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again. This time, it was our friends' second child and our own daughter,
both 14, in a tragic car accident. Now we were experiencing what it truly
meant, to lose a child.
For nearly three years, Angie and I walked around like zombies. We hid
in many bottles of alcohol, trying to escape the pain. I continually asked,
“Why me?” “Why did this have to happen?” and got very close to the
point of suicide. Never in my life, had I wanted anything to do with GOD,
religion or any other woo-woo stuff.
You can imagine that I was asking now…
A Chance meeting with an Angel
Often times, after Susanna passed over, my wife and I would go for
walks around the lake near our home. One particular day we were
feeling very down and depressed and decided to take a walk. As we
walked onto the fields before the lake, we heard what I can only
describe, as a dozen cats having something unimaginable happening to
In my awakening journey, I have experienced
angels many times. They have always been
human angels placed upon my path at the
precise moment that I needed them.
Sometimes they didn’t even know why they
called or were there. They just knew that they
had to be - and they were.
Thank GOD for Angels….
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them.
As we moved closer to the lake and rounded a particular corner, far
away in the distance, we could see someone sitting on a bench -playing
what appeared to be bagpipes.
Now, normally I love the sound of bagpipes, but what was being brought
forth from this instrument, was some kind of!!!! Oh heck, I am not even
going to try to describe it - but you get the picture!
So, to follow our normal route, we would have to bypass this gentleman.
To be honest, I was curious too, so I didn't really mind. Just as we were
about to walk past him, he stopped playing.
We heard him take a very deep breath and off he went again. Only this
time, what we heard was the sweetest rendition of a most popular song -
one that has touched many hearts. This song definitely stirred ours. I
stopped about 4 meters further up the pathway and looked out over the
lake. I allowed my emotions to flow. Tears were streaming down my
face. Every single hair on my body seemed to be electrified.
The music was absolute perfection - not a note or beat was missed. I
listened to every single moment with all of my being.
As this gentleman finished playing, our eyes met. I can only describe his
look as a "far away" look. I am not even sure he saw me. I bowed my
head and thanked him.
As I caught up with Angie, who was a little further ahead, we looked at
each other's tear filled eyes, knowing that no words were needed. We
had just been touched by an Angel. An Angel who had played, especially
for us, his special rendition, of "Amazing Grace".
Love and bright blessings to this gentleman and the Angel for that day!
Around this time, a very good friend of mine gave me the book The
Celestine Prophesy by James Redfield, to read. Thank God he did, as I
feel that this book literally saved my life. It awakened a spark of curiosity
from deep within. I began asking new questions and opening to
metaphysical ideas.
I read all of James Redfield’s books and practiced the techniques
described in them. Slowly but surely, my intuitive and other inner abilities
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began to awaken. I felt a profound recognition of truth from deep inside. I
began to visit the chat rooms online and meet many wonderful people -
many of whom I still consider friends to this day. Eventually, I was
introduced to the Secrets Of Shambhala, and I felt another stirring deep
within me.
The Shambhala Multi Dimensional Healing Attunements were founded in
1998 and offered courses in developing inner skills. I traveled to the USA
(June 2002) to meet with a group of my online friends and to take the
Mastery course. I enjoyed working with the energies so much, that I
became passionate about sharing them with others from my home and
via the internet. This again, introduced me to a great many wonderful
people from all corners of the globe.
This was a choice in my journey that led me to finding a degree of
happiness again. I started to discover many of the answers that all who
have lost a loved one, seek answers to.
Continuing my focus on expanding inner awareness, I became very
intuitive which lead to me talking to my guides. I became very empathic.
I learned how to facilitate healing, guiding others to allow the energies to
flow into them and accept their own healing for themselves.
I expanded to experiencing the initiations into the Elements, which
brought another profound step in my journey. For the first time after
Susanna’s passing, I communicated with her again.
It was after the initiation into the Ether element and as Metatron (among
other duties, the Lord of the Ether element) and I chatted about the
initiation, he eventually announced, that there was a being waiting to
speak with me. As you can imagine, in the beginning there were many
tears, but as the conversation went on, Susanna began to teach me what
our true relationship was and how soul contracts work. This was the true
beginning of my freedom. Freedom from the bindings that ego and the
3d Illusion had placed upon me.
Since this experience, I have also found answers as to why we are here
and what our sacred soul contracts are. I have met many people whom I
know I had agreed to experience certain things with. It is easy now not to
judge them, but to experience them for what they are -and they most
definitely are expansions of our total being. I now know where we are
going and I am passionate about sharing this with as many people as I
can.
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New Path of Awakening
Sometimes I wondered that had I made different choices, would certain
events have been different? Could I have awakened earlier to my
journey? Could I have seen the signs earlier and recognized the contract
agreements? I now know, however, that these events were all absolutely
perfect for the soul journey of everyone involved.
Having experienced loved ones die and for myself to have to go through
so much pain, allowed me to surrender to deeper aspects of myself - a
surrender that I know I would not have made otherwise. It generated a
huge difference in the way I view and experience life. In sum, it greatly
enhanced my spiritual journey.
Full Circle
All the skills I developed early on in my life and those of most recent
times, are now being put to a much higher purpose - my own awakening
and that of others. This happened for a while, particularly via the Online
Spiritual Community* (which I and two close friends founded). Teachers
from around the world shared their light, wisdom and insights with us,
and all that entered the online community. I found great joy in assisting
people to step into their power, and in sharing the secrets of this
universe with so many.
I am blessed for every single experience I have lived in this life. I have
found great joy, sometimes bewilderment, sometimes confusion, and
sometimes pain. This is all a part of life as we awaken more to the why
we are here and what we truly are. I understand that “I” arranged all of
this and I AM following my own divine plan, just as each of you are. (Boy
that was hard one to get my head around in the beginning.) I know why I
am here. I have found unconditional love. All I had to do was be open
and willing to ask!
I am now traveling the world sharing my experiences with those that
desire to hear. I have written a book and another is on its way. Who
would ever have expected that? Certainly, not me.
