I am a dreamer Who am I? I am a dreamer; Brave and free. I live in my mind, Where no one can hurt me.

I can do anything I want, And go anywhere I like, Here, I make up the rules And do as I please; The real world is numb to me. I can be anyone I want, No one tells me what to do, Because no one can reach me. And who am I? I am a dreamer CH I think they call it paradise A kiss, goodnight And the world is dreaming A stroke of my hair And I will never stop believing That somewhere Above all the thunder and rain Youre waiting for me Safe and sane With a smile on your face And your arms Wrapped around me In a tight embrace That smothers me Until I am in another universe altogether Somewhere I know Im safe Somewhere you are always with me I think they call it Paradise CH I wrote you a poem I wrote you a poem I know its not much

But its all Ive got I wanted to write you a poem Declaring my love for you I sat down at the table And expected it to just flow I wanted to write you a poem Declaring my love for you But I guess words dont do that I wanted to write you a poem That would make your heart flutter Or skip a beat But I guess words dont do that I wrote you a poem I know its not much But its all Ive got CH Inspiration From the look in your eyes Id say youre surprised This is not defeat on my part Im just standing up for my heart And this poem may be about you But you were not my inspiration CH Isnt it strange? Isnt it strange? How things change And rearrange And people go their separate ways But arent we all together As one Eventually? Isnt it strange? How people change And rearrange We find one another Than leave each other Though its comforting to know

That were all here Somewhere? Isnt it strange? How situations change And rearrange But theres nothing we can do because Were all stuck in the eternal dance of life Following gracefully though weve got no clue What to do About it? CH Only human I want to tell you I love you But Im too shy I squirm on my seat til I can take it no longer There has to be a way to get the message through to you Maybe a signal Or a sign? Can you try to read my mind? So I dont have to say the words out loud Of course you cant Youre only human I try to say it loud and clear So you can hear But all that comes out is a mumble Can you make sense of the words I mutter? Of course you cant Youre only human Cant you see it in my eyes? Do the words really have to be said? Why dont we leave them in a drawer? Untouched, unspoken Until one day we dare open it Oh for heavens sake This is all too much Cant you sense it in my touch? I love you, so dont blame me Nor judge me For Im only human

CH Live in the moment Stop thinking about tomorrow And forget about yesterday Dont worry about anything Just stop right there Frozen in time And live in the moment Because sooner than you think Everything will change And youll wish You were back here CH Loneliness Loneliness follows me wherever I go, I try to walk away He races after me He wont leave me alone I am his prisoner However somewhere deep down inside me I love him for he is my only friend I stare into his eyes But he doesnt meet mine I feel different I no longer want to be with anyone else I dont want to go near any other human He has worked his magic and now I am nothing but Another one of him I am loneliness CH Every aching moment Why is it That when Im with you Time passes by so quickly And then we are parted

And I spend every aching moment Away from you Wondering what youre doing Are you thinking of me too? Days pass by Yet they seem to stretch out forever My heart beats in longing for your Comforting embrace To feel the warmth of your body On a chilly morning But I must wait So in the mean time Ill just live every aching moment without you Until Im with you once again CH Sing the song you sang A lie Or two, will do no harm Until it turns into Three or four Five or six Until it turns into All that comes out of your mouth So talk, So act, So fake Inside my heart an ache That can never be healed A sore bruise I wish But now youve left me with a scar And though I know I can try To cover it up Itll be there forever more Your soul is black Your heart is ice Yet I wish I could love you one last time, And I wish you could do the same But now youre gone

Along with all my dreams So go So go Sing the song you sang that feels like a mile away But I wont listen A wall to dim your voice A thought to block your lies A feeling I once felt Now numb The life I once knew Now gone with you too So go So go Sing the song you sang that feels like a mile away To someone who will listen Not me Not me The pain I feel reminds me Of the memories of you The boxes And boxes Of memories I try to push to The back of my mind They wont budge So I let the tears run But I know youll never come. CH Sorry What else could I say but sorry? I know it is but a word, I meant it. I wanted to say so much more But all that came out was sorry And sorry was not enough. If I could rewind time I would; Hopeless. All I could say was sorry. The look you gave me; Ill never forget it. Ill see it every morning, And every time I go to bed.

