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One part of
her wishes it were true so that she wouldn’t
Day of Mourning have to worry about her son. But she knows
better. The government forces have not
been sleeping or eating supper in their
By Jude Ortega headquarters when they were killed. They
were in the rebel’s territory on a mission.
They were armed, and they most likely
(An earlier version of this story received attacked with speed, without any warning.
honorable mention at the 2015 F. Sionil José She knows how these things go, even if
Young Writers Awards.) she’s just an ordinary civilian who sells
Gayang wakes to the howling of dogs at one homemade sweets in the public market of
or two in the morning. She gets down the Tacurong. She knows because her family
bed, moving slowly so as not to disturb her was living in Pikit when the Estrada
sleeping grandson, and goes to the kitchen, administration declared an all-out war
where she drinks a glass of water. The dogs against Muslim rebels, fifteen years ago.
out on the street keep howling. She’s She lived close to the heart of the battlefield.
certain that the noise also bothers her
neighbors, but while she wants to throw
stones at the animals to quiet them, her At the earliest sign of light, she wakes up
neighbors wouldn’t. They would not step her grandson to take a bath.
into the darkness outside. They’re Ilonggos,
and as such, most of them believe that
there’s an aswangaround whenever dogs “It’s too early, Grandma,” Amil complains,
howl. not rising from the bed, his eyes half-closed.
She doesn’t find the belief of her neighbors “I still have enough time to sleep. I won’t be
strange or laughable. In fact, she wishes late.”
right now that she belonged to their tribe,
for if she were to interpret the noise based
on the beliefs of her own tribe, she would “You’re not going to school today,” says
have a greater cause for worry—something Gayang. “We’re going somewhere.”
much more common and real than aswangs.
As a Maguindanaon, she grew up believing
that whenever dogs howl, they’re telling Amil’s eyes open wide. He grins. She knows
human beings that someone close to them why he’s delighted. He doesn’t like going to
has just passed away. school. He doesn’t like his classmates, who
are mostly Ilonggos, who are mostly
Christians. They’re not nice to him. He
She puts the empty glass on the sink. The sometimes comes home red-faced in
water hasn’t helped at all. Her heart is still frustration or self-pity and with his uniform
racing. She thinks of her son in disheveled in some parts. She would always
Mamasapano. He’s the only person whom ask him what happened, and he would
she might have lost. He’s the last person always answer, “Nothing.”
who could be taken away from her. Her
husband and her other sons have been
taken away before. However, as suddenly as it came, the delight
in the boy’s face disappears, replaced by a
pall of suspicion. She also knows why. She
The noise outside dies down. She goes back can read his mind: Grandmother nags me
to the only bedroom of the small house and every morning to wake up and move faster
lies beside her eight-year-old grandson. She so that I won’t be late for school. There’s
holds him close to her, still thinking of her nothing else she wants me to do but go to
son, the boy’s father. The howling of the school every day and learn to read fast and
dogs has not been the first indication of do numbers quick. There’s nothing special
what might have happened to her son. The to this day. There’s something wrong.
dogs have only reinforced the fear that has
been gnawing her since the other day, when
the news came out that government forces Amil sits up and asks her, “Where are we
had an “encounter” with separatist rebels in going, Grandma?”
a town in Maguindanao. The news shocked
the nation, and continues to shock as more
information about the incident is revealed. “To Mamasapano,” answers Gayang, pulling
the boy’s shirt over his head.
More than forty have been killed on the
government’s side, allegedly outnumbered
and ambushed by the rebels, and this
“To Father?” he says, excited again.
happened at a time when the peace talks
are coming to what most Filipinos thought a
successful conclusion.
“Stop asking so many questions.”