Who would have ever believed that I, at a certain point in my life, would
embrace GOD and all that it entails. Again, certainly not me.
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Who would have thought that I would stand in front of hundreds of
people, LOVE every single one of them, and know, that they love me
back? I would never have ever dreamt of it.
Life, when one begins to understand the true purpose, really IS a JOY.
Sharing
This is perhaps, one of the most essential
parts of anyone’s awakening journey. The
more you are willing to share with others what
you are experiencing, the more answers you
will find.
Have the courage to ask questions. You might
be surprised at the answers you get and from
where you get them. They often come from
places or people you might not have expected
them from.
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Sharing
Why I feel sharing is so important in our
journeys
From the very beginning of my awakened journey, I realized that by
sharing my thoughts, my experiences and what was happening in my
life, I more often than not received answers to questions I was currently
wrestling with. By being willing to share your experiences, you are
putting out to the universe that you have many questions. The Universe
has so many weird and wonderful ways of placing answers on your path.
Enjoy!
I consciously chose the word wrestling, because at that time in my
journey it often felt that way. In the period of my awakening, to use a
popular term, I had so many questions. I was like a sponge and I was
looking to get my answers from anywhere I could. What I didn’t realize at
that time, nor would I probably have trusted or recognized them as such,
but I had all of the answers inside of me and that I could simply tap into
them.
I used to frequent the Celestine Vision * chat room a lot. I made many
new friends there - many of whom I am still in contact with to this day. At
that time of my life, I was still recovering from that very tragic period, and
this was a safe place to be. I could log on or off whenever I chose. If it
became too difficult, I could always cut and run. There were many there
who influenced and assisted me in my awakening journey. I could often
be found there until deep into the night so that I could meet up with
people from all over the world and their different time zones. One of the
things I clearly remember is that I could not understand why some there
had their answers all the time and that I did not. I will NEVER forget my
question to the moderator of the system one day.
My question was: “How come I am not getting answers to my questions
John?” The answer that came back to me with, totally peeved me. Boy!
Was I angry with him! I thought he was fobbing me off with some kind of
flippant remark. It took some time for me to realize, but I will forever be
grateful to him for his reply. It was: “Go inside Ian and you will find your
answers.”
(In fond memory of a wonderful being Mr John Winthrop Austin. I will
always be grateful John and we will always Love you.)
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I of course, at that time, did not realize that I was indeed always looking
outside of myself for answers. Please do not misunderstand me here.
This was a very valuable lesson - and an important part of my journey.
By my willingness to share and ask questions I was being helped along
on my own journey, while assisting others upon theirs. As I was asking
questions and being a student, I was allowing others, to be the teacher.
I also devoured one book after another, attempting to find the answers to
my questions. I found many answers, and in doing so, I found that I was
finding even more questions. Every single book provided answers and
more questions!
I would take these questions into conversations either online (internet) or
offline. One of the main lessons and perhaps the most important, was
that I have and always have had the belief, that there are no stupid
questions - only people who remain in ignorance because they did not
ask their questions.
At a certain point in my journey I started to learn and realize that I was,
indeed often receiving answers to my questions from within. I know you
are going to recognize this next statement because I know we have all
experienced it, or will. In the beginning, I doubted those answers. I did
not totally trust them. Those of you who are still in that space, I can hear
you asking now: "Well how did you come to learn to trust them?"
Although I can feel my OPOM’s* chuckling at this one, however I am
taking it absolutely serious. The simple answer to that one is “TIME” and
the willingness to play with it.
The simple fact of the matter is, the more you play with it and the more
you share, the more chances you create of having what you are
receiving, confirmed from other sources. “SHARING!” This builds the
trust factor and at some point you learn to totally trust what is coming
from within.
Another fascinating fact I would like to share with you here is - we have
been receiving our messages all of our lives. We just didn’t know what it
was and we didn't trust it or give it a second thought. We didn’t recognize
it for what it was. The realizations I am sharing with you now came to me
because I shared my experiences with others We exchanged
experiences and we all got our confirmations. This is why I feel that this
part of our journey is so important.
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There are many great speakers around the world, many wonderful
writers and authors. I would certainly recommend you listen to or read
their work. You see it is my belief, that all of us are a part of the big
puzzle. We are all, to a certain extent, answers to all the questions. We
just have to share and intermingle to get the 'right' combination to
decode the puzzle, so-to-speak. This is a whole different subject and I
will definitely be coming back to that one in a later chapter as to why I
know this is so.
You could also, of course, go within after reading or listening to these
writers and authors and ask whether it is still current or accurate. The
reason why I say 'current' is that we are evolving at such an unbelievable
rate right now, sometimes some of the information written will already be
out of date or at the very least have changed to a certain extent.
I do firmly believe that we are all important. Yes! YOU too. You, who may
be just starting out on your journey. “YOUR” questions will refresh or
bring more clarity to those who have been travelling their journey for
many a year.
Sometimes it takes a little courage to share your experiences. Once you
get past whatever blockages are preventing you from sharing, you will
find that you discover your own answers, or others will provide them for
you, as if by magic! I use the term magic as I feel the way this always
happens, has a very magical quality to it.
Here is something you could try experimenting with. Put it out to the
universe that you wish to share with someone a particular experience
you are living right now. Trust that the right person will be placed on your
path to assist you. It has never failed me yet. All I had to do was put it out
there, then simply be open to whatever was happening around me at the
time. Quite often, during normal conversations, the opportunities would
arise. One or two words are generally enough. I truly love the way this
has always worked for me.
Enjoy in JOY your sharing experiences.
* The Celestine vision chat rooms can be found at:
http://www.celestinevision.com This is also the main site of James
and Salle Redfield.
* OPOM’s = Other Parts of Me… (we are all one)
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Learning Process
For many traveling the awakening journey, no matter which level of
awakening you are at, it is always an advantage to look into healing
modalities.
