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Abstract
Debates about infant-feeding methods have intensified in recent years with increasing pressures
on women living in industrialized nations to breastfeed their infants. This paper, based on a
qualitative study of 16 childbearing women with a pre-existing eating disorder living in the north
of England, examines participants’ motivations for, and understandings of, infant-feeding deci-
sions and practices. In this study, a small number of participants reported being ‘desperate’ to
formula feed in order to resume practices underpinning their eating disorder and thereby to
shed the weight accumulated during pregnancy. These participants anticipated an early return
to restrictive eating, heavy exercise regimes and/or bingeing/purging behaviours. Most partici-
pants, however, reported being ‘desperate’ to breastfeed because this implied ‘good’ mothering
and prolonged the time during which they could consume ‘naughty’ treats. Women who opted
to breastfeed generally believed this would accelerate weight loss. This study contributes to
research on the subjective experiences of a particular group of women living with chronic
illnesses and problematic relationships with their bodies. Negotiating individual transitions to
motherhood required participants to confront their own, often longstanding, disrupted eating
patterns and to make important decisions about infant-feeding methods. Findings from this
study raise questions about some of the assumptions underpinning infant-feeding activities and
articulate some of the complexities surrounding these issues. By highlighting ways in which
women may compromise their own well-being by prioritizing their baby’s needs, for example by
persisting with breastfeeding when they were ‘desperate’ to re-engage with their disordered
eating practices, an individualized cost-benefit framing is outlined.
Correspondence: Helen Stapleton, School of Nursing and Midwifery, The University of Sheffield, Bartolomé House, Winter Street,
Sheffield S3 7ND, UK. E-mail: h.stapleton@sheffield.ac.uk
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setting and discusses how first-time mothers’ per- manage transitions to motherhood. A pilot interview
ceptions of (gendered and classed) self-identity are with one eating disordered mother of two children
shaped by the physicality of pregnancy. preceded the study proper and provided an opportu-
The fashion and media industries are frequently nity to refine the interview guide.
identified as primarily responsible for the continued The study itself was undertaken in two phases and
(global) rise in eating disorders among women comprised two cohorts of women (n = 16 in total), five
because their advertising campaigns emphasize of whom were pregnant at the time of recruitment
unachievable ideals of slenderness (Stice et al. 1994; while the remaining 11 were already mothers with at
Groesz et al. 2002). Personal agency has tended not to least one child under the age of 2 years. The original
figure in these explanations. Social constructionists aim of 20 participants (10 pregnant and 10 non-
have criticized this stance, arguing that interpreta- pregnant) was revised following recruitment difficul-
tions of the body are neither ahistorical nor acultural, ties.This was particularly the case for pregnant women,
but are contextually situated (Benveniste et al. 1999). most of whom were not accessing specialist eating
Furthermore, feminist critiques have highlighted the disorder facilities at the time pregnancy was confirmed
role of Biomedicine in the construction and produc- and nor had they necessarily disclosed their eating
tion of gendered reproductive identities and norma- disorder to a health professional. Hence, they could
tive constructions of femininity in Western (Moulding not be specifically targeted and invited to join the
2006) and non-Western (Lee 1999) cultures. Feminist project. Although considerable effort was made to
theorists have thus progressively deconstructed the increase the diversity of the sample by placing posters
eating disordered ‘subject’ and have begun to theo- and adverts in non-National Health Service (NHS)
rize (her) position in a more discursive manner environments including community newsletters,
(Malson 1998; Saukko 1999). supermarkets, gyms, sports centres and alternative
Childbearing and rearing activities may thus be health clinics, the majority of participants were
viewed as focal points in the life cycle when, in addi- recruited through NHS facilities including a specialist
tion to positive feelings, potentially significant, and eating disorders service, antenatal clinics and General
negative, body-related feelings may also be gener- Practitioner surgeries. Some women contacted the
ated. Our findings support the positioning of the preg- researchers directly in response to information they
nant body as a site of potential resistance to the had read about the study in the public domain, others
wholesale objectification and commodification of responded to information given to them by their
females in Western societies (Earle 2003) and for par- health professionals.
