“Who am I now and who I want to be?

Every individual is molded by many aspects which includes education, environment and
the people we get along with, but the most important thing is how we are nurtured in our
home. Our parents became our first mentor, they are the ones who’s responsible for our every
little mistakes, they taught us many things, and they taught us how to be disciplined because
they wanted us to have good manners.

Who am I? This is indeed a rather extensive and onerous thing to to ask an individual. I
feel as if placed on the hotspot. Sincerely, I have no idea where to begin. There is only one thing
I can say with all my heart, it’s that I don’t particularly know who I am yet. What I just know and
what I can just elaborate is “what I am like”, what in this world evokes me, what I enjoy doing,
what I’ve gone through, what my beliefs are and what I prefer or disfavor among a multitude of
divergent elements are what truly defines me. But even these things do not remain static. They
can change and most probably will change. I will start off by saying that I am a constantly
developing person and have evolved a tremendous amount but of course I am the same in
terms of aesthetics but clearly different in a purely psychological sense. I have a low self-esteem,
and I am aware of that. I dislike socializing because it requires a great deal of energy that I do
not have. I am now striving for my goals and I’ll continue doing it. What I want to be in the
future could also be changed but as of now, what I want to be is a person who can be proud of,
a person who is matured enough to face responsibilities, a person who is brave enough to face
certain life challenges, a person that can’t be drag down by anyone, a person who can be a help
to others and a person who deserves respect from other people because these are the things
that needs to have strength, things that I can’t have because of fear – the fear that had grown in
me and overshadowed my faith. The fear that maybe I couldn’t make it. But in the future, I want
to aim these qualities not for other’s sake but for my own sake to show other people that I can
also do, make, and keep it.

“Who am I?” and “Who I want to be” seems to have a never-ending answer. I am a
person that will have continuous changes in life. I hope one day to travel to many places and see
all the beautiful places in the world that it may offer so that I can continue learning and
discovering new things on my own. Every single person needs a motivation in everything in
order to reach their dreams in life and find a place where they will not only belong but also be
able to make a difference.