Your eyes filled with pity, I had to face defeat. All I could say was sorry, and sorry was not enough. CH Sunshine You said there would always be Sunshine If one bothered to look hard enough You said, on a rainy day, Look for that sunshine But since you went away All my days have been rainy days And I used to try and look for that little glimpse Of sunshine But Ive given up There is no sunshine On a rainy day Like you CH The poem for you Always so afraid to lose you If I let you out of my sight And if you arent in my mind For even a second of my life You will disappear So you are always in my mind And always in my heart Locked in So you can never escape I think of you everyday That I live and breathe I really do believe I might never see you again If you arent wrapped in my arms And I miss you Always Even when youre with me

CH You Blazing eyes, When they meet mine My heart is tortured Tormented. Fiery breath When it hits me My skin tingles Burns. Smooth skin When it touches me I melt, Melt away You. When youre with me Nothing matters any more CH Gracious Goodbye Crowd silent The masquerade ends Remove our masks And see who we really are As I step off stage I give a gentle bow To all the expectant faces Because even losers deserve A moment to savour A moment to themselves So with a wave I bid them A gracious goodbye CH Mirror is no love of mine-perfection You see all there is But not that is good And you search for all the flaws That I wish to ignore

And Im never left at peace Always something wrong Like a mirror But a mirror is no love of mine And though you are cracked With flaws of your own You pester me With a perfect image That I dont have And fill my heart with longing Of what I wish I was But never will be Like a mirror But a mirror is no love of mine CH I need you A kiss on the cheek that dries my tears A smile to banish the worries till they all disappear A comforting embrace That settles my restless thoughts And when you go I am exposed To the naked world I had never known So why go? Stay, protect me My eyes wide open, eager to learn from you My heart melting with each day that I yearn for you You say you are with me, wherever I go Is that why I feel your presence, like a ghost? And I know no force of earth Could ever be strong enough To keep me away from you, Ever again. CH A thought of mine Words will never free me from what I tried so hard not to see It was always right in front of me I spent my life trying to find A way to ignore What in my heart I knew

would never leave. I tried to harm without hurting the thought that had made a home in my mind but I ended up hurting myself instead.\ CH Starting a new If humans were given the chance to start again, repeat the past would they avoid the hurt and grieve and all that may lay underneath? Would they still start the wars knowing all the pain it will cause Will they still hate and loathe letting too much of their emotions show? Would there still be hateful coldness, Would there still be the homeless? What about hurtful child abuse? Would there still be the spiteful and rude? But how about love and happiness Would we think it causes too much mess Why bother with smiles and songs Who cares about getting along? Would there still be holidays? How about relaxing, banishing worries away? Would humans still love their family or are relatives all they'll ever be? The human race is a delicate thing who knows what will set us off? But for all we know, it could be much worse So right now i'm happy with what I've got. (This poem is dedicated to everyone and anyone who's ever wondered what the human race would be like if we all had a chance to start fresh.) CH I'd always known

I ask you Why? Why must you leave? Is it to escape from here? You are a bird You need to fly Your wings, they must spread But are you not happy here? I knew you would never stay, Never stay with me, You are a wild stallion You could never be tamed You needed to be free Free like the wind I knew you would never stay Here with me, But I always hoped All the same. CH Insane I think I am just a little insane just a little odd but too far to ever return. I am mad I am weird but I am proud. I am what people are afraid to be, I am different. (We are all weird, don't be afraid to acknowledge it, and never be ashamed of it, because behind the solid walls we call our minds, we are all a little mad.) CH Stupidity The stupidest thing I've ever done was to let you go without a fight

The dumbest thing I've ever done was not letting you know how much you meant to me The thickest thing I've ever done was to leave room for doubt in your mind of whether it was meant to be The most foolish thing I've ever done was watching you slip away from me and doing nothing to stop it And the smartest thing I've ever done was to chase after you But I was too late. CH Secrecy I've got a secret, Would you like to know? A teasing, taunting, shocking Secret, But it's only for me to know. Because if I told you, What would belong to me? My naked, bare, public Mind, Stripped of privacy. Maybe I should tell you, Would exposing set me free? A peaceful, naive, oblivious World, But that's not reality. CH Life-Start to finish

Eyes, opening I see light. It blinds me, and I breathe It scares me. Now my eyes are closing, All I can see is darkness But I can think clearly I take my final breath, It comforts me. Because I knew, And I still know, That I was destined to die. As was I destined to live. But I was always destined to die. It hits me, like a brick. A thought that I guess I have always known Just never acknowledged: It always was, Right from the start, The beginning Of the end. CH Destruction of the heart Empty words Empty Promises With nothing to prove A world that's in wreckage Means nothing to you. Each blow that you aim Lands on my heart And each look you give me Forces us apart. With silent cries, Fall silent tears An endless hunt

Of recovering fears, A battle cry That summons corruption, With no one to blame For all the destruction. With no truth, We speak no lies So revealed In our disguise Without love We cannot hate, And If you still love me It's never too late. CH Tape and glue An endless void of broken dreams broken hearts and broken promises. And endless void of humanity. With so much scarred Can any heal? And if all is cracked All that is left is parts. Parts of what was, but will never be. So all I want to know, All I care to ask, Is when you come back from wherever you've been, Will you carry tape and glue? Will you fix What you broke when you left?

