Blog, Blog, Blog, Blog. Writing has been a problem for me ever since.

It s too hard for me to write my thoughts and ideas. Naisip ko, writing must come more from the heart and from the mind but definitely not from Google. I used to share my opinions and perspectives about things different kinds of people and I guess most of my blogs will be all about it. This blog about the confessions and life of a teenage bisexual who used to live a simple life but then realized that there s more than hiding inside his closet. After all, chasing happiness has not been easy for him; he had a hard time dealing with people and obstacles. But then, he later on realized that happiness is nothing without hardships, without tears, without hopes and without dreams. Mahirap maging kakaiba, Mahirap maging bakla. Some people might say that Ginusto niyo yan, Deal with it without knowing Ano nga ba ang feeling maging different, maging bakla? Maaring sabihin ng iba na kalokohan, may equality na! But there s no equality at all. Gay people are not yet accepted here in the country, maybe when Gay people comprise 50% of the population (wag naman sana). I mean, what s wrong with being gay? Why is it so hard for some people to understand why gay people deserved respect? Well, I hope, after reading my blog, you finally realized that gay people needs your acceptance and understanding and your respect as well. 1. Some people underestimate your capabilities. - One of the hardest parts of being gay is that some people simply underestimate your capabilities. Gawaing panglalake lang ito some people believed that gay people can t stand any work that involves force and strength. Who said that gay people can t play basketball? Who said gay people can t be engineers? Who said that gay people can t be weight lifters? Well in fact most of the Guys that you ll see in Gym are Gays so BEWARE!!!!! Anyway, it s so hard for you to express your ideas and plans if no one seems to believe in your capabilities. Napaka-Trying Hard madalas mong maririnig sa mga taong hindi naniniwala sayo. Oh well, don t mind the haters. Just be yourself and show them what you got. Always remember, Bihira ang baklang walang talent 2. Criticism is your number one enemy - Criticism is part of being gay. Well ever since na ipinakita mo ang mga sintomas ng pagiging beki, Bakla, Bakla! ang number 1 na pang asar sayo. It s so hard to deal with this people lalo na kapag in denial ka pa. You re afraid that someone might call you gay in front of your parents. At the very young age, I don t know why do they laugh at gay people? What s so funny? Why do they think that being gay is bad? Is this because their parents said so? Poor kids, they re in the wrong hands. I admire kids with open minds. Taking criticism in a negative way will not make you a better person. Pinatunayan mo lang na tama lahat ng sinabi nila tungkol sayo. You have to take advantage of those criticisms and use it to make yourself better. You have to learn how to deal with criticism because you ll never get out of your closet until you finally grew some balls and face the reality that gay people are meant to be criticized. You still have the maleness in you, so use it as your sword to deal with the haters. Kung kaya nila, kaya mo rin. Lalaki ka pa rin

3. Gay People will die alone. HAHAHAHAHAHHAAH!!!! lang ang nasasabi ko kapag nakakarinig ako ng ganitong katangahan. Why do some people think that gay people will never find their lifetime companion? Pati ba naman dun may discrimination? Love has no gender. Who said that gay people can t find love? Katulad nga ng sabi sa kanta It s not about the money, money, money di naman lahat tungkol sa pera, ano kami bangko? ALALAHANIN di lahat ng bakla may pera, pero they have companions. Boy Abunda is a great example. He s been with his partner for almost 27 years. Hmm, Bobo nga lang ba ang nag-pauso nito o Inggit? To all the gay people out there, don t be afraid that you ll be left alone, YOU STILL HAVE YOUR FRIENDS. Treasure your friends like your own brothers and sisters. Uso ang mag-ampon, In time, matatanggap din ang mga baklang nagtatayo ng sariling Pamilya. To all the guys out there who believed that pag pumatol ka sa bakla, bakla ka na din , if you re really secured with your gender, you ll never be afraid to fell in love with a gay person. You ll never close your options, hence keep it open. Masarap magmahal ng bakla sabi sa isang jeje na kanta, Falling in love with a gay person will not make you less straight as long as you re secured with your masculinity. sa mga di pa secure sa gender nila, isang sintomas na yan. Sabi nga ni John Lloyd, INGAT! 4. Epic FAIL - Yes, FAIL! Most of the gay people out there think that they re a failure because they re born gays. Gay people really want to make their parents proud of them in spite of their gender, everybody does. Sometimes they feel like I m a failure because I m gay, and I ll never make my parents proud of me . Don t worry; gays have much more potentials than anybody else. You can always make your parents proud of you. Wag mong iisipin na magiging hadlang ang iyong kasarian para magtagumpay. Can you imagine the strength of a man and the mentality of a woman in one? You have lots of potentials and just like Katy Perry said in her song, just ignite the light and let it shine. Go girl!! Keribelles lang yan Te!! 5. Harassment - Well I guess today, bihira na lamang ang bikitima ng pang-haharass, but still, it s one of the hardest parts. They are taking advantage of your weakness. Masakit ang masaktan lalo na t alam mong wala kang ginagawang masama, ang mabugbog dahil sa gusto mo lamang maging Masaya, ang masapak dahil sa pagsususuot ng pambabaeng damit, ang mabastos dahil sa maikli mong kasuotan. There is this story that a gay student (in denial and discreet) was sexually molested by his classmates and teacher. The scandal was recorded in a phone and his teacher spread the audio record to his classmates via Bluetooth. The gay student has been humiliated. He was like a trash and I can t even think how did he manage to remain silent. He took that incident as his motivation to study hard and to succeed. He went out of his closet and hoping that one day, his classmates will realize that Heto na ang baklang pinagtawanan at nilait ninyo noon, tingalain niyo ako ngayon Most of you might not believe that it was a true story, but the point is, GAYS ARE BEING HARASSED. Gay s are not coward to the point that they can t even manage to defend their selves. They are brave

