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Ame Tendre was sitting in bed dreaming of what it was like to rest on soft moist grass. He had spent eight dreary hours writing in tiny spaces, building words that ran and fell unfolded and incongruously across cheap notebooks. Suddenly a pop-up screen lurched on his monitor, like a token, like something new and with a certain promise. It turned out that his gazer was a woman, in her thirties named:
Ame Tendre was sitting in bed dreaming of what it was like to rest on soft moist grass. He had spent eight dreary hours writing in tiny spaces, building words that ran and fell unfolded and incongruously across cheap notebooks. Suddenly a pop-up screen lurched on his monitor, like a token, like something new and with a certain promise. It turned out that his gazer was a woman, in her thirties named:
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Ame Tendre was sitting in bed dreaming of what it was like to rest on soft moist grass. He had spent eight dreary hours writing in tiny spaces, building words that ran and fell unfolded and incongruously across cheap notebooks. Suddenly a pop-up screen lurched on his monitor, like a token, like something new and with a certain promise. It turned out that his gazer was a woman, in her thirties named:
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to rest on soft moist grass. The computer hummed by his bed, and produced the sounds of some unknown band. The smell around him was of uneaten doughnuts, the hard smell of sugar. He had nothing to do but lie there and fantasize about what it was like to be surrounded by anything but wiry fences and graffiti maps. The smell of constant gasoline filled the air, mixed with the smell of wild fires, which turned the full moon a crimson red. -1- He had spent eight dreary hours writing in tiny spaces, building words that ran and fell unfolded and incongruent across cheap notebooks as if a wild bull was chasing them. And was drenched in the summer sweat- the heat that wrapped itself around him like an old skin. Outside there were the noises of beefed up cars and beefed up bass sounds of the strange cars-- an ambulance was spreading panic and dust in some distance- but the sound of siren receded from him like a stone thrown down a well. He was staring at his computer monitor as though a miracle might pop through, The heat and aloneness orbited around him in single movements—and the city and his neighborhood were but cautionary tales he didn't quite want to believe in, like a story that takes on the form of a nightmare, he wanted to throw the closed book, away. Suddenly a pop-up screen lurched on his monitor, like a token, like something new and with a certain promise. It showed someone was looking at his profile. He clicked on the arrow to see who was sizing him up- in the loneliness of his work and being, any contact from ‘out-there’ was like a welcome mat-almost like a letter that is arriving too-soon, or too-late? It turned out that his gazer was a woman, in her thirties named: Ame Tendre-‘what kind of name was this?’- reading him, from Australia, a Brazilian woman- her picture and profile was in front of him instantly. It really meant: she wanted to be seen, he was no snoop. The gazer could have controlled that. “What does Ame Tendre mean?” “Its Brazilian for: Soft, breezy spirit.” She answered back.
“Vow.” “A soft breezy spirit?” He repeated it to himself- he really had no idea what that meant either!