CH When he came He came with nothing but his smile, On the 4th of January. He told me that I was the one. A talking mystery. He whispered words carried by song, Such a perfect harmony. Then he was gone before sundown, But a memory. CH My life of contention Eye to eye, What does it matter? Playing this game, You think you are better. You make one move, I will always echo, You make another, But I will always follow. You haven't won, We've just begun, Now pay attention, This is my life of contention. I won't back down, I am not a fool, But I don't show emotion, I keep my cool. Who's to win, Who's to lose? What will benefit me? What to choose? You haven't won, We've just begun, Now pay attention, This is my life of contention. If you play my game,

You follow my rules, I will not compromise, You're destined to lose. I'm sorry that you were made to play, This god-damned, evil, unjust game. I'm sorry that, you meant no wrong, But I will play this game, for my whole life long. You haven't won, We've just begun, Now pay attention, This is my life of contention. (Maybe, love is just a game.) CH Forgotten. Again I think that you've forgotten, what restrain really means, I think you've left it open. Again. I think that you've forgotten. Again. You've left your heart wide open. For anyone to steal. It's soon to be broken. By the next pretty girl you meet. You leave yourself right open, Vulnerable and small, Innocent, you fool. You're a lover. You love like you breathe. Why can't you see? You're an idiot in love. A love-struck idiot. An idiot with a heart wide open. Yearning for a kiss. Just a smile is bliss. But I think you've forgotten, what restrain really means, I think you've left it open. Again. I think that you've forgotten. Again.

CH Earth can't break me Mountains, So tall, so wide Can't keep me From leaving your side. Oceans, So deep, so blue, Can't keep me From loving you. All the things, That I thought I knew, That I thought I, Understood. The things that I, Could make sense of Like why and what and who and when. Like eternity, Or infinity, Both forever words, I could've guessed. Now they've changed, Their meaning quizzed, Now they're crazed, With fortunes gold. They tell the tale, Of all I've known, And all that's left, Yet to be told Humanity, So dark, so cruel, Can't stop me From protecting you. Night, So hidden so discreet Could never blind me, From where you wait. Wait for me, I'll wait for you, Through all eternity.

Infinity. I'll wait, and I'll hope. Hope and wait For you. CH She Hair as ocean blue, Each strand a crashing wave, Majestic as the currents Swiftly blown away. Eyes burning with fury, Glistening with flames, She sees no good, But knows no bad, A fire of the reign. Lips as sieving as sand, Thick as structure shells, A beach of golden bliss, Which she only knows too well. Mind, the soil stand, Growth with every rain, Dirty, grit you are, But a flower all the same. Feet as light as air, Weightless without strength, But do not be fooled, She's vicious and cruel, The strength is all in her head. CH Goodbye Papi In a room, trapped I want to scream Everyones crying Weeping, sobbing The coffin beside me Almost hidden beneath flowers and petals Is not empty But he who lies inside it,

Is. For without a spirit or a soul How can one be alive? Though he is here. That I am sure of, But it softens each blow no less A kiss, perhaps a touch On the meaningless wood Only hoping that the love would seep through A hand on my shoulder A kiss on my cheek Shaking Another second passes Or was it a minute, An hour? The coffin is being taken away I whisper goodbye For the last time (This poem is dedicated to my grandfather. May he rest in peace.) CH Youre: My secret cave, only I can explore My earth, I am cosy in your core My bubble wrap, keeping safe and protected My friend, I know Im never neglected My ocean, all alone but sane My cloud, above all the thunder and rain My mask, keeping me hidden and discreet My pod, and I am your pea My sky, comforting yet unknown My place, somewhere I can call home (this poem is dedicated to my mother) CH Beautiful Opponent Beautiful opponent, Your heart, it soars, Happiness of gain, With the glory it is fed.

Beautiful opponent, Your laughter, it sings, Like church bells from a distance, Letting me know someone is wed. Beautiful opponent, You run like a gazelle, Leap after leap, But I know you can fly. Beautiful opponent, You smile like world peace, From ear to ear, Then eye to eye. Beautiful opponent, I know you like to win, Competitive, you are? I heard it was true. Beautiful opponent, I'd love to watch you win, But you are my rival, And so I will defeat you. CH Time I can plead, Try I cry? But Time Will not stop. Dont you know? Hell never stop. And I wait, But Time is passing, Hell go on without me. For he waits for no one. Time, he continues

On his never ending journey. He will not stop, He will not wait, Time is independent, He relies on no one. When Time is of the essence, All he does is laugh At all these pitiful humans, Who depend on him. Because Time, as Im sure you know, Hates to be, Predicted. CH Expectations of a crowd High expectations, The bar, I cannot see, To further for height, Never shall I reach. Climbing on the ladder, Fingers crossed I shan't fall, Its not purpose that decides, Its the glory of it all. Wonder after daydream, Leaving destiny to choose, But in game you aren't playing, Fate says you shall lose. Empty handed at one's doorstep, Chance has it you won't get in. Proof that you won't make it, Evidence you'll never win. When someone expects you to be someone you're not, all you can do is let them down. CH The Peer Knowledge she feeds on, Her greed is of glory, She finds herself hungry, When others back down.