ticipants in this study, pregnancy and breastfeeding Participants ranged in age from 23 to 44 years and
were rare zones of exclusion from normative pre- included first-time mothers and those with more than
occupations with dieting, bingeing, purging and an one child. All participants were white and from varied
obsession with slenderness. socio-economic backgrounds; all described them-
selves as heterosexual and most were living with male
partners. All participants self-defined as having an
Materials and methods eating disorder; bulimia and restrictive eating were
This was a small, internally funded, qualitative study,2 the most widely reported practices. As the aim of the
exploratory and descriptive in design, employing a research was to report what childbearing women
feminist (Reinharz 1992) ethnographic approach themselves had to say about their eating disorder, no
(Hammersley & Atkinson 1983) to data generation. attempt was made to assess participants’ according to
An inductive approach was necessary as little is established mental health criteria (American Psychi-
known about how women with eating disorders atric Association 1994) and nor was any attempt made
to impose a diagnosis on participants. From outward
2
This study was funded by the Department of Midwifery and appearances, all participants were of average size. We
Children’s Nursing, University of Sheffield. did not succeed in recruiting very thin or very large
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women. Having commenced their disordered eating tions to changes in their weight, shape and body
career in adolescence, all participants could be classed image, and their infant-feeding intentions and actual
as chronic sufferers and all but one had sought, and practices. Established mothers (n = 11) participated in
received, medical treatment, including psychotherapy a one-off, in-depth, interview which focused on their
and prescribed medication. (sometimes multiple) experiences of child bearing
Ethical approval was obtained and project informa- and rearing, and the effect of these events on the
tion sheets were made available to all participants. overall trajectory of their eating disorder.
Written consent to participate in the study and to The analysis of interview transcripts was preceded
audio-record interview(s) was obtained from all par- by an examination of the relevant literature.
ticipants; women recruited to the longitudinal phase of Although interviews followed on after this stage of
the research re-consented prior to each episode of data research activity and hence theoretical discussion
collection.The first author (H.S.), who has a midwifery partly preceded analysis, it was nonetheless grounded
background but has not been in clinical practice for in the narratives of women’s everyday lives and their
some years, interviewed all participants by prior experiences of living with a chronic, disabling, stigma-
arrangement in their own homes. Interviews typically tized but largely invisible, condition (Moss & Dyck
lasted between 90–120 min. An interview guide was 2002; Broussard 2005).
drafted and subsequently modified in light of emer- The empirical data and the theoretical material thus
gent themes. Prior to follow-up interviews with the worked together, informing the process of analysis in a
longitudinal cohort of women, the interviewer read continuous cycle. In this way, the data elaborated key
individual transcripts in order to probe issues raised in theoretical concepts such as the role of power and
the previous interview. All respondents were asked to (self)control. The authors collectively analysed a
provide baseline demographic details including age, random selection of transcripts (n = 6) to identify, and
relationship status, number of children, a brief history agree, key themes. Following this process, a framing
of the eating disorder and any treatment received.First code was devised and subsequently modified by the
interviews with pregnant women typically focused on first author in light of newly emerging material.
experiences of pregnancy and the maternity services. Changes to the framing code were subsequently
Subsequent interviews explored participants’ ongoing agreed among all authors before new themes were
relationships with their changing bodies, experiences added.
of childbirth/transitions to motherhood and the
current status of their eating disorder. Interviews with
non-pregnant women investigated their experiences Results
of motherhood and the impact of this transition on
Infant-feeding decisions:
their eating disorder. Interviews were transcribed ver-
is formula feeding all right?
batim and subsequently verified as a legitimate record
by the first author (H.S.). Anonymized quotes from In defying normative understandings of ‘good’ parent-
interview transcripts are presented here to illustrate ing, women who opt to formula feed risk being con-
key theoretical points. structed as morally suspect and deviant mothers who
The pregnant cohort of women (n = 5) provided an wantonly disregard their mothering responsibilities
important longitudinal element which enabled the (Murphy 1999). Hence, infant-feeding decisions may
researchers to map their ongoing experiences of pre- be regarded as a ‘highly accountable matter’ (Murphy
gnancy and early motherhood. They consented to 1999, p. 205) because decisions are weighted with sig-
in-depth interviews on four separate occasions: twice nificant ‘moral baggage’ (Murphy 1999, p. 205) and set
during pregnancy (around 24 and 36 weeks) and twice against broader ideologies and conceptualizations of
within the first few months following birth. Interviews ‘appropriate’ parenting. Regardless of the method of
were undertaken at these points in the childbearing/ infant feeding eventually chosen then, women may
rearing trajectory in order to capture women’s reac- expect their decisions to be challenged in both lay and
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professional arenas. Breastfeeding tends to be widely wives that bottle-feeding was all right but all they did was tell
promulgated as the morally superior choice despite the me off for not breastfeeding. (Margaret, age 26, two children)
fact that less than 50% of UK mothers are still breast-
I know that yes, of course they’ve (midwives) got to
feeding 6 weeks following birth and only just over 20%
encourage you to breastfeed, but they’ve also got to
are doing so at 6 months (Department of Health 2002).