enough to say that I M GAY! What s wrong with cross-dressing? What s wrong with effeminate gestures? Why do they can t just allow them to be free, besides we re in a democratic country? For the guys, that s so immature. Alam naman natin na hindi mo na mababago ang isang bakla kahit na bugbugin mo pa ito ng paulit-ulit, so what s the point? Paulit-ulit kong sasabihin, All they need is understanding and acceptance. Kaya nga siguro madami nang bading ang nagpapalaki ng katawan, bukod sa mas hot ang medium built, siguro isa na din itong paraan para ma-defend nila ang kanilang mga sarili sa mga taong maari silang saktan.

6. Taking Advantage. - Hmm. Ito ang pinaka-karaniwang impression sa mga bading, ang manamantala. Masakit yan lalo na sa ibang hindi naman Gawain ang mag-take advantage sa mga lasing na lalaki. They have their weaknesses too, and that s men in sleep and drunk. It s so hard for them to control their desires and libido; it s all a matter of confidence and faith na hindi magigising ang lalaki sa pagtulog, at kahit man magising ay hindi na ito papalag. Wag naman natin lahatin. Alam ko at alam niyo na hindi lahat ng bakla ganito, they know their limitations and some of them can control their desires so you have nothing to be afraid of. Para ka lang napagbintangan sa isang kasalanang hindi mo naman ginawa, at masakit ang mapagbintangan. Please, don t have the wrong impression to a gay person. Well I can t please everybody to understand what I m talking about because some might have been chased by a gay person or yung iba, in-denial lang talaga, karamihan ng galit sa bakla na wala namang ginagawa, ay dahil bet mo siya or bet mo ang outfit niya!

7. Acceptance is really needed. - Paulit ulit ko ng sinabi na acceptance lang ang kailangan para lubusan mong maintidihan ang sitwasyon ng mga bakla. Why is it so important if pwede namang dedmahin? It s because if some people really understand how do gay people feels, they can be the instruments who will disseminate the idea that gay people should be accepted and with that many people will believe and be convinced that THEY SHOULD TREAT GAY PEOPLE FAIRLY . hindi namin sila matatanggap dahil wala namang ginawa ang diyos na bakla sila na nga ang nagsabi na diyos ang gumawa ng lahat, hindi naman pinagbabawal ang bakla sa simbahan eh, yung pakikipagtalik sa kapwa lalaki at pakikipag relasyon sa lalaki ang bawal. God is Love diba? Kelan pa pinagbawal ang pag-ibig sa kapwa lalaki if Love has no gender at all? I still believe that gay people are part of god s creation. If god really has the control to the world, at hindi niya ginawa ang mga bakla, bakit di na lang niya inalis lahat ng bakla noon pa? It s a sexual preference so god is not responsible for that, he allow us to decide for ourselves so I know matatanggap pa din niya ang kahit sino kahit na ano pang gender

nito. What s wrong with same sex relationships? Sabi nga sa isang commercial, Ang sarap kaya! Try mo!! Acceptance should start from yourself, from your family, then from the community. You ll never be accepted if you can t even admit that you are gay. You have the choice to be happy, everyone does, so don t be afraid to pursue what will make you really happy, no one has the right to stop you from chasing happiness.

