CLE REFLECTION

My life as I describe it is, very imperfect if you ask me. I have dreams, yet my dreams are somewhat
blurry, I can never foresee myself pursuing something with a clear vision. I always end up doubting
myself and fearing the outcome. I feel this way maybe because I’m not The Best at anything, I can do
things but I don’t have that feeling that I know what I want, I know what I’m good at. Maybe this has
something to do with how I align my dreams to God’s dream for me.

I feel that I should be attune to my attitude towards life. So far I am a controlled, selfish person just
living the life the way I need to live it rather the life I want to live it. Sometimes I feel the lack of
recklessness, the feeling that I am too hooked up on living a perfect life I can’t seem to see myself in this
life in the future. I need to give in. God has prepared my life before, and to finally see what I really want I
need to give in to His plan. The only problem is I still can’t.

Changing myself to become better has been my journey ever since. Every year or every once in a while I
try to change something from me, to start a habit for my own good. I haven’t been successful on
implementing at least one of them. I try not to indulge in sin, I force myself not to but it just keeps on
coming. Maybe if I just become a nicer person rather than being overly selfish and insensitive to others I
may see my path from a brighter perspective, because I believe that how we act ourselves determines
to how we see our path. Sometimes I might need to change the way I live life, destroy the chains that
bind me, that keeps me from seeing the world. They say I have big eyes since birth, and yet these eyes
are proven to be dim and uncomprehending, not to be able to understand life and not letting myself
understand it. Up until now I want my life to be a success but there is no clear picture in my head to how
I’m about to do that.

I want to endure the pain that life brings. Because in these moments only will you challenge yourself to
come to a realization of what I need to do. Because not only will I be in a state of giving up, in this point I
am clinging to God. It’s not really necessary for me to endure so much pain, I am just saying that
sometimes I just need the right moment and the right time wherein the key to my dream to who I am,
really am comes along and then I grab that key to a one time thing and unlock my doors with God beside
me. So in conclusion, all I need to change and improve is my attitude, decision making, positivity, and
relationship with GOD and so if may be so lucky, by then only will I be happy in my life.