acknowledge that sometimes you just can’t. I couldn’t. I
What is more, despite considerable investment in
couldn’t bear eating proper food anymore. (Susan, age 42,
breastfeeding initiatives, these figures have remained
four children)
largely unchanged over the past decade.Although well
informed about the benefits of breastfeeding, some Formula feeding mothers wanted reassurance from
study participants were unwilling to consider this midwives that formula milk would not compromise
option because they were ‘desperate’ to resume their baby’s development but most failed to receive
purging and strenuous exercise regimes in order to the encouragement they sought. This is perhaps
lose the weight they had gained in pregnancy. These unsurprising in societies where mothers who formula
women believed that a swift return to such practices feed tend to be associated with ‘failure’ and report
would effect a more rapid weight loss than they could feeling unsupported and very much ‘like second class
hope to achieve by breastfeeding. citizens’ (Battersby 2006, p. 202). This is not to suggest
In common with many women who live with that breastfeeding does not suffer from something of
socially constructed limitations of a disabling condi- an ‘image’ problem, especially among adolescents and
tion (Moss & Dyck 2002), participants in this study disadvantaged women who lack role models and a
were very knowledgeable about their own capacity cultural tradition. For eating disordered women who
and their own limitations. The small number of are already exceedingly image-conscious, but who
women who opted to formula feed their babies from generally project a negative body image, it is sug-
birth made this choice knowing that breastfeeding gested that the prospect of breastfeeding may stimu-
was the preferred option insofar as promoting late uncomfortable, and unmanageable, feelings
infant health and well-being was concerned. The about identity and experience.
re-emergence of symptoms associated with their Contemporary midwives are in a difficult position
eating disorder, however, worked against them with regard to advising childbearing women about
making this choice. Most participants believed that infant feeding. On the one hand, they must strive to be
frequent cycles of bingeing and purging were incom- ‘with’ women (and the ‘bad’ choices they make) but
patible with the production of good quality milk, in on the other hand, they ‘are caught up in the disciplin-
sufficient amounts, to satisfy the baby and hence ary technologies to which they contribute’ (Murphy
breastfeeding was discounted as a possible feeding 2003, p. 458) and, as such, must vigorously promote
option. Such women could thus be described as breastfeeding (Royal College of Midwives 2004).
making an ‘ethically informed’ choice (Edwards Within this contested territory, the preferences of
2004) which was grounded in a profound concern for individual childbearing women may be easily over-
the baby’s well-being but which competed with a looked as midwives struggle to be facilitators, rather
more urgent need to protect their own (mental) than quiet coercers (Foucault 1991) of choice. The
health. following participant was comforted when she finally
A number of participants, who were of the opinion encountered a midwife who provided her with much-
that they had no option but to formula feed, reported needed support in the form of a personal story:
being reprimanded because their choice of feeding
method did not accord with the prescribed norms of One midwife was really nice. She said ‘Don’t be so stupid –
contemporary midwifery practice: my mother never (breast) fed me and I’ve got two degrees’.
But the others tried to pressure. [. . .] All you want is that
I couldn’t breastfeed. I just couldn’t. I was desperate to get rid reassuring voice telling you it will be all right. (Wendy, age
of the weight. I just wanted some reassurance from the mid- 28, one child)
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Midwives’ reluctance to share ‘positive impact’ this case for the welfare of the baby rather than a desire
stories, based on personal experience and/or profes- to share the parenting workload (Earle 2000).
sional observations with their clients has been previ-
ously remarked upon (Kirkham & Stapleton 2001).