Whether you choose Reiki, Shambhala MDH, EMF or something elsethere
are so many out there- you may find it a little confusing to start
with. Persevere and trust your own inner intuition. It will guide you. You
may like to experience a few different modalities first and then you can
choose what interests you the most.
Be alert for any modalities appearing on your path more than once or
twice. If a particular modality is being placed in your field of reference
Learning Process
When it is your time to awaken and remember
who you are and why you are here - whether
through a personal tragedy or a natural process
- there will come a time when you will feel
guided to expand your awareness. Whether it
be through some kind of healing modality or
spiritually enhanced initiation, trust those inner
feelings, or physical 'signs'.
Do the research and when you feel you have
found something that provides some kind of
recognition or stirring inside you, trust it and
go with it wholeheartedly!
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regularly, you can be assured that your guides are doing that for you by
bringing something into your awareness until you take notice. Yes, and
this happens whether you are aware of your guides or not. Trust! They
ARE there.
It is also good to remember, that as you work with these healing
modalities you are not only a conduit for the energies to travel through to
another being, you will also receive healing yourself. I am sure you have
heard the saying-'what goes around, comes around'. This applies to
healing and loving also - whatever we give out will always come back to
us!
While working with any of these healing modalities, you will, after a
period of time, begin to receive and trust your intuitive feelings and
thoughts. This too, is your guides passing on messages through you, for
whomever you are working on.
So you see there are many advantages to finding a healing modality to
study and expand with. There are a great many out there and I am sure
you will hear from one practitioner to the next, that their modality is the
most beautiful and most powerful. This is the reason I recommend you
trust your own guidance and intuition. Your guides will never steer you
wrong. NEVER!!!!
Enjoy and be in JOY in every moment of your expansion, with what ever
you choose, it truly is a magical and wonderful experience.
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Soul Contracts
We are Spiritual beings here on Earth, having a human experience.
It is thought by many that it is the other way around. Rest assured, it is
not!!!!
During seminars, conversations or guidance, I have been asked to talk
on this subject. I have watched the many different reactions to the facts
that I am about to share with you. it is for this reason, that I state in
advance, that these are for me, irrefutable facts. They are a part of my
inner knowing. This does not mean that you have to accept them as total
holy truth. Please use your own discernment as to what you take out of
this and what you do not.
Soul Contracts
Yes, we all have them - whether you
believe it yet or not. Even before
you incarnated into this life cycle,
you made many agreements with
many other souls to have particular
experiences with, while here.
Please just be open to the
possibilities within this next
parable. You will find that it serves
you well as you are more and more
open to the potential for growth
from every experience.
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Before we ever even enter into any particular life cycle on this planet
there is a process beforehand that will more or less guide us through out
our entire lives. One would need to imagine a whole group of souls
planning and preparing. Some of who will have experienced many
incarnations together. It is a beautiful, meticulously and intricately
planned event for each and every time a soul desires to re-incarnate.
There are plans made and within those plans there are back up plans
created, several in fact. Why? Certainly one of the reasons for this is the
times we are now living in. So many are becoming very aware of our true
potentials here on earth and we are continually manifesting and cocreating
new experiences. Within those new experiences the original
plans are continually being adapted and changed. Our choices within
every moment, our every thought and all words shared, are creating new
realities all the time.
One of the most asked questions after sharing much of this kind of
information is: “If this is all true Ian, then I must ask myself if I do indeed
have free will while here on Earth?” My answer to that would have to be
“YES” to a certain degree. We have free will in that we are throughout
our life cycles, continually faced with choices. At times we will make
certain choices intuitively and they will be in total alignment with our
original soul contract. Sometimes we will deviate from the original plan
and this is where those back up plans come in. Certain members of your
soul family, or soul group will be around to offer assistance and guidance
helping you find your balance again. Why do I use the term balance?
Because so many are not aware of the original contracts - or even the
purpose of being here on earth. We often make choices that are not in
alignment with our original soul contracts. This creates an imbalance and
often leads to illnesses, lack of energy, depression etc.
It is important at this point to make a clear statement - that our souls are
never in judgment of our choices. It is us, in our human form, that
because of the distortion through ego, will choose to judge. Our soul
groups, family, and mates, are certainly those on this side of the veil,
also following a pre-agreed contract.
Perhaps it is also important right now to define the word contract. It is not
like a contract that one might make here on this Earth plane. On a soul
level, you will never be sued for different ('different' may be translated as
wrong) choices, nor will you be judged or called to answer for any of the
choices you make. Any and all choices you make while here on this
Earth plane, are always seen as experiences, which often may well
prove to enhance the souls' original contract.
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At this point I would like to share some examples of how a soul contract
might develop while on the Earth plane.
Recently a young man contacted me, he and his wife were clearly
confused and distraught. They had just experienced a miscarriage.
There are of course, many reasons why a soul would decide at some
point not to live out the term of pregnancy. Imagine with me for a
moment, that in the original contract of the two parents they had agreed
to be abusive towards each other. Imagine again with us that at the
moment of discovering a pregnancy both partners enter an agreement
with each other that all abuse would cease and desist for the sake of the
new born. The newly entering soul had as a specific desire to experience
and grow from the abusive experience. It would feel the sincerity of the
new agreement the parents had made and would choose to seek other
parents whereby it would be able to fulfill the desired experience. Often
times this would result in a miscarriage by the originally intended
parents.
Another example of this type of contract was shared with me by another
friend. She discovered that she was pregnant with a child that she could
ill afford to have due to her circumstances as they were at the time.
Being aware that she could contact this new soul entering into her body,
she connected with it, discussed the options and mutually decided that it
was not in her best interest to continue with the pregnancy. They
therefore, both mutually agreed to terminate the contract and a
miscarriage followed as a result. Imagine more people being aware that
this is possible? We would no longer have the conflicts in human
emotions around abortion. It could all be taken care of on a soul level.
In my own personal experience, I had contracted to become spiritually
aware at a certain stage in my life. With my soul family, mates, group, I
had set up certain potentials/possibilities. My awakening was originally
set up to kick in after the death of a very close and dearly beloved friend.