8. HATERS - kahit sino naman ata satin, sikat man o hindi, hindi mawawala ang mga pesteng haters. We can t get rid of them, so simply don t mind them. Mapapagod din yan. Don t give them any reason to hate you more, give them reason to like you. Some gays are intimidating, either because they re so pretentious or they re so tactless. Yun naman ang mali, some gays are trying to be somebody but they simply can t. Some gays are so tactless and they feel so perfect and powerful to the point that they are stepping on someone else s pagkatao . They simply don t want to be overpowered, or they simply want to be noticed. Gays love attention; they always want to make their friends and people around them happy even making fun with other people. The reason why do they have so many haters is that they are being misunderstood. And some gays don t know how to get rid of the haters so pinapatulan naman nila. Ang pakikipag-sabunutan sa babae o kahit ano pang pisikal na pananakit ang pinakamaling gagawin ng isang bakla. Walang problemang nasosolusyunan ang pakikipag basag ulo, hindi mo ikakaganda yan o ikakayaman and besides babae yan at lalaki ka pa din. The best thing is to make friends with them or simply ask them why they hate you. Accept the fact that you are not perfect, stop all the pretense and hence just be yourself. Gay people want to be somebody. Bakla na nga sila, so gusto naman nila na kahit sa ibang paraan, tingalain sila. Wearing Gaga clothes is not a solution, neither hanging out in expensive places nor studying in expensive or exclusive universities. You can be somebody in so many different ways, having true friends, studying hard and graduate with flying colors or simply be yourself. You ll never be happy living in pretense. You don t have to be somebody anyway, being different is cool.

9. Self Creation is the hardest part - Napakahirap na gawin ang pagkatao mo pag ikaw ay isang bakla. Lagi mong iniisip kung ano ang tama sa paningin ng ibang tao kahit hindi ito ang makakapagpasaya sayo. Gusto mo maglaro ng Barbie, pero dahil lalaki ka, mali ito sa paningin ng tao. Lahat na ata ng Gawain may Gender. May gawaing panglalaki, at may pang babae, at wala sa bakla kundi ang mag-parlor. It s so hard for a gay person to be judged that he ll just be a parlor gay or hair dresser one day. Wala ba silang karapatan maging artista o maging matagumpay dahil bakla sila? Pati sa kurso mong gusto, hindi ka makapag cosmetology dahil Gawain ito ng