Breastfeeding as a strategic
The suggestion to formula feed was not infre-
(and ‘selfish’) practice
quently proposed by male partners:
The majority of participants3 (n = 11) successfully ini-
From the beginning (partner) wanted me to bottle-feed tiated breastfeeding and a considerable number
because he said then he could take his turn. But I think it was (n = 6) breastfed until 6 months, the UK Govern-
really that he didn’t trust me to eat properly. I think that was ment’s recommended minimum period for exclusive
really the reason. (Maureen, age 38, two children) breastfeeding (Department of Health 2005). All par-
ticipants had ceased breastfeeding by 7 months
He (husband) didn’t want me to breastfeed because he
except for Louise and Patricia, both of whom contin-
thought I wasn’t eating enough to feed her (baby) properly.
ued beyond 12 months. Participants were motivated
[. . .] He was on and on about me giving her the bottle. He
to breastfeed primarily because they believed this
even dragged my sister in to try and get her to talk me round.
would help them to lose weight and/or resume their
(Emma, age 31, one child)
pre-pregnancy body shape more quickly. Women also
I think he thought right, pregnancy’s over and now the breastfed because they reasoned that the caloric
baby’s out I can take over. I can make sure he’s getting the expenditure associated with this activity meant that
food he needs. [. . .] That’s why he wanted him (2nd baby) to they could consume additional food, especially
have a bottle from the start. (Jill, age 27, two children) ‘naughty’4 treats such as chocolate and ice cream. This
acted as something of a compensatory mechanism for
It is beyond the scope of this study to offer cogent purging and vomiting practices which most women
analyses for why male partners might prefer their had suspended throughout pregnancy, and which
babies to be formula fed. A number of participants those who were breastfeeding did not intend resum-
reported, however, that those partners who were cog- ing until after they had completed the weaning
nizant of the nature and severity of the eating disorder process.
(and many were not), and who had contained their
Breastfeeding was like a calorie muncher. I was burning up
powerlessness to intervene during pregnancy, viewed
calories so I could eat more. (Emma, age 31, one child)
the post-natal period as an opportunity for potential
reparation. Some male partners were reported as I think it (breastfeeding) was partly about me behaving self-
being angry when they were unable to exert control ishly. It was knowing that it brought your figure back more
over their partner’s disordered eating and related quickly so I kept putting off and off weaning him because I
practices during pregnancy. Others expressed con- knew the weight was still dropping off me. (Tina, age 32, one
cerns about the baby’s health and well-being and had child)
threatened to contact social services with a view to
The ‘selfish’ drive to recover the pre-pregnant
obtaining custody of the baby if participants resumed
(eating disordered) figure seemed to be at least as
bingeing and purging in the post-natal period. Hence,
powerful a motivator for women to breastfeed as
it is reasonable to suggest that formula feeding
enabled male partners to wrest control at a point 3
This includes two participants who hand expressed their breast
where the welfare of the baby was no longer the milk and fed this to their babies in bottles. Both women stated
mother’s exclusive preserve. The rationale advanced they adopted this practice because they were unable to ‘per-
for male partners in this study becoming more suade’ their babies to feed directly from their breasts.
involved in infant-feeding decisions confirms earlier 4
For a discussion on the compartmentalization of food using
research which suggests that men’s motivation for descriptors such as ‘good’ and ‘naughty’ (but ‘nice’), see: Murcott
greater involvement is based on altruistic concerns, in (1993).
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feeding as a coping strategy which enabled them to ing) but that wasn’t because I didn’t want to! [Laughs] I had
maintain an increased calorie intake: to fight with myself all the time to control the urge. I thought
breastfeeding would take that urge away but it didn’t. It
I was told all the things about why breastfeeding is impor- eased a bit but I was still vomiting all the time I was breast-
tant for the baby but I was doing it because it meant I could feeding. (Lorraine, age 28, two children)
eat [. . .] I allowed myself to eat a lot of naughty things when
I was breastfeeding [. . .] The calories went straight through Some participants drew parallels between preg-
me. I could feel it. I was using up so much energy to feed him. nancy and breastfeeding and self-imposed restrictions
(Louise, age 29, one child) on ‘eating properly’:
The freedom to eat in a relatively unrestrained way, I had to eat properly when I was breastfeeding because I had
and to retain what they had eaten, was a very new a baby to think about. The baby needs nutrition. I thought
experience and hence it is perhaps unsurprising that whatever I eat the baby is going to get it. So I had to eat
some participants capitalized on the opportunity to properly. Like when I was pregnant I made myself eat prop-
extend the breastfeeding period for longer than was erly. (Maureen, age 38, two children)
initially anticipated.