Although that pained me greatly, it had not had the desired result. The
next stage, or back up plan if you will, was to lose another being that was
extremely close to me. This too failed to create the desired result of
awakening. It was not until I experienced the loss of my own daughter,
that I had been affected to such an extent, that I did start to ask
questions such as “Why me?” Obviously, this has led me to where I am
now, and I am now fulfilling my desired contract here on this earth plane
during this life cycle. Does this mean that everything is now plain sailing?
I would have to answer that question with a “no”. There are many
reasons for that too, suffice to say that I am still often not quite seeing
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the full soul contract or purpose for my being here. Much of it has been
revealed and I am following to a largely accurate degree the contract, yet
while in the human form there are always going to be issues around the
ego that desires to lead us astray. I always attempt not to judge these
experiences because of the knowledge I now have, but I am still human
and I am still functioning from behind a veil, so now and then I do deviate
from the original plan.
Because in the beginning of this chapter, I also mentioned soul groups, I
will share with you something that is becoming very visible to so many
around the planet in these wonderful and magical times. Many of us are
now stepping into our fullest potential and because of this we are
drawing others to us that agreed to assist. We are finding and
reconnecting with many individuals from all corners of the planet. We are
ending the illusion of separation. We are working together for a common
goal. The common goal being, the ascension of all beings present on the
planet earth at this time and assisting to see through the illusion of fear,
ego, personality etc. We ARE returning to oneness together. We are
returning to the fullest state of LOVE in oneness as one heart
beating/being. Heaven on earth is being created by all of us in this now
moment. Congratulations one and all!
How do you know if you have met someone from your soul family or
group? Have you ever just been walking down the street or out shopping
for example, and all of a sudden you see someone who looks very
familiar? You might spend days afterwards pondering on where you
know them from. Chances are you don’t know them in this lifetime.
Chances are that they have been a part of your journey in previous lives.
It is their vibration that you are recognizing. I have experimented with this
many times. When it happens to me now, I simply walk up to this person
and begin a conversation. Sometimes I found that they were not yet
awakened and that was ok, so I walked away, often leaving a very
puzzled being behind me! (chuckle)
More times than not though, it has opened many new doorways and new
friendships and I love to discover the similarities in our journeys. Most
times we meet again for a reason and it is always exciting to discover
what that is!
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Have you ever heard of the fool's prayer?
It goes something like this…
GOD
I want my life to change.
I am not happy with how I am.
I am dissatisfied with my financial situation.
I want a partner that will love me for who I AM.
Fools Prayer
It is my sincerest hope, that by sharing
this next parable in the way that I have, I
touch your heartstrings.
That you may find points of recognition
and that you may be willing to change.
There is truly one constant that we can
rely on in this universe and our lives and
that is change.
When we resist change - especially
change that is placed in front of us so
that we are fulfilling our life’s contract -
we create imbalances within our physical
bodies that always lead to illnesses or
disease (dis-ease)
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GOD: So dear child. What are you doing about it?
Fool: But God, I thought if I asked you. You would fix all that for me?
GOD: My dear child. I have been placing things on your path for so many
years, offering you the opportunity to change your circumstances and
your journey. Yet everything I have placed there, you have been blind to.
At times you have even scolded me for placing those wonderful gifts on
your path.
Fool: Oh my GOD… I did not… I wouldn’t dare!
GOD: Would you like me to quote you?
Fool thinks for a short while about this one and feeling a little bold and
thinking that this could not really be GOD anyway. “Sure! Go for it. Knock
yourself out.”
God ponders for a moment…(here we go again [chuckle]…. Doubting
Thomas…)
GOD: Remember the time you asked me to take you into my arms?
Fool: Oh! Um, I think so. Was that the time that I was so depressed that
I didn’t want to be alive anymore?
God: Yes! And do you remember that huge Mack truck that just missed
you? The one that, at the last second you jumped out of its way? Do you
remember that cliff top you were walking along? What happened there?
You caught yourself on a branch and held on for dear life until you could
scramble back up?
Who do you think placed those things on your path?
Remember the time when you were so broke you asked me to help you
out? You had just lost your home. I placed an Angel on your path offering
you food and shelter. Do you remember what you did?
Fool: Oh my goodness. I couldn’t have gone with that person. First of all
he was colored, he was also a vagrant living and begging on the streets
to get by. Quite frankly he stank?
God: Ah my dear child… You asked for help and I sent you an angel that
knew of a warm safe place just around the corner of another angel friend
of mine who often gave him food, something to drink and occasionally a
little money. Were you not at that moment in similar circumstances? Was
it not an emergency? What did you do after that? Yes! That’s right. You
walked the streets for nights on end, sleeping on a park bench during the
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day, and what did you do during those times? You scolded me yet again
for forsaking you - for not being there, in your darkest hour.
Fool: Oh, I know what is happening here. This is not GOD. You are the
Devil. You are playing tricks on me.
Get behind me Satan or I will call upon the LORD and have him deal with
you.
GOD (chuckling at the thought) My dear child, I have walked behind
you. I have walked beside you. I have picked you up as you fell. I
watched over you as you slept. I have even placed my creatures on your
path performing their comical antics to provide you with a smile. I have
provided all that you asked of me and yet, you continue to choose to
blame it all on someone or something else, while quite clearly I have
been with you all the time and you have had choices made available to
you.
Fool shuffles somewhat sheepishly with feet… feeling the truth in God's
words....
GOD: My child, may I ask you a question?
Fool: Rather glad of the opportunity to stop squirming…
Oh yes GOD. Please do…
GOD: My child! Why is it that you fear change so much?
Fool: Fear change GOD? What do you mean by that? I don’t
understand.
GOD: Allow me to take you back to certain events in your life if I may?