Alone, Aware, She sees more than Eyes ever could. She knows more than I ever will, That's why she likes to Smile. A victim of her, Is what I may be, She knows I am careful, Cautious. I am also an echo. She knows I am taken, With all but an invite, She knows I am flying With all but a lift. I asked her, She said "Maybe". The question, I don't know. Willing, take it granted. Assure is left to see. She is doubt-free, Came prepared, All I have is my wits, I am soon to be killed, By the Peer Of Peer Pressure. CH Bitter Sweet Love You're a joke. It's absurd. I curse the day you born, It dumb-founds me That someone like you, Can live the life that you do, And I hate you for it, All the time. You're a queen. It's absurd.

I rejoice the day you were born, It dumb-founds me, That someone like you, Can steal my heart like you do, And I hate you for it, All the time. It scares me, That someone like you, Can affect me like that, Just by doing what you do. I hate you, Yet I love you. I guess that's why they call it Bitter sweet love. I bitter sweet love you All the time. CH What am I Crazy-something all the time, People curse me in day-light, They never care to take a look, They read me like an open book. But what if writing could tell lies? With each word untrueWould it still be despised? Crazy-something all the time, People curse me in day-light, They hate me when I'm in despair, Admire me for what's left of theirs? Volume up or pause or play, Life a remote, each scene a day. Crazy-something all the time, People curse me in day-light, I'm not false if believes say yes, What am I, can you guess? CH The scales They say love is the only way forward, Our jewels can be our hearts. Goodbye is the hardest way, To bid each other a depart.

But if our life were a balance, Our choices; the weight, Would the decisions we choose, Be as secure as our mind has made? And if one could wish a wish, Would we wish for love? Money, fame, beauty, peace? Would love just be enough? I think that its more than that, We think too highly of ourselves, Surely its about the fame, Joy balanced out by wealth. I guess that's how humanity is, We judge ourselves as a pact, But all in all, at a moment's call, We'd rather opposite that. ch This naked love Our love did somehow in somewhat make it, It was the type of love that patrolled around naked. Never ashamed of who ever walked by, It was a love harnessed by you and I. We worshipped it, as it led us by, Through thick and thin, our love survived. This naked love, not polished nor groomed, Was a leader of love, with age it did bloom. This naked love stood solid ground, Saw the good in whatever bad found. This crazy love, silly maybe, But not stupid, nave only. Young in heart, young in soul, This naked love was a blessed fool. A mistake? Never, of this I am sure, This love was as true, right from the core. I remember this naked love with no regrets, It was naked love Ill never forget. CH Leaf on the ground Head bowed, To the concrete floor of dismay, With shame in your tracks,

Like a print of your past, And a hole in your mind, That never seems full. Look up, I tell you, Look up at the sky, So blue. Look up at the world, Looking down on you. Look up at the clouds, Gliding swiftly through the air, Like a knife, but slow, As though not to hurt. Look up at the beauty, Marvel at its soul. Block out the grey of All that is bad. Look at the green, And the red And the brown. Like the leaf that Sits on the ground. I couldn't help myself either, And I picked it up. CH The tale of love A hurtful pint of devoted souls, Each's story left to be untold, The world at hand means nothing to thee, Only for true love set her free. Spirits drift away to find, Lost in endless no-mans land, Their hearts a bliss of wondrous venture, To seek refuge in their adventure. With smiles that put mad dogs to peace, A bullied soul of dying bliss, A crazy dream thou mistook for truth, Now lost in innocent mind of youth. She weeps among the cotton bed, For dreams that she shall never wed, Would thy believe what thy was told? Her heart here made of solid gold! The men from here on far and wide, With promises of dress in white,

Could none carry such a heart, With each fail bid thee depart. Empty souls stood no chance, But help it not they still did glance, And marvelled until dusk did fade, At the silent weeping, broken maid. The answer of their trek was clear, With not an ounce of doubtful fear. Such a story scarce be told, With such an ending to unfold, But maidens' hearts can thou re-deem And lose itself to those who dream, And heaven be told of such a tale, When empty true love can prevail. And empty true love thou did find, The tale of love forever to unwind. CH All my loves Tell me, because, the truth: I don't know what it is. That makes me so weak In the knees, when I see you. I once was afraid of you. No longer. You said: "ah, we meet again." I'd love to meet again. You know I would. Eternity, you are gorgeous, Still I am unsure, You are confident, And it pains me, To see you pass a smile. Because darling, when you smile, It sings like all good I've seen. Beautiful, strong, you string me along, But I don't mind, Not with you. Maybe this, perhaps that, What do you prefer? I've had my eye on you, Can't you tell? I love you, it's so clear.

