe.
Or if you like to listen to your favorite music only
by means of a Bang & Olufsen Stereo, you can buy
this product wherever you are located on the globe.
If the local market place does not offer it for sale, you
can order it with the closest Amazon store, or you
may order it directly in Sweden with the producer
and it will be shipped to your place.
Whatever your lifestyle choices are today, you can
realize them: and the only limit here is your budget.

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But are these lifestyle choices naturally given, or

are they artificially created? Obviously, they are part
of consumer culture and thus have been created with
a purpose: to sell as many products to as many con-
sumers to make as much profit as possible.
So what about our natural preferences, do they
exist? I firmly believe we got natural preferences, at
least some of us, and not just for this present life-
time, but regularly, and that we carry those prefer-
ences across several lifetimes.
For example, I like Baroque music, vegetarian
food, modern design, writing and publishing, lan-
guages, art and photography, and walking every day
for an hour or so through a clean and safe old neigh-
borhood that is characterized by millionaire villas,
mansions, and lush landscaping.
These preferences I have not just so now at my
age of 65 but had them already when I was 12-years
old, except that at that time I was living in a boarding

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school and vegetarian food was not only not available

but any information about it was out of reach.
And I made the observation that the other boys in
that boarding did not seem to have such clear prefer-
ences as to what they wanted in life. They seemed to
accept the commonly shared preferences that were
vulgarity, rudeness, alcohol, football, television, and
the need ‘to be good in class.’
Thus through my natural preferences I was feeling
early in life to be different, and the other boys in the
boarding let me feel this difference sometimes
painfully. Later in life, though, I came to value my
difference and developed increasing awareness of the
fact that my natural preferences gave me a kind of
emotional stability that I was seeing others missed
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On Lao-Tzu
Lao-tzu’s teaching cannot be taken literally, else it
does not make sense, or can easily be dismissed as ‘il-
lusion’ or ‘impossible-to-achieve philosophy.’
In truth, when he says that the sage teaches with-
out talking, he means that an attitude is needed to
convey true leadership. When he says that nonaction
is action, he doesn’t mean that the sage sits around
doing nothing but that action is not the achievement
of the ‘thinker;’ as action based upon thought is al-
ways fragmented, it is not true action. Lao-tzu means
that only action coming from very deep inside of us
is genuine action, that is whole, non-fragmented, and
in accordance with our soul values.
What Lao-tzu called the Tao, I call the Matrix, or
Loving Matrix, the creator-force and configuration in-
terface of the universe that connects all, communi-
cates with all, and is all. There is no need to worship
it for it has no personality. There is no need to be-

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seech it for it does not take sides. There is no need to

praise it for it has no self-pride. There is no need to
picture it for it has no material representation.

On Comfort
Some people think you have to castigate yourself
in order to be ‘worthy’ to receive blessings in your
life. This is an error.
We have been created to experience comfort.
When you move your arm or leg, there is no pain in
doing that, isn’t it? And it is silent, and there is no re-
sistance. The joints of our body are ‘oiled’ in a way to
allow us to have smooth mobility, and this really feels
comfortable, doesn’t it?
Is that comfort of your healthy body an obstacle
to spiritual growth and progress? Why should it be
so? Why should comfort for your house or car be in
the way to your spiritual unfoldment? Why should
good food and wine be in the way to spiritual growth
– as long as you do not get addicted to alcohol?

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I guess it is a convenient excuse for many people

to ever engage in meditation and other spiritual prac-
tices when they can voice, with all their pride: ‘I can-
not afford a spiritual life for I cannot sacrifice all I
need for a comfortable life.’
Who told them that they have to sacrifice any-
thing to gain anything else? Yes, if you want to learn
meditation, you need to invest time, and again time,
and again time, and you need to learn the technique,
any technique, for there are many. That, you can call
it a ‘sacrifice,’ but most people would rather call it an
‘investment’ I believe. And it is an investment. When
you learn to do your job, this is also an investment. It
allows you do have regular income from this activity
without getting blamed for insufficient performance.
So, if you wish to be like most people, you shall
indulge in excuses for not doing anything for your
spiritual life, while in truth you do not want to en-
gage yourself on that particular pathway. You should
simply admit it to yourself, and be honest. There is

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no blame. The matrix never blames, and it never

admonishes. You can reserve your spiritual work for
your next life, why not?
But if you really do that: being honest with yourself,
I am pretty sure something will change for you to
more easily accept the option of a spiritual develop-
ment in this present lifetime.
You can do as much as you like to do about it.
Even very little work and investment of time pays
great dividends.

On Art and Music

Today the art world is booming. It is a business.
Music is booming as well as a ‘Classical Music Busi-
ness’ and another ‘Modern Music Business.’
All is thriving in our society as long as it is labeled
a ‘business’ and creates profit. In the meantime, true
art remains in the dark, true music remains in the
study chamber, and true social life remains for those
who are not affected by consumerism.

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On Luxury
‘Luxury’ is a word that is not in my vocabulary. It
is a no-brainer. As long as we had nobility, life had a
civilized dimension that was represented by the life
of those nobles who had not just ‘money’ as it is to-
day with the rich and super-rich, but manners, eti-
quette, moral values, and properties.
All this of course based not upon lottery gambling
but upon family tradition and a real education that
was bestowed upon the young by both their parents
and adequate schools.
And not to forget the essential, they had taste …
well at least a select few of them. But that was a kind
of mold that could be shared … among those born
with the same privileges … while today it would
simply be labeled as ‘luxury lifestyle.’
I spare any further comment on this kind of
judgmentalism that is so typical for our vulgar and
brainless consumer societies.

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