As suggested, a significant number of women vol-
I ended up breastfeeding till (baby) was over a year old.
unteered that they had been motivated to breastfeed
One of the things about breastfeeding that I loved was the
because they understood that this would effect early,
fact that I could eat more and still not get fat. That was one
and substantial, weight loss. Indeed, many women
of the things that kept me hooked in. (Louise, age 29, one
reported having been told this by midwives and
child)
some were upset when they did not lose the weight
Extending breastfeeding for longer than origi- they had gained in pregnancy at the rate they antici-
nally intended, with the concomitant suspension of pated. There appears to have been surprisingly little
some of the more extreme practices associated research undertaken on the subject of maternal
with the eating disorder, provided a rare opportunity weight loss during lactation but the results of avail-
for women to experience a relatively stable body able studies have failed to demonstrate any consis-
weight and size in the absence of purging and tent relationship between mode of feeding and
vomiting. postpartum weight loss (Lawrence & Lawrence
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1999; Walker et al. 2005). A few women stated that ing in terms of (milk) production; as a means of sup-
they would have ceased breastfeeding much earlier plying the infant with the necessary nutrients to
in order to resume their binge/purge activities had achieve efficient outputs or developmental ‘mile-
they known that weight loss did not automatically stones’. Such constructions reduce breastfeeding to
follow from breastfeeding. As is attested by quo- an agendered, purely physical, process which empha-
tations from participants throughout this paper, size the more mechanical elements involved in the
however, breastfeeding women often reported diffi- transference of milk from mother to infant (Ryan
cultly in balancing pressures to eat ‘healthily’ in 1998). Advocates of breastfeeding also tend to
order to produce ‘healthy’ milk, while simulta- emphasize the benefits to either the mother or the
neously denying themselves access to familiar coping baby but many women in this study stressed the
mechanisms, such as restricted eating, bingeing and relational aspect of this activity which some under-
purging and/or strenuous exercise. stood as an exchange based on mutual need and
symbiotic association.
I’m glad I did (breastfeed). It’s the one thing good I did for In common with many breastfeeding women, some
him. (Patricia, age 25, one child) participants in this study experienced difficulties with
‘satisfying’ the baby. It is suggested that this is unsur-
Breastfeeding was also seen as a ‘fair exchange’,
prising given women’s own troubled relationship with
signifying a degree of reciprocity between the eating
satisfying their own needs, especially those which are
disordered mother and her infant:
food-related. On the occasions women sought advice
When I was breastfeeding it was like well, I’m holding off from health professionals for such problems, they did
bingeing and vomiting and I’m eating well so I’ll make the not always find it helpful:
milk he needs. He’s eating the calories so I’m not putting on
He’d just cry and cry but I couldn’t satisfy him. He didn’t
any weight even though I’m eating way more than I nor-
seem to be getting enough from me. The health visitor told
mally would. So in a way I’d say it was a fair exchange really.
me to increase my fat intake to see if that would help. I felt
[Laughs] (Carlene, age 36, one child)
really guilty but I couldn’t do that. I’d put on so much weight
From a Foucauldian (Foucault 1991) perspective, in pregnancy already there was no way I could do that.
biomedical constructions tend to frame breastfeed- (Emma, age 31, one child)
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She (baby) started losing weight and I panicked. The health when describing their attachment to continuing
visitor came and said ‘Get some Mars bars down you’ – breastfeeding, often for the simple reason that this
which of course I wasn’t going to do. But it was just a glitch. delayed the inevitable, but nonetheless frightening,
It was just for a week where she didn’t put weight on. I’m confrontation with their eating disordered personae.
glad I didn’t listen to the health visitor or I’d have been back Delaying the cessation of breastfeeding enabled
into bingeing and vomiting. (Lorraine, age 28, one child) women to sustain their belief in their ability to
adequately provide for the needs of their growing
For various reasons, few women disclosed their
infant; it also provided an extended window of pro-
eating disorder to a health professional involved with
tection from re-engagement with practices underpin-
their maternity care and it is possible that lack of
ning their eating disorder. That said, no participant
knowledge may have hindered professionals in their
volunteered that they delayed weaning in order to
desire to offer more appropriate, and individualized,
delay the responsibility they would face for providing
advice.
(healthy) foods on a regular basis.
Participants reported feeling intensely proud when
Many participants reported feeling pressured to
their (breastfeeding) efforts resulted in weight gain in
wean their babies and such pressures were sometimes
the baby (and continued weight loss in themselves);
internally generated. As is evidenced by the following
such positive feedback reinforced participants’ com-
quotation, some participants feared that ceasing to
mitment to continue. Breastfeeding also, of course,
breastfeed would trigger a swift return to their disor-
emphasizes the moral certitude inscribing mothering
dered eating practices:
practices in many contemporary societies.