From your lashes to your hair. To your eyes, to your voice, To all that I see, And I know. Love, stunning, you know you are. Of all you are my beauty. My heart does little cartwheels, Whenever you are near. It pains me when I see you, Not with me when I'm with you. Your laugh, it sends shivers, Right to the core of my heart. I love all about you, I really couldn't live without you. No, I'm serious, Not even if I tried. Like-wise, my heart, Your voice, oh when you sing, Your music, oh, so sweet, Melodic and pure, Like your heart, I am sure. I see you on the cover, And I know that I am under, You know that I am willing, As long as I'm with you. CH Mirage Sweep me away, To the ends of the earth, So I feel breathless and content, And then take me by the hand, And lead me to a place, Youve never shown anyone before, So I know That you are More than just a Mirage. Kiss me on the lips, Slow and passionately, So I feel breathless and content,

And then take me by the hand, And lead me to your home town, A place quiet and reserved, Where we can be alone, So I know That you are More than just a Mirage. Hold me close to your body, So warm and relaxed, So feel breathless and content, And then take me by the hand, And lead me into sleep, A place gentle and exciting, But always wake me up, So I know That you are More than just a Mirage. CH Me to you Beautiful. Everything new, Because you're here And I want to hold you Forever. You are the hope In a dark world of Perspective. CH Child no more Cosy, safe, As though unborn. A child, innocent, Eyelids shut, Not a worry. Stepping into the Outside world With the cold sharp wind

Nipping at the end of your ears, And the tip of your nose. Finger tips blue, Glances behind your back. Bag hanging tightly By your side. Thoughts of home In each step, As you walk out, Into the unknown. CH The search-incomplete Sometimes I feel Like I am missing a part, But not in my heart. (This is not to say, That love is not welcome) Its something else That I yearn for. Perhaps its just a friendly face On a broken day, Or a tight embrace Making everything ok. But I don't think its any of those, Its really more than that. Maybe its puberty? A search for my identity? Am I lacking emotion? Is it the fear of defeat, That keeps me on caution? I am still looking For something, Something that'll complete me, I feel a little empty. I'll tell you when I find it, And I will feel whole.

CH Moving on Like salt on the open sores, Or alcohol on the cuts, When you said goodbye, Well, it hurt the most, But at least its for the best. You said 'See you round.' That's the last thing you said. I remember with dread, As you turned away And left. I got so caught up with life, I guess I forgot to look twice, Then lost in my fantasies, 'Cause it seemed so real to me. Yet I still long to Make you smile, To make your day, A little more worthwhile. Is that so wrong? Stuck on a page of moving on, Perhaps not stuck, but clinging on? Though I know I should let go, After all, its for the best. Though that doesn't numb the pain, Not one bit. CH Immigrant Questions, All questions, 'Who are you? Where do you come from?' She wants to be left alone, To mourn and To hope. For anything, she hopes for, Anything's better than this.

People, they don't care, They don't care for who she really is, They just want her to feel different, To feel unwanted. She's lost too much, Seen too much, She knows too much. Her family, her friends, Everything she's ever known. Teachers try to show they're kindness, But they just make it worse. No one understands her, No one ever will. Where is everyone? Everyone she's ever loved. She thinks all is lost. How can one have a future When the past keeps getting in the way? So she prays, In the dark, Hoping for a way out, Hoping for the peace of mind She'll never find. She thinks it's over, Being an immigrant. CH The crave "Help" She whispers in her sleep "Help" She says, and the angels weep. They know just how much woe she hold, With tragedies she's scarcely told. How can one claim her content? She lives among life's cruel dent, Sunken deep, she's seen what's in, She knows too much of lies within. The victory, too precious for time, The wicked words beneath each line. How can one claim her untrue? Pure maybe, but destined for crude. The hate, the grief, is it all worth, Just to experience numb to Earth? "Help"

She whispers in her sleep, "Help" She says, and the angles weep, They solemn service to the craved, But oh how wonderfully crave was made! CH Cries for humanity She cries for hunger, And angel prayers, She cries for peace at mind. She cries for crisis, She cries hatred, And for the love she'll never find. She cries for gain of loss, And for the loss of gain, She cries for world peace, And for death and crime and pain. She cries for all humanity, You may oh, wonder why. But does it really matter When it feels so good to cry? CH Knowing Tormented, Tortured eyes, Youve seen too much, Too fast. You know things, Not ever, One should ever know. We leave such things to those Who like to control, but not to please. You tell me to stay away, But how can I? Knowing youre still here, Waiting. Wishing. Hoping. I want you to know, That I could never hate you.

I love you, believe me. Though Ill bet Youve heard that line before. Beautiful, So fragile, Just the tiniest touch could fracture You, and your broken heart. Know that I only want to mend. You tell me its too dangerous, That Im playing a game with no rules, That Im not safe. Well, how can I care, When Im in love? CH Terrified Huddled up by her chest, Arched like the moon's crest, Pink faced, plump, pinched and flushed, She holds a river of pride, soon to gush. A giggle, perhaps a cautious grin, Alighting up the joy within. "Wake up, my beautiful baby girl, Wake up, you and I, we shall face the world." She shivers, for she is terrified, But she looks at each struggle with open eyes, Her breathes's are shaky, her hair is wild, But she tries her best, for her newly-born child. CH Please listen People, Take a look in the mirror, All you see are destined winners, Not a heartless, broken soul, Oh no! Why such lies be told? I too used to know you as winners, But now all I see are frozen sinners, Who don't know any wrong from right, Like children from a different height. A tantrum with every 'No' Stubborn as far as it does go, Selfish, power you are greedy, Yet bib and bottle, you are needy.