Fool: Sure GOD, go for it…. Knock yourself out…
GOD (God rolls his eyes and sighs) Do you remember when you had
that beautiful home. You had everything your heart desires. You would
go out to eat with friends. Go out shopping, spend a small fortune on
clothes, shoes all manner of wonderful things and did you really need
them? No need to answer. We both know the answer to that one. You
had closets full of them all. didn’t you? You became so comfortable with
your life that you would rather go out of doors to get a cup of coffee and
a sandwich rather than make it at home. You would go out of doors
every morning bright and early to eat breakfast at one of those fancy
restaurants.
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Fool: Um… Where is this all leading GOD? (Feeling quite
uncomfortable and guilty)
GOD: Do you remember a day when some small children came to your
door asking if you had some old clothes, blankets etc? Do you remember
what you did? Do you remember that time an old man came to your door
and asked if you could provide him with a little sustenance? Do you
remember what you did? I don’t need to take this any further do I dear
child?
Let me take you a little further on the path that has been your journey.
There came a time in your life that things were not going quite so
pleasant any more. You were still very comfortable with all your needs
met. You had all that your heart desired as far as comfort was
concerned. Yet you did not seem to be happy, I think that was round
about the time you started to ask for my help is it not?
Fool: I am still not seeing what you are referring to here GOD?
God: Well dear child. It was around that time that you started to profess
to being a very spiritual individual is it not? Yes, it was indeed. Do you
remember some of your friends placing all manner of wonderfully written
books on your path? Do you remember that they asked you to go with
them to some seminar where some guy was talking about peace? Yet
another time they asked you to go with them to an event that was what
you call a workshop offering to assist those who participated in looking
deeper into the meaning of life and why you are here? Oh! And there
was the time that another group of friends asked you to join them to
assist in protesting against your government’s actions with regards to the
rain forests, pollution etc…
Do you remember dear child why you didn’t go to any of these events?
You thought the price for those events was too high. You thought that
they should be given for free? You grumbled and you moaned and
eventually your friends stopped asking. This puzzles me sweet one,
though you were prepared to pay every day for someone to make and
serve your coffee, which by the way would have compensated easily for
any of those events, you felt that those events for your inner you were
too expensive?
Dear child! Who do you think placed those friends on your path?
Indirectly YOU did. You asked and yet again I provided the opportunity
for you to make choices? You were willing to go out every morning for
breakfast, you were still over indulging on clothes etc. You were always
willing to pay top dollar for what you looked like on the outside. YES?
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Yes you were, and when that no longer made you happy, you asked me
to provide you with something that would make you happy yet when I did
you chose to find it too expensive. Your inner self was nowhere near
worth the value of what your outer self was worth?
Fool no longer speaks…. Fools eyes are filled with tears… for fool
knows where true happiness lies now. It is not on the outside, it is not on
how others perceive you to be because of how great you look! Fool now
realizes that it is what is on the inside that makes you happy.
GOD: What do you think dear readers? Which choice will you make the
next time there is an event that you could attend? Will you choose the
outer self? Or, will you choose the inner self. Will you choose to follow
your heart or will you choose to follow what you feel that others will see
you as on the outside? I put it to you this way. ASK and ye shall receive.
Ask me to provide if you do not have the funds. Feel it from the heart,
listen to your inner knowing. The answer is there and is yours for the
taking.
I make no judgments here dear readers. I simply place in front of you
your opportunity to find some inner happiness. I offer you what is always
there for you. CHOICES. Are you willing to change, to step outside that
box that you or others have placed you in. Are you willing to expand your
awareness? Are you willing to find those answers your heart desires. Or
is it too expensive? I will share a little secret with you dear readers. YOU
can have it all. You do not have to give up anything. When you are
expanding your awareness you are moving ever closer to being in my
image. Do you perceive me to be lacking or unhappy? Do I have it all? I
say to you. YOU are me and you can have it all.
Be willing to change dear readers, be willing to expand on what you are.
Be willing to follow your heart and your intuition. Be open to change and
the signals around you that are there to guide you.
You see dear readers the definition of the fools payer is to wish to
change your life and yet not be willing to make changes, to continue
doing the things you have always done and expect different results.
What will your choice be dear reader? What will your choice be?
I say to you that no matter what your choices, I will always love you,
embrace you, place those things on your path that you ask for. Send
angels to work with you and assist you. Your job is simply to be open to
what I send, to be open and accept that it is ultimately what you have
asked me to provide.
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It is when all said and done what you yourself have asked yourself to
provide. Take responsibility for your life. Make the choices that make you
happy. Find your answers. Find out what makes your heart sing.
[Authors' note:] Dear reader, I know this is a parable about life and
choices. It is my intention with writing this article, that parts of it ring true
and touch your heart. In this example I chose to write about one who did
have it all, yet it can easily be substituted for one who in their own
perception lacks all. It is my intention to place another way of looking at
what you have. To be able to consciously make choices in your lives,
knowing that you are the creator of YOUR reality. I made my choices. I
chose to invest in my inner world and it has resulted in all of my realities
being of beauty, pleasure, creation and above all ULTIMATE JOY. When
reading this article back to myself after writing it, I experienced several
emotions, laughter was one and then there were tears as I remembered
certain truths, my eyes were eventually filled with the tears of knowing
and JOY. I wish for you those same tears.
Our Four Bodies
And here you were thinking that you
only had the one body! For the
purpose of this book we will
concentrate on the four most well
known ones.
In this case it is not as with the other
writings in parable form. However,
because I mention the different four
bodies from time to time, I felt it
necessary to explain for readers not
yet aware of the multiple energy
bodies a human has.
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The Four Bodies
Many of you will be aware of the fact, that you have at least four main
energy bodies. I will focus on these four as there are many great books
already written on this subject that take it way beyond the four.
The four main bodies we will touch
upon here are:
The Physical body
The Emotional body
The Mental body
The Spiritual body
Everyone on the planet is aware of the physical body because that is the
one that you can physically see and experience. The physical body is
also the last line of defense where our negative thoughts and feelings
manifest into illnesses if left untreated.
But what if the medical world understood the importance of the
Emotional and Mental bodies? How many illnesses could be prevented
or certainly prevented from expanding by concentrating on these two
bodies?