She had had her picture taken from afar, not a
close up, not a vanity shot, but a warm cozy photograph. In the picture she'd knelt by some ivy plant that climbed above her head on the wall, in multiple streams, looking rooted, suspended- looking as though she too looked forward to things moving up, ahead, forward. And as though she was content with life. With whatever she had. And he hair fell around her, abundant, like waterfall, and her stare through the lenz burned its path-- like something rare and exotic. He instantly felt a certain escape; felt attracted, and wondered why. She messaged that she would like to be friends, they were both on a socialization site. Did he want to chat? He wanted to chat, like the end of the world was coming. He replied yes, before any of them was aware , a type of conversation began, that only develops in between two yearning, and alone things, the miles and miles in between them didn't matter much, they spoke as though it hadn't even been, she wrote with a quality that only the happy and contented deeply possess, and he replied with the forlornness of his being. She replied as though somewhat aware of his surroundings, the smell of burned brushes, the rarity of even a tree, the aloneness filled dark spaces of his apartment living. It wasn't long before she broke intro describing her surroundings, though he hadn't said much about his, only the scarcity and punctuation of his words carried the weight, the burden of his felt world. And almost as if she could sense the concrete metal spires that rose out of his windows view. Their tired bulging in the skies. She began to talk about her apartment, out of some wish for consolation, For the pure wish of soothing another. She spoke of the long, long moist grass , she named each fruit tree that lived in her yard, branching above the grass, and was almost poetic in her details, calling each fruit tree by florid names, as though they were her siblings or cousins, all objects were humanified in her almost serene, soft language, voice. Outside his apartment, the wild fires went on, the wind carried the smell of burned grass and brushes directly to him. The wild fires occurred every year with a precision that only nature harbors. They would burn through two-car- garage houses in between hills, it seemed to him, that they came against this brutal invasion of man into the sloping mountains and hills, they would burn garages packed with yesterdays papers and an onslaught of plastic toys, and kerosene lamps, and what not. In a city where one of the biggest trades was renting out storage spaces, the wild fires came untouchable as to fight this general obsession to hoard things. Almost everyone was a pack rat, old men walked around busy neighborhoods cursing the congestion of things. No one wondered why everyone hoarded, the storage places business were in every corner like starbucks’ and Mcdonalds’, the wild fires came and burned things, as though, the pack rats had a disease that went beyond occupying spaces, it offended a factor that slept in the nature, now aroused, now wept-and wild fires would come to restore some wonted peace, but never could for their return every year was a sure thing, and a sign of their almost defeat. Their conversation took him out of the congestion of his surrounding for mere moments, and then doubt came, like when innocence has left a being and the being is a felt swan, and he was stilled, dumbfounded for words, outside it was still, dark and clouded, a dead sky that reflected no light. He longed to tell her of his grief. Perhaps to awaken in her a sense of not- empathy, but surprise, a harsh sense of knowing. So, he started to tell her back of his surroundings, just to be not buried in her little paradise, he was afraid of losing himself, to a life that didn't occupy or led him. She, as if aware of his fear asked if he would like to see her apartment for himself, the forlornness in his words had frightened her. They made her conscious of discontent, unlike her aloneness which was a tangible, treatable thing. But more like unhappiness hadn't visited her for a long time, but its bits of pieces were recalled by his words, and she wanted him to see, with his eyes, so her happiness would be immaculate like words, her name. She repeated the question: 'Do you ant to see where I live.' He answered how? How could he see her flat, she said she had a camcorder, and instantly she connected it, and he saw this beautiful woman dressed in a turtleneck and a plaid short skirt sitting in front of the camera, slooped, pale, and draped in a soft natural light, like a felt madonna. The floor around her, he could see, was dark polished wood, it reflected a soothing light into the camera, and he could tell behind her sat much unoccupied space, spaces he would have killed for, then without notice, she took the camera, and placed it on a window that looked onto her garden, plush grass, looking as green as the sun could illuminate, and the small camera could exhibit, small humble trees, which shook in the wind and were bent as though pregnant with their weights of figs and tangerines. She turned the camera, slowly around, so he could see that she was truthful, and her happiness despite aloneness real, and unmoving, stilled. They lost the words to communicate then. The passing of the words in between them stopped like a clogged highway that's been suddenly re- opened. Not a word was exchanged, in this silence, she brought the camera back to the place in front of her. She waited for seconds or were they hours, but staring at the camera mesmerized, she began to take off the turtleneck first, then her skirt, and in the orange and blue light of he camera, she proceeded to take off her bra and underwear, then she sat like a windless tree, still and unmoving, bent, staring at the camera with the innocence of the first woman, looking like something out of this world but belonging strangely and fantastic. And he was struck by her body, by its resemblance to her garden, and didn't utter a word, and stared, like a man in the eyes of a hurricane, calm and in some strange forgotten peace, neither of them knew for how long she sat there naked, but the darkness had descended on his side of he world, the lights unturned on, he sat in that darkness, and at one moment in their stilled time, neither of them knew when and why, she gently bent forward and turned off the camera, and the connection went dead, and it never were turned on again. Never did. He never knew what to make of this experience in words, or even in his thoughts alone. But he knew he hadn't smelled the wild fires or the gasoline, hadn't heard the sirens and car alarms for the duration of their almost touch, but soon, and almost instantly, he knew a way out of there.