It's all so clear, you must be blind, We beg you, leave the past behind! Forget what's all been said and done, Forgive all who lost and all who won. Behave! I plead with knee on floor, With your arms outstretched, you must have more. We see it all, the futures bright, Embrace, harmony, we see the light. People, Please listen to us. We are the next generation, We are the future. People, Please keep us in mind. We see it all, you must be blind. Please listen. CH Just to please She likes to please, The pleasure of giving, Is all that she desires. The world is her opinion, Our voice is her perspective. Sometimes I ask her, "Why can't you understand? You know, living's a tonne more Worthwhile, If you get to shed a tear, If you get to hate the worst, Don't you see?" She smiles at me, Like I have a lesson to learn, A fable in the making, She slowly shakes her head. "Oh, I see, But don't agree, I'd much rather just be loved. Why hate? Why cry, If you can easily rise above? I am tough, I can survive, Without complaining all the while. I can smile, why not smile?" But smiling is just an action.

I can try to convince her, But trying doesn't confirm. She'd rather live her life agreeing. Well, that's all she'll ever earn. CH Seeing past the obvious I could try to write a masterpiece, Of rhythm and of rhyme. To make you see a new perspective On the simple things in life; Like how a tree is more than just that, It's the mother of a fruit, It's the heart of a forest, And the crown of land. Or how a magpie isn't just a bird, It's the queen of all sky, Black and white, Oh how she flies, Like she could rule the world. Or maybe how a drawing, Is so much more than just a sketch, It's the brush of a pencil, Each line with care, The force, the position, As it glides on the paper. I could write a poem, On each and all these things, In hope that you could, See past the obvious, And come to know The beauty of life. I could write a poem like that, But there's no point. Nobody would listen. CH Insecurity She looks through the window In hope of beauty there But she sees only her reflection, And pain smudged with despair. She believes it's fate

Chasing an endless daydream Little does she know It's but illusion she sees. A crazed heart's desire Of one she'll never know Because you don't get anywhere Chasing your shadow. CH Straight from the heart You know, There are times, When I curse love And its cruel fate, Times when I wish I could rest, Without my heart aching, No wonder its breaking. Its hurts more and more, If but an everyday thing, To hear church bells ring In my ears, When I see you. Some poems take time, Each moment for rhyme, And a moment for pauses And hesitation. And some poems come from somewhere, Of which I do not know But somehow they just flow, And they hate to be denied. Burning to be let out, They scream and yell and shout, Arms flailing wild, Like a stubborn child, To be acknowledged. This poem, I tell you, Comes straight from the heart And somewhere else Where my sensations are stored. So fists clenched as

I watch you walk by, With an air of defeat, Knowing youll never be mine. And I think with despair that Youll never read this As I read it now, Never see it As I see it now, Never believe it As I do now, But I promise: It comes straight from the heart. CH They say They say he wanted a never ending story, But that was too much to Hope for. And with crushed expectations, He bid her farewell, And this is why he mourns. They say that he was quite the lover, A handsome lad as well, They say in his time, He was well in his prime, A star among skies Ive heard. They say she came along, And oh, she stole his heart, Tough fellow to love struck, Just his stroke of luck, That he could do nothing about it. They say she was a beauty, Fairest in the land, Light to the touch, And fragile to the hand. They say he was hooked, From day one to unknown. But they say she was not committed, She was born to be free, And he let her slip through his fingers,

Like sand. Then she was gone. And this is why he mourns. CH Out of grasp You were like a petal, Soft to the touch, I yearned for you so much, But I knew that if I tried, You would crumble. Too delicate, Too fragile, Like a butterfly's wing, I could not hold you, You were too precious, And just a little Out of my grasp. I longed to brush My hand across Your cheek, But darling, you looked so weak, And you were just a little Out of my grasp. I wanted to whisper in your ear, That I was here, And ready to hold you In my arms when I had The chance. To love you, I would never fail, But darling, you looked so frail, And you were just a little Out of my grasp. I wanted you to know, That you were not alone, And that I'd adore you for my Whole life long, I wanted you in my embrace, To kiss your precious little face, And hold you tight, But darling, you looked so slight, And just a little too far Out of my grasp.