Taking it a step further, the spiritual body has also begun to play a major
role in healing the other three bodies. Hypnotic regression therapy is
working what might be perceived as to be miracles.
In the near future it will be proven that all illnesses begin with a thought -
or in other words - in the head. There is already far reaching research
being done to prove this fact. (The mental body) Do some research on
the placebo effect, you will find that proof.
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It will be understood that the emotional body is an essential part of our
make up for preventing illnesses from reaching the last line of defense,
the physical body.
Imagine with me for a moment that it would be widely understood by the
masses that illness will no longer be necessary. Oh yes! I understand
that at the moment to those who are suffering, this seems a far fetched
idea, but I dare to guarantee you that with the integration of this
knowledge, you will no longer need to suffer illness.
It will take a massive shift in consciousness and there is “hope”. Why?
Because that shift in consciousness is already taking place. If you look in
the right places you will see that it is already happening.
The Value of self!
This parable was written with the
purpose of stimulating thought about
how one perceives “self”.
Would that be through the eyes of
another?
Or have you reached the stage of
awareness that you are more concerned
with the day to day expansion of self
through observing self?
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The Value Of Self
In this parable, I wish to place some examples of my past thinking
processing and blockages with myself - or others around me. It is written
expressly with the purpose of a sharing of thoughts and experiences and
if it is perceived to be confrontational, then truthfully, I have achieved my
goal with it. You are looking at SELF.
The Outer Value
Allow me to begin with examples of what I will term the outer value for
the purpose of this sharing.
While being present at a workshop a very dear friend of mine shared with
me an example of how one makes choices in life. Two ladies had
begged her to allow them to be at a particular workshop to see if she
could find a way of getting them in for FREE. The week long workshop
could certainly have been perceived to be expensive. After a great deal
of emailing back and forward it was eventually decided that they would
be allowed to participate at no cost. This of course, felt good for all
parties concerned.
One day during the workshop, my friend happened to be walking past
these ladies who were describing in great detail, a holiday that they had
just returned from. I will spare you the emotions and feelings that my
friend went through at that moment and leave them up to your own
imagination. The point being, these ladies had been faced with a choice
of going on holiday or taking the workshop. Through manipulation of
caring people, they had found a way to do both. It is not my intention to
judge here, nor will I. I will leave it up to you, what lessons are being
shared here.
Another example:
Because of my personal experiences of providing workshops in the USA,
I now have a totally different outlook and respect for Americans who do
attend workshops. They think nothing of traveling many hours -
sometimes a day or more to be present at a workshop they feel will
assist them in their journey.
Those who have experienced the American highways will know that it is
totally different to Europe. The highways in the US are often very quiet
and on long trips you might not see another vehicle for miles. Here in
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Europe for instance, it is almost always bumper to bumper and you can
travel from one end of the country to the other within a few short hours.
God forbid that it takes more than an hour to drive anywhere to take a
class, seminar or workshop. Two different countries, cultures and
attitudes.
Investment In What Others Think Of You
Allow me to place another example in front of you. How often do we go
out and spend a great deal of money on shoes, clothes, holidays etc,
only to ask ourselves, “Can I afford this?”
Then, regardless of the answer, we buy them anyway. I am not saying
that this is a bad thing, because if you understand how the flow of
universal abundance works, it can be a very good thing. What I am
wondering here is, what is the motivation behind this type of spending?
Do we do it to make ourselves feel good? To look good (for ourselves or
others)? Or perhaps we care more about what others think of us and or
how they perceive us to be.
The Inner Value - Investment In Self
If you are still with me, I thank you for your perseverance! I did say that
there was a higher purpose to me writing in this manner. Yes it was
meant to be provocative. Why? Quite simply because I knew what was
coming at the end, and I know that those who get to the end will know
that there are always more ways of looking at things. I am merely placing
another way of looking at things in front of you.
When we are willing to look at the distances traveled, or the extra money
we saved, for instance, as an investment in ourselves, our perceptions
change from one of lack (not enough time nor money) to one of self
worth (I am worth the time and money!). I often travel eight hours or
more to provide a workshop while in the USA. I have found that the
traveling time, especially if with a wonderful companion, can be of as
much value as the seminar itself!
My point is this, that when we spend the time and money on our spiritual
journey, taking the time to nourish our inner selves-our souls, we are
investing in ourselves in a way which brings satisfaction and fulfillment -
something that shoes and clothes never could. It lasts the rest of our
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lifetimes. Now answer me this question in all truth - Which contains the
most value if you look at it this way?
Let me take it just a little bit further. The value of inner self is also
important with regards to what we call “flow”. As we are in the flow, our
energy is at a higher vibrational rate and that in its self has an effect on
all those around us and extends even far beyond to the whole of the
collective consciousness. Being in the flow also contains all aspects of
energy - which includes financial abundance.
NOTE: When we are in the state of “flow” we often find that our
visualizations and manifestations are more rapidly created.
Allow me to ask the question again. Which contains the most value if you
look at it this way? The outer value, or the inner value?
Negatives To Positives
In this parable I have placed some
examples of how one perceives in
duality more often that not from the
negative perspective.
I have also added statements that
would offer insight into how it may
have been otherwise perceived.
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Negatives To Positives
The strangest thing about us human beings - at least the largest
percentage of us - is that we tend to look more to the negative side of
things than the positive. I will share a little later on my perception on why
this is. Lets first enjoy a few examples.
During a discussion with another dear friend I felt my OPOM’s nudging
me to be alert and listen to what she was saying and how. I have to say
before hand, that this lady is quite a happy person and lives her life
according to her own rules. Even her boyfriend is absolutely secondary
to this first rule. I know her as a person that does indeed, for the most
part, stand in her power, lives her passion and walks/talks her truth, and I
love her dearly.
She is very much into the animal realms, perhaps even more so than she
relates to humans. We both feel and agree that her future career will be
very much involved with animals. This does not mean that she cannot
relate to humans, she absolutely does. She sings every weekend in a
band and is extremely happy with that life. During the week she works
nights as a receptionist and is very content with that for the time being.