I remember looking at him growing and thinking that’s [Baby] was about 10 months old and I was starting to feel
totally down to me. He’s growing totally because of me. I’m really bad about it [breastfeeding]. I was feeling almost
giving him all this nourishment and that’s all he’s getting and guilty. I was starting to wonder whether there was some
that’s making him grow. It’s very, very powerful feedback. It unhealthy pattern developing. You know like was I just
makes you feel important, like you’re the main person. breastfeeding because I was so afraid of what would happen
(Carlene, age 36, one child) with my eating when I stopped. (Louise, age 29, one child)
The approval thing was a big factor. Everyone was telling me It is interesting to consider Louise’s concern that
how well I’d done to keep breastfeeding. All that approval breastfeeding her 10-month-old baby may be ‘read’ as
made me feel really good about myself, and that I was being indicative of an ‘unhealthy’ (psychologically depen-
a good mother to (baby). I wasn’t thinking negative thoughts dent) pattern developing, when this is compared with
about myself, I was feeling very positive really. (Lorraine, age the damaging consequences to her own health in
28, one child, 18 weeks post-natal) maintaining her eating disorder. Her statement does,
however, support psychological theorising (Chassler
Positive feedback was especially important for
1997) which suggests that eating disordered women
women whose primary relationship with their own
may suffer greater disturbance in the relationship
bodies tended to vacillate between extreme ambiva-
they have with themselves and their own physical
lence and/or self-hatred.
bodies than they do with external objects – including
perhaps their own children.
Weaning A desire to reclaim the (pre-pregnant) body in
order to resume regimes which had previously been
Weaning is defined here as the cessation of breast- employed to control and shape the body, was a sig-
feeding. The age at which weaning occurs varies but it nificant motivator for some participants ceasing to
is likely to reflect local cultural norms and the socio- breastfeed:
political environment in which infant-feeding prac-
tices occur. Weaning was widely reported as a difficult I wanted my body back and I knew I wouldn’t get it back
transition and participants were open and eloquent until I’d stopped breastfeeding. I knew the minute that I
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stopped feeding him I could control my food again and that’s pronounced in women working in the retail, fashion,
what I wanted. When I was feeding I needed to eat properly or leisure industries:
because he needs the nutrients. (Lorraine, age 28, one child)
I breastfed [baby] for about six weeks because at that point
Concerns were expressed, however, that weaning I was back at work and I needed to look the part. In my job
would inevitably be accompanied by personal weight (fashion) you’re a size 10 or less no matter what. Whether
gain: you’ve just had one baby or 10 babies you’re never more
than a size 10! [Laughs] (Emma, age 31, one child)
I was very conscious about weaning him because I knew he
wasn’t going to be taking out as much from me so of course
I had to go back to work (as a fitness instructor) when [baby]
I was worried I’d put on weight. But at the same time I was
was three months old so I had to stop breastfeeding about a
glad that I wouldn’t have that responsibility any more of
month before that so I could get back in shape. But I was still
having to feed him and having to eat properly. (Maureen, age
terrified I’d start leaking milk or something in the middle of
38, two children)
a class. [Laughs] (Judy, age 34, two children)
Breastfeeding and weaning may thus be under- Participants who felt pressured to return to work
stood as enormously conflicted activities which early in the post-natal period quickly resumed the
required participants to adopt an entirely new regime customary regulatory activities over body weight and
of eating (‘healthily’ and ‘regularly’) without recourse shape which they had ceased, or at least reduced,
to purging. Many volunteered that this was the first during pregnancy and early lactation.
time in their adult lives that they had accomplished The prospect of weaning brought into sharp focus a
this goal. return to the denying, and restrictive, attitudes embod-
Some participants reported that they waited for a ied in the ascetic practices which had previously sup-
signal from the baby before they initiated weaning: ported women in maintaining their eating disorder.