bakla o kahit fashion design. Why do you mind them so much? You ll never be happy with who you are if you ll depend on what will other people say about you. It will not make you rich or it will not make you less gay. You have to create yourself based on your preferences. Hindi porke bakla ay wala kang magagawa. Ang hirap buuin ang sarili lalo na kung sa palagay ng iba ay nangagaya ka lang. wow, ginagaya mo ba si Vice Ganda? FYI, gays have the same humor, so it doesn t mean that they are trying to be vice ganda. Some might be glad if they are being compared to a celebrity or to any one else without knowing that being compared is an insult. The question is always ano kaya ang sasabihin nila? but the question should be ano bang gusto ko? nakakapurga ang laging isipin kung ano ang sasabihin ng tao sayo. You don t have to think what will other people say about you hanggat wala kang inaapakang tao. Ang sarap sarap maging ikaw, yung tipong masusuot mo ang gusto mo, yung wala kang pakielam sa sasabhin ng ibang tao sayo, yung tipong ang masasabi mo nalang sa mga taong nakatingin sayo ay manigas ka kakatingin! - To all the guys who believed that pag pumatol sa bakla, bakla na din as what I have said, kung secure ka sa gender mo, hindi mo kailangang maging hesitant sa mga tanong na may pag-asa ka bang makipagrelasyon sa kapwa lalaki mo? what s so disgusting about it? Yung salitang pandidiri ay nanggaling sa mga taong may mababang pang unawa. Kung iyong iisipin, kung nung bata ka , hindi mo narinig sa kahit na sinong tao na mali ang umibig sa kapwa lalaki at wala kang naring sa kahit sino na nakakadiri ang same sex relationship,ano ka kaya ngayon? Asan ka kaya ngayon? I admire Guys who are brave enough to say I m straight yet I m open for same sex relationship. It will not make you less straight. No one knows yourself except you. Bakit mo pa kailangang magpa-apekto sa sasabihin ng iba tungkol sayo kung alam mo naman sa sarili mo kung ano ka talaga? Hindi mawawala ang mga totoo mong kaibigan na may malawak na pagiisip. Wag ka manghinayag na mawala ang mga kaibigan mong ikahihiya ka sa ganoong sitwasyon mo, Their lost is your gain. They don t even worth your time. I m not convincing you to have relationship with same sex, gusto kong mauunawaan mo na wala kang dapat ikahiya at ikatakot pag dumating ka sa puntong iyon. Hindi ito nakakabawas ng pagkalalaki, nakakadag pa nga eh, kase, as what I have said, YOU RE BRAVE ENOUGH TO FOLLOW YOUR HEART WITHOUT THINKING WHAT MIGHT OTHER PEOPLE SAY ABOUT YOU - For those who are still on the in-denial phase, this could be the hardest phase for them. Lagi nilang iniisip ang sasabihin ng ibang tao sa preferences nila, everything is limited. They have so many insecurities because they can t do things that gay people do. Some of them are ashamed when someone called them gay. Nakakainis ang mga in-denial. Sila pa yung pinakamadaming sinasabing panlalait sa mga bakla. On the other hand, I pity them, they re still inside their closet and can t even get out and say I m gay, and I m Proud 10. Being Gay, a choice and a responsibility to learn how to spare ourselves from humiliation. - Some people might say that being gay is a choice. Yes, it is a choice to be happy and free. But this choice is a responsibility too, a responsibility to learn how to spare ourselves from humiliation. Hindi ganon kadali ang lahat, bilang isang bakla, kailangan mong bigyan ang sarili mo ng kahihiyan, siguro ang lahat ng bagay ay may tamang oras at tamang panahon. Kung ikaw yung tipong mala-Lady Gaga manamit, hindi akma kung tipong sa mall mo ito

sinusuot o yung tipong nag-cocommute. Hindi ko sinasabing may mali sa iyong suot ngunit hindi lahat ng tao nakikilala at nauunawaan ka, besides, kung wala talaga silang fashion taste. Dress to express and not to impress. Ikaw na mismo ang nagbibigay ng dahilan para bastusin ka, pasensya dahil nasa lipunan tayo ng may mababang pag-unawa. Talagang napag-iwanan na ang bansa. May mga batas bang prumoprotekta sa mga bakla? Kapag ba sinabi ng isang bakla na siya y ginahasa ng mga lalaki, maniniwala ka ba agad o matatawa ka? Nakakalungkot na naging ganoon ang lipunan natin pagdating sa ganitong usapin. Hanggang ngayon may halong pandidiri pa din kapag may nakita kayong dalawang lalaking nag-holding hands sa mall. Ano nga ba ang mali? May dapat bang sisihin? Kung ganon sino? Lahat ng tao ay may kasalanan. Dahilan sa naging sarado ang ating pag-iisip at basta na lamang nagpaniwala sa sabi ng kung sino man, kung ikaw man ang aking tanungin na kung ano ang mali at masama sa pagiging bakla, malamang nasagot ko na sa blog ng ito. WALA WALA WALA WALA. Hindi ba? Maaring Oo, kasalanan din ng ibang bakla kaya naging iisa ang tingin ng ibang tao sa lahat ng bakla. Iba-iba ang lahat ng tao,hindi porke bakla, nangagapang, pineperahan, parlorista (samantalang marangal ang trabahong ito). Why did they have to pay for sex, well in fact you can get it for free? You don t have to rush things because you might end up disappointed. Wag ka kaseng excited te, para kang mauubusan. Dumadami na sila, wag kang mag-alala, STAY PUT LANG! Just keep this on mind, you re responsible for everything, so don t give them any reason para mabastos ka. Deferred gratification, postponed satisfaction, wag kang magpapadala sa emosyon, follow your heart pero wag abusuhin, pwede magi sip te,kaya nga may utak eh, patunayan mo sa kanila na di porke bakla ay bastusin, dahil kahit bakla ay pwede ring tingalain. Well I guess marami na din akong nasabi, spread the word. I m hoping that one day, wala ng tao ang nandidiri sa mga bakla at sa mga lalaking umiibig sa bakla. This is for the lesbian too. Happy reading, Rod Singh