What really first caught my attention was a story she shared about where
she works. It is a building with a ground floor, a first floor, and then
apartments above.
It so happened that one of the people living in the apartments above had
recently passed on and was laying in state on the ground floor. My friend
knew this and thought it would not bother her as she came to work that
night on the first floor. As she passed the room where this person was
laid out, she could not help but look. As quickly as possible she walked
past the door and on up to the first level to where she worked. The first
couple of hours wasn’t too bad because she could still hear movement
from the apartments above. As the movement above quietened down,
her mind started to play tricks on her. She called a girlfriend of hers,
which wasn’t all that unusual as they often talk together at nights. What
was unusual was what happened a short while later. As my friend was
discussing what she felt was going on, her friend suddenly started to feel
a clear presence in her home. This definitely spooked her and she wasn’t
very happy about it she asked what she should do. My friend remained
very calm and offered the suggestion that they both concentrate on
bringing this entity/energy to the light.
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As my friend was telling me this I was getting the clear impression that
the entity that was there was not there with any negative intentions. What
had happened here was that in their haste and their natural leaning
towards the negative they had automatically assumed that this entity was
one with malevolent intentions.
If they had taken just a moment to calm down, to take a few deep prana
breaths and look at what actually was happening, or to perhaps look at
the duality (negative-positive) energies within the situation, they could
have attempted to communicate with this entity. Fear was clearly their
predominant emotion in this situation. Perhaps they might have even
found out why the entity was there and appearing to them in that way.
As I placed this suggestion in front of her she realized indeed how they
had handled this situation. As we discussed this further, she became
aware that there had been an opportunity offered to share information
from the other side. It might well have been an entity that had been there
so that a message could be relayed to the family members of the
recently deceased. Perhaps offering comfort or pre-agreed statements.
There is no judgement of my friend here, nor did she feel it that way. It
was simply an experience that was placed in front of them so that they
could become aware of how they react to many situations in their lives as
so many of us do. Because they are now both aware of that, they have
now both become more open to viewing situations from two different
perspectives and not just jumping in and acting upon their first thought.
Both agree that this was a valuable lesson and changed their lives very
much for the positive.
As for my friend, I feel that it was a lesson that will lead her to her true
passion - working with animals. She has been moving towards this for
some time, yet something was blocking the flow of the creation of that. It
will be interesting to follow her choices and manifestations now that she
has become aware of the blockages that she herself, had been creating
through her programmed reactions.
Recently we hosted a live event. We called it “Day of Awareness”. It was
because of this event that I became so very much more aware that there
are so many out there in the world who are searching for answers.
Answers to their daily challenges, answers to the reasons why some are
successful and others are not. What became very much apparent during
my own sharing of the “7 Steps to manifesting your hearts desires” was
the way that so many seem to look at what life places in front of them. I
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was somewhat shocked and amazed at the results of many of the
questions asked. Amazed that so many seem to prefer to look at life’s
experiences from a negative or lower vibrational point of view.
An example is, for instance, meeting and paying your monthly bills. How
many of you see that still as a source of worry? How many curse them
as they fall through the letterbox? I offer an alternative with these
thoughts and at the same time a challenge. I challenge you, dare you
even, to look at them in a different light. As they fall through the letterbox,
thank yourself and the universe that you are able to meet them each and
every month. Put that out to the universe* with a true feeling of gratitude
and joy. I know the results of this one already. Have no doubt in your
mind that things will change simply by changing your energy thought
patterns.
Here is another example. Health issues. I know I am about to broach a
subject that affects so many on this planet right now, and I will share a
simple sentence that will assist you to change the energy patterns of ill
health within your bodies. “I AM a healthy, wealthy, happy being.”
Making this statement every single morning will change your life. The
important part of the sentence here is the first two words. Everything that
follows those two first words are manifested as they are heard by your
every cell and the universe. Think about the words you allow to follow
them. Example: I AM feeling under the weather today. I Am full of a cold.
I am poorly.
Lets take a look at how we can change those to positive statements -
even if we are indeed, going through the symptoms. A simple one of
course would be, 'I am well'.
To take this a step further - 'I bless this experience for the much needed
rest it provides me. I understand that my body required it at this moment
in my journey. I thank my body and the universe for the lessons learned
from this experience'. (I know it is a bit long winded, I felt that this point
had to be expanded upon for a broader understanding). What you have
just done in the changing of the statement is move from the role of victim
to the role of empowered being.
Another example I would like to present to you: 'I am poor'. 'I am always
struggling to make ends meet'. Yet again, in this statement you are
putting something out to the universe I am pretty sure you are not
consciously wishing to create? Lets create a different energy by using
some small changes.
I have enough to meet my needs. Or, perhaps, I am happy that I am
always able to make ends meet.
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Do you see the difference in the two statements? Although the
circumstances might not have changed from what they were, you have
indeed created an energy that is not in the victim role. You have moved it
up a level to one of empowerment.
I can feel you asking, "How do I take this up yet another level?" Well, it is
quite simple really. You simply change the words to even more
empowering ones. For instance: 'I am blessed to have created all I
require and more'. By using words like these, you are putting out to the
universe that you have already received whatever you require. The end
result is that YOU have created it. You are definitely no longer in the role
of lack or victim. You have changed the energies from negative to
positive.
Now I hear you asking, "Is it really that simple Ian?" It is if you do not
allow your thought patterns or your words to slip back into the negatives.
This does take some practice in the beginning, because it means you are
constantly monitoring your thoughts. The good news is, after a while, it
becomes second nature. You have successfully changed your path from
victim to empowered being. You have changed your thought patterns
from that of constantly negative to continually positive.
* Universe. I chose to use the word “Universe” to allow for your choice in
the energy pattern you believe in. Be it GOD, Allah, Angels, guides
etc….
At the end of the book I will go even deeper into the perception of
Universe or Universal as opposed to whichever other name one chooses
to use for the powers that be.
Negatives expanded.