CH Betrayal's wrath Night-time is a cloak, To hide what's lost and gained, A blanket of shame, To cover the blame, Of history's unnamed. Blood-stained hands, And tear-stained faces, Flashes of despair, Fury against fair, All of all disgraces. Let us drink to joy, And let us drink to wine, But a hint of the know, Wherever one may go, A reminder of past's time. So the people, they smile on, Oh, and the Gods still laugh, But in Earth's core, They know you're done for, Feeling betrayal's wrath. CH Banished Away from everything I've ever known, And anything still to be, All that I may smile on, Lost for an eternity. Darkness tries to blind me, With it's cruel and vicious ways, Fear, I dare not let it find me, Or else a price to pay. Following a single thought, With no piece of mind, A journey of betrayal I lead, And guilty hands I dare to find. I know not where I'm going,

Nor what I seek so for, But one thing I am certain of, I can go back no more. CH Something so perfect Like a dream; Easily forgotten, A distant memory, Always a little, Too far out of reach. Willed to be present, But not committed, Always occupied and oblivious. To question, Would mean to reveal, And with something so perfect, Just to live is enough, And if doubted, It shatters like glass And you wonder Whether it was really there at all. CH What is reality Reality Is not existence, Nor to exist Or to be. Reality is what we Hang on to When our dreams have failed us. Reality is what we turn to If believing not enough. But to live in reality Is to live in a second Of truth and lies and stillness When everything around you Is moving.

CH Eye of the beholder She looks in the mirror And she doesn't see What everyone sees But her. Skin, trapped in forefinger And thumb; She doesn't know What everyone knows But her. "Leave yourself be, Why can't you see? Take a moment and breathe Just a moment. Look through the eyes Of one who doesn't despise, Please see through the lies That smother your thoughts." But she doesn't know, She doesn't see it, She doesn't realize What is all too clear, Reflected back at her From the ageing wall. She is oblivious; She's tricked herself into Believing otherwise. She doesn't know That she is beautiful. CH I wanted to let you know You are my shooting star, My wish, breathtaking, I've come this far but You are each move worth making. My companion, reminder, You are what's said and done, You are the start of something, You are what hasn't begun. I know the truth of reality

May come too much to bear, But remember in your darkest times; I will always be there. Before you came I thought I knew What happiness mean to me, But since you've arrived, I can't deny Your divine and true purity. Perhaps it sounds a little too clich, To say you are my Romeo, So instead, you are my heart and soul. I just wrote this to let you know. CH Maiden's maze See you that maiden All dressed in black, Slumping with exhaustion, Of that weight on her back? Has she no aspirations, Drained is she of hope? Does she wing her life Balancing on rope? As she walks along I see In her step there is no hop, In her voice, no song, But her journey never stops. Awaiting a prince, is she? Does she mourn for a lover? Is she trapped in embrace, Promised to another? As I look far beyond, To the stars and the sea, I think: aren't we all just maidens Lost in our fantasies? CH Blood-red roses Falling over in lust, Curling up with loss, You are a nightmare I never want to wake up from.

Tear-stained kisses Of pain and bliss, How can I live, Like now, like this? You torment My peace And pleasure My insanity. I cannot live, As such. How can I face you, When all you see are Blood-red roses? You are a saint And a sin, A taunting mystery, A painful misery. Can you blame me, When all you see, Are blood-red roses? CH Skin I should have known that Forgive and forget Comes with regret. What's done is done, But if I could rewind time, Believe me, I would; If only I could. I've tried to Dry tears Of a memory, But how to heal When skin tears? What if it tears us apart? Skin is only so thick And it tends to let us down; We can't hide behind it When glory fails to be found.

If it is skin, Pulling us apart; Tearing like paper, Breaking like a heart, What are we left with? Blood and bone, The core of unknown? And it hurts me to see The skin tearing If all that is left Is pain. If skin Pulls us apart So much that we dread Each day and breath, Then all we can do, Is let the wound heal, And hope that it doesn't Leave a scar. This poem is dedicated to my best friend, with whom I had a bit of a a whole 'situation'with regarding a certain Kyle. I regret it to this day. I promise. CH Hidden I see you when You want to be invisible, And I can spot you From a mile away. I see your face, And I hear your voice; The desperation Behind the White noise. Every smile you fake; I see it, And I know just what you mean, So when you hide your face Behind your hair, You couldn't be more obvious To me. I don't blame you for shining Brighter than the sun,

It couldn't be more clear to me, That you want to be Hidden away. I'll take you by the hand, And lead you into life, Just open your eyes, And your heart. Follow me into the light, And show the world what You can do, Prove to us why you're here. I can see you so clearly, And I wonder why They never could. I guess they just didn't try. CH Just that girl A blind gaze Is no match For a freezing stare, So shoot me Because I am a dreamer. Nightmares not so Far away, I feel no fear at Break of day. So damn me, And send me to hell; Curse my existence, Turn all heads away, But don't hate me. Hate is wasted on the numb. CH Smoking kills (Haiku) Blade to lip Awaiting death, You can crack the timer But the clock still ticks.