Impending change prompted an internalized sense of
I’d rather her [baby] put an end to it than me. It’s quite a big
increased size, or ‘bigness’ even if this was not reflected
thing for me to have to do so I’ll wait for her to do it.
in an alteration in actual physical size:
(Maureen, age 38, two children)
As weaning got closer I was starting to feel big again because
Given participants’ expressed needs to control the
I’d eaten lots of things regularly that I wouldn’t normally let
circumstances underpinning decisions about food and
myself eat unless I was going to vomit. I don’t think I was any
related matters, it is suggested that the ability to relin-
bigger but I felt I was. (Lorraine, age 28, one child)
quish decision-making control to the baby repre-
sented a significant accomplishment. Further research For the majority of participants, the cessation of
is needed to establish the impact of such decisions, breastfeeding was associated with a resumption of
including whether the autonomy conferred on the the practices associated with the eating disorder.
baby had an enduring, and positive, effect especially Although a significant number of women reported a
on new mothers. reduction in the intensity of such practices, a few
The majority of women weaned their babies women reported the opposite:
before returning to work. Leaving the protection of
I was worried about getting fat when I stopped (breastfeed-
home and the routine of caring for a new baby con-
ing). I was worried about putting weight on because I wasn’t
fronted women with a new set of dilemmas about
burning the calories up. My eating really got worse after I
self and body image. Many women, especially those
stopped breastfeeding. For a while it was worse than before
who were still leaking milk, or who had not lost the
I got pregnant. (Tina, age 32, one child)
weight they had anticipated, or did not fit their pre-
pregnancy (work) clothes, reported feeling distressed Some women reported that they felt pressured to
about the prospect of returning to the work environ- wean an ‘older’ baby because of externally generated
ment. These feelings appeared to be particularly pressures including social norms which proscribe
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breastfeeding children beyond a certain age and/or Breastfeeding an ‘older’ infant in public was
beyond a certain size. perhaps less threatening to Patricia’s sense of self-
identity because this activity was congruent with her
I did find it quite difficult after (baby) was about five months.
role as a mother – as opposed to her objectified, and
People were starting to say ‘Still feeding then?’ [. . .] I stopped
eating disordered, identity as a sexually scripted
(breastfeeding) him at about six months because he felt like
female. Her unconcerned attitude about revealing a
he was getting too big and it didn’t feel right any more. People
part of her physique which, in any other circumstance
kept staring when I was feeding him outside and I just felt
would normally have shamed her, suggests a consid-
more and more uncomfortable. (Patricia, age 25, one child)
erable degree of body confidence. That she is able to
The worst thing was when he got a bit older (nine months) permit her body to engage with her infant in the
and people started to look at you and you know they’re regular production of body fluids which she under-
thinking ‘You breastfeed new-borns, not toddlers’. (Louise, stands to be useful, and of which she feels proud, is
age 29, one child) perhaps in direct contrast to the fluids she ejects from
her body in response to her eating disorder.
Recent guidelines from the World Health Organi-
Some women reported being pressured to wean by
zation and United Nations Children’s Fund currently
male partners:
recommend exclusive breastfeeding for a minimum of
6 months and to continue this practice for at least 2 I didn’t want to stop (breastfeeding). [Partner] kept saying
years while simultaneously offering weaning foods ‘When are you going to stop?’ I think he wanted me to stop
(World Health Organization and UNICEF 2003). because he wanted me back so when [baby] was just over a
Prevalence rates in the UK currently fall well below year old I pushed myself to stop. (Louise, age 29, one child)
these targets, however, with only 21% of women still
Regardless of whether the motivation to wean was
breastfeeding when the baby is 6 months old and only
internally or externally derived, extending the feeding
13% continuing at 9 months (Hamlyn et al. 2002).
period beyond the time originally planned was widely
Although a sustained improvement in breastfeeding
reported. Weaning an ‘older’ baby was generally
initiation has been reported (Hamlyn et al. 2002), offi-
experienced as a more difficult undertaking because
cial statistics confirm that childbearing women in the
participants had become more accustomed to eating
UK remain deeply mistrustful in the efficacy of their
an extensive range of food items, many of which
bodies to nurture and satisfy the food-related
would be outlawed altogether or consumed only
demands of their babies (Dykes 2005).
during bingeing episodes.
