YOU'RE AN ADULT NOW You hear the words You're an adult now You are 21 But inside you

feel like you are still 12 years old. Things have just got harder. The fear just got more Will they realise that you are not as old as they think you are?. Some in the past have When much younger you were not acting your age, but more of your younger brother's at times. But they said that was normal there was only 2 years difference between the 2 of you. But as the years pass you too seem to notice you are not the age inside others expect you to be. The gap ever widening, no matter how you try to hide it. You feel like a child constantly trying to play pretend. At 21 you feel like a 12 year old who has been given adult responsibilities It is very overwhelming . Now even in your 30's, you still feel like a young child inside, trying to deal with an adult world at times. Some times even now you feel like you are seeing things as perhaps 12, now 13, maybe 14 year old would see the world. Yet at other times maybe even a little older. There are times when the facade fails. The looks you get when it does, only makes you want to hide your secret more. People do not understand. But do you really want to tell others? You have the intelligence of an adult But the emotions and reactions of a child at times. They will not get this. The fear of been treated as less than who you are by others is real. Knowing many would talk down to you. You are not stupid, You are not dumb. You just want them to be understanding if you react differently. Yet you know they will most likely will not. So you hold up your facade to the world. While others say you're an adult now. Inside you know you are not.