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Even while we are still in the womb we are already receiving impressions
of how the world is on the outside.
Most pregnancies will be pleasant ones and the situations surrounding
the mother will mostly be peaceful and a time of joy. However, there are
at times, circumstances that the growing child within will experience.
Shock through the mother from loud noises - a car honking it's horn, or
some kind of siren or alarm. Perhaps emotional shocks such as an
argument within the relationship or the death of a loved one. The child
within, will experience these things and feel through the mother's
emotions, that it is not pleasant.
There are of course, worse scenarios, but that would not serve the
purpose of this parable. I feel that from the perspective of inside the
womb, enough examples have been shared.
Let us take it a step further to the birth of the child. This is a traumatic
experience for the child in general as it is being squeezed through a
narrow channel - for a natural birth. For a caesarian, the child is pulled -
sometimes by cold, hard instruments - into the cold air. Being brought
out into a strange environment, all of a sudden being required to take its
first breath for itself can be very shocking and traumatic for the baby.
Why Do We Often Choose To Perceive
Things In A Negative Light?
In this parable it is my intention to place
some examples in front of you, so that
you can consciously begin to make
different choices from a new place of
understanding.
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As the baby begins to grow, and starts to discover this new world
through crawling, it will all of a sudden begin to hear the words 'No' and
'Don't' all the time.. Here we are again at another example of negatives.
No judgment here, this is the way most of us were brought into the world
and went through the process of growing up. It is also the way many of
us raised our own children, as this is how we were taught from our own
parents. We didn’t know any different, it has been passed down to us
from generation to generation. It is the accepted norm.
Once the child goes to kindergarten or school it will be faced regularly
with rules which are often full of 'No', 'Don't', 'can't', 'should' and
'shouldn't'. This is the way that society begins to shape and control us.
Even just with these few examples is it any wonder that throughout our
lives we are generally programmed towards the negatives.
Of course much of it depends on how awakened parents are to the fact
that we do live in a world of duality. Parents might choose for instance,
instead of saying 'no', to providing an explanation as to why the child
may choose to do something differently. No matter how young the child
is, this will give them a conscious choice as to whether or not to do
certain things.
An example perhaps, as a child reaches out for a hot cup of coffee, by
stating that it is hot and holding the child's hand close to the cup, the
child would be able to feel the heat. The child now has a point of
reference. Some children might still want to touch the cup of coffee, but
they will certainly learn very early on in life that when Mom or Dad show
them examples like this, that the examples need to be heeded. If the
parent simply says 'No' or 'don't touch', the child has no idea why or what
the implications may be if he/she did indeed, touch. The child will gain
trust in the wisdom of the parents and would be more likely to ask before
doing.
Lets take this into our own lives now and take a look at how we perceive
life to be. How many times have you had butterflies in the tummy and
thought something bad was coming? Did it always turn out bad? Well, it
might have. But could that have something to do with your programming
and expectations? Could that have something to do with how you were
raised, perceiving a great deal from a negative point of view?
How often have you thought that you could not pay a bill that was due?
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You more than likely will have found that you weren’t able to. Have you
ever noticed that when a point of despair sets in that you tend to let go of
the thought and the worry for a while and all of a sudden something pops
up that will help you to pay your bill? I bet it has, it has happened to the
majority of us.
Your challenge now as an adult, is to recognize these things and to take
responsibility for your thoughts and words. It is ok if you don’t, you will
simply choose to learn the hard way. When you have received enough
knocks, you will start to look at how you are creating, and perhaps make
more positive choices, therefore creating more positive experiences and
outcomes.
Enjoy this game of creation in whichever form you choose it to be, either
negative or positive. There is no judgment here either. It is your choice
and each choice you make, will bring insights and wisdom.
We most definitely have moved into times whereby our thoughts and
words are creating and manifesting our reality almost instantly. There will
come a time that you will start to realize that your thoughts and words
are creating everything around you and all of your experiences. You will
also make more conscious choices not to experience negatives. You will
consciously choose to create positive and loving experiences that will
bring you fulfillment and happiness.
Priorities and choices
In this parable I would like to share some thoughts on where potential
blockages may lay when making choices.
Priorities and Choices
The human journey is all about choices.
When faced with those choices, we
sometimes have to prioritize.
This parable will perhaps show a familiar
story that you can relate to.
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During my journey I have been to many events given by some of the
greatest speakers in the world. I have been truly grateful to them for their
wisdom and insights and so much of their channelled information. It was
the catalyst to what I am today. Would I have got there without them?
Perhaps, but I am certain that it would have taken a whole lot longer
without them!
My own consciously “awakened” journey started approximately half way
though the year 1999. My goodness, even as I write this and look at the
dates, I am surprised at how far I have come and how much I have
learned. I would even go so far as to say how much more enlightened I
have become. I LOVE this journey now. Even after all the tragedies in
my life, I can honestly say I would not change any of it. They have been
a part of the learning journey bringing me to where I am and to where I
am going.
I guess it all started in mid 1999, and after a short break, I knew
something had touched me, as for what? I did not yet really know. It was
only after a whole string of synchronicities that kept pointing me back to
the Celestine Prophecies. It was about 6 months after reading it for the
first time, when I really felt something move me enough to read it again.
After this, I felt propelled to gather more and more information.
My intention in sharing this information with you is to show you some of
the choices I had to make during some parts of my journey. You might
also be confronted with these same choices, or ones that might be
similar and recognizable.
I did not always have the funds to buy the books I wanted to buy, or to go
to the seminars, readings or events I felt that would assist me and
provide me with answers to the many questions I had. Sometimes I did
have the money and then I might have found myself having to choose
between a holiday for Angie and I, or being present at some special
event. Fortunately for me, Angie was quite happy to stay home, as she
saw that all the things I was doing back then were assisting me in my
healing journey.
During our journeys we are often confronted with making choices that
may impact upon not only ourselves, but the loved ones around us. Just
remember that they are just that, simply choices. Stand behind those
choices no matter which way they take you. Often times we are way too
hard on ourselves because of those choices.