CH Out to get you Sometimes it feels Like the world is against you; Each stumble and stare Is aimed like a bullet, Every mindless glare Is semi-closed and alight. Sometimes it feels Like someone's out to get you, By any means and anyhow. Adrenaline with no one to blame, False accusations with none of a name. With fingers pointed at the sky, Just remember That we are human. We can do no better, But we know no worse. CH A depressing Christmas poem *Attention! Contains major usage of dry and bitter sarcasm* Its Christmas day! But just a day, Just one day, Hip hip hooray. What about the festive treats Like scrumptious Christmas feasts? Ho hum dee dum Yum. Let us celebrate! Celebrate what? Crowded streets of busy shoppers With money to burn and throw away? What difference does Christmas make to us? We still have our darn bills to pay! Merry Christmas to all! That's sweet, but no. I shan't be enjoying this wintery snow. And to all a good night!?

Well really! As such? I've got work to do, Thank you very much! Not all of us fly In sleighs pulled by deer, For Christ's sake, you only Work one day a year! 'Tis the season to be jolly! Oh really? I thought it was winter. My bad. I congratulate Scrooge, A warm pat on the back! Pity he 'came to his senses' And had to give back. Bah hum bug, And blimey. Hiddly diddly, Christmas is silly, Ho ho ho. What a depressing Christmas poem. CH Nothing left Arms out-stretched, But empty handed; Her fingers are scarred. CH A hunger for glory A coiled snake Across his face, From eye to eye, A grin. He can see far beyond Anything Ive ever seen; He knows far more Than I ever have. Like a predator, He seeks his goal, And like a cat; He leaps.

With blood on the ground; His victorys found, A need he cant control. A thirst for glory, A crave for triumph, And a fear of defeat. But hungry was he? I was his meat. His tracks so blurry; But to him they were clear, He was determined. He had only one fear. Ambitions; crystal, Hed sworn to prevail, His only anxiety Was that of to fail. CH Rubble bird There the bird sits, On an isolated tree, Singing a sweet tune, A rhythmic melody. The branch that rests In No Mans land, Of muddy ground And gun in hand. Still she sings Above gun fires Still she chirps Above battle cries She still whistles Above anguished yelps Of man against metal, And metal against man. There she sits On her isolated tree, Singing a sweet tune, In a world of animosity.

CH From being to being To hold her in your hands would mean to feel The fragile flutter of her heart racing, A trapped bird soaring towards what is real, Unaware of the trouble its facing. She claims as to show no deceit or grin, Yet beneath this is anything but true. When one is losing is when she will win, When one is winning is when she will too. Shutting amber eyes as precious as stone, She lives within the most content of sighs. Secretive, but wanting to be well-known, She can only live with her own disguise. Yet if all considered, and all confessed Her in my life means Im nothing but blessed. CH When the lights come on Misery; the tears I cry, Slowly drain awayLike water down a plughole Or waves retreating from the shore, Destined to return once more. Misery; the hand I hold; Too tight a grip I have, But bricks they are, And never far, I know that I cant fall. Misery; the blood that spills, Gushing from my heartOozing through my mind, Leaving my thoughts stained, And all ambitions drained. Misery; so bitter-cold; Smirking in the dark. But wait till I find the light, I swear that itll shine bright: Again Ill see the splendours, Of such a vibrant life.

CH Humanity is noise. Then clinking of metal on metal, The lost sigh of a done day, The rustling of papers; On a worn out desk, Or hopes and dreams being blown away. The gulping of humiliation, The roaring of defeat; A battle cry, Echoing in the distance, And the marching of soldiers feet. The clicking of a camera, Fingers tapping on the wood, Knives slicing, Stone crumbling, Humans are misunderstood. When silence ceases to exist, With every moment sound destroys, Feel no fear, Its all too clear: Humanity is noise. CH Fallen Crowning the foul roots Of a once vivacious tree, Lie seared leaves of war. CH Death by skyline I see a building, Dullish in dawn, Black of night sky, And yellow with mourn. Looming shadows, Like with all that do sin, Alone in a jungle

Of solid chagrin. Unwanted, rejected, With no one to blame, Bitter in mind, Reddened with shame. Who to make such a building? Who to think up such a thing? When anger it provokes, And misery it brings. CH On the edge of sanity On the edge of sanity; It's hard not to let go, When there's a world of Smooth sailing, beckoning below. Living in a world of complications, I see no other way, Through blinded eyes I seek A reason I should stay. Too many troubles fraternize With the being of my mind. With the slight slip of the fingers, I could leave them all behind. So on the edge of sanity, I open up my heart, And bid farewell to reason, As we slowly part. CH We are the dancers We are the dancersWhen hope ceases to exist, And courage fails to resist, When dread leaves us weak and frail. Or fear threatens to prevail;

We dance for all we're worth. We are the dancers And when we move, The world is sane, Problems unnamed, We feel no shame, Ignite that flame. We can't be tamed; When we dance. Because we doBecause we are.