Given this backdrop, it is of some concern when
eating disordered women, whose adult corporeal
experience has been so tenuous, report that negative Discussion
attitudes impinged upon their desire to continue
This study identified some new, and significant, influ-
breastfeeding their growing infants. Despite the public
ences on decision-making processes which eating dis-
approbation experienced, however, some women
ordered, childbearing women, employ with respect
reported feeling greatly strengthened by negative
to infant feeding. Women are generally understood
interactions. In the following quotation, Patricia vol-
to involve their male partners in formula feeding in
unteers that criticism would previously have triggered
order to share parental roles and hence move towards
a change in her behaviour but her determination to
a more equitable division of responsibilities. Formula
succeed with breastfeeding deflected any disapproval,
feeding in this context may be understood as ‘a some-
whether this was implied or real.
what covert shift in the sexual division of labour, as
But I didn’t care what anyone else said (about breastfeeding involving the father in parenting, by beginning with its
her toddler in public). And that was a surprise to me because most gratifying aspects’ (Maher 1995, p. 8). The find-
normally I do care very much what people say about me. ings from this study suggest, however, an alternative
[Laughs] (Patricia, age 25, one child) reading of men’s role in this activity.
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Male partners who were aware of their partner’s to perform in the mode of belief’ (Butler 1999 [1990],
eating disordered status were generally reported by p. 179).
participants as being extremely concerned about the The practice of breastfeeding seemed to afford
welfare of the baby and, while there was little they eating disordered mothers an opportunity to experi-
could do about this during pregnancy, some acted on ence their body in a very different way. By discovering
their concerns once the baby was born. Insisting on resources within themselves which were essential for
the baby being formula fed was one strategy adopted the well-being and development of the baby, parti-
by male partners who understood this to be the only cipants were able to construct alternative represen-
possible means to guarantee the quality and quantity tations of themselves. Hence, the maternal body
of nutritional input. metamorphosed into a figure of pride and accom-
Breastfeeding was identified as a strategy which plishment but one which, nonetheless, retained the
enabled participants to circumvent customary prac- capacity for holding deep-seated and enduring feel-
tices associated with their eating disorder and to ings of shame and embarrassment. It is suggested that
reassign their identities as ‘good’, as opposed to breastfeeding demonstrated a particular, and highly
‘neglectful’, mothers. Breastfeeding, which was widely specific, experience of mutuality and interdependency
construed as positive and beneficial to infant welfare, which enabled women to see themselves not simply as
permitted women to increase their food intake, par- a ‘fat’ maternal body but as body which was perform-
ticularly their consumption of previously forbidden ing an essential function.
‘naughty’ treats such as ice cream and chocolate. It could be argued, however, that breastfeeding
While formula feeders were not averse to the idea of encouraged women to disassociate from their (eating
breastfeeding, they were unable to countenance the disordered) bodies and to foster a belief that the preg-
prospect of a delayed return to the project of reclaim- nant or lactating body was ‘other’ than their own.
ing of their pre-pregnant body. Breastfeeding was Future research is needed to investigate whether
generally believed to be incompatible with the eating disordered mothers who breastfeed develop a
re-enactment of eating disordered behaviours more fluid identity which enables them to embrace
because the production of ‘good’ quality milk, in suf- contradictory messages while simultaneously retain-
ficient amounts to nourish a growing baby, could not ing their sense of personal agency.
be guaranteed. To that end, formula feeding was This study contributes to research on the subjective
viewed as the only alternative solution for a number experiences of a particular group of women who
of participants. acknowledged a chronic,and problematic,relationship
Although breastfeeders in this study greatly out- with their bodies. Negotiating the transition to moth-
numbered formula feeders, both groups of partici- erhood required study participants to confront their
pants were very concerned to be seen doing the ‘right’ own, often longstanding, disrupted eating patterns and
thing; indeed, rationales advanced for infant-feeding to make important decisions about infant-feeding
decisions by all participants revealed a desire to methods. Women’s solutions to the difficulties they
protect infant well-being. Women who had disclosed encountered were creative and idiosyncratic attesting
their eating disorder were apprehensive that perhaps to the ‘cross-currents of complex and some-
knowledge about their (mental health) status might times contradictory obligations, which mean that
render them vulnerable to criticism and/or instigate infant-feeding decisions are as much about morality as
unwanted surveillance from health and allied profes- they are about nutrition’ (Murphy 1999, p. 206).
sionals. Some used breastfeeding to deflect possible
censure and to maximize the opportunities for dem-
Implications for health professionals
onstrating ‘good’ mothering. In this sense, breastfeed-
ing may be conceptualized as a ‘performative The establishment of an agreed pathway of care,
accomplishment which the mundane social audiences, which is properly funded and adequately serviced, is
including the actors themselves, come to believe and urgently required to facilitate